Levi and Chelle
#3 of High (School) Hopes
Warning: This contains adult material. Please be of age.
Copyright Mar 2010 by Arnorflame
Jack woke up early the next morning, still warm in the arms of Levi. He lay there, unwilling to get up, just listening to the sound of Levi's breathing. The bear didn't snore so much as he rumbled. Jack could feel it in his chest, synchronizing his breathing with the sleeping bear's. Something about this felt the way it was supposed to. But he knew that they didn't belong as anything more than best friends. Jack also thought that it was enough, that he and Levi were in a kind of love that wasn't romantic. The breathing behind him came to a snorting halt as Levi woke up behind him.
"Jack?"
"Yeah Lev?"
"Are you okay?"
"Shouldn't I be asking you that? I'm the gay one, last night wasn't a jump for me sexually. It was a move for us emotionally, but of course I'm okay. I wouldn't have wanted last night to happen with anyone else. But I hope we can still be friends. Um...can we?" Jack turned around to face Levi, a nervous look on his face.
Levi shifted and stared into Jack's eyes, silent for a moment. He couldn't figure out how to proceed with this conversation.
"I couldn't ever imagine not being friends with you. You're a part of me. You know that we're going to be friends no matter what happens, no matter who we become, no matter where life takes us. I don't know how you could even question that, especially after what happened last night. But I will need you today. I have to tell Chelle. I can't be with her without her knowing about what happened between us. I can only hope she can forgive me."
"Forgive us? I'm sorry. I never thought about her last night. I never thought about the damage this could do." Jack began to tear up, trying hard not to cry.
"Jack, it's okay. I thought about Chelle. But I wanted what happened last night to happen and I don't think that if you made me choose again, that I would choose any differently. You shower first, I'm going to work out. Naked like usual, so no lustful gazes."
Jack seemed to cheer up a little at the joke,"Tempting, however we do have school and I'm pretty sure we need to come up with some sort of plan for telling Chelle."
Jack headed to the shower as Levi peeled off his boxers. Levi noticed the absence of a boner (the first time in a long time), and wondered if something inside him had been satisfied by last night, something that hadn't been satisfied by his relationship with Chelle. Levi went through his paces, made much easier by the lack of wood (however he didn't know where to stop with his push-ups, usually he had such a handy tool for measuring). As he finished up, he headed toward the shower, still naked. He opened the door to the bathroom and saw Jack brushing his teeth, naked. The bear lumbered up behind the dog and gave him a big hug.
"We're okay."
"Are we Lev? Or are you trying to convince yourself of something?"
"We're okay," Levi let go and tousled Jack's head hair. Jack's tail began to wag, involuntarily.
Levi hopped in the shower. "What am I going to tell Chelle, Jack? How am I going to explain this?"
"Levi, we can tell her together. If you want, I can take the blame. It was my fault. I shouldn't have slept with you, I could have slept on the floor."
"Jack, I made the choice last night. You need to stop feeling solely responsible for it.
"Fine. I have no idea what to say to Chelle though."
They sat in silence as they thought about what might happen with Chelle. Levi tried to ignore the nauseating feeling in his stomach. He finished up in the shower and got out, Jack was sitting on the toilet, waiting. The bear hugged the dog again, "You'll be there, won't you?"
"Of course I will Lev."
They packed up in relative silence. Jack couldn't help thinking about how warm Levi's body had been and how happy he had felt. Jack knew that no matter what he told Levi about their relationship, it had changed. He also knew that he couldn't ask Levi to leave Chelle. He couldn't tell Levi how he felt. Trapped. Alone, even. Even last night, the closest he had ever been to Levi, left him thirsting for more rather than satiated.
Levi had similar thoughts. He couldn't get the thought of Jack's firm ass out of his head. He felt guilty every time a thought of Jack arose, but the guilt could do nothing to stop such things. Something dark had arisen in him the night before. A primal beast, the anger of his ancestors, the wild bears, thrumming in his blood. He had felt not only lust but something deeper still, a bond without name. It was not the sexual hunger that he felt for Chelle, not the appreciation he had for her wits, her looks, and her friendship. But he didn't feel love for her. He had thought that it would build, when they were together long enough, but she was nothing but a close friend and lover. He wished he could forget what had happened between Jack and himself, but anytime he closed his eyes the furry backside, culminating in the long, sleek tail, came into his mind.
They left the house early, climbing into Jack's beater which he had come in the night before. Jack slid silently into the passenger seat, throwing the bear the keys, knowing how he loved to drive. Levi moved the seat back and hopped in. He started the car and revved the engine before pealing out of the garage, much too fast for the inner city speed limits. He sped the way to school, cutting the regularly ten minute drive down to seven, an impressive feat due to morning traffic. They parked. It took some time for Levi to calm down, then they climbed out and walked to the Wall.
The crew was waiting, Mike and Sherry madly making out while Tony and Chelle were lost in conversation. She looked up as they came closer and Levi tried to catch a glimpse of something in her eye, something that would make him forget last night. He found nothing. He quickened his pace and pulled her into a deep kiss, hoping that something would arise in him. It did, he was consumed by lust, his cock swelling in its sheath. He found it easy to kiss her, something totally different than what occurred with Jack, but something was the same. It produced the same effect in him, the same swelling in the sheath, the lust inside raging to escape through the path of someone else. For the first time he found that sex was what he was seeking, not a particular gender. He found a great pleasure in knowing that the dark part of himself was finally unleashed. Some part that neither cared who or what was the cost, as long as his hunger was sated.
They broke and she looked at him, confused. "What was that?"
"Something that I should have done a long time ago."
She looked angry now, her passion turned to hurt. "I am not your toy. I have a reputation, Levi. What the hell has gotten into you?"
"Chelle, I have something to tell you. But it can't be done here."
"Okay, tell me at lunch. We'll take a walk."
The day passed slowly for Levi, thoughts of what he was going to say to Chelle burning up his head. He couldn't concentrate on the Chemistry exam and walked out of it feeling as if he failed. He didn't talk much to Jack and the pup seemed to know that he needed space. The polar bear even almost broke down in English, his favorite class, when listening to a presentation on Shakespeare's Othello. Just before lunch he headed to the restroom, feeling extremely sick, and ended up emptying his stomach. He walked to lunch with Jack, his stomach still in knots. They walked into the room, the noise of rambunctious students pounding on Levi's senses. Then the room seemed to grind to a halt as he saw Chelle, staring at him with a look that conveyed nothing but uncertainty. She took his hand and they left the building, not speaking. The eyes of Jack followed the pair, more nervous than ever, alerting Tony that something was amiss, something the new kid hadn't caught in their fight that morning.
"It's bad."
"Why do you say that? You have no idea what I'm going to say Chelle."
"Really, Lev? Do you think I'm an idiot? I know that the kiss this morning was more than a kiss. I felt the desperation in your lips. You attacked me and left me feeling like less of a person and more of an object."
"I'm sorry."
"I don't need an apology Lev. What's wrong with you? What happened? You look like you're about to puke."
"I already did." Lev's voice grew quieter. "I have to tell you something. Something about Jack."
"Like what Lev? Like he's gay? Because you don't even need to hold your breath. It's obvious, it has been for a while. How about that he likes you? Oh hon, that's black and white, too. I really don't think there's much you can tell me about Jack that I don't already know?"
"How about that we hooked up?" in his quietest voice yet.
The sound of the slap surprised him first, then it began to sting. The worst part was that he knew he deserved it and much worse. He couldn't bring himself to lift his head and meet her eyes.
"Look at me, Lev." The voice was colder, almost distant, obviously no longer worried about him.
He lifted his head slowly. Her eyes were clouded, the way they got before she cried. She was struggling to stay calm. He couldn't imagine what she was thinking.
Michelle's thoughts came rushing forth like a waterfall. All the doubts she had had about his fidelity because of his football popularity. Her nervousness when they were together in public, feeling like she was somehow not good enough for him and everyone knew it. And this thing... this confession. And with Jack. She didn't know where to go, whether to cry and scream or remain calm and try to straighten things out.
"What do you mean hookup?"
"Like details?"
"Yes, Lev, details. I need to know what happened. Is it going to happen again? Is he the only one I should be worried about? Do you even want to stay with me?"
"Umm...well we didn't kiss. He had just come out to me. I had no idea, even though I told him I already knew. We were going to bed. You know we always sleep in my bed together and I wanted him to know that this didn't change things between us. We climbed in and he tried to stay away with me but I pulled him close to tell him that I wasn't going to abandon him. Anyway he popped a stiffy and I just finished him off. I don't know what came over me. I felt hungry, hungry for him. We're best friends and this just felt like a completion. I told him this morning, that nothing was going to come of it. I told him we were still friends but that we couldn't be more than that. He knew that Chelle, he knew I still wanted you. He said that he didn't even have feelings for me more than friends."
"He lied," she hissed.
"All the same, that's what he said. I don't know about anything other than I want to stay with you. The kiss this morning still gave me a boner. I wanted to make sure we still had it. And now I know I still want you."
"You don't have a choice in the matter anymore, you fuck. You are a dirty animal, Lev, and I need a man." She turned on heel and walked back toward the building, quick and angry, as Lev began to cry.