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My life is going well now. I have my practice. I am an Internist. I graduated Med School and residency at the age of 20. I'm 23 now and I've been in practice for three years now. My best friend, Dr Nigel Davenport practices with me. As does my Med School mentor. Dr Emil Brunner, a German born Atlantic Walrus. Nigel is an English born Honey Badger. We met in Med school, he was on a scholarship, but his Dad was working three jobs to keep him here and supported. I got him to move in with me and took over the costs of his schooling. We're just that close. I love him, but am not 'in love' with him. Nigel's smaller than me. 5'9" and 165. (I'm 6'4" and 225 pounds) His fur is Black with a couple of White stripes on his head and his back has a wide Honey Tan strip down it that runs down his tail too. He's the classic pretty boy type. Nige's funny, and warm and smart. I wouldn't ever want him not in my life.

Me, I'm an African Lion. Dr Claude Marcus Kitman II. I was named after my Paternal Grandpa. My Dad is J.T. Kitman. CEO and owner of CMK Industries. A huge conglomerate. You'd be almost certain to have something we've made in your home now. Food products, appliances, electronics, to car parts and cookware. You'd probably know Dad if you saw him. He's pretty well known. CMK is in the Fortune top 50 companies. Dad's single now. Momma died 5 years after I was born. My older brother Rory Micheal Kitman, takes after our Maternal Grandpa, Dr Walter C Russell. And he's a big Polar Bear. Rory's 7'2' and 330 pounds. He has Dad's Sapphire Blue eyes just like I do. Rory's 2 years older than me. And he's Dad's COO and he's so good at it it's almost scary. Rory's 25 and he just bonded a Beautiful big Grizzly. Teddy Mitchell runs a little Gay bar. The Bear Den. And I spend a lot of time there. I'm the rarer Lion bottom and very popular with tops. Especially the big males that turn me on so much.

Rory hangs out there a lot keeping Teddy company and I do too. But I'll usually go home with someone. I'm a slut, I admit it. I'm always being told how attractive I am. I don't believe it myself, but males seem drawn to me, and I am a great bottom. I have Golden Tan fur with a Red Blonde mane. I have Dad's Sapphire Blue eyes and I have a broad and open face. I have big foot paws and forepaws. My tail tuft is thicker than most Lions. I'm stocky but not fat. I do work out a couple of times a week. I'm not a gym rat, but I have good definition. And I get hit on at the gym a lot too.

Dad and Nigel and Rory and his Teddy live in the big house I bought when I came out here from Alabama to go to Med School at Sacramento State University. There are a few more animals living here with us too.

My PA, Nate Porter, a Snow Leopard and his Russian Bull mate, Yuri Petrov live with us. Their apartment went Condo and I let them move in. Nate's smart, good natured and happy and cheerful. Yuri's a big weight lifting Siberian Bull. Yuri's got the sweetest personality you could hope for. A true gentle giant. And he's got a big heart, he'll do anything for someone he loves. He and Nate are a very tightly bonded couple. When I do find a mate, I want him to love me like Yuri loves Nate. I've had sex with Yuri and he's such a tender and gentle lover. Big dicked. 16". Yuri's Gray furred with short thick Black hair, and goatee. And amazingly beautiful Crystal Blue eyes.

Also living with us is the owner of the gym Rory and I go to. Sam Montoya and his Oscar Perez. A pair of huge Castilian Bulls. Sam and I are almost always hot for each other. We'll rut as much as we can. Sam is a big Bull. 7', 380 pounds of Brown furred Bull muscle. His hair and goatee and hoof tufts and tail tuft are Black too. His hair and goatee have a thick White stripe running through the center of them. Sam's got Deep Blue eyes too. Sam's got a big dick. 18". And he's a bit aggressive of a fuck, but he lights me up big time. He gets famished after sex. He loves that I'll get up and cook for him. Even if he's been fucking his Oscar. I do it because it makes him so happy. He'll look at me when I serve him his food, and he smiles so brightly and his ears will twitch. (Bulls do that, means they're very happy)

Oscar Perez is smaller than his Sam. Oscar is 6'7" and 300 pounds. Sam was his Coach. And Oscar retired when he kind of ran out of weight lifting titles to win. Oscar's eyes are a beautiful soft Blue. and he's a gentle soul. He's funny and warm and has as much passion as his Sam. But much softer in nature. He's a great fuck too. He finds it funny how into each other Sam and I are. And he's told me he knows I care for him too, and I'd never try to take Sam from him. He's right, I know I probably could. But I know, deep in my heart, I could never love him as much as Oscar does, and I love him too much to make him settle. And I don't know that I could live with the guilt of breaking them up either. (I won't get my happiness at the expense of taking someone else's. I was raised better than that.)

My mentor, our partner in our practice, Dr Emil Brunner is living with us too. He bonded a guy I introduced him to. Mack Carter, a smaller Lion who works for Dad as an Auditor. Mack is like me, one of the rarer Lion bottoms. Emil lived with his brother and his brother did not want him living there with Mack. His brother has kids. Emil was looking for a house of his own. And Nigel and I talked him into moving in with us. Emil was reluctant for one reason. He loves Mack so much. But he's always hot to get up my ass. I know he and Mack have frequent sex. Emil's a horny Walrus. But he's still always after my ass. We had a torrid affair when I was in Med School. We first fucked in a linen closet at University Hospital. He was kind of overcome by me and he pulled me into it and kissed me. His paws were all over me. And we kind of fell on each other and rutted for a while. Emil is an amazing lover. Passionate and lusty. And very aggressive when he goes for his nut. In his passion when he first came in me, he sunk one of his tusks in my shoulder. Hurt but it wasn't a bad wound. He felt bad, but I was surprisingly OK with it.

I finally sat down with Mack and explained it all. Emil and I , like Sam and I are hot for one another. Mack thinks it's as funny as Oscar does. And he knows Emil loves him more. With my Walrus mentor and I it's just sex. And Mack tells me after Emil's fucked me, he'll be really hot for his own Lion. He's not about to stop us from getting together since he benefits and he knows Emil loves him and not me. We go together to Emil. Emil then relents, and he's happy at our house. He loves the pool and hot tub. And he's riding with Nigel and I to work. He's happy now with his life. Between Rory, Teddy, Sam, Emil and Yuri, let alone the guys I pick up at the Bear Den, I'm a happy and very sexually satisfied Lion.

I took Russian in College, because I found it interesting. I am fluent in it. Reading and writing it. Yuri's happy I am fluent in it. He'll come to me when he needs help with English. I'd do anything for my Yuri. And I know Yuri will for me as well. I'm really lucky. Dad, Alfred, Rory, Sam , Nigel, Oscar, Yuri, hell even Nate, they all love me and will help me when I need it. I"m a very lucky Lion in a lot of ways, and I know it.

Dad's been gone a lot of late. Rory and I think he's dating someone and spending a lot of time with him. He's not talking about him so I wonder if it's someone we know. Or if he's afraid we won't approve of him. But he's pretty happy these days. He's a lot more even tempered and it's been months since I've had to get into a roar off with him. So I just leave it all be.

One Friday afternoon, I'm surprised when Jeanine, my Lynx receptionist tells me that there is a Dr Edward Stryker here wanting to see me without an appointment. I tell her to have him come in. He looks nervous. He sits. I smile at him. "So, Dr Stryker, what can I do for the city's best Infectious Disease specialist?" I ask smiling. He smiles. "Call me Edward, if I can call you Claude" he says quietly. "Fine, Edward, now what can I do for you?" I ask. He smiles. "It's kind of personal" he says. I smile. I'm a bit confused but I figure if I wait he'll tell me.

"Claude, I don't know how to tell you any of this" Edward says softly. "Just be honest with me, Edward" I say quietly. "I've been dating your Father, he didn't want you to know, but I think we could bond if he'd relax a bit" Edward says. I sit quietly. Edward is a beautiful Saber Tooth Tiger. I know of his professional reputation. He's warm, and funny. And he's scared I'll disapprove of him and Dad. I'll give him that, he's worried, he must really love Dad. It's so Dad though. He's so scared of losing Rory and I's love. He should have done what he's always expected us to do. Come to us and tell us of his love and let us meet his mate. We love him enough that if they're happy, we'd approve.

"Edward, you have to know who we are, and how much we have, I'm going to assume that's not why you want Dad to bond you" I say smiling. "I know who he is, and I also know, he's a sexy Lion, funny, smart, and a wonderful lover, I know how much he loves you and Rory, but I think he already loves me, he's just afraid of how his sons will react" Edward says. "Edward, you're probably right, Dad's always been a bit private about his sex life with us" I say quietly. "Rory and I knew he's been dating someone, and he's been happier than I've seen him in a long time" I say. "You came to me to tell me, you must really love him to face me like this" I tell him. "I do, Claude, I love him so much, and I ache to be with him when we're apart" Edward says quietly. I smile at him. I can see it in his eyes. He loves Dad, and he needs him too. He's as honest and genuine as I am. (Egotistical Lion that I am, I can understand him, I'll help him any way I can. And I know what to do, I've been handling Dad since I was a tiny cub. If Rory and I double team Dad he'll be helpless to argue. He loves his sons a lot.)

"Will you excuse me while I make a phone call?" I ask. He nods. I take my cell and I call Rory. "Is Dad there too?" I ask Rory. "He is" Rory says. "I need a favor from you, Bro?" I ask. "Yeah, this sounds good" Rory says laughing. "It will be, it'll make Dad happy" I say quietly. "You know who he's been seeing?" he asks. "He's here in my office, I know him by reputation, and he's more than worthy of Dad" I say softly. Edward sighs and smiles. He looks relaxed.

"Who is he?" Rory asks. "Dr Edward Stryker, he's a good Doctor, kind and gentle with his patients and much loved by them, I know of his reputation, and he came to me, Dad won't try to bond him, Dad's scared we won't approve of Edward" I tell my older Brother. Rory laughs. "Sounds like something you'd do" he says. "Is he worthy of Dad?" Rory asks. "He is, wanna talk to him?" I ask. "Yeah" Rory says. "It's my older Brother, and he'd like to talk to you, Edward" I say handing him my phone.

He and Rory talk a bit. Edward hands me the phone back. "He's sounding like he really loves Dad, Claude?" Rory asks. "I think he does, Rory, a lot, he came to me to plead his case, he misses Dad when they're not together, I approve of him for Dad" I say quietly. "I do too, Bro, what do we do?" Rory asks. "Go up to Dad's office and then call me, we'll tell Dad together we want him to take Edward as our Step Dad" I say. Edward is quiet a minute and then he breaks out in a big grin. "Jim will be mad I came to you, but he'll be glad you approve, I know he loves me as much as I love him, he's just terrified of losing his boys' love" Edward says. "Rory and I would never stop loving our Daddy" I say smiling. "He's right, we couldn't not love Dad" Rory says. "I'll go up and call you, Bro" Rory says happily. He hangs up.

"Claude, thank you" Edward says gratefully. "I'm touched that you loved Dad enough to come to me, you had no idea how we'd react, it shows me how much you do love my Dad, and I want him happy" I say softly. Edward tears up.

"He'll be mad" Edward says. "He forbade me to come to you two and tell you" Edward says. I laugh. "Never worked with us, forbidding us only made trouble" I say smiling. "I know, it's why I want Dad faced with Rory and I's acceptance of you as his mate, he'll grouse a bit, but just remind him of how much you love him and needed him to be yours, he'll cave and calm down" I say smiling. "You do want me with him, it's more than I could have hoped for" Edward says. "I know you love him, I could see it in your eyes when you told me how you ache for him when he's away from you" I say quietly, and I take Edward's paw. Edward smiles. "Edward, he's a bit afraid of loss, he only recently got over losing Momma, and he's terrified to lose me or Rory, just keep that in mind, he's afraid of losing you too, he must have felt cornered and that he couldn't win at all." I tell him. Edward looks thoughtful.

He takes a beautiful Emerald and Diamond ring out of his pocket. "Jim gave this to me, but didn't want me to wear it in public" he says. I smile. "It matches your beautiful Green eyes, Edward, that's so like Dad" I say. And I show him the Sapphire and Diamond ring Dad gave me for my last birthday. Edward smiles. "Dad's an old fashioned Lion at heart, he knew how it would make you feel, but he was scared to upset us" I say smiling. "You've seen neither Rory nor I are upset by this" I say smiling. "Put it on, Edward, wear it proudly, it's a token of how much he loves you" I say quietly. Edward grins. And he puts it on. "My Dad loves fiercely and strongly when he loves, he'll keep you happy Edward, and I can see how happy you'll make him" I say quietly.

My phone rings. I answer. "Claude, what the Hell is this?" Dad roars. "How dare you hide your love for such an amazing Saber Tooth Tiger from the sons who love you so much, and want you happy?" I snort. Dad's silent. "How do you know?" he says quietly. "Edward came to me, as he should have, or you should have" I say firmly. "I had forbidden him from doing that" Dad snorts. "You should just forget that word Dad, doesn't work with Rory nor I , and it doesn't work with Edward, he was really scared, but he was honest and straightforward with me about how he feels" I say. Dad's quiet. "Dad, either you take him or I will go find someone worthy of him who will" I snort. Dad laughs. "My Boys know how to back their Daddy down when he's being a butt head" Dad says softly. "Way too much practice at it" I snort. Dad laughs.(With me it's a credible threat, Dad knows of all the couples I've set up who've gone on to bond)

"So you and Rory think I should take him?" Dad asks. "I do, he's smart, warm, funny, a brilliant Cat, and he loves you so much" I say. "He came to face me, not knowing how I'd react, knowing you didn't want him to, and you should have seen his face when he told me how much he aches for you when you're not with him" I tell Dad. "He said that?" Dad asks. "I don't lie, Dad, you know that" I say quietly. "Is he still there?" Dad asks. "He is" I say and I hand Edward my phone.

I turn away from him and look out my office window. I can hear them talking. Edward's crying now. Dad just apologized and begged Edward to take him. Edward has told him yes. I take my phone back. "Dad, talk to Rory, I think you owe Edward a nice romantic trip right after you bond him" I say. Dad laughs. "Rory just said the same thing, he'll watch the store while I take Edward to Hawaii for a honeymoon" Dad says softly. "My boys love me so much and want me happy" he says. "Dad, Edward is perfect for you, brilliant, handsome, and he's going to look great on your arm when you go to those fancy functions for CMK" I say softly. "He will" Dad muses happily. Edward is so happy now.

Dad asks me to give him my phone back. I do. Edward's talking to Dad, and weeping. He hangs up. "I have to go back to my office, Jim's coming soon, we'll go to Hawaii after we've bonded" Edward says. "Good" I say. I stand up and I hug Edward. "Welcome to the family, Dad's a complex Lion, but he loves you a lot, we're glad you'll take him" I say hugging him harder. "Just know, I'm not calling you Mom" I tease him. Edward laughs. He kisses me and runs out of my office.

I tell Jeanine to send in my next patient and I go on with my day. On the way home I tell Nigel and Emil about Dad and Edward. "He's a very hot Saber Tooth, I've consulted with him and he's brilliant and very sexy" Emil says. "I'll hope your Dad will open bond him" Emil says lustily. I smile. "He will, he's too fond of Nigel's ass not too" I say laughing. "Good" Emil says.

We get home and Emil goes looking for Mack. I go to my room and strip. I go out to the hot tub and soak a while. Emil comes out and he's not happy. "He's not home yet" Emil says. I smile. "Rory isn't either and he rode in with him" I tell Emil. Emil's looking at me. I know what he wants. He wants me to give him some tail. "I'd guess even though Mack isn't home, you still want some Lion tail" I tease Emil in German. He grins. "Please, Liebchen" he says softly. I smile. I get up out of the tub. I lay on my back in the grass. Emil's out of the tub and on top of me immediately.

I take a minute to look at my Emil. He's an Atlantic Walrus. 6'5" and about 290 pounds. Dark Mahogany fur. His short hair is Dark Brown as is his beard, and he has some gray in it. Nicely built with a pot belly. His Deep Blue eyes show how hot he is for me. His paws stroke me gently. As his dick stiffens up. He's 16". Nice length but very thick. I put my legs up and he slides up me. He kisses me deeply and those tusks make me hot as they push gently against my lips and muzzle. He's hot, and he's moving slowly and gently. He always starts that way, but to cum, he'll have to bang me hard and fast. But he's always loving and gentle at first. I wrap myself around his big body "Claude, thanks, I needed this" Emil murrs. "I know, baby, I love it too" I say softly. He grins. "Can I?" he asks. "Go for it, Big Walrus" I say. And he begins to deep dick me hard and fast. I yowl as I arch my back and cum on his pot belly. "Squeezing me, Liebchen, you must want my cum now" he growls. "Never not wanted it, I'm under you as often as I can be" I moan. He bucks and roars and I feel him gushing into me. He pants hard and looks into my eyes. I can see so much feeling for me in them. "I know, Emil, I love you too" I say. Emil grins. "I love my Lion, but I will always want you too, I love you, Liebchen, you've been so much to me, protege, friend, lover and I'm proud of you and how much you care for me" Emil says softly. I kiss him. "I know my life would be worse without my Walrus." I say quietly. "I was afraid, but I'm glad you and Nigel talked us into moving in here" he says softly. I hug him.

I hear laughter behind us. I look over his shoulder. Mack's cracking up. Emil gets up off of me and he tackles Mack to the ground, pulls his clothes off and mounts his own Lion. And they fuck hard. I get back into the hot tub and I relax. But for the first time, I start wondering about finding a mate myself. I'm not lonely, but I'm about the only one here not mated now, except for Nigel. And I start thinking about what I'd want in a mate. As macho and gruff as Sam, as caring and loving as Rory, smart like Dad and Edward. I want someone to love me like Rory loves Teddy and Yuri loves Nate. I want a male to dominate me like Sam does Oscar, I know I'm submissive by nature.. I've got quite a checklist going by the time I hear the intercom go off. Alfred's announcing dinner.

I get out of the tub. I dry off. I'm glad Alfred's relaxed his no nudity in the common areas rule, as I'm not in the mood to dress. I stroll in and sit at the dining room table and I eat. Yuri and Nate come in and I'm a bit embarrassed. I'd forgotten Yuri had invited his older brother, Dmitri Petrov, and his mate, Dr Grigori Petrovitch to dinner. Dmitri smiles at me. I'd dated him a bit before he bonded Grigori. "Katya still so beautiful" Dmitri says smiling. "I'll go put something on" I tell Dmitri in Russian. "Not on my account, I hope" Grigori says in Russian, and smiling deeply.. I blush."We make Katya feel comfortable" he says and he strips. Dmitri and Yuri do too. I blush.

"Dmitri, he's stunningly gorgeous, I've never seen a more beautiful Horse" I say smiling. Grigori blushes. Grigori is a beautiful Horse. A big Clydesdale. Chestnut Brown coat, White stripe between his eyes running down his muzzle. His mane and tufts and tail are a Dark Chocolate Brown. And he has a Black and Chestnut Brown mottled dick. His eyes are an amazing deep Emerald Green. And he's big. 7' and 300 pounds of gorgeous horseflesh.

He's making eye contact with me. "Katya want Horse?" he asks smiling. "Oh hell yes" I say. Dmitri laughs. "He good bottom, he loving too, no just fuck, give of self too" Dmitri says. I kiss him. 'I'm glad you remember me so fondly, Big Bull" I say grinning. He's looking into my eyes now. "Katya want both?" he asks. Grigori looks at me hopefully. "Oh yeah, Dmitri, you are an amazing lover, and I'll bet Grigori is too" I say softly. Grigori kisses me. "Want you much for while" he says softly. Yuri grins.

We sit and eat, and we chat, it's a good dinner. Rory sits down and eats quickly. "Going to see Teddy?" I ask. "Yeah, things are slow and he's called me, he's kind of lonely" Rory says smiling. "He loves our Polar Bear" I tease Rory. Rory smiles. "It's fine cause I do too, thanks for backing me up with Edward, Bro" I say. "He came by Dad's office and I met him, he looks at Dad like Teddy looks at me" Rory says smiling. "I knew he really loves Dad, they'll be happy" I say. Yuri looks at me. I explain what happened today. "Papa Jim got his Saber Tooth" Yuri says happily. Rory and I look at each other. "You knew?" Rory asks Yuri. "Da, I knew, Papa come talk to Yuri, Yuri tell him, go see his boys, Claude and Rory only want their Papa happy" Yuri says. I smile. I lean over and kiss him. He grins.

Rory looks a bit put out. "Bro, Dad loves Yuri, and Yuri loves Dad, but he's not his biological son, I"m not surprised Dad went to Yuri, and it all worked out" I say softly. Yuri's ears twitch. "Katya love his Yuri" he says softly. Rory ruffles Yuri's hair. "I wasn't mad, just a bit hurt, Dad could go to you and not us" Rory says. "Papa Jim really scared his boys no want him with his love" Yuri says. I know how Dad is. He knew he needed to talk. And he knew Yuri loves him enough to listen. I'm not surprised and I hope Rory really isn't upset with poor Yuri. Yuri would do anything for Dad. And if Yuri thought Rory was really mad at him for talking to Dad, Yuri'd be heartbroken. Our youngest Bull is a big hearted one. And he's a bit sensitive to how he's thought of by those of us he really loves.

Rory finishes and goes off to dress and go to the Bear Den. "Katya still want us?" Dmitri asks. I nod. They pick me up between them and carry me off to my bedroom.

They kiss me as they lay me on the bed. And they both lick and nuzzle me all over. I'm moaning. I pull Grigori down and kiss him deeply and with full tongue. He murrs and he leans into the kiss. And he and Dmitri are stroking me all over now. We take turns kissing. "Who you want first?"Grigori asks. "Dmitri have him, Dmitri's Horse take him first, he no wear out, want us much" Dmitri says. I smile. "I do, I will take you as many times and when ever you want me" I say softly in Russian. Grigori grins. "You much beautiful Lion, Dmitri say you date him, he took his Horse instead of gorgeous Lion, he must want his Horse much" Grigori says smiling. I smile. I know how he meant it, and I'm not going to get upset. "Katya take Horse Cock before?' Grigori asks. "I have, Beautiful Clydesdale, I love Horses, I love Horse Cock and I love how you guys fuck" I say smiling. Grigori murrs softly. Dmitri's smiling. "Claude such good bottom, respond so well" Dmitri says kissing me.

"How would you like to take me, beautiful Grigori?" I ask in Russian. He grins. "Katya follow his top, do what top want, still cum all over his top" Dmitri says stroking my mane. "I always did with you, Dmitri" I say softly. Dmitri smiles softly at me. He knows I was fond of him, and a bit disappointed we didn't bond. But I'm happy he got Grigori. He's quite a Horse.

"Up on knees?" Grigori asks almost shyly. I pop up and get on my knees and I lift my tail for him. "Katya have such beautiful ass" Grigori says smiling. He runs his hand all over my butt cheeks. He pushes his finger gently into my asshole. I moan. His thick finger feels good. He's testing me. I know he is. "No hurt Katya" he says quietly. "I know, Grigori, I could see it in your eyes, you'd never hurt me" I say quietly. I feel him put that wide, blunt, flared Cock head against my ass ring. I look back. He looks a bit frightened. "I know you won't hurt me" I tell him. He looks unsure of himself. I push back on him and I don't stop until my ass cheeks are resting against his sheath. He's moaning and cussing in Russian. Dmitri is laughing. "No all up someone, hot, tight Lion take Grigori " he moans.

"Grigori, fuck me, give that big, fat Horse Cock to me how you want" I growl gently. Grigori is not small. 19" and ramrod straight. He begins fucking me with long, deep strokes. He's nickering almost constantly. "Katya tight, still squeeze Grigori," he moans. I wave Dmitri over to me. He's rock hard. His Brown Bull dick is not as big as Grigori's but big enough. Bull dicks are very similar to Horse Cock, cylindrical and with a smaller domed head. I love Bull dick as much as Horse Cock. Dmitri's 16" and he murrs as I deep throat him. "Katya stuffed at both ends" Dmitri says laughing. I loved how playful he was during sex. "Maybe my beautiful Russians will meet in the middle of me" I tease him. Grigori is sweating a lot. Horses do during sex. It soaks my fur and his musk makes me hotter. I yowl and cum on the bed as Grigori speeds up in me. "Squeeze so hard" Grigori moans and he whinnies loudly and I feel him flare in me and I feel the contents of his huge ball sac empty into me. He pants and he kisses me. "Katya take his Horse good" he says proudly. And he kisses Dmitri too. He pulls out of me and his Horse cum spurts out of me.

Dmitri pulls out of my muzzle and he moves to take Grigori's place quickly. Dmitri gives me his usual tender and loving fuck. When he's flared and cum in me, he gets off of me they take turns fucking me for a while. I'll suck and clean off the dick of the one who's just finished in me while getting fucked by the other one.

After a few hours, we're all kind of sated. They both kiss me. And go shower together. I'm happy. I 'm sexually satisfied now, but I'm lonely. I see how much they love one another. I want someone to accept and understand me like Dmitri and Grigori do each other. Dmitri sits on the bed. "I'm kind of envious, you love him and accept him as he is" I say softly. "No happy if my mate no happy" Dmitri says softly. "Grigori's happiness more important to Dmitri than he own" Dmitri says. "Grigori feel same for his Bull" Dmitri says. "Dmitri, thanks, it helped me clarify something in my head, but I know when I do mate I want us to be like you and Grigori" I say. Dmitri tears up. "Katya see how we love, want for self, hope Katya get, he deserve such love" Dmitri says kissing me. Dmitri dresses. Grigori comes out and he dresses. They both kiss me and they go looking for Yuri.

I'm kind of restless and lonely now. I shower and decide to dress and go to the Bear Den. I'll hang out with Rory and Teddy for a while. Not horny so I won't worry about picking someone up. I put on jeans and a T shirt. Not even tight jeans. Just want to relax and not be alone now. I go to the living room. Nigel asks me where I'm going. And I tell him. He asks me to wait and he'll dress and go with me. Dad and Edward have left for Maui already. They won't be back for a week or so. Nigel runs and gets dressed. When he comes back out we go to the Bear Den.

It's fairly quiet for a Thursday night. We sit and talk to Rory and Teddy for a while. I go to the piano Teddy bought. He knows I'll play if motivated, his patrons love it when I play or sing. I just play some classical pieces for a while. And then I play and sing a bit. But they're songs of loneliness mostly. And when I sing "He'd Give Anything to Fall in Love" Rory looks kind of worried for me. He walks over to me and sits. I can see his concern for me written on his face. He puts his big White furred arm around my shoulder. "Bro, you seem so sad now" he says very gently.

And we talk. I tell him of having a lot of fun with Dmitri and Grigori. But how their love for one another made me wish I had someone. "Baby Lion, you get lots of sex, and Teddy and I try to keep you feeling loved, Sam and Yuri do too" Rory says. "It's good, but late at night, I'm all alone, and you two belong to one another, like Sam belongs to Oscar and Yuri is Nate's" I say quietly. "I want someone to love me only, I want to still fuck others, but I want to see someone look at me like Edward looked at Dad" I say quietly."Or like you look at Teddy, I'd love to have someone like you to love me" I say quietly. Rory completely fits the criteria Nigel and I came up with for what I want in a mate. But he's my brother and I couldn't mate him if I tried.

"Claude, give it time, you're still young, you just haven't met your bond mate yet" he says softly. "I know all of that, Rory, I'm just lonely in a way I've never felt before" I say quietly. "It's like all of a sudden a very important part of me is missing" I tell my big Brother.

Rory kisses me and walks back to Teddy at the bar. He knows I'm beyond comforting. He knows me so well. I have a moment of feeling bad for Rory. He loves me, I have no doubts about that, and he tried so hard to reach me. And on some level, I know I'm not yet ready to be reached. He could see how badly I was hurting. And he tried. He really did. And usually it would have worked. I'd know he loved me, and I'd try to fight this mood off. But this is so different. (I do know I'm feeling sorry for myself now, but I'm not going to admit it, even to myself) (And my feeling lonely, and feeling sorry for myself is about to get much, much worse very quickly)

I look over. A big, buff Palomino Horse is sitting with Nigel in his lap. I know him. He works at Sam and Oscar's gym. Ed Kolinsky. He's a big built Palomino. 7' and 340 pounds of solidly built, stunningly beautiful Horse. His coat is Golden Tan, and his mane, tail and hoof tufts are Almond colored. His goatee is a bit more Off White. And he has amazing Blue eyes. Piercing and sexy. I've had him. He's got a Black and Off White mottled Horse Cock. And he's as big as Grigori down there. He's an amazingly tender lover too. I wanted him but we didn't bond either. He could have made me a happy Lion I think. I know I'd of given my all to make him one happy Horse. He's bright, and warm, and funny, and so damned gorgeous. I feel even sadder for Ed and all the others who would have made me so happy, but whom I could not bond.

They look hot for each other. And I see Nigel kiss him. And Ed whinnies. Nigel just fainted into his arms. "Damn" I moan. They bonded. All of those around me are finding love. And no matter what I do I seem to be meant to be alone. I know Ed will take Nigel to our house when he wakes and he'll probably move in. He lives in a crappy apartment with three roommates. And he'll want to live with his Badger. I know he'll want to fuck me at times too, like we always have. And he's a great guy, he'll be fun to have around the house. And I know, without a doubt how much he'll love and cherish Nigel. (My mind immediately goes to 'why not me'. I know I'm feeling sorry for myself but there you go)

But Damn It, I need to be loved too. Not just everyone's piece on the side. A universal cum dump for those males of my type. I feel unloved and empty now. No one wants me except to fuck. I know I'm a good bottom, and I've always been proud of it. But I don't want to just be a Leonine cum dump for everyone. Damn this, why am I so upset over being unmated now. I was fine with it, and I thought I was happy. I am happy for Nigel. Ed's a great Horse and he'll work hard to keep Nigel happy. All I can focus on is 'why not me'. (I shamelessly threw myself at Ed, one of a rare few I had done that to, and he loved the attention and was loving to me, but he was meant for Nigel apparently.)

I'm hurting badly, and I can't stay. I get up and run to my car. My 2021 Mercedes S560 4Matic. I love my car. Mocha Brown Metallic. Big, comfortable, and it makes me feel a bit pampered. And I just drive for a while, and cry where no one I know will see me. My heart is feeling, well, almost broken. I've tried to give it to so many males, who seemingly wouldn't accept it. Why? What's so damned wrong with me that no one wants me for good? Rory meant well. I know the whole 'you're young still, you'll find a mate one day' speech by heart. I've heard it from Dad, Jonas, Emil and now Rory. It doesn't freaking help me at all. Nigel and I sat one day and we worked up a list of what we both wanted in a mate. I run down it in my mind. Ed's perfect for Nigel. He's 100% of what was on Nige's list. (Our lists are pretty much identical.) I am happy for them. When I calm down, I'll go home and tell them both so. And I'll welcome Ed to our little family. But I'm hurting so badly still.

Rory rings my cell and I let it go to voice mail. I do listen to the message. Rory didn't see me leave, but Teddy did. He noted how upset I was, and Rory's wanting me to come back and talk to him and Teddy. And for us to spend the night, the three of us. But they belong to one another. And I'm not going to keep horning in on their time together. I know they don't mean it that way, but it makes me feel like they pity me. 'Poor Claude, doomed to be alone, so we'll try to keep him with us when he's lonely and upset'. It's even worse than pity sex. Not that I've experienced that, but I have an idea what it probably feels like. And it feels bad.

Everyone thinks I have it all. Rich, attractive, a successful Doctor, a loving family, all the sex I want, and I'm considered a genius too. But I'd give it all up. For one big male, who loved me for real. I'd call Jonas but he'd just tell me I was just obsessing over finding a mate. I have very little comfort now. Dad's gone on his honeymoon, Nigel's 'busy' and Rory tried but I couldn't find comfort in his words. Jonas would be a bit annoyed to be woken up this late, and he'd just tell me I was making too much of it, and to go find someone to fuck me. Grandpa would be asleep too. I feel lost and all alone now. I pray to God for help, my only hope now it seems. (Sometimes your prayers get answered, and this one rather quickly at that)

I keep driving for a while. And going into a quiet residential neighborhood I drive slower so I can just think. I see flashing red lights in my rear view mirror. "Just fucking great" I cuss and I pull off to the side. I get my license out and take my registration and insurance card out of the glove compartment.

The Police Officer walks slowly towards my car. I almost gasp out loud when I get a good look at him. He's a huge Texas Longhorn Bull. Jet Black fur, big Ivory colored horns and a very macho attitude showing on his face. He's even butcher and more macho than our Sam. He swaggers up to the car window. I hear his big hooves clopping loudly on the pavement of the road. And it's a bit unnerving. I hand him my license, and registration, and insurance card and I stay silent. He looks at my license and smiles at me. A very sexy smile at that. But he's totally silent while he looks at my license and I can't read the look on his face. And I feel intimidated for real. I really have no clue as to why I was stopped. He's nobody's pretty boy, but he's so ruggedly handsome. A big, open, and broad Bull face. Big muzzle and a thick goatee. I need to be careful here. I could very easily make this worse by coming on to him. (Who am I kidding here? I'd lay on my back right here in the middle of the road and beg him to fuck me.)

"Do you know why I stopped you, Dr Kitman?" he asks gruffly. "No, Officer, I am afraid that I don't" I say respectfully. He smiles again. "Been a lot of break ins in this neighborhood and a car driving aimlessly is a bit suspicious" he says softly. His musky Bovine scent is drifting in through my open car window and it's beginning to affect me. His musk is making me really start to sweat. "I was troubled and I sometimes drive to calm down and think" I say quietly. He cracks the barest of a smile. "Why are you so upset?" he asks gently. "I'm very lonely, I get lots of sex but I want more from life than that, I am feeling it's time to settle down and find a big, butch male for a mate." I say sounding more pained than I meant to. "I see" he says very quietly. (I don't see the joy and relief on his face after he's heard me.. Unbeknownst to me, I've kind of just put myself on a Silver Platter for this Big Bull.)

He looks into my eyes. His eyes are the same deep Blue as Sam's. He looks a lot like a Black furred Sam, but he's bigger. Taller and bulkier. Got to be at least 7'4" and 420 pounds. Big assed Texas Longhorn Bull. I feel kind of warm all over. But I am still majorly intimidated by him. He's not being obnoxious, but I can almost sense his dominant attitude. It's coming off of him in waves. He's used to being obeyed. And he's silent now. I can't see his face as he's moved back a bit. And I'm puzzled as to why I'd of admitted to this big Bull, a total stranger, how and why I'm so upset by being alone and mateless.

He grins at me as he steps forward again. He hands me my license back. "You shouldn't be just driving around in such an expensive car, you could get car jacked or robbed" he says smiling, like he didn't note what I'd said before.. I can't explain why his voice makes my fur goose bump so. And the air is now thick with his musk. And I can detect more testosterone in it now. He's hot for me? I'm kind of hot for the musk of Bovines and Equines anyway, so I have to be careful here. I could be misreading him. Or scenting what I want to scent, that he's turned on by me. (I'm not, he wants me very badly, but he's gonna run things. Right now, he knows he's got me where he wants me.)

He's grinning broadly now. He can see the effect he's having on me. He puts one of his huge hands on my shoulder. "Not meaning to fuss at you, Dr Kitman" he says softly. I feel an electric shock at his very touch. From the look in his eyes he feels it too. "I saw you pull away from the Bear Den earlier" he says quietly. "My brother's mate runs it" I say. "So you're Teddy's brother in law" he says. "I'm Officer Peters" he says quietly. I smile at him. His voice makes me feel so much. "I guess you know who I am" I say gently. He grins again. "I know you're one Hell of a beautiful Lion" he says very firmly. I blush. On some level at least he does want me. Maybe all he wants is a piece of Lion tail. I'd give it to him, right here and right now. But part of me hopes he wants more than that.

"Would you ever think of going out with a dominant top, Bull Cop?" he asks very quietly. I grin, as much in relief as anything else. He does want me , maybe just to fuck, but it's a start. "Anytime" I say handing him one of my cards. He gives me a very sexy smile. "How about now?" he asks. I'm kind of stunned. "But you're on duty?" I ask feeling a bit confused now. "For another 5 minutes" he says grinning. "Follow me, Boy" he says firmly and he swaggers back to his car. He shuts his red lights off and he pulls away. I follow him. He goes back to the station. He points to a parking lot on the side of the building. "Wait for your Bull, I'll take you somewhere after I sign out" he says firmly. I pull into the lot he directed me to, and I park. I sit and turn my car off. He goes into the side entrance of the Police station.