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Warning: This is a Beastars ABDL story, which means it contains adults acting like kids for fun and kinky reasons, including diaper wearing, wetting, messing, and diaper changing. It also contains scenes of feeding kink in the middle (Which one of my friends is into and I guess he got into my head), which may potentially be triggering for people who can suffer from disordered eating. If you are not into that sort of thing and are just here for the diaper fun I wouldn't blame you for skipping that part. It also contains mention of Louis's traumatic backstory so watch out for that if you are sensitive to it.

***

Louis sat at his desk in the ornate boss's office of the Shishigumi headquarters, shuffling through paperwork as he checked the gang's finances. With his leadership, they were more successful than ever, but his new lifestyle had been taking its toll on him. He was tired, his head felt foggy, and he wasn't looking forward to dinner.

He signed the forms he needed to sign, but he wasn't in the mood to look at numbers. They had just gotten back to the base a short time ago, and it had been raining outside. Ibuki had insisted on keeping him dry with an umbrella, but the water had soaked through his shoes, making his feet unpleasantly cold and damp, which was not helping his mood. He stood up and left the office, walking past the dining area where the rest of the gang were chatting and waiting for their meal, and headed to the storage room where they kept spare clothes to get a fresh pair of socks. He wasn't about to let the lions see his feet.

Which drawer was his? He wasn't in the habit of fetching his own clothes in the morning so he couldn't remember. He started opening them and rummaging through them, finding a lot of lion sized clothes, but nothing of his, until in one drawer he heard the crinkle of plastic. He frowned, curious as to what it could be, and pushed the clothes aside and gasped. Underneath the clothes was an adult diaper, mostly white but with a few colourful patterns on the front and side. He glared and pulled it out, before he continued to search. After changing his socks he picked up the diaper and headed back to the main room.

"What the fuck is this?" asked Louis, tossing the diaper down on the table, causing all the lion's heads to snap to him. An awkward silence filled the room for a tense moment as the Shishigumi crowded around and peered at the object on the table.

"Uhh, looks like some kind of adult diaper?" said Ibuki, confused.

"Haha what the fuck?" said Free, chuckling, causing Dope to laugh along with him.

"It seems to be, and now the important question, what the fuck is this doing in our base?" Louis snapped, raising his voice and looking at each of the lions in turn, most of them looking confused, or avoiding his gaze, or in the case of Sabu, just rolling his eyes.

"Who'd wear something like that?" asked Miguel, his face contorted in a sneer of disgust. "Like even if you had a medical problem, what's with the baby design?

"Nobody knows where it came from then? I guess someone just broke in and left it in the clothing drawer?" Louis picked up the diaper, and tossed it into the trash can in the corner of the room. "Or maybe one of the big bad Shishigumi members wants to be a baby? If that's the case, what the fuck do you think would happen if that got out? I've been busting my ass saving this gang's reputation and I'm not about to have it fucked up, you got me?" he yelled.

"Come on boss," said Jinma, "I don't know what it's doing there but I don't think it's that big of a deal, right?" he looked around, and the rest of the gang murmured and nodded in agreement.

"I'd better not find any others," said Louis, glaring at the gang. "Otherwise I'll have no choice but to try to get to the bottom of this."

"I'm sure we can help you if it comes to that, boss," said Ibuki, looking around at the other lions. "Anyway it's time to eat."

Louis sighed and sat down at the table, steeling himself to choke down another slab of dead flesh. He was sure it was one of the lions, but there was no point pressing the issue now.

***

Louis lay on the couch in his office. He had thrown up his dinner and was nursing a meal replacement shake in an attempt to get some nutrition his body could use. The nausea that eating meat always left him with was strong.

He started as he heard a gentle knocking on the door. "What?" he yelled, capping the drink bottle and stuffing it behind a sofa cushion. What did those dumb cats want this time? He had specifically asked not to be disturbed.

"Hey boss, can we talk?" came a nervous voice from the other side of the door.

"Fine." said Louis, sitting up as Agata, the youngest lion of the Shishigumi, entered the office and shut the door behind him. He didn't approach Louis, staying near the door. "So what is it?" Louis asked.

"Umm... about the diaper earlier. It's mine. The rest of the gang don't know, but I'm into ABDL. I'm really sorry." said Agata, speaking softly and looking at the floor. Louis sighed. These cats were going to be the death of him.

"Okay..." said Louis. "Have you worn them in any public setting? Kink clubs?"

"No boss," replied Agata.

"Have you worn them with anyone else that might spread rumours and bring the organisation into disrepute?" asked Louis.

"No boss," said Agata, again, continuing to look away from Louis. "Just a few times on my own."

"Fine." said Louis with a sigh. "Just keep it to yourself and keep it out of the headquarters. The organisation would be a laughing stock if this got out."

"Of course boss... umm... can I speak freely please?" asked Agata, still nervously avoiding Louis's gaze.

"What is it?" Louis asked, leaning back on the sofa and looking Agata square in the face.

"Well, I don't want to insult you, so if you want me to shut up just say so and I'll leave and forget this conversation happened, but uhh, when you found the uhh..." he hesitated. "The diaper, you seemed really mad about it, but most people would probably just be confused, like they wouldn't know what it was for." Louis narrowed his eyes. "And just now when I said ABDL, you knew what I was talking about without me needing to explain it, so, uhh, is there anything you want to tell me?"

Louis buried his face in his hand and sighed deeply. For a tense few seconds he said nothing, before standing up and approaching Agata, causing the lion to bump against the door as he instinctively stepped back. "If you really want to go there, this stays between us. If anybody else ever finds out, I guarantee you won't have a future in this organisation." said Louis, his voice lowered to a conspiratorial and threatening tone.

"O-Of course boss." Agata stammared. "It's my secret too, I didn't want anyone to find out in the first place."

"Fine," said Louis, grabbing Agata by his tie and pulling him towards the sofa. "Let's get away from the door. Sit down." They sat down on the sofa, Louis being careful to sit where the bottle was hidden so Agata wouldn't feel it.

"So yes, I know what ABDL is. I'll tell you the truth, no point hiding it now, I'm into it myself." explained Louis, speaking quietly.

"Oh, have you ever, uhhh..." Agata began before trailing off.

"I've never done anything, just looked online, and I've never told anyone. I wasn't going to tell you until you figured it out, but I guess it was pretty obvious, why else would I get angry about a diaper?" Louis continued.

"So which are you, AB, DL, or both?" asked Agata. They had never been alone together before, and he was meeting Louis's gaze now, Louis noted he was seemingly marginally more confident than he had been.

"It's hard to say, I like seeing both aspects online but, well, who knows." admitted Louis, with a sigh.

"Uhh, you know boss, if you ever wanted to get some first hand experience, maybe we could, you know..." stammared Agata, his fur bristling as he looked down at his hands. Louis stood up and Agata shrank back as the deer loomed over him.

"Ugh. Go to bed Agata." said Louis, sighing and burying his face in his hand once again, before opening the door, keeping his eye on the lion as he sprang to his feet and quickly exited the office.

***

Louis followed Agata down a narrow street, far from the black market, until they arrived at the love hotel Agata had selected. Despite Louis's initial dismissal, he hadn't been able to get the conversation with Agata out of his head. He hadn't had much time to think about his fetish after joining the Shishigumi, but now he knew about Agata, now it was so close, he thought about it every time he saw the lion. Evidently the meat induced nausea wasn't harming his libido.

After a while, masturbating to fantasies of wearing diapers before bed wasn't cutting it anymore, and as far as he could tell Agata had stayed true to his word and not told anybody, so he summoned Agata into his office and told him, hissing through his teeth while staring at the floor, that he wanted to wear diapers together.

"Oh, uh, sure thing boss, we can book a love hotel for some privacy." Agata had replied, sheepishly. "I can pick some up in your size. Would you be interested in the more, uhhh, 'kiddy' side? Because I could pick up some toys too."

"I don't know, yes, sure, whatever." Louis had said, unable to hide his agitation and embarrassment at the situation.

When they arrived at the hotel, check in was fast and discreet. Their room was clean and tidy, but plain, they didn't want to spring for a fancy love hotel and then have to explain the expense on the organisation's finances.

Louis wasted no time in flopping down on the bed. He was tired, he felt like his head was full of fog, his body ached and felt heavy, and the ever present nausea, while not as bad as normal as they had left on their "Secret errand" before dinner, was still swirling in his chest.

Agata placed the bag he was carrying on the bed next to Louis and began rummaging through it. Agata had presented Louis with the bag a few days after their conversation in the office, and they had agreed that they should keep it in Louis's office, as none of the other lions dared to enter unsupervised, but Louis hadn't been able to bring himself to look inside.

"Ready to get changed then?" asked Agata as he pulled a thick, white diaper from the bag, along with one of Louis's pajama tops that he had packed earlier. Louis mumbled a vague response as Agata held the garments out to him. "Are you okay?" he asked, "I know it can be pretty nerve wracking, my legs basically turned to jelly the first time, and I was on my own."

"I'm fine," snapped Louis, grabbing Agata's offering and holding it on his lap. "Just give me a second." He took a deep breath and tried to calm the thoughts swirling through the fog in his mind. This was no time to be complaining about his body. He was already risking his reputation enough by being here, but the lure of his kink was too strong. If he didn't try it now, he would always be wondering. He was sure that Agata wouldn't tell, but he knew it was impossible to indulge in this fetish without showing some kind of vulnerability, and for a deer who has always known that the only one who he can trust is himself, that was a daunting prospect.

"I'll change in the bathroom." He stood up and staggered over to the door, his head suddenly feeling light as his field of vision narrowed, it was as if a grey fog was coming from behind him, but he was used to greying out like this any time he stood up these days.

"Sure thing boss, I'll get changed out here." said Agata as he pulled a larger, patterned diaper out of the bag.

When Louis closed the bathroom door he took a deep breath and leaned over, bracing his hands against the door as his field of vision returned to normal. He straightened his back and took a deep breath, and gazed down at the diaper in his hands. Agata had been right about the feeling in his legs. The mix of anxiety and excitement was making him tremble.

Louis put the shirt he was holding down, and turned the diaper over in his hands. It wasn't patterned, but he could easily tell which side was the front as he unfolded it. He ran his hands over the outside, feeling the soft, crinkly plastic, and then turned it around and ran his hand over the padded inside of the diaper, feeling the soft fabric and examining the leak guards around the legs. The texture was quite unlike normal clothes, and it was different from how he remembered them feeling when he was a kid, but it's not like he had examined them with this level of attention back then.

He placed the diaper on top of the closed toilet, and began untying his tie. He undressed until he was totally naked, neatly folding his suit and putting it to one side, and sat down on the open diaper. He grabbed the diaper and folded it up and adjusted it until the front and back were the same height. He grabbed one of the four tapes, pulling it loose, and taping it to the front. He followed with the tape on the other side, then the two lower tapes, and awkwardly reached behind his back to fasten the tape for the tail hole, then looked down to admire his work.

Louis stood up, as slowly as he could to avoid greying out again, and turned to look in the mirror. The image of himself wearing nothing but the thick, white diaper looked back at him, and he couldn't help but smile. It was an image that lived in his mind often, and seeing himself like this, being able to reach down and rub his crotch through the thick, crinkly garment, feeling the bulk between his legs as he took a step to pick up his shirt, it was filling him with a feeling he didn't quite know how to describe, but it felt warm and positive. Maybe things were going to be okay.

After pulling on his shirt, Louis opened the door to see Agata lying on the bed, taping on his diaper, and his warm feeling diminished as the lion looked over at him. It was a strange feeling, seeing his subordinate in just the t-shirt and colourful diaper, but it was even stranger knowing Agata was seeing him in the same state.

"Uhh, looking good boss, did you get it on okay?" asked Agata, shifting over with a reassuring smile.

""Yeah, I think so," said Louis, sitting down on the bed with a sigh.

"It looks like your tapes are a bit uneven there," said Agata, peering at Louis's diapered crotch. "Do you want to lie down so I can re-tape it?"

"What?" snapped Louis, his head turning to look directly at Agata. "This isn't good enough?" He couldn't believe the audacity of that dumb cat. He glanced down at Agata's hands, his finger's so much longer and thicker than Louis's, and those nails. He just straight up asked to touch Louis with hands like that?

"Well, uhh, it looks like it might not be on tightly enough, and if you're going to be well, um..." Agata gulped. "If you're going to be using it, we wouldn't want to have to explain any wet patches on the bed, would we? I mean you could do it yourself but I have more experience, so..."

"Fine." said Louis, lying down as Agata stood up. Louis noted he had to lie with his legs spread slightly as the bulk of the diaper made it uncomfortable to keep them closed. "Just don't touch me more than you have to." Agata gingerly reached down and slowly undid the tapes, pulled the landing strip up a little, being careful to keep his fingers off of Louis's skin.

"Spread your legs for me?" Agata asked, his intonation making it seem like a question. "I just need to check the leg holes." he said as Louis complied, and reached down and ran his finger along the seam where Louis's inner thigh met his diaper. Louis gasped as he felt Agata's large yet surprisingly soft finger run over such a sensitive area, feeling the diaper and its leak guards.

"There we go, nice and snug," said Agata, straightening up and smiling down at Louis.

"If anyone finds out we did this I'm telling the others you kidnapped me." said Louis, glaring up at Agata, his expression doing it's best to hide the waiver in his voice from the mix of embarrassment and excitement of the situation.

"Relax, nobody's going to find out, it's my secret too," said Agata, crossing his arms and closing his eyes, seemingly trying to look as proud and honourable as possible. "Besides, it was your idea as much as it was mine."

"True, just keep it between us." Louis replied, before reaching down and giving the front of his diaper a rub. It felt a lot tighter around his hips, but not overly so, it was pleasantly snug. "Your tape job is definitely better."

"I've gotta admit, diapering you is pretty fun boss," said Agata cheerfully. "Everyone's scared of you, even me sometimes, but behind closed doors you can be my own little Bambi."

"Who's Bambi?" asked Louis with a frown. "Why do people keep saying that?"

"Never mind. Anyway, want to see the toys I picked up?" Agata picked up the bag, and reached inside. "I didn't know if you have a specific age you like to play as, so I picked up some general stuff for now, but we could get more if you want". He withdrew two plush dolls from the bag and set them on the bed. "Look, I got a lion and a deer, one for me and one for you."

"Hehe, cute." said Louis, allowing himself a smile as he eyed the plushies. He picked up the deer plushie and examined it. It had both spots and antlers, felt soft and silky, and was stuffed entirely with cotton, with no hard parts except for the glossy plastic eyes.

"So do you want to play with them? I could play with you, I know some people like to get into the 'Little Space' but I've never really tried it." Agata asked, picking up the lion plushie and sitting down on the bed with Louis.

"Play with them how?" Louis asked, looking between Agata and the small stuffed deer in his hands.

"You know, just use your imagination, like when you're a kid and you'd make up personalities for toys and act out scenes with them," Agata explained.

"Oh yeah, I never really did that on my own. I remember in therapy they would-" he began, then trailed off. He wasn't ready to go there with Agata. "Anyway that could be fun, but I'm pretty tired, and I've never gotten into the headspace myself either." Being tired was the least of his worries, he was still feeling weak and the nausea hadn't gone away, but resting on the bed was helping.

"So what do you want to play?" asked Agata.

"Hmm, let's see..." said Louis, trying to think. This was just like improv in drama club, but improv usually had prompts, and right now he was drawing a blank. The evening had been overwhelming enough without being put on the spot like this. One idea came to mind, it was the most obvious one, but he might as well go with it.

"This one can be Adler, the grim reaper!" said Louis, in the grand tone he used onstage. "Are you familiar?"

"I think I saw an old movie of that once, sounds good, I guess mine can be, what was the bad guy? The water spirit?" asked Agata, picking up the lion plushie and holding it near the bed as if it was standing. Louis briefly explained a little more about Adler to Agata, before launching into the monologue from the play that was still burned into his head from drama club.

"You should have been dead three days ago. Every soul in the universe is trying to kill you, that what it means to defy your fate, I will end your life but until then I won't let another soul touch you." said Louis, pantomiming his doll running across the bed, before coming face to face with Agata's lion.

"Okay, so uh..." Agata stammered, before launching into a monolog of his own. "Well mister grim reaper, you can't cheat death, we spirits won't have it, but enough talk, have at you!" Evidently improv wasn't one of the lion's strong suits. They moved the dolls around, acting out a clumsy fight scene, Louis quoting more lines from the show, and Agata doing his best to keep up. Soon, Agata's phone chimed.

"Oh, hang on," said Agata, picking up his phone. "Food's here." He put the doll down, and stood up.

"Food?" asked Louis, incredulously. He was glad the playing stopped though. It wasn't exactly boring, but it was not much different to acting on stage, only without the rush of knowing the crowd is watching your every move. It was more like a boring rehearsal. Agata seemed better at going with the flow but Louis wasn't feeling very imaginative, he didn't have the energy for acting right now. Whatever the headspace Aghata had mentioned was, it wasn't this.

"Yeah, I ordered it while you were in the bathroom since we skipped dinner." said Agata, carefully opening the door a crack, peeking out, and reaching down to grab a paper bag that had been left outside. "From a little place I saw down the street."

"What? Why didn't you tell me?" asked Louis, as Agata shut the door and came back to the bed, and a tantalizing smell hit the deer's nostrils. "We're so far from the black market."

"Exactly, that's why I didn't get meat." said Agata, pulling two plastic containers out of the bag, as well as napkins and plastic forks and spoons, and two bottles of water. "I didn't tell you because I thought you'd be mad. I know you're sick, boss."

"What? How dare you." Louis gasped in disbelief. After all he had done to hide it.

"When I told Ibuki we were going out on a 'Secret Mission' he told me to be extra careful with you because he's worried about you. We can all see it, you've lost so much weight since you joined, and do you think we don't notice you running to the bathroom after every meal?" Agata asked, picking up one of the plastic containers and cracking it open. "You don't have to eat if you don't want to, but the offer's open."

Louis stared in disbelief. He couldn't believe his eyes, the big tough carnivore, sitting in front of him in nothing but a t-shirt and a diaper, smiling back at him as he held a container of stir fried vegetables, and he especially couldn't believe his nose. The sweet, intoxicating smell of a spicy and nutty sauce burned in his nostrils, a stark contrast from the nauseating smell of meat. His mouth began to water and his stomach churned. He gingerly reached out his hand, and Agata gently placed the box into his grasp.

"You're just okay with this? What would the rest of the Shishigumi say if they knew you were just eating vegetables?" Louis asked as Agata picked up his own box, opened it, and didn't hesitate in picking up his fork and taking a bite.

"I mean, yeah?" said Agata, with a shrug after swallowing his first mouthful. "Carnivore or herbivore, vegetables are good for you". Louis stared down at the box in his hand, at the medley of colours in front of him. There were plenty of greens, but also the red of peppers, the yellow of baby corn, the brown of mushrooms, and the smell. He could barely think of anything else. His stomach growled and a pang of hunger shot through his body.

"Don't tell anyone about this," said Louis as he's picking up a fork. "This is the same as everything else. Nobody finds out."

"Of course boss," said Agata, with his mouth full. Louis stuck the fork into the box, skewering a pea pod and a stalk of baby corn, and brought it to his mouth. The taste was overwhelming. All of his food over the past few months had either been disgusting, or bland, but this was something else. His eyes watered as the chilli flavour hit his tongue, not hot enough to be painful but enough to make him feel the heat. The vegetables had a satisfying crunch as he chewed them, it seemed that they had been quick with the cooking time, leaving them deliciously fresh. As the heat faded, the sauce left behind hints of ginger and nuts, the medley of flavours was overwhelming.

Louis ate more, sampling the leafy greens, red peppers, broccoli, and other vegetables, ranging from soft and sweet, to tart and crunchy, all covered in the delicious sauce. He took his time savouring every bite, he had never been a fast eater but Agata was dramatically outpacing him. By the time Agata was finished Louis had hardly made a dent. His hunger pangs and nausea were subsiding, but once he had finished a quarter of the box, he was picking at his food and barely eating.

"That was delicious," said Agata, after licking the remaining sauce out of his box and wiping his face. "I should get food outside the Black Market more often. Are you okay boss? Is it not to your taste?"

"It's good, it's just..." Louis trailed off, setting his box down on the bed between them and taking a drink of water. "Don't compare the size of my stomach to yours, cat boy." Louis leaned back and took a deep breath. Despite never being a big eater, even he could see the amount he had eaten was rather dismal. It wasn't until he was eating something he could really enjoy that he was able to see just how much his meat diet had shrunk his stomach capacity.

"Are you sure you don't want any more boss?" asked Agata, gazing into Louis's face with genuine concern in his eyes. "It's important to eat properly, I don't want you to waste away, we all need a strong boss."

"I don't know..." replied Louis.

"The menu even had portion sizes and I ordered a portion for a medium sized herbivore." said Agata, picking up the box from the bed and peering inside. "You only ate enough for someone half your size. Hmm. I've got an idea." He removed the fork and set it aside, and picked up a spoon, taking a scoop with a few vegetables and a generous amount of sauce, and motioning it towards Louis's mouth. "Here comes the airplane!"

"Really? You're going to spoon feed me?" asked Louis incredulously, his gaze shifting between Agata and the spoon.

"Why not?" asked Agata, smiling back at Louis encouragingly. "It's something you do with kids right? It might be fun." Louis had to admit, he was starting to feel better. His stomach was churning a little but he was feeling more energised, and his headache was starting to fade. Agata was already sworn to secrecy, so what was there to lose at this point?

Louis opened his mouth and allowed Agata to slip the spoon inside. He took his time in chewing and savoured the taste. He was starting to feel a little tension in his belly, but he knew that his diet hadn't been healthy, and as much as he was loath to admit it to Agata, he needed this. As Agata fed him several more spoonfuls, his mind wandered back to being spoon fed and bottle fed as a child. The memories were fairly vivid, and he had to admit that they were warm and positive. He had felt safe, and that feeling was starting to return as Agata fed him. His stomach gurgled as he swallowed another bite and he gasped.

"I think I'm done." he said, placing a hand on his stomach and rubbing. "I'm really full." He could feel it throughout his entire torso, a sort of unpleasant, stuffed feeling. The nausea was returning, but it felt different this time.

"That's okay boss," said Agata, holding the last spoonful that he had already prepared. "Do you want this last bit?"

"Just give me a minute," said Louis, taking a deep breath and closing his eyes. His stomach was rumbling, and he covered his mouth as he let out a few soft burps into his hand. "Alright, sure." He opened his mouth and let Agata deposit the last spoonful, and as he chewed he looked down at the box and was impressed to see it was nearly half empty. As he swallowed the nausea of the full feeling increased, causing him to grasp his stomach. "Ahh. I need to lie down. You can finish it."

"Ohh, okay, you've got a little sauce there," said Agata, picking up a napkin and wiping around Louis's mouth, causing the deer to glare at him, but he didn't feel like protesting. Louis lay down on his side, pulling the pillow down to make room for his antlers. His stomach was aching, but not in the way it normally was. He felt bloated and uncomfortable, why had he allowed Agata to feed him? Going to the other extreme wasn't going to help his eating. He was paying the price for indulging that childish fantasy.

"So what do you want to do now?" asked Agata as he packed away the fast food containers.

"Need to rest." Louis grunted his response.

"How about I read you the storybook I picked up?" said Agata, pulling a book out of the bag they had brought their supplies in. "It's about a prince! I thought you'd like it when I was in the toy shop."

"Whatever, it'll pass the time." said Louis, and Agata lay down on the bed next to him and started reading. Louis lay on his side with his back to Agata, so he only saw the illustrations in the book when Agata went out of his way to show him.

The reading made nice background noise, but it was hard to get into the kiddy mood when he was feeling so bloated. The full feeling gradually faded, and as Agata was about half way through the book the pain had largely subsided. His stomach was still churning and he was burping fairly regularly, he was trying to keep it as quiet as possible in front of Agata though.

"Are you okay boss?" asked Agata, taking a break from the book and looking down at Louis, hunched over on his side with his legs and arms pulled in. When Louis didn't respond immediately, he continued. "This might help," he reached down, and Louis tensed up as he felt Agata's large, fluffy hand brushing against his back, and he gasped out loud as Agata gave him a firm, hard pat, right between his shoulder blades. Before he could speak, Agata patted him again which caused him to let out a loud burp, and this time there was no way to conceal it.

"How... How dare you." Louis gasped, leaning up and looking Agata in the face. "Don't touch me without consent again."

"S-Sorry boss" stammared Agata, holding up his hands in apology, and then quickly realising how it looked and hiding them behind his back. "I just thought it would help. It seemed to work though."

"Hmm," said Louis, placing a hand on his stomach and rubbing gently. "That actually does feel better. You're off the hook this time" he said with a chuckle. He picked up his water bottle and lay down on the bed again, this time on his back.

"So shall we continue?" asked Agata, picking up the book again, and Louis nodded his affirmation. As Agata continued to read, Louis slowly sipped from his water bottle. The feeling of being stuffed full of food was slowly fading, and Louis was starting to feel... Normal? It was the only way he could think to describe it. The nausea that had been plaguing him since he started commanding the Shishigimi was gone. He was also enjoying the picture book more than he thought, and glanced over at the art every time Agata turned a page.

Louis found himself idly rubbing the front of his diaper, enjoying the bulk of the soft fabric around his nether region. The crinkling sound was strangely satisfying. By the time he had finished his water, he felt like he needed to use the bathroom. A wave of trepidation stirred in his chest as he considered the prospect. Part of him really wanted to use his diaper, but he wasn't sure if doing it in front of Agata would be the best idea. His stomach gurgled slightly. His bowel movements hadn't exactly been easy since starting his meat diet, but it seemed like his large meal was getting his insides moving again. It was only a matter of time.

Agata was still reading the book, seemingly oblivious to Louis's internal struggle. Louis fidgeted around a little until he was in a more comfortable position. Surely Agata wouldn't care if he wet himself. They had come this far. He took a deep breath and tried to relax. It turned out peeing with someone lying next to you isn't exactly easy.

Louis was barely listening to Agata read as he tried to concentrate on the pressure in his bladder. He eventually managed to let out a trickle, which soon became a steady stream. At first it felt like his pee was vanishing into nowhere, he was impressed at the absorbency of the diapers, and he gasped as he felt a few drops running down the crack of his butt and absorbing into the seat of his diaper.

Louis felt strange. He wasn't sure how to describe what he was feeling, but it was intense. He felt so naughty, willfully defying the potty training that he vividly remembered being drilled into him, and nostalgic for that sweet sliver of his life when it seemed like everything was going to be okay. He reached down and grabbed the front of his diaper, giving it a squish to see how it felt. That was one aspect he didn't remember. He groped and rubbed at the spongey padding that surrounded his crotch, rubbing his now growing erection. It was strange, how the now soaked diaper felt like it was wet and squishy on the inside when he rubbed it, but his fur barely felt damp.

"Well, that's the end," said Agata, closing the book and looking at Louis. "I liked it. The prince wasn't happy at all though! I guess the title was ironic."

"Oh, umm... Uh-huh..." said Louis. He had hardly been paying attention to the ending. He wasn't sure what to say, Agata's comment had snapped him back to the present, and he wanted to stay where he had been moments previously. He noticed Agata was sniffing the air as he glanced at Louis's crotch.

"So... Does it feel good?" asked Agata. Louis was taken aback. Was it that obvious? He glanced down at himself, there was no discolouration or outward sign he had wet at all. He hesitated for a few seconds, unsure of what to say. He had been so ashamed at first, but now he had eaten, and he had overcome the psychological barrier of actually using his diaper, it was starting to feel natural. What had he even been worrying about? Agata was clearly enjoying himself. Louis was the boss, and it was time to start acting like it.

"It does," said Louis, giving the front of his diaper another stroke, making sure Agata could see. "It seems you're enjoying it too, how'd you like a closer look?"

"Oh, uhhh... Yeah, if you don't mind boss... " stammered Agata, "I'd like that." Louis sat up, and clambered onto the lion. Once he was on, he sat on Agata's chest, his legs off to either side and his knees bent behind him. The soaked undercarriage of his diaper squished between his crotch and Agata's large, warm body. Louis was impressed by Agata's size, it was only with this level of direct contact he could get a true sense of scale.

"There, now isn't that nice?" said Louis, "A much more appropriate position for your boss. You can get a good close look at my wet diaper. Thanks for arranging this. The Shishigumi are loyal, but you're on another level." said Louis, smiling down as he reached down and gently touched Agata's mane. Agata continued sniffing the air.

"Thanks boss, this is fun but do you think you could..." Agata hesitated. "Scoot a bit closer?"

"Oh?" said Louis, raising his eyebrows. "So you're saying you want my wet diaper on your face? The great Agata of the Shishigumi wants to huff deer pee?"

"Kinda, yeah!" said Agata, enthusiastically, to which Louis scooted forward, and pressed the crotch of his diaper against Agata's face. The lion responded by taking a deep breath, and sighing contentedly.

"If I didn't know any better I'd think you were going to try to eat me, asking me to get up in your face like this. You wouldn't want a mouthful of plastic though, so I trust you." said Louis. He was no longer sitting on Agata, now hovering over the lion's head, with most of his body weight on his knees. Agata tried to say something, but Louis's diaper on his face muffled it too much for Louis to make out.

"I suppose it makes sense you'd enjoy it though, deer musk is highly prized for certain perfumes." He didn't really know why he said that, but Agata didn't seem to mind. The lion was moving his face around, rubbing it against Louis's diaper. It was a strange feeling, having somebody's nose rub against your balls, even if it was through that much damp fabric. He felt Agata's arm begin to move, brushing against his leg. He looked back to see what was happening, and saw Agata's hand had slipped into his diaper and he was jerking off.

"You're really enjoying it that much you perverted kitten?" said Louis with a chuckle. "Huffing pee isn't exactly one of my fantasies, but dominating a large carnivore like this is certainly fun." He ran his hand against the front of his diaper again. Maybe Agata had the right idea. He slid his hand into his diaper and grabbed his erection. It was a little weird doing this when he was still damp from wetting himself, but he wasn't about to let that stop him as he rubbed himself using what little space he had. When his hand bumped against Agata's nose through his diaper, he changed his position slightly, raising himself a little higher. As he moved, his stomach rumbled.

"Heh, this works surprisingly well. Such a comfortable way to jerk off." said Louis, lowering down again and smushing his diaper onto Agata's face. "I bet you'd even like it if I shit myself, wouldn't you, dirty cat?"

"Mwah" said Agata, seeming to nod his head. Louis raised himself up again, taken aback.

"Wait, really?" Louis asked, pausing his hand's motion. "I was just dirty talking but like, I could do it."

"Yeah, I mean, it sounds really hot, and I think I could handle it." said Agata. Louis couldn't clearly see the lion's face. His tone was positive and enthusiastic though, "I'll tell you if I can't."

"Well then, would you change me afterwards?" Louis asked, "Because I'm sure as hell not cleaning myself up."

"Of course!" said Agata. "I've had plenty of diaper changing experience, I'd be happy to." Louis smiled and shook his head. What was he going to do with this lion?

"Alright, let's do this," said Louis. He lowered himself down back onto Agata, and resumed masturbaiting. Rubbing himself inside his diaper felt different than he was used to. He was so hard, and the tingling pleasure that normally preceded an orgasam for only a few seconds was intense and constant. Then again, sitting on Agata was a stark contrast from sneakily rubbing one out in bed before going to sleep like he was used to. He wasn't going to last long at this rate, and his legs were starting to ache from supporting his weight. The pressure in his gut was almost too much to bear, this needed to happen now.

Louis took a deep breath, and pushed. He could feel something moving inside him, but it was hard, and it wasn't coming yet. Agata was moaning quietly as he sniffed against Louis's diaper. Louis kept pushing, he could feel it pushing its way out of his anus and into the crack of his butt, however it was taking considerable effort. He really needed to fix his diet. He had managed to start pooping but it was stuck, and he was getting close to cumming. He relaxed for a few seconds, taking another deep breath, before giving one last push, which allowed the hard poop to push its way out. It seemed only the initial part was hard, the remainder was much softer and easier to pass, but it was only seconds after feeling his mess filling up the space between his buttcheeks that Louis came.

He bucked his hips, rubbing the thick bunch of the padding between his legs into Agata's face hard. His muscles tensed, including his butt which stopped his bowels as he came, His dick throbbed, and twitched in his hand, his cum being quickly absorbed. Agata's arm had sped up, evidently the lion was trying to finish himself.

As Louis's orgasam subsided and his hand slipped out of his diaper, he relaxed and let another log of poop into his diaper. It was already full, but he winced as he felt the hot, sticky mess spread across his buttcheeks. He was careful not to squish any part that was particularly poopy against Agata while keeping the front of the diaper on his face. Agata tensed up and moaned as he came, and Louis was startled as Agata's back arched up, his chest pressing into the seat of Louis's diaper, causing him to jerk away as his mess was squished into his butt.

"Holy... Holy shit..." said Louis, as he rolled off of Agata, kneeling next to him, his diaper feeling heavy as it sagged off his hips. His orgasam had felt far more intense than anything he was used to, be it from masturbating alone or even having sex with girls.

"That was really hot," said Agata, sitting up and smiling happily. "Sorry if I made it weird. Do you still want me to change you?" Louis contemplated this for a few seconds, but as soon as the smell hit his nostrils, he wrinkled his nose and cringed a little.

"Yes please." he said, standing up from the bed, bow legged from the thickness of his full diaper.

"Alright," said Agata, standing up and getting a towel from the bathroom. He retrieved a pack of wet wipes from his bag. "There you go." he said as he laid the towel on the bed.

Louis gingerly got back on the bed and lay down on the towel. He was careful not to sit fully on his diaper, but feeling his poop touching and sticking to his butt like this was interesting to say the least. He knew he was fully capable of cleaning himself up, but lying down with Agata standing over him like this, the feel of his messy butt and the foul smell in his nostrils was really making him feel small and helpless. He looked over and saw the lion plushie they had been playing with earlier.

"This can be my changing buddy," said Louis with a small chuckle, grabbing the doll and holding it in his arms.

"You ready?" asked Agata, reaching down and hovering his hands near Louis's diaper. "Do I have your consent?"

"You do, it's fine," said Louis with a smile. Agata ripped the tapes of Louis's diaper, and unfolded it.

"Uhhh, hang on." said Agata, wrinkling his nose at the scene he was presented with. "I just need..." he trailed off, but reached into the pocket of his suit jacket, which had been neatly folded, and pulled something out. He had his back turned to Louis, but Louis could tell he was sprinkling some powder onto the back of his hand, and then snorting it up his nose. Louis rolled his eyes. Not only were all of the dumb cats addicted to meat, but they could seldom get through the day without a worrying quantity of Silver Vine. "That's better!" said Agata, smiling and turning around again. "Let's do this."

Agata picked up a wipe and gently took it to Louis's crotch. Louis flinched at first, feeling Agata's nails so close to his skin again, but he soon relaxed into it. The smell was getting stronger, but hopefully this wouldn't take too long. Agata was gently rubbing his cock, balls, and other areas that were wet but not messy with the wipes first, but then lifted Louis's legs and used the front of the diaper to wipe the bulk of the poop off of Louis's butt, starting to wipe lower down.

"So what did you mean by changing buddy anyway?" asked Agata, eyeing the lion doll in Louis's arms.

"Oh, you know when you'd get your diaper changed as a kid and they'd give you a changing buddy toy, probably to keep your hands out of the way." Louis replied, turning the lion doll in his hands and looking at it.

"I don't remember being changed as a kid." said Agata, spreading Louis's buttcheeks with one hand, and getting into his crack with the wipes. "Do you?" Louis sighed. This wasn't something he'd wanted to share with the Shishigumi, but not like he had anything to hide from Agata at this point.

"Yeah, when I was a kid I was livestock in the Black Market," said Louis. Agata's attention to his lower region stopped as he took in this information.

"Oh my god..." breathed Agata, so softly it was almost a whisper.

"I was probably four or five when my father bought me, but I don't know my real birthday." Louis explained. Agata resumed his cleaning. "I couldn't even speak, yet alone use the bathroom. From then on my life was mostly intensive therapy to try and fix my developmental delay, and it took a long time for me to grow out of using diapers."

"I'm so sorry..." said Agata. "You know the Shishigumi never condoned or helped in child trafficking, right?"

"I'm sure you didn't, you just kidnap teenagers instead." said Louis, recalling how he had joined the organisation in the first place. "Compared to living in my own shit at the meat market, wearing diapers and being changed was pretty luxurious. When I was first rescued there was a time before the therapy became intense, I couldn't speak but I still remember it vividly. I felt so safe and happy. I guess with ABDL some part of me wants to go back." Agata was nodding along, listening intently. It was taking a lot of wipes to get Louis clean, which gave him plenty of time to tell his story.

"My experiences will live with me forever. It's hard. I think about it every day and get nightmares at least once a week, but I've learned to live with it, and I'm doing my best to turn my sadness into strength" said Louis with a sigh. It felt strange to be opening up about this, he'd never told this to any of his friends in the drama club.

"I promise I won't tell anyone" said Agata, "I always wondered how a herbivore could get tough enough to command the Shishigumi, but wow. Could you turn over?" Louis obliged, rolling over onto his stomach, with his now clean crotch against the towel, and his still somewhat dirty butt up in the air. Agata balled up the diaper and put it to one side.

"So how about you?" Louis asked, as he felt the contrast of the cold wipes and Agata's warm hands on his rear once more. "I'd say it makes sense for me, but how did you get into this?"

"I guess it's mostly about humiliation for me." explained Agata. "I'm not really into acting like a kid, but wearing diapers, having you sit on me, it feels pretty taboo, and that's hot."

"Plenty of fetishes are taboo though," said Louis. "Why diapers? If you don't know that's fine."

"I don't really know, I don't remember wearing diapers at all when I was a little kid," Agata recalled, "But I do remember having accidents in my pants fairly regularly as a toddler. Maybe I was taken out of diapers too soon." The bulk of the mess was gone from Louis's butt, and Agata's wipes were still slightly brown, so he kept cleaning diligently. "I was really sexually curious and explorative when I was a teenager, enough that it got me in trouble a couple of times. I was horny all the time and I didn't have an outlet for it, but I did have a baby brother and my parents were busy so I was often one on diaper duty."

"That explains your skills," said Louis with a chuckle. "You're very gentle."

"Thanks boss, anyway, being in that environment during puberty, having to change so many diapers, I don't know... Maybe it did something to me..." he trailed off.

"No need to be ashamed of it when it's just us anyway. Sorry for my outburst the other week." said Louis, looking back and smiling at Agata.

"No problem boss, I know you weren't feeling well, I'm sure it was stressful." replied Agata, straightening up and admiring his work. "Anyway, I think you're clean, you should probably still shower though."

"Yeah, I will," said Louis, standing up and stretching. The smell was still lingering in the air a bit, but overall he felt pretty clean and fresh.

"Uhh, boss?" said Agata, looking between Louis's face and the ground. "Thanks for this, I was pretty nervous but I had a really nice time, thanks for indulging my weird kink."

"Thank you, I feel like I really needed this." said Louis, turning and going towards the bathroom, before looking back at Agata, "and our kink may be weird, but that's no reason to not indulge it. Our fetishes are what make us who we are."