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What's Beneath The Mask?

Chapter 1: The Birth

After the doctor and nurse had the newly born fox cub carried in their arms. One of them gave a long look over him. Making sure nothing was wrong. Making sure the newly spawned fox was capable of breathing. Something was wrong.

"Sir... his face is turning blue!" The nurse cried out in suspensing concern. The doctor's eyes tearing up. "No... no!" The doctor quickly sprung into action to figuring out what's happening. The fox cub's face is blue. Taking a closer look, the doctor realized that the fox cub can't move his lips. Why is that? It's because the doctor had to grab the scapel. The doctor's heart in emotional agony in having to do this to keep the newly born safe. The scapel drawing through to make an opening for the fox cub to have a mouth. Eventually putting the oxygen machine's mouth covering to the fox cub's mouth after caring and cleaning medically to make sure he's okay. Almost losing hope the doctor cries. The long waiting in hoping the baby breathes. The fox cub shrieks out in agony with having to be birthed like this. The doctor looked over toward the mother.

"What did you do before he came? WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO!!?"

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Chapter 2: Family

The young kit at home. He always cried at nights because his nose burned so bad. Trying to snore and breathe, it burned. The father kept on booming his feet patters out his bedroom door just to beat his new son's face. Causing the young one to cry more. All night crying until the father leaves the house.

Eventually at some point in his life. The father and the mother walks around in the JC Penny. The son crawling around off the cart as mother was not watching. The father getting angry with the son not being in the cart. Soon when the father catches up with the son. The back of his head was grabbed in a way that causes to slam the son's head against a metal clothes hangar's sharp edge. The clerks hearing the screams. They wanted to save the son from the father. They tried calling the police as they seen the horrific graphic thing that left the son going to have a scar or dent into a part of his forehead.

At age 4. The son, made to forget what all happened in the past, plays around in his parents's bedroom. He rolls around on the bed with his father's CD. Loving the music as he accidentally tears the cover. The father grows mad. He grabs the son's foot dragging him over. With a cast on his arm, from breaking it at sometime in his past, swings his arm back handing on his own son.

The son crying out and screaming, the mother seen the welt on his head in terror. She grabbed his arm and keeps him still until the welt worn off. Treating her son like if he's in time out.

At age 7. Riding the vacation wagon. The wagon is a modern vehicle. The father screams at the mother over the map problems. Traveling for a long time. Things like screaming at her about her being stupid. Then mother cried in fear.

Age 11. The mother allowed the one of the siblings to smoke underaged. The young fox shows his mother the D.A.R.E. brochure. Even the brochure mentions about smoking causing cancer. "You're crazy! You're letting her smoke when you know it causes cancer!" The mother in anger, grabs her son by the arm and slams him against a mirror harshly enough to scare the older sibling away. The smoking was also mention that it can cause Type 1 Diabetes (Whether when born or lately delayed in life) in pregnant women.

Age 13. Going to a family gathering. The uncles and aunts all sitting around a fire. Family talks starts through out the uncles about gays being disgusting pricks. The son feeling unsure about their violent behavioral views even though he couldn't word it right yet. At one point the aunt screams at him about him "calling himself perfect," over because the son mentioned he has an Art hobby. The uncles wishing the young fox was never part of their family after he spoke up that he likes guys. Mentioning to the questions who asked if he had a girlfriend yet.

Age 15. The weekend before Christmas weekend. The son calls an amublance behind his parents's back because they're neglecting his health problem. The son fell in the bathroom with the door locked. The brother in law knocked on the door hoping the son will hurry up. He neglects the son's cry for help. The son can feel his body's control energy being drained. There was a major difference between being tired from lack of sleep and being tired because the body was getting heavy. Once again significantly, something was wrong. The ambulance arrived. They take him into one small clinic.

One completely different doctor shows up to punch him, after the father threatens a wish to his son being dead with whatever his son is to his illed-in-bed son over thinking the 15 year old smoked to having cancer. Then eventually they pull another ambulance ride to an even bigger hospital because of misjudging the dilemma at first. Sometime later, the doctors and nurses worked together to save his life.

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Chapter 3: School

Age 5. The kindergarten teacher punched the fox son over his sudden crying. She was exhausted over his crying.

Age 14 to 15. He dealt with teachers and other students in trying to juggle and balance out his emotions.

After being diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes the weekend before the Christmas weekend, getting switched over to homeschooling for two years. After the mother's passing, dealing with an aunt punching him at the funeral, he couldn't cry for some reason. Even when getting evaluated, the psychologist diagnosed him with Autism Spectrum Disorder. Mentioned that he was born with Aspergers. His Aspergers evolved to ASD.

After so much abuse, the fox son deletes his social media from getting too many dark posts spawning from him. Many disappointed with it all because of the abuse he could not escape from.

At age 20. The father threatened to kill his son. Eventually himself in front of his own psychologist. The High School, even though at age 20, helped him finished up schooling and saved him from all the abuse finally by having him move to a place that will help him.

When the son told his father that he is moving. He told him in every inch of his life in staring down at his father's eyes. Ready for his beating anyway, from his father, by the same thoughts of darkness he posted on his social media. Somehow the thoughts had him face his father as he had nothing left to lose anyway.

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Chapter 4: Social Media

At age 15. The teenage fox learned about The Furry Fandom raising money for Children's Hospital foundation which saved his life. After a fun chat with a nurse talking about beanie babies. The nurse teased him about him being a furry. He at one point later on to being back at home, he searched about The Furry Fandom online. At one point he managed to reach one a few goals. One of them exactly how he imagined it. A couple others slightly off, but adjusting to it as much as he can.

During a dark time with dealing with a loss and processing so much abuse. Even at one point calling DCFS had them admit, "We can not save you at this time because your location refuses to have us help."

Back to the time with the dark posts. Then when he was getting evaluated.

Sometimes at particular points, social media had hard times reading about politics. Reading about brutality from high authorities. Sometimes it reminds the fox about the kindergarten teacher. The adults of the family he had.

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Chapter 5: Psychology

When the fox son first seen the therapist with her gentle voice, pretty smile, and seeming like a woman to help him out of the struggles that many neglected, stunned, and shut him out of. The fox poured everything out to her about his life. From how he was birthed to how he was able to remember things clearly even at age 3. At age 3 was when the fox learned how to use a stereo by just copying off of someone.

The therapist helped him seek the right Psychologist. The same psychologist that responded to him about the uniqueness test. The test a Psychologist uses to diagnose the person with any mental health information. This was important. The fox had help with realizing his abused times, the things he misunderstood, including dark posts he had made on social media. The diagnosage was true. Hard for someone to obtain in one day.

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Chapter 6: Acknowledgement

Even though the fox had so many bumps in his past. He continues to survive and live on the fact that many refused to believe about his Autism Spectrum Disorder. Whether if he had evidence directly from the Psychologist or not. It took the safer place time to understand it.

Many people telling him, "You don't have Autism!" Or "Stop wearing it as a badge of honor!" When it's to spread awareness. Many hated his bright side. Always wanting a way to tear it down.

He ends up learning on how to grow, learn better, and understand things more clearer. Remembering back to where his parents never let him leave his room to hangout with friends. Seeing many being able to. It's hard to communicate. He still gives it a try. He opens up as much as he can. With the mouth that was carved by the scapel that grown to naturally hiding everything that is in his mind, he chooses to smile and let his light shine.