FSE

Furry search engine

formerly SoFurry search engine

_ Author's Note: Thank you for reading this if you are, please leave any criticism in comments, all and any suggestions help. Also, while these chapters may seem short, that will mainly be due to me developing the plot as I go, making tweaks here and there to character development and such. I don't like putting in too many supporting characters so for that, I will deal with some in a different branch of story. Again, thank you for taking time out of your life, and reading this, I hope you find something in it you, as a reader, can enjoy._

Renfoo

_ "Standing in front of towers, makes me as a person feel so small. I feel like, an ant worshipping some alien race, looking up to heights unreachable, only to know, what goes up, must all have a fall." ~Unknown Source_

"Julian, your research paper for this term was a tad lacking, care to tell me why?"

Why does everyone have to notice when I want to take a break and slack off? Julian thought to himself as he faced the tall slender dragon he called his professor. Stammering he clenched his fists slightly and sighed, words never came out easy. "No sir, I don't have a reasonable explanation for you, I know the paper was shit, but I thought you wouldn't..." He left his sentence fade off into trails of telepathy. His professor gave him that soul crushing glare, with those ugly, yet somehow beautiful deep cerulean eyes.

"I'm going to let you re-do this, but god damn it Julian, get your shit together." He said tossing the twelve pages full of farce thesis into the cold, unforgiving pit of a waste basket. Julian twitched away, he never liked people getting upset with him, it was one of those complex things he had happened to learn in his psychology class. Facing the dragon, he's poker face slightly twisted into a frown.

"Get over it Julian, your attempt at getting pity from me right now is lost. You knew better, but you disappointed me. All I can say now, is that you try damn hard to redeem yourself." his harsh voice, giving small points of breaking gave Julian some relief.

With a silent nod of acknowledgement, the feline left the room, holding back small tears of self hate. Why did I think I could pass that paper off with him? He thought to himself as he stormed back to his dorm. Outside, in his peripheral view , he could see undisturbed sea of white. What a wonder snow is, he thought to himself, so bound to this earth, but instantly vanishing, into some ethereal sanctuary, blankets after blankets bonding together only to disperse.

"I hate snow." he whispered to himself as he shrugged off his fascination long enough to make it back to his dorm door. Knocking, he stopped, waiting on his room-mate to open the door, for some reason his room-mate had this weird tendency of giving the spare keys to the door to whomever he had some sexual interest in. The door creaked open slightly, just enough for a muzzle to work its way out. "Who the fuck is it? And what the hell do you want?"

Sighing, Julian flicked the muzzle's nose, and spoke quickly, " I need to get back into my room, tell Yule that its Julian."

Without a hitch, the muzzle slid back in, and the owner slammed the door, a few seconds later, voices could be heard twitting about, as clothes were thrown on in haste. Five minutes later, the door opened, a small black husky standing in the door-frame. Julian always liked Yule, but never enough to let his feelings known when his room-mate had just had one of his 'intimate' sessions with another of the student body.

"Jules, before I even think of letting you in, I want to just let you know, you have the worst timing I've ever had the pleasure to accommodate" the husky's voice sighed as he moved back into the dorm room. Julian shrugged and closed the door behind him, as he trudged his way to the couch.

"You know you're in love with me Yule, don't even try to deny it, I know you want to fuck me all the time." Julian laughed as he imagined a real relationship with Yule and himself. It'd probably last as long as he kept wanting to have sex with me, he thought before turning on the T.V.

"Oh ho ho ho, Julian, how can it be that I'm in love with you, if you're always the one that manages to plop yourself where I had sex last? A little obsessive much?" Yule flipped back as he fumbled through the pantry. Julian looked down, and groaned, why the hell does he always have to make a mess and never clean it up! His mind shouted.

"Yule, you're disgusting, and I hate how you NEVER clean up after yourself, I mean come on?! Aren't gay people supposed to be like, super neat freaks anyway?" He moaned as he slowly raised himself from the semen and lube stained couch cushions."I mean, its one thing to do it on MY BED, but now MY COUCH? When will this torment end, WHEN?!" Julian whined, he never really mind the fact that Yule never cleaned up, at least he did all the laundry after the fact, but he never got over the fact that it was someone else's as well.

Walking over, Yule's glance shifted from Julian over to the anonymous male in the room. "You can leave , we're over with." his tone changed from warm to cold. After eyeing him leave, Yule went directly into pseudo-boyfriend mode.

"So how was your day babe? Everything with Moc the Doc go smoothly? I mean I know how he can get, but did he at least give you a decent grade?" Yule was always concerned about Julian for some reason, maybe he wanted to have a relationship, but it didn't matter right now. All Julian could focus on was redeeming himself with something that would revive his dying grade.

"Yeah, he's letting me re-do the whole damn thing for a better grade, I think he said it's due sometime next term, to make it easier on his "grading" system." Julian's voice trailed off, thinking of how hard the next of Yule's questions were going to be to answer.

Yule smiled sweetly, gently grabbing Julian's paw, he giggled. "Well that's good bud, so, how goes the lady hunt? Find anyone worth mentioning? I know you've had your eyes on that cute vixen over at Pi Beta Phi, and she said she'd think about coming over here sometime soon to "chat" with you."

Julian desperately tried to hide his grimace, how he hated when he had to mask himself, "Yeah dude, um, I haven't made much head way with it at all, thanks for looking out and all, I'll see if I can find that chick tomorrow, and you know, talk her up into going out or something." He said, his voice making some noticeable breaks here and there.

Yule leaned on Julian's shoulder and sighed, "My stud muffin might actually leave me, pooh." He pretended to whine as he tried to watch some news channel. "You know, I think you're the only straight guy I get along with." He said, with his eyes fixed on the screen. Julian slightly shivered at the comment, and proceeded to give Yule a hug. "And you're the only gay friend I have." He whispered, before tickling Yule's side. Before they knew it, it was an all out fight, trying to tickle each other more. Lunging for sides and the back of knees, and before they knew it, they were rolling on the floor. Tired, they lay there, looking at each other and smiling, eye contact with Yule was rare for Julian, but when he managed to get the courage to do it, it made him feel like he was in heaven, more so an euphoria high than anything holy. Being able to hold the small husky so close to him, made him feel important to someone.

"I love you Jules, you're probably the most laid back guy on campus when it comes to dealing with me." Yule sighed as he rested his head on the his friend's chest. "Most people just see me as a shallow fuck, but you.." his sentence faded as he closed his eyes.

"I love you too, Yule, more than you'll ever know." He whispered before closing his eyes as well. Times like this made him not care if he blew his straight facade with his room-mate, just wanted this feeling to last.

"What did you say?" Yule opened his eyes and looked Julian in the eyes, as if he were searching for something important. Julian was a bad liar, and he knew it, the ruse was over.

"I guess its time to get out of the closet." Julian said as he gently rolled the husky off him.