Shon: If I Can Be With You
#1 of My Place in Your Life
"Shon: If I Can Be With You"
Part 1 of 'My Place in Your Life'
by K.M. Hirosaki ([email protected])
AUTHOR'S NOTES: This story and all characters within are copyright (c) 2001 - 2002 K.M. Hirosaki.
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Jasper looked across the table at me with his icy blue husky eyes, and the look in them made me feel worse for not feeling better. I shrunk back into my chair and stared down and my hands, folded atop the table. He tilted his head to the side and reached his arm out, taking one of my paws in his. "What's wrong, Shon?" he asked. "Are you upset about something you're not telling me about?"
I lifted my head back up and fazed back into his kind face. "Nothing's wrong," I said quietly. That was a lie. Well, not really. I suppose the situation needs explaining.
A few months ago, I first met Jasper. We were both regulars at this all-night snack shop. When I'd work late, I'd often stop to eat there on my way home, around midnight or so. The place only has three tables, and it was never crowded at that time of night, so when someone else would stop by to grab a bite to it, chances are it would be someone you recognized. Jasper was one of these fellows. And it didn't take that many times running into him for me to notice that he was checking me out.
Like I said, Jasper's a husky. He's a very handsome husky at that. He's only three or four years older than I am, but he looks older. But he doesn't look older in a way that makes him look "old," really. He just looks more grown up. The fur that framed his white face was dark, not exactly black, but more of an intensely deep gray. He carries himself so that he manages to look sporty and still mature.
In my own opinion, I'm nothing special to look at. For a wolf, it wouldn't be that difficult for me to get myself toned up, but I'm just lazy about that sort of thing. I'm not really overweight by much, but I've got my share of body fat plus extra. My shoulders are on the broad side, so that helps a little. So I guess I'm not ugly or anything, but I was still surprised that someone like Jasper (who I definitely consider better looking) would be checking me out.
To make a long story short, Jasper and I started going out. Just casually, mind you--you know, two guys who have an interest in one another hanging out with one another. He was--is--a really sweet guy, and I love him to death. And therein lies the problem.
Jasper and I really clicked, right from the beginning, and it didn't take much time for us each to realize that there was a spark between us. Then Jasper had to lay down the news that he was already taken; his mate was another husky named Luke. To be fair, Jasper hadn't been keeping secrets from me. It had just never come up. But once he realized that I was interested in him as more than just a friend, he was obligated to mention it.
Actually, he wasn't really obligated to, and son I'm thankful that he did. He and Luke are allowed to see other people outside of their relationship, so long as they let each other know. I could have felt betrayed, but I didn't. Jasper could have just kept all of that from me, but he didn't.
I was given a few days to think about things. Jasper had offered to let me meet Luke first before committing to anything, but I didn't want to. At the time, it was easier to pretend he didn't exist. And so the next time I saw Jasper, I told him that I was okay with the idea of being with him, even though he had someone else. That night, we went back to my place, and he made love to me (and I don't use the term lightly). And the look in those wonderful eyes of his just... spoke to me, and somehow I just knew that he cared about me.
So here I was with Jasper, looking back at him across the table. And I knew he knew me better than to believe me when I said nothing was wrong.
"I can just tell Luke you're not interested, you know," Jasper said, keeping his voice as calm as always.
"But... I don't know. I've never been with two folks at once before." Yes, you heard me right. This was what was bothering me.
"It was just a suggestion. He just thought you might like it. I don't think he was implying anything by it," Jasper replied.
I had to admit it. I found the prospect intriguing, and actually pretty arousing. But I wasn't sure I could bring myself to go through with it. And it wasn't because of Luke, either.
Luke's arguably better-looking than Jasper. They look a lot alike, actually. If you saw them together and didn't know them, you would probably think that Luke was a younger brother and not a lover. He and Jasper were both the same age, but Luke just looked younger; he was the shorter of the two, closer to my own height.
When I first met Luke, I expected to feel really awkward. I was waiting for the rush of jealousy to start filling me, but it didn't. In fact, Luke and I really got along well right from moment one. Even seeing him together with Jasper, exchanging those little touches that lovers do... it just didn't bother me. I wish for the life of me that it would, but it didn't. I wanted to be upset with Jasper for being with me when there was someone else that he loved, but I couldn't. And it felt odd to me.
With the three of us together, it felt like being among old friends I'd know for years, even though it had only been a few months. Three friends, inseparable... until the day would end, and I would have to go my way, and Jasper and Luke would go theirs. It was only at those times--when they'd still be together, and I wouldn't--that I ever really thought about the two of them as the couple that they were.
"I'm flattered by the proposal, honestly," I said to Jasper. And I meant it.
"I sense a 'But' coming up here," Jasper said.
I swallowed a tiny lump in my throat and tried to think of how to phrase myself. "It's just that... I didn't know that Luke thought of me that way..."
Jasper rubbed his fingertips along my wrist. "Come on, you know that Luke really likes you," he said. "And you mean a lot to me, and he thinks--WE think--that it might nice if we could both be close to you."
I was too shocked to respond right away. On a lot of levels, Jasper had a point. Luke and I were good friends, but I was afraid of getting to know him on his own. I had never even been around him on his own without Jasper. And if it was true that Jasper really wanted me to be a part of his life, then it was a good sign that Luke was okay with that.
"I'll do it," I said quietly, nodding my head. Jasper smiled back at me with the same grin he always had when he was happy.
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There was a single flicker of doubt as soon as Jasper, Luke and I arrived at their house the next night, but it went away as quickly as it had come. We had gone out, eaten dinner, had a good time, and had now come back to their home. The only difference was that this time, I wouldn't be leaving right away.
Luke walked off into the laundry room to take care of a few things he had left undone earlier. Jasper took me with him into the bedroom. As if on autopilot, I sat down on the edge of the bed and folded my legs to the side. Jasper sat down beside me and rubbed his paw at my lap. "Are you sure you want to do this, Shon?" he asked. "If not, just say the word."
I shook my head. "No, I do," I replied, turning my head and resting it on his shoulder. I put my arm around his waist and held myself close to him, breathing in his scent. I could tell that he was getting turned on at the prospect of what was imminent, and I didn't blame him. My own pants were certainly feeling a bit tight and confining.
Jasper touched my cheek and turned my head up, leaning down into a kiss. I let him slide his tongue into my mouth, and I sucked on it gently as it moved around. His large, full paws slid against my back, up under the back of my shirt. My heart beat faster as he touched me, and I wrapped both of my arms around him and pulled myself as close against him as I possibly could, my tongue pressing deep into his mouth. Control and restraint always seemed to go right out the window whenever things started to get heated between me and Jasper.
I felt one of Jasper's hands move down between my thighs before he suddenly drew back away from me. Both of us turned in sync and faced the doorway. Luke was leaning against the door frame, doing a good job of mimicking a stereotypical seductive pose. His nicely-toned canine form was striking. In an instant, Luke went from being a friend whom I'd only ever thought of platonically and turned into an object of lust. "I leave you two alone for one minute and already you're at it. This should be fun," he said, his grin wide on his face.
Luke's furry tail wagged from side to side as he stood upright and walked softly over towards us, the hard-on in his pants plain to see. I reluctantly let go of Jasper as he stood up to embrace his mate. Jasper pulled Luke into a slow, passionate kiss, just as he had done with me. The two huskies rubbed their paws all up down each other's bodies, which they apparently knew very well. In a movement that was almost two fluid for me to believe, Jasper pulled Luke's shirt off, and then, immediately afterward, Luke did the same to Jasper.
They closed the gap between themselves again, black and white fur shifting in all directions as they both continued to touch one another all over. Jasper hooked one arm around Luke's upper back and reached down between their bodies with his other paw. He deftly undid Luke's belt and his zipper, then hooked his paw inside of the fabric and pushed his lover's pants and underwear off. Luke's legs were thin enough that the pants fell right around his ankles. His shaft stuck up hard and full, and he pressed it into Jasper's belly fur. I could hear him moan into the other husky's muzzle as he went and unfastened Jasper's pants, fumbling a bit more than Jasper had, but still succeeding in getting them off in a matter of seconds.
I was practically mesmerized as I watched Luke and Jasper. Obviously, I knew that Jasper and Luke had sex, but the mental image had never crossed my mind. Now, seeing the two of them like this was turning me on more than I could have imagined. Nude, the look of family resemblance was even stronger, and it gave the scene a sort of incestuous edge that I knew wasn't really there. I felt a little strange, because for some reason, that just made it hotter to watch.
Jasper reached his black-furred paw down and wrapped it around Luke's shaft and his own and began to stroke slowly. I was transfixed, my own erection straining against my pants as I watched the man I loved playing with another. So far, the menage a trois hadn't even technically begun yet, but I was already seeing the wonderfully naughty appeal of it all, up close and personal. As if he were reading my mind, Luke opened one of his eyes and looked sideways at me as he and Jasper continued to kiss. There was a mischievous glimmer in that look that killed the last lingering doubts I'd had about agreeing to do this.
Luke broke off the kiss and pulled back slowly, a tiny strand of saliva stretching out between their mouths briefly before it snapped. He gasped quietly as Jasper kneaded his paw firmly against their slick tips. "Now, honey," Luke said. "Let's not get too carried away in front of Shon, here. It's not fair to just make him watch." He reached down and carefully pried Jasper's hand away, and Jasper gave him a quick lick on the cheek before they both stepped back over to edge of the bed where I sat.
Without warning, Luke put both hands on my shoulders and bent down to kiss me. Instinct made me put up resistance for a fleeting moment, but then I opened my mouth for him, kissing him for the first time. I thought that I could taste Jasper on his tongue, and I whimpered subconsciously as one of Luke's paws ran down my side and down over to the zipper of my pants. He undid the button and pulled the zipper down, then pushed forward on my shoulder with his other paw. I lay down on my back, and Luke hovered over me as he reached down into my pants. I let out a moan of content as I felt his warm paw wrap around shaft. "Mmmm... I love how warm and hard you are," he whispered into my ear as he slid his paw up and down my length, getting it slick with my own fluids.
I felt the bed shift as Jasper lay down beside my head. I turned to look him in eyes and smiled at him. Luke began to bite and nibble gently at my now-exposed neck, causing me to close my eyes and murr happily for a moment before I looked back at Jasper. He was still grinning at me, and he pet me between the ears. "No second thoughts, hon?" he asked.
I looked down at my hard member as Luke jerked it slowly, then back into Jasper's eyes and gave him a teasing grin. "Does it look to you like I'm having second thoughts?" I said.
Jasper chuckled and ruffled my fur. "Then I hope you enjoy this," he said, sitting up. Luke let go of me and pulled my pants off of my legs. I sat up and took my shirt off, tossing it onto the floor. The pair of huskies knelt naked on the bed to either side of me, staring at my body in silence.
Finally, Luke said, "He really is a lovely young wolf, dear. I can see why you like him."
"True," Jasper said with a grin. "But it's not just that, though." My heart fluttered in my chest, and I felt foolish, but being complimented like that, especially in front of Luke, made me feel wonderful. I was being overrun with dual emotions: the raw eroticism of knowing that Jasper was going to share me with his lover, and the warm reassurance that Jasper cared for me on more than just a physical level. It was really quite strange, but I was too overwhelmed to care.
Luke crawled over and straddled my chest, reaching down to pet my cheek and my ear. The tip of his wet, musky-smelling cock was inches from my chin. I licked the side of my muzzle reflexively. He turned and looked to Jasper, who hadn't moved. "Do you mind if I take his mouth for a while?" Luke asked, running his paw over the side of my muzzle. I noticed that Luke was switching back and forth between talking to me, and talking over, as if I weren't there--as if I were an object. Part of me felt bad for liking that.
"That's really up to him," Jasper replied, petting my other cheek. Luke locked his gaze with me, and I went to open my mouth to speak, but he placed a finger down on my muzzle, silencing me. I just looked up into his eyes and nodded, and without a word, he sidled further up my chest. Slowly, I ran my tongue along the underside of his shaft as it came into reach.
I closed my eyes and moaned quietly as the taste of his warm canine fluids hit my tongue. Once again, the taste was reminiscent of Jasper, but was distinctly its own flavor. I leaned my head forward and took his cock into my muzzle eagerly, letting my tongue work in a spiral path as I did. Luke put one of his hands on my shoulder and stroked one of my ears reassuringly with the other while his fluffy tail wagged back and forth, tickling my belly. It spurred me to suck on him harder, and his dull moaning let me know I was doing a good job.
The mattress shifted next to me, and I knew that Jasper had gotten up off the bed. I couldn't see him, because Luke blocked my view, but I wasn't planning on looking anyway. For the time being, my concentration was fixed on licking and sucking the hot, firm shaft that filled my mouth. Luke was drizzling freely, and I swallowed him down, relishing the taste.
I suddenly pulled off of Luke's throbbing shaft and yelped in surprise. Jasper had just tickled one of my feet, and I heard him laugh at my reaction. Luke patted me on the side and chuckled. I smiled up at him and wrapped my thumb and forefinger around the base of his hard cock, taking it back into my mouth again. He went back to caressing my ear as I bobbed my head back and forth along his length.
My tail bristled as what must have been Jasper's hand ran along it, up to its base. My own cock quivered and trembled in the air as I anticipated his touch. But it was not to come. Without warning, Jasper slurped his tongue up under my balls, lapping at my hole. My whole body tensed up in pleasant shock, and I had to concentrate hard in order to not gasp out in pleasure again or, worse, accidentally clamp down. I could feel Jasper licking in tiny circles at my tight entrance, and I let a small moan out around Luke's shaft.
Jasper put both of his paws on my thighs and pressed his tongue up inside of me. The feeling of it wriggling around, warm and wet, made my still-unattended cock strain with welled-up excitement. Luke started to rock back and forth slightly, slowly fucking in and out of my muzzle. I sucked harder, my mouth forming a loose seal around his moving shaft as I swirled my tongue around it, paying special attention to the tip. For the first time, Luke started to make pitiful noises as I teased his drizzling slit.
Luke firmly grabbed onto the fur between my ears and pulled my head back, his cock sliding out of my mouth with a wet popping sound. He ruffled my whiskers and smiled at me. "Easy, there. You're a bit too good at that. Don't wanna get off quite so soon," he said. He leaned back and brushed the fringe of his tail over my crotch, making me giggle.
My brain suddenly registered something in the tone of Luke's voice, and it made my concentration falter. Luke's voice was just that: Luke's voice. This was one of my best friends, not that of a lover. I just didn't think of him in that way, and all of the sudden I began to feel really weird about what I was doing.
A instant later, I put the thought out of my mind and stopped caring, as I felt Jasper take hold of my legs and wrap them around his waist as he stood up. He reached out and grabbed onto my cock, causing me to let out an airy sigh of pleasure. Then he sidled up to the bed and positioned his own warm, wet shaft up against my rear. He shifted back and forth, letting it rub in between my furred cheeks, over my spit-dampened hole. A shiver ran up from the base of my spine to my brain as I thought about what it felt like whenever Jasper fucked me, and my body trembled in anticipation.
Luke got off of my chest and laid his head next to mine, his body stretched out in the opposite direction. I could see Jasper now, standing there, looking at me with his loving smile. I nodded to him, and then the other handsome husky put his mouth to mine again, our tongues entwining with the passionate familiarity of long-time lovers. I let out a sharp whimper into Luke's muzzle as I felt Jasper start to bear down on me, the wide head of his plump cock pushing at my entrance, just beginning to spread me open. With a sudden, tiny thrust, Jasper's tip slipped inside of me, but whatever cry I tried to make was muffled by Luke's tongue working around in my mouth.
I moaned out into Luke's muzzle as his mate started to bury his shaft within me. The pain and discomfort was distinct, but Jasper was being careful, like he always was. I would tense up and shudder; he would stop for a few moments before pushing in further. He was fairly thick, and I was tight, with the result being an overwhelming sense of fullness as he penetrated me. Luke wrapped his arms around me, and the feeling of having a warm husky body on either end of me made me tingle sublimely.
Soon, Jasper's length was fully embedded in my tight passage, and he rubbed his paws at my stomach in wide circular motions, intended to soothe me. I wagged my tail between his legs ecstatically, wanting so badly to feel him pounding into me. I knew that he wouldn't, though, because Jasper was just like that. He'd take his time, making sure not to hurt me. I was so far lost to lust and passion, though, that I wasn't sure I'd mind if he did.
The kiss ended as Luke pulled back away from me and stared deep into my eyes with a lascivious gleam. He crawled alongside me, looking up at Jasper. Jasper reached down and stroked the back of his head, and Luke wagged his tail happily. Luke positioned himself over me on all fours and lowered his head, then started to swirl his tongue around the tip of my shaft. Above my muzzle dangled his nicely-shaped balls, along with his bright pink erection jutting out from his furred sheath. I leaned up in order to take his cock back into my mouth, but my body froze as Jasper suddenly pulled out of me and quickly thrust back in.
Jasper's member slamming into me made me emit a yelp that turned into a whimper as Luke suckled down hard on my cock. I had never been so pleasured from both spots at once before, and my mind spun trying to make heads and tails of the mixing sensations. Jasper built up to a steady, gentle lovemaking pace, which somehow felt synchronized with Luke's incredible sucking. For half a second, I wondered if Luke sucked off Jasper more often than the other way around, or if Luke just had more natural talent. Not bothering to dwell on it, I again lifted my head up, and this time succeeded in getting Luke's warm shaft back into my mouth.
My nose pressed up into Luke's furred sac, and my consciousness began to swim in a mess of hormones and pheromones. I slid my tongue all up and down the husky's cock, wrapping my arms up around his lower back to hold my head up. Jasper began to pump in and out me a bit faster as his size loosened me up and made it steadily easier for him. I fixated on just pleasuring Luke with my mouth and tongue in order to distract myself, waiting for the pain and discomfort to fade.
Luke stopped sucking and threw his head back, yipping loudly as he suddenly began to spurt out into my muzzle. His warm, thick fluids shot out in a series of bursts which splattered onto my tongue and slid down to my throat. I did my best to not choke or sputter, and I swallowed it all as he came harder for those few remaining seconds. The strong taste lingered in my mouth, a light, sticky film still coating the inside of my muzzle. Luke's legs wobbled and he almost collapsed on top of me, his head resting lazily in my lap as his chest grew and shrank against my belly with his loud panting.
Now that Luke had stopped sucking on me, and vice versa, all of my attention was riveted on Jasper, taking me as deep as he could. He would thrust his hips forward fast, then pull back out slowly to his tip, then thrust himself back in. My breathing was punctuated by his pumping rhythm, and all I could hear for a few moments was my pulse rushing within my head. The room seemed to go dim, and I thought that I was going to faint until I realized that my eyes were just partly closed, due to the waves of pleasure crashing through my entire body.
Jasper started to ram into me harder, and I waited for him to hit his climax and fill me with his seed, but he suddenly pulled out of me and stopped. I propped myself up on my elbows and looked to the edge of the bed to see what had happened. Luke's paws were resting on Jasper's hips, and the smaller husky looked up into the taller one's eyes. Jasper gazed back down at him as if there were nothing unusual happening. but I could see his cock twitching from even where I was, and I could tell that he had been very close to finishing himself off inside of me.
"Is something wrong, Luke?" Jasper asked, petting him behind one of his ears.
Luke craned his head back and knelt submissively on the bed. "Will you let Shon fuck me, honey?" he asked quietly.
Jasper's eyes met mine. "Would you like that?" he asked me, his paw still absent-mindedly stroking Luke's head and ears.
One look at Luke's face was all that I needed. He had gone from being an in-control dog, getting me to suck him off, to a needy, willing vessel hoping to repay the favor of pleasure back to me. Both huskies looked me expectantly, and I swallowed the breath stuck in my throat and said, "Yes."
Excited, Luke turned to the side and got onto all fours. He wagged his tail at me slowly as I crawled up behind him and brought myself to my knees. He looked back over his shoulder at me with wide eyes as I put both paws at his hips. "Don't worry about hurting me," he said, "I just want you to mount me and have your way with me." With that, he lifted his tail up and raised his rump, and I knew that that's how he really wanted it. Truthfully, I wasn't big on hurting folks, but I'd try not to hesitate. I pressed myself up against his hole, and immediately he tried to bear back against me.
I got a firm grip on Luke's hips and pushed as hard as I could, and he yelped in shock as I made it past his clenched ring and fell forward so fast that before I could stop myself, my balls smacked against his, and I was suddenly completely inside him. His body shook and his head went back with a loud, rumbling moan. "Oh, that's it, Shon," he cried. "Now take me like I'm your little bitch!" I had never imagined that Luke had this kind of side to him. But being inside him felt so good, and I wanted to make him happy, too, so I began to pound in and out of his rear as hard as I possibly could. My balls were tense and heavy between my legs, and I knew I wouldn't be able to last very long.
As if rocked back and forth into Luke's wonderfully tight backside, Jasper stepped up onto the bed. He raised one leg and stepped over Luke's back, standing over him, facing me. His cock stuck out in front of my face, and I didn't even stop to think about anything before I leaned my head forward and slurped him into my muzzle. He made no noise, only cradled the back of my head gently. I kept my mouth on his shaft and looked up into his face. The situation began to feel wrong again; I was trying use my eyes to convey to Jasper how much I loved him, while at the same time I was fucking his boyfriend.
Jasper must have seen the emotions come through on my face, because he stroked my muzzle softly and said, "Everything's okay, dear, don't worry." I closed my eyes and just sucked harder. Luke was breathing heavily and shaking all over, his passage clenching and unclenching around my driving cock. It was all too much, and I went over the edge, emptying myself into him. I whimpered out around Jasper's long shaft and clamped my muzzle down around him firmly.
Luke's legs gave out on him, and he flopped down onto the mattress, causing it to shake. I had to struggle a bit to keep Jasper's cock in my mouth, so I sucked on him harder, holding him in place with my tongue. Jasper's legs continued to shake after the mattress had stopped, however, and an instant later, I got my second mouthful of husky spooge for the evening. His grip shifted from my head to my shoulders, and he let out a barely audible moan as he spurted again and again into my muzzle.
I licked Jasper's head and shaft clean and leaned back, smiling up at him. He laughed happily and carefully stepped down off of the bed, then sat down between me and Luke. Luke hadn't gotten back up yet, so he just rolled onto his back, a look of glowing satisfaction on his face. I looked back and forth between him and Jasper and chuckled quietly as the rush of orgasm slowly faded.
"That was... amazing," Luke muttered, closing his eyes and flitting his tail. "Thanks for finding this one, love," he said as he plopped a hand down on Jasper's thigh.
The twinges of guilt and doubt within me suddenly exploded into full-on intensity. Had I just made a huge mistake? Had I been stupid to have thought that this supposed to have been anything emotional? Was I even Luke's friend, or was I just some outlet for kinky sex? And what about Jasper... Jasper and myself, Jasper and Luke...
Jasper put his arms around me and dragged me down with him as he lay down. I was on one side of him, and Luke was on the other. I was betting that he felt like a pretty lucky guy, having the two of us. What I was wondering now was if I really should have been there at that moment at all.
I loved Jasper. I really, honestly, truly did. And I could only hope that he loved me back. I liked Luke, but I didn't love him. At least, I didn't love him like I loved Jasper. I couldn't even begin to think of what I might have meant to Luke, and I was pretty sure I didn't want to.
I lost track of time as I lay there in Jasper's arms, with Luke's arms over those. I just wanted to fall asleep and stop thinking. Most of me was happy--ecstatic, even.
But the rest of me knew that I couldn't be content. Not until I knew--once and for all, one way or the other--what I was, and what I meant to two men whose bed I now shared.