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I woke up the next morning to the smell of bacon frying, breakfast would be ready soon. I got up, took a shower and dressed for the day. I was downstairs in plenty of time for breakfast. The pups weren't down there yet but Loki was at the table reading the morning news from his Kindle. I took a moment to look at him. He looked haggard, like he hadn't had a good nights sleep in days. He looked up and said, "Good Morning Jeff."

"Good Morning Loki." I replied in a subdued voice.

"I've got a surprise for you today."

"OK, I'll bite."

"Woden is throwing a party for all the members of the hunt and their pets. It starts at noon."

"I'm not sure I want to go..." I said with a bit of trepidation.

"Why not? You'll get to see your old friends."

"So I can see how happy they are with their Sheps? That's gonna be a lot of fun." I said rolling my eyes.

"Jeff, it's your choice to come or not, you're your own boss. But I wish you would come with me so I won't be embarrassed by being the only one whose human didn't come." He pleaded with me.

"OK..." I replied with a resignation in my voice. I owed Loki at least that much.

"Don't worry, there will be beer and soft drinks and lots of food I'm sure."

I tried to put on a happy face, but I'm sure I failed miserably. Fortunately the pups made a boisterous appearance at that moment. Fenrir called out, "Morning Daddy and Jeff!" Which was echoed by the other 3 pups. "We are going to go fishing down at the creek, you wanna come Jeff?"

I would have much rather gone fishing, but I owed it to Loki to accompany him to the party. "I'd love to Fenrir, but your Dad and I have to go to a party at Woden's house."

"That's OK, you should have a great time. Uncle Woden throws great parties." The pups then started debating which part of the creek they were going to fish. Since I had never been there I was kind of left out of the conversation.

Soon Sigyn came into the room followed by Butler who came out to find out how many and what kind of eggs we wanted. I asked for 2 eggs over easy. After we all gave him our orders he went back into the kitchen while he and Chef prepared our breakfasts.

"Well Loki, while you and Jeff are at Woden's party, Freyja is coming over here for the day. She said she needs to get away from all that testosterone that will be there." Sigyn said with a giggle. It was the first time I had ever heard her laugh.

"Yeah, there will be plenty of testosterone there. The 18 most powerful male Sheps on the planet, along with 13 sexy, virile ferals. Oh Yeah, there will be plenty of high power testosterone there." He replied matching her with a chuckle.

"I don't even want to know what happened when you get back." She replied, rolling her eyes.

"What happens at Woden's, stays at Woden's, to paraphrase an old saying." Loki smirked back at her. I had no idea what old saying he was talking about, but from the amused look on her face, Sigyn knew what he was talking about. Breakfast went without incident, just the normal family conversations. After breakfast the pups gathered their gear and pedaled off to the creek, Sigyn started getting ready for her afternoon with Freyja and Loki went to his office to catch up on his paperwork.

I went up to my room and played Super Mario for a few hours while I waited. I was getting pretty good at it now, and the next two hours went by quickly. At 10:30 I got my shower and started getting ready. It was casual dress, so I got out a good polo shirt and a nice pair of shorts, some ankle socks and a new pair of running shoes. I wandered down to Loki's office, he was just finishing up the report he was working on.

"You look good enough to eat Jeff." Loki said with a leer. I blushed and he came up and hugged me. Being in physical contact with Loki made me start to harden. There was something about his smell and his hard body that always made me weak in the knees. Part of me wanted him to take me here and now. In fact it took all of my willpower to resist, but I knew I would regret it if I let things proceed.

When Loki realized that I wasn't going to give in he broke off the hug and said' "Let's get going, James is waiting with the Limo out in the driveway." We went out the front door where the Limo was waiting. James was waiting with the back door open for us. I got in first followed closely by Loki, then James closed the door behind us. He got in the drivers side and asked, "Sir, is there anywhere we need to go before we head to The White House?"

"No James, just head straight over. The party is probably already started."

James drove quickly and expertly, weaving through the sluggish traffic. It seemed like the other drivers yielded when they saw the limo with the big Greek letter beta on the sides. It was obvious that the other Sheps and even the CBHs who were allowed to drive had great respect for Loki. When we finally got to The White House James got out of the car and opened the door for Loki and I to get out. James asked, "Sir, do you want me to wait with the Limo?"

"No James. Why don't you park it and enjoy the party. Just keep away from the booze." Loki said with a wink. James got back in the Limo and drove it off to park it as we walked to the door. Woden's Butler, a relatively tall CBH answered the door and escorted us to the party. When we got to the back yard we were greeted by Woden. I had almost forgotten what a presence he had. Regardless of who else was in the room, your eyes couldn't help but be drawn to him, he just had magnetism about him, well that and the fact that he was sexy as hell. He came up to Loki, reached out, shook his paw and said. "I'm glad you and Jeff were able to come."

"Thanks for inviting us. It will be good to have the whole crew together for something other than work for a change."

"Yeah, it's the first time since the hunt that we've all had a chance to just hang out." He then bent down and extended his paw to me and I reached out to shake it. "It's good to see you again, Jeff. I'm glad to hear you are getting more settled in our culture. I almost didn't recognize you with your hair cut short. You look really handsome that way, very manly." He said winking at me.

I flinched a little when he mentioned the haircut, but I realized he was being sincere and was trying to be complementary. "Thank you Sir." He was just so handsome and when he shook my hand I couldn't help but bone up. Just touching someone so masculine and alpha almost sent me over the edge. "Your house is beautiful, Sir."

He let go of my hand and said, "I'll take you on a tour of it." He showed us the whole house. Our house was really nice, I have no complaints about it, but The White House was something else. I don't really know how to describe it; it was ornate but elegant and tasteful. He made a joking comment when we got to David's room; he said it was "the least used room in the house". His smirk told us both that David was taking care of ALL of his needs. And if that wasn't enough of a hint, he said "Sometimes the little scamp just plain wears me out, I never thought that was possible." Loki cringed at this, and Woden finally caught on and said, "I'm sorry Loki, that was a bit careless of me."

That put a little bit of a damper on the rest of the tour, but since it was the last room on the tour, the awkward moment was over quickly. We made our way back outside and I could see that the Sheps were all hanging together and the rest of the members of my old tribe were hanging out together too. They had a picnic table, with potato chips, a variety of dips and a big platter of nachos. David walked up to me and shook my hand welcoming me. "It's good to see you again Jeff."

At first I wanted to make a snide remark, and in the past I would have, but I realized that he was trying to bury the hatchet. He really wasn't the one at fault; it was really my Dad's fault that we never got along. He was the one that was always chiding me for losing to David. Plus I would really look petty in front of the others if I pouted, so I replied, "Yes, it's good to see you again." And to my surprise I realized that deep down I really meant it.

"Grab a plate, help yourself to the snacks and catch up with our old friends." He added.

"I don't know... I'm embarrassed about what happened. I don't know if I can face them." I said with my head hung.

To my surprise he came over and hugged me then continued, "I doubt that they know about it. I know about it since Loki called my Master when it happened and he had to leave in a rush, so of course he had to tell us why when he got back. Plus your pups and my pups are best friends so they talked about it when I was there. But the other Sheps probably don't even know about it, let alone their pets." He continued to hug me, "Jeff you've got to let go of your past. I know your Master loves you. The Sheps are the best thing that has ever happened to us."

"I can't David, a real man wouldn't submit to anyone." In my own mind I added "and enjoy it".

He let go of me and stepped back, it was obvious that he was trying to think of a reply, then he finally continued, "Well I'll see you out there, I need to tell Gofer to bring us more beer and sodas, the ice tub is getting low." Then he walked off toward the house.

I walked over to the group. Steve, Alan, Zac and Alex were congregated around one of the picnic tables, so I grabbed a plate full of chips and headed over to it. They had been there a bit longer than Loki and I had been judging from the pile of beer cans in the trash basket next to the table.

"Man I never thought life could be so good." Alex said.

"You said it! My Master is the greatest. I thought being someones sub would be awful, but nothing could be further from the truth." Zac replied. "It's not like I'm submitting to another human, it's obvious that he's pretty much my superior in every way. And he makes it so apparent that he loves me."

"Hell I hate to be away from my Masters even this long, and they are only over at the table on the other side of the pool." Opined Alan, then I remembered that he was the one with 2 masters. He had been the priest in our tribe, now he was the butt boy of two Sheps, how much of a man could he possibly be.

"How can you say that? You were the priest in our tribe... You were the one always saying that sex was wrong, especially with other men." I asked.

"Well a person can see the light and change their mind. I mean how can something that feels so right be wrong?" He defended himself.

"Well I don't know how you can live with yourself. How can you even think of yourself as a man?"

"What the fuck does that have to do with being a man?" Steve jumped in angrily, it was obvious that he was already more than a bit tipsy from the beer.

"A real man would never take it up the ass from anyone, at least not willingly!" I just about screamed. I don't know why I had to bring this up, it was none of my business what they did.

"Oh are you saying I'm not a real man?" Steve said balling his fists.

Just then David came running back to break up our little argument. "Hey! What's going on?"

"This little asshole is questioning my, well all of our manhood!" Steve said, shooting daggers at me with his eyes. David raised his eyebrows questioningly, and Steve continued, "He thinks we aren't real men because we let our Masters take us."

"Well if I had to make a choice between being a "real man" and being with my Master, I guess you would have to call me a sissy. But I don't feel like it makes me any less of a man."

"I'm sorry." I said. "I guess it's none of my business, I shouldn't have said anything."

Just then Gofer came out in a golf cart with more beer and soda and put them in the ice tub. He then started gathering up the empties and putting them in the trash can. I noticed him being kind of furtive when he picked up David's old beer can. David wasn't paying any attention, he was talking to our old tribe mates. Gofer walked back over to the golf cart and picked up a cold beer from the front seat and placed it on the table where David's empty beer can had been. He then grabbed the liner full of empty beer cans out of the trash can threw it on the golf cart and replaced the liner.

As he climbed in the cart to leave David said, "Thanks Gofer."

"You're welcome, Master David." I wasn't sure but it sounded like his voice was tinged with sarcasm when he said "Master" but I couldn't be sure. There was just something about him that wasn't right for a CBH.

Gofer drove over to an area surrounded by tall hedges which I assumed was a staging area for trash and pulled in. In a minute I saw the hedge move and I could see him peering out of the hedge spying on us. In a minute or two David reached for his beer. He picked it up and pulled the tab... And beer foam shot all over him.

"Fuck! Son of a Woman! Who the fuck shook up my beer?" He screamed.

Everybody was laughing their asses off. I saw Gofer disappear behind the hedges, and it seemed like he was laughing. He just didn't seem like a CBH, they just didn't do things on their own. I hated being a tattle tale but I thought David deserved a warning.

"Your CBH, Gofer, had that one on the front seat of his golf cart and made sure you got it."

I could see his temper start to flare, and just as quickly I saw it die. "Well it's nothing really anyway, I'll just go up to the house, rinse off and change."

"You're gonna let him get away with that?" Steve asked incredulously.

"I feel sorry for him. The CBH's are so pathetic and their lives are so empty, I just can't get too upset with them when I have been so blessed." And with that he jogged up to the house to change.

After an awkward silence of a few minutes, when everyone just drank beer and noshed on some chips, Steve started the conversation back up, "My Master Filibert is great in bed. He's kind and considerate and he's got great stamina."

"Same with my My Master Wigmar," Alex added as David made his way back to the the table, "and he's got eight and a half inches of studmeat."

"My Master Rochus may only have seven and half inches, but he really knows how to get the most out of it. Plus he makes me feel so safe and loved!" Jim pitched in while David grabbed a new beer from deep in the ice, I'm assuming just to make sure that he didn't get one that had been shaken.

"Well I've got you all beat!" Alan bragged. "I've got two Masters for twice the fun. Karl is a real dom and packs a full nine inches! He gets a little harsh at times but even that ends up feeling great because I usually get some great effects those times. Lambert is more tender and only has about 7 inches, which is great too since it's easier to give him oral and usually when he is getting sloppy seconds I'm already pretty sore from getting hammered by Karl." Most of the guys groaned in defeat.

Except for David who was smirking as he replied with just 3 words, "I've got Woden!", while holding his hands about a foot apart. Nothing more needed to be said.

"You smug little bastard!" Steve exclaimed in mock anger. "How the fuck did you get so lucky?"

"I'll bet he is great in the sack!" Bryan said with obvious jealousy.

"Of course he is, and I make sure I don't give him any more time than necessary to recharge before draining him again." David replied with an evil grin.

"I'll bet you get really creative from his potent effects." Ted chimed in.

"What are you talking about?" David asked, his curiosity aroused as was mine.

"You know, when you are tied and he's filling you with his seed. You know how you get a little light headed but you think of all sorts of things you would never have thought of without the effects." Ted continued.

David laughed and added, "Really? That never happened to me, as soon as he cums in me I just drift off in ecstasy and black out. I'm never awake to be creative." Which was how things always worked with Loki and I too.

"Wow! You pass out completely? Steve asked.

"Yeah, I just go into euphoria and don't remember anything for hours until it wears off."

"I've heard the more dominant the Shep the more potent the effects, so the fact that Woden's are so potent shouldn't come as much of a surprise." Alan continued. "Karl is the more dominant of my Masters and his effects are much more potent than Lambert's."

"Hey Jeff, your master is The Beta, what are his effects like?" Ray asked.

"Pretty much like what David said, it is so intense it almost makes you forget that a real man shouldn't let anyone fuck them." I replied. They all rolled their eyes and then ignored me as they continued to talk about how good their masters were in bed. My mind wandered and I glanced over at the Sheps table. Loki didn't seem like his usual self, when he was with the other Sheps on the hunt he was very outgoing. Now he was like a wallflower, just moping about, and it was my fault he was like this.

I was broken out of my reverie by Woden yelling out. "Chow's ready! Come and get it.!" We all wandered over to the table with all the food on it. There were baked beans, coleslaw, potato salad, macaroni salad, watermelon, and burgers and dogs on the grill. A CBH was manning the grill. We all grabbed plates and started milling around the table helping ourselves to heaping mounds of the food. I grabbed a couple of buns then went up and got a couple of hotdogs. Everyone was sitting by their Shep so I went and sat by Loki.

Loki put his arm around me, I wondered if it was just for show? "How did it feel meeting your old friends again?"

"Awkward..." I answered.

"In what way?"

"They all kept talking about how they liked letting their masters bugger them."

"I know, I was having the same problem. All my friends kept talking about how good their ferals were in bed and how much they loved them."

I wanted to tell him that I really did love him, but I just couldn't. "Well my friends all love their Shep's and seem really happy."

Loki cringed a little at that, then said, "Maybe you should rethink things Jeff. Everyone seems to be happy except us..."

"I know Loki, but I know I can't live with myself if I do."

There wasn't much more to say, but everybody was busy stuffing their mouths with food. Some of the humans and Sheps were feeding each other and gazing at each other lovingly. They were so fucking happy. Neither Loki or I ate much, we just picked at our food. I only managed to finish half my food before the rest were finishing up. They were gathering together to play some of the lawn games that Gofer had brought out. There were two types of games, one called bocce and one called cornhole. David and Woden started playing bocce with Ted and his master Theobald. Other groups were using the other bocce sets or gathering at the cornhole boards. One of the Sheps called out to his opponent that the winners get to 'cornhole' the losers, and the opponent accepted the challenge. David tossed the pallino and it went over by one of the cornhole tables. They all played their balls and when they came up to score their round David's eyes lit up upon seeing one of the Sheps.

"Hey Welf! Have you ever paid my Master the 10 Eden Units you owe him?" David yelled out to one of the Sheps that didn't have a pet.

"Owe him for what?"

"Losing the bet to him on the hunt."

"What do you mean, I won that bet. He owes me."

"How do you figure? You bet him that he wouldn't get me." David said incredulously.

"Exactly, he didn't catch you, you gave up." Welf replied smugly.

With that Woden broke in, "I had forgot all about that Welf. Pay up!"

"You pay up, you never caught him, he gave up after you were ready to quit."

"You just said that I wouldn't "get" him." Woden said as he stood behind David, wrapping his arms around him and cupping David's package in his big right paw. "It seems to me I've got him." He said as David moaned.

"I think he got you! I'm not sure which one of you is the Master and which one is the pet." Welf replied, laughing immoderately.

"Oh? You think so, do you?" Woden countered with an evil grin. "Maybe I need to show you who the Alpha is. On your knees feral!" He commanded David. But it was obvious that an order wasn't needed, David was on his knees almost before the "order" was out of Woden's muzzle.

"Yes Master!" David replied as he cupped Woden's huge balls, his face in an ear to ear grin. David reached up and peeled back Woden's sheath until the head of his huge phallus was exposed. He took it into his eager mouth and sucked on it until it started to harden. When it was stiff enough he started to bob up and down on it until he was taking it all the way down his throat. I had no idea how he managed that given the sheer size of Woden's cock.

With David busy worshiping his cock, Woden turned to Welf and mocked, "Why don't you get your feral to take care of you. OH I FORGOT, you didn't catch one on the hunt. I guess you will just have to watch." While David continued to bob up and down on that tower of dog flesh.

"Fuck You! You sonofawoman!" Welf said with mock indignation.

"Hot Stuff, get your ass over here and assume the position!" A powerful Shep named Franco ordered.

Zac who I assume was now called Hot Stuff ran over and dropped to his knees in front of his Master. "Which position?" He asked eagerly.

"That one will work just fine, if it's good enough for Woden, it's good enough for me." Franco replied to Zac, who immediately started enthusiastically giving him an expert BJ.

Soon one by one the other Sheps were calling their pets to get in on what was now turning into an orgy. Alan our old priest was on his knees sucking on one of his masters while the other was doing him "doggy style". Then one of the Sheps yelled out to one of Alan's Masters, "Hey Karl, were doing you one better!" Jim and Bryan were lying in the grass on their sides in a hot and heavy 69 while their Masters, Rochus and Rambert were behind their pets jamming their big Shep boners up their pets asses.

I looked over at Loki and I could see he was almost in tears, he was the only one whose feral wasn't eagerly putting out for his master, but I just couldn't do it and live with myself afterward. He looked over at me beseechingly, but I just dropped my eyes in refusal. When I looked up he was gone. I was no more interested in watching this celebration of Masters and Pets than he was, but I didn't know where to go. By now all of my former tribe mates were busy with their Shep, it was then I saw the Gofer slip off purposefully. There was something that was just not right about him, he just didn't act like a CBH, maybe a Shep might not notice it but I could sense that he wasn't who he seemed. I followed him from a distance, it wasn't hard to do since he seemed preoccupied with where he was going. Besides he was a CBH and while I wasn't as good as David about stalking, I was pretty damn good. He headed over to a small break in the hedges and peeked through. Obviously he was spying on something on the other side of the hedges. I found a vantage point where I could see through and also keep an eye on Gofer. What I saw on the other side of the hedge shocked me. Loki was there with another handsome Shep, although nowhere near as handsome as him.

"Come on Loki, snap out of it. The rest of them are all having a good time with their ferals. I didn't get one on the hunt and obviously you and your feral don't have that kind of relationship. I'd love having that big dick of yours up my ass, I haven't had anyone top me in a long time. I'm sure those big balls of yours could use drained." The other Shep begged Loki.

"I don't know Ansulm. I'm not sure I feel like it." Loki replied.

"What's wrong Loki? You haven't been yourself since we got back from the hunt." This Anselm asked.

"It's my feral Jeff. He's not adapting well to being a pet and I don't know why. The first couple nights we were together were almost perfect and it has gone down hill since then. When we have sex it is wonderful and he really enjoys it, but after it's over he seems like he feels guilty about it. I've been giving him space but he still hasn't come around."

"I'm sorry to hear that Loki, but that's just more reason to get some "exercise". You know it's not healthy for Shep balls to get all backed up."

"But I love him Ansulm, I'll feel guilty, like I'm cheating on him."

"How are you cheating on him?" Ansulm said as he moved forward toward Loki and cupped Loki's "package" with one of his large paws. He put his other arm around Loki and pulled him towards him. Loki was still kind of rigid like he was in a daze when Ansulm reached up with his arm and pulled Loki's head down toward his and kissed him, while rubbing his other paw up and down Loki's sheath.

I heard Loki rumble a low growl as he broke the kiss and then he put his paws on Ansulm's shoulders and pushed him to his knees. "Suck it Bitch!" He said as he pulled Ansulm's muzzle to his crotch. Ansulm snaked his long Shep tongue inside the tip of Loki's sheath, then used it to peel the sheath down while taking Loki's now semi-hard doghood into his muzzle. I glanced up to see what Gofer was doing and he had his fly open and was stroking his 6 inch circumcised cock, while staring intently at the unfolding scene. Why was everyone bigger than me? Loki hardened quickly under Ansulm's attention, then he pulled Ansulm's head away from his groin and said, "On you knees Bitch, it's time to show you who the stud dog is!"

Ansulm turned around, fell to his knees and raised his tail up and to the side, exposing his pucker to Loki. He looked over his shoulder and called out, "Sir, the Pup is ready for the big Alpha dog to use him."

Loki positioned himself behind Ansulm and guided that huge 10" slab of dog meat to Ansulm's tight but eager nether hole. It was obvious that he didn't put out for too many others by the fact that he was so tight. He gasped as Loki penetrated him, despite myself all I could think of was that that could be me instead. He wasn't as tender or loving with Ansulm as he was with me, he drove the whole length in to him in one vicious thrust. It was everything Ansulm could do not to scream out in pain, but Loki just grabbed his hips with both paws and started working furiously in and out of Ansulm's tight ass. But soon it was obvious that Loki's effects were easing the pain, as Ansulm's sheath, which had gone limp from the pain, started to plump again. He wasn't as big as Loki, probably between 8 and 9 inches, but being one of the top Sheps he seemed plenty big to me. From my vantage point I could see Loki's big pendulous balls smacking against Ansulm's smaller set as he rode him hard, much to Ansulm's delight. Ansulm was pawing himself while Loki pounded him relentlessly. Loki put his big paw in the middle of Ansulm's back and forced his face into the ground like someone groveling then Loki straightened his back until he was towering over him, completely dominant. I could see his knot already starting to swell, but instead of seating it like he did when he fucked me he continued to drive it in and out of Ansulm's abused pucker. It was already a third of its size when he forced it in for the final time, then continued the short one inch thrusts that locked him in tight. Loki cried out, "Take it Bitch!" as his nads jumped in their sack. I knew the feeling of Loki's big load blasting deep into me. I could just imagine the jolt of effects that Ansulm must be feeling.

I heard a grunt and my eyes shot back up to Gofer, who started to shoot jets of cum into the air. He was obviously still a teenager but even he shot more than I did. I turned back to watch the two Sheps. Ansulm's eyes rolled back in his head and he gripped his knot and shot his load on the ground. I guess Sheps can handle effects better than humans because I know if I would have taken a load like that I would have blacked out. After a few seconds Ansulm said, "Thanks Loki, I needed that!"

Loki finally lay his upper body on Ansulm's back and Ansulm slowly sank to the grass with Loki still locked deeply inside him. They rolled over on their sides and Loki started gently licking Ansulm's ear. "Damn I really needed that, it's been almost a week since I busted a nut. Sorry if I was a little bit rough."

"It's OK, I like it rough from my alphas. But no wonder your feral doesn't want it."

"It's not like that Ansulm. I know a human can't take a pounding like that. I think I treat him pretty good, he really enjoys it while it is happening."

"Then what's his problem?"

"I wish I knew, he is a natural submissive. When we are going at it he can't get enough. But after it's over he feels ashamed. Claims a 'real man' wouldn't take it up the ass. He gets to the point of not being able to cope."

"That's crazy, how does submitting to your alpha make you less of a 'man'? I mean I'm pretty much a 'real man' unless you compare me to you or Woden. Or does he think he is alpha to you and that he shouldn't be taking it from a beta?"

"I don't know where he got this ridiculous idea, he seems to accept that I'm alpha to him. I just don't know what to do about him Ansulm. And don't say I could force him, I love him too much to just overpower him with effects. I want his love not just his body." Loki said and he rubbed his big paw up and down Ansulm's muscular chest. As I watched them, part of me could not find anything unmanly in either of them. Then I realized I didn't know this Ansulm, he couldn't really be a 'real man' if he wanted to be taken. Then I felt a terrible pang of jealousy, Loki was holding him and nuzzling his ear while Anslum was surrendering himself completely to Loki. Just Like I USED To Do. Why couldn't I let that be me? Why was Ansulm getting the attention I longed for but was too much of a "man" to accept? Why was being a real man so damned important?

"Ansulm, it's really getting bad. I've already bonded to him... From the start I gave my heart to him completely. I never realized how powerful the bond is with a human. You know Woden and I are like brothers, but our bond is nothing like the Shep/Human bond. It's tearing me apart inside... I can't sleep at night anymore without Jeff hugging me, all I can think about is the distance between us." It was heartbreaking, my big strong master was almost reduced to tears. "It's affecting my work... Thank God Woden understands and is patient with me, even quite sympathetic. That plus work is really slow right now... Ansulm I just don't know how long I can go on like this..." He stopped, a tear running down his cheek.

"Damn Loki, I didn't know things were so bad."

"I'm sorry Ansulm, I should never have burdened you this. I should be stronger than this... I'm so ashamed of myself..."

"Loki, you needed to get this off your chest. I don't have a feral so I can't really understand the bond, but I can see this is really tearing you up. If you ever need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, remember I'm always here for you and I'm sure Woden would be too."

I couldn't take anymore of this, I turned and ran back to the party. When I got back, the active part of the orgy was over, now it was pretty much just the Sheps tied with their humans, basking in the afterglow of great sex. Most of the pairs were whispering to each other, mainly sweet nothings. David was blacked out laying on Woden while Woden continued to intermittently pump his effects laden load deep into him. I guess it was just that Woden and Loki, being the two most dominant Sheps had much more powerful effects than the rest.

They were all happy, my tribesmen and their Sheps. All except Loki and I, and maybe the 4 Sheps that didn't get a human on the hunt. I didn't realize how much pain I was causing Loki, but I still didn't know what to do about it. He was having trouble coping with being without me and I was having trouble living with myself for submitting. Was there any answer to this dilemma? If there was I couldn't see it at this time.

One by one the Sheps "ties" broke and they were able to separate from their pets. All of them except David were awake, if a little tipsy. They were making loving small talk with their masters. The last one to break his tie was Woden, David was out cold. Woden lay there with him on his chest for about 5 minutes then picked him up and carried him up to the house to put him in bed. He then came back down to say goodby to all of us.

By that time Loki and Ansulm had come back. Ansulm had that "just fucked" look, you know the one where you are a little dizzy from effects and you are walking like you have a board stuck up your ass. Everyone knew what they had been doing, Loki even looked a little more relaxed. They came up to me and Ansulm hugged Loki goodbye. "Remember if things get too stressful and you need some relief, I'll be there for you."

"Thanks Ansulm I really needed that, you're a good friend."

"Hey I'm not that altruistic, I enjoyed it as much or more than you." He replied with a wink.

James had gone to get the Limo and had already pulled up in front of the house before we had got there. He was standing there holding the back door open for us. I climbed in and Loki followed. He put his arm around me again. He reeked of the smell of sex, but I couldn't hold it against him. He was a high ranking alpha male that needed sexual release and I wasn't providing it for him... Couldn't provide it for him... And now I new he was craving me as much or more than I was craving him. Maybe bonding for a Shep was even worse than for a human. It sure sounded that way at least. He didn't talk, he just held me close to him as we drove home.

The rest of the day was rather uneventful, just the usual dinner, albeit a little later than usual since the pups didn't get home from fishing until 5 pm. They were all excited it had been a great day of fishing for them, they brought back over a hundred nice size bluegills in their fish baskets. Loki and I heard them come home and we went out to admire their catch. Most of them were still alive and flopping so they dumped them all in an ice chest and to keep them fresh while they filleted them.

"Jeff, do you know how to fillet fish?" Fenrir asked.

"Sure. Do you guys want some help?"

"Yeah!" He said as he handed me a fillet knife.

They carried the cooler out back to a small shed where there was a table where they cleaned fish and game. I grabbed a fish and started filleting it as Fenrir started telling us about their fishing trip. "We were fishing for bluegills with popping bugs and black foam rubber spiders in the deeper pools. We had caught quite a few, when I saw a big swirl in the water by a fallen log. I knew it was something big so I put a big deer hair frog bass bug on my tippet and cast it right on the log. I let it set there for a moment then popped it off the log into the water. I let it set until all the ripples stopped then twitched it gently once. That's when all hell broke loose. A 22 inch smallmouth bass came up and nailed it so hard that I almost didn't even have to set the hook. He tried his best to wrap me around the log, but I kept him from getting back to it. He put up a great fight but I finally got him in. I got a picture of him then let him go. They don't taste as good a bluegill and and this way someone else can have a good time catching him again." He fished out his cellphone and showed us the picture.

"Damn, that's a nice one Fenrir!" I said with admiration.

"Yes it is Fenny!" Loki said enthusiastically.

The pups continued to talk about their day as we whittled away at the pile of bluegill until they were all done and we had a big bowl of sweet, white bluegill fillets. We brought them up to the house and gave them to Chef, who would prepare them for dinner. The pups went down to the poolhouse to shower. Loki went with them, I assume to was the odor of sex off. While they showered I grabbed a basketball and started shooting around. Even thought I wasn't very good I still enjoyed the game. In my mind I fantasized about being able to fly through the air like Loki. When they came up to the house I followed them in and soon Butler announced that dinner was ready. The bluegill were excellent and we had them with french fries, onion rings and batter dipped deep fried cauliflower. We all ate too much, then went into the family room to watch a movie while our food digested.

Loki sat next to me, pulling me close to him as he nuzzled my ear affectionately. I was hard as a rock the whole time, but today he didn't reach into my shorts. Maybe he figured if I didn't get off I would be more likely to go to bed with him. But eventually the movie was over and we all headed to our separate bedrooms.

I was feeling really lonely, more lonely than ever. There were so many questions and no answers. Would Loki give up on me if I didn't come around soon? Could I ever come around? It was so hard seeing my tribesmen so happy with their masters. Why couldn't I be. I walked over to my dresser and got out my beautiful collar. I looked at the gold nameplate and read, Beau Property of Loki. I thought about how it had been given to me out of love. I thought about how much Loki loved me as I ran my finger over and over the nameplate as I cried myself to sleep.