This damned world.... Knowing love
I published this today to the fact that my secret is out... My family, my friends, everyone left me... I will come back stronger.... I will be back with more hope. But who can I depend on now... I am 14yrs of age, homeless and broke..... But I know I can live this out someway...
Knowing love....
It changes us everyday
But my man loves me in every way
From the good to the bad he can never disappoint
A strong god loving man than He is known to appoint
The feelings I have for others have taken my life by the chest,
I know that I can't be the candy of his eye alone
Is that true
Is that false
a trip down to hell
Never have I heard of a Perfect Fairy tale...
The truth lies with everyone
The truth lies in you
Open your heart to yourself
Open it for yourself
The truth is for everyone...
But I have lived a lie...
How I really am doesn't show in the morning
But at the dark shades of night
Where while I slumber he is the one
Containing my true heart...
Away from my family
The struggles I have been through
To find myself, like I already knew
Was difficult, painful, and full of denial
From these struggles, turned my heart towards evil bile
Blood really is thicker than water
My family doesn't accept my difference
But I respect theirs.....
A life alone, without being happy
I never would image
But first I remember when God was my image
I fell away from Him, looking for my heart away from all the stress
Maybe I just need some help or maybe this isn't the best for me
My family said that this is nothing but evil
But if it's true this evil keeps me sane
I can express myself
To be happy like I never was before
To be where the boys are
Where I'm not all alone...
I realizes that this place is a war field
The one I call home is full of battles
Blacks vs. whites
Gay marriage vs. straights
Family vs. My Gay love life
Why do all this matter
We all are equal... or so we're told...
I am always looked sideways in Memphis
Everytime I hold hands with another boy of a different color
Some don't know what true love is
I don't want people to judge me for my skin for it'll always be mine
But being gay isn't and will never be color blind
Just how I like it...
Where I can be me
With no binds attached