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Sorry for the delay with this one. i was recently in a car accident, as i said in my journal, and was out on some big time muscle relaxers, which put me to sleep and made me loopey most of the time. then when i got off of those, it was hard to get back in the hang of writing. well, anyways here you go, Ch 3 of my story, How To Change a Life. Enjoy!

I awoke the next morning with my alarm clock blaring into my ear once again. But this time, I rose right out of bed and flicked it off. I instantly got out of my bed, having an unusual amount of energy this morning. I knew why though, today was a day when I accomplished something for the first time in a while. I'm going to get my first date with another fur for the first time since my asshole ex broke up with me. Today, I'm going to get a date.

Once I stood up from my bed I walked over to the door, threw it open, and walked right to the bathroom. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and smiled at myself. 'There's no way Skylar can resist me' I think to myself a little too arrogantly. I then leave the mirror and move to the shower, close the curtain, and start the bathing myself.

After my shower, I walk into my bedroom and quickly pick out some clothes. Today, a white Nickelback t shirt and some medium dark colored blue jeans. I pick up my phone, my wallet, and my pocket knife I usually carry with me when I go places. Sometimes I forget it, but I usually try to keep up with it.

I walk into the kitchen where Tony is just now sitting down with his breakfast. He looks up to me and smiles, "You ready to make Skylar your bitch?"

"Well, I wouldn't say that, but if that's what phrase you wanna use, go right ahead." I say while I make my breakfast.

"Dude, you know how I am with relationships, you know that's what phrase I'm going to use."

I just chuckle as a response as I sit down at the table with my bowl of cereal, "When was the last time you had a serious relationship anyways?"

"Uhmmm....I think, like four years ago. Yeah, when Mary dumped me, that's the last relationship I had." He said, scratching his head and looking up to the ceiling in thought, then to me with his memory reclaimed.

"Whoa......four years? Four years since you've had a serious relationship?" I ask bewildered.

"No, four years since I've had any relationship."

"wha......seriously? Wow......." I say sitting back, trying to figure out how he does it. "But, what about all the girls that you bring here? You know, the ones I have to hear moaning that sound like their practically in my ear?"

I see him snicker, probably from pride at the fact that he knew what to do to make the girls go wild in bed, "All one night stands. When I go to the bar I find the hot ones with bad personalities, or are dumber than a sack of rocks. That way, it's easier to get them in bed and they don't think to try to get my number before they leave." He says sort of proudly.

I sit back in my chair and look at with wide eyes, shaking my head "wow......you're a monster" I say bluntly.

He throws his head back and laughs at my remark. "Hey, don't you judge me!" He says smiling.

I look up to the clock and see it's time for me to head to class. I stand up and head over to the couch, sit down and begin put on my shoes. "You really gonna ask him out today?" I hear Tony ask me from his spot at the kitchen table.

"Sure am!"

"Alright, well, good luck! And if he rejects you, don't be too discouraged, alright?" He says with a worried expression.

"Heh, there's no way he can resist all this!" I say standing up and waving my paws in the air around me, as if presenting my body to him.

I see the dalmatian start laughing in amusement at my act of self arrogance. "I gotta go bro, I'll see ya tonight." I say to him as I finish pulling on and tying my shoes.

"Alright, see ya man!" I hear him say as I grab my hoodie, my car keys, and head out the door for a day that is bound to be interesting.

Once I get to my car I automatically plug in my phone and hit random on my play list and Linkin Park's 'One Step Closer' comes on. I smile and take off make my way to my daily class. "Today's Tuesday, so I have Calculus 1 and General Economics. Fuck!" I think to myself. I hate calculus with a burning passion. Me and math do not get along in any way at all. Every time my calculus professor opens her maw, part of me dies a little inside. Don't get me wrong, the professor herself is a pretty alright, but the subject is pretty much a mystery to me. I may need to get a tutor sometime. "hmmmmm.....I wonder if Skylar's any good with calculus. Maybe that's something we could talk about on our first date. I wonder what we should do for our first date. Maybe we could go see a movie. Magic mike maybe? Hmmm....that might get him in the mood. Or, would it be too obvious I'm trying to get him in the mood to do something? I'm not, although it would be nice to get some. But, I doubt he would want to slide down my pole on the first date. I mean, I don't want to seem like I am. I don't want to look like the kind of guy who only wants sex. I don't want to be like Tony for Gods sake! Tony's a good friend, but I gotta wonder when, if ever, he's gonna find a girl he really likes, and settle down and commit."

I'm brought out of my thoughts as a car pulls out in front of me, making me slam on my brakes and nearly cause a car to slam into my rear. Luckily the fur behind me was paying attention, and I saw him looking right at the car in front of me, obviously shouting some kind of profanity at them. I looked at the car who was now on it's way on the road, and realized I was holding up traffic, and started moving forward again. I catch myself glaring at the car in front of me, which I notice is a Ford Mustang GT with some amazing coloring. It's main color is black, and has a single white stripe, and two smaller bright red stripes on either side going down it's middle, including it's hood, top, trunk and going down to the bumper and stopping. It was one of the most amazing looking cars I had ever seen. My dream car just happened to be a Mustang GT, and the markings on this car, were the most stunning I had ever seen. I was in love. Before we reached the next stop light, I changed lanes and sped up so I would be next to it, so I could get a better look at the interior. As I came up to the car, I looked in and I saw what looked like a maybe 16 year old coyote. "spoiled piece of shit." I think to myself as I let out a growl to myself. I look back to the stop light and I hear a car honk. To my left. The same car that I was so interested in, was honking at me. I look over and I see the driver yelling something at me, so I rolled down my window. He looked angry, and stopped yelling as soon as the window was down enough for me to hear him, so I yelled "What'd you say?"

"I said, you nearly ran into me back there!" He yelled at me with a slight growl.

This caught my attention, and made my blood start to boil. I wasn't normally an angry husky, but I have zero tolerance for people who are idiots. By idiots, I mean people who don't have any common sense, are wrong about the dumbest things, and think they're always right. You know the kind of people I mean. And this guy clearly fell into this category. "The fuck did you just say?!" I yelled back at him with clear anger in my voice.

"you heard me, bitch! I had time to pull out, and you sped up!"

"Bull shit! You did NOT have time to go! You ran out right in front of me!!"

"Dude! Are you dumb or something?! Look at this car! Do you think I'd do something to ruin a car this nice?!"

"How old are you?!"

"just turned sixteen last week! What does that have to do with anything!?"

"Ok, how the fuck does a new driver get a car like that!?"

"What do you mean?! This cars OK, but not the one I wanted!"

That really got me mad, "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN NOT WHAT YOU WANTED!?!?" I screamed at him at the top of my lungs, furious beyond belief.

"It wasn't my first choice! Why do you fucking care?!"

At that the light turned green and I peeled out, obviously pissed off. I quickly got to the speed limit and kept going. I look over to my left and see the same asshole keeping up with me. So, I speed up, wanting to out do him, but I hear a voice in my head tell me to 'slow down' and 'don't let him get to you' and 'control yourself'. It took me a few seconds, but I finally calm down and slow down back to the speed limit. I look to my speedometer and I'm going about 85 in a 45. I slowly slow down to the legal limit, but the coyote keeps going at the same speed, clearly proud of his victory. Then, I see a cop pull up to a stop light right in front of the mustang, still doing 80 MPH or higher, turn on his lights, and take off after him. At that, a huge smile spreads over my muzzle, as the Mustang is pulled over, and obviously given a pretty high speeding ticket. 'I sure am glad I slowed down' I think to myself, 'Thank you, tiny voice inside of my head, that could have been bad.'

I pass up the mustang and the police officer, the cop clearly yelling at the coyote, and writing him a ticket. He sees me, and I see him point to me and start saying something to the cop, but he only yells at him again, causing him to flinch and look down. I smile to myself again.

Before I know it, I'm sitting in my calculus class, with my professor rambling on about a formula that I wasn't really interested in. My mind is other places, mainly on a certain fox that I'm to meet today. "i wonder what he'll be wearing. Probably just the same thing, it's his work uniform after all. Hmmmmm.... hopefully the clothes he's wearing are a little tight on him. I'd like to get a good look at that beautiful piece of fox. I wonder what we should go do on our date. Maybe go get dinner, or just go for a walk or something like that. Something that would let us talk and get to know each other. I really hope he's not just a good looking guy with nothing up top. I don't want this to be a one night thing like Tony has every weekend, and sometimes during the week. I wonder if Skylar's like that, has sex with anyone who asks. I hope he's not a man-whore." I'm once again brought out of my thoughts, but this time it's the professor slamming her yard stick on her desk and demanding that this was 'simple and we should already understand it.' I try to pay attention, but my mind just won't let me today."I wonder how I should ask him. Maybe, 'hey, you, me, dinner tomorrow night.' No no, that's too arrogant. Maybe, 'would you like to go do something with me sometime? Maybe tomorrow night?' Yeah that sounds good. I would ask him that, and then he would say....." Then something Tony said this morning ran through my mind 'if he says no, don't take it too hard'. "Well, what if he did say no? What if he did turn me down? He.....no, there's no way he'll turn me down. I'm too....I'm too good for that. He'll have to say yes. Yeah I'm sure he'll say yes. He will. I'll ask him to go out on......let's say Friday. That way if we don't want the night to end it won't have to. Good thing I have Saturday off."

Before I know it, I'm in general economics. It's just a class that teaches you how to spend your money wisely and not go and get yourself bankrupt. It's mainly for students that didn't take it in high school, which I did not. But, like in calculus, I can't concentrate on the class. The only thing that has my attention is the fox that I met yesterday. But, since I remembered what Tony had said this morning, my thoughts had turned a little sour during calculus, and only got worse since then. "I don't know if I should go ask him out. I mean, could I really handle rejection right now? How would I take it if he turned me down? I don't know if that would be good for me right now. I mean, I'm just now getting back on my feet after a break up, my self esteem could really use all the support it could get. But, how do I expect to get over Bryan if I'm too afraid to ask someone else out? I don't know if I should do it or not." I am stressing out over this, I can't believe I lost my self assurance. I need to get some help or I won't be able to do it. I carefully take my paw and reach into my pocket and pull out my phone, unlock it, and opened my 'messages' app. I quickly scroll down the page to see Tony's name. I tap it and quickly type out a message,

lost my nerve. Idk if I can do it.

and hit send. I check to make sure the phone is on vibrate, to avoid a pretty embarrassing incident, and place it on my leg. It wasn't one minute later when I feel the device vibrate. I open it, and read the message.

I knew youd pussy out. You need this. Please just dont think about it and just go do it.

I read over his message, and think for a second before I respond

but what if he rejects me?

This time I keep it in my paw, knowing he was a quick responder.

so what if he does? Then you shake it off and go find someone else. But if he says yes then you could have some real fun with this guy

I could see his point. The fact that he could see that I had more to gain than lose from a simple question. But what I see is me opening myself up to someone I don't know, and showing him my feelings, no matter how little I would be showing with just the question. At work, I wasn't allowed to show my feelings at all because of some of the furs there. I'd gotten used to not showing my feelings at all. They were too cold, hating, and just downright mean. Gary especially. That fucking coyote had been trying to make my life hell, and at a few points, he almost succeeded. Almost.

maybe. I just dont like the thought of exposing myself to someone again

I replied to my dalmatian friend. It took a while for him to reply to this one.

I know what you mean, but its the only way to ever get over that sorry excuse for a beagle

I guess he's right. But damn it I'm still scared.

I look at the time and it's almost time for class to end. Fuck! I'm not ready yet! I look up and the professor has ended his lecture and is packing his stuff, along with the rest of the students, so I start doing the same. I begin to panic. "Ohhh fuck. I'm not ready for this. What do I do?" I ask myself as I leave the room, then the building heading toward my car. Once I reach my car, I climb in and just sit there, thinking about what I should do. With my mind in the middle of a debate on whether I should ask him or not, I feel my phone start to vibrate. I pull it out and see Tonys calling. I quickly answer the phone and pull it to my face and speak. "Dude, I'm panicking, what do I do?"

"What do you do? You put on your big boy pants, stop worrying and go ask him out."

"But what if-"

"No if's! No Buts! I'm not giving you a choice in the matter. You are going in there if I have to drive down there from work and walk you in there holding your hand! And I really don't wanna do that."

I sat there in silence for a minute thinking it over before he spoke again, "Do I have to do that?"

"No.....no you don't. I... I can do it."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, I'm sure."

"Alright, good. Now I gotta go, we're about to start another shooting."

"OK, and Tony, thanks."

"you're welcome man. If you start to get cold feet again just call me back. My boss may not be too happy with me taking a call during a take, but I don't give a fuck."

"heh, OK, now get back to work. I'll see ya at home." And, with that, I hung up. I don't know what I'd do without Tony. I start up my car and start to back out, then I take off toward the coffee shop. On the way there I keep my mind clear, and focused on how I was going to ask him. I'm not quite sure how I'm going to ask him, but I guess I'll just have to wing it.

I pull up to the coffee shop, and I see him standing there through the window, and I start to get nervous again. I start to panic again, but I quickly get a grip before it gets too bad, and force myself to get out of the car. I nervously walk to the entrance of the coffee shop, and slowly open the door. Once I see Skylar up close again, my nervousness fades away. I feel a real, natural smile creep over my muzzle as I walk over to the counter, no longer having to force myself to do anything. He doesn't see me at first, but as I approach the counter, he turns around. When he sees me, I see him gasp a little, then he smiles himself. I reach the counter, and talk without thinking, letting myself go to autopilot, "hey there." I say warmly.

"Hi. I was wondering if I'd see you again. Cody right?" He says as I notice his tail swishing behind him happily.

"Of course you would. I wouldn't let you get away that easy. And yeah, Cody. Skylar right?" I say with a wink, which rewards me with a blush.

"Yup, that's me! So...what will you have?" he asks me, not able to look away.

"Hhmmm.....what do you think I should get?" I say, leaning against the counter.

"Well, how did you like the cappuccino?" he asks, leaning against the counter, right across from me. Now his muzzle is only inches from mine and I can't help but look into his beautiful green eyes. From this close, I can smell him, and he smells just as great as he looks. I can't really describe it, like a mix of a cologne I've never smelled before, and his own personal scent. I'm not sure what to say about it, but it is absolutely amazing. I look into his eyes, and I can tell he's looking right back into mine. I don't think either of us are aware of how long we're there like that, but neither of us make a move to turn away. He finally stands up and shakes his head quickly, much to my displeasure. "so uhh...the cappuccino?" he asks again, looking away.

"Oh! Uh.. It was great" I say smiling, not sure of what else to say about the drink.

"So uhm...were you thinking of trying something else or....."

"Uh, no. No, I'll just have the same from yesturday." I say, cutting him off.

"Alright then, I'll try to not drop it this time." he says to me smiling. Then he turns around, picks up the same cup from the same place as last time, and doing the same as he did yesterday. Except for dropping the cup.

I stand there, admiring his work as he repeats the same movements as he did before. Once he turns around, he sets the cup down on the counter in front of me. Then he starts to hit buttons on the cash register, and the same price of $3.67 pops up. I stand there looking at him again, and I see his lips moving, but I don't hear a thing he says. I'm too busy studying his fur. His fur looks very fine, as if that's his pride and joy, the thing he's most proud of. It looks like he spends hours on it every day. As if he only buys the same fur products given to a queen. It looks amazing. I just want to reach out and touch it, caress it, stroke it, feel it against my bare chest fur, hold it......

"Cody! That'll be $3.67, please." he says still smiling.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I was.....distracted......" I say as I start to pull out my wallet.

"Oh? Distracted by what exactly?" He asks me with...what I think is hope.

"Oh...uhmm.... I was just...distracted by how amazing you look."

I say that and he instantly looks away and blushes madly. I can't help but smile proudly at this.

"Wow that's....uhmm...really sweet Cody. Thank you." He says and sounds truly sincere.

"You're welcome." I say happily, my tail going back and forth like crazy.

"Were you planning on staying here to enjoy that, or just leaving like yesterday?"

"I was.....planning on.....staying here to drink it. Why you ask?"

"Well, I was just about to go on my lunch break. Maybe I could enjoy it with you?"

This causes me to jump with surprise. Wasn't I here to ask HIM out, instead of him asking me?"Uhm...I'd like that." I say with him looking to me.

As soon as I say that he perks up, and smiles wide "Great! Give me just a sec." With that, he walks to the back of the shop. I hear some talking, some sounded like him, but there was another voice. When he comes back, he's being followed by a female rabbit, who is quick to look me over, then takes Skylar's place at the register. Skylar stops and makes himself a cup of coffee, then moves behind the counter, bends over, and stands back up with a sandwich wrapped in plastic wrap. He then goes to the end of the counter, where he meets me. "well, you're the customer, where should we sit?"

I look around and notice a booth in the back corner that's empty and has a little bit of privacy, "follow me." I command happily, and walk towards the booth.

I get to the booth and take the further seat. Once seated I look up and am greeted with those amazing green eyes again. Skylar notices mine, and we're locked again. But, this time, Skylar look away much sooner, and giggles to himself. "So..uhhh...what do you do, Cody?"

I'm slightly caught off guard by the question, not really expecting many questions. "Well...I go to the college here in town, until about 1:30, then I work at the Hyundai dealership not far from here."

"Ohh really? You work on cars?"

"Not really, I wash cars."

"Ahh, interesting. How's that working for ya?"

"Ehh, it's alright."

"Why's that?"

"Let's just say I don't work with the most friendly furs."

"Oh, I'm sorry" he says, looking sincerely sorry.

"Do you go to the college, too?"

"Yeah, I have afternoon classes. You've actually caught me on my last fifteen minutes that I'm here. "

"Oh, well, lucky me." I say smiling and with a wink. This causes him to blush again, and look away smiling.

"If you keep talking like that I'll start saying I'm the lucky one."

"Heh, would that be a bad thing?"

"Not necessarily" he says smiling.

I smile and sit back, taking a look at the room. "You know this is a pretty nice place."

"It is. My mom does pretty well interior decorating."

"Whoa, what? Your mom?"

"Oh, uhm....my mom does interior decorating. That's how I got this job. She designed it and the owner gave me a job."

"Ohh that's cool. No interview then?"

"Nope. That was one of the best things about it." he says smiling, then taking a drink of his coffee.

We sit there for a second, just taking sips from our cups, passing glances at each other. Neither of us say anything for a few minutes, as if we're both waiting for the other to say something. "So uhh....Skylar....would you like to.....you know.......uhm.........do..something this friday?" I finally ask him slowly and cautiously.

As soon as I ask him, he lights up. He sits up and I can see him get excited instantly. "Sure! I..I'd love to! But.....well I...I'm kinda busy friday. Are you.......busy....tonight?"

When he asks that, I jump a little, really expecting him to ask that. "Uhhh... if you want to....then I'd love to. What time do your classes end?"

"My last class ends at 5:30. 2hat time do you get off work?"

"That's perfect! I clock out at six."

"Great! So I'll....meet you at your work then?"

As soon as he said that, my mind and stomach did a back flip at once. I couldn't let him come to the shop, not yet at least. What would my coworkers say? Joe, Brock and David would be OK, but what about the others? Would they make fun of him? Harass him? Me? I couldn't let that happen. "Sounds good to me." 'what the fuck did I just say?' I think to myself.

"Great! I can't wait!"

'Why the hell did I say OK to that?' "Do you....know how to get there?"

"Yeah, I think so. Why don't you.....give me your number? Just in case I get lost?

"Oh, sure!" I then see Skylar take out his phone, then look up to me. I give him my number, and he puts it into his phone. I then get a text from a number I don't know. It's him. 'I didn't mean to say yes. Did my.....did my brain just troll me?'

hey there sexy. This is the fox sitting across from you ;)

I read the text and look up and smile. He sees me looking at him and winks. 'My god....brains really are trolls.' I smile and wink back, not wanting to seem unresponsive. I look back down to my phone and see I'm due at work in ten minutes.

"Aww shit. I gotta go. I'm gonna be late for work." I say frantically as I stand up

"Oh, uhmm...OK....well, I guess I'll see you at six?"

"You sure will. I'm looking forward to it." I say with a smile before I start walking to the door.

"Bye Cody!" I hear Skylar call behind me.

"Bye Skylar!" I say as I turn around and wave to him.

As I'm walking out of the restaurant, I turn to look through the window, and Skylar is talking very excitedly with a huge grin on his face to the rabbit, who looks equally excited. I smile to myself as I walk towards my car, then it hits me. I've got a date with Skylar.....TONIGHT. Oh god....Tony's going to love this. Now there's only one problem......my coworkers.

Well tell me what you think guys! I would really appreciate it if you guys comment and tell me what you thought of it. better, worse, anything! just need to know if im getting better or not.