That Gay Goth Dog (part 7)
i was laying down on the couch with alex laying between my legs on on my chest as we were watching TV. his mom had left to do somethings, so we got the house to ourselves for the night.
"jeremy?" alex asked and looked up at me.
"yes hon?" i replyed rubbing his chest.
"i... i think that... i think you should leave" he said getting up quickly and ran to his room with is arms around his side. shortly after a heard the slam of his bed room door that made me flinch. i looked out the window wondering what just happend as i felt a tear drip from my muzzle to the couch. my heart felt like someone just jabed i knife into my chest and cut my heart into a thousand small pieces. i walked up slowly losing focuse of everything that was going on. the room was sorta spinning and my vision got blury. as soon as i got up to his room i put my paw to the door and knocked.
"alex?"
"GO AWAY!" i heard him yelling then fall to the ground crying.
"alex why... what do i do?"
"NOTHING ... thats the thing your to good for me just LEAVE!... NOW!" he yelled crying more. i sat their wondering what was happing. then i looked at the door then to the stairs.
"ok alex... if you really want me to." i said getting up and started to walk down the stairs. i grabed my stuff, tears still flowing though my eyes. and walked out the into the night. as i jumped into the truck i saw alex looking though his window. one paw on the galss, the other around his stomic. he was shaking and his black eyes now turned read. i looked away and started crying more wishing he would pull me out of the car and hold me close. shorty after i had some time to re join the little pieces i had left of my self i got my phone and called up dj. after about 2 rings he picked up.
"yo dude" he said.
"something is worng with alex... can i please come stay at your house?" i said trying to act as normal as possible.
"sure man." he said then we hung up. as i was driving i had to pay way more attention to the road then i ever had... driving with tears in your eyes and your heart braking is worse then a snow storm drunk. after about 10 minutes i pulled into dj's driveway and knocked on the door. he came and invited me in.
"wow dude i haven't seen you like this in a long time." he said rubbing my back.
"yeah... i know."
"here ill show you to the guest room." he said pulling my arm knowing that i couldnt see at all. my normal blue eyes were now red from crying my body shaking and everything was still spinning. as soon as we got up to the guest bed room i layed my stuff down. luckly due to my other times their i brought my electric drumkit with me because we had to practice at his house. i sat down behind it smiling a little as he closed the door. i reached in to my backpack and pulled out two 7an drumsticks and started playing. after a short time of just randomly playing i got happy. shortly after that i started to see again but my eyes still burned from the crying. my heart was still in a thousand small pieces but i started to get a little hope. after about 30 minutes of playing i grabed my ipod i played to A Little piece of Heaven by Avenged Sevenfold.
"HE STABBED HER 50 FUCKING TIMES, i cant believe it. RIPED HER HEART OUT RIGHT BEFORE HER EYES, eyes over easy. EAT IT EAT IT EAT IT EAT IT" i sang while playing not knowing dj was standing outside the door. after i was done with the song i was smiling more. he walked in and looked at me.
"dude you are the only person i know who can play for about 40min and be happy right after your heart is broken." he said chuckling.
"no im not maybe be smiling but i cant cry because i cryed all i could. my heart is a thousand pieces and i lost alex." after a short time of silence he looked up at me.
"i dont know what is going on with alex.. you guys were ment for each other... i mean come on you guys been brothers sence 5th grad.
"yeah i know but hes sorta really ... emo and sometimes he acts wired... but i dont know i will talk to him at school" i said walking to the bed laying down. "but for right now all i need is some sleep" i said closing my eyes curling into a ball and huged my tail.
"you are so wired" he chuckled again. "night man" he said turning off the lights and closing the door"
"night" i feel asleep right after i said night.
leave... i think you should leave.... now, go, leave.......
i woke up shaking as i lightly panted...
fuck i need get it together .... now im hearing alex just saying leave in my dreams... god im more torn apart then i thought. i said shaking my head a little and looked at my clock. its 6.... might as well get my shower. i walked to the shower with a towel and some cloths. dj walked out with a towel rapt around his waist and noded to me. i walked in and got the water to the perfect tempature. i striped and walked into the shower. i stood their as the water fell over my body... i felt my problums slip away, down the drain out of my sight. my heart felt like one little piece was back into place. i washed my fur and got out drying off. i put on my black slevless t-shirt, black pants, black socks and walked out. as i walked out i cought up with dj, we walked down stairs together.
"you ready to go?" he asked
"yeah." on the way to school dj drived, i put on some marilyn manson and we jammed out to mOBSCENE. as we pulled up to the school parking lot we got looks from everyone walking past us. me and dj were in a way dancing to I Dont Like The Drugs (but the drugs like me) by Mairlyn Manson. we blasted the song. shortly after it fished we started laughing and walked to school. after we put our stuff away i started listing to The Voayge by Yanni. i saw alex laying against the door to our class. i walked up to him. i looked at me and put his black hood up.
"alex..." i said looking at him. out of nowhere he grabed my body and huged me tightly. i put my arms around him smilling his scent. his warmth poored into me.
"jeremy im sorry but we cant be boyfriends, i dont trully love you ... im sorry" he said lightly crying.
"FAGS GET A ROOM" we heard from behind us. i turnd around and punched a large wolf in the nose, he fell back and slamed his head into the wall, i growled loudly and griped him by the shirt.
"IF YOU EVER CALL ME A FAG AGAIN I WILL BEAT THE EVER LIVING SHIT OUT OF YOU. DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND ME!" i yelled as people looked at us, the wolf was whimpering loudly as i punched his gut and thew him to a group of people and wint back over to alex, his eyes wide.
"DUDE! that was fucking epic as hell" he laughed. my heart returnd to normal hearing him laugh.
"heh thanks now what did you want to say?" i chuckled rubbing the back of my neck getting some of the wolfs blood off my paw.
"well i found out that im way more stright i want you as my brother" he lightly chuckled
"eh i understand it felt wired kissing my own brother" i laughed.
"oh also jeremy..."
"yeah man?"
"you just whooped austins ass" i looked at him on the ground. his nose bleeding as i coughed up some blood and ran away with his tail between his legs.
"eh fuck him" i laughed and walked around to find dj and talked to him till school actually started.
"good to see the love birds talking" dj said.
"eh we are just brothers again" i said.
"yup.... also jeremy" alex said and i looked at him.
"hmm?"
"that sparkle in your eye is back." alex laughed.
"well i have my 2 best friends out of the 6 i know right here with me im better then i ever will be" i laughed and put my arms around shoulders and. "also i whooped austins as so that made me feel better then ever." i added as we walked to the main hall way and split up to go to our classes.
yup its only ganna get better from here. i said to myself as i sat down next to my brother for class.
this is what i am ment to do, this is what i want to do. my life with my friends. storys will be made, hearts will mend. life as we know it is about to get so much better no one understands. im going to be the best i am. im going to be who i am. life over death. life wins with me. thank you. i do what i do. forever and always. rest in peace old me. hello to the new one.
i read back to myself from my note book and smiled showing to it alex and chuckled and patted myback.
"yup everything will be smoother now" i said as i felt my heart fully back to normal. i fellt complet happyness that i havent felt in a while... yup this is ganna be great!
OK peeeps no this is not the end but it is the beginning the next parts that are coming up will be sorta off my real life.. fused with somethings i wished were to happen... XD maybe i dont know WE WILL HAVE TO FIND OUY!!!!! orrrrrrrrRRRrrRRrrRRR(<--- got bored) i will continue this as in my real life.... who knows XD we will se what happendsssss!!! ADIOS MEH AMEGO COMMENT SUBSCIRBE TELL MEH WHAT CHALL THINK!!!!!!