The Angel of Yiff Chapter 15
Jasyn pushed open the door to his bedroom, walked over to his bed, and looked at his clock. It was 10 in the morning on the first Saturday of February, and the wolf smiled down at his fox. Last night, Alex had given himself to Jasyn for the first time, and the wolf would have loved to let his fox sleep, but this morning he couldn't.
He sat down on his bed and put a paw on his boyfriend's shoulder, shaking him, "Alex, get up."
The fox just murred softly, rolling over onto his side.
"Alex, come on now. This is important."
Alex blinked awake and rolled back over, staring up at Jasyn, "What's wrong? It's too early for problems..."
"My mom came in and woke me up a little bit ago." The wolf sighed and stood back up, "We need to get dressed; Luke just called. I don't know what's up, but he said it's important."
Alex sat up, rubbing his eyes and nodding, "Okay." He shifted his legs over the side of the bed and began scanning around for his pants.
Jasyn hooked his boyfriend's pants with his footpaw and kicked them up onto the bed from the floor, "Here."
The fox tugged them on lazily and flattened his ears, "I hope nothing's wrong."
"No...no." Jasyn shook his head, "I doubt anything bad happened. Luke didn't seem sad or freaked out or anything. Just...worried..."
The Angel of Yiff Chapter 15 -- Not Any of Us
Luke stood in the kitchen of the 'Cameron Estate,' absent mindedly twirling his necklace's pendant in his fingers...something he'd found himself doing often since it had been given to him a month earlier. He stood in frozen silence, staring blankly into the open fridge, holding it open with the paw not spinning his necklace. Whatever he'd opened it for, he couldn't remember.
Behind him, Riddick padded into the kitchen as well, and leaned on the island counter, his tail lightly swishing about "I'd really appreciate it if you'd tell me what's up."
The raccoon blinked and turned around, closing the refrigerator finally, "Yeah, I know, Angel. But I just want to save this for when Alex & Jasyn get here." He leaned his back against the fridge, "I don't...uhm...I don't lead conversations often, so this is gonna' be new for me. And I just want to make sure I only have to go through it once...y'know?"
Riddick cocked an eyebrow and blinked, "Okay...if you say so."
Luke let out a shaky sigh and leaned his head back as well, "You're sure Matt and your dad will be gone for a while, right?"
The panthion nodded and stepped forward, placing a paw on Luke's shoulder, "Seriously, babe: what's wrong? Something's obviously really bothering you. Are you sure you don't just wanna' tell me, now?"
Luke shook his head, "No...really, I'm fine. This isn't even about me, Angel. I'm just worried ab-" He stopped cold, cut off by the door bell, and stood up straight, "They're here."
Riddick stood up straighter too and smiled, "I'll get it." He padded out of the kitchen and into the entryway, where he opened the door to find his fox friend standing there, "Heya' Alex."
Alex smiled back just a little at the Panthion, "Hey Riddick; been a while since we've talked. Uhm...is everything okay?"
Riddick shrugged and looked back toward the door to kitchen, "I'm not sure. He won't tell me what's up." The panthion turned back around, "Is Jasyn here?"
Jasyn appeared from the side with a wave, "Hey."
"He was parking the truck in the driveway." Alex nodded.
Jasyn nodded too and flipped his keys, "Alright then..." The wolf padded inside the house after Alex, "What's up?"
Alex shrugged, "Riddick doesn't really know. He says Luke hasn't said anything to him, either."
Luke, by now, was just sitting in Matt's chair in the living room with his hands together, staring at his shuffling footpaws. Riddick just gestured with his head over to the living room and walked on in, the other two following along, and all three sitting and staring at the young raccoon.
Jasyn leaned back in the couch, his arms crossed, "So, what's this all about, Luke?"
Luke looked up at the three of them with a shy smile, "Thanks for coming over so quick." The raccoon felt really weird being the center of attention like this, but he tried to ignore it. This wasn't about him.
Alex shook his head, "It's not a problem Luke. Are you okay?"
Luke nodded, "I'm fine..."
Riddick nodded lightly, "Then tell us what this is all about, babe."
"It's about Matt." Luke sat up straighter.
Alex tilted his head, "Matt?"
Riddick blinked, "What about Matt?"
"I'm really worried about him." Luke laced his fingers together, "You all know how Matt is; he doesn't really talk to people about what's going on with him. But...well...he was acting really depressed a while back, and so I asked him about it. I was worried about him."
Riddick leaned forward a little, "...and?"
Alex muttered just loud enough for everyone to hear while he rubbed his neck, "I thought he didn't say anything because everything was...okay with him."
"No," Luke shook his head, "he just doesn't like to complain to people. He thinks it's his job to help everyone else...and not to bother us with his problems." The raccoon sighed and went on, "Has anyone else noticed how close he and Chris seem to be?"
Riddick blinked and nodded, "Yeah. Why?"
Jasyn raised his eyebrows, "They're best friends, right? Ever since high school, or something?"
Luke nodded, "That's the problem."
Alex scratched his arm idly, "How so?"
"He..." Luke stopped and looked at Riddick, since what he had to say DID involve Riddick's dad, "He's in love with Chris."
Jasyn let out a long breath, and put his forehead in his paw, "Oh, yeah: that."
Luke recoiled, "You know about this, Jasyn?"
Jasyn looked back up, "I, uhm...I might've talked to him about it, last summer...when we were all at the beach."
Riddick and Alex exchanged glances with one another in silence for a moment before looking back at their respective boyfriends.
"Wait..." Alex raised his paw, "...I don't understand."
"Yeah," Riddick added, "how is this a problem?"
Alex continued, "Aren't you SUPPOSED to love your boyfriend?"
"That's the problem." Luke answered and looked at Jasyn...
...who finished for him, "They're not boyfriends."
"Of course they are!" Alex laughed dismissively, "They live together, they share a bed, and they definitely sleep together..."
Riddick argued, "Sex doesn't always mean you're dating..." The panthion stared blankly at the floor, "Trust me...I would know."
"So...what?" Alex tilted his head at the panthion, "You don't think they're together, either?"
"Well...I THOUGHT they were, but..." Riddick looked up at Luke, "Matt said they weren't?"
"Yeah." Luke nodded.
"So did my dad." Riddick sighed, and clarified before anyone could ask him to, "It was last summer, when he found out I was gay, and told me that he was, too. Uhm...you all remember that whole ordeal, right?"
The group just nodded.
"He told me, back then, that they weren't together." The panthion shrugged and laughed, "I just assumed that...after Dad realized he was gay, all of that changed. But, now...if Matt's saying it too..."
"So..." Alex scratched his chin, "What exactly did Matt tell you?"
Luke motioned to Jasyn, "You wanna' do the honors?"
"Uhm..." The wolf patted his knees as he began, "He just said he fell in love with Chris. He was trying to relate to me, y'know? This was back when I was trying to get together with Alex, but he didn't want to, yet...and Matt compared it to him and Chris. Apparently he fell for him, but Chris didn't return the feelings. Something about just wanting to be friends with benefits."
"And he's sure about that?" Riddick looked between Jasyn and Luke.
Alex added, "Did he tell Chris how he felt?"
"I asked him that, myself." Luke nodded.
"Me too." Jasyn confirmed, "He said he just wanted to make sure he enjoyed the time they had together, and that..." The wolf went wide eyed when he remembered another part of that conversation.
He looked at Luke in the sudden silence, and the raccoon looked back. Luke knew exactly what Jasyn had just remembered, because Matt had told him the same thing. The raccoon just nodded at the wolf and finished for him, avoiding THAT subject for now, "...that he didn't want to ruin what little they DID have...that being friends with benefits was better than nothing."
"Wow..." Alex raised his eyebrows, oblivious to Jasyn & Luke's silence exchange, "Fell in love with his best friend?" The fox looked around at the three of them, "Not the first time that's happened around here, huh?"
Luke let out a soft half-chuckle, "No, I guess not." The raccoon rubbed the back of his neck and leaned back in his chair, "I saw him cry. I can't ever remember Matt crying before he started talking to me about this, either. It's just so weird watching him break down like that. I mean, h-he's Matt! He shouldn't be the one crying on someone ELSE's shoulder: it's always been the other way around. Hell, that's how I MET him!"
Riddick frowned guiltily, "We've all been so wrapped up in our own shit. Like with Kevin..."
"...Peter." Alex added.
"...my parents." As did Luke.
And Jasyn closed the list, "...and our break up."
"And he's helped us through so much of that." Riddick leaned forward, "He's done a lot for us...but, I guess we never really thought about him."
Luke nodded as well, "This is all so hard on him. And I just...I'm getting to the point that I just don't know what to tell him, anymore."
"I still don't get it, though." Alex pulled his legs up onto the couch and scooted closer to Jasyn, "Why can't he just say something to Chris? I mean, with me and Jasyn..." the fox looked at his wolf, "...he was straight. But Chris is...either gay or bi at least, so it really shouldn't be such a big problem."
Jasyn shook his head, "It's just not that simple, Love."
Alex shrugged, "Why not? Chris is a nice enough guy."
"No, we know that. It's not that he's not, it's just..." Luke sighed, "Well, Matt explained it all to me like this..." the raccoon took a breath and began, "He said that like a year ago, now, he bought Sirrus, right? He had been so lonely after Lance -- this annoying badger -- left him, that he just wanted this house to not be empty anymore. And, well, we all know that Sirrus became a lot more than just company, after that."
Alex nodded guiltily, "Yeah, we do..."
Jasyn smiled wryly and nodded, as Luke eyed Riddick who just scratched the back of his head.
Luke chuckled nervously and continued, "But he says that it got to the point where it was more than just the sex, too. He was so lonely here, that having anyone around, having anything at all that he could find some sort of companionship in...it became a really big deal. He even fell in love with Sirrus...kind of...but even that was just out of loneliness. But then WE all started coming into his life; you two, Riddick, me, and eventually Rei...but most importantly, Chris."
Alex nodded slowly, "...and he wasn't lonely anymore."
"Exactly." Luke nodded.
Riddick rolled his neck, "But having a whole bunch of friends wasn't really what he was looking for..."
Luke shook his head, "No...but it changed things anyway...not to mention, that he started having sex with your dad." The raccoon hesitated before saying the next bit aloud, "He told me that he even let Chris top him. And he says that's something he's hardly ever let ANYONE do. He's not usually comfortable doing with it. They sleep in the same bed, they're closer than they've ever been in the past, and Matt's willing to give everything to be with Chris for real...he's just scared."
"But I still don't see why." Alex blinked, "It's not like it'll scare Chris off. I mean, they're already having sex."
Luke shook his head again, "But that's just it: it could. He's so scared of losing what he DOES have with Chris. And he's convinced that Chris just wants to keep going with what they have: being close friends with privileges, but never going any farther..."
Alex sighed, "And if he tells Chris...then Chris might freak?"
"Maybe." Luke shrugged, "And Matt just doesn't want to take that risk. And on top of that, if things DID go badly, he doesn't know what he'd have left to turn to, at all. After all, he doesn't have Sirrus anymore, like he used to. I mean, he COULD, but he basically stepped aside so Sirrus and Rei could have their fun." The raccoon rubbed his knee, "That's why he's so afraid of saying anything...because if it goes wrong, then he may end up with nothing."
Riddick perked up, shaking his head, "My dad would never do that! He'd make sure to make Matt feel okay with everything. He wouldn't hurt him! He's not like that."
Alex looked down, "I can understand why he wouldn't have noticed yet, though. I mean, none of US knew any of this was going on."
With Jasyn and Riddick looking at Alex, no one's eyes were on Luke as he drew in a shaking breath and rocked forward in, putting his forehead in his palms, "Damn-it..."
Riddick turned to his boyfriend, and moved like he was about to get up, "Luke?"
"That's..." Luke gripped his headfur and shook, "That wasn't all..."
Alex sat more forward, and Riddick got up and moved over to him, but Jasyn just looked down. The wolf knew what came next.
"Luke..." Riddick put an arm over the raccoon's back, "...what is it?"
Luke looked up, "He..." the raccoon took a deep breath, "Matt told me...that this wouldn't bother him so much, but...but..." He tensed up, having to force the next part out, "He...he just wants to make the best out of whatever...little bit time they have left together..."
Riddick kept his arm around Luke, and put his other paw on the raccoon's thigh, "Luke...what do you mean?"
"I...I..." Luke stammered and tried, "I mean...h-he...he's..." But the raccoon just couldn't get it out.
"It's okay, Luke." Jasyn spoke up, and Alex and Riddick looked back at him, "I'll take it from here."
Alex raised an eyebrow, "You know this part, too?"
"I do." Jasyn leaned back in his chair, "Chris has been here for...how long now? Riddick? Luke? Help me out."
Riddick thought for a moment, "Dad said he got here...two months before me?"
"Yeah..." Luke confirmed, "...last March."
"Right, then." Jasyn continued, "Chris got here 11 months, ago. But he was only sent here on a temporary assignment. Matt and Chris were only expecting a month or two, maybe a little more..."
"Oh no..." Riddick looked down, as Luke closed his eyes.
"As of the summer, when he talked to me," Jasyn tapped his fingers on the arm of the couch, "Matt was already worried that Chris was almost gone. And now...now, he's been here for almost a year. I don't know what's caused such an extension, but every day that passes by, is one day closer to the end of this assignment...and to Chris leaving."
Riddick could only stare off in silence. What would happen to HIM if his dad left?
Luke opened his eyes back up, tears coming down his cheeks, "M-Matt told me that, and...and I just kept thinking, 'Why?' and, 'Does this mean I'll never see Riddick again?' and...and I-"
"Whoa!" Alex piped up, trying to get things back on track, "Stop. We can't get into this! There's just too much." The fox paused and rubbed his muzzle for a moment, "Okay. Look...we can't worry about that, yet. You never know what might happen. Maybe just...just helping Matt with his problem could fix that one, too. But either way, we need to deal with one thing at a time. The first thing we have to worry about...is helping Matt.
Riddick shuffled his feet, "So...so what can we do about it? We can't exactly force them together...and I don't think giving Matt a hug is gonna' help."
"It doesn't matter." Alex shook his head, "He's helped us all so much over the past year..."
Jasyn nodded, "...we have to do something to help him, now."
Luke tapped his fingers on his knee and took a breath, then wiped his cheeks, sniffling, "That's...that's why I brought you two over. We all owe him so much. I mean, he's why we're all together...he's why I have a happy home to live in...and so much more." The raccoon looked up at Riddick and then out at the others, "I just don't know what to do. I thought maybe the three of you could help...even if it did mean spreading what Matt told me...as a secret."
The four paused in thought, Jasyn scratching his chin before offering a suggestion, "We could tell Chris..."
Alex shook his head quickly, and Luke went wide eyed, doing the same.
"No!" Alex held up his paws, "That's the last thing Matt would want. He's kept this a secret for a reason."
"Besides..." Luke rubbed his arm, "Could Chris even handle this right? What if we told him and it only made things worse? What if he just hurt Matt MORE?
Riddick shook his head, "No. I know my dad's more than a little standoffish. But you guys haven't seen him like I have. It might take a fight, sometimes...but when push comes to shove, he does the right thing."
"Then I say: screw what Matt wants!" Jasyn sat forward emphatically, "Chris needs to be told how Matt feels about him. Nothing else is gonna' make this problem go away."
"But how would we go about something like that?" Luke held a paw out to Jasyn, "How could we possibly get through to him? Hell," the raccoon looked around at the other two as well, "do any of the three of you have any idea about how we'd even go about BROACHING the subject with him? I'm not even sure he'd TALK to us about it."
"I think he would." Riddick waved a paw dismissively, "I mean, sure, he's secretive with his emotions, and everything...but you weren't there that night on the beach, when he came out to me." The panthion looked right at Luke, "Trust me when I say this: just because you don't see his emotional side, doesn't mean it's not there."
"But you said it, yourself." Alex joined the argument, "That ordeal took a fight. I mean, think about it: do you really see him reacting well to a gay teenager asking him to 'share his feelings'?"
Riddick shook his head, "It wouldn't be up to just one of us, though. We'd ALL go talk to him."
"Oh, even better!" Alex laughed, "FOUR gay teenagers ganging up on him, to make him share his feelings!
"Damn-it..." Though it was his plan initially, Jasyn sided with Alex and Luke, "Alex is right. There's no way that that would go over well, at all. I mean, he's basically a straight guy..."
"Or, at least he THINKS like one." Luke added, "It seems to me that we need someone who can really relate to him...someone who thinks like HE does." The raccoon shook his head, "And that's not any of us..."
"Well whatever we're gonna' do..." Jasyn sighed and sat back, "We need to think of something, and soon."
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There we go! The soap opera, Forbidden, continues!!
* Starring: F. R. Borealis as Alexander Collin Moen and Riddick Dumar Eden Cecil B. North as Lucas Joseph Trammel and Jasyn Aiden Fuller *
Cecil was a writer here as well, back in the Yiffstar days. If you want to check out the stuff he wrote back then, go ahead and look him up. His username on here is: Cecil_88
And so it begins! The final arc of the The Angel of Yiff and Forbidden as a whole! The boys are banding together to figure out how to help get Matt & Chris together. They don't seem to like the idea of actually TALKING to Chris, themselves, though. So what plan will they come up with? Will it work? Will they take care of things in time before Chris leaves? If Chris DOES leave, what becomes of Riddick and Luke? Find out as the story continues!
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See you for the next 4 chapters of Forbidden! And this December for the Christmas Special! ^.^