The Road to Happiness: 4
#4 of road to happiness
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"How long do you think I have?" I asked the doctor in the white room. The only thing in the room was the medical bed I was sitting on and the posters on the wall for little children to read.
"About 20 months. I'm sorry your insurances wont be able to afford the treatment you need sir." I got up slowly, paying the doctor.
"Thank you for telling me this."
"I'm sorry sir." How am I going to tell Jackie this? wait....JACKIE!!
My eyes opened wide and the light seemed brighter than heaven. I got up and was already sweaty as hell. I looked at myself and realized I was still wearing three shirts and two pairs of pants. I took two shirts and a pair of pants off and I looked around for Jackie. I went looking for the stairs but found the hallway which told me that this was a one storey house. There were two doors on the left and two on the right, I went to left doors first, the first one was a bathroom. The next was a bedroom and looked empty, probably Khiles door. I heard Khile walk up to the door and he called my name.
"Jon she in here." he was still shirtless and I could now see the abs he had, he had a fit body. He walked to the last door on the right and slowly opened it. I walked to the door and looked though to see the back of her head, she was sound alseep. I slowly closed the door and looked at Khile.
"She looks so much better here than she did at the building."
"You two need to stay here, the temperature for the rest of the winter is going to be in the thirties and I'm not going to let you two freeze to death down there."
I considered it.
"I think its best if we did. Anyway she needs warmth and so do I for some reason I dont want to talk about."
He looked at me puzzled but ignored it then he spoke again.
"You want some breakfast? I can make some pancakes if you want"
"Yes please." I followed him to the kitchen which was pretty big for just a kitchen. He started going through cabinets looking for the pancake mix while I looked for a seat. I found one at the far corner of the kitchen, I grabbed it and took a seat next to the fridge. I was thinking of of asking Khile something that was in my head, but that would be too much. Then I heard him speak.
"Something on your mind hon?" I snapped out of my thoughts and was kind of nervous asking him for this.
"I was wondering if you could make chocolate chip pancakes I never had them before and I always wanted to try them."
Ok I admit it I'm really shy when it comes to asking people questions. he just gave me a smile and again the warmth in my body came back, it didnt feel like love, more of a fatherly love.
"Let me see if I still have chocolate chips." He went into the fridge and started looking, moving things like jars containers and such "aha there you are." He grabbed the chocolate chips and the the eggs and milk and began the pancake making process. When Khile was done with the pancakes he piled them all on one plate and told me what to do next.
"Get the butter from the fridge and I'll get the syrup." I opened the fridge and found the butter right in front of me, I grabbed it and brought it out to the living room where Khile was setting the table ,setting out forks and knives and paper plates. Khile went back to the kitchen all I heard was glasses colliding together and the fridge opening and closing. He came back with a few things: some glass cups, a jug of orange juice, a jar of peanut butter and a butter knife.
"Dig in." he ordered me while he started pouring the juice in the glass, he gave me a glass and I set it down. I spread the butter on the pancake smelling the rich chocolate in the pancake. After pouring the syrup, I saw Khile spreading peanut butter on his pancakes. It kinda looked good but I was a little bit grossed out too. He just looked ate me and just smiled at me again
"I like PB on my pancakes it's like a Reeses but in breakfast form. Here you try."
I cut a piece off for me, it had the choclate chips and the PB soaked in syrup. I took a bite and he was right about one thing, it was so sweet but with the taste of peanut buttter was so good it was like a Reeses "Mmmmm" was all I said and Khile just giggled then spoke again.
"Jon? I need to tell you something and please listen carefully." I stopped eating my pancakes and listened.
"Do you remember what I said about you earlier?"
"Yeah"
"Well I have been thinking about this all night and, well what I told yah last night was a mis-understanding and I was, dont hate me for this, I was kinda drunk."
"What? So you dont love me?"
He stopped me before I could continue.
"No no no I do but in a fatherly way... I mean that when I took Jackie to care for the happieness she gave me felt so good. I asked her if I could be her guardian and she loved the idea. Actually, I was going to talk to you about it today when I came to visit yah."
"Why where you drinking last night?"
"I'm not going to lie... I have been having a hard time with life. Thats all im going to tell you I'm sorry.. but what I was trying to ask you last night is... do you want me to be your guardian?"
Great so what I was told was a lie, but he wants to put me in his house to keep as what? A fuck toy?
"So you just want me here so you can do what you want to me. Thats it isnt it?"
He just looked at me in pure confusion,
"What? What are you talking about?"
I got up and stood right in front of him, blocking the TV.
"What im saying is every time someone asks me that same damn question it always leads to me in bed getting fucked. All they ever want from me is me to be their fucking fuck toy. So you might as well just say it." He got up to me, him being taller than me I had to look up at his face, and just gave me a concerned look.
"First of all I'm a police officer I have obeyed the law ever since I became one. Second you might be 17 but still watch your language. And third I should have you arrested for illegal underage sex but I'm not going to. And finally why the hell would you sell your body to people? You have know idea what those people are, they could keep you and murder you. Jon you might have skipped school but I can tell that in your mind your smarter than that."
The rest I couldn't hear, I was getting all emotional from what he told me. Now I didn't want to finish my pancakes. I was begining to tear up and in front of the only guy that has never hurt me before, I felt weak. Then the water works began and I used my left arm to cover my face.
"What do you thi..."
He noticed me covering my face and realized what he was doing, but my anger was taking over me and my hatred took over .
"I DIDN'T KNOW OK!? I GET IT! MY LIFE BEEN A LIVING HELL FROM BIRTH TO NOW!!! I WASNT THINKING. ALL I CARED ABOUT AT THE MOMENT WAS GETTING FAR AWAY FROM MY FATHER, I DID IT ALL FOR MY SIS!!!! SO THERE THAT'S WHY!!!"
Khile just stood there looking at me while just let all of my anger out for once in my life. It felt good but I felt horrible at the end, I felt warmth around my body and looked up to see Khile hugging me. I saw his eyes closed tightly and I could hear his heart beat softly. I felt comfort in his hugs so I wrapped my arms around him also and began crying into his chest. Luckily he was still shirtless so the only thing I was soaking was his fur.
"Some peoples lives will get ruined but there are people who will support you the rest of the way. I am willing to help you the rest of the way but you have to let me do that. I want to help you and Jackie... and I also know about your medical condition."
I stepped away from him, shocked about him knowing my condition.
"Jon you have to let me help. I can cover you on my insurance and you can get the medication you need but I need your permission to do that."
"Why would you want to help me?" I sniffed
He came back to me and hugged me tightly again and began rocking me back and forth.
"'Cause I care for you, and Jackie needs you in her life."
"Ok." I sniffed, "Please.. would you be my guardian?"
"Of course hon. Come on, let's watch some TV." He sat down, with me still holding tightly to his chest but less teary this time. He began surfing through the channels.