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As I recall the dark envelopment I felt during that time frame, my recollection of my past came to a sudden still when I heard an all too familiar howl. As my ears perked up and stood tall on the top of my head, I smiled knowing all too well who was approaching me.

"Ah here you are my love. What are you up to?"

"Hey hun, I'm just recalling how I got to this point. You remember when we first met? It was strange but at the same time, it almost seemed destined." I turned and looked at my mate. A gorgeous black wolf who was much larger then I. His presence was soothing, comforting, and loving. I could never tire of the feeling I get every time he was near. He looked at me and smiled with his muzzle, giving me butterflies in my belly, a feeling I get every time I saw him. There was no doubt that I loved him with all my wolf heart.

"I remember it very well, and I do admit it was fairly strange to see you as a human, but I was infatuated by not only your scent, but the feeling I got from you. I didn't see you as a human but as one of us. When you passed out and fell to the ground, and you transformed into...one of us, your fur, your eyes, everything about you just consumed me." I looked at him and blushed. Had my fur not been in the way, I am certain that my cheeks would have been beet red. Looking over our territory where our pack runs rampant, I recalled the feeling of the moment I awoke from my fainting.

I felt a strange but comforting warmth to my side, a feeling of both soothing and gentleness. I slowly opened my eyes seeing nothing but fuzzy shapes and shades, not being able to identify what had happened or my surroundings. As I felt a cold prickly feeling of the snow falling on my nose, I then remembered where I was, and better yet, the company I was in. I tried to get up to my feet as slow as possible but somehow, my body betrayed me. I felt as if though I was on my hand and knees, however they felt stretched standing me up as tall as ill go. Come on legs, let me get up! From my eagerness to stand on my own two legs, I was actually jumping up and down on my hands and knees. Wait a minute. How am I doing that? I can never recall ever being able to jump as high as I did on my hands and knees. As my vision became even more clear, what caught my eyes next almost made me faint again. I was completely covered in fur. An off shade of grey with white covering my entire underside. I crossed my eyes to the tip of my nose noticing that my nose sat at the very end of a muzzle. MY MUZZLE! Oh goodness. Okay now I know I am dreaming. Through my utter shock of my current state, I felt a caressing muzzle nuzzle me, making me feel comforted and safe, as if I was being told that everything is going to be okay. I look over at him, and strangely enough I could tell through his head tilt and demeanor that he was giving me a warm smile. A smile that instantly caused me to melt. He is so beautiful. I shook my head.

"Um what happened?"

"Well after you fell to the ground, you became one of us. I have never seen that happen before, but I assumed something was going to happen. The closer we got to you, the more intoxicating your smell became.....ughhh I mean, your smell made me feel something. Um what I meant to say is that you smelt like something was changing in you." I looked at him as he tilted his head down keeping his eyes on me. There was a hunger in his eyes that I could not explain. It was both lustful and loving. Underneath his fur that covered that long muzzle of his, I could easily see that he was blushing. I suddenly felt the butterflies swarm within my belly. Can it be? Am I felling some sort of lust or love for a wolf? Too many emotions in so little time, I don't know what or how to feel. He slowly moves around me, circling me, viewing every part of me. Is he sizing me up? What should I do? I have not the slightest clue on how my mannerism should be or what I should even do at first except how a dog would act, considering I had a family dog for many years, so I just bowed down on my front paws and barked enthusiastically wagging my tail. At the time I did not even realize I was wagging my tail but as I think about it, it was all too amusing. He just stood in place and gave me a look of warmth which he seems to be doing a lot. The rest of the pack just looked at each other. I only assumed that the alpha is not usually this welcoming to outside members.

"Well considering that this is all very new to you, why don't you come along with us and we can guild you on the basics....pup." Um did he just call me a pup? As I thought about how I must be a pup, considering that I have been a wolf for not even five minutes, I felt a warm but wet breeze come across my underside, shocking me and causing me to jump out of place.

"What the hell are you doing?!"

"Uh I was just identifying you....." I just looked at him with a blank stare.

"You know, in the event that you get lost or something happens, I can easily tell who you are and identify you." I was still lost. I knew canines sniffed each others rear ends but I didn't know the exact reasoning for it, I just thought that it was a dog thing, but I guess I better get used to it now. Oh boy.

"I don't have to if you don't want. It seems like this is making you uncomfortable and I don't want you to feel that way."

"Um....I'm sorry, this is still all very new to me. I'm just getting over the fact that I'm a wolf now."

"Well, its not permanent you know." Wait what did he say?

"Ugh what was that? What do you mean not permanent?" For some reason, hearing that caused me to feel, disappointed.

"Wait a minute! How do you know its not permanent? I am so confused! And from what I have seen in documentaries, you would have probably attacked me by now. Explain!" He sits on his hind quarters and chuckles.

"We were all in your circumstance, which is why seeing you transform didn't scare us away. You see, you are called a metamorph."

"Uhh...a what?"

"A metamorph. We consist of only .001% of the human population, and although I don't know the history or the back story of it, from what I have gathered from other metamorphs is that this has been happening for ages. And before you think it, you are not a werewolf. You are a human who can transform from man to wolf and vice versa, but what I meant by temporary is that you have to stay in your wolf form for a week so that your blue print, i.e. your DNA, can work out a compromise between your human form and your wolf form, if you want to look at it that way."

"Oh, okay. So I have to be a wolf for at least a week. Great, I'm going to be jobless when I become a human again. Well I guess I cant worry about that now."

"That's right, just relish in the moment. Come on, let me introduce you to the pack." I was both excited and worried. Excited that I am actually living my dream, but worried about my job. How am I suppose to live if I get fired?

"Oh by the way, you can call me Zander, and from what you have already assumed, I am the pack leader. Unlike in the wild between biologically born wolves, we don't fight over who the pack leader is, although many of the responsibilities are the same, we don't challenge each other to become pack leader. However, I will not say that it has not happened before, but that is not the way we operate. For our specific pack, being pack leader is a birth right, just in case you were wondering on how to become the pack leader."

"Oh, alright then. Well I'm just concentrating on being a wolf first before I decide where I go from there. So....what do I do?"

"How bout we just start from the intros and go on from there? Shall we?" As we walked over to the pack, images of slaying an elk, or a bison ran wild in my imagination, being a part of the pack, howling at the full moon, these images got me more excited that I have ever felt. Just before I could continue my imaginative adventure in my head, I was greeted by more sniffs from the surrounding pack members, each of them offering their greetings and salutations. As each completed their greeting, each member of the pack started to look more normal to me. I did not see them as just another wolf or even an animal of the wild, but as a friend. Zander spent the next several hours taking me for a tour of the area that has been claimed by our pack, being able to identify where the breeding grounds as well as the feeding grounds are for the herds that pass through our territory. We then spent the rest of the day lounging near a small lake near the entrance of the den.

As I laid out doing the best I could to soak in all the information of the last 24 hours, I started to see each wolf in a detailed fashion, noticing the differences and similarities between each one. There was Xion who was the master of the hunt. He lead all the hunters on each hunt teaching them how to hunt, each tactic based on the size or the number of their prey. He was a large black wolf with dark blue shades in his fur with shiny emerald green eyes with a long but short haired tail. Then there was Shindra. She was a kind soul perfectly placed as the den mother. She cared for everyone and made sure that the den was up to standards. She informed the hunting party on how much we would need to eat, ensuring that each member had an equal share of food with the exception of the pack leader of course. She was a beautiful brown wolf with an off shade of grey that covered certain parts of her fur. She had an extremely bushy tail, a little more bushy then my own but shorter in overall length. Then there was Chira ( Ki-Ra) and White Paw who where twins. Chira was the keeper and tutor of the young pups, teaching them all the basics needed for a pup to survive, even giving them survival tips in the event that an invading pack tries to eliminate us. White Paw was the mentor for the teenage to young adult wolves giving them the basics of survival as well as being able to identify markers and trails familiar to the pack. Both of them look almost exactly the same, both being covered with a cherry wood brown color fur with blonde paws. The only thing that set them apart, besides their gender, was that White Paw had exactly just that, a single white paw. As far as their personalities were concerned, they differed completely. One of the wolves that really stood out to me was Ethim. He somehow managed to learn of his heritage being a metamorph extremely early in life at the age of 9 in human years. So he was very much a pup. A rambunctious pup but never the less, a pup. From what I was told, he was extremely affectionate but also a joker, nipping at every ones tail when they least expect it. He was a beautiful white wolf with deep blue eyes. His beauty also made him cocky but not to the point where he was disrespectful.

Among the others, there was only one more that caught my attention. His name is Silus. From over hearing discussions, I gathered enough information to come to the conclusion that Silus is Zanders cousin. They too looked very much the same with the exception of their eyes and overall shade of color. With Zander being a deep black colored wolf with shades of blue, Silus was a lighter black with shades of red on his fur. To me they were both alluring and stood proud. In my opinion, very attractive features. Silus however was very vocal to his opinion, what ever the case may be. What I did not expect was that he too, like this cousin Zander, is attractive from my perspective. Who would have thought? The two alpha wolves, causing my heart to melt. I couldn't help but chuckle, which did not go unnoticed by Silus. As I noticed his gaze, I looked at him and my ears perked up. Why is he looking at me like that? As he walked over to me, he gave me a seductive smile that caused a stirring in my belly, similar to the feeling that Zander gives me. COME ON! Why? Please tell me that he isn't interested in me. I'm already interested in Zander, I don't want to be torn between the two.

"Hey there. I'm Silus. How are you doing with everything?" I looked at him and gave him a warm smile.

"I'm doing well considering. Thank you for asking."

"So tell me a little about yourself."

"Well, I work with a bank and I..."

"No no no, don't tell me about your human self. That right now is not important. Being a part of the pack, we learn each other just as we are right now. It helps create a connecting bond between us." Ugh he's doing it again! The smile that can make you melt away.

"Oh well, I really don't know what to say honestly. Remember I'm still all new to this." He lays right next to me, shoulder to shoulder, body next to body, and looks at me. The feeling of his body next to mine made me nervous.

"Um....."

"Shh, you don't have to say anything. Just watch and things will come to you." He turns his gaze from me to the rest of the pack, lost in thought. I wanted to know what was going through his head so bad. Dam you! I shook my head trying my best not to fall into that mind game and turned my own gaze upon the pack, watching them interact with each other, playing, chasing each other, playing tug of war with a fallen branch. Then it came to me. This is what my heart was telling me, this is where I belong, and for the first time as far back as I could remember, I felt at home. As I laid there content, reveling in my thoughts, Zander came from around the corner and laid his gaze upon me. My goodness he's beautiful. If we turned into cartoon characters, my heart would have been pierced with an arrow by the wolf cupid. Then an unknown wolf came up beside him and caressed him, rubbing along his body, then to my surprise gave him a lick on the cheek. Oh man I was on fire on the inside. I stood up extremely fast.

"Easy there, I would just lay back down if I were you."

"Who is that Silus?!"

"That is Liara (Lee-Ah-Ra). She is the Alpha female and mate to Zander." Ok, everything just came crashing down on me. My first wolf crush and he's already taken by a female. What the?!

"I'm sorry for being presumptuous but I thought he liked....males."

"Well yes and no. This is where things get a little difficult to explain but he being the primary alpha male can choose who ever he wants as his mate but have mates on the side who don't hold the same standard as his primary mate. I already know he has feelings for you and want to take you as his primary mate, but that would mean you would have to share him with the females of the pack. Liara, being the alpha female, is the one who he would mate with to bare pups." I had nothing to say. For one, I don't share. Two, I give my whole heart to the one I love. Silus could see how distraught I was.

"Come on, I want to show you something I think you would like."

"K..." As Silus walked off and I in tow, I looked over my shoulder at Zander. Just as he walked in the den, Liara looked at me and winked. Oh hell no! A side of me I have never felt before, awakens within me and all I wanted to do is take her out.