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I lay in bed. My eye lids were heavy, and yet I could not fall asleep. I just lay; thoughtless. Lost. Unsure on why I felt so confused about where I was.

I knew where I was. I was in my bed, at home. I was in my house with my parents sleeping downstairs and my big brother down the hall.

But why did it all feel so surreal?

Why did it all feel like I was already asleep, and at any moment I would open my eyes and these feelings would just evaporate into nothing. The sweet nothing that was going to take me soon, but still it kept from me. Being so close and yet so far away.

I turned over in my double bed; I rolled over again for a countless time, and just stared up at the blank ceiling.

The off white colour filling my blank vision before I once again closed my eyes and let the darkness hold me.

I felt nothing. I felt nothing against my olive skin, except for a soft breeze going through my charcoal hair from the fan beside me, but I still felt empty. Lonely. Like I was the only one in existence.

Even though it was impossible, and I knew it; I felt the loneliest I had ever felt. I felt like something was missing, or maybe it was somebody.

But how could it be somebody?

I wasn't missing anybody, but it felt like I was.

It felt like somebody was only here a month ago, like he was here next to me.

I opened my eyes as a flash of emerald eyes went through my mind. A memory? Or was this just part of this surreal reality?

I wasn't sure on what to even believe any more at this point, but that's when the feeling of warmth hit me. Soft, silky warmth that made me shiver.

A soft feeling of warm snow, and leaf eyes. A perfect winter.

"Winter?" I asked myself in a soft whisper. Where did that come from? Where had these feeling's come from? And why did they feel different from the others?

Why did they feel real? Why was I wanting winter? Why did I feel warm? Why did I feel so lonely?

I sighed deep as I pulled the single, soft sheet up from my naked torso, back up to my arms. I was getting a little cold.

I knew I should have turned the fan off, but something told me to leave it on.

That's when the goose bumps began to appear on my skin. My chest began to feel heavy and my breathing got a little harder.

I didn't panic, I didn't need too. I had felt his before. I don't know when, I don't know how I knew. I just did.

I kept my gaze on the ceiling as a soft, aura blue began to fill the room.

Again I did not worry. I knew I was safe, even though I didn't remember how.

The blue got brighter, and my chest got heavier. I had to force my breathing while I continued to keep my focus on the ceiling.

The room felt colder, the room's oxygen was getting thinner and thinner, and soon, even gravity stopped.

I came off my bed slowly, my body and limbs dangling as I rose ever so gently from the mattress.

I knew not to panic, I knew it was all going to end in a few more seconds. I knew everything was going to be better.

I knew Winter was here.

The blue began to subside, the air slowly began to return, and even sooner, I was laying back on the bed where I lay for hours, in a mindless, confused state.

I knew it was all okay now. The blue was gone, and the hardest part was all over.

I slowly rolled myself over, back towards the once empty room, towards where the blue was originating from. Back to where now, a figure stood.

But I knew not to scream, I knew not to be frightened, I knew that Winter would not hurt me.

The figure stood tall in his skin tight, exterior body suit. The black fabric only having a line of detail on the chest. A golden line with a simple number one.

His hands moved up towards his head, The large dome stretched more than any human would need.

It was long, stretched so that the being inside's head, would not be cramped, allowing him to work out in his solar system in peace.

His hands unhooked a latch from around his neck. A hiss was heard, but a smile was still on my face as I gazed upon the being.

He was smiling under the dark dome, I knew it in my heart. I may not have remembered, but I knew he would be back. I knew that my canine would return so that I and he could be together once again. Like every month,he came to visit.

Like every month, Winter returned for his lover.

The dome soon was pushed up by the large animal as he stood. He didn't need to rush as we had plenty of time; but a soft wet drop still came from my eye as the soft, frosted fur came into my sight.

"Hey baby." The large, white, winter wolf whispered as the dome came off his head. His green eyes were squinted as he gave a large, loving smile towards me while I stared at the canine.

I didn't need to talk; he knew what I was thinking. He knew I was happy to see him. He knew that I had missed him, and he knew I needed him.

The canines paw moved down gently to his belt, and with a quick press of a button, the black suit began to slide off his body.

It was like a vacuum had sucked it right from his body, into the small component it was strapped to.

I remember him trying to explain to me how it worked, but I knew I would never understand it.

He reached behind him, softly; I heard a click before the belt around his waist fell down his thigh from where it was once placed. It was then slowly placed inside of the helmet and quietly the wolf knelt down. Quietly, he knelt down to place the thick glass dome to the floor, for it to make the quietest of noises as it touched the floor.

The canine was now only in a pair of skin tight, green underwear. It was hard not to notice how well he filled them out.

My canine had a length to be proud of, but I would be reminded of that later. For now, I lifted the bed sheet and opened it for the canine that now stood before me in all his glory.

His white fur bounced softly as he quietly padded over to me, his hind paws barely making a sound as they hit my wooden floor.

He softly let his slide under the blanket to hold up; while the large canine moved himself into the bed he had missed so much for the past month.

My eyes were still wet as I reached out for him. My hand ever so gently sliding into the fur as he began to lay himself down.

"Winter." I softly cried as I moved quickly to wrap my arms around his neck and to burry myself into his neck.

"Hey beautiful." He said softly. His large muscular arms sliding around my slender, weak form as he held tightly. Gently holding the person he loved and missed so much, while I did the same.

I had known this canine for a year now. As to why I didn't remember him, I don't know. All I know is that I was holding him.

My Winter, The astronaut.

"I missed you." I cried softly, "I missed you so much."

He chuckled softly as his arms, easily moved my light frame over onto his body.

"I know baby." He whispered, "I missed you just as much."

I held onto his neck, while I felt his warm, soft touches over my neck. I moved myself back and moved myself back in so that my lips could once again be against his.

It was then I remembered what perfection was. It was not having a care in the world. It was having him there to have my hands feel his strong muscles covered by such light and soft fur. I was having his paw pads slide over my hairless skin.

Having the person I love there, on the other side of my lips murring as he kissed me. Making me feel like I was the only living thing that mattered.

Like I was the only boy in the world.

It felt like only a few seconds, but it had probably been an eternity that I had been kissing him.

Our lips parted and there were those green eyes that flashed so quickly only mere minutes ago. Those perfect green jewels that held my pups soul. The many traits that I loved so much about him.

"How are you" He asked me softly, his fore head softly being pushed onto mine. Our eyes closed as we merely just felt each other there. My hands on his chest, feeling that soft heart beat while his paws lay on my back. Making the Goosebumps leave and the warmth from my body return.

"I'm good," I said as I quickly reached up to wipe another tear from my eye, "I'm perfect now that you're here."

He chuckled softly,

"Ditto baby." He whispered, leaning in to quickly peck my lips again. I reached out to return the favour but his lips weren't there. Instead of his lips, my lips softly landed on his cold black nose. Not that it mattered where it landed, it was just important that it landed on him, and only him.

He smiled more as he pulled me in closer before slowly laying himself down, taking me down with him. Taking me down to lay on top of his muscle built form, for us to softly gaze into each others lost eyes to slowly, once again find each other.

It was always like this, It was always the hugs, the kisses and then it lead to this. For us to spend just a few minute to slowly gaze at each other. To absorb each other's gentle and caring energy.

It was spent slowly. My hands just gently going up and down over his fur while his sliding through my hair and tracing over my back, all the while we would feel each others eagerness grow from the inside of the fabric that kept us from being venerable. Stopping us from being that much closer from each other.

But it wouldn't stop us for long.

He slowly rolled us over, his large massive body doing it so easily as I soon found myself under his large body with my legs around his waist and his awaiting, growing member at my backside, stuck behind two layers of clothing.

"I missed you so, so, much." He said softly as a hot breath was let go into my ear. He let out a soft whine as I felt his hips grind upwards in a lusting, dominating and yet loving manner.

He needed me. Every mate does at some point. He needed to let go of his stress, he needed to let go of his pent up love and affection.

He missed me over the month, and I knew he did. I would miss him too if I could remember him.

I would ask him, but I know it would only ruin this moment. Ruin the feeling of his lips being softly pressed onto my neck, ruin the feeling of his paws gently sliding up the outside my thighs to hook the elastic around his paw fingers. Ruin the feeling of his paws pulling down the only thing keeping him from his loving dominance, and marking me as him.

"I missed you just as much." I whispered as my hands made their way down his fur. Made their slow, teasingly, torturous way down his body to reach green fabric that was failing in holding in my winters manhood.

It stood there, just lightly quiver as the blood was pushed through its veins. Making it the length it was, drooling softly with canine fluid that made me moan so submissively.

"I love you puppy." I said softly as he lifted my legs up, moving them further up until I was on my shoulders. My legs were bent back and before long, my own boyhood bobbing along with the beat of my heart.

I bit down on my bottom lip. Giving a soft exhale after as my lovers wet, cold nose softly pressed against the sensitive area underneath my area, but just above my rose.

He gave another whine as he breathed in. Taking in the drug that was his mate before letting his long, soft tongue slide its way over it, making me let out a soft, high pitched moan.

He had told me before how much he loved that area of me. How it smelt, how it tasted. It was moments before he told me how much he loved me.

He looked me right in the eye as his paw softly came over to brush my cheek. Moments before he leaned over and kissed me for the first time.

Now look at us. Me on my shoulders while my white wolf softly lubes me up with his own special lubricant.

It didn't take long for his master, gentle tongue to lube my entrance. He always knew just where to slide himself into.

It always made me moan for him, always made me long for him more. It was like he turned me into a heating female. I longed for my lover to show me how me missed me, I would nearly always beg for him.

It was never in a sex lust way. It was always with squinted eyes as I looked at him. My eyes pleaded with his for him to stop with the teasing, and to hurry to the part where he filled me with his love. To fill me with that part of him that made me feel complete. To tie with me and let me go into a soft sleep where my dreams were of us together, of him holding me, and telling me just how much I meant to him.

He began to slowly let me fall down, taking it slowly as he moved himself up more. Putting my knees over his shoulders while his paws gently held onto them. His eyes were pleading as much as mine, pleading for me to let him show me his love, while I begged him to do it.

It didn't take long for us to understand one another. I gave a soft moan as I felt his heat, and he whimpered needing to find my area where he could love me.

He reached down with a paw and very gently aimed himself for my special spot. The spot that no other male was allowed to enter. A place were he, and only he was allowed to use because I loved him. And that place was for only the man I loved.

"Oh puppy..." I moaned out quietly as I felt his throbbing tip began to work its way forward, working its way further and further into my slick, needy hole while I looked up at him.

His face was gentle as he continued to push forward.

Our moans were just as gentle as his paw came off his member and back around to my hip. He always knew how to make it so gentle, to make it feel so perfect.

He always knew how to just make all my troubles, float away while the pain of his penetration took over.

I knew it was worth it, I knew that it was all of it was going to end. But he was always there. Looking down at me, telling me it was ok and that if I needed to, he would stop.

"N-No." I always told him, clenching softly around the hot, hard member, "Pl-Please puppy, Don't stop." I begged him. I didn't want the closeness to end. I couldn't let it.

I needed to know this wasn't just a dream, I needed to know I wasn't insane; but as those hips touched my flanks, and his heavy orbs followed, I knew I didn't create this. I knew he was there, I knew he was real. And that everything we had, was just as real.

"Please puppy, please start." I whispered in a hot moan as my hole gave a soft clench around the red, veined meat.

He gave a heavy moan as he began his slow, gentle thrusts. It always began slowly; he would always be looking down into my blue eyes while he held onto me.

He needed me close; the large beast also needed some reassurance to tell him that I wasn't just a creation of his lonly mind and that that tight clenching feeling was in fact the human he loved. The small black haired, blue eyed boy that told him he loved him, the boy that kissed him and that held him like no other male had was real.

And I was.

"Oh baby." He moaned as his paws moved to pull my legs off his waist, and put them gently around his waist. His arms then reached under me and pulled my slender body up, onto his knees as he began to slowly bounce on the springs and foam.

My right hand held him by the side of his gentle, pleasure filled face while my other arm was around his neck. Making sure he was as close as he could be to me.

I closed my eyes as his member began to hit all the right spots. Getting all the deep, sensitive areas that made me into the submissive, love needing boy I was.

His member throbbed inside me, making more soft moans escape on my heated breaths.

The nights we made love always ended up being so filled with eagerness. We didn't get ourselves off, we didn't have sex with other men, and we only let each other help with our needs.

Me? I always found myself not wanting to touch myself. Even if I didn't know who Winter was, I always knew I would be getting off soon, but I never knew when until my wolf was there. Softly bucking into me while he was either moaning into my ear or kissing me.

"Wi-Winter," I moaned softly, "I-I'm cumming." I moaned, my anal ring began to squeeze tighter at his shaft. I know he wasn't ready yet, but soon he would be giving me what he needed to. Soon my white wolf would be letting out a soft howl into my ear, letting me know I had done my job in helping the one I love with his lusting needs while his knot holds us as close as any hug will do.

"Let it go baby." He whined as his bucks got stronger. His thrusts began to get drawn out as he forced my prostate to do what I needed. To force the organ to help his mate get to the very brink of pleasure.

"Winter!" I called out softly as it was then my body began to course with the muscle tensing pleasure that was my orgasm.

My white fluid going all over my skin, while also tattering my wolf's fur. He didn't care though; he would only get it out in a hot shower later. But as of right now, it was tangling his fur while it painted it further onto my skin.

Then the afterglow hit me. The soft euphoria mixed in with the prostate rubbing bliss as my wolf continued with his rough, loving humps into me.

"Oh fuck you're amazing Winter." I moaned, bouncing softly on his member that was beginning to softly widen at the end.

"Oh fuck baby," The canine moaned, "I-I'm close. I-I'm so damn close." He whined as his hips began to go feral.

This was always the part I loved. The part where my man becomes the beast he has within.

Winters arm held me tightly to his form with his right arm around my back, while his second quickly moved down to grip my cheek. He moaned into my ear, whispering how he loved me, how he hates being so rough, and how much I mean to him.

He tells me how he loves being so close to me, telling me how much I mean to him and then tells me that maybe one day, I can come to live with him in his world.

I always cry when I hear that. I always love hearing his sweet nothings while his knot inflated at the base of his member.

"Tie with me!" I cry out in a love drunk pleasure as his hips push up.

My fingers dig into his back, my mouth is over his neck as I scream with a pain of over stretching. But I dare not stop it for anything. I know it's hard for him, but it would be harder for him to resist.

My wolf is growling as he pushes further and further, every inch hurting us both, until it happens. Until the large bulb slips into me, letting the wolf howl into my ear as another warmth is filled inside me.

The warmth of my wolf's seed. The seed that he gives to only one person. To me.

My breaths were heavy as I was held there, tied to the wolf who loves me, and I love him.

"B-Baby." He says softly as he falls down onto his out stretched arm, to then gently lay us down on our sides. Our hot breath mixing into one as out tired green and blue eyes look into each other.

Our smiles grow as we lean in to very gently kiss each other in a tired and loving way.

It was then though; my tiredness began to over take me.

I reached out and softly placed a paw on his cheek and looked into his emerald eyes. I wouldn't be seeing them for a while, and for that long while, I would not remember them.

My bottom jaw began to tremble softly as I forced myself to smile at the canine I love.

"Don't forget me." I whispered while he pulled me into a gentle hug. Softly petting my back as the darkness began to cloud my vision. "Wi-Will I remember you?" I asked, looking for a speck of hope, hoping for something to make this entire ordeal easier.

"You will." He said, but as the darkness took me into his grasp, taking the conscious from me, I knew that he was lying. I knew I wouldn't remember, and I would be left in a confused and lost state until next month.

But a simple thought brought a smile back to my face. In only a month I would be able to experience it all over again. I would be able to remember the way my wolf made me feel, with his soft kisses, his hugs and his kind words.

The wait made this relationship the way it is. And even though I would change the amount of time I saw my wolf. I will still always love that time of the month, where I get to remember Winter.