Crushed
#4 of Poems
I just need to put this out...
I thought I could be happy for once,
But that was a lie.
All the negative things I thought about myself
Were... right.
I would like to help people
But it seems I can only do so little,
It wouldn't make any difference if I wasn't here.
Hearing people going through worse things than me,
Only saddens me as they are the ones who make the most impact.
As for me, no difference at all.
I just blend in with everyone else in the crowd,
Or just pushed out and unseen.
While the ones who do shine bright.
It could be envy,
It could be jealousy,
It could be pity,
But I know for sure it's sadness.
A thing that has kept me in its cage since Day One.
Only to not be freed but only trapped there forever.
It consumes my mind and body until I feel nearly nothing anymore.
Happiness is only a dream, never more.