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I'm so sorry it has taken so long for me to post the new one of S&G but I have been working my ass off since i got back from my 2 years in New Zealand.

Ill to a journal later on if I get the time!

But I just want to say a big thank you to TylerZ for proof reading this and do please go and have a look at his page as he is an amazing writer!

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"Puppy come on its time to get up" I felt the voice as well as heard it as I had my head resting on his chest and my arms wrapped around him with our legs entwined.

"Hmmmm must I? When did I drop off?" I really didn't want to move, I was comfy and warm. The hip didn't hurt and it was just so nice lying on the sofa with Kris.

"I think in the beginning of the movie and yes you must"

"What movie?" he chuckled a little as I rubbed my cheek on his shirt a little trying to wake up a little.

"Ah it must have been before the movie then!" I noticed something that was nice but felt a little odd!

"One more thing.Why's your hand tucked into the back of my underwear?" I said sleepily.

"I was wondering just the same thing pup" that was a new voice!!!

I lurched back away from Kris and the foreign voice, eyes wide but blurred.Kris and I both jumped but I was on the outside of the sofa and if it wasn't for Kris's arm holding me, of which said hand belonged to, I would have ended up on the floor. Kris seemed more surprised by my reaction than by the other voice in the room as it took me a moment or two to work out what or who the other person was.

"Evening pup" was all Luke said as he looked down at me from where he was leaning on the back of the sofa with an amused look on his face. My heart was beating a mile a minute as Kris pulled me closer to him sharing his father's amusement.

"I'm awake now" Kris laughed a little and as I rested my forehead on his chest which I then received a kiss.

"Kristopher what the hell is this?!" Luke's tone suddenly changed as I felt a hand pulling the back of my shirt exposing Kris's little love bite or bond mark I think it's called.

Luke's harsh tone sent a shiver up my spine not out of fear but annoyance and anger at how dare he talk to Kris like that and how he pulled my shirt the way he did. I could tell Kris must have felt the same as his grip on me tightened and a small rumble came from his chest, thankfully we both bit our tongues.

"Well?! I hope you've told what it means because I'm not explaining this one for you this time!" His tone was harsh and dominant which was starting to piss me off a little.

"He knows what means" thank you Kris for not flipping!

"Does he really now!"

"Yes I do and please stop talking about me as if I weren't here" I looked up at Luke from Kris's chest but he didn't look convinced though "from what Kris has told me, this" I pointed to the bite "is the equivalent to an engagement ring or proposal to which my reply was"

I moved to look at my fiancé who was grinning a little as he moved his head to the side pulling his own shirt collar down showing part of a patterned ring of dots on the back and side of his neck. We both looked back to see Luke with a slightly shocked look and stuttering silently.

He stood up completely rubbing his chin to only run his fingers through his hair letting out a sigh, still looking very shocked but a smile did make an appearance as he continued to stare at us as we lay on the sofa. I could feel Kris's grip tighten again and I tightened mine on him a little wondering how he was taking the news, but the smile seemed to show how he felt.

"Are you sure about this?" he looked at me and then to Kris, as if trying to see if there was any sign of doubt or fear.

I looked back to Kris from his chest whose dark hazel eyes instantly met mine, I stared into them for a short time feeling his warmth seep into me as he held me so very tightly, we both smiled.

He was the first to answer "Yeah, I'm positive" He looked me straight in the eye.

"And what you Jayson?" he focused on me immediately.

"Yeah, he's the one for me!" I pushed myself forward which Kris caught the idea as he leaned in closer as we kissed quickly but tenderly.

Luke looked at us for a short time as we looked back after our little kiss, he wore a large grin and a very proud expression "Looks like we're doing a bonding this coming moon, doesn't it" Kris squeezed me tightly.

"Let me go tell your mother the good news" he said with an evil look quickly disappearing to the kitchen.

"Oh shit!" was all Kris managed to say as he tried to move out from underneath me.

Aloud scream erupted from the kitchen even before he could get his ass off the sofa as I lay there very confused. Now this scream wasn't the kind that came from fear or terror but the kind filled with joy and extreme happiness which only seemed to upset Kris further as he made for the door away from the kitchen with a panicked look.

A figure had appeared at the very same door and leapt for Kris who had stopped dead in his tracks but failed to dodge said figure, which then proceeded to hug him tightly and cover him in kisses!

"Mum, get off!!" he tried to fend off her kisses and push her away but she was more than capable of maintaining her grip on her eldest son.

"My little pup is getting married!" Kiss, "I'm so proud!" Kiss and a lot more kisses!

I was quite a sight to behold, seeing my mate or fiancé being smothered and over powered by his own mother but I knew what mothers were like. All I could do was smile as the scene played out in front of me as I sat there chuckling lightly. Which was a bad move!

Her eyes instantly looked to mine after a loud snigger from me, 'Oh shit' indeed! She quickly and effortlessly released her vice like grip on Kris and closed the gap between us, she sat next me shaking with what I hoped was happiness.

"Jayson I presume" I gave a small nod to only recoil with some fear as another loud scream shook the house, she flung herself at me and proceeded to give me the same treatment! I was bombarded with kisses as she pinned me to the back of the sofa at her full mercy, my god she's strong!

When she had finished her little attack she sat back little and looked at me all over, as if I might not be completely real "You really are a handsome one aren't you?!" all I could was close my eyes and blush!

"You're a stunner! And those eyes!" I heard Kris snigger a little from where he had been attacked.

"I don't know what you're laughing about? He's way out of your league!" she turned to look at Kris who looked shocked by her statement.

"Hey! What's that meant to mean?"

"Well look at him! He's a stud" What the hell! Kris looked just as shocked as I did by her comment!

"Thank you very much mother!" He looked thoughtful for a short moment "But yeah, he is!" he said as he flashed me a knowing grin.

"Oh which reminds me" Luke said as he leant against the door frame leading to the kitchen, which seemed to be where he had chosen to watch the little show from "Kris I think I'm going to have to soundproof your room"

My eyes went wide and I think my face turned to a whole new level of redness as Jane let out a snigger of her own but Kris failed to see what he meant.

"What do you mean?" Kris looked gave me and Luke a confused look with is head cocked in typical canine fashion.

Oh god please shoot me now!!

"Well let's just say that the wall between yourroom and oursisn't that thick!" Now he got it! His own eyes went wide and for the first time I saw him blush almost to the same level as mine! Both Luke and Jane roared with laughter!

I just buried my fiery face in my hands willing for some great hole in the earth to swallow me up and hide me away! The laughter didn't last long and died down quickly thankfully, I felt a set of hands reach out and hold each shoulder as I continued to wish for something to else to happen!

I slowly looked up to see Jane staring at me "Welcome to the family" was all she said as she softly kissed me on the cheek and gave a very warm hug which I happily returned without a thought!

From out of now here Ryan appeared next to Kris with a very worried but confused look, Jane also saw him and called him over. He looked at me a little worriedly as he stood next to his mother with her between us, still with the same look as he took tentative sniffs of the air.

"Ryan this is Jayson, this is his human form" His eyes went wide as he looked me up and down for a few moment "He and Kris are going to be bonded" the eyes got wider which I didn't thing was possible, Jane's face glowed as she saw his reaction.

"So you're going to have two have big brothers now" his mouth opened to a wide grin as he looked from me to Kris and back to me too only then lurch himself towards me whilst shouting a rather loud 'Yay' and tackled me into the back of the sofa in the same fashion as when we first met! What is it with this family and jumping on people?

He wrapped his arms around my chest in a very similarfashion to his mother but his little frame couldn't reach all the way around, although he did give it his best shot bless him. He hugged and nuzzled my chest for a while as I hugged him back as everyone watched.

Jane left for the kitchen after giving me and Kris another kiss to the cheek muttering about who to invite and few other things which I couldn't quite make out as she entered the kitchen, Kris gave me funny look as he sat next to me as Ryan still hadn't let go. Luke had moved from his viewing point to come an lean on the end of the sofa closest to the kitchen still with a happy smile across his lips.

"We need to have a talk about a few things after dinner, its nothing to worry about" he must have seen a touch of worry in my eyes as he said that "It's just about the bonding and a few rules you two need to follow" he both gave us a knowing look.

"Why can't you tell us now?" said Kris, as impatient as always.

"That's the reason" he pointed to Ryan who only gave his father an incredulous look, "I can only tell it to those who are to be bonded, its tradition" I heard a low sigh come from Kris as Luke just smiled at his sons reaction. "Come on, your mother should have gotten dinner ready by now" he stood up stretching a little as he made his way to the kitchen.

"What are we having?" Kris asked as he copied his father.

"Chinese take-out" was all we heard as he disappeared around the corner.

We both let a small noise of delight at the choice of food tonight, I love Asian food from the flavours too how it was just so simple to make and fast too, I knew Kris just loved to eat it going by previous conversations, the fact he didn't know how to cook really meant I had some work to do there!

I stood up carefully as Kris slowly made his way to the kitchen after Luke but still waiting for me. I was very mindful of my hip and even with all my care a sharp breath passed my lips as a small twinge of pain shot from it. I had been sitting for too long.

Kris instantly turned on his heels to face me looking me dead in the eye knowing what the cause was.

"What was that?" Jane's head popped out from around the corner just as quickly only to be followed by Luke's, both looking concerned.Damn their hearing!

"It was nothing"

"No it wasn't!" Kris cut me off too quickly to be able to defend myself "His hip has been hurting him and he's saying it's nothing!" they both came closer, Jane more so to look at me a bit clearer as Kris tried to get me to sit down.

"Yes it hurts, but not much ok! It's a lot better than it was a week ago, it just takes time and care. I don't need you fussing over me all the time, I'm fine" I managed to shoo him away a little and stop his attempts to get me to sit back on the sofa, but he still wasn't finished.

"You fell over in the shower this morning screaming in pain that it hurt so much, if hadn't caught you it might have been worse!" All their eyes were on me, Kris's were defiant but Jane's and Luke's were concerned.

"What?!"Jane's voice rose up above Kris's, "What happened?" she hurried over to my side to only just lift up my shirt and lower the trousers on my right exposing the scar much to my shock, making me feel even more vulnerable.

"We were in the shower and I was giving him a reach ar.."

"THEY DON'T NEED KNOW THE DETAILS!" I glared at him over his mother who didn't seem to bat an eye at the comment!

He looked at me with the same defiant look, "He moved wrongly and that's when he almost fell"

Jane kept looking at my scar for a few moments until she started to run her hand over the badly scarred part which got a small gasp of shock from me. She poked and prodded a few places but when she gently pressed on the top part of my pelvis I gasped again letting out a small squeak of pain as I closed my eyes.

"Sorry pup!" she quickly removed her hand.

"See!" Kris came to my side and put my arm over his shoulders with his around my waist, carefully taking the weight off my right leg and hip.

"Why's it taking so long to heal?" he held me close and I could hear the concern in his voice but he was still fussing too much for my liking!

Both Jane and Luke looked thoughtful for a moment, Jane was the first to speak "Kris stop worrying, I did take out over 200g of silver from his hip and that amount is enough to kill you or I, it also slows the healing process and you know Silvers are different from us as they heal slower compared to us" He looked to Luke who only nodded in agreement.

"But that being said still I want to get an X-ray of your hip just to make sure I got all of the shot out and to see how the bone is healing" God I'm going to end up glowing in the dark with the amount X-rays I've had!

"Jayson I want you to go in with Jane tomorrow to the vets for the X-ray and a 'check-up', we need to keep 'Blacky' about and in public as it will be too suspicious if he disappears" Luke gave me look that seemed as if he had a ulterior motive behind it! But Kris seem happy at the idea of me going into the vets with Jane and thankfully stopped pressing the issue and fussing so much but I could still feel his eyes on me as we made our way to the kitchen table.

Ryan was sat in his normal chair next his mothers, he looked a little confused as to what the fuss was about in the living room but he seemed more concerned about the fact that dinner hadn't started as he looked from all the food containers to Luke, who was also watching me walk to a chair next to Kris. He pulled a chair out for me, which got an 'aww' from Jane.

"I didn't know what you liked Jayson so I got a bit of everything" she looked over the rather full table with a thoughtful look, almost as if she thought there wasn't enough!

"I happy with anything, I'm very easy to please really!" A small snort came from my right quickly followed by a muffled yelp as my elbow made contact with his ribs. I just kept my attention on the table and everyone else around it as I just ignored the whine of pain as he rubbed his abused ribs. Both Luke and Jane suppressed a laugh or two by the look of things but Ryan just looked just as confused as ever.

"Well I normally get a big order as I know what it's like having to feed this lot" she pointed to the three other males at the table, one of which was giving me evils, Kris "So adding some more to the order was no big deal" said as she handed out the plates.

I took one for Kris as he was still nursing the injured rib and placed it in front of him "That hurt!" he said quietly as I did so giving me a very good hurt puppy look.

"That was the idea" I said just as quietly before I kissed him on the cheek, which got another 'aww' from Jane and a small vomiting noise from Ryan who then got growled at by Kris.

Jane quickly disappeared from the room leaving us all slightly confused; we could hear a rummaging noise coming from one of the many rooms on the ground floor. She appeared back through the doorway from which she left holding a small shiny black device. Which got an 'Oh God' from Kris as she pressed a few of the things buttons, I felt the same wave of dread wash over me as she held up the camera and aimed it our way!

A succession of flashes followed as she continued her little impromptu photo shoot, Luke and Ryan watched on as they started to eat, evidently enjoying watching us squirm as Jane tried to get a 'better' picture of us as Kris was trying to force a smile and I was turning in to a beetroot. Thankfully it didn't last long as she looked back over the multitude of pictures she had just taken muttering a little.

Kris let out arather heavy sigh as he slouched back into his chair and mouthed 'sorry' to me, I just smiled and took his plate pointing to the various Chinese dishes on the table and taking a portion of what he fancied. After setting his plate back in front of him I did the same for myself. I had a little bit of everything much to Jane's delight as she just beamed at me and Kris, I had managed to find a set of chopsticks in amongst the containers of food and proceeded to start eating my meal.

As I had a small bit of everything on my plate which was a bit full but I was feeling a touch on the ravenous side but I didn't bolt my food as I tried each dish on its own then would mix one with another.The food was wonderfully done, each dish was wonderful and a joy to eat, but as I did eat I noticed a few sets of eyes watching me.

I just chuckled to myself as Kris just looked at me as if I was doing something strange, Ryan looked on with curiosity as he also picked up a set of chopsticks, which Jane quickly removed as food started to fly from his plate as he tried to copy me. I did feel a little guilty as it was partly my fault that he tried to use them. So after he had removed a piece of prawn from his mother's hair, which was the main cause for the removing of the chopsticks I offered to teach him next time, which got a small groan from Jane who had suffered the worst in the flying food incident as she was sat next to him. Luke had been watching the little show all the while trying to fight the urge to laugh until Jane shot him a cold look.

The rest of the meal passed peacefully as the chit chat picked up from where it had finished, me and Ryan talked as he looked a little left out but ultimately bored as he had done his normal trick of bolting his food. Anyone would think that he was starved by the way he eats. We talked about his friends and school which seemed to prompt Jane to tell him to tell me about his biology homework, which only caused him to disappear from the table and scurry away to the kitchen. He came back holding his homework which was thrust at me with a great deal of enthusiasm.

There was a big A+ on the top in the classic red lettering I looked up to see a beaming smile on both him and Jane "Wow that's wonderful" he just smiled and flung his arms around me!

"What do you say to Ryan?"

"Thank you!" was all I could hear as he hugged me tightly with his face firmly planted in my chest, I hugged him just as tightly as a sudden flash of light came and went. Where hell did she hide the camera for that!

We finished up dinner and cleared away the table, I tried to help but I was very firmly told to sit back down and relax by everyone but Ryan, who somehow managed to squeeze a chair in-between me and Kris who was none too impressed with the idea. Jane kept taking the odd picture at the most random or unexpected times as me and Kris would share a glance or as I talked quietly with Ryan but thankfully Luke managed to get it off of her as our retinas were staring to develop quite a few white dots due to the flash.

The rest of the evening was peaceful as we all ended up in the living room watching the TV, well Jane and Luke were as they cuddled up on one of the small settees which me and Kris mirrored. We were on the largest settee as I had a little someone cuddling up to me who seemed to be asleep as I leant against Kris on my other side with his arm around me, starting to follow suit.

It was just so nice to sit there and relax after a rather interesting day, to just zone out in front of the box which was showing a documentary about oil exploration, not that it held my interest much but it was nice to just let the mind wander. To just have someone I loved so close to me made it more relaxing with the feeling of ease and safety with his arm around me holding me close as Ryan snoozed on my lap.

I let out a soft sigh remembering how this all came about and what I had lost to gain this. Was it worth it?

"What's the matter?" a soft whisper came from left, thankfully no one else heard.

"I miss them" a second arm wrapped around me holding me so caringly and protectively, as small tear tracked across my cheek.

"I know but I'm here for as long as it takes for you to feel better, I'll always be there for you!" I turned to look him in the eyes with my watery ones.

I kissed him softly on the lips and held him close 'I hope so' was all I thought when a loud sound of someone clearing their throat stopped our kiss.

We looked over to see both Luke and Jane looking at us. Jane gave me a concerned look as she must have seem the few tear streaks that crossed my cheeks but Luke gave us both a long hard look before he asked Jane to take Ryan up to bed.

Ryan was gently lifted off my lap by Jane who whisperingly asked if I was all right to which I could only reply with 'so, so', she gave me a saddened look as she carried Ryan away out of the room and onto his I presume.

Luke moved from the where he and Jane had been to sit on the foot stool in front of us, he still looked at both as if we had done something wrong. Which was a little more than unsettling as he just continued to look at us, I assumed waiting for Jane which seemed to last for an eternity. Kris didn't seem as unnerved as I was but he still held my hand as we sat and waited.

Thankfully Jane didn't take too long tucking Ryan in but when she came back she caught the way Luke was looking at us both and gave him a very angry stare until he stopped. She sat back where they had both been sitting giving Luke his space as well as a disapproving look. Which seemed rattle him little.

"Kris as you know there are curtain rules you both need to follow as the bonding is not only key and special for you both but for the pack also, thankfully we've got just about a month to go until the next moon" he talked more at us rather than to us which was a little annoying for me.

He looked me in the eye "the rules are very simple, you're not allowed to have relations with anyone else" that was flaming obvious and I would never anyway, "you need to meet the rest of the bonded couples in the pack as you'll both be joining the main pack" he looked to Kris and took a deep breath.

"Which means you need to sort out who's going to take over from you in the adolescent pack Kris, and most of all the situation with William!" He glared at him a little as he spoke, I heard a little growl come from Kris but I squeezed his hand, managing to cut him off before Luke heard.

"That's under control, we've talked about that and it'll be settling down shortly I hope " Luke looked at me a little shocked as I spoke up before Kris could, Jane just smiled and sniggered lightly to the side of us.

"Well that's good to know" he looked a little thrown off by me speaking up but he was giving us orders other than talking and asking us.

"In truth it's very similar to a human wedding but there's one rule that you BOTH must follow!" he gave us a very serious look.

"You are not to have sex or intercourse in any form and you are not to masturbate! Basically neither of you are allowed to ejaculate until the night of your bonding!" I wasn't expecting that.

"WHAT! You can't be serious?! My balls will go blue!" Kris erupted next to me but by the look of things Luke was expecting it!

"Kristopher you know damn well I am and don't be so stupid you'll be fine its only four weeks! Me and your mother had to and we coped fine" a snort came from Jane.

"That's not how I remember it!" she gave Luke a hard look before she looked to us "But yes we had to do the same, it's not hard, its awkward but as your father said it's only four weeks you can survive that!"

Kris went to protest again until Luke cleared his throat and gave Kris a stare that said 'don't mess with me'. Kris gave out an annoyed and defeated sigh.

"Which brings me to the next subject, until the night of the bonding you'll both be sleeping in separate rooms, Jayson you'll be in the guest room and you" he pointed at Kris "will be staying in your room or you will be sleeping on the couch where I can keep my eye on you!"

"But that's not fair, we won't fuck or anything I promise. Please dad!"

"No! I know what young males are like, I was one remember, so don't test me on this Kristopher!" he gave both of us an untrusting stare.

"Luke please, I'm not up to doing much of that nature anyway with this hip as it is but please I just want to spend time with him! You can trust us!"

"I'm sorry Jayson but I can't trust you, I know what males are like! And I don't want you pushing me on this either or you'll be sleeping around James's place" I must have given him a confused look in my shocked state. "My beta, the twins' father" He glared at Kris who went to say something but stop as Luke shot him a daring look.

"Lukas!" Jane spoke up looking just as angry and upset as we felt "Don't you think you are being too hard on them!!"

"Jane you know just as well as I do what they can be like! And you know it's my responsibility to make sure the rules and traditions are followed!" he almost glared at her, which I think if me and Kris hadn't been there might have been a rather full on row!

"What I mean is, can't you let them spend some time together in private? They've been through a lot together most of all Jayson, they deserve it!" she kept her tone but I still hated it when people speak as if I weren't there! But I was still thankful she was on our side of things.

"They can spend time together when we're around but not in private, I want to keep my eyes on them" Jane I could see wanted to press the issue but I know she knew her husband better than any of us so she let it go, hopefully she could persuade and talk to him later on in time.

I held Kris's hand as he sat there in silent protest while I sat next to him holding his hand making sure it didn't get out of hand with his temper, I could see how Luke and he clashed a sometimes. I squeezed is hand a little thankfully he snapped out of his little staring match with his father, he turned to look at me still miffed.

"It's only four weeks, I think you and I can last long without having to .... Well you know and it's only when we're sleeping that we will be apart, we will still see and be able to hang out during the day! There's no need to make a fuss it's not worth it" I squeezed his hand softly trying to get the look of defiance and anger out from his eyes as he looked into mine. I gave him a little kiss to the cheek.

I turned back Luke to see him still holding the stern expression but I looked to Jane quickly as she mouthed a 'thank you' as we both know what our men were like.

Both of them still looked pissed at the other but I think with both mine and Jane's efforts we managed to keep things below boiling point as Kris let out a heavy breath he had evidently been holding to start a staring match "Ok" was all he said.

"Thank you, I know it not fair but Jayson's right its only four weeks, they will fly by" Luke relaxed a little too as he must of expected Kris to do his normal trick and over-react.

For some reason a yawn decided to make an appearance across my lips, I tried to stifle it but it fought too hard and I was feeling a little tired even though I had had a lay in and a long-ish cat nap today but still I needed to yawn.

"I think this is a good time for all of us to go to sleep" Jane said just after my yawn but I think she just wanted to spilt Kris and Luke which seemed like a good idea to me, Luke agreed as he let out small yawn himself. Luke tried to show me where the guest room but thankfully Jane interrupted him saying that Kris can show me which put a smile on his face but Luke gave Jane a annoyed look which she return with interest, I was glad she was our side.

Kris tugged my hand lightly getting me to move from the spot and the room, which broke into quiet but unhappy talk as we left. We could have stayed in the hallway and listened but neither of us could be bothered as I followed Kris upstairs, my hand in his. He asked me a few times how my hip was feeling and in truth I was fine with a slow paced walk and not too much weight on it as I still had a slight limp.

We passed the door to his room he pointed to another on the other side of the hallway, "That's Ryan's room" then he pointed to a door at the end of the hallway "that's mum and dad's and this is the guest room" He said as he opened the door.

We walked in still hand in hand, his grip was stronger than mine as I had the feeling he didn't want to leave me "hey it only four weeks, it's not the end of the world Mister" I stopped and pulled him into a hug!!! He held onto me so tightly as if I might slip through his arms, I just smiled and held him.

"I know but I just want to be with you, dad's just being a dick because of these rules and traditions, he's always like this!" we just stood there and held each other.

"Hey stop it, there's no point in getting worked up about this! There must be a good reason behind it otherwise he wouldn't have acted as strongly as he did" he looked me in the eyes and just kissed me deeply. It did catch me off guard but not for long as he ran his hand through my hair whilst the other pulled me closer and I touched his cheek with my fingers and then ran them through his hair before we separated.

"What was that for Mister?" He just shrugged and kissed my cheek and pulled me into a tight embrace once more.

"I love you" was all he whispered into my ear as we stood there.

I pulled back to look him the eye, they burnt that wonderful golden shine that I loved, I could also see a light refection of mine in his with their icy silver glow. I looked into those wonderful eyes for a short time as he stared into mine. I felt so safe standing there in his arms knowing he will be there for me through the good and the bad that has yet to come.

"I love you too" His lips trembled a little just before I kissed him; a small noise came from the doorway not too long after!

We both jumped a little as we heard it while we kissed; Jane was leant against the open door frame watching us with an amused smile with Ryan, who was watvhing us from behind her looking as if he was going to throw up.

"You two are so cute together, you know that" she just beamed at us before she turned to look down at Ryan "and you my little pest get back to bed before your father catches you!" he scurried away quickly. I got the impression that Luke liked to have a firm hold on things.

"Mum, stop it!" I just blushed as normal.

"No I will not! It's not every day my eldest son gets bonded you know, especially to someone who can keep him in line!" Kris just gaped at her not knowing what to say as I just chuckled to myself until he shot me a dirty look.

"Kristopher I'm so proud of you, you know that!" she engulfed him in a hug as all mothers can, I watched them both as they hugged one another in a loving embrace.

All of a sudden a pang of sadness hit me as the realisation hit me knowing that I'll never be able to do that with my mother or father let alone see them ever again. Somehow Kris noticed and looked up from hugging his mother reaching out pulled me close.

Jane saw this and also pulled me close and hugged me just as tightly as Kris, "He misses them mum"

"You don't have to tell me Kris I can see it, Jayson I'm so sorry" they both held me so tightly and lovingly I didn't know what do other than just let the tears follow. Not a sound passed my lips but the tears fell while they held me which didn't help to stop the tears one bit!!!

Kris just kissed my cheeks as I tried to stop the tears by breathing deeply. Jane watched us both smiling softly but there was a hint of sadness too as there was nothing she could really do to help other than just let Kris hold me. He seemed to be the only one who could stop the sadness and pain from bubbling up and overwhelming me.

"I'm here puppy. It's going to be ok I promise pup!" he rubbed the tears from my bloodshot eyes.

"Mum please can I spend the night with him? Please!" He looked to Jane, who seemed just as upset as Kris by my mental state.

"I'm sorry but no. I tried, I really did but your fathers putting his foot down with this" she sounded upset too but also angry at Luke for keeping us apart and for not trusting us.

I felt Kris's hand tighten around me in anger with her words, a low growl arose from his chest "Kris, its ok" he looked at me a little shocked but unbelievingly "I don't need you picking fights ok!" he knew I didn't just mean his father.

"It's just going to take me some time to get used to it all, and I just need you to be there for me. Not fighting battles that don't need to be fought. Ok?" I gave him a pleading look.

"But its.. "

"I know it's not fair but then none of this is fair is it?! I just have to take the good with the bad!"

They both just looked at me not knowing what to say, and in truth neither did I but it was true there was nothing any of us could do about this right now. We just had to wait and see what the future brought and deal with it as it came. It wasn't much of a plan or solution but it was the best we could do at the moment.

"You are too old for your years pup, but you're right there's nothing that any of us can really do but make the best of it. Its only four weeks and then it will be all over and you two can spend as much time as you want with each other!" Jane's words helped a little to quell my sadness and Kris's frustration at the situation as his grip on me loosened and relaxed.

"I'm sorry pups but we should all be getting to bed as it going to be a long day tomorrow and before your father comes up" she said with a heavy sigh. Kris kept his hold on me still worrying about me.

"It's ok Kris, really! I'll be ok" He hugged me tightly once more.

"Kristopher come on" she tried to sound like she meant it but we all knew she didn't and didn't want to.

His lips pressed against mine lovingly "Sleep well puppy, I'll miss you" I chuckled softly as he relinquished his protective grip on me and left to leave only after kissing Jane and saying his good nights.

"You are such a good influence on him, I don't think I've seen him this calm over something like this in a long time!" she said as she hugged once more "I'll see what I can do about my pain in the ass mate but in the meantime don't worry, you just concentrate on resting and getting better"

"Thank you" was I all said as I felt the tears trying to return, she kissed me on the cheek and made for the door.

"Good night Jayson, I'll see you in the morning" and then the door closed leaving me alone.

I stood there for a short time trying to organise my thoughts, I made my way to what I thought was a bathroom and thankfully I was correct. The sight of a nice big bath did lift my spirits slightly as smile did cross my lips but I didn't feel as if I had the strength to have one so proceeded to wash the tear streaks from my cheeks and my bloodshot eyes and resigned myself to have one in the morning.

I stripped off save the annoyingly comfortable jockstrap and literally crawled into bed for it to instantly go to darkness.

"Jayson? Jayson?" a small voice woke me from a dreamless sleep. I opened my eyes slowly due to the stinging light. I had left the lights on. As I squinted to the source of the voice coming from the door my heart fell.

Ryan stood there peeking from behind the half closed door with bloodshot eyes and drying tear streaks down his cheeks. I quickly threw the sheets off me and crossed over to him, I wobbled a little and he stepped back looking a little scared of me, which worried me more.

I quickly stopped to look at myself and see what causing both problems. I had changed into my were-form sometime during my slumber which was causing the wobble as I was walking on the balls of my feet rather than the normal heel and ball of my foot but most of all I must have frightened Ryan as Kris is the only one to have seen this form of mine.

I crouched down to Ryan's level as my ears touched the ceiling, I must have been a bit of a fright for the little pup seeing a massive wolf instead of the normal dog breeds of his family and I am quite a bit bigger than Kris also.

"It's ok Ryan, it's me Jayson. What's the matter?" I stretched out my arms offering a hug.

He looked me over quickly before shutting the door and running into my arms "I had a nightmare!" he sounded so scared and frightened, just held tightly in my arms and I tried to calm him down from his panicked state.

"Oh little one I'm sorry I scared you but it's ok you're safe, nothing bad is going to happen!" he looked up at me as more beads of water traced his cheeks and off the end of his little chin as he sniffed.

"C-can I ssssleep with you?" he looked on the point of bursting into even greater tears and just bawling his eyes out.

"Of course you can but what about you mum and dad?" he rubbed his red eyes a little and sniffled.

"Dad says I'm too old to do that and then he tells me to go back to my bed!" his breathing was shallow but very fast.

A small growl arose from my throat thinking about what Ryan had said, no one is too old to be scared by nightmares and to be comforted after them. I have had my fair share but I was too scared to tell my parents about them as they were about my wolven side.

"Come on" I picked him up carefully with ease, he let as very cute squeak as I did so and after turning off the light I headed back to the bed, where I pulled him close and did the same with the covers.

"Th-thaaank you" he was still breathing awkwardly, I started to talk him through taking deep calming breaths which he started but it took him a while to be able to control it.

"What was your nightmare about?" he looked scared all over again, I tightened my grip around him and licked his tear stained cheeks. Still feels a little weird to do that but it seemed to calm the little jittery ball in my arms.

"I don't want to say, it was really bad!" he sniffled a bit but the breathing was much better.

"It always good to talk about bad dreams, it's only your mind trying to figure out what you might do if it ever happens" he looked at me a little confused but I think he understood, I did try to keep it as simple as possible for him.

"When I was your age I used to have a lot of bad dreams but I couldn't talk to anyone about because I was a werewolf and no-one else was" I felt the weight of those times rush back to me, I was so scared of what people would think of or do to me.

Letting out a cleansing breath I looked to see a little set of eyes look into mine, even with the lights off I could see him very clearly. The innocence of children and their wonder of the simplest things is one the main thing I love about children and Ryan just seemed to hang on my every word. I know he adores and loves Kris but I think Kris doesn't really have much time or patience for him sadly so that might be why he's taken to sticking to me.

Those little eyes brought me back from my memories and thoughts to the present situation "I used to have really bad nightmares that I would hurt the people I loved because of what I am, sometimes I would be too scared to sleep"

"What did you do to stop them?" his voice was low but only because of the hour it was and our closeness,

"I learnt how to wake myself up, that's something you have to learn yourself. Sorry" he looked a little saddened by that "but I started to think about my dreams, not in a way that scared me but in what I would do if my nightmares were real" he gave me a confused look.

"I had a recurring dream that was really bad where I had killed my dad" he looked very shocked "and it really upset me, but when I calmed down and thought about it, I knew I loved my dad and I knew that I would never want to hurt him because of that. I knew that normal wolves protected their family and helped them, so it didn't seem right I would do that" the little pair of eyes furrowed as he thought to himself.

"So I need to think about my nightmares?" he looked a little confused.

"Yeah but talking about them is better, as talking about them is easier and clearer than thinking about what 'happened'" a little switch seemed to flick over as he thought to himself, "do you want to tell me what happened in your dream?"

He tensed as I asked him, he a worried expression crossed his little face a while he thought it over. I gave him a little squeeze trying to comfort and reassure him.

"I-I dreamt th-that" the beads of water started to form and his breathing picked up.

"Hey, Hey! Its ok I'm here nothing's going to happen! You're safe!" he buried his face into my thick fur on my chest and held me just as tight as I did him.

We stayed like that for a while, I rocked back and forth just the same way my mother did when I was little, I cuddled him as he calmed himself and was ready to start again if he wanted to.

I've worked with quite a lot of children in my time be it baby sitting or helping mum in the paediatric unit at the hospital and they all have their fears and worries and they just need someone to hold them and listen really. Most children respond amazing well to physical contact, their very tactile as it's how they learn most of the time.

He cleared his throat and sniffled as I looked into those little golden hazel eyes, he was just like a mini Kris in some ways!

"In my nightmare everyone was dead and I was the only one alive and they started to chase me, I tried to hide but they kept finding me. Everyone was dead, even ............. You, then they started to chase me and that's when I woke up" he was on the verge of bawling his little eyes out again, I just cuddled him and said it was alright.

It took a few moments to calm him down and reasonable settled, "who was chasing you?" he whipped his nose with his arm in classic small person style.

"H-hhunters" I knew what was going to say but he needed to say it so we could start talking about it!

I softly licked his cheeks while stroking his back gently with my large hands, he nuzzled into my chest just like a little pup, this must be what I'm like with Kris going by his torments and comments. We just lay there for a while letting the moment pass, he dug his little fingers through my thick fur, which tickled a little but not enough to make me laugh.

"Ryan" he looked from where he had his face buried in my fur all wide eyed but tired, I'll keep it short and sweet for both our sakes.

"There are no hunters going to get you, if they do come they are going to have to get through me first!! You see this" I lifted the duvet and pointed to my scar "They tried and failed! I'm big and I'm strong, just like Kris and your dad, and they will have to go through all of us first! So you are safe and sound!" he just stared at me with those big shining hazel eyes.

"You promise?"

"I promise, little one!" he smiled and replanted his face into my chest and hugged me tightly. I just smiled and nuzzled the top his head.