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Chapter One

By

Furry Sith Lord

I don’t remember my parents because my memories are fragmented. I was too young to remember anything other than when I was sent to live in an orphanage. I’ve been told certain things about the whole situation but I can’t remember any of it so I’m forced to take them at their word.

I was told my real mother was young when she became pregnant and coming from a strong Catholic family she decided to carry me to term. Her religion made her an outcast to her family and without their help she was not able to care for me and gave me up for adoption. The last thing I remember was her leading me and a backpack of clothes and toys to a car that took me to the orphanage.

I spent a couple of years in the orphanage and mostly what I remember was the loneliness of the place. I really didn't’ fit in with the groups that were already there. I was only of the youngest kids and was more likely to become adopted than the older kids so no one wanted to become attached to me. I eventually made a friend but Fen Ju adopted me shortly after.

When she first came to the orphanage, the other foster kids here were excited and went out of their way to impress her in hope that she would pick them. I finally had a friend so I could care less and was more focused on my new friend than a potential foster parent.

She was a middle aged woman with long black hair that was tied with a ribbon in the back. She was a few feet taller than I was so so towered over me and her expression was cold as if her face was made of stone. She forced a smile when we first met but her face returned to the emotionless expression she seemed to normally have. Her expression was one I can only describe as cold and it frightened me.

“Shion,” Yong Shou shouted to me and Hu Feng as he sat on the ground playing with some toy metal cars. We looked up and had to shield our eyes from the sun as both women stood looking down on us.

“Come say hello to Fen Ju.” Yong Shou ordered me. We both stood up and bowed politely.

“Hello,” I said and smiled. Fen Ju reached out and grabbed my face and her grip felt like a metal claw as she turned my head from side to side as she examined me. I just let her hoping that she would become bored and move on so we could continue playing. She finally released me and nodded to Hu Feng then walked away as Yong Shou gestured at me with both her thumbs up then she scurry away after Fen Ju.

“Man she’s scary.” Hu Feng whispered to me and I nodded my head then we both sat and began to play with our cars again.

A few days later I was standing outside the orphanage with my backpack and a small suitcase as I waited for Fen Ju to arrive and pick me up. It seemed she picked me instead of one of the others and I had to tearfully say goodbye to Hu Feng and wondered if I’d ever have another friend.

When she arrived her black car seemed as big and as cold as she was. I stood by Yong Shou and wanted to run away but her presents made me feel like my feet were stuck to the sidewalk.

“Come,” Fen Ju ordered as she stepped out of her car and approached me. I picked up my belongings and followed her as he opened one of the doors and had me sit while she placed my bags in her trunk. On the ride home she explained the rules she expected to be obeyed.

“Shion! Are you listening to me?”” My girlfriend shouted, snapping me out of my daydream.

“Yeah, of course.” I lied. Jessica stood there and folded her arm across her chest as she glared at me. I knew she did not believe me but I shrugged and grabbed her and pulled her close.

“So are you gonna do it?” She asked and I rolled my eyes and stepped away from her. She used her hand to grip mine and firmly held it showing she was not willing to let me pull away.

“It has nothing to do with me, Jess.” I replied but Jessica gave me another cold hard stare. She suddenly seemed like Fen Ju as she stared.

“How can you say that after everything you’ve told me?” She asked and I groaned. She was right in a way but the whole situation was something I did not want to get involved with.

My adopted mother, Fen Ju, had called and left a message that she was adopting another orphan she found. She did not mention much other than he was 13 years old and was found abandoned. He wanted me to know I now had a foster brother and I may need to be called to watch him.

Even when I was his age she never trusted me and was always suspicious that I was planning on running away. Her husband had died before she adopted me and to ease her loneliness she thought she would adopt a child to keep her company. I was more of a pet than a ral son she was interested in raising.

As soon as I was 18 I moved out and have been on my own ever since doing what I could to make ends meet. I was not as smart or as gifted as my peers so college was not an option for me. I would bounce around from job to job searching for something I could turn into a career.

Jessica worked with me at one of the jobs I worked and we found we had a lot in common. I asked her out the night I was laid off from the job and really it was just supposed to be a good bye date. Nothing to get serious about and I doubted it would lead to anything.

I always tend to be shy around women for a number of reasons. The main thing was that Fen Ju had scared me most of my life and there were times when they glared at me that it was like Fen Ju was glaring. She never physically abused me but the emotional stuff I had to deal with definitely left some scars.

The other thing that had a big impact on me was that my dick was kinda small compared to other boys. One reason I hated taking showers at school was the constant bullying that I had a child’s dick.

Most of the time when I’m flaccid, my length is about an inch and depending on how horny I am, determines how much I grow. Typically when masterbating I go up to 2 or 3 inches but when I’m super horney like I’m ready to explode at any moment, I go to 4 to 4.5 inches. Unfortunately, that rarely happens to me.

The date with Jessica was great I thought we both ha a great time but after it was over she came over to my place and we decided to fuck. She was very aggressive and afterwards I felt embarrassed but she did not seem to mind. We started dating after that and have been ever since. She was promoted to manager and I… just keep getting laid off.

“I just don’t get why this is such a big deal? I mean it’s not like I’m even related to the kid. He’s just her new pet to keep from getting lonely and I don’t see why I should get involved.” I said and her expression softened slightly.

“Because you know how she treats her ‘pets’ and he could use someone to help him through it. He is your family now even if you don’t want to admit it.” She replied. I sighed as I fought the urge to roll my eyes again. I was not in the mood to discuss Fen Ju and what a terrible person she was. Now she was adopting another child so she could screw up his life and here I am expected to swoop in and save him.

“Not my problem.” I replied coldly.

“So you are going to abandon him the way you were abandoned.” She said and I felt a small pang of guilt. I knew I was losing the argument but tried to keep a brave front so I did not appear weak.

“You’re not gonna let this go, are you?” I asked.

“Just go and meet him and if things don’t work out then you never have to go back again.”

“Fine,” I groaned and started to walk away but she chased after me and grabbed my hand again.

“That way you can at least say you tried.” She continued but I was not listening anymore. I had my fill of the whole conversation and needed to get away. I needed some time alone to think things through.

Knowing how Fen Ju thinks because of the years I’ve spent with her, I knew I’d need a valid reason for why I was going to visit them. She would press if I just admitted that I wanted to meet my new foster brother.

She knew I cared little for her and would not care if she had adopted a new child. She was correct! In fact I was surprised that she even bothered to call my girlfriend to tell her the news. This is a surprise because why should she care if I knew or not. I had no interest in her new child and was not going to form any kind of bonds or relationships with him.

It would have been better if I never knew he existed. This way we would not need to make excuses to dodge each other. Jessica was the only problem because she was set on making sure I had a relationship with both of them even though I had no interest. I told her the stories of what I went through and could not understand why she forces me to try and keep my foster family in my life.

I had a bad feeling about this and this was making me seriously consider if I still wanted Jessica as my girlfriend.

To Be Continued…