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I don't remember much from my childhood but I will tell you what I do. Its not a happy story.

I was born in a quiet area of eastern Ohio. I didn't have the same fur color as he did but the markings were the same. He had dark color fur for a Arctic wolf. I know now that I wasn't what my father wanted in a pup. But part of it was his fault. I remember things like "if you keep whining I'll give you something to cry about" and "you better get over here or its gonna be worse". Yep, he was one of those. If he had a bad day at work, I got beaten. And one thing you never ever do was to look him in the eye, he took that as a challenge. Sometimes he would go after mom, but I was his favorite punching bag. And it got worse after my sister was born. In his eyes she could do no wrong.

I hated to be at home.

We didn't have much in the way of things. Small house with a nice size yard, everything a small pup needs. Trees, lots of trees around, two sides of the back yard were blocked off by woods. I spent a lot of time playing in the woods, got in trouble a few times. I was a little boy, what do you expect. There weren't any computers, Playstation's, Xbox's, or cable.

I had this one friend, his name was Terry. He was a Timber wolf my age, he was taller and stronger, and for some reason his parents never let him come over to my house but I was welcome over there anytime. His house was about 10 miles down the street, but if you cut through the woods it took 20 minutes on foot. I didn't get much affection at home but I got it a Terry's. his brother would even let me hug him, he was a cool guy too.

I remember this one time I was able to spend the night over this house. Terry and his father (another cool guy) and brother Brian were going camping and invited me to come along. They didn't have a extra bed so Terry and I shared his double size bed (I was 8, get your mind out of the gutter.)

It was dark outside when I woke up. I look over at Terry and see that he is still sound asleep. I get out of bed to go to the bathroom and I hear someone talking. Being as quiet as I could I moved down the hall and stopped just outside Brian's room to listen. I know I should not have done it but at home I do it to see if it is safe to move around.

"I'm telling you dad, the kids not right. He likes to get hugs all the time, his ears are pressed to his head most of the time. And the only time his tail wags is when he is getting a hug or playing with Terry. There is the way he looks at Terry sometimes that creep me out" said Brian.

"ok Brian, I plan to talk to him during the trip. I know his dad, and you need to know that he isn't treated like you and Terry are. I feel sorry for the kid." Said Terry's father.

"what do you mean?" asked Brian.

"I didn't want to say this but, his father beats him all the time and not because he's bad. Do remember the black eye Melrakki had last week, his father got into a fight and lost. Call him 'the Runt' all the time. The kid needs someone to look out for him, I need to talk to him so that he can watch what he is doing. I think it would be bad if his father sees him do it. Now go to sleep, I'm going to check on the boy's. We are leaving early tomorrow." Said Terry's father.

I fled down the hall into Terry's room. Got into bed without waking Terry and pretended to be asleep. I didn't know that his dad saw me go back into the room.

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The next time I woke up I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. After I left I herd noises coming from the kitchen so I went down to see who was there. It was Terry's mom.

"Good morning sweetie, would you like some breakfast?" she asked.

"Yes please, ma'am." I said with a stutter.

She smiled at me and said "always so polite, I wish my boy's were that polite. Have a seat at the table".

"Yes ma'am" I said and sat down. I watched everything that she did. She got out a glass and pored some juice then set the glass in front of me. The only thing I could do was to thank her. She went back to making breakfast. I watched her make pancakes, sausage, and eggs. She got the bread out next than stopped and looked at me.

"Mel, would you like to do me a favor and go wake everyone else up?" she asked.

"yes, ma'am" I said and left the room. I didn't want to but she asked. When you get beat all the time and an adult asks you to do something you see it as an order. The first fur to wake up was Terry's dad. When I got to the side of the bed I stopped. All I could think was that I hope he's not angry.

With my tail tucked between my legs and ears pressed to my head. I reached out and gently shook his arm. "Sir, your wife wanted me to wake you up. Sir" I said with a stutter.

" Alright I'm up" he shouted. I ran to Terry's room next.

I opened the door and looked at my friend. He looked so peace full just sleeping. An evil thought came to my mind, I crept over to his bed and got real close to his ear and yelled " Your going to be late". He jumped about five feet in the air looked at me and said " Don't do that". I couldn't help but giggle. "Breakfast is almost ready" I said then left.

Just one fur left, Brian. I went over to his room and knocked on the door.

No answer. So I knocked again. Still no answer. I opened the door and peeked inside. He was sleeping without a shirt on. I went to wake him and as I reached out to shake him he moved. My paw landed on his chest. He opened his eyes looked at me and bared his teeth " GET OUT OFF MY ROOM" he screamed.

As soon as he did that my eyes got the size of dinner plates, my ears pressed into my head, my tail tucked between my legs, and the most unspeakable thing. I wet myself right there in front of him. My eyes teared up and I ran from the room slamming the door. I bolted into the bathroom and dove into the bathtub, crying the whole time.

" WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?" yelled Terry's father.

"Melrakki was in my room" said Brian.

"Your mother told him to wake everyone up for breakfast. What's that smell?" said Terry's father.

"I think he wet himself" said Brian.

"Where did he go?" asked Terry's father.

"Bathroom". said Brian.

Then I heard a soft knock on the door. "Mel, are you alright?" said Terry's dad.

"*sniff* yes sir *sniff*" was all that I said. How do you tell another male fur you pissed yourself.

He padded over to the tub put a paw on my shoulder and asked "are you sure. Did you have an accident?"

Now if it was my father I would have been beaten first for running away than second for wetting myself. "yes, sir. I was bad and wet myself" I said with a whine. That would have gotten me another beating.

"What do you mean you were bad?" he asked.

"*sniff* I wet myself" I said.

"Well its not that bad, lets get you cleaned up. I want you to take off your wet clothes and take a shower." He said.

I started to take off my clothes and his eyes got larger. "Wait until I leave." He said.

After I took my shower and dried off. I wrapped the towel around me and went to Terry's room. I got dressed and went down to the kitchen. Everyone was waiting for me, I walked to an empty chair and sat down with my eyes down the whole time. This wasn't a good start to the trip.