The wolf and a harder decision
#10 of I'm Real (scales & wings)
here is chapter 9 finally
i know it's a little short but it needs to be that way since it's just adding to the plot right now
anyway heres a warning to you this chapter contains m/m so if your not into that don't read it or try a different story/chapter
Enjoy
Chapter 9
The wolf and a harder decision
I walked down the hall as I was contemplating what to do, I need a place to focus I need a place to think
I thought that room with the couch would be the perfect place no one else could be there now; it would be the perfect place to have a little peace
I found my way to that room and lay down on my back on the couch
It was quiet, I was starting to like it when things were quiet, I then closed my eyes and began to think
What was going on?
Why did I feel this way?
Who can I really go to now?
Does everyone have to make such decisions?
It seems impossible; the world couldn't really be that unstable
Clearly asking myself all of these questions wouldn't get me anywhere, there are too many things I have to consider before I can really understand anything
But I think now maybe a little nap would help... it couldn't hurt
The quiet darkness that is sleep envelops my mind, I feel relaxed here almost as if nothing could disturb me
"Dachii" I voice echoed from the darkness
"Huh? Who's there?" I looked around
"How many times are you going to forget me? ..." that wolf from before appeared before me
"Oh... it's you" I said "Wait! Why are you here, I couldn't have died" I was beginning to panic
"Don't worry yourself" it chuckled "your fine I just found a way to project myself into your subconscious"
I looked at it strangely "why? Did you come here just to scare me... and make my decision that much harder" I mumbled at the end of that sentence
It chuckled again, what was so damn funny I was having a tough time and all it could do was laugh at me
"So what do you want? An apology" it said to me
"Maybe..." I said back to it
"oh come on, what ever happened to my big strong lizard, the kind of guy who could handle anything... the one I used to call...m-" I sounded like it was yelling before sounding almost as if it was crying
"What are you talking about? I don't even know your name" I yelled back
It looked as if it was really hurt by my words
"You really have forgotten... everything" it picked me up and looked me in the eye
"You can't even remember the day we met, the day you saved me... the day you made me yours"
What was it talking about, reminiscing on old memories that I don't even have
"Then at least tell me your name"
I saw a tear drop from its face "you shouldn't need to know my name..."
It stayed in its constant stare "I want you to know me again, at least from the last time... from the last promise you made to me"
"Huh?" suddenly everything went white, the blinding light made me lose sight of the wolf
As the light faded, I felt strange, like I wasn't myself
I tried to move but I couldn't my body wasn't listening to my mind
Was this a dream... no... it was more like a memory
All I could do was just observe and let the body move on its own, but from the looks of it I was in a wooded area
The scenery was quite amazing much like the forest that I had been to in the simulator
My arms seemed to be gathering a few berries and leaves
This definably wasn't my body, from when it looked down I could see it was still scaly but it was a deep green and much taller and slender but muscular
I seemed to finish when I looked up toward something in the distance, there was a hill and at the top was a single small structure, I guess you could call it a cabin
In moments I took to that direction getting there in a short time, I pushed open the door
Scanning the room and finding what I was looking for, headed over towards it
It was the wolf but it had no markings, but it looked severely hurt, clothing torn , it was lying on a small towel on the floor blood soaked, its blue fur stained with drying blood but it seemed to be breathing
It then stirred right in front of me and yowled in pain from trying to move
"Try not to move, just eat these they'll make you feel better"
Did the body just speak for itself... this really must be a memory, but who's was it?
It ate the berries and then still laying there asked
"What's going on?"
"I don't know, but I found you out there you seemed really hurt so I brought you back here"
"You... saved me...why would anyone do that? ..." it said sadly
"I couldn't just leave you there to die"
"You would have if you knew what I was..."
I just stared into the wolf's eyes
"What could you be that is so bad?"
Then I saw the wolf raise its arm, a small glimmer of light shone off of its fur and it seemed to heal at a quick speed
I jumped back and then got closer after the rest of the wolf's body had started to heal
"You healed yourself?"
"it seems to be the only thing I can do now, what ever they did to me got rid of my other abilities... it's left me defenseless" the wolf sat up "I guess I should go, I don't want to get you involved"
"Wait"
I was just about to say the same thing
The wolf stopped and looked at me
"Please don't go" I grabbed the wolf's arm
"You're going to get hurt if they find me here" the wolf said
"But you're going to die if you go back out there... why would you want to go?"
We just stared into each others eyes our minds just trying to process this
Then I did something completely unexpected I pulled the wolf in close and planted a kiss right on the lips, which lasted for some time
When the kiss was broken the wolf spoke up
"Why did you do that?" it asked
"I...I don't know, but I just had a feeling so I went for it"
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know... but I know that I don't want you to leave"
"but-" the wolf was interrupted
"I don't care what I have to do, I'll protect you"
The wolf looked like it was on the verge of tears
"Really?... do you promise?"
"Yes" I nuzzled its neck "I love you, and I don't want to let you go"
"You love... me" it looked down "I don't think it's even possible to love someone like me"
"Then let me be the only one, the one to make it possible"
The wolf looked up and hugged me tightly
"No one has ever wanted me...then if you really mean it" it took a breath "then I'll be yours forever" it then pulled me into a deep and passionate kiss
I lifted the wolf in my arms and carried it over to what looked like a mattress, never breaking the kiss between us
I pulled us both onto the small mattress and looked into its eyes
"I want to know something... what's your name?" I asked
"I ... abandoned my name..." the wolf said sadly
"Then let us make a new name together" I pulled our hands together
"No... I don't wish to be named anymore..."
"Then what do I call you? How will I know the one that I love?"
"That is up to you to decide now... master"
Did it just call me master?
"Hmmm...Maybe you don't need a name..." my arm reached into a small cabinet by the mattress, it grabbed hold of something and brought it back
I was holding a shiny white collar
"A long time ago, someone told me to give this to the one I love... I feel you're the one meant to wear it" I put the collar around the wolf's neck, it was a perfect fit "now I can call you my pet, I'll love you and protect you, always"
"Thank you master" it licked my cheek "I love you master"
"Now tell me... do you wish to please your master?" I asked
"Yes, anything"
Then let me show you what love I have for you" I kissed it again this time taking off its torn clothing
The wolf was definitely male, but a very slim and almost feminine looking body
My clothing came off as well; we laid there for a moment holding each other sharing each others warmth
I pulled him around so his back was at my front
I was aroused, I was already fully erect
"Please master, make me yours"
I aligned myself with his tail hole just putting my tip at his entrance
Please don't tease me master" he whimpered
That's when I made a full thrust in, I heard I quiet yelp come from the wolf
I used my tongue and licked from his neck to his cheek as I slowly pushed in and out
He started to moan and murr, he was enjoying this and so was I
"Do you like this my pet?" I asked
"Yes master... please don't stop, I want to please you"
I started to increase speed; the harder force of my movements caused the wolf to bark lightly
I continued my pumping, I was in a state of ecstasy, but I knew I wasn't going to last very long I could feel myself getting close
"Are you ready?" I asked him
"For you master... always"
I did a few more light pumps before pulling back one more time and slamming my full length inside the wolf's tail hole and releasing my load inside of him
I heard him howl as he spewed warm seed onto the mattress at the same time
We lay there in the loving warmth that was between us, I rubbed his belly he seemed to enjoy it
"I love you" I whispered into his ear
"I love you to master" he said to me
I pulled myself out of him he whimpered a little as I came out of him, little white drops coming out of his tail hole
"Master?" he said
I turned him around to face me
"Yes my love"
"You really love me... do you feel it was meant to be?"
I hugged him tightly "I know it was meant to be, and I won't ever stop believing that"
"Then... can you promise me something"
"Anything"
"Promise me that I'll be yours forever... promise me that no matter what we will always be together"
"I promise, not even death will break that promise"
Was this what he wanted me to see?
Suddenly everything became dark again and I saw the wolf standing before me
"Now you know who I am, how we met, and why I watch you" he said quietly
I was back in my own body but what was that just now, who was I in that memory?
"But... I still don't understand, how could that be me...?"
"... maybe you'll regain your memories one day, but there is a word that should make you understand"
"And what would that be?" I asked curiously
He crouched down to my height "soulmate"
He then vanished and the entire world around me stayed in its utter silence
"Soulmate?" I pondered the thought
Is what he meant that we were soul mates... if that was true then... I really did make a promise, and it seems like I broke it
I then woke up, I was still in the same room, same silence in the waking world
I thought taking a nap would help but it seems to have made things even harder
There were too many decisions; could I even trust my feelings anymore?
I need to know what to do
Do I still go find Tye?
Do I stay with my family?
Or do I just end things... the quick and easy way... I made a promise... I made many promises, to more than just myself
I don't think anyone can help me now, no matter what the decision I make is going to hurt someone
... Who will it hurt the most? But I know the real question
Why is all of this put on my wings?
No named angel (promises)
I miss you master
I can see you but I just can't have you back
It's my fault... I failed you, I said I be there
I hope you forgive me master
I can see now you have a name... is it something you want me to call you by?
Even if you can't remember me... do you still love me?
You know we were meant to be
You took care of me when I needed you
You fulfilled your promise and protected me... even though it ended your life
I wish now that I could go back... and take back that promise
Maybe you would still be alive
But I remember now, we went together, we chose to go back to see if we could live again
I promised I would meet you one day in life, but I failed... I failed to survive birth
My markings now show my failed attempt at life, I await the day you return to help me remove these markings
This time lets go together... not back to life, but to where we fear to go before
I know this time if you forgive me... we can make it
No matter what body you're in, I know you and you know me
I love you... there has to be something more waiting for us
So for now all I can do is watch and wait here for you
Then all our time together will have been ...
What am I saying?
You'll never forgive me
I was the reason you died, the very thing that caused you pain
And yet you still loved me... I don't deserve you
I'd wait forever for you, even if you said you didn't love me anymore
I'd still wait... and let myself slowly fade
Since all I know is that it was meant to be
There will never be anyone else for me... my master... my... soulmate
End of Chapter 9
well thats that for this chapter
What will Dachii chose in the end?
Why did the wolf chose to let Dachii to be his master?
find out in the next chapters!
i added that little part at the end to make things seem a little more poetic, but it was more or less what i needed to extend the chapter
but heres a little request on your part readers tell me who you think Dachii will chose?
you don't need to explain i just want to know what you think will happen and who knows it may be a story altering answer
and please comment on this chapter i like to know what you readers think