Doctors Log Ch.4 Doctor 2
It was the morning after Ryan's arrival.His drug test came back positive with signs of a long list of drugs so he was sure to still be going through withdrawal. I wanted to check up on him to make sure he didn't run but also to make sure he wasn't in too much pain. The first place I checked was his room , of course he wasn't there. Next I checked the bathrooms, the living room, the kitchen, and finally the back yard garden. I couldn't find him anywhere but there was a strange feeling of someone other than myself being around. As I stepped back inside from the garden he was there to greet me by the doorway , he surprised me.
Ryan- So I can leave
Doctor- Good morning to you too Ryan
Ryan- you said I can go if I want right
Doctor- Yes, but you have to be back by curfew , and I'd advise against you leaving while your going through withdrawal
Ryan-But I can go wherever I want
Doctor-Yes
Ryan-And you won't follow me or send cops after me or anything
Doctor-You are free to come and go as you wish as long as you tell me when and where your going and are back by curfew with no drugs in your system
Ryan- Do I get a house key or something
Doctor- No, if you don't make it back before curfew the doors will be locked and you will have to wait until morning to get inside at which point I will mark a strike on your file
Ryan-What if I don't know where I'm going, what if I just want to take a walk
Doctor- As the owner of this halfway house and you being my current live in legally I could put a tracker in your ear
I was joking but clearly his withdrawal was making it hard for him to see it that way.
Ryan- The fuck
Doctor- It would tell me where you are at all times and we could move beyond needing you to tell me where your going
Ryan- Your one sick son of a bitch , your not about to put a tracker in me like I'm cattle
Doctor- Then I expect you to let me know where your going , and it would be in both our interest for you to be honest when you do
Ryan- Whatever fine
Doctor- I don't want you to fail, in fact it would mean the world to me for you to get better regardless of if you and I are friendly to one another
Ryan- I don't like you
Doctor- And that's fine
He was shaking as if it were freezing and sweating through his clothes. I tried to put my hand on his shoulder but he stepped away before I could.
Ryan- Your whole high road vibe dose not sit right with me
Doctor- I'm not entirely sure what you mean by that but again that's fine as long as you get better
Ryan- I know your just like everyone one else looking down on me thinking I need help but I'm fine , I'm happy with the way I am
He was still wearing his rags and his fur war still a mess , his eyes were blood shot and he could barley stand up right without falling over.
Doctors- You were found with enough narcotics to kill 3 people and half of those drugs were already in you
Ryan- So I smoke weed , everyone does
Doctor- Everyone doesn't do speed, blow, and take prescription pain medication
Ryan- It was one night I went too far
Doctor- The arresting officer told me that was the second time he found you that way in a week
He snapped at me.
Ryan- Fuck you
Doctor- I'm not looking down on you, but you need help and I'm trying to be the one to give it to you
Ryan- Bull shit , your using me to get a paycheck, you don't care if I Change or not just as long as you get paid , and all this crap about us being friends is just a cheap way to try to keep me in line
Doctor- Don't you think its ironic that your judging me by a false preconceived notion about me that you think I believe about you
I could see he was thinking over what I'd said.
Ryan- That made no sense and I don't like you
Doctor- Like I said , that's fine you do not have to like me just as long as you get better
He stared at me for a moment with disgust in his eyes for me.
Ryan- I'm going to the store
Doctor- what store
Ryan- grocery store down the road
Doctor- your welcome to anything in the kitchen
Ryan- you don't have what I'm looking for
He headed towards the front door and I followed him.
Doctor- you have another drug test at the end of the week , if you put anything in you that you shouldn't I will know
Ryan- do you get off watching me pee in a cup , I bet you get a real kick out of seeing another guys dick knowing yours is so much bigger
Doctor- if your referring to the stereo type about horses that I think you are I can tell you now that it is not true
Ryan- yea well we wont know for sure because I'm the one pulling my dick out to take a piss not you
I didn't like how he was evading my informing him of his drug test but he stopped walking. If talking about something as childish as stereo types would keep him from leaving then I was willing to humor him.
Doctor- your bigger than I am
He seemed to be confused, speechless almost.
Ryan- bull shit , your a horse
Doctor- I'm not a feral
Ryan- your twice my size and .... and ....
He was smarter than a diversion attempt.
Ryan- your just trying to keep me here
Doctor- I only meant to set you straight on the falsehood of a stereotype
Ryan- sure you did , Ill be back
Doctor- you shouldn't go out while your in withdrawal
Ryan- are you going to stop me
Doctor- legally I can , but I'd prefer you to make the right choice and stay rather than go out and put your self at risk
He opened the door.
Ryan- I'm fine , I don't need this place
Doctor- I understand that you haven't hurt anyone other than yourself yet , but if you keep jumping off of bridges your bound to hit the ground too hard eventually
Ryan- the fuck does that even mean
Doctor- stay , if you honestly don't see that you could be better then stay for me
Ryan- I don't like you
Doctor- tell me something, has anyone tried to call you since you were arrested
He didn't speak , but he clearly didn't like what I said.
Doctor- whoever out there that your trying to go see may be your friend, I wont debate that with you , but no one else is letting you live with them and I know you live on the streets, no one stopped you from overdosing three times this week but I would have and its my job to
Ryan- I see what your getting at but
Doctor- stay , you can hardly stand and your clothes could use a wash
Ryan- I don't need this
The door had been open for a while but he still had yet to walk through it. Despite his refusal to be civil there was some part of him that wanted to stay . There was some part of him that wanted to be better.
With little to no other card to play I knew what would make him close the door. I was from the country I wasn't shy , I unzipped my pants and pulled out my cock. He gazed at it for a moment before looking back into my eyes.
Ryan- I knew you were a perv
He chuckled under his breath slightly.
I put it away as he closed the door.
Ryan- but I guess your not a liar
He walked past me and went back up to his room. I exposed myself to him , my live in. there were no rules or laws broken in fact as the owner of the house most of the rules and lines that I didn't want to cross weren't made by the state rather by myself.