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Over the next few weeks, Mikaela kept asking me to spend the weekend at their place with Sarah. And this one weekend, I stayed for two days... But no matter what happened, I always kept coming back... We always did it whenever Sarah wasn't around or whenever she was asleep... But I haven't been neglecting Blain in the mean time. We just continued life like we normally did, and I pretended as if nothing ever happened. Blain was probably just too young to see it, or maybe he was too oblivious to see it, seeing how naïve he's always been. Even four years later, he was still naïve about the things happening around him. But his confidence grew, as well as his ego, knowing he'd kick the living shit out of anyone who tried to mess with him. Practicing Tae Kwon Do had a huge effect on him and changed his physical appearance as well. He wasn't fat and short anymore, seeing as puberty started to kick in and had a grow spurt all of a sudden. He even became taller than me, and I was unusually tall for my age... But I noticed my body was changing as well. Tits were growing, to be short. Hehehe... Tiny little lumps of flesh... And Mikaela loved them... I asked her once if my breasts would ever be as big as hers... And she told me that she certainly hoped so, seeing as she would have something new to play with...

The things that Mikaela did to me weren't bothering me so much once I was used to it... She explained me a lot and I loved all the attention she gave to me, putting me in the spotlight in the centre of attention. If that meant I had to take my clothes off and have her way with me, I'd be willing to do so. She shed a whole new light on everything... And the way she explained everything to me, made me realize that I had to show my love for my friend Blain. She told me that I should... And she only encouraged me to do it... I was nervous by just the thought of it alone... But Mikaela's comforting words and whispers told me that I'd do fine... Blain would never do it alone... He wouldn't have taken the initiative to do so... But the fact that I had sex before and he didn't made me feel kinda special... So many things I wanted to tell him about it and so many things for us to experience... But I had to be careful... Mikaela said that grownups wouldn't understand our love... But I knew Blain would understand.... Despite that, I was feeling excited... And even though I never wanted to tell Blain the whole truth, I let him in on my little secret... Nevertheless... Blain and I were still young little cubs with a lot imagination... And then one day, on a Saturday afternoon, Blain and I were doing what we normally did whenever we were spending the days together...

'Ksssht! Houston, do you read me?!'

'Yankee Doodle Milkshake Floppy Disk zero-niner, this is Houston, we read you, over.'

'We've got a major problem here, over!'

'What's over?!'

'What I just said was over!'

'Roger that!'

'Who's Roger?!'

'I don't know!'

'Copy that!'

'What's to copy?!'

'That you said Roger!'

'Who's Roger?!'

'I don't know, you said Roger!'

'Ten-four!'

'It's already past four o'clock!'

'Yeah, but what's that emergency you're talking about?!'

'We're out of cookies!! Send the Beagle Mars two Rover with new supplies!'

'It's currently driving around on Mars, so we can't send that one! Hence the name MARS!! Two Rover!'

'Well, send something else then!'

'Yeah, we're currently preparing the Discovery Space-shuttle as we speak. You need anything else?'

'Hamburgers!'

'Okay.'

'With no onions! I don't like onions!'

'How can you not like onions?!'

'Just get to it! Roger just died of starvation!'

'Okay!'

I quickly ran back home, knocked on the door and the moment Simon opened up, I barged right in and pillaged the pantry closet, in search for cookies... Hehehe...

'Ceylan? What are you doing?'

'The ISS is in danger!'

'Is it now?' Simon said with a smile...

'Yeah! They're out of cookies!'

'Sounds like a real life threatening situation you got there.'

'It is! Do we have hamburgers?!'

'No, I'm afraid not.'

'Then the ISS is doomed! I'm trying to save what I can!'

'Well good luck saving the crew.'

'Thanks!'

'Don't be too late, alright? It looks as if it's about to rain cats and dogs.'

'Yeah! Later!'

Hehehehe... I always thought that phrase was funny. As if cats and dogs could fall out of the sky at any time. I often imagined how it must've looked like but I never saw it though...

I ran back as fast as I could, carried the cookies to our tree-house in the forest and climbed up the tree. I knocked on the wooden plate, and when Blain came in the "doorway", I talked to him but no sound came out of my throat. He looked all baffled at me and once he opened the "imaginary door" of the "space station", I came in while he looked surprised at me. 'What was that all about?'

'What?'

'It looked so stupid.'

'You can't talk in outer space, silly.'

'Sure you can!'

'No, you can't!

'All astronauts talk in outer space!'

'That's because their wearing suits with radios! There's no wind, no air, nothing. Sound is being transferred by air, but seeing as there is no air in space, there can not be any sound because it got nothing to float on! But if you weren't wearing a suit, you'd be dead in a couple of seconds! You'll freeze to death or suffocate or explode! Or you'll suffocate, freeze and explode at the same time!'

Blain just frowned at me with a puzzled look... I was watching the Discovery Channel waaaaaaay too much for my age... But I especially loved those documentaries about outer space and the universe. Hehe... So we sat down and started munching on the cookies I brought in and actually "saved the ISS"...

'It actually happened.' I said.

'What happened?'

'Exploding in outer space.'

'Really?'

'Yeah! They once tested it with a frog, and there was something like dekom... Decompre... Decomper... I don't know, but the frog exploded!'

'Awesome...'

With the "ISS" and the crew being safe and all, there wasn't much left for me to save. Also, we played "saving the ISS" scenario way too much that it got boring... I looked outside the "window" and noticed that it started to rain... Tiny drops of water hit the trees and the open grass plain... The kids who were playing there ran away in search of shelter... 'It's raining...'

'Huh? Oh, yeah...'

'That sucks... When do you have to go home?'

'Soon, I guess... You?'

'Same...'

It stayed silent for a long time while we were sitting there, staring outside the window. We kept looking at the other kids who were still running from one place to another to find a dry place. So we watched how they all left, one by one, until there was no one outside anymore... People who were outside were soaked... But Blain and I stayed dry in the tree-house... I looked over at Blain... Just thinking of it sent a tingle through my stomach... And just when I wanted to ask him, he asked me instead...

'Do you think we're in love...?' He asked me quietly...

'I think so... Why...?'

'It's because... Well, we always hang out, and my sister always tells me that we are...'

'Maybe... I don't know...'

'But we'll always stay friends, right...?'

'Yeah, of course...'

'Awesome...'

I looked at him and smiled when I saw his expression... And the moment I looked in front of me again, I felt something unexpected... He pressed his lips against my cheek and gave me a quick kiss... His warm breath against my muzzle... It just happened so very quick... When I looked at him, I saw Blain was biting his upper lip and that he was blushing while he looked in front of him... I think he was really embarrassed... So I did the same to him... I kissed him quickly on his cheek... Then he turned even redder... He shouldn't be embarrassed... No one saw it... No one heard it... No one felt it, except for the two for us... We were alone... And Mikaela always told me that we had to make sure we were alone if we wanted to make it happen... I kept staring at Blain from the corners of my eyes. And I noticed that he was staring at me as well... 'Do you think we should kiss each other...? On the mouth...?' I asked him quietly... Blain looked up all of a sudden and kept staring at me with a surprised look... 'You don't have to if you don't want...'

'Do you...?'

'Maybe... I mean... That's what people do when their in love, right...?'

'I guess...'

So I got closer to him... And hesitated for a moment while he kept staring at me... But then I gently pressed my lips against his... And after a couple of moments, I felt something hard between my legs... And then I remembered what Mikaela said to me... "When a boy and a girl are in love with each other... They sometimes love each other so much that they want to be inside of each other... It makes them feel warm and tingly inside... Sometimes a penis gets hard and stiff... And when you want it, he sticks it right there between you're legs..." So what was happening now...? Mikaela told the truth... But did I really want to...? When I let go of Blain and stared between his legs, I saw this tiny little lump in his pants... The moment Blain noticed I was staring there; he tried to hide it by placing his hands in front of it while he was turning red again... 'Hihi...'

'It does that sometimes...'

'No, it's okay. She told me about it...'

'Who did?'

'I'm not supposed to tell... But I know how it works!'

'What do you mean?'

'Sex!'

'Uh...'

'She told me that when a boy and a girl are in love, they want to be inside of each other! So the boy's penis gets stiff and he needs to stick between the legs of the girl!'

'Ah... Sounds disgusting...'

'Well... It's not...'

'How would you know?'

'Because I had sex!'

'You did?'

'Yes! Well... It wasn't with a boy but... With a girl...'

'A girl doesn't have a penis...'

'I know but she said that you don't need a penis to have sex...'

'So... What'd you do...?'

'Well... She showed me... Like... My fingers went inside of her...'

'What?'

'Yeah! And she liked it! And when we went to bed, she licked it...'

'Licked what?'

'My vagina... It felt kinda funny but... I liked it...'

The look on his face was priceless when I told him everything... As if it came as a shock to him... Hehehe... When I looked at him again, I could see that he tried to imagine how it must've looked like... That little lump between his legs only got bigger... But after that, it stayed silent... And the little lump between his legs slowly disappeared... But it also got me wondering how it looks like... I've never seen one before... Or felt it for all that matters... 'Close you're eyes!'

'Why?'

'Just do it!'

And so he did. All I could do was to stare at his crotch for a while. Hihi... And then all of a sudden, I reached out for it and kept rubbing it for a moment. Blain opened his eyes and looked really surprised at me when I was still touching him between his legs... 'What are you doing?'

'Don't look!'

I thought that he didn't mind that I did. He wasn't saying anything when I groped him again... That little lump in his jeans started to grow again... 'Do you like it...?'

'Well, yeah...'

Fondling his crotch to the moment he reached a boner didn't stop me... Seeing the look on his face made me realize it felt good to him, knowing that he liked what I was doing to him. To me, it felt as if it was the only way to "thank" him for everything he did for me... Standing up for me whenever I was being bullied... We're not being bullied anymore, but that didn't matter to me. I haven't forgotten what he did... To make me laugh and to forget everything, even though it only worked whenever he was with me... My best buddy, spending every day and each free hour that we had together... And now I finally found a way to make it up... Blain looked at me with those big twinkling dark blue eyes of his while I stared right back at him as I felt a tingle going through my stomach... 'Why'd you stop...?' he asked me quietly...

'You want me to go on...?'

'Okay...'

So... I let my hands down his jeans and felt the soft fabric of his underwear... It didn't take long for me to feel his boner. And I didn't really know what to do besides caressing it... So I did... 'Can I feel yours...?' he asked me quietly again... So I quickly nodded and smiled as his hand made its way under my skirt. Feeling his soft finger tips caressing my panties felt funny... But I liked it... Touching each others genitals for a while was... Well... Fun, to say the least... Smiling and laughing at each other's expression... 'It feels so warm...'

'Yeah... It tickles... I really like it...'

'So uh...'

'You can see it if you want to...'

'Uh...'

I took a step back and removed my panties from under my skirt. The moment I looked at him again, I was hesitating for a moment whether or not to show him. But the curiosity that was sparked in his eyes gave away that he really wanted to see it. So I gave him what he wanted... I lifted my skirt up, revealing my vagina... Only showed it for a couple of moments because I started to feel embarrassed standing there like that... I could've sworn he uttered something like "wow"... Hehehehe... It stayed silent for a moment as he looked at me with those big eyes while I smiled innocently at him... 'Can I see yours now...?'

'What, no!'

'Why not!? I showed you mine!'

'Uh...'

'Pleeeeeeeeeeease?! I promise, I won't tell anyone!'

With a lot of hesitation and looking all embarrassed, he unbuttoned his jeans and let it down while I saw he still had a boner in his underwear... I looked at it and couldn't help but to giggle, which only made his face turn redder... But then he pulled down his underwear a bit, revealing it... And I was kind of disappointed... I thought it was bigger... I felt it but didn't think it was so small... 'Hihi...'

'You done staring yet?'

'No...' I said innocently as I slowly lifted my skirt back up for him to see... Seeing each others genitals drew us closer together again... Fondling one another to make each other feel good... But just seeing it didn't satisfy our curiosity... Remembering Mikaela's words... They were echoing throughout my mind... Mikaela was capable of doing it... So that meant that Blain was capable of it as well... The moment he looked at me again, I quickly pressed my lips against his and gave him a quick kiss on his lips... And so, we kept fondling each other for a while... Remembering what Mikaela did the last time I slept at her place made me wonder... 'Would you lick it...?'

'What, no! That's disgusting!'

'She did it to me and she didn't think it was disgusting...'

'But that's where you're pee is coming from!'

'I'm not peeing at the moment, am I?'

'No...'

'And besides, I showered this morning...'

'Uh...'

'Pleeeeeeeeease...? I really like it...'

I could see in his eyes that he hesitated to do it. But nevertheless, he got down on his knees as I lifted my skirt up for him. I told him to kiss it, like he did on my cheek... It tickled... It felt tingly and I really liked the feeling of it... He only kissed it for a couple of moments but then he crawled back and looked at me for a while... Instinctively, I got down on my knees and assumed the position while I wasn't really sure what was happening or why. Maybe it was caused by puberty and hormones which sparked my instincts to mate. Maybe it was caused by Mikaela's words... Maybe I did it just to satisfy my curiosity... Or maybe it was a combination of those three... But whatever it was, I was on my knees, patiently waiting for him... I lifted my tail up to expose myself... And I could see from the corners of my eyes that he was just staring at it... But at some point, he gave in and slowly came closer towards me... It looked so funny... He carefully shuffled forward with his pants down and placed his hands on my butt as I felt his penis poking against it... I noticed his face turned red and I couldn't help myself to giggle at his expression... 'Hihi...' He slowly moved his butt around, causing his penis to rub against my vagina... The tingles exploded all over my body so all of a sudden and I didn't really know what to think of it. But nevertheless, I stayed on my knees while his wiggling slowly turned into humping... 'Is it in yet...?'

'I don't feel it inside... But I like it... Do you...?'

'Yeah...'

I didn't see it... But I felt it... And it felt nice... I loved the feeling of it... He was just humping me for a while... And at some point, he stopped and we got dressed again... We just smiled at each other and I laughed at his face for being so embarrassed and red... Hehehe... We noticed it stopped raining and we weren't supposed to go home just yet... The sun was shining and we got out of his tree-house and continued to play, pretending as if nothing ever happened...

Blain and I were young and inexperienced back then while we weren't realizing of what we were getting ourselves into. It's the sense of freedom... But discovering each other in so many different ways was an amazing experience... Remembering those days puts a smile on my face. Everything was just so innocent... And so much fun...

I took a break from reading my old diary to give my eyes a little rest. But my eyes drifted off to Nikki who was still asleep. Looking at her right now makes me realize that the sense of freedom never changed with her... With me... Us... The need to break free... It makes me realize that it doesn't matter who it is you're doing with. Sharing intimate moments with the people you care and love the most makes it all worth while. And I remember a lot of those intimate moments... But the most noticeable and memorable moments I remember are from my "dushi". Most people call it lust... If people would really know me and the things I did, they would call me promiscuous... But it's nothing like that... I call it love... Passion... Intimacy... I'm not ashamed to say that I use sex as a way to express my feelings for Nikki. And she thinks about it the same I do. And I was honest to her... She knows that I had sex a lot with a couple of friends through out the years... Mostly girls though but still... Nikki accepted it and still does... And why wouldn't she...? Would it be a wrong thing to have sex with friends you care for so much...? Would it be wrong to force it a little...? To manipulate them to satisfy you're needs...? And to let them give in to theirs...? Maybe... But it always started so innocently and maybe that's the reason why they allowed me to. But the sex is so amazing... So why the hell would I hide what I really like for my friends...? Sex only unifies people... Our relationship is not about the sex... But it still plays a huge roll in our relationship... I still got some juicy stories to tell about her when I get to it... Hehehe...

Ever since the day Blain and I discovered each other, we kept coming back to his tree house. We still played together a lot... And sometimes, played with each other whenever we felt the need to... But my curiosity got the better of me... And my naiveties were bigger then ever...