Rat Tale Ch.11 Death
3 in the morning. That's when I made it home. I had to sneak into the house. I didn't want to wake Gerald's parents, or Gerald himself. Creeping up the stairs every step seemed too loud as though the house knew what I'd done. tripping over thing in the shadows , taking slow steps , I was a criminal.
I took a shower. Not the best way to keep my late arrival secret, but I had to wash the smell of sex out of my fur. I woke Gerald. He walked into the bathroom and I nearly jumped out of skin as he joined me in the shower.
Gerald - late night
He had no idea , No Idea what I'd done.
Mason- very
He kissed me under the water for a long time. Lies are so much easier to tell than then seem on TV. Keeping a secret eats away at you for sure but anyone can keep it held in if they want to.
Parker- how did it go
Gerald- I couldn't do it
Parker- What
I shut off the water and we got out. I don't know if I was disappointed or surprised. His act was meant to justify my own so without it I was the only one standing in a dark zone. It wasn't fair to him but that's the way it was.
Gerald- I couldn't do it , it didn't feel right
Parker- But you wanted. .. why
Gerald- Because you're enough
Standing before one another in the nude , I don't think we could get any more honest than we were. And yet I told I lie by keeping my thought to myself. A lie of omission.
Parker- Say again
Gerald- I'm always going to feel like I don't belong in the world, I'm always going to want people to like me , and the idea of having guys fawn over me and getting paid for it was nice, but your enough, you make me forget that there are people who don't like me because of how I look , you like me because of who I am
Parker- I love you because of who you are
Gerald- And I love you too, and you would never sleep around with other people, knowing that I'm enough for you I just couldn't do it , it didn't feel right, it wouldn't be right
I could have cried for the broken trust that I made between us. A hug wasn't enough but it was all I could muster in the moment.
Gerald - are you crying
Parker- no , it's the water, we just got out of the shower
I may have been crying.
We went to our room dry, but still naked. Crawling into bed together I held him close enough to fuse. I held him like a limb with the possibility of it falling off. Could he feel that something was wrong?
Parker- What happened with Faris if you guys didn't do anything
Gerald- Well he and Husk95 both lost out, so I suggested that they get together instead
Parker- I don't want to think about what those two would be like in bed together
Gerald - Faris told me he'd send us pictures if they actually got together
Parker- Faris is crazy
Gerald - yea , but he was nice, now we need another way for me to make money though
Parker- no we don't
Gerald - how so
Parker- your business venture didn't work out but mine ... mine is getting somewhere
That's all I remember before drifting to sleep as the sun came up too early.