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My torso suddenly became aware of a cool breeze, replacing what before was no feeling at all. The air around me shifting, as though moved around by some external force. Cooling me down under the thick fur covering my body. Wearing nothing but a baggy pair pajama pants.

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The darkness I perceived flashing a blinding white, though my eyes were still shut. Squeezing them tighter only served to make it brighter.

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My ears pop as the pressure relieves itself. Silence immediately giving way to a booming explosion. The sound rocking my skull as I grabbed both sides of my head, curling up into a fetal position, waiting for it to pass. Seconds later it passes and is rapidly replaced by a low, constant ringing. Unchanging.

I groan in protest at my rude wake up call. The surprise never really went away. Checking the clock on the wall informed me it was early morning, too early. Pulling open the curtain I could see the moon was barely overhead. I became distinctly aware that my mouth was dry. Rolling out of bed I opened my bedroom door and made my way to the kitchen the path illuminated by small lights in the floor paneling, grabbing myself a glass of water and downing it.

Walking back to my room I heard a stern knock on the apartment door. Just another headache on top of the list of shit the day had already started with. A deep sigh later I undid the bolt lock and swung the door open.

"What do you wa-"

I stopped in the middle of my sentence seeing who was on the other side. A friend from college, Madelyn was standing there. She's a cute siamese cat, just about my height with striking blue eyes and a surprising lack of brown markings on her muzzle. Her hair was down, just below her shoulder blades, the tips dyed baby blue that faded into it's natural brown about halfway up. I was immediately confused, as she lived in another city which was an hour away.

I brought a paw up to my face, "Maddie, why are you here?" She removed it and placed her own under my chin, moving my head around, seemingly inspecting it. "See something you like?"

She shook her head with a smirk, "That's not why I'm here." Her eyes searched my own grey eyes, for what I am not sure. I stepped back from the door, letting it fully open and waving her inside closing it behind her.

"You talked to Jade, didn't you?" I sighed.

Her smirk dropped, "Yes, but I was worried about you. I've seen rejection do some bad stuff to people."

I felt a knot form in my stomach. "I'm doing alright, thanks for the concern though," I gave a weak smile, "How are you holding up?"

Madelyn's ears went flat as she looked away. I immediately regret asking the question, "I wish I was as able to fake what I felt as well as you can." she started to tear up, her voice almost a whisper. She reached out and took my paw in hers. I felt awkward, not understanding the situation but letting it happen.

"Madelyn, what's going on?"

She refused to look me in the eyes. She gave a light sniffle before answering, "I could smell your scent at Jade's and," she finally looked up at me, "I don't know, I just...it made me feel lonely."

I felt my heart break when she said it. I was all too familiar with loneliness and its icy grasp. I let go of Maddie's paw, instead putting my arms around her in a hug which she quickly reciprocated. I took a deep breath and blinked a couple times to stop myself from crying. I just stood with Maddie in my arms, letting her get out whatever she needed to.

"Maddie, how are the classes going?" My voice was soft, nearly a whisper next to her ear.

She tensed up a little when I asked, shifting a little before answering, "It's- I, they're going badly." I could hear the trembling in her voice. Immediately, regret crawled its way up my throat but I swallowed it back down with a gulp.

"Why, what's up?" She pulled her head from on my shoulder and once again met my eyes. We stared into eachother for what felt like an hour before I saw her whiskers twitch and her lip quiver. She quickly pushed her face into my chest, I responded by cradling the back of her head and slowly rocking back and forth. The embrace lasted for a few more minutes before I pulled away with a friendly smile. "Feeling better?" I tried to have enthusiasm in my voice, not sure if it came across at all.

She slowly nodded her head, "Mhm." That beautiful smile returned once more. I brushed some hair out of her eyes, holding a paw to her cheek and we met gazes. At that moment I felt my heart flutter and time seemed to stop. Every fibre of my being urged me to kiss her, but I froze, unable to manage a movement. Her eyes were full, expectant, hopeful. But I couldn't. I don't know why.

Maddie broke off the embrace, pulling away with a thanks. Moving for the door. Thoughts of ineptitude rapidly flooding into my brain. Mentally gutting myself for not making a move then. But one thought- no, a voice, stood out above everything. It was my own voice yelling in my head, _'Do not let her go again, this time you might not recover.' _

"Madelyn, wait..." My tone was pleading, desperate. I wanted to steel myself before saying anything else, but I had to trust her with my vulnerability, "I-" I didn't hold them back this time, letting myself fall to my knees as I began to cry. Years of suppressed loneliness, guilt, shame and regret finally breaking the mask I thought indestructible and pouring uncontrollably.

"I'm so fucking sorry..." I managed out between sobs. At some point she came over to me and just held around me. I don't remember when. She kept reassuring me but the dam had already burst, it wasn't stopping any time soon. All sounds were drowned out except for the permanent ringing left in my ears.

***

The classic rock music from my earphones drowned out any sound from the library just outside of the study room's door. Looking down at the work on the table in front of me, I moved my paw from my chin, adjusting my glasses before continuing with the homework from today's classes. The air conditioning keeping the air chilly in perfect opposition to the sweltering heat of the outdoors.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket, taking it out and struggling with the tangled wires of my earphones before just unplugging them in frustration rather than deal with it and taking them out of my ears. Sighing, I finally unlocked my phone to see what the notification was; my rent was due. I quickly checked my bank account, seeing I had just enough for rent this month, though it would leave me with only what I had left in the pantry for the next two weeks as I had just been paid.

Groaning, I damn near smashed my head on the desk. I rubbed the bridge of my nose under my glasses, trying to think of any way I might be able to bargain down the rent amount. I was too tired to deal with this right now. I sat back in my chair and gave a stretch before closing the books and throwing them into my bag.

I heard the door close behind me with a click, slightly startled that I never heard it open, I whipped around to see who it was but quickly returned to my bag when it was nobody I could recognize.

"It's not often I hear a bang coming from this room, you know." Her voice was soft as silk, underneath which a tinge of concern could be heard.

"Hmm?" I responded out of habit, having not really listened. It took a few seconds before the words registered, "Oh...yeah I'm alright. Thanks for checking though." I gave a light wave of dismissal.

"Oh come on now, you can fool yourself all you want but I won't let you convince me otherwise," I'm sure if I was looking I'd be able to see the eye roll she gave as she kept pressing, "Your ears are flat and your tail is darting all over the place." She took a breath, "Am I what's making you nervous? I can leave if need be."

"No, not at all. I was just startled by the door, that's all."

"Wanna talk about it?"

I looked back at her, seeing her arms crossed over her chest and slightly leaning to her side, "Not like I have a choice, do I?"

She smiled at that, "No, sir."

I yawned, having been up for thirty hours I felt about ready to pass out, and definitely irritable, though I wouldn't let my feelings control my actions. Being tired isn't an excuse to be rude to somebody, at least not in my opinion. When I opened my eyes I saw that she had taken a seat across from me.

"So what's up?"

I looked at the ceiling, gathering my thoughts for a moment before speaking, "Just swamped with work I guess. I was sick the last couple days and had to stay home, so now I'm just busy playing catchup."

"We have the same psychology class, I can help you out with that if you'd like."

I quickly shot the offer down, "I'm already finished with that, thanks for the offer though." I did feel a pang of regret immediately after saying this though as I could visibly see her face drop, causing me to swallow uneasily.

"Oh, what were you working on that had you so stressed then?"

"Thermodynamics," I responded instantly after she finished her question. I crossed my arms and lowered myself in my seat a little. "Though its pretty simple, it's just a shit ton of work."

She nodded her head in understanding, looking at me for a few seconds before speaking up again, "Are you uncomfortable?"

"Yeah, a little."

"Why?"

"I'm not used to talking to people."

She had a light look of confusion plastered across her muzzle. "About schoolwork?"

"Nah, stressors. Which I guess in this case is schoolwork."

"You looked like you were about to leave when I came in, got another class?"

"No, I was about to walk home."

"Do you live close by?" There was genuine curiosity in her voice. It perplexed me at first since I've never had someone actually wonder where I lived.

I swallowed, "No, actually. I live across town. I just tend to wake up early."

"So you're going to walk across town, after you've been up how long?"

"Bordering thirty hours now." I simply answered.

She quickly got a stern look at her face, "No, I'll give you a ride. I'm not going to let you fall asleep or get lost because you're too tired to read street signs."

"It's not the first time, I'll be fine."

"You won't weasel out of this one, come on."

I decided that it wouldn't be worth arguing any further, plus it gets me back faster. So I'll take the offer. "Fine." Her smile returned, I grabbed my bag and waited for her at the door. "Royce." I extended my paw for a shake.

She took it with a firm grip and shook, "Madelyn. But feel free to call me Maddie."

***

The low ringing inside my head returned, reminding me once more that i was truly awake. Dim early morning light made its way in through the curtains, casting a blue hue over the room. I stirred around a little bit before I felt something tighten around my body. Quickly taking a glance I could see dark forearms coiled around my waist. I became immediately aware of a pressure and warmth running down the entire backside of my body.

My heart dropped as soon as the realization of what was going on hit me. I was taken by a heavy sense of discomfort but decided to stay where I was against my mind screaming otherwise. Impulsively when I had settled myself back down, I felt my paw go down and over one of her own. I swallowed hard, I could also feel my heartrate pick up.

I could feel her head between my shoulder blades press a bit deeper. Not wanting to ruin the moment I simply put my head back down and relaxed. The clock on the wall never ending its eternal ticking. The soft breaths on my back. Everything at this point was peaceful. However the peace was quickly broken by the wailing of a car alarm.

I could tell by the harsh squeeze and squeak from behind me that Maddie had woken up. I quickly unfurled her arms from around me, saddened that it had to end, and walked over to the open window, closing it with a solid thud. The car alarm mostly silenced. Turning around I saw the cream and brown coloured cat giving a large upward stretch with her arms.

She gave me a smile, rubbing her eyes, "Good morning, Roy."

I returned the smile, "Mornin, Mad." Looking down, I felt over the palm of my left paw with the right's thumb, "Hey..." The nerves were evident in my voice.

"Hmm?" She looked at me with an eye still closed, half sat up in the bed. _'Fuck, she's cute.' _I thought to myself.

"Last night, we didn't..." I looked up and then back down, "Did we?"

"No, no we didn't," Madelyn's whiskers twitched a little, "I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I took advantage of you like that."

My chest filled with butterflies at her response, "I- thanks. I appreciate that, Madelyn."

Not wanting to dwell on it any further I waited for her to leave the room, changed clothes and made my way to the kitchen where I found her beginning to brew some hot chocolate. However thoughts about earlier this morning were plaguing my mind and I at least wanted to know what happened.

While she was preoccupied I snuck up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist, resting my chin on her right shoulder. I don't know why I did it, the two of us had never been physical before today. It felt wrong and right at the same time, moreso the latter.

"Hey, Maddie..."

"Yeah?"

I took a deep breath, trying to relax some of the anxiety trying to stop me from speaking, "The last thing I remember was having a breakdown. What happened...after?" My voice was low.

She reached a hand back to my neck, giving me slow strokes. It made me feel a comfortable warmth. "I did what I could to help. You kind of just stood up and walked into your room after a while." Her ears folded back, "I didn't want to just leave you alone after that so I just followed you in and laid down with you. Sometimes just having somebody there is all you need." I could see her eyes look to me with a slight head movement.

I met her eyes and decided to give her a small nuzzle, purring a little, "You didn't need to do that."

"I wanted to."

I simply stood in the embrace, cherishing the tender moment. I closed my eyes and focused on what I could feel. Her soft fur under my chin was a start, my body felt unusually warm. I felt happy and relaxed. The first time in a long time. It was unspoken, though we both knew it, felt it. After this morning we weren't just friends anymore.

"Whipped cream, tiny marshmallows?" She offered.

"I appreciate the offer but if you take a quick look around I happen to have neither."

"Even if I wanted to it'd be a bit hard to do so with you cocooned around me." She gave a little wiggle to drive the point home. "Not that I mind, of course..." She trailed off with a cough.

When the second cup was finished and put to the side, with fictional timing her phone vibrated in her pocket, I was able to feel it, being front-to-back with her and all. Disappointed I let go and gave her space, grabbing a cup of hot chocolate in the meantime and taking small sips to not burn myself. Not concerning myself with what she was doing and not wanting to invade her privacy, though I did notice the slight lift and sway of her tail after she checked her phone. However, her sudden lift in body language made me curious.

Deciding not to pry into it, I sat down on the couch and put the cup down on the coffee table, picking up and checking my own phone which was on the table next to me. Disconnecting the charge cable and giving it some time to start up I took a few more sips of the hot, creamy beverage in front of me. I immediately saw a notification on my phone from the corner of my eye. I had a text message from Brian. He was an old friend from highschool. The man liked to call himself an 'Ottiger.' He was an otter but with the fur colouring and markings of a tiger due to his mixed mating parents. He wanted to meet and catch up over some games at the local pool hall tonight. I replied with a yes, turning off the screen and returning to my drink.

Madelyn came around with her own cup and sat down beside me. She too, enjoying the well crafted morning beverage. Looking over I saw her meet my eyes before looking at the ceiling for a moment, then returning to eye contact, "I have a question."

"Fire away." My tone was soft.

She had her brown tail over her lap, and I could see it twitching nervously, "Why were you at Jade's last night?"

For some reason the question caught me offguard and I had to take a moment to compose myself, "I think you know already, our noses hardly lie, Mad."

"But I want to hear it."

My stomach dropped a little thinking about it. The feelings reemerging from the hole I had temporarily shoved them down. "She invited me over, and my lonely, desperate ass thought maybe I'd finally just get some companionship, or just a chill night with a friend." I looked down between my legs, taking a deep breath before continuing, "Turns out all she really wanted was a quickie and as soon as we were done Jade just threw me out. She said the girls were coming over and she didn't want me to be seen there."

She was visibly small now, "Oh...I'm sorry." Her voice a whisper.

I gave a shrug of my shoulders, "No, don't be. It's not your fault. It was foolish of me to think sex would fill the hole I had in my heart." I exhaled heavily, feeling Madelyn lean her head against my shoulder.

"What did you feel after?"

My gut clenched at the question. Not because of the question itself, but rather answer it evoked. "I don't know. Not really anything? I guess I felt empty afterward. Maybe a bit upset, but not at Jade. At myself mostly," I took a brief pause, wrapping an arm around her once more, "After it faded though I suppose I felt more akin to a robot until I got home."

She followed suit, wrapping one of her arms around me, "Why would you say you felt that way?"

"I don't know, man." I looked up at the ceiling, "Can I think for a second?"

"Of course." Her reassurance helped me to calm down a little. My eyes darted from corner to corner of the room, silently in introspection, trying to think if I knew why.

"If I had to give a reason why, I'd say probably because I'm an intimate guy," I began, feeling my breathing slightly quicken, "When I get into it with somebody I really pour myself into the act. I guess a part of me really wanted it to matter as much to her as it did to me. So when she practically kicked me out it hurt, you know?" I said through a breath, feeling her head nod, "It hurt really bad. I must've turned off my feelings after."

"I'm going to talk to her about it."

I felt myself jump into a bit of a panic as soon as the words registered, "No, don't. It's my fault, really. It's not like it's a broken heart."

She pulled her head from my shoulder and gave me a straight face, "No Royce, that's exactly what it is. She broke your heart and here you are defending her and blaming yourself." Her voice was firm, "She's known you long enough to understand what it meant to you, and to use you like that is beyond fucked up." Maddie huffed, "She needs to apologize."

I leaned forward and cupped my face in my hands, biting down on my cheek to try and not cry. I near immediately felt her head return to my shoulder, and a hand begin rubbing my back. I could hear a deep rumble as Maddie began to purr. It worked and began to sooth my nerves, making me relax as the realization that she genuinely cared dawned on me.

I sat back up and pulled her close to me, starting to purr myself. Not once have I met someone able to turn my emotions on a switch like that. If I didn't know better I'd call her a witch. But she is far too beautiful for that.

"How do you feel now?" Her voice nearly made me jump. Snapping a glace at the clock it had been almost a half hour.

I looked down at her with a smile, "Happy, I feel happy." I leaned down and planted a kiss on her forehead before leaning my head against hers and reveling in the action. I reached down and grabbed my cup, planning to take another drink when Madelyn hijacked my hands, bringing it to her own muzzle with a laugh.

"Hey, that was mine." I made an exaggerated pouty face at her. She laughed a bit louder, relinquishing me control over my own hands.

"But I wanted it."

I finished it off, thanking Madelyn and set it back down on the table, leaning back and turning on the TV. The screen roared to life with colour and sound. I had apparently left it on a documentary channel as a narrator droned on about how life underwater was specially adapted and so on and so forth. Each time the cat next to me decided to work on her own drink she'd make exaggerated slurping noises, as though attempting to annoy me but like everything else she did I found it cute.

I felt a finger poke at my cheek, "Maddie?" I then felt her follow it up with a kiss. A strong blush took over me and my ears dropped. I gave her a look and smiled.

"Yes?"

"I'm going to go out and catch up with a friend tonight but," I took a quick pause, "I'd uh, be happy if you'd join me for dinner tomorrow." I said extending an offer.

Her face lit up as she hugged me, "Of course I would!" She practically yelled in my ear, "Do you know how long I've been waiting for this?"

That hurt a little but not because of the expectation, but because of my own selfishness, not wanting to get rejected when I first developed feelings for her, ultimately falling out of communication due to my fear of intimacy. I assume the pang of guilt painted itself on my face. She simply kissed my cheek again.

"It's alright, you know," Mads voice was soft and reassuring, "It's not your fault."

"It's fine," I replied flatly, "I'm just happy you said yes."

The next half hour was spent cuddled up to the siamese cat enjoying having company for once. To have somebody else sharing the living space definitely felt different in a good way, and proved to take my mind off of the other stressors currently bothering me day to day. Madelyn would occasionally laugh at some cheesy joke made by the narrator and point at a fish she found particularly attention grabbing. It all put a smile on my own muzzle that never seemed to fade. As the documentary continued I drifted away into memory.

***

I was suddenly thrown off balance by something pushing me hard from behind, causing me to fall into the cool water with a splash. When I surfaced the first thing I could see was Brian bent over, laughing at me, a red frisbee in his hand that I had just finished throwing to him. I shook the water off my head before turning around to find my aggressor. Madelyn was behind me, a triumphant smile adorned her muzzle and her paws on her hips. "Surprise!" She threw her paws up.

Maddie was wearing a blue bikini that matched her eyes and didn't leave much to the imagination. I caught myself staring and shook myself out of it. "Maddie, hey!" I greeted her with a hug that she was eager to return, "What's up?"

She let me go and motioned over to the beach where I saw another girl, a curvy red panda setting up a couple of lounge chairs. Conveniently next to Brian and I. The black fur on her front going just up to her chin where it was met with the white short fur of her face, only broken up by orange fur toward the top of her head and the teardrop formations under her eyes. She had a full head of dyed red hair, cut off just above the shoulders. Her tail was long and thick, ringed with the same white masking her face and orange down her back, beauty in colours magnified by the generous frame she was given of wide hips and a heavy bust.

I must have been staring again, because next thing I knew, I had my eyes closed and was rubbing the side of my head in pain. I don't remember the point of contact but the red disc was floating idly by my knee. "Motherfucker..." I mumbled under my breath, picking it back up. Brian was once again in a fit of laughter and paying zero attention to me.

"Yo, bro you should've heard the sound that," he took a pause, wheezing and wiping a tear from his eye, "that thing fucking made, holy!" He dragged out the last word, exhaling deeply before standing back up. "I swear to god you have nothing inside your head."

I groaned and brought a hand up to my face, rubbing the sides of my short, feline muzzle. Madelyn laughed at his brainless joke, looking back I could see she was about halfway back to shore, taking very slow steps through the water. I picked up the frisbee and gave it a vicious overhead toss aimed directly at Brian, it worked like a charm and made him flinch. I began running back to shore as fast as possible through the knee deep water, making sure to push the mostly dry Maddie into the water with an audibly sarcastic "Oops." She yelped for half a second before a quick splash comsumed the sound.

I got back to shore and quickly went to sit down on my towel. In my peripherals I could see the red panda giving me a good stare down. Closer I could see she had green eyes, another intricate detail I could now see were the black circles on her cheeks. Her gaze never broke, I decided to break the ice, "See something you like?"

She gave a giggle at the question, finally averting her gaze, "Your fur. I've never seen so few rosettes before."

"Oh." I looked down at my right forearm, it had a large rosette taking up the front half and there was a small rosette on the backside of the forearm, just below my wrist. My left arm was devoid of any such markings as were my chest and legs. Almost all of my rosettes resided on my back, fairly average in size but very spaced out, they went up and faded at my neck. My tail had many along the top side of its length, ending in a few rings with a black tip. There was a final one on my left cheek, about the size of the circle made with a thumb and forefinger. My rosettes were a jet black on my two-toned dark and light grey fur. "I suppose we can both relate in the odd fur regard." I gave my cheek rosette a tap with a toothy grin. She looked away and her ears folded, I guess she was self-conscious about her fur. "For what it's worth; I think you're cute."

***

The car door came to a thudded close behind me and I gave a wave to Maddie as she drove off. My covered paws crunched through the dried autumn leaves as I walked up to the glass doors, sliding them open and getting slapped in the face with the smell of cooking meat and sounds of cues connecting with balls. Rock music could be heard in the background, though not very loud, it could be heard clearly. I rolled up the sleeves of my hoodie and pulled the hood down from my head, giving a stretch as I began to tune out the chatter.

A hand squeezed on my shoulder and I turned to see Brian. The dude had grown since I'd last seen him a couple years ago, he was taller than I was now but still slim. I at least had that on him. "Well if it isn't my favourite otter."

He pointed his index finger at me, a look of mock seriousness in his face, "Ottiger, how many times do I have to tell you?" Though his voice was laced with playfulness. "You look like shit by the way." He quickly shot.

"Always man, always. But that's a lot coming from the otter with orange fur and black stripes." I laughed. We shared a quick hug before splitting the price for table. I grabbed a cue off the wall and chalked it up while I waited for him to unbox his own and put it together. He always took real good care of that thing, must be a gift. I racked up the balls and gestured for him to break, sinking a stripe and a solid. He just decided to break up the cluster of balls remaining instead of sinking another for whatever reason.

I lined up a straight shot at a solid and sank it. "So who was the driver?" I almost missed the question through the sounds of the busy pool hall. It never really registered but Madelyn definitely looked different from when we'd all been together last. Her hair was longer, and the blue dye was new. She also used to exclusively wear it up, but now it was let down and free. Her muzzle also had much less brown now than it did then. I saw an orange paw fly by my face.

"Shit man, sorry." I apologized and took a second shot, hitting a ball but missing the pocket, "It was Mads."

He gave verbal confirmation that he heard me, taking a shot of his own and sinking two stripes before continuing, "She looks different. Her hair is longer...and bluer." I nodded, sensing he wasn't finished. "Her muzzle is whiter too. Are you sure it's her?"

Before I could answer, all the hearing in my left ear seemed to disappear, being replaced by a louder version of the ringing I heard day in and day out. Though I could hear just fine out of my right. It was an unwelcome experience. I winced at the sudden change and brought a hand up to cup my ear, waiting for it to end. When my hearing returned I took a deep breath and returned my gaze to Brian.

"You good man?" He looked worried. I waved it off but he shook his head. "Ever since you came out of that factory job you've been fucked man, what happened in there?" He took another shot.

I cringed at the mention of it. "Just loud ass machines man. They gave us hearing protection but I guess it wasn't as good as they claimed." I simply shrugged.

He put down the cue and shook his again, "That much I figured and you should honestly sue them for it," He looked at the ground before finishing his thoughts, "When you quit man you came out and I swear to god it was like the light was just..." He pushed his hands together with an exaggerated pop sound.

My face fell flat as I understood where this was going. I swallowed what felt like a baseball, as much as I wanted to avoid this entirely he was owed an explanation. "You cut everybody off man. It scared me. But it terrified her." The guilt I had been feeling for the last year and a half quickly reacquainted itself with my concious thought.

"I never meant to hurt anybody..."

He looked down, playing with his hands, "We know. Look man..." Brian looked up before glancing sideways with a huff, "Fuck." He was clearly nervous about something, by the erratic swishing of his tail and awkward, stiff movements. "When you just stopped replying to Mads, after a couple days I hadn't even seen you online. We thought you..." His voice trailed off, the end of his sentence not needing to be spoken. "She was convinced and grieving. She was over with me, one thing led to another..." He circled his index fingers around eachother, "Madelyn and I had sex that night. I'm not proud of it man. I regret it every day." His voice was shaking, "You deserve to know."

I've been told what's broken can break again. I always thought the statement was ironic but as I felt the blood in my veins go cold, and could hear my heart shatter for the second time in two days I realized that it was quite true. I don't know why his confession hit me so hard, Madelyn and I weren't together then. We had no obligations to eachother. Though I couldn't help but feel like a truck had just hit me in the gut. I genuinely couldn't muster up a response. I sat there breathless, heartbroken. She tried at every corner to get me to talk to anybody, all I ever responded with were one or two word texts saying that everything was okay. All I ever did was push them away when they wanted to help, when I needed it. I didn't deserve them.

I went outside to get some air. Inside had become claustrophobic to me, I needed room to breathe and think. Once outside I leaned against the wall and just fell down, the strength leaving my legs. I sat in thought for a good minute. I shouldn't be upset right now. I wasn't upset that Brian and Madelyn had sex, it was anger at myself. For causing so much pain and never once did I attempt to rectify them. The thought never crossed my mind that by cutting them off they were subject to the same type of anguish I had been experiencing.

I was selfish. Too ignorant and caught up in my own bubble to see what was going on around me. That's what hurt me the most, I had too much pride to let others see my pain. It was the same selfishness that caused me to scream at Brian to leave me be as I left the pool hall. The same selfishness causing me to decide to walk across town to the apartment.

The walk was long but I had zoned out for most of it, just lost in my own brain. Somewhere along the journey it had started raining, because when I finally stepped into the apartment I noticed I was soaked and the clothing i wore were half frozen from the slightly below freezing temperatures outside. I closed the door quietly with a huff. I quickly disbanded of the frozen hoodie and took off my shirt, grabbing a blanket out of the hallway closet and setting up on the couch to sleep. I had began to shiver but the thick blanket above me would stave off the cold soon enough.

I closed my eyes and let the fatigue began to take me. My muscles relaxing and warming back up, a purr aiding me into unconciousness. However, before I could pass out I opened my eyes to the sound of soft footsteps. They were barely audible over the ringing I heard, only the claws across the hardwood floors giving them away.

I was graced with the sight of a cute feline coming around the corner, her blue and brown hair a tangled mess, framing her beauty further. I gave a toothless smile of which she returned. I shifted under the blanket, moving to better look at her. "I heard you come in," voice croaking as she rubbed an eye, "There's chicken in the oven if you're hungry." She threw her hand over her shoulder, thumb outstretched pointing to the kitchen. Maddie walked to in front of the couch and knelt down.

I was still purring, and she took my paw, rubbing her thumb over the top of it. It traced over each of the tendon on the top before flipping over and going through each of the contours on the underside. Her eyes never leaving our joined paws. She let it go and put a paw under my chin, lifting it up before she locked our muzzles in a gentle kiss. There was no tongue in it, simply an acknowledgment of emotions. She drew back and ran a finger over my lips, "I've always liked your purr."

I let out a breath I hadn't realized I was holding. The purring resumed as she walked back to the bedroom. I decided to get up from the couch and opened the oven to retrieve the food inside. I pulled out the dish to see it was a full meal, already plated. A chicken breast topped with marinara sauce and parmesan cheese with a side of mashed potatoes seasoned with garlic. While I was gone she cooked my favourite foods, and they were still warm.

I cherished every bite, it was all made many times better than I could've ever cooked. The tastes practically popped on my tongue as I ate. When I was finished I washed off the plate and left it to dry. Checking the bedroom, I found the door was still open, I suppose it was an invitation to share the bed, as it was closed when I first got back. Not wanting Madelyn to feel unappreciated, I closed the door quietly behind me and slipped into bed with her. Throwing an arm around her waist, I pulled myself close and nuzzled into her neck, still softly purring.

"Thank you." I whispered, feeling a paw wrap around my own, legs shifting and intertwining. We laid there for what felt like hours, but judging by the ticking of the clock wasn't more than ten seconds.

"I think I love you."

The sudden admission caught me off guard, my chest became tight and I felt my ears get red hot. I tried to respond but it caught in my throat. She moved around to face me, she giggled seeing my mouth caught open in an answer I couldn't give. I opted instead to simply pull her closer to me. I held her tightly, hearing her start to purr in my ear. I ran my paws under her shirt and through the fur on her back. It was an action she returned in kind, except with my chest.

"You're beautiful..." I managed to stammer out, probably with a goofy look plastered all over me. I let myself get lost in the ocean of her eyes. I could see now, they were wild, driven. Burning with a passion I've never seen her express before. Maddie leaned forward and pressed her muzzle to mine once again, wrapping her arms around my neck to keep me from escaping.

This time she pushed her rough tongue inside, feeling along my teeth before lapping it over my own. We spent the next couple minutes feeling eachother and locked muzzles before she decided to move atop me, straddling my hips. She finally pulled away, but began moving her hips on mine, breathing heavy and bringing me out of my sheath before she stopped and looked down at me.

She gave her hips another wiggle, drawing a quick moan from me. "I know this guy wants to see something." She bit her lip and exhaled, "But do you want this?" She asked, sincerity flashing through her eyes.

I felt my heart flutter, leaping into my throat. I could tell by the way she was looking down at me, paws on my chest, the tremble in her voice. She was showing me her desire, her wants. She put it all out before me and was sitting on me, fully vulnerable.

I swallowed a lump in my throat as I thought through how I felt about the situation. We sat in silence for a minute before I finally gave the answer, "Madelyn, I don't want to move too quickly and do something we might regret later." My voice cracked through the sentence, hardly more than a whisper. The second it left my head, I felt bad. I immediately felt selfish again as I refused to get intimate due to being scared of fucking it up.

The feeling amplified itself as a kick in my gut as I saw the pain of rejection appear sharply in her eyes before she looked away. I felt her claws slightly prick my skin as she grasped at my chest. She simply wanted to take care of me, but I wouldn't let her. A wave of cold came over me as I reached up and pulled her down on top of me. I held her tightly and purred, trying to comfort her, admittedly also myself, though it almost never worked for me.

I continued to hold her in my arms, stroking her hair and back, after a while all that I could hear and feel was her rythmic breathing and warm body laying across my own. Guilt wasted no time, stabbing me in the side with the thought that she went to sleep sad, it made me feel like a bad person. I rested a paw on the back of her head, leaning in and kissing just behind an ear. "I love you, Mads." My voice almost broke as I closed my eyes an a tear rolled down my cheek. I swiftly invited sleep to take me away from my destructive thoughts before they could do further damage, though the invitation was turned down as I found myself fully conscious for about the next hour. I was simply relaxing when my mind would allow it under the feline on top of me.

The time passed like a blur, I spent it playing with her hair or rubbing through her fur. The two things that never seemed to falter were the smile plastered across her muzzle and the deep purrs that rumbled through her. A quick squeeze notified me that she had awakened. I gave it a few seconds before licking across her nose, the reaction was instant. Madelyn buried her face into my chest and I quickly squished her into a bear hug. I could hear her forcibly exhale as I squeezed the breath out of her. A few seconds later and I relented, giving her back the ability to breathe.

"Oh....my gosh." Maddie sputtered out between breaths.

"Oopsies." We smiled, wrapped up in eachother and fell asleep together once more.

The next morning the two of us went out for a walk, getting breakfast at a local food truck on the way. Some hashbrowns and bacon later we found ourselves side by side in the city's park. Some nice, isolated trails that had occasional breaks in the brush, revealing an overview of the lake that the city had built itself around. Deciding to take a break, we found a bench and took a seat.

I wrapped an arm around Maddie's waist and pulled her close to me, her head resting on my shoulder. We sat silently for minutes, listening to the soft waves crashing into the shore, cool breeze, rustling leaves and chirping birds. The trees an entrancing array of yellows, reds and oranges. Autumn is my favourite season. The temperature is perfect, not to mention how absolutely stunning everything becomes. Honestly I'm not sure how else to phrase it, autumn as a season is just perfection in my opinion.

"Roy?" Her voice pulled me from my train of thought.

"Yeah?"

"Josh is throwing a party tonight and I was wondering if you'd want to go with me." The word party alone gave a spike of anxiety, not to mention it would probably be filled with people whom I ghosted for years on end. Maybe they won't care, they might hate me. I suppose there is only one way to really know.

I must've been thinking for longer than normal as a shoulder tap brought me out of the brainspace I was just in, "I- uh, yeah I'd love to." I quickly swallowed my uncertainty with an audible gulp.

Madelyn quickly returned to her smiley self, "Great! I'll let him know I'm coming," she swiveled on the bench, getting nose-to-nose with me, "However you're going to be a surprise."

***

"Blue or red?"

"Baa-lue..." The siamese cat noted something down on paper before continuing.

"Blue or green?"

"Blue."

She tilted her head with a smile, "You're really fond of blue, aren't you?"

"What can I say, it matches your fur and goes well with your eyes."

"You have quite the fascination for eyes, you know that mister?"

I gave a stupid grin, "Some say they're the gateway to the soul," I shrugged, "Not to mention yours are a very nice sight."

Madelyn gave a hearty giggle, "Man you're trying real hard for all those friendship points, huh?"

"Not my fault you never compliment me back."

She gasped with a hand on her chest, returning it to her hip after, "Well I'll let you know that that's because any ones that I gave wouldn't do you any justice."

I felt my heart flutter at that one, smiling I took one of her paws in my own, "That was a good one, I'll give you that." I ran a thumb over the top of her paw. We sat there for a little just waiting and thinking before I heard the doorknob start to turn which caused me to all but rip my hand back into my own lap. Madelyn frowned at that.

With a loud thump a full gym bag dropped onto the floor, a large white wolf stepping in. He stretched for a few seconds before acknowledging the other two souls in the room.

"Hey babe," he said with a sigh, then turning to me, "Yo, Royce."

"Howdy Josh."

"Welcome back baby," Mad replied, "Ooh, since you're here, blue or red? Dress colour."

"Red."

"Red or green?"

"Green."

"Why that?"

"I just like it." The wolf stated with a grunt and shake of his head. He opened the fridge, grabbing a water bottle and all but evaporating its contents.

"How'd the practice go?" My question was directed at the wolf.

Josh shrugged, wiping off his muzzle of any leftover water, "I need a shower, that's for sure." The laugh came out with a small cough.

"That's new." I'd known him about a year and never once heard him cough, I swear on my life. He simply nodded back. Madelyn and I went back to discussing colours while he went and showered.

***

We pulled up to the house, we took Madelyn's car back down to the city. It was a long drive but nothing I wouldn't do again. The two of us had already agreed on just hanging at her place after, she'd stayed at mine so it was only fair. The music wasn't as loud as I was expecting it to be. There also weren't as many people as I expected either, just five other cars in the long driveway up to Josh's parents house. Apparently they were out for the weekend.

The house was huge, some might call it a mansion but that's neither here nor there. I had on a baseball cap with just a flat coloured sweater and jeans. Maddie had on a white blouse and jeans. Neither of us were very creative when it came to outfits.

I turned my head after she called my name, she took off my cap, "Roy look," the feline took a breath, "I want you to get out of your shell here a bit for me, could you do that?"

"Yeah, for sure. I'll be more sociable, see what I can't strike up."

She opened with a smile that always managed to melt my heart, "But seriously, Royce if you ever get uncomfortable or just don't want to be here anymore come and tell me, okay?" It was sincere, Madelyn didn't want me to be upset here. "If you do, we'll just head back early and have the night to us instead, it's no big deal."

I pulled her into a quick kiss, "Thanks Mads, I appreciate that a lot." I could hear my heartbeat pumping in my chest. "Let's get going, yeah?" I motioned my head toward the house. We got out of the car and began walking, holding hands as we approached. Once inside Maddie told me she was going to go talk to Jade, despite my protests she left me to mingle after giving a 'Be right back'.

Not being an overly social person, I walked my way around trying to find any familiar faces. After a few minutes I managed to find and apologize to Brian. The orange and black striped otter insisted it wasn't a problem, and that he fully understood. I thanked him for his forgiveness, once again he told me to not even think about it. With that elephant out of the way we proceeded to shoot the shit for a bit longer before we were approached by a rather formally dressed doe.

"How's everything going over here, boys?"

I felt a little awkward being dressed so casually next to her. "Royce," I looked at Brian in response, "This is our elegant hostess, Emmy." He took her hand and kissed it before letting go.

"Royce hmm?" Emmy mused, "I've heard so much about you."

'What, who?' I felt myself get on edge, but fought back any body language that tried to make itself present.

"I swear you're the only thing Madelyn can think about sometimes."

My ears dropped in embarrassment and I averted my gaze, "I'm not that much of a catch..."

She punched my arm, regaining my attention, "Don't do that to yourself. I'm sure anybody would be lucky to have you." Emmy winked at me. "She never told me why you guys stopped talking though."

'There it is!' I screamed internally. The only thing people seemed to care about. Why I went missing. I can't say I blamed them though. Even just acknowledging the existence made me feel like shutting down. I could already feel the power draining.

"I'd rather just leave that memory dead and gone, please." I choked out.

Emmy's eyes opened wide in surprise, "Oh, I apologize, I didn't think it was a whole thing." I just nodded in understanding. We shook hands and thanks before parting ways.

Walking through the party I began to develop a mild headache. The constant sounds of chatter draining my energy by proxy. I worked my way over to a water cooler, bending over I wrapped a hand around a bottle of water as I felt a hand firmly squeeze my ass. I shot up straight like a rocket and whipped around, index finder out like a dagger, "Do not touch me like that." My voice was laced with venom.

The female mink behind me held her hands up as though at gunpoint, "Damn bro, my bad. I didn't know you liked length." She scoffed and walked away. My eyes shot holes into the back of her skull. The audacity. I took a swig of water to clear my mind, checking my phone I noted we'd hardly been here for 40 minutes and I was more than ready to leave.

I made my way through the crowd to the foyer, seeing Maddie and Emmy hug and part ways as I approached. Her tail began swaying and her teeth showed in the wide smirk she gave me. "Hey Roy, what's up?" She pulled me into a hug, kissing my cheek before leaning back to look at me.

"I'm a bit uncomfortable, could we leave maybe?" My posture dropped as I ask this. Madelyn gave me a once over, causing me to quickly straighten up before her smile returned.

"Of course, just let me say bye to a couple people first."

True to her word, a few goodbyes and hugs later she'd driven us back to her house. Respecting boundaries, I showered after her, probably spending more time than her as I stood in the hot water enjoying the warmth. After I felt clean enough I dried myself off, wrapping the towel around my waist I made my way to the bedroom, closing the door behind me. I slipped into bed after putting on a pair of spare boxers I'd brought.

Madelyn's room was very tidy. She had an LED strip lining the base of each wall, currently lit a dull red. There were two sliding mirror doors that led to her closet. There was fan sitting on the nightstand, already turned on and a clock ticking away the night. The covers were soft and the pillows were thick. Whatever matress she had felt like it formed around my body, I swear it all but knocked me out as soon as I laid down.

A few minutes of silence passed before Maddie laid down beside me. Scooting up behind me before I turned to face her. I felt one of her hands glide from behind my back, slowly across my side and then continuing up, resting on my cheek. I returned the gesture by wrapping an arm around her waist, pulling her tight and smothering her with kisses that eventually found their way to her muzzle.

Our hands began feeling around while our tongues fought. My hands felt their way down the curve of her back and onto her rump, giving an appreciative squeeze to which she squeaked into my muzzle. Madelyn threw her arms around my shoulders as we sat up, getting on top of the covers though my muzzle never left hers. I felt the siamese beauty begin pawing between my legs, coaxing me out from my sheath.

I gave a purr of approval before moving my hands up to her ample chest. She grabbed them, pushing them under her bra. I pinched her nipple, getting rewarded by hearing her suck in a breath. Pulling my hands from under her bra I pulled her against me once more, "Mads," I gulped, "Are you sure...?"

"Mhm."

I simply just let my body guide me after receiving the confirmation that I had been equally excited and terrified for. Reengaging in our kiss, I framed her jaw with one hand and let the other slip down to her mound, slowly rubbing as she spread her legs. She slid a hand up her body, grabbing a covered breast and squeezing as she sucked in a breath. My kisses worked their way from her muzzle, down her cheek to her neck where I took a break.

Looking into her eyes, I slid a hand under her panties, pushing a finger slowly into her entrance. Madelyn tightly gripped even my single digit, making me feel a jab of anxiety as to whether I could fit. I began slowly sliding my finger in and out of her. Madelyn pulled my head to hers, touching foreheads as I explored her with a finger. Her velvet insides were already slick, making it easy to build up the pace.

Her barbed tongue made its way passed my lips as I forced in a second finger; beginning to hook and twist them to find where I got the best reaction and focus on that spot. The cats breathing began to pick up, soft moans peeping through every now and then, though her panting made me smile just as widely. "Kiss me..." The angelic voice pleaded.

The now familiar tongue tasted my mouth as a hand cupped mine between her legs. My thumb rubbed circles over her clit, "Mmm~ Oh fuck..." Her whispered moans were music to my rounded ears. She snapped her legs shut, my hand flush to her body, fingers trapped down to the knuckle inside her as I grinded them against her vise-like walls.

"Oooooohhh..." The first vocalization she made above a whisper as I felt her thighs quiver against my forearms, ceasing any activity. She whimpered as I withdrew my fingers and gave her a peck on the tip of her snout, moving down her neck with kisses. She continued her deep breathing as I worked my way down her chest, teasing her breasts with a quick grope before rubbing my hands through her stomach while I stared up at her face.

Her features were laden with anticipation; desire. I grabbed hold of the front of her panties with my teeth, slowly working my way down her back with my arms, running my fingers over the bra clasp before continuing down and hooking my fingers through the backside of her mound covering clothing. At a snails pace I dragged them down her legs, rubbing her thighs the entire way.

Once they were off, I threw them to the floor and gently pushed her legs back apart. One of the brown socked legs wrapping around my torso as I worked my head between them. Looking once more upward, Maddie was biting her lower lip, the look I had must've communicated my thoughts as she nodded, giving me permission to continue. Giddy excitement filled me with one long stroke of my tongue across her slit. It had an immediate effect, Madelyn sucked in a breath and looked at the ceiling, closing her eyes in bliss.

I closed my own eyes, licking fervently at her nethers. She was delicious. I made sure to take them extra slow over her clit, dragging each barb over it that I could manage. I spread her lips and took another long lick, it managed to pull another moan out of her, hands coming to rest on my head appreciatively and sighing. A quick head scratch later I sped up my tonguework making her soft moans more frequent.

Deciding to go a little further, I pushed inside of her, tasting the inner walls for the first time. My tongue wasn't very long, though it had the desired effect. Her body lurched, she slightly curled up, hands pushing my face down into her. Thighs closing on my head Maddie let out a groan followed by an expletive as juices flowed onto my muzzle and her passage contracted on what tongue was inside her. I drank up anything I could, flicking my tongue to try prolonging her orgasm as long as possible.

Licking my lips, I crawled back up her body and buried my muzzle in her neck fluff. We quickly became a sprawling mess of purrs. I was thankful to have such a beauty allow me to pleasure her. Madelyn's face was one basking in the afterglow. A hand began to pet over my head and midway down my back.

A heavy warmth began to flow through my body, an odd shiver running down my spine once she pulled me further into the furry embrace surrounding my face. A barbed tongue made its way across the top of my head, causing me to smile wider than a kitten.

A head tilt later, the two of us were back to making out. Maddie decisively took the offensive, moving hands from my cheeks to my chest, holding me flat against the bed, muzzles remaining locked as she straddled my hips. My hands roamed freely, holding her rump before raking through the short fur of her back. Unclipping her bra, our mouths finally disconnected, a string of saliva between us.

The cream and brown gloved cat sat up straight, holding the front of her bra on as she teasingly freed her shoulder from the straps. With a seductive smirk she carefully fully rid herself of the final piece of clothing, still covering her breasts as she did so. I let out a whimper as her teasing broke my patience a little. Her grin widened into a laugh before she dropped on top of me, both of her hands interlocked with mine.

I felt them before I saw them, her pert tits squishing outward across my chest. Her nose stuffed into my chest, inhaling intensely. I began to hump against her, long since erect from our earlier ministrations. Madelyn sensing my discomfort shimmied down my body, a paw gently rubbing over my clothed erection before shredding off my boxers. My six and a half inches would be more than serviceable judging by the look she gave me.

Thankfully she wasted no time, dragging her surprisingly long tongue along the underside of my barbed length, "Ohhh..." My moan was involuntary, being forced out by her. She repeated the action again before wrapping her mouth around the tip. Her blue eyes stared up at me, witnessing every sharp breath and jaw dropping sensation she gave me as her head bobbed in my lap.

She pulled off with an audible pop, "Mmm, you taste delicious baby," she hit a nerve with that, causing a chill to run through me as she took me to the base, swallowing around me to juice out another moan from my muzzle. After the quick deepthroat, Madelyn pulled me out of her throat for the final time. Moving up a bit, she quickly wrapped her soft orbs around my member, beginning what would be a slow, sensual titjob.

I leaned down, cupping her chin as I moved in for a kiss. It was an awkward one, her entire body slowly rocking up and down my length. I swear I could feel each individual one of her furs delicately pleasing me. Her malleable tits, combined with the softness of her fur, I found myself on the edge embarrassingly quickly from the overwhelming pleasure.

With a hitched breath, I hardly managed to get it out, "Fuck Mads...I'm close."

Looking at me with those tantalizing eyes, she smiled, turning her muzzle down to suck on my tip for a second before returning her gaze to mine, "Royce..." she started, a moan leaking from her throat, "I want you to cum for me." Madelyn licked me one last time before retreating, "But not now."

"God damn..." My head flew back, bed shifting as Mads crawled back up, joining our tongues once more. The two of us stroked and groped, our kissing becoming more and more impassioned. We flipped, her arms around my neck as I got on top. I was unsure of when I entered her, though once our lips became isolated, I could feel the near painful tightness enveloping my manhood. With a sigh I drew back, the savory warmth and wetness begging me back in. Holding my breath I slowly pushed back inside, letting it out as I bottomed out causing her to wince with a pained mew.

Stopping dead in my track I looked at her worriedly, "I can stop if it hurts."

She shook her head, "It's just--" a gasp, I twitched inside her, "--just been a while." I purred in understanding, resuming our love making in slow, rolling thrusts. I cradled her head in one hand, the other forcing one of hers to entangle fingers. Another thrust. Another gasp. The sweltering heat around my member a swift reminder that I wasn't dreaming.

Each time I pulled out, the extreme vise-grip her vagina had pulling me back in, walls grasping my shaft with wet desperation. Pleasure ever present as I began to speed up. Her huffs giving way to light moans. Hips rolling to meet me as close to half way that she could being all but pinned beneath me. I began to lose self control, hips moving on instinct and steadily building pace. Two hands pushing on my chest knocked me out of my pleasure induced daze.

"Slower please, baby." Locking eyes I could see her pleading. I was right there with her, wanting to savour these sensations as long as possible. Let her feel how much I loved her until the break of dawn. I kissed her deeply, nodding to her request as I slowed my rhythm. Her snug folds pulling at my barbs each withdrawal, raking through her each time.

A nibble at my neck. Another thrust. Claws raking down my spine, coming to rest on my ass with another muzzle locking kiss. I felt my barbs slightly catch. Thighs began clenching at my sides, mewls sounded from her throat as I could feel a pressure beginning to build in my loins. "Stop, stop." I halted the motions.

"What's wrong?"

Her ears fell flat, "Nothing, I just wanted to see if I could maybe be on top?" She brought a paw to her mouth, biting it.

I laughed, "Of course." Pulling out, I laid down and let her straddle me once ready. She was slow, perhaps unsure of what she was doing. Though she eventually found her way onto my lap, stroking through the fur of my chest. I reciprocated but with the fur on her thighs. We sat there for probably about a minute, though it felt much longer. My heart pounding in my chest since the beginning of our union.

My hands went to her waist, her elbows resting on each side of my head. Breasts brushing my chest before smiling at one another and passionately making out for a short time. Parting lips, she looked down at me, seeming embarrassed.

"Turn the frown upside down."

She smiled, "Sorry, I've just never been on top before..." Her head turned before I pulled it back.

"I'll help, but just listen to your body."

"Mhmm." With that, she sat up grasping my length and slowly sinking it back into her velvet warmth. We both moaned on my re-entry. She placed her hands on my shoulders before she began to move her hips. Torso staying nearly statue still as she worked her hips at just as slow a pace. Her hips told a story of pent up anxiety, released as they slowly massaged my length with her internal muscles.

The pace picked up dramatically, steady wet plaps filled the room as she threw herself up and down my barbed shaft. I thrusted up to meet her half way.

"Mmmmoooohh." Maddie started getting loud, her vagina clamping down along me as we pounded into eachother. Knowing I was causing her enough pleasure to force those sounds from such a reserved girl sent a shiver through my body, a throb through my length. The pressure had been building for a few minutes by this point.

Breathless, mewls crawled from her throat as her sex began to convulse coming to a halt on my pelvis. I grinded against her, pushing her high as long as possible while taking all the pleasure I could. Her spasming walls didn't make that too difficult. Her thighs clamped together, paired with the tightening walls, Madelyn became deathly tight as her juices dripped out of our joining.

Panting, she ended up laying down on top of me before sliding off to the side. I was close, but still inside. Desperate to finish I began fucking her on our sides. Arms wrapped around my chest, pulling me against her as I sprinted down the final stretch.

My balls pulled taut to my body, my tip beginning to tingle on the very precipice of a powerful climax. "I'm so close...." Unsure of whether she was okay with me finishing inside her, I pulled out of the silken passage, thrusting into her soft pubic fur. My barbs began to flare, breath hitching as I drew back for a final thrust, Mads moved her hips, paw grabbing my length and putting my bare penis back inside her folds. The dam broke.

With a loud grunt I hilted myself, barbs fully flared as I began to twitch and throb. I lost my breath, my soul draining itself inside of her. The first few throbs were thick, painting her walls white. Everything following became more liquid as my sack was emptied by her. The pleasure surging through my body was overwhelming. I saw nothing but stars. Moans and pants filled the room as we both rode my orgasm to the end.

It had to be a couple minutes straight that I kept cumming. Eventually it petered off and I was finally able to open my eyes and catch my breath. Our noses connected and I licked the end of her snout. Looking up at me, she had one of her beautiful blue eyes open, a satisfied smile plastered on her. I couldn't help but just holding her tight against me, burying her face in my chest. I still hadn't pulled out of her, I wasn't going to risk hurting her with my barbs so I'd let it happen naturally.

"So much for that dinner plan, huh?"

Madelyn's paws squeezed, "I figured you'd appreciate this a bit more. A change of pace instead, hm?" I simply reponded with a kiss. The two of us relaxed, tails tangled together as we became a purring mess on top of the bed. The ringing in my ears coming back, letting me know it was omnipresent no matter where I went. But held by Madelyn I could care less if it screamed into my skull, nothing would take this intimate moment away. Slowly my caresses stilled, deep breaths rolled in my chest while fatigue set its course. I never let her go, afraid I'd lose her again as I let myself sleep.

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The bed was warm. My arms wrapped around somebody I cared for, my heart leapt at the thought. Here I was, an hour away from home, in bed with a dear friend I thought I'd lost. Just a couple days ago I had been sulking alone, although the sulking hadn't changed, I was no longer alone. It brought a smile to my face and warmth to my heart. Watching Madelyn's rhythmic breathing, soft and deep, clearly asleep I gave a sigh of contentment.

Is this how it is to feel happy?

I owe her everything.

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