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I sit at my desk and I think a bit. I better call Dad and let him know. And I think I need to ask my own therapist if he can see me today. And I want to tell my Boar. So I call Botan, and leave a message on his cell, he'll call me when his classes are over for the day.

I call Dr Kinnamura. I explain to him what has happened, and he tells me he can see me in a bit, he has to come to our office building to deliver some paperwork so he'll come by my office. I thank him.

Now the fun begins. I call Dad at Funari Corp. Even for me it takes twenty minutes just to get to Dad's secretary. "Hikari, Dr Suzakawa is busy now" Mako says firmly. "So is this Dr Suzakawa, but I need to talk to him, you know I was raised to not bother Dad at work unless it was extremely important" I say trying not to sound annoyed. "Let me ask him" she says sharply as she puts me on hold. Sitting here on hold does not improve my mood at all. Dad's always done this to me.

Dad comes on the line. "Hikari, I do not have time for this" he snaps. "Dad, we can either talk or fight, but you know I was trained by you not to call unless it was vital" I snap. "I am sorry, Hikari, I can give you five minutes" he says sharply. I am growling softly to myself without knowing it. "It will do you no good to growl at me, my son" Dad says. I hang up in an fit of rage. I immediately know I'll live to regret that. But the hell with him. He's not the only one with a lot going on right now.

I take my next appointment early since he's here. And he's a bit upset that his wife is wanting her mother to visit for a month. Gods, spare me from this I think to myself. I hope Dr Kinnamura gets here soon, I'm not sure why I'm so angry now. I should be extremely happy. I know how Dad is, as he's always been that way about being called at work. I should be used to it by now. He makes me feel like I'm just a bother to him when he does that. And Damn it, I may be grown up, but I do still need my Father sometimes. And I know we're going to have to have a bad fight about it. It is making me feel that he's treating me like a cub again.

I am glad after my appointment leaves to see that Dr Kinnamura is here. I have no appointments for a couple of hours, after lunch in fact..(I schedule it that way sometimes so I can get caught up on the paperwork) So I show him into my office and we sit and talk. I bring him up to speed. He knew about Kenichi, and his hospitalization. I tell him about the pass and getting to be with Kenichi tomorrow night. And I ask why Dad's acting as he did pissed me off so, and why I am so touchy now.

I like Dr Kinnamura. He's a sweet older Walrus with a thick white beard. I tease him about looking like a therapist. Everyone's favorite Grandpa who will listen and give good advice.(I've been seeing him since Residency, it's a requirement of the training. To see a therapist yourself while training to be one. And Dr Kinnamura knows me better than I know myself.)

"Hikari, you're scared" he says. "You are afraid he'll not do well, and you are nervous, you love him so much, and if he does not do well it means he'll be an inpatient for a long time to come" Dr Kinnamura says gently. "And you don't really know him very well, for all of how close you are" he says. "You know a lot about him, but not his little quirks or mannerisms" Dr Kinnamura says. "Nor do you know what he likes or doesn't like, he doesn't know you that way either" Dr K says. "You have the hard task of beginning to really know one another, you know you love him, but you now have to learn one another well enough to live together" he says. "Things like does he snore, or will he want to sleep wrapped around you, or on his own side of the bed" Dr K says. "All of the important little things that will make up your real lives together, not the time for fantasy and happily ever after, but the hard part of living together." he adds. "Reality shock, Dr Kinnamura?" I ask softly.

"Hikari, the truth is that it is time for the two of you to get down to the business of learning to live with one another, your love for one another is boundless, but as you know by now, it is those little things that cause friction and break couples apart" Dr Kinnamura says. "You see this every day, and you are still scared that after all that has happened, you could still lose him" Dr K says softly. "He'd never leave me, nor would I leave him" I say sharply. "You would not, you two are tightly bound, but you want so much to give him a pleasant and happy life to make up for the pain he endured for your sake, and you wish him to be dominant over you" he says firmly. "I do" I say meekly. "You will do well, but right now, you are scared for the future, nothing wrong with being concerned but you should not fear, your Kenichi is as dedicated to the truth as you are, he hurt because he had to be deceptive and hide his true self." Dr Kinnamura says. "Talk to one another, as you know you should" he says.

"And as for your father, he has always been this way, and you hate how unimportant and unloved it makes you feel when the does that to you" Dr K says gently. "He is not likely to change though, you need to finally tell him how bad it makes you feel, that your own father does not trust you to know when something is important enough to call him about" Dr K says. I nod.

"Hikari, I'll be happy to help if you need me, just call me while he's home if you are not sure what to do" Dr K says softly. "Thanks," I tell him. And he gets up and leaves..

I sit and I think some more. "I'm beginning to turn into a way too introspective Grizzly" I say out loud.

I have no more appointments today but I have to stay to get Kenichi's keys. And I have nothing to do but think over what Juzo said, and what Dr Kinnamura said as well.

My cell rings. It's Kenichi. He's so happy. "I'm coming home" he says joyously. "You're going to be on an overnight pass, my love, you'll have to go back but you'll be out on Friday if you handle it well" I say softly. "I know, but I get to come home, and be with you" he says excitedly. "Juzo, Aoki and I will go get your things at your house tonight, and bring them to our home" I say softly. "I don't want to go back there, so I'm glad my love" he says softly. "It will be our home, won't it?" he asks softly. "It will, I need my Horse at my side always" I say quietly.

"Tomorrow at this time we'll be together finally, even if it's for only a day this time, but I get to have my Grizzly, and I can cope with a few days after that of not being at home". He says happily. "Baby, do you snore?"I ask. "I do, is that a problem?" he asks. '"No I just started thinking during my therapy session with my therapist about all the things we don't know about one another" I say softly

"You're not changing your mind about me are you?" he asks sounding scared. "No, Kenichi, not at all, I'm just thinking is all" I say softly. "I don't know what I'd do if I lost you" he says crying now. "Baby, I'm not going anywhere, nor are you, we both know that" I say gently. He stops crying. "I'm so sorry, they tell me I'll be very insecure for a while" he says sadly. "Baby, just do what you did, ask me, don't fret and don't worry, just ask for the reassurance you need, and I'll be happy to give it" I say happily. "You have to know you are the other half of my soul, Kenichi" I say very quietly. "I am?" he asks excitedly. "You are, as I am the other half of yours, we are not complete without one another" I say softly. "It would explain so much of how I had felt, and how I feel now, like a big part of me had just been restored to me" Kenichi says "I could not put words to how I feel now, but I feel whole again" he says ecstatically. "My Grizzly has made me whole again" he says joyously. "I feel the same, my beautiful Horse, I have the half of me that has been missing for so long" I say quietly. I can hear his gentle weeping now.

"I couldn't sleep last night for missing you, and we've never slept together, but without you, now that I know you're mine, I couldn't sleep" I say softly. "I'm sorry you couldn't sleep, but it makes me feel better that you missed me so much already, Hikari" Kenichi says laughing. "I've been told there is a high probability we bonded back when you took my virginity" I tell him. "I wondered about that, and my therapist here told me we must have or I would not have been able to hold on to my love for you despite the pain" Kenichi says. "I have been comforted by knowing we're already bonded, my Clydesdale" I say happily. "Me too" he says. "You have always been mine, even if I did not know it, or could take you to me" Kenichi says lovingly. "I have been and I know it now" I say.

"I will have to tell you about Botan, the one I dated who I thought I wanted to bond" I say softly. "Who is he?" Kenichi asks scared. "He is a Boar, a good friend now, who I got his bond mate just yesterday, he will be living with us, he and his Lion, but we are just close friends" I say softly.

"Hikari, I have something I should have told you before, about me and Takeru" he says sadly. "I don't mind your Boar, I had no right to expect you to not date" he says. "I dated a lot, but he was the only one who meant anything to me, Kenichi, and he is the son of a long time family friend." I say softly. "And I know you and Dad dated in college, and you wanted him to bond you and he would not" I say gently. "How did you know?" he asks. "Your files, I had to read them to see you on that visit" I say. It's not quite true, but I'll tell him eventually. "I see, then you know how much I have loved you since the day we first met" Kenichi says. "I do, and I know how badly you suffered for your love for me" I say trying not to cry. "I want you to tell me tomorrow night about you and Dad, and I'll tell you anything you want to know about Botan or anything" I say softly. "I am devoted to being honest and open, my Kenichi" I say softly. "I will not lie to you, I never have, my Grizzly, and I never will" he says. "I have only lied to myself,about who I was and what I was, but that is behind me now" he says.

"I miss you, Kenichi, and I wish you were with me now, I have had a hard time being without you" I say softly. "And I have had some glimpses of how hard it must have been on you to have to have lived without me" I say weeping now. "Don't cry, Hikari, we'll be together soon, and we'll be together forever" he says soothingly. "I am sorry, but I miss my Horse so much right now" I say trying to stop crying.. 'I am sorry, my love, but you have made me happy, you would not miss me so much if you did not love me so" Kenichi says happily. "I do, I love you more than I thought I could love anyone" I say calmer now. "I must go, but I will be happily awaiting you tomorrow" he says happily.

The messenger comes with his keys. And I lock up my office and I leave. I drive home. And I give Juzo the keys and the address. And I go strip and go out to the spa. I get in and I try to let go and empty my mind. Juzo told me no one else is home. So I am hoping I can have some peace and calm down. But I am still upset with Oto-Sama. And I cannot relax.

Juzo comes out. Aoki is home early and wants to go get Kenichi's things if I'll go help. So I get up and go put some jeans and a shirt on and we go get the truck he rented and we go to Kenichi's old place. I pay the back rent and we load the truck. I go give the landlord the keys when we're done, and I tell him to send me a bill for any damages. We go back to the house, and Aoki and I unload the boxes, and we put his furniture in the storage rooms. I put the boxes of his clothes and personal possessions in our room. I hang up and put away his clothes. It's now 5PM and Daichi is home as are Botan and Keiji. Botan comes and finds me and he apologizes for not getting my message til he came home just now.

Botan sits on the bed, and I tell him what has happened. "You'll have him soon" Botan says. "I will, and we have a lot to adjust to' I say gently. "I know, I am doing that with Keiji, he was not prepared for how much I snore or how I love to sleep holding him" Botan says smiling. "You have such a soft and gentle snore, I always found it comforting" I say softly. "I think Keiji is just not used to sleeping with someone yet" I say smiling. "Probably not, I am only because you and I had been sleeping together a lot" Botan says happily. "I know, and loved feeling you curled up to me, that thick fur against me, and those strong arms holding me" I say grinning. "I did too, you are so much bigger than me I felt snug and wrapped up and comforted" Botan says smiling.

"I am glad you are to be happy now, my Grizzly" Botan says. "Maybe we can get over our sadness that we didn't bond, my Botan" I say kissing him. Botan sighs. "I will never know why we did not" he says. I tell him that we think Kenichi bonded me when he took my virginity. And that it was probably why he and I did not bond. "I am sorry" I say looking at the floor.

"Hikari, things happen as they are supposed to, I have my Lion and you will very soon have your Horse" Botan says taking my paw. "I do not deny had we of bonded, I would have been very happy and done my best to make you happy as well" he adds."I feel the same, I would have been happy to go through life with my Boar at my side, but it is how it is" I say gently. "I will still have you at my side, as we are such good friends now" I say kissing him. "It is true, we do love one another, you got me my Lion, and stood up to my Oto-Sama for me" Botan says smiling.

I kiss him. "Botan, I love you and I always will" I say softly. "I know, and I love you" he says. "We are happy, and you are close to me, so I am content, my Boar" I say grinning. He hugs me, and we sit and hold one another for a bit.

"HIKARI!" I hear my Oto-Sama holler as he comes in the door. Botan looks upset. I quickly tell him what happened when I called Dad. Dad sticks his head in my door. "Botan, I must talk to Hikari alone now" he grumbles. "Nothing to talk about, Father, you were rude to me when I needed you, and I would not argue or fight with you:" I snap. "You do not treat me that way, you will never hang up on me like that again" he snarls. I turn my back on him. And I ignore him. He's getting pissed now. I can almost feel the heat coming off of him.

"If you will be so impertinent to me then you do not need to live in my house anymore" Dad snaps. "Fine, I will move myself and Dr Ryouta out as soon as I can buy a house of my own" I say angrily. Dad looks around at the boxes. "What is this, I would know immediately what is going on" Dad says angrily. "You'd know already if you hadn't of been so arrogant and angry over me calling you at Funari, Dad' I say sharply. "Hikari, I am very busy, and I have many demands on me" Dad says sharply. "And I do not?" I say firmly.

"You have raised me from a cub, to know that we do not call you at work unless it is very important, and I never have, I have been obedient to my Oto-Sama in fulfilling his request" I say sharply. "You have, Hikari" Dad says calming down. "Now I am an adult, and I will still follow your preference, but you must know if I do call you, I have already considered whether or not it is important enough not to wait until you get home" I say firmly. Dad's quiet now. He's stroking his goatee. "I am sorry, my Son, you have always done as I wished you to, you do not call unless you think it is vital" Dad says softly "Father, it makes me feel as if nothing about me is as important to you as Funari, and I know you do not mean to make me feel that way, but I do" I say hugging him. He holds me. "I try to leave work at work, and I have compartmentalized my life, I want home at home, and work at work, but I should trust my Grizzly son if he thinks it's important" Dad says kissing me.

"You will not leave home, I was being short and too hard on you, so you will not leave your father's home" he says firmly. "I do not want you to leave our home ever, my Hikari" Dad says hugging me harder. "I will not, I wish to be with my fathers, and make my home here with my Horse as well" I say softly.

"You mentioned Kenichi when we fought, so I assume your call had to concern him?" Dad asks. "He is doing very well, and he is to have an overnight pass tomorrow night and is to stay with me, father" I say happily. Dad grins and he hugs me tighter. "If he does well, he will be home for good on Friday,Father" I say happily.

"My son will have his Clydesdale soon" he says happily. "I will have my love, your old Clydesdale lover" I say trying to stay calm. "Did he tell you about us, my Son?" Dad asks surprised. "No, he admitted to it, and promised to tell me tomorrow night, but I found out about it from his files" I say sharply. "Does it matter that much?"Dad asks sounding like he'd rather be talking about anything else. "It will not keep me from taking him, but I wish you, or either of you had told me, Dad" I say softly. "It brings up so many questions in my mind, Oto-Sama" I say. "You call me Oto-Sama primarily when upset and not wanting to let me know you are" Dad muses.

"I will tell you all you wish to know, Son" Dad says. "Answer a few questions for me, Dad?" I ask him. "I will" he says softly. And he sits on my bed next to me. I pull him down onto the bed, and I hold him to me. "This is nice, my boy" Dad says softly.

"Why did you not bond him?" I ask. "I wished to have at least one son, and I did care for your mother, I did not love her but we had a good life together before she died." Dad says honestly. "I loved him, yet, not as strongly as you do, I would have tried to bond him, and it hurt me to walk away from him, which is why I can feel for his pains over you" Dad says. "Will it hurt you to see he and I together, and so much in love?" I ask Dad. "You love your father so much" he says kissing me. "No, I was not to be his, I could not have bonded Daichi as I did otherwise, and I am more than happy with my Lion, and I know just to see you two together that he is completely yours, my Son" Dad says. "He is the other half of your soul" Dad says softly.

"Why choose him to take my virginity, he was massively hung and you knew it, and your ex, so why him?" I ask Dad. "I would not want to admit to this otherwise, but Kenichi took mine, he was my first too, and massively hung or not, he was magnificent" Dad says smiling wistfully. "He is" I muse happily. "I knew he would do the same for you, and crush or not, he would be the perfect one to take yours" Dad says. "So you knew of his crush?" I ask. "Not until he had agreed, Daichi had talked to him, and I heard of it when he came to dinner" Dad says softly. "I felt guilty as we should have prevented him being with you, and when he hurt so after falling for you, I was upset." Dad says sadly. "Dad, we bonded when he took me that first time, nothing anyone could have done would have made him not hurt, only taking me to him as his would have stopped his pain from that, but he would have still hurt from abandoning his family" I say softly. "Poor Kenichi, he couldn't hope to win, or even just not hurt" Dad says. "It is why I am so determined to make it up to him now" I say softly.

"What you have not asked me is as important as what you have" Dad says emphatically. I do sometimes forget how sharp and perceptive my Oto-Sama really is. "You did not ask me if I do still love him?" Dad asks me. "Do you?" I ask him. " I did, and part of me does still, but he will be better for you than for me, and I am bound to my Lion" Dad says. "Would you ever think of taking Kenichi and leaving Daichi?" I ask. "Hikari, how dare you ask me such a thing?" Dad asks angrily. "Then should I assume you might?" I ask him. Dad laughs. "No, that night he took your virginity, he and I talked, he cares for me, as I do him, but we do not love one another as he loves you now, we are more like how you are with Botan" Dad says. "I know now it was Kenichi's love that prevented me from taking Botan, he's happy as am I , but I would have been happy either way, Father" I say softly. "I know, he is quite a Boar, and you two would have been very good together, but Kenichi is your soul mate, and he will love you so deeply, my Son" Dad says smiling.

"It's going to be a long 24 hours to wait for him, and when my Kenichi is here they time will just fly" I say sadly. "Sleep with Daichi and I so that your fathers may comfort you and keep you from being upset, my Son"Dad says softly. "Thank you Dad" I say softly.

I am getting excited now. Apparently, I was more upset by Dad's behavior than I knew. But I am so happy knowing soon I'll have my Kenichi with me. But as Dr Kinnamura said I am concerned about how we'll get used to one another's habits. Hell, I am a creature of habit, and I am not one to take things lightly, I have always overthought things a lot. And then again, I have to adjust to Kenichi, he wishes to be as my husband, a thought that thrills me, to cater to and please him, my bigger mate. He's used to it, he's been that way I am sure, with his wife, and he loves me so he'll have it easier. But then again, why shouldn't he have something easy for a change. He's dealt with so much, and so much pain, and he'll have me, and I am now determined to be as his wife in all ways, and I will legally bond him, and take his name when it is time. He seemed so happy to hear me say that I wanted to be Dr Ryouta too.

I go to Dad. "Are you well, did we miss something?" Dad asks. "Dad, I hope you won't get mad at me when I tell you what Kenichi and I have discussed doing, and will do when we can?" I ask meekly. "What?, are you going to legally bond him and become Dr Ryouta too?" Dad says smiling. "Damn, I keep forgetting how brilliant my father is" I say shook up. "No, Son, while I do not deny I am brilliant, Kenichi called me today, and asked my permission for when you two have been together long enough" Dad says. "Oh, his call you took" I snark. "Hikari!" Dad snaps. "I am sorry, and I will try to be better, but I could not refuse his call, I wanted to help him however he needs me to" Dad says softly. "I am glad you do still care for him, Dad" I say stroking his muzzle. "I do, and I love my Grizzly son so much as well" Dad says kissing me. "I am fine with it, you love him, and you will be to him what he wishes you to be, he is determined to be your husband, and I would not allow that if he was mine" Dad says smiling. "He did like that part about being married, Hikari, and he will love being that way with you" Dad says smiling. "Dad, it surprises me, but I want him that way, when he asked me if I would let him be that with me, it thrilled me" I say softly.

"Hikari, you are a big male, and mostly versatile, but you love giving yourself totally to a male who has earned your respect and obedience, you have always been that way with me, whether I wanted to fuck you or have you fuck me, you have been a good and obedient son always" Dad says kissing me. "I will have to accept that he is your Lord and Master now, and I am not" Dad says softly. "I told you when he took me off to break me in, that I will always be your loving little cub" I say kissing Dad. Dad smiles. "I remember, my cub" Dad says. "But he is your mate, and I would not interfere with his dominance over you" Dad says.

"He is willing to let me still play with you and Daichi and whoever I want to:" I say softly. "I know, I asked him today if I might still have you with me and Daichi or alone" Dad says."He told me he would never keep you away from your Fathers" Dad says tearing up a bit. "He is all I could have wanted for you to have, to make you happy, my Son, I know how strongly he loves when he loves" Dad says softly. "I do too, Dad, he will not stop loving me ever" I say smiling. "And he will do anything he can to make you happy" Dad says.

We go to dinner when Juzo announces it. Botan and Keiji are happy and holding hands. "I hear you will have your Horse sooner than you thought" Keiji says happily. "I will, and I love seeing how happy you and Botan are" I say smiling. Keiji blushes. "Mr Akagane came to my store today" Keiji says softly. Botan looks stunned. "I was afraid of him at first, but he apologized to me, and told me he was glad I made Botan so happy" Keiji says joyously. Botan smiles, and looks quite relieved. Dad laughs. "Akira was upset, but he saw in his son how much he loved his Lion, and how determined he was to keep him, and he relented, he would not lose his beloved middle son over this" Dad says happily.

"He was impressed by how fearlessly you took him on, Hikari" Dad says smiling. "It did make him sad, as he saw how much you cared for Botan, but that you did not love him that way" Dad says softly. "Dr Suzakawa, we love one another, but he is not my mate, Keiji is, and we will always be close to each other" Botan says smiling. "I love Botan, but Kenichi is my mate, and I will always want my Boar to be close to me" I say smiling. Botan leans over and kisses me.

Dad laughs. And I remember what he said about he and Kenichi being as Botan and I are to one another. And I am happy. I know why he's been so good at accepting how things are now. He cares for Kenichi, and he's happy he has me to love him.

Dinner goes well. After dinner, I go out to the spa, and soak a while. Botan and Daichi come out and sit with me. And we chat a while. Daichi is happy that Dad told him Kenichi will let us all still have sex. Botan smiles too. "I would want you at times as well, Hikari" he says smiling. "I will fuck either of you when I can, and I knew Kenichi would not keep me from you" I say laughing. "I can't wait to meet this Horse" Botan says. "He wants to meet you, and he was a bit scared when I told him about us" I say softly. "Is he still?" Botan asks. "No, he's not, he knows you are happy, and I am his" I say smiling. Botan laughs.

"If he's a hung as Daichi told me, I'm not letting him fuck Keiji or I'll never be able to satisfy him again" Botan says laughing. "Is he that hung, Hikari?" Botan asks. "Kenichi has four and a half inches in length on me, and an inch in circumference" I say softly. "He's 24 1/2" long, and 5" in circumference, if you think that is hung?" I say laughing. "Damn" Daichi says. "Takeru just said he was very hung, but that's massive, how do you.....?" Daichi asks. "My Horse is very gentle and loving" I say smiling.

"Wait, you lost your cherry to something that massive?" Botan asks. "I did, indeed" I say grinning. "Kenichi taught me to suck dick on it too, and I was able to deep throat him:" I say laughing. "He needs a Grizzly Bear as big as you to take him" Botan says laughing. "Dad used to take him, and is planning to again when he gets the chance" I say laughing. "I'm gonna take a shot at it too, if he'll let me" Daichi says. "Kenichi said he's been wanting to fuck you since he first met you, my Lion Daddy" I tell him. "Really?" Daichi asks. "He really wants into your ass, Daichi" I tell him. Daichi smiles. "I can't wait to see you wriggling on the end of that big Horse cock, Daichi" I tease him. "I can't either" Daichi says.

"I don't think I could take him, and I am pretty sure I don't want to" Botan says. I kiss him. "I love to fuck, but I have discovered I have a bit of a preference for getting well fucked." I tell him. "You are a good fuck, and a great piece of ass" Botan says teasingly. "So are you, Botan, I love how you fuck" I say smiling. "So do I" Daichi says smiling. Botan leans over and kisses Daichi, and they are quickly making out. And Daichi bends over the side of the spa while Botan takes his ass. I get up and go in.

I go into the kitchen and I sit and drink a diet soda. Juzo is finishing the kitchen clean up. Aoki comes in naked and kisses him. He sees me and he's embarrassed. "Don't be embarrassed, sweet Wolf" I tell him. "I am sorry, Dr Suzakawa" Aoki says shyly. "I am not Dr Suzakawa to you sweet Wolf, you are my beloved Juzo's mate, I am Hikari to you" I say smiling.

Juzo is smiling. "My Grizzly son is in love with the world tonight" he says grinning. "I am, I think, I have so much love around me and I am a very lucky Grizzly" I say happily. "You are a very beautiful Grizzly" Aoki says softly. I turn and I look at him. He's a rugged looking Wolf. Tall, and slender, but well muscled too. Deep blue eyes, and a short goatee that is as white as his hair. And he has a beautiful thick bushy tail. "You are a gorgeous Wolf, Aoki, Juzo is very lucky" I say softly "I am Hikari, he is beautiful and a wonderful lover" Juzo says smiling. "I am just a poor Wolf from the country" Aoki says shyly. "A beautiful country Wolf is a thing to be proud of" I say smiling. Aoki is blushing and Juzo is smiling deeply. And he looks at me, and I feel flushed and hot.

I look at my Juzo. I have not really paid a lot of attention to his looks over the years. He is a beautiful Lion. His green eyes are bright and shining. And he is Dad's height and weight. His thick mane is Dark Tawny and his fur is Tawny. And his forepaws are strong and he is smiling at me now. He has to know, he always knows somehow what is going on around here. "I do know" Juzo says. "You want us" he says leaning over and kissing me. "I do" I say gently, and I kiss him back hard. Aoki is petting my shoulder.

I turn and I grab him and I kiss him deeply. And he holds me tightly and sticks his tongue in my mouth. And he's a hot kisser. And he's petting me everywhere he can reach. Juzo has me from behind and he's nuzzling the back of my neck. "I have wanted you for a long time, but I did not think you would want me" Aoki says softly. "I do, I have wanted both of you, but I wasn't sure that you'd want me, nor how Dad would take it" I say smiling. Juzo laughs. "Your Dad has been with us several times in bed, Hikari" Aoki says. "We are both mostly tops, Hikari" Juzo whispers in my ear as he nuzzles my neck. "We bottom for one another because of how we love one another, beautiful Grizzly" Aoki says. "I like to top sometimes, but I am finding I much prefer to bottom" I say kissing Juzo.

"Would you come lay with us, beautiful Grizzly?" Aoki whispers in my ear. "I'd love to" I say. And I smile. I pick Juzo up and put him over one shoulder, and I put Aoki over the other one and we walk to their bedroom. They are laughing and kissing each other. "He's a strong one, my loving Lion" Aoki says laughing. "Our Grizzly son is strong, and loving" Juzo says. I feel a tear sliding down my cheek. "Why do you cry, Hikari?" Juzo says. "When you called me 'our Grizzly son' I felt so loved and special," I say fighting off tears. Aoki holds me. "You have come to both of us for advice, and always treated this old handyman with true dignity and respect" Aoki says kissing me softly. "And you look at my Juzo like you look at Takeru, you love him as much as you love your father" Aoki says smiling. "You two are my model for how a long term relationship should be" I say kissing Juzo. "We have our fights, but we don't fight long, I want him happy, and the one piece of advice I could give you for you and your Horse, is to talk to one another always" Aoki says. "We disagree, and we talk to see which one of it is the most important to, and we give way for the one it means the most to" Aoki says smiling. "I could not live without my Lion" Aoki says softly. "We had bonded, and he had to leave for Tokyo to find work, and those six months were like agony" Aoki says. "I know you felt some of that for a short time, and you can see how your Horse felt for so long" Aoki says. "He'll be sensitive for a while, but he will love you and keep you happy, and keep you tightly to him" Aoki says. "Like me, he will not risk losing his love" Aoki says."I would not be without my Juzo' he says softly. Juzo smiles. "I would be lost without my loving Wolf" Juzo says smiling.

I put them both down on the bed, and I strip. Juzo strips and he's a truly beautiful Lion. He's got a bit of a belly, but he is well muscled and fairly well hung. Aoki is rangy and hot looking. He's slender but hard muscled from years of hard work. And he's almost as big as me down there. He's already hard and he's 13 1/2" long. Aoki is playing with Juzo's dick and he's 12 1/2" fully hard. I laugh. "You both are beautiful, and I wish I had ...." I say. Juzo grabs my muzzle. "Things happen when they are to happen, Hikari, we have wanted you, but we would not push ourselves on you" he says deep kissing me. "No forcing involved here" I say smiling. "I'm here because I want to be, and I am looking forward to this, and hope we can do it in the future as well" I say. Aoki grins. "I want to" he says. And he tells me of watching me when we moved Kenichi's things. "Those tight jeans, and your hot Grizzly ass, it was all I could do not to just push you down and fuck you right there" Aoki says smiling. "I came home and Juzo and I talked it over, and he wanted you as much as I did, so we thought we would see if you were interested" Aoki says grinning.

We spend a lot of time kissing, licking and nuzzling one another. And my blood is hot for them both. "Which of us first?" Aoki asks. "I want you both too much to choose, so you two decide, and I'll take you as often as I can and as many times as I can" I say passionately. "Let me my love, you will tie him and I would have to wait a long time" Juzo says softly. "Of course, my Lion" Aoki says kissing me. "What does he mean tie me?"I ask. 'I am a Canine, and there is a knot in my dick that will swell and lock us together for a while, depending on how hot you get me, and he's right as hot for you as I am it would be a long tie" Aoki says. I smile. "We love finding a bottom to share between us" Juzo says kissing me.

"Would you get on your back for you loving Lion?" Juzo says softly. "Gladly" I say rolling on my back. "You are beautiful, my Hikari" Juzo says kissing me, and mounting me. He pushes his big Lion dick into me slowly. I kick and growl and I grab his back tightly. I moan and he speeds up a bit. "You are very tight, my Grizzly" Juzo moans tenderly. "He gets excited and he squeezes hard, my Wolf love" Juzo moans. "I can hardly wait" Aoki says smiling. He leans over and he's kissing us both.

Juzo changes speed and depth as he fucks and I growl and my mind goes blank feeling him stroke my insides with that big Lion dick. "I have always loved you, Hikari, since you were a young Grizzly, and I had always hoped as you got older that I could have you like this." he says. "Hot, and passionate, and enjoying being under me" he says licking my neck. "You are a wonderful lover, Juzo" I say softly. "He is, he is magnificent, Hikari" Aoki says smiling. "I am not going to hold much longer" Juzo moans loudly. "We can go again if you'd like" I grunt. "You would?" he asks smiling. "I'll take you when I can, when you want me" I growl. And I buck and cum on his belly. Juzo throws his head back and roars loudly. And he's cumming hard into me. He lays panting on top of me. "It was hot watching you and my Lion" Aoki says kissing us both. "My Wolf, he is tight, and he squeezes so hard, you can't help but cum hard in him" Juzo says smothering my face with kisses. "I am glad I pleased you, my Lion" I say blushing. "You did, you were as good as I have always thought you'd be" Juzo says grinning.

"My love, I would take him now, if you would" Aoki says softly. Juzo kisses me, and he rolls off of me. "I will have to have you roll onto your side when I get ready to cum, we will be tied for a while and we should be comfortable" Aoki says softly. I nod.

"Up on your knees to start with?" Aoki asks. I get up on my knees. "You have such a beautiful, and sexy ass" Aoki says running his paw over my ass. "I look forward to being inside of it" Aoki says. And he leans over and he kisses me, full tongue and very passionately. "I love your little round Grizzly tail, it highlights that well muscled, round and firm ass" Aoki says gently. I blush. "I am happy to get to have you now" Aoki says sliding slowly into me from behind. His big dick feels so good, and thanks to Juzo's huge cum load he's sliding in easily. "I love fucking in my Lion's cum" Aoki says hotly. And he's moving quicker in me now. I moan and I involuntarily squeeze his huge dick with my ass. Aoki grunts softly and moves a bit quicker.. "He squeezes so tightly, you were right my love, I may not hold off long either" Aoki growls. Aoki moves all of the way in and out of me, and I growl in pleasure. Aoki kisses me deeply. I hump on his dick, and he moans and growls. And he's groaning softly. He pulls me down on my side, and he howls, and I feel him fill me. I feel his knot swell and I moan and I cum hard on the bed, and he's locked to my insides. I softly growl. "He likes it, my love" Aoki tells Juzo. "I knew he would" Juzo says kissing me. "It feels incredible" I moan. "You came when he tied you" Juzo says smiling. Aoki's eyes are shining. "Except for you and my Juzo, most guys would now be begging me to pull it out, my Lion loves it as much as you do, Hikari" Aoki says proudly. Juzo is kissing both of us. "You two are incredible lovers" I say smiling hard.

"We both have wanted you for a long time, and it showed when we made love to you" Juzo says softly. "I would hope you would allow us to again, if your Horse allows it" Juzo says smiling. "We are bonded openly, or I could not have been having sex all along" I say smiling. "And I'd love to fuck you again, together or apart, you both are so good, and so loving to this young Grizzly" I say leaning back to kiss Aoki. He grins. "I loved how you watched one another with me, when you watched Juzo fuck me there was pride in your eyes, Aoki, same with Juzo" I say kissing them both. "I love watching my beautiful Lion fuck" Aoki says smiling.

We lay curled up, and talking intimately. Juzo and Aoki give me a lot of advice on life and my relationship with Kenichi. And how to handle Dad "You love him, and you have almost always been the proper respectful, and obedient son, unless he is wrong" Juzo says laughing. Aoki grunts, and he unties me. I whine to feel so empty. "He is just like you, you whine and cry when I untie you my Juzo" Aoki says kissing me and Juzo. Juzo blushes. I kiss them both. "I am so happy this happened, I want you both when we can" I say happily. "Hikari, we feel the same for you, we'd welcome you into our bed whenever we can" Aoki says. "But we know your time will be taken up for a while with your Horse, and it is how it should be, just know you have but to ask and either of us will take you on the spot" Juzo says smiling. "The same goes for you both" I say kissing them. "I would have done it before now, but I cannot do quickies" Aoki says. "I will tie someone as hot as you or my Juzo for at least an hour" Aoki says grinning. "You bent over to pick up a box in front of me, and it was all I could do not to claw your jeans open and fuck you on the spot" Aoki says laughing. "I don't think I'd of stopped you, I've always found you to be sexy" I say smiling. Juzo nods. "He has told me in the past how sexy and masculine he found you" Juzo says smiling. Aoki blushes.

"Go now, Hikari, your father is looking for you now" Juzo says looking up at the ceiling. "How?" I ask. "I get flashes of things" Juzo says softly. "I won't tell anyone, my beloved Lion" I say softly. Juzo kisses me. "Dress and go, I would not have Takeru know yet we have been with you, he might be a bit put out" Juzo says. "I'll proudly tell him, I have nothing to worry over" I say. "He might get upset at me" Juzo says softly. "Why, he has been with you both?" I ask. "He would not want you to know he has" Aoki says softly. I get up and dress, and I go out to the living room.

"Where have you been, my son?" Dad asks. "Talking some things out with Juzo and Aoki, Father" I say softly. "They have helped me tremendously to get my mind together" I say softly. "Juzo is wise, and he cares for you as if you were his own son" Dad says smiling. "He does, he is so much like my beloved father" I say kissing Dad. Dad grins. "My Hikari, you have been such a good son, we do fight on rare occasions, but I have always been proud of you, and now you take someone I approve of, Kenichi is someone I did consider taking myself, so I have to be a bit proud of that" Dad says. "I would never have been born if you had of taken him, nor would I have the prospect of such happiness, so I am glad you did not, Father" I say laughing.

"Sit with me, son" Dad says. And we sit on the couch. Dad puts his arm around me. "Hikari, you are on the verge of bonding, and I keep thinking of when I first saw you, you were so tiny, and such a beautiful Grizzly cub" Dad says. "I was happy, you were a Grizzly and not a Spectacle Bear like me, but you were of me, you had my manner and outlook from the start" Dad says softly. "You were so bright and observant from birth, and you showed my intelligence from the time you were 2 or 3, my son" Dad says.

"And as you grew you were so beautiful of a Bear, you started showing signs that you would be much bigger than me by the time you were 5" Dad says. "And as you grew bigger, you grew more handsome and your face though a Grizzly's began to look so much like me" he says softly. And I realize I don't think of it but my face is like Dad's, And it makes me proud. My Dad is a handsome Spectacle Bear.

"Hikari, you are, and you have always been my greatest joy in life, I am sorry to have lost your mother, and I love my Daichi so much, but nothing in my life has given me as much joy as you being my son" Dad says hugging me and crying. "I have always been proud of being your son" I say hugging him back. "I have heard what others have said about you, Dad, but I know you are the most special Bear I have ever known, and the highest compliment I have ever gotten was being told how much like you I am" I say kissing him. Dad is crying hard now. "Son, I am...I have to tell you some things" Dad says quietly. "You deserve all of the truth" Dad says barely audibly.

"Kenichi told you you were so much like me when you told him you would love him, and send him back to his family, and await him again?" Dad asks. I nod. "I did do that, I loved him, and even after I married your mother, he and I loved one another, and we both saw one another as often as we could, and went back to our own, missing each other fiercely" Dad says. "I see" I say as calmly as I can. Dad's face shows so much pain and fear now. I stroke his muzzle softly. And he relaxes a bit.

"Dad, I need to know all here, I will not worry of how much you love my mate, and worry that you might take him from me." I say softly. "He loves you" Dad says "He has loved you longer, and you are the only male I could lose anyone to, the only male more special than I am" I say gently. Dad relaxes more.. "I need to know it all, like do you still love him?" I ask afraid of the answer. "I do, but not as a mate or a lover, I care for him, we shared a love for a long time, and I don't know how he feels, but I am happy with my Lion, and I can see how much he loves you" Dad says.

"Would you leave Daichi for him?"I ask. "I don't think he'd want me" Dad says. "Not what I asked you" I snap. "No, Hikari, I would not, I am where I belong, as are you, he is not mine, nor was he meant to be my mate, he is yours, my son" Dad says sadly. "Dad I had a right to know, and I do trust him, I only trust you more than I do him" I say softly. Dad smiles. "I would never try to interfere with the two of you, Hikari" Dad says meekly. "I know, Dad, I was taken by surprise." I say softly. "Is there anything else about the two of you I need to know?" I ask Dad. "I don't think so, Hikari" Dad says. "And you will not be hurt by seeing us here together all of the time" I ask him. Dad is silent a moment. "No, I love my Daichi now, and he loves you, but I would love to take that big Horse cock when you'll let me" Dad says. "It's up to Kenichi, not me Dad, I trust you, and I won't keep you from him, anymore than he'll keep me from you" I say softly. "You do love me, don't you?" Dad says softly. "Of course, Dad, I was just surprised, and more upset that neither of you told me, like it was some big, deep, dark secret" I say softly.

"Kenichi told me or started to and I told him I knew and he promised to tell me everything" I say smiling. "But I should have known from the beginning, Dad" I say gently. "I can understand why you wanted him to be the one to break me in since he broke you in so well, but with his crush, I'd of thought you would know he might have problems" I say softly. "But life happened the way it had to, and we'll be together soon. but I missed having him for three years because of his situation, and he hurt so badly" I say softly. "I hope he forgives me" I tell Dad. "He has, he doesn't blame anyone, Hikari, he's glad it's going to be over and he wants to start out anew with you" Dad says hugging me.