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That same dream again. He spiraled in a dark space, unable to hold onto anything. An owl, massive and feral, would creep on its legs to him. He held out his paws. The owl spat something gangrenous and awful out into his padded palms. It was his. Of his body. He had nothing but this withering organ waiting--

"Time to wake up, Jacob." The lights flashed on and Jacob groaned. He turned his head and saw his caretaker, Will, roll his chair up to his bed. The short-haired feline had fur ranging from chocolate brown to black, depending on what light he stood in, and large blue eyes. He wore a casual pair of jeans and button up. He asked, "Enjoy your nap?"

"It was... alright..." Jacob said, a little bleary. He always had trouble getting his body roused from sleep.

Will asked, "Alright if I move you?"

"Sure."

Gingerly, he reached across the mattress, wrapping his paws around Jacob's waist. The mattress, with a low friction, waterproof cover, made it easy for Will to drag Jacob to the bed's edge. Jacob did not comment, working with Will to get himself pushed upright. "Thank you," Jacob whispered.

"No problem," Will whispered, "Little slip now." At a grunt, Will lifted Jacob off the bed, swinging him around into his chair. Jacob's bedroom consisted of a closet with his clothes, space to park a spare wheelchair, a wall mounted TV, and computer desk. They passed by a spot on the wall with a clear outline of where dirt had gathered in a square around it. Once, Jacob had a mirror there, but he had asked for it to be removed. He got tired of looking at himself. It was hard not to be angry at his body when he saw it: withered compared to most everyone else, his brown fur coat thinned out, his eyes sunken. Jacob's ears always slouched when he saw it--what little they could anymore. The only part of the canine that seemed to function at full strength was Jacob's nose.

Will rolled Jacob out into his living room and adjoined dining area. Dinner had already been set out. Tacos. Will already made his plate to his liking. Jacob said, "You were busy."

"Oh, you know, I wanted to treat you," Will said as he parked the chair before the round dining table. Will took a seat on the other side and began to make his own plate from the fixings set out on the table.

"You spoil me," Jacob grumbled as he slowly unraveled one of the three soft tacos on his plate, checking what all was inside.

"You ought to be spoiled."

"It's also your job, too," Jacob accused.

Will winked. "Don't tell my other clients that, then." Will worked as part of a live-in caretaker service for people like Jacob. On a rotating basis, different nurses would stay over. Will had been working two days a week at Jacob's home for three months now and was one of the better nurses Jacob had. Will was friendly and the only nurse around Jacob's age. They could talk about videogames, computers, even anime and shows they would watch together.

Jacob ate his food slow and steady. The tacos were shredded chicken with queso fresco and salsa verde Will made earlier that day. Will also cooked good food. Jacob thanked the heavens he could still pass a swallow test. He dreaded the idea of needing a G-Tube in another few years. While Jacob went through the methodical process of eating, Will ate and moved onto the kitchen to start on dishes. Jacob's kitchen looked out over the dining area and living room, so someone at the sink might be able to see Jacob as he watched TV in the room.

Two and a half tacos later, Jacob sighed and said, "These were really good."

"I'm glad you liked them," Will said. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm okay," Jacob said. "Work was pretty draining today, but Friday's are like that."

"Mmm, you have seemed more quiet today." Will went around the counter to the table. "Alright if I take this?"

At a nod, Will scooped up Jacob's plate, sliding the remains of his last taco in the trash before adding the plate to the dishwasher. He then came back around with a paper towel. "You've got some salsa on your muzzle. Alright if I get it?"

"Sure."

"Green just really isn't your color, what with your reddish brown coat," Will joked as he wiped away the remains of dinner.

"Not like it matters much anyways."

Will frowned.

"Sorry, it's nothing," Jacob said. He usually did not let his negative opinions of himself slip around his nurses. They just tended to chide him for not having a more positive outlook about his terminal condition.

"Hey, come on now," Will said. He knelt beside Jacob's chair so they saw eye to eye. It was not a patronizing act, but an understanding that looking up at someone standing over him could strain Jacob's neck after a while. The cat rested a hand on Jacob's dress pants, clothes Will insisted he wear instead of pajamas. "You've been really gloom and doom the last few weeks. What's up?"

"I mean, wouldn't you be?"

Will's expression became a little more stern. "You're avoiding the question."

"I don't know... I'm just..." Jacob choked on the word a bit. "I've just been feeling lonely lately."

"Lonely?" Will asked in a tone meant to encourage Jacob to say more. There was no surprise or protest. When Jacob mentioned being lonely to most people they expressed surprise: he was liked among his coworkers, had regular gaming friends, the constant company of his nurses, weekly visits with a therapist.

"I just..." Jacob's paw closed into a fist until his entire forearm quivered. "I'm a virgin, okay?"

Will blinked. "Uh..."

"That kind of lonely," Jacob added. "My therapist says I just need to get out there more, but no one wants to date someone like me. Kids are seen as more sexual than I am--"

"Stop," Will got to his feet. "That's not true."

Jacob shook his head. "Don't tell me like you know better. You're not in this chair. You're not the one people look at different than everyone else." Tears were beading the corner of his eyes.

"It's not true," Will insisted.

"You can't just say--"

"I like you!" Will snapped. His hackles stood on end, eyes wet and close to tears themselves. "Now would you stop with this nonsense?"

"You..." Jacob gawked, but shook his head. "You've never... shown anything before."

Will's expression softened. He knelt again and, a little unsure, took Jacob's paw in his. When Jacob didn't try to pull away, Will smiled and stroked Jacob's wrist with his thumb. "I just wanted it to be a stupid crush," Will admitted. "You were just so cool and kind and friendly. I didn't want to say or do anything to make you uncomfortable. If I did and you filed a complaint I'd lose my job in a heartbeat. It's really easy to abuse people in this work, you know? They take those kind of complaints real seriously."

Jacob couldn't understand it. He couldn't make a move or reciprocate. He just asked, "But... why?"

"Cause you're awesome, silly," Will said with a little chuckle. He let go of Jacob's paw and said, "If you don't feel the same way that's okay. I just don't want you thinking there's no one out there for you."

"You'd be with me?" Jacob asked. "Even if you know it's all downhill from here?" At twenty-four, Jacob's doctor's did not expect him to live past thirty.

"For as long as you'd let me," Will whispered.

"I..." Jacob felt fresh tears running down into his muzzle. "I... God... you really would?"

Will laughed a little. "You want me to sign a contract? The real question is, do you want me like that?"

It wasn't really a question Jacob ever allowed himself to entertain. He liked Will a lot. The thought of having feelings for the feline was something he always kept out of his mind so he would not have to face the pain of an expected rejection. Will's fur looked so soft and well groomed. He was tall and had this charismatic bearing, this winning smile, and solid muscle that a nurse needed to lift and move their patients.

"Yes... yes..." Jacob babbled, certain this some dream he would soon wake from. "I want you. I'd be stupid not to."

"Hehehe, good thing you're one of the smartest people I know," Will said. He caressed Jacob's cheek, leaned closer and whispered. "Is it okay if I kiss you?"

"Umm... I've never..."

"Shhh," Will whispered. "I'm a great teacher."

"Then teach me," Jacob uttered, thinking himself breathless till Will took his breath away with their first kiss. Just a light peck at first, the brush of whiskers. Then it came back a little firmer, lips to lips. This melding to something deeper. Will's paw at Jacob's jaw coaxed open the canine's maw. Feline tongue slipped in his muzzle, across his tongue.

Will drew back, whispering, "Remember to breathe," another kiss, more tongue, more encouragement, "That's it..." kiss, "Just follow my lead..." Lips together again. Jacob's shaky little moan muffled by Will's mouth. An exchange of tongue. Jacob could not quite work his as well as Will's, but it was fine. He let himself relax into the kiss, working his lips in tandem with Will, letting him shift his head slightly so their lips might meet in new positions. Time passed sweetly, Jacob needing the occasional reminder to breathe as Will kissed him again and again.

Both of them were flush, lips wet by the time Will released him. He asked, "How was that?"

"I... kissing is good."

"Hahaha," Will nuzzled Jacob's cheek, purring. "I'm glad you like it, but..." a black paw squeezed Jacob's thigh, "there is more I want to show you."

"Will..." Jacob breathed. That paw slid deeper, digits pressing into his crotch. The bulge in his pants twitched at his caretaker's touch.

"Say my name again."

"Will--ah!" Jacob buried his head against Will's shoulder. He humped what little he could into Will's paw. The feline licked Jacob's neck, kissing hard so he felt it through his fur. Will started undoing Jacob's pants while he whined against the cat. Will had seen Jacob naked countless times during his work: helping Jacob bathe or get dressed, but this felt different. As his pants came undone, Will tugged them down to his thighs. Freed from their confines, a sharp musk permeated the air. The fur at his waist brightened to a copper that surrounded his sheath, which had swollen with need. Pouring halfway from his sheath was the spaded tip of his canine cock.

Will's whiskers twitched. "You smell pent up... it okay if I help with that?" He had this sultry smirk as he grabbed Jacob's sheath, giving it a little pump. More plump doggy dick slipped glistening into the air. Jacob could barely nod. A toothy smile, then Will's head descended. Feline tongue almost caused too much sensation. Jacob moaned, squirming a little in his chair, as the tongue dragged up the length of his shaft. That rough texture so bracing but so good at the same time. Will made eyes up at his partner as Jacob huffed. Will's tongue twirled once around his tip and out spat precum into the feline's waiting maw. Jacob watched, wide-eyed, as Will seemed to swirl the precum in his mouth before moaning.

Jacob huffed, feeling his knot already beginning to swell. He struggled to say, "Will... I d-don't know..."

"Don't hold back, Jacob," Will encouraged. "Let me taste you."

Jacob whined. His toes curled in his chair as Will took his cock in a wet, tight maw. Will sucked hard, tongue lashing across the top third of the doggy bone buried in his mouth. Jacob's orgasm continued building despite his best efforts. Efforts foiled when Will felt the building bulb in his sheath. Will tugged Jacob's sheath down, freeing the growing knot so he could grip it beneath that ballooning base. He squeezed and pulled, milking Jacob like an old pro, trying to make his paw mimic a tie.

Jacob's moan, weak and ragged, barely conveyed the feeling of the orgasm that crashed through him. His dick practically hurt with that tongue wriggling, that paw tugging. Jacob could not stop his balls from clenching, and all he heard in response was a happy little moan from Will. The feline stayed still, backing to just the tip in his muzzle, massaging that pulsing knot as hot spunk filled his maw. Until eventually Will's cheeks began to bulge a little. He released Jacob with a little gasp. He hadn't swallowed. Jacob expected him to go to the sink and spit it out, but no, the poor pup was yanked into a kiss. He cringed a little as Will suddenly shoved a mouthful of cum into his maw. It was bitter, salty and slimy, but not unpleasant, and the act itself was so lewd that Jacob simply moaned some more. He accepted the sperm shoveled into his mouth, Will scooping some globs back into his, some of Jacob's seed spilling out their lips. They kissed till they had nothing left to share, having swallowed all of the pent up load between them.

Will broke the kiss, panting. "It okay if..." he took a breath and rubbed his lips clean with his wrist, "Can I carry you to bed?"

Jacob lifted his arms. "Please."

Will scooped Jacob out of the chair, taking him in a bridal carry that ended with laying Jacob down in his bed. Quickly, without a word, Will undressed Jacob before throwing off his own shirt. Jacob feasted on the sight. His trim, athletic kitty standing over his bed with that lush fur shining in the bedroom light.

Jacob said the first words that came to his mind. "I want you inside me."

Will chuckled and bent over, kissing Jacob. "I want that, too," Will whispered before nosing him, "but that will have to wait." Jacob frowned as Will straightened back up, beginning to take off his pants. Will explained, "I want to do all the things with you, but penetration takes time and preparation. I admit I wasn't expecting to do this tonight or... ever, really."

Jacob propped himself up on his elbow. "Thank God I said something, then."

"Hehehe, yeah, we should both count our blessings."

"This means the world to me, Will, really I--"

"Hey, hey," Will said, hands on the waistband of his jeans, about to shuck them off, "You're not a charity case. This isn't make a wish. I'm doing all this cause I want you."

"I know, I just..."

Will silenced him with a finger to his lips. "You're beautiful, Jacob. Don't let anyone ever tell you different." He smirked and said, "I mean, look at me." He shoved down his pants and struck a little pose. "Someone this hot wouldn't just get with anyone."

Jacob laughed despite himself.

"Hey! I mean that. I'm at least an eight."

Jacob smiled. "I think you're a ten," he said as he took Will in. The feline's bottom half was coated in more of that soft, shiny fur. Athletic, a firm butt Jacob only saw when Will had posed, and between his legs... Well, the cat had a more than generous endowment. A heavy sheath twitched beneath a pair of balls twice as large as Jacob's, with the girthy, barbed tip peeking out and leaking precum from its tip.

For once, Will actually got flustered at the compliment. He scoffed. "Well, that's just silly. I'm only a nine on my best days--"

"Are you going to get in bed or not?"

"Shhhh." Will climbed into bed with Jacob, his larger body pressed up against Jacob's, so warm and soft. His scent, strong and masculine with the undertones of a cologne, put Jacob at ease despite his racing heart.

Will rested a paw on Jacob's waist and asked, "You doing okay?"

Jacob nodded. "So what are we going to do?"

"I'll show you." Gentle as ever with him, Will rolled onto his back, pulling Jacob on top of him. His muzzle rested on Will's collarbone, his cock, knot still flared, rubbed against the feline's firm abdomen, lost in that dark fur. On his balls he felt the pulse of Will's growing shaft.

"Comfy?" Will asked.

"Y-yeah," Jacob whispered.

"I thought we could take it easy tonight," Will said. His paws groped Jacob's butt. "Gonna show you how good simple frotting can be."

Hard cock pressed between soft fur and firm stomachs, Jacob had no doubt he would enjoy it, but he frowned. "Will you like it, though--"

Will said, "Just follow my motions, move in ways that feel good to you, and remember to breathe, okay?" Jacob licked his lips. He still tasted the remains of their lewd kiss.

"Okay."

Will squeezed Jacob and rolled his hips. Both males gasped. Fur, soft and warm and well groomed, turned out to be more than enough stimulation to get Jacob on edge. New heat flushed through his body, and his sensitive organ twitched against Will's stomach. Following his partner's lead, he started to roll his hips as well. Panting, quivering, he let Will do most of the work: his caretaker's strong body all he felt, its warmth and strength, muscles flexing as Jacob ground against him. He felt Will's cock quickly growing against his flesh. That hot organ matting Jacob's fur in precum, first his balls, then his sheath. He moaned when soft barbs brushed his knot. And Will still grew against him as their bodies rocked together.

All while Will whispered sweet encouragement like, "That's it... you're doing great, Jacob..." Jacob wasn't sure what he did aside from squirm and hump into Will's abdomen, but Will's cock continued to swell. It went past Jacob's knot, till a much thicker shaft slid against his doggy dick. Both leaking lengths made their fur slick across their bellies. Will huffed, his motions becoming less regular as he worked.

Jacob understood. All that soft fur sliding up against his shaft, filling in the gaps not getting rubbed by Will's slick heat, his barbs which were fuller, firmer. Will reached between them and squeezed their cocks together. Both males moaned, their motions getting more frantic. Jacob clung to Will, panting furiously, as his balls drew tight with another load. He whimpered and warned, "Will... I'm gonna..."

"Do it," Will breathed, "you're so good... Jacob, I want to feel it..."

"Oh God," Jacob whimpered, quaking as he came again. A fresh flood of doggy cum spilled between them, across Will's cock, into their fur. Will moaned, cursing, Jacob was surprised to feel his partner tense, then wet heat. More cum. Not from Jacob. Will was cumming, a font of seed spilling between them at their mutual orgasm. Jacob whimpered and squirmed, clutched to Will's chest as the feline continued to hump upwards. It was slow and sweet. Will released their shafts, and they slipped and slid messily against each other, smearing seed all across their bellies as they came. The release so sudden yet steady, and Will now stroking his back, kissing between his ears, whispering sweet nothings.

"You were so g-good, Jacob... thank you... thank you for sharing this with me... It's, mmph--" he quivered, cock jerking in a final, hard shot of cum, "wonderful..."

Jacob looked up and they kissed as if responding to some unspoken signal. This time Jacob managed to force his tongue into Will's maw, his partner moaning in response. Jacob tasted him and quivered, breathing fast through his nose. It was everything and so much more than he imagined. Tears sprang to his eyes, and he fought down the urge to cry as he let Will take control of the kiss.

When they finished, Will, stroking Jacob's cheek with his thumb, asked, "And how was that?"

"Amazing," Jacob said with a dopey smile. Was it too soon to say the L-word? To say he loved it--that Jacob might be in love with Will? For now, he savored how Will looked at him, so different than anyone else. If it wasn't love, the way they held each other's gaze, Jacob was not sure what it could be. Still, he chose not to ask what they might be yet. Instead opting for, "What do we do now?"

"Now, we need to shower," Will said with a soft smile. "Frotting is great, but really bad for our fur if we don't take care of the aftermath quickly."

"Heh, and after that?"

Will kissed him. "Then, maybe we can call my nursing agency and see if I can stay a few extra days this week? Just long enough to figure out what we want to do next?"

Feeling bold, Jacob asked again, "And after that?"

Will giggled. "I move in, become your full time caretaker."

"I hope that's not all you'll be."

Will scritched behind Jacob's ear, getting a rare tail wag from him. "I'll be your everything, Jacob. Long as you promise to take care of me, too."

Trembling a little with some cocktail of joy he never knew before, Jacob answered Will with another kiss.