Growing Up Gay in High School - Book 1: Freshman Year - Chapter 11
Hey, all. Here is the 11th chapter. Enjoy.
A month had passed since Colin and I had our little show in the school. And honestly, it went a lot smoother than I had thought. Honestly, most people were surprising to me. Most just came and said they weren't surprised and that they didn't care. Others had said that they weren't surprised. That they had expected it. I was honestly kind of surprised again. Then again, I would always say that I can be easily read. I guess that still hasn't changed, even in high school.
And thankfully, Colin and I haven't shown as much PDA as I had expected. An occasional hug and a rare kiss here and there. I was honestly expecting Colin to be all over me with his constant pushing that he was doing. I should have done this sooner. We would have never strained our relationship as much as we had if Colin had told me this sooner. But maybe Colin was doing this on purpose just for my sake. I couldn't complain. Eventually I'd probably be more open with him and show more PDA.
Rory still didn't know. I still couldn't build up the courage to tell him yet. Word thankfully hadn't traveled outside of high school. I'll eventually tell him.
I was currently at Joe's house. I was explaining this all to him. He just sat there and nodded and listened to me as I kept telling him this. I felt like I was repeating myself. No, I didn't feel it, I knew I was repeating myself. However, Joe didn't care. He just kept listening. I will never get rid of it.
"You sound like you're complaining." He said finally, smiling.
"No, not at all. Just you're a good person to talk to." I said, punching him to the best of my ability. Of course, it didn't phase him.
We sat and chilled, played some games here and there, and kept talking about different things. I finally decide to bring up his love life.
"What about you? Who are you interested in?" I asked.
He paused for a second. It was very quick, but it was just enough to be noticeable.
"Sore subject?" I asked.
He sighed a little bit.
"You could say that." He said slowly.
I tilted my head to the side. Interesting. It just dawned on me that Joe really had never brought it up. Usually guys do talk about these things. Maybe it really was a sore subject. I decided to just leave it alone and not bring it up again. When he's ready, he'll talk about it.
The rest of the weekend went by fairly smoothly. I could complain. I didn't get to see Colin at all this weekend, and I was pretty sad about that. However, I was able to at least talk to him Sunday night on the computer. We started talking on AIM, just talking about how our weekend went. He had to do a ton of things with his parents, and actually did some clothes shopping as well. He explained some of the things he bought and I was definitely looking forward to seeing him wear some of these clothes he was describing to me. However, his next IM was definitely interesting.
Colin: Want to webcam it up? ;)
I smirked at the idea. I thought this would be very interesting. Hell, I didn't get any this weekend, might as well.
Me: Sure, what the hell.
We decided to get on a different program since AIM had terrible web cam program. Unfortunately, my web came wasn't working for some odd reason. After 20 minutes of fidgeting, I still couldn't get it to work. Colin's was working fine. Of course, I had the issues.
Me: Well, I can't say that I would mind. ;)
Colin: You got it, babe.
Colin backed up slowly until he was in full, and able to make things out, view. I thought he was going to start stripping but he came back up to the computer and seemed like he was doing something.
Me: What are you doing?
Colin: You'll see.
After a few minutes, Colin did one final click that I heard and then music started playing. It was a great grinding song that I was very familiar with. I smiled. I increased my font so Colin could see from where he was standing.
Me: NICE
I could see Colin smile, seeing brief glimpses of his white teeth. He began to dance around, slowly moving his hips back and forth, lifting his shirt slightly so you could see his underwear. I already started getting hard just by the site of it and the site I would soon be able to see.
Colin came back around, now facing me, with his eyes closed, still swaying slowly from side to side. He lifted his shirt up more, revealing his abs now.
"You like what you see?" he said through the computer.
"Oh God yes." I said aloud, but then realized him couldn't hear me, so I typed it with one hand as I was massaging my sac with the other.
Luke lay on his bed, thinking heavily.
"Shit." He said out loud.
That's pretty much what he said for awhile. He didn't text Ty or Colin at all. He kept replaying in his head what he had said to each person, and what had happened at the school on that horrible day. He was trying to figure out where he had gone wrong on those days. And he couldn't figure it out and whenever he hit a dead end, he said that same word again and again. Also, he would say it whenever he tried to figure out how he was going to proceed with this. He had to think of something to break this up. But now that Ty came open with the school, that really changed the game. The ball was officially in his court now. He had to think of a new plan.
Well, what if he didn't? No, he didn't. He knew what he was going to do. He was going to wait. Someone else he was very interested in was soon going to be his top priority now.
I was fully hard now and my shorts were getting a little tight, despite the fact that they were loose. I turned around and took a look at my door. It was closed, so that was one less thing I had to worry about. I took off my shorts and began jerking off slowly.
Me: I'm jerking off already. ;)
Colin smiled again, "Give me a chance to catch up." I heard through the computer.
He took off his shirt and pulled off his pants, now in his underwear, he continued to dance. The song had already changed and was onto one I had not recognized. None the less, it still definitely set the mood.
"I love this song." Colin said.
He moved slowly, squatting down and then coming back up, as if he was along a pole. It kind of disturbed me how good Colin was at this, but then again, I didn't mind the show at all and just decided to go with it. Colin took off his underwear and his nice cock bounced in the air. It glistened in the little light that was in Colin's room so I could tell it already had some pre on it. He began jerking it slowly. The motion of my jerks where much quicker. I was could've came right now if I had wanted to, but I decided to control myself.
Me: You look so hot.
"Why thank you."
Another song, had come on, but this time, the beat of this song was a little more upbeat. And after that song had some on, Colin began increasing his pace.
Rory walked down the hall towards Ty's room. He needed some help with his math homework and he knew Ty would help him. He knew it was late but got caught up with a paper that he had to write before he had a chance to finish his math. He walked towards the door and before he knocked he heard music playing. It kind of sounded like porno music. Rory laughed to himself. He leaned against the door, hoping to at least hear something to get him a little excited to. Unfortunately, he couldn't. Didn't hear any moans, nothing. However, he did hear the "tap tap tap" like Ty was jerking off, and it wasn't that slow either.
"What the hell is he watching that has music and no moaning?" he thought out loud.
He leaned closer in the door, trying to figure out what was going on. He heard Ty panting. He obviously was getting close. The music had started to pick up. Interesting. Then Rory heard Ty said something that explained it all.
"Yea Colin, cum all over yourself. Cover yourself with your hot seed."
Rory froze. He couldn't believe it. Wait, scratch that. He couldn't believe it at first. But then in the next thought, to him, it started to make sense. He was right. Ty and Colin constantly hanging out, not really hanging out with too many other people. He smiled to himself, but then felt slightly disappointed. He was surprised Ty hadn't told him, especially when he explicitly asked Ty if Colin and him were more than just friends awhile ago. But then again, he had to be understanding. Coming out clean about something like that wasn't easy, especially with parents like theirs. He knew that when Ty was ready, he would tell him, no matter how long it took.
Rory had decided to try to figure out the math on his own. He walked away from the door, but as he did, a thought came to him. A small thought, very brief and it was just for a quick second before he went on thinking about how he was going to do this math homework. He actually really couldn't believe that this thought had come across his mind. He actually, for a brief second, kind of wanted to see, and possibly enjoy, what Ty was looking at.
The song had changed again. This time it was really fast. It finally had dawned on me. The pace that Colin pleasured himself was based on the song that he played. That was smart. Got to give Colin credit on that. Now, Colin picked up his jerking pace and came back up and took a seat on his chair and just leaned back, jerking his cock rapidly. I started panting. I was getting close.
"I'm getting close." Colin's voice said through my computer.
"Yea Colin, cum all over yourself." I replied out loud, again mentally hitting myself for saying it, despite the fact Colin couldn't hear me. I typed it out for me.
"Yea baby, you got it." Colin panted out as he began to convulse a little bit, jerking his cock hard as his cum began to spray over his stomach, actually hitting his chest towards his neck.
It put me over the edge. I shot my load all over myself, getting it all over my clothes as well.
Me: That was a fantastic. I'm such a mess. ;p
"I wish I could see it." Colin said.
Me: Sorry. :(
"It's alright." He got up from his chair after about a minute of catching his breath and grabbed a towel to clean himself. He ran it along his chest and abs. I actually started to get turned on by this again. I was just enveloped by him. I decided to control myself and realized I need to clean myself. I wiped what I could off of myself and realized that my shirt wasn't going to be the same. I wiped what I could without making it obvious and then put the shirt away, putting on another clean one. I sat back down and realized that Colin was fully dressed now as well. He started timing again.
Me: That was great.
Colin: Glad you liked it. ;)
Me: Well, it's getting late, and we got school tomorrow so I'm going to get off.
Colin: Alright, sounds good, babe, I'll ttyl.
Me: Alright.
I signed off and turned around and then a knock came on and Rory came in.
"Hey can you help me with math?" he said.
"Yea, sure bro." I responded, actually a little intrigued at his timing.
I barely woke up the following morning and dragged myself out of bed. I had realized the furre by my belly button was hard from dried cum. Well, that gave me the cue that I need to definitely take a shower. I set the water to the right temperature and hopped in, taking my time. I obviously couldn't take too much time otherwise I'd start to run late. My memory started to relay Colin's actions from last night and I, of course, started to get a hard on. I decided to take a classic route and turned the shower on cold to calm myself.
When I was set and ready to go, I got out of the shower and got dressed as normal, and headed downstairs. I ate breakfast with my mom and my brother and yawned again.
"Were you up late last night?" my mom was talking to me.
"Yea, he was helping me with my homework." Rory said quickly.
"Oh I see I see. Are you doing alright Rory? Do you need extra help?" my asked in her concerned tone.
"No no no. This was just a difficult concept that I knew Ty could help me with and I heard him up so I decided to see if he could help me."
I stopped for a second and my fork scraped on my plate. Shit. He heard me up? What the fuck is that supposed to mean? Did he hear me? Wow, that was a dumb question. He said that he heard me. The question he heard was what exactly did he hear? The music that was playing. Maybe that was what gave it away that I was up. But, I did get pretty loud when I got towards the end. And he did walk in pretty much right after I was done. And I said Colin's name. Fuck, he heard me. I can guarantee it. Crap. Well, I was busted, might as well tell him the truth.
I had noticed that I was finished after I was stabbing my fork at nothing. I also noticed that Rory was finished as well. I decided might as well tell him in private. I took a look at the clock. Plenty of time. Perfect.
"Rory, wanna walk to school? Nice day and we got the time." I started to get up and head towards my backpack.
"Sure, sounds good." Rory responded, putting his plate away and grabbed his backpack.
We headed down the door, and after we were block away from the house. I started.
"We need to talk."
Luke got up Monday morning with a smile on his face. He got dressed normally, ate, and also had decided to walk to school. It was such a gorgeous day, he didn't want to waste any time though around the house. He did live a good distance away and he didn't want to rush on the way there. He picked up his backpack and headed out. He took a look at the sky and inhaled the air. He did have a sense of disappointment in his conscious. He really did want to be with Colin. He loved that body of his and just his cute face. He just let it go.
"Next year." He said aloud.
Joe got up slowly out of bed and rubbed his eyes. He sighed. He thought about Ty for a second. He was really happy for him that he had found someone but he wanted to find someone for himself. Sure, he had interest, asked a few out, but never got much action and wanted to build a decent relationship.
He got dressed normally, at breakfast with his family, and decided that he wanted to walk to school today. Give him a chance to figure out what exactly he wanted and how he was going to get what he wanted.
He played back different encounters with women throughout his freshman year, and all ended up in disappointment. However, he then though, Ty being gay and all, he would be able to hook up with plenty of girls. As stereotypical as that may sound, he believed that that would be the case. He decided that he would wait.
"Next year." He said out loud.
"I'm listening." Rory finally said. No conversation had been said since my last statement and it was getting to the point where we had to split off.
"Just thinking of the right way to put this...." I said slowly.
"Well, hurry up! Just tell me you're gay and you're dating Colin already." He said.
At first, that somewhat stopped me in my tracks. I was surprised that Rory was so blunt. But then again, it seems he already was well aware of the situation and he just needed that confirmation that it was really true.
"Well, not the exact way I would've said it, but you practically took the words out of my mouth." I finally responded.
Rory sighed slowly.
"I get it that that is not something that is easily discussed, but I'm your brother. You're younger brother, none the less. I'm not like an older one that could turn around and start calling you a faggot. I look up to you. You know that. And yea, it's not a pathway I probably wouldn't choose, but I'm cool with you. Now, as for mom and dad, I can't speak for them, especially dad, but I'm sure you're well aware of it. Now I guess my last question is, why did you wait so long to tell me? I'm probably the one person that you could really trust. Granted, yea, not an easy thing to just come out and talk about, but you did not become gay overnight, you had plenty of time."
I was speechless and flooded with guilt. Once again, Rory's choices of words were exactly right. And I couldn't give a reason. I had no excuse. I should've told him. He just kept going.
"And I asked you. I ASKED YOU and you straight out lied to my face and told me there was nothing. I could've covered for you, helped you out with mom and dad but that's going to take some time to rebuild the want to do that now. I feel like I had no reason to now."
I was started to get ticked now. Yea, I get it, I fucked up, but come on.
"Alright, I get it! Damn Rory, yea, I fucked up. I should've told you sooner. But regardless, you found out, not in the best way, but you did. Cut me some slack. I'll eventually need help with mom and dad too and you, and probably Colin and Joe, are going to be the few people that are going to be able to back me up."
I could tell Rory had winced slightly when I had mentioned Joe's name. I'll cover it up.
"I haven't told Joe yet, but I plan to in the near future." I assured quickly.
He relaxed. We approached the area were we had to diver and I stopped and give him a hug.
"Come on little bro, cut me some slack. You know now, and I'm glad that you know, because now I can be more open with you as well, and eventually you'll have my back when I have to confront mom and dad." I smiled.
He smiled back and nodded.
"You got it."
With that, we drifted apart and I headed towards school. I took a look at the time and saw that I had a text from Colin just seeing where I was. I was running late. We were walking slower due to the conversation we had had. I told him I'd explain when I got there.
Rory walked towards school, pondering what Ty and him had talked about. He was happy for his big bro, that he was finally able to be proud of his sexuality and not have to hide and consistently cover it up. At that moment, another thought had occurred to him. One similar to the one that he thought of the other night we he caught Ty jacking off to whatever Colin was doing on the computer. At first, he was hoping that Ty would confront mom and dad soon, possibly next year. Because, as much as he tried to deny it, he thinks he would not only have to back Ty up, he thinks would have to confront them for the same reason.
"Next year." He said out loud.
I walked into school and went around to find Colin. In the process, I walked into a guy, hard, and knocked out the binder and notebook I was holding. A few papers went flying. I was just about to start picking them out when I heard him say,
"Fucking faggot."
My heart sank. Great. I was doing so well for awhile. Well, I guess I should have expected this coming. I guess it just didn't happen for so long that I had developed this false hope that everything was going to be fine and dandy. I finished up picking up what had fallen and organizing them to the best of my ability, only to have the bell ring.
"Shit, going to be late." I groaned.
I ran to my locker, got what I needed, and put away the stuff that I didn't and ran to my class that Colin was in as well and took seat, trying to make the least amount of noise. Of course, everyone stared at me when I first walked in, some of them giving some harsh glares.
"What happened?" Colin mouthed.
I sighed.
"A lot." I mouthed back.
Colin mouthed a later and I nodded and we paid attention for the rest of the lecture. Throughout the lecture, people where whispering to each other and then staring at Colin and I periodically throughout their conversations. Shit. It's started.
"Next year's going to be interesting..." I thought out loud as the bell rung and everyone walked out, some staring at us one last time and starting to talk again, I can just imagine what they were talking about.
Well, here you go. Hope you guys liked it. School is starting and with work, I'm probably not going to be able to produce as quickly more chapters so I'm setting this as the penultimate chapter. I end this book before the holiday and begin the second one around then. Stay tuned and of course, thanks for reading! :)