Brothers in Each Other's Arms
Since my last two submissions got such great reception, I finally got my ass in gear and finished up another one. Again, it's a glorified RP log, but I think it's an interesting way to tell a story. This one's a bit longer, and I couldn't find a good place to break it up, but if you DO take the time to read this entire thing, comments are always appreciated. Again, the co-author of this story (and "Demise of a Knight") still chooses to remain anonymous. Please enjoy a story I call...
Brothers in Each Other's Arms
Sael was glad to be back on his home soil. He knew his little brother would be on the way to pick him up. School was still in session, so he'd have to leave after his class. He got back to his house and opened the door, letting light fill the untouched residence. He shuffled in, leaving the door open to clear out the stale air. He dropped the duffel bag on the floor in the living room, and plopped down on his couch.
He instinctively fished through his pockets for a smoke. Fag in hand; he remembered he couldn't smoke inside his housing. With a grunt, he walked back out the front door and put it in his muzzle, lighting it with a steel lighter his little brother bought him from some teen gift shop. The lighter always made him smile, as it reminded him of his little brother, whom he missed every day while he was overseas. Smoke poured out.
Ryan was sick of it. Sick of school, sick of life, and sick of the pressure. He knew getting good grades was important, and he did maintain passing grades, but it was torture. Yet every time he thought of throwing up his hands and leaving, he thought of his brother Sael. It was for him he stayed in school. Sael never made it, but Ryan could. He didn't want to live in a little house with his father, so he stayed in school.
Get a diploma, get a job, and move up in the world: that is what Ryan always told himself. Sael risked his life to give Ryan the opportunity to do that, and Ryan felt that it was his obligation to do it the academic way and stay in school. And he did. But today was the day that big brother was home, and he couldn't be happier. Driving up, and seeing a lone figure with a lit end of a cig, he knew exactly who it was. A smile curved along Ryan's face.
Sael took in a deep inhale, huffing it out quickly and put out the cigarette in the ashtray on the porch. He hated smoking around his little brother; he wanted to be a better example. Then again, his little brother knew he smoked. Hell that's why he had the lighter in the first place. He smiled and waved as the car pulled up. He stepped down the two steps on the porch and walked toward the car to greet him. When the car door opened he shouted his hail, "Hey kid!" He smiled warmly and opened his arms, waiting for the little Canadian lynx to run into his arms.
Ryan bounded out of the old sedan and jumped to the large, familiar, comforting figure before him. "Big brother!" He called out. It was a cheesy term, but an endearing one all the same. Throwing his arms around his brother's waist, he nuzzled the standard fatigues that his brother wore. "I missed you so much!" It felt like Christmas in July, to see him again.
Sael giggled as he felt Ryan purring into his neck, hugging him tight. "I missed you too li'l bro! Come inside, I'm sure Dad won't mind if you stay the night tonight."
Technically, Ryan stayed with their father, but relations were not the best. Their parents broke up, and the mother was supposed to get custody but she then disappeared, leaving custody to their father, who was hardly fit. Their relationship with him was rarely amicable, and for as far as Sael could see, Ryan was living on his own with his father's money. Ever since he got his license, Ryan would pick up groceries and feed himself, using the money his father had to give him. But when Sael was home, they spent as much time away from their father as possible.
Ryan grinned ear to ear. "Alright." He walked in ahead of his brother, with a bounce in his tail and a perk in his ears. He was so happy to see his brother again, but a little unsure of what to say. He didn't want to ask about Sael's line of work, for fear of bringing up things he didn't want to talk about, but asking "how have you been" or the like seemed far too shallow. He stood in front of the couch, meaning to sit down, but instead was only able to look at his older brother and say, "So, uhh... It's really great to see you again." Ryan mentally facepalmed
"It's great to see you too! I don't have any food yet, so how 'bout we go grab some burgers?" Sael smiled warmly. He loved taking his brother out for treats. He knew his brother wanted to talk more, and conversation would surely come. But for now, Sael was just happy to have someone he could be with, and let his guard down. Well, mostly. He still couldn't let anyone find out about his sexuality. But hey, he was in the army: trained to be in the closet. The last thing he could do was let his brother down.
Ryan never lost his smile "Awesome" He loved going out with his big brother for treats, shopping, or just about anything, really. Just being alone with his brother made Ryan feel happy. Some nights, or even days, he would dream about a warm summer night where the two of them would stargaze, where he would be nestled protectively and lovingly in his brother's arms. Of course, that was a far off fantasy, one he would never dream of being realistic. Ryan was just hopelessly romantic like that. He pulled out his keys. "You want to drive, or should I?"
"I wanna see how well you can drive! Besides, I prolly ain't fit to drive!" He laughed and headed back outside with his brother tagging behind him, closing the door again, not bothering to lock it. "When'd you get your license?" He was proud of his brother, and he allowed it showed in his voice.
The younger lynx chuckled. "Wasn't too long ago. It's made life a whole lot easier, though Dad wasn't any help..." Ryan got into the car and turned the key. He watched his brother get in, but realized he left too much emphasis on his last statement. He didn't know what to do to remedy it. Pulling out of the driveway, Ryan set a course for the nearest burger joint. "So... eh, what's going on with you? Anything major?"
The older lynx spat under his breath, "Yeah, Dad would fuck shit up huh?" His brother looked at him oddly. "Sorry..." he regained his thoughts; "I think I might get a promotion soon! It's not certain, but I'm certainly working my way there!" He actually had little hope of it, but it _was_something to look forward to.
"So how's school?" He smiled, and gave his little brother a scratch behind the ear like he used to do when the boy was much younger.
A few years ago, Ryan might've growled at his brother for such a gesture, or even swatted the paw away, but now he savored the affectionate touch. He even purred under his breath. He silently wished his brother would give more than just a little scritch, but he'd still savored it. "Oh, yeah its... uhhh... okay I guess. I mean, between classes and friends I'm pretty busy..."
Ryan bit his lip for a second of silence, debating whether to hold his true feelings in. He decided to unload a bit on his brother, for his own sanity. "Okay, it's hell." He sighed, "I really do hate it. I'm taking classes that are too hard, the teachers are full of shit, and some of my friends seem to avoid me ever since I came..." Ryan managed to bite his loose tongue before he accidentally outed himself to his brother
SHIT!" he thought
"Awww, widdle Ryan have his fiwst o'gasm?" Sael teased, laughing off the joke. "Came where?" The idea that his younger brother was gay was completely alien to him. He knew HE was gay, but he never saw his brother as such. Especially not since he heard Ryan dated a girl a year or two ago. Sael never dated a girl; his sexuality should've been obvious to anyone. Or at least he thought so. "Ryan?"
The younger lynx focused on the road, because he knew if he became caught up in the torrent going through his brain, he might swerve off the road. Swallowing hard, Ryan decided he could trust the person he cared about the most with his deepest secret. "Uhhhh... umm. Yeah..." His pulse was pounding like a hammer in his head. His face was on fire. "I know I never told you, and I hope you don't think of me differently..."
Ryan _prayed _his brother wouldn't think of him differently.
"I'm still the younger brother you've always known... but..." Ryan took a steadying breath, his heart beating far faster than it should. "I found out that I was gay a little while ago. Like last year." Ryan bit his lip hard, preparing for the worst
The older lynx's eyes shot open. His little brother was gay? Ryan was gay TOO? He didn't know what to say. He wanted to tell his younger brother, 'It's okay, I am too,' but then he realized: his younger brother had already accepted it. Before he did. Sael was still grappling with it. He didn't want to be gay. He didn't want his only real family to look down on him for it. He had fought so long and so hard. But here it was.
He was too paralyzed. He couldn't say anything. The ride was silent all the way to the burger joint. When they pulled up to order, Sael tried changing the mood completely, going back to the brotherly reunion that had warmed his heart earlier. "You remember what I like?"
Ryan nodded. It seemed like decades to drive those few miles in silence. He was terrified that his brother didn't know how to handle it. He was scared that the person he looked up to the most would never be able to look at him the same again. Or that Sael would hate him. Driving up to the drive through speaker, a bored attendant squawked something through to him. Without thinking, Ryan ordered the same thing that his brother and he had always ordered for years. He didn't even need to think about it, which was fortunate, since his entire mind was whirling with worst-case scenarios. He pulled up to the next window and took the food, passing his brother his burger.
But Ryan couldn't hear a thing. He simply sat there, trying to get sound out of his throat, but he felt more likely to throw up. Emotions began taking over everything, shutting him down. He managed to pull into a nearby parking space before breaking down into tears. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..." He managed to get out between sobs. He couldn't bear to look at his brother.
Sael immediately threw his arms around his little brother. It was a quick, knee-jerk reaction. He wasn't just comforting his brother, he was comforting another gay cat in this homophobic world. "Ryan, don't apologize. I--" He choked.
"I know. I'm--... I'm gay too." He whispered his confession; surprised he was able to say it out loud at all. It was the first time he ever said it. He not only came out to his younger brother in that moment, but to himself as well. "I'm gay too." His eyes swelled with tears.
He was finally coming out. He was finally accepting who he was. Finally, after all this time of internal, pent-up torture, he was speaking his name, his truth. Had the army not whipped him for emotional discipline, he would have cried right there.
It took Ryan several seconds to realize what had happened, and what was happening. His brother's arms were around him. Ryan started with that much. The younger lynx brought his paws up to his big brother's arm and held it there. His brother's face had tears matting down the fur beneath his eyes. His GAY brother. In any other situation, Ryan would've thought his big brother was joking around, but the raw, palpable emotion denied any possiblility silliness. The cheap fast-food paper bag slid to the floor, no longer important to either of them. The tears on the young brother's face turned from ones of emotional trauma, to ones of love and overwhelming joy. This was impossible. It was unreal. It made his heart throb. It gave Ryan solace and comfort.
Ryan nuzzled his brother's muzzle. "It's alright" he found it ironic that it was he who was saying those words, but it was apparent that comfort in this situation had to come from both of them
Sael held his brother, not knowing what to do. He was gay. And he knew his first gay acquaintance--friend. No, he was his brother. The one person he could already trust everything else in the world to. He could trust this. He could trust his brother with anything, everything. He gave the younger lynx a nuzz, their tears mixing on their dampened cheeks.
"I love you, Ryan. You're the best little brother any standing creature could ever ask for."
Ryan held his older brother tighter and closer, pressing his mouth against his brother's shoulder to keep himself from sobbing. "I love you" He said, words muffled. "Thank you." It was wonderful, impossibly wonderful. He should be happy. Both of us should, Ryan thought to himself. But there was so much emotion between the two brothers. So much love, and now it was all coming out, flowing in their tears. Resting his chin on his big brother's shoulder, Ryan waited until his breathing became more steady. "I love you" He whispered, like a secret powerful enough to change worlds
Sael let go of his brother after their emotional outpouring. He looked at his brother in the eyes with a smile, "Come on, our food's getting cold. Let's go home." He grinned and let his brother drive back to the house on base. The rest of the ride back was silent. No one said anything until they got inside, the door closing behind them. Food in hand, Sael set the bags down on the coffee table, sliding his duffel bag to the floor. He sat down on the couch and turned on the television, not knowing any of the channels from having been gone so long.
"Do you want to put in a movie or somethin'?" He asked Ryan. He wasn't too interested in watching anything, he knew Ryan had seen everything. He just wanted to enjoy the comfort and newfound safety in his brother's company.
Ryan simply shook his head. All he wanted right now was to be in his brother's arms. He slid onto the couch, with practically no space between him and the older lynx. His brother's shoulder was a perfect place to rest his head, even if he wasn't too interested in watching TV. The revelations that had just transpired kept zipping through his mind, triggering other segways of thought. He Ryan found himself tensing up. He had to remind himself to take a deep breath. He cuddled closer to his brother, the proximity to his sibling bringing a little more peace to Ryan's mind.
Sael couldn't even eat. He put his arm around his brother and held him close. He felt like he had to apologize. "I'm so sorry. You--. You know how Dad is. I was scared. Then I went into the army, and it's so... well, you don't want to know what it's like. But you..." He smiled, his lips planted between his little brother's ears, talking softly. "I'm proud of you. I still haven't... can't... come out. You're awesome little bro."
Just hearing words of congratulations from his older brother sent a shiver of joy though Ryan. But to hear his brother say he 'couldn't come out' tore at Ryan's heart. He felt he needed to do something. "'s alright," Ryan whispered, cuddling ever closer to Sael. "It's hard. It's really hard. Dad doesn't know about me, and well, school..." Ryan shook his head to get some painful thoughts out of his mind. But he was with his brother now, and it was time for everything else in the world to take a backseat. Ryan was more than close enough to smell his brother's natural scent. For some reason, he never found it offensive. Perhaps it was because it was so much like his own.
Sael unabashedly kissed his little brother between the ears. They were all each other had. "Heh, if you want I can show you some of my porn." He smiled, lightening the mood of the evening. He cared so much about his brother, but their time was limited. They were 'expected' to be back home tomorrow evening. They only had tonight to be themselves without Dad around.
Ryan's mouth turned upwards as his older brother's lips met his head, his ears happily twitching. He leaned back into his brother's lap and looked up at the older lynx. "I wish we had more time to spend together big brother." Ryan's paw reached up to his brother's cheek, and Sael happily nuzzled it. They enjoyed a few moments of lying there.
"Really? You've got gay porn?" Asked Ryan, curiosity getting the better of him.
"Come on," laughed Sael, "how do you think I've known for so long? You're sixteen I know you've seen porn! I got my paws on my first mag at fifteen."The older lynx was grinning at his younger brother, then stood up, the smaller cat being pushed from his lap. He went into the video stack and pulled out unlabeled tapes, and held one up. "Sound good?"
"Uhhh... wait... is that a movie, or porn? Ryan righted himself, already feeling pressure in his pants. Curse you, teenage horniness, he thought.
The older lynx stuck out his tongue between his teeth mischievously, and popped in the tape into the old VCR. He then sat back down on the couch next to his little brother--his first and only gay friend--and let the video start playing on the screen. It was already set past the title screens and there were already two naked cheetahs on the screen. Their paws fondled one another as they licked each other's muzzles.
Ryan could physically feel his heart skip a beat, as fantasies of his darkest dreams rolled past his eyes in beautiful, low-fi television. He squirmed a little on the couch, trying to relieve some of the pleasurable pressure on his pants. Ryan realized his brother was watching him, and his cheeks burned red. His brother snickered, but it was the kind that made Ryan chuckle too. He realized his brother had the same pitched tent that he did. It was strange, but the fact that he was seeing his brother in a sexual light didn't disturb Ryan at all. In fact, Ryan could swear it was making him even hotter. He scooted closer to his big brother absentmindedly putting a hand over his crotch, as a very twinky mouse was being violated on both ends by the pair of cheetah boys.
Sael realized just how long it'd been since he had been able to indulge in pornography. He was almost ashamed of his erection. It couldn't just be the porn; he's seen this plenty of times. No, it was his brother's touch making his heart pump faster. His mind ached with fear of breaching such a taboo, his heart ached with love for his brother, and his erection ached for orgasm. When Ryan's paw went over his young tent, Sael's mind raced. And broke.
"Hey, we're brothers. We can jack off together and it not be bad, right?"
For a moment, mental gears clicked, but failed to move. It wasn't that he thought badly of the idea. In fact, the idea turned him wildly on just to think about it. But it seemed like one of those hopelessly romantic (and dirty) scenes that so often played in his head. He couldn't imagine it actually happening to him. He swallowed, and finally managed to get out the words, "oh yeah, sure"
"Besides, I hate these B.D.U.s" The lynx laughed and got undressed in front of his brother. It wasn't too unusual; they had seen each other naked before. But the context was different, and the erection was quite new. He sat on the couch in nothing but his boxers, his erection standing through the slit on the front. He felt slightly uncomfortable, but he really wanted to fap, and he wasn't sure what gay friends did together. But he was comfortable with his brother. The paradox swelled in his head, but it was too late to stop it now. His little brother was stealing glances and trying to avoid looking at Sael's throbbing erection.
It was just... so irresistible. His big brother's cock was right there. And it was an impressive one at that. Ryan felt his erection get painfully hard. He yearned to satisfy it, to give it the attention he craved, not just fondle it through his pants. So Ryan courageously stood up, whipped off his belt, pushed down his pants and freed his lynxhood. It felt so good, having it freed and in the open. Even if he had accidentally dropped his boxers in the process. But Ryan didn't care. He was proud of his ass and not insecure about his size. He didn't mind if his brother stared, it made him feel good
"I'm surprised you don't have boys all over your ass already." The older lynx teased, giving his brother a wink, taking his own member in a paw, gripping it idly.
Ryan definitely wasn't insecure about himself! He licked his lips, seeing his older brother holding his cock. The younger brother did the same, slowly caressing his own, glancing between the lusty tiger fucking the cheetah boy on the TV, and his brother's almost naked body. He could smell his own musk, the familiar, comforting scent that reminded him of sex. But there was now a new scent, one that was equally intoxicating, and also spoke of sex. Ryan looked to Sael again. He wanted to be on top of that body so badly... so much... he didn't know exactly why, but he wanted his brother more than anything else in the world, and all Ryan wanted to do, was to share a deep, intimate moment with him. Ryan was right up against his brother, and he slowly wrapped a leg around his brother's, little by little
Sael was also relaxing on the couch as he let his hormones take control. When Ryan's leg was draped over his own, both of them reclined with their legs apart, Sael's mind went a direction he hadn't anticipated. He shook it away and continued fixing his gaze on the screen. He put his free paw on his brother's leg, caressing his brother's thigh gently.
Ryan gasped at his brother's touch. It sent a wave of previously unknown pleasure through him like a pulse of electricity. He knew what this bordered on. Ryan knew this was getting incredibly sketchy, even for gay brothers who loved each other as much as they did. But Ryan didn't care. He just silently begged for his brother to move his paw a little farther up his leg, a little closer to his crotch, to perhaps just brush against his genitals, just for a brief second. He craved it, like a wild beast.
Ryan slyly slid his paw onto his brother's thigh, gently caressing it, mirroring his brother's actions. He inched his paw up his brother's leg, eventually brushing against his genitalia, just to test the waters between them, but yearning to do so much more.
The older lynx blinked and then smirked, "Don'tcha know?" He let go of his own erection and turned towards his brother, exaggeratingly sliding both paws up his little brother's thighs, cupping the young balls in a paw. "Never play Gay Chicken with a faggot." He winked playfully. It was a dance, sensuality in the disguise of a dare, love disguised as competition. In the back of his mind, he wanted it without the masks. But his loneliness and arousal were getting what they wanted. And Sael already had what he wanted: his brother.
Ryan squirmed and bucked forward, tongue hanging out of an open mouth. It was incredible. He had never felt a lover's touch before, and the stimulation, combined with the prolonged stimulation, was mind-blowing. He could hardly contain himself anymore. Soon enough, he knew he would let go, and throw himself at his brother. But he tried his hardest to not let the feral side take over. Not yet. Staring deep into his brother's eyes, Ryan took his brother's paws in his, and placed them over his needy shaft, already tipped with pre, and over his sac. Ryan then proceeded to place his paws over his big brother's male equipment, softly fondling the big, throbbing erection. "That feels... so... yes"
The masks were ripped off as he stared into his brother's eyes. No. This wasn't lust.
Sael reached up and held his brother's face, staring into his eyes. He tried to form words. He tried to speak. This wasn't right? No, that wasn't even a question. He couldn't form the idea of how wrong this was. But this was the one thing in the world that was right. The contradiction of everything he had ever known was looming over him. His love of his brother, lust for sensuality, fear of violating the taboo, care for protecting his brother, and bliss of making his brother happy all swirled around and within him in a torrential storm of paradox. He wanted to say something to make it work, to make it right, to understand what was happening.
But instead he leaned in, and pressed his muzzle against Ryan's. He closed his eyes and slipped his tongue into the young lips.
In the porno going on behind them, the kiss between panther and a wolf went unnoticed. Ryan accepted the tongue within his mouth quite eagerly, responding by closing his lips around it, and pushing through a tongue of his own. He knew not why the mental blocks of "whoa, you're kissing your brother" didn't come up, but he hardly cared anyway. This felt too good. The paws on his cheeks, the tongue in his mouth, and the feeling of being truly, unequivocally loved lifted his spirit up, and took flight. Soaring though the air with his big brother: the one true friend, companion, and now lover, in Ryan's life. Nothing else mattered. Nothing else existed. Not the world, not its social rules, and not its cruel face. It was just the two of them, lost in each other's love.
The Canadian lynx pulled his younger brother on top of him, tongues dancing together in their muzzles, gasps for breath and moans accentuating their waltz. After the kiss ended, Sael grabbed the remote and stopped the film, turning off the television. He looked at his brother, not sure of what to say. 'I love you,' came to mind, but the words were so meaningless now. That was beyond obvious. That's what this was. Sael loved Ryan. He lifted his brother, and stood up, and carried his young lover, the boy's legs wrapped around his waist, arms clinging to one another. With the strength of a soldier, the lynx carried his brother into his bedroom, laying him on the bed and crawling on top of him, tongue meeting the small lynx's sensitive neck in a kiss. Words failed. This was their new language.
It was all about the flick of a tongue, the wriggle of the paws, the movement of one's body when going through the motions. Wrapping his arms around his brother, Ryan grinded their erections together. Every inch of Ryan's body called out for love, for attention, for his brother, for his lover. As teeth passed over his exposed neck, Ryan called out in a moan, out to his brother.
A paw slid up Ryan's side as if to say, 'Shh, I'm here.' Fraternity, intimacy, and passion melted together in every grind of the hips, every kiss on the neck, every lap at the lips, and every touch of his digits. He brushed his cheek to say 'You're beautiful,' he nosed him to say, 'You're my little brother,' he kissed his forehead to say 'I'll protect you,' and kissed his lips to say 'I love you.'
Their privates touched and grinded together between the heat of their bodies. Sael's paw trailed down his younger brother's side, holding his brother's nice ass cheek with his paw
Ryan picked up on the language of love quickly. He put his paws on his brother's strong chest. "I need you." He held his brother's sides between his knees. "I'm here with you now" and he returned his brother's kisses. "I love you" He lost himself in the heat of the moment. Fur brushed together. Paws explored bodies. Lips kissed, genitalia grinded, and the fire raged. Ryan let his feral side take over, lust and need ruling his mind. Even in the exposed and submissive position, Ryan felt like there was nothing in the world that could harm him, because his big brother was right there, in his arms.
Sael looked down, and saw his brother's face staring back at him, he saw not only a brother, but a lover. His brain finally caught up with him, and he froze. He had never had sex before. He had never made love. This was all new to him. But he saw his brother's security, his brother's passion. His little brother's heart was secure
As he stared into those loving eyes, he suddenly understood. He looked up to his younger brother. His younger brother was stronger than he could ever be. His hesitation gave the younger lynx an opportunity to take control.
Seeing the pause in his brother's passions, Ryan pulled his older brother into him, locked lips once again, and rolled over. Now on top of Sael, Ryan grinned, running outstretched claws down his brother's chest. He paused to tease his nipples, claws playing around the sensitive areas. He continued to rake his claws down his brother's body, until he reached Sael's proud lynxhood. The younger lynx fondled and teased it, using the slightest touch of his claws to cause his brother to gasp and moan. Leaning down to give the tip a loving kiss, Ryan pushed his brother's legs atop his shoulders, exposing his brother's tight, virgin tailhole.
Sael looked down, one eye squinting with pained desire. "Take me--" he whispered exasperatedly, moaning between breaths, "Take me Ryan." He was lost in his need, his love and respect for his younger brother yielding to his younger brother's control. He clawed at his sheets, stretching them under the two lynxes. His legs were in the air, and his exposed tail clenched in fear. He wasn't sure if he was ready, but he yielded to the confidence and desire of his younger brother.
Given the fact that Ryan had never made love to anyone before, he felt surprisingly ready for this. But then again, it was all he'd ever wanted: to share an intimate, loving relationship with someone he loved so much. His brother was in his paws, and under him; exposed to him. Yet Ryan never saw him as anything else than his big brother. With careful movements, he aimed his rock hard cock at his brother's hole, and pushed his entire body forward.
Sael shrieked in pain, reaching up a paw to stop his brother. With the penetration halted, the larger lynx chuckled a bit, "Damn that hurts, we need some lube." He thought. He didn't have any. He looked down to his younger, more sexually dominant sibling. "Any ideas?" The older lynx's smile betrayed an idea he already had.
Ryan took his paws all the way down his brother's legs, to the inside of his thighs, then cupped them around his brother's cock, just to tease him. "What do you have in mind, big brother?"
Sael stuck his fingers in his muzzle, and then pulled them out, wet with saliva. He then slipped two digits under his sac, and pushed inside his tailhole, admittedly having to force the damp digits in. He pushed them in, and pulled them back out. "Spit works. We just need to get some on your cock." He grinned to his younger brother, who was towering over him.
"hmmm..." Ryan scooted back, and allowed his brother to sit up. He presented his needy cock before his big brother. "Stop fingering yourself and put your lips on this." the younger brother licked his fingers and winked "I'll take care of that."
Sael sat up, and got before his brother on all fours, muzzle open to kiss his younger brother's desire. He then lifted his stubby tail so Ryan could reach over his back and comfortably finger him. He timidly took the tip into his muzzle, giving it a loving kiss of his lips. He then took more in, coating it with his moist saliva, grunting as he adjusted his position to accommodate his younger brother's shorter size. His tail brushed against Ryan's face as Ryan leaned over his back to continue the fingering.
A growl of a purr rumbled in Ryan's throat. He had always wondered what it would be like to have a mouth around his malehood, but he could never have imagined it felt this good. With every suckle his brother made, Ryan uttered another moan. Draped over his brother's strong frame, the younger lynx made slow, deliberate pushes inside his brother's tailhole, girst with only one finger, just to see how much his brother could take. Then with two fingers. His brother's stubby tail flicked back and forth, mimicking his emotions. "mmm, oh Sael, you're gonna make me cum before I even get inside of you!"
The older lynx purrrrred over Ryan's length, slipping off the younger member with a kiss of the tip. "You think I'm lubed up enough?" Sael's nervousness was clear, but he couldn't think of anyone he could trust more than his little brother. He was the only one he could let do this to him.
And oh god did he want that young lynx to fuck him.
And how Ryan wanted desperately to penetrate his older brother. "Roll over." Ryan commanded. Sael obeyed, and Ryan prepared to mount his big brother. Taking his hips in his paws, Ryan leaned forward and murred into his brother's ear. "Just tell me if you can't take it. I don't want to hurt you big brother, but your ass is sooooo inviting" Again, Ryan aimed, but carefully pushed inside his brother, only putting in the tip at first
The old lynx grabbed his brother, clinging tight, holding his cheeks, fingers ruffled through the tufts of the lynx's face. "Ngh! F-Fuck, I'm a soldier, I can take anything. Sir!" He smiled as he said the line of respect, opening his eyes to see his little brother over him in glow of the late evening. He never thought he'd get to fuck like this. He never thought he'd fall in love. He never did.
He had already been in love. And tonight he'd show it.
Licking his paws again, Ryan pulled out, fingered his brother quickly, getting him lubed up just a little bit more. Pushing back inside, Ryan growled with dominant pleasure. He felt almost guilty that he was hurting his brother, but he knew that he was getting pleasure out of this. Careful not to make any unexpected movements, Ryan began thrusting, only moving a few inches, for his brother's sake. "good boy, I know you can do it. I know you can take me... big brother"
The lynx mraowled loudly, grabbing his younger brother's lithe shoulders tight, his larger frame seemed awkward underneath him. He panted and smiled at his brother, tongue lolling out of his mouth, "Yes sir!"
He never felt anything like it, the pain and pleasure penetrating his conscious mind, omitting all other thoughts. "Incest" and "Taboo" erased. The carnal love of his younger brother pressed all else out of his mind. His own erection twitched with delightful need. But the entirely new sensation in his tail was overwhelming.
Ryan pressed on, pushing deeper and deeper with each thrust. Every muscle in his body was tensing. With their bodies so intertwined, the younger lynx pushed hard into his brother. Both were breathing heavily, both were so ready. "Look brother," Ryan said, giving a little paw attention to his brother's cock. "You took me all the way in. I'm so proud of you." Ryan teased his brother. But at the same time, he was so ready to give his brother everything he had
Sael stuck his tongue out through his teeth as he always did when he was teasing. "Oh shu'up fag. Besides, I'm older; I'll last longer." It was yet another 'I'm older' challenge. Even in bed, they were still brothers. Their lust and passion couldn't change their fundamental relationship. Their true selves. Their complete love for one another. He may have been taking Ryan up the tail, but he was still the same older brother Ryan had always known.
The smile in his eyes was that same smile he had always known for all their lives. That same, warm smile he would always give, and only give, his little brother.
Ryan could think of Sael no other way. Not even when he was in such a submissive position. He was, and always would be his big brother. His arms would always be Ryan's stronghold. His laugh would always bring light to Ryan's darkest day. Even as he Ryan made love to his brother, it never crossed his mind that he was in any way better or stronger than he was. There was not "dominance" or "submissive" in it for him. There was only love. The love of brothers now made lovers.
And Ryan intended to make the most of that love.
The silence between them was muffled with the grunts, pants, moans and ruffling of the bed beneath them. They were fundamentally exposed to one another. Completely at each other's mercy, and safely entrusted into one another. With each thrust, Sael trusted Ryan's compassion and care, with each moan, he told Ryan how much he enjoyed him. Their entanglement forced Sael to swear multiple times, fighting pained ecstasy with each bite of his lip. He could feel his pleasure swelling in a completely different way. His little brother pleasuring him in a way he had never imagined possible.
And soon his passion would come to a climax.
But it was already too late for Ryan. The bed creaked as he grasped his brother's shoulders and cried out unformed words. His entire being convulsed and shuddered as he released his liquid love to his brother. This was it; the full exposure of the pure love Ryan felt for his brother. He could think of nothing else besides his brother, lying there in ecstasy. Even as he shivered and shook, he looked down into his brother's deep eyes, and mouthed the words "I love you."
The lynx pulled his brother down, making him slip out of his tailhole, making him cringe. He pulled him into a passionate kiss, grinding his erection against the messy younger erection. "I love you, Ryan."
Ryan accepted the kiss, collapsing against his brother. He was panting, exhausted from the strenuous love-making, and his brother was the perfect pillow to lie upon. The scents of sex filled both lynxes' nostrils as they lay there together. The younger brother slipped his arms around the love of his life, and whispered "I love you forever. Please. Never leave me."
"I love you, and I'll never leave you." Sael was happy. Simply happy. He couldn't believe he had the love of his life in his arms. He sighed happily. "So, I win. Now you have to suck my dick." He grinned and gave his younger brother a scratch behind his ears like he always did.
Ryan rubbed up against his brother, almost like a kitten would. "Oh no" he said, sarcastically. "I lost, I am so upset." He started trailing down his brother's naked body with his nose, until he reached Sael's unsatisfied erection. "Whatever shall I do?" He kissed the tip, and swirled his tongue around the throbbing length, remembering the times he had wished a popsicle was some hot stud's malehood.
Sael rested his large paw on his little brother's head as he went down. "Shouldn't have made a bet against your older brother." He gave his younger brother another scratch behind the ears. When he felt Ryan's skillful tongue work on him, he moaned out loud. "A-Ah, we should've fucked years ago!" He grinned, mraowling at his younger brother's pleasuring.
"I think you made that bet." At his brother's touch, the young lynx's purr filled the air between them. With another swirl of the tongue, Ryan replied, "A few years ago, I wouldn't have understood what it meant to really love someone. And I wouldn't have known how to do this!" Opening his muzzle wide, Ryan put his brother's entire length into his mouth, lips reaching all the way to the base. It was a bit of a strain not to gag for the young, inexperienced lynx, but he had to match his brother's willingness to go where neither had gone before. With a low moan, Ryan stayed there, suckling on his brother's erection, the taste of salty pre reaching his tongue.
"Mnh--you've done this before? God it feels like it!" The lynx lolled his tongue out of his mouth, legs squirming in pleasure as his climax ebbed closer and closer.
"Mmmph" Was all the little brother responded with. With one paw fondling the ball sac right below his mouth, and the other on his brother's thigh, Ryan increased his speed, sucking faster, and moving his head up and down. He could feel the paw on the back of his head assisting him with the down movement, and he relished it. The more and more Ryan sucked, the louder and more frequent his brother's moans became. He could hear his brother's climbing ecstasy, and Ryan increased his movements to match. The grasp on the back of his head became stronger, more strained. His brother couldn't take much more. Ryan gave one final pass down his brother's throbbing shaft before he felt the bulge of cum releasing. Admitingly, Ryan wasn't so sure about having a mouthful of seed, even if it was his brother's. So he pulled off, and let his big brother make a mess on his face.
Sael mraowled his orgasm, panting, "F-Fuck Ryan!" After his ejaculation finished its twitching, his body lay limp under the young lynx, face beaming with pleasure. "God that felt so good." He rolled his head to the side, looking down at his younger brother, seeing his own seed on the young face. "C'mere and let me clean you up." His smile was warm, full of the love he had for his brother, his friend, and maybe... just maybe... He thought, and let his lover crawl up beside him, giving his face several tender laps.
Ryan didn't do it intentionally, but having his brother lick him clean was an added benefit of letting him blow a wad onto his face. Ryan gave Sael a lick to the nose, just to be cute. He wasn't exactly sure how to explain the feeling in his heart. It was like it was filled with helium, lifting upwards, pushing against his chest. Like it was reaching out to his brother, trying to connect with him in perfect union of souls. Ryan pulled himself to his brother, and although not the perfect, unattainable union his heart so desired, the want, the need, and the satisfaction of love made him melt in his brother's arms. "Oh god, Sael, I love you so much." He spoke without fear, and proudly. He wasn't ashamed of their incestuous love. "I never want to leave your side. Please..." But Ryan wasn'tsure what he was begging for, because all he wanted was right there, in his arms.
"Ryan." Sael spoke, a tinge of seriousness coloring his voice. "What we're doing... we don't have to tell anyone. We don't have to live hiding this from whoever we end up with." He wasn't sure how to say it. He wasn't sure how to say, it. He knew what he wanted, but he didn't have the courage or understanding to word it right. He never was as good at using words like his brother.
"You mean...?" Ryan looked at his brother, reading his face. Ryan wanted to say it too. For a brief moment, he considered how absurd it all was. He was 16. Still in school. He still lived with his dad. He was still growing up. But all that was brushed aside when he looked to his brother's amber eyes. "Big brother..." Ryan pressed his forehead against his brother's. "I'd like nothing better... nobody could ever make me feel the way you do..." He grinned sheepishly, and pushed out the words both of them wanted to say. "Will you be my mate?"
"Yes, Ryan. I will be your mate, little bro." He smiled and pressed his muzzle against his younger brother's passionately kissing him with all of his spirit and love.
Ryan knew he would have to face the problems the outside world would present him for such a relationship. He knew their father couldn't know about this, but he also knew how much he really wanted to be with his brother. But for now, those worries were far away, problems for another day, another time. Now, the only thing that existed in the world was his brother and he. Ryan returned the kiss, pouring his heart and emotions out to his brother. For a brief moment, the young lynx wondered if they could legally be mated, but that would be redundant. A new chapter was opening on both their lives, and Ryan knew, no mater what, through hell and fire, that he would be there for his brother, and his big brother would be there for him
Sael brushed his younger brother's cheek. "Well then, sweetie, how about we go on our first date tonight." He smiled, wanting to share everything with his brother. They shared their childhood, and they were going to share their future.
"awwww" Ryan purred, "I was all set to get all snuggly right here with you." It was how he always pictured it. After sex, he and his love would fall asleep in each other's arms. It was just how his overly-romantic mind worked. But he sat up and gave his brother a peck on the cheek. "Alright," he said, pulling on his discarded clothes. He had to do a double take when he looked at the clock. "Ten Fifty already? How long were we fucking?" They both laughed at that. "Well, there aren't many places around here that are open this late, but I know somewhere we can go." Ryan winked at his older brother.
"Surprise me." Sael smiled, pulling on his own boxers, grabbing new shorts and a shirt since he didn't want to get back into his B.D.U.s. He gave his dressing brother a hug from behind, kissing his cheek. "Sorry, I can't resist!" With that, he kissed his younger brother's neck while he was pulling up his trousers.
Ryan's arm encircled his brother's waist, and his kissed his brother back. "I know. I can't resist you either." Once the two brothers were done flirting, dressing, and were out the door, Ryan started up the car and sighed happily as his brother sat next to him. In a single night, life had become infinitely more hopeful. Ryan looked at his brother and smiled. His brother had been there all his life as his protector, guardian, and now, he was going to be there as a lover. Ryan set out for Black Pine Street.
The older brother buckled himself in. He was going on his fist date! He felt like a child. Funny how his date was his younger brother. But he wouldn't have it any other way right now. He turned and looked at his brother, "Where we goin' love?" He smiled warmly, having a feeling he wouldn't get an answer.
"You'll see." Ryan teased. The winding streets took them up a hillside, and soon enough, Ryan pulled over to the side of the road. Turning off the car, Ryan said "here we are" But "here" didn't look like anywhere in particular. It was a back road, and the roads were pretty deserted at this time of night. Grabbing his brother's hand, he rushed through some trees, seeming to know his way even through the darkness of the night. The trees ended, revealing a small, clear hillside that gave a perfect view of the night sky. Tens of thousands of light dots twinkled against the blackness. Ryan turned to his older brother, the stars reflecting in his eyes. "Sorry it's nothing fancy... but I think it fits the mood."
The older lynx looked around, "How... How did you know about this place?" He was amazed his younger brother knew the area so well. It was beautiful. It was... romantic.
Ryan tenderly kissed his brother's cheek. "The car broke down here once. I had to wait, so I looked around, and found this place." He nuzzled his brother's neck. It was warm tonight. Crickets and peepers chirped in the moonlit darkness "I always wanted to share this place with someone. I never thought it'd be you." Ryan stood in behind his brother, arms encircling his waist. "But now I see that I could never show it to anyone but you"
Sael circled to his younger brother and pulled him into a passionate kiss, then looked up at the stars. "Thank you. I--... It's beautiful." Sael sat on the grassy hill, lying on his back to look up at the stars. "You waited all this time to show this to someone?"
Ryan crawled up to his brother, cuddling against him. "Yeah, well, I felt this place was really special. Isolated. Secluded. Romantic..." He looked to his brother again, with a child-like smile on his face. The bright moonlight hit Sael just right, outlining his muscular form, and shining in the pupils of his eyes. It made him seem almost magical. Ryan rest his head on his brother's chest. He was magical. At least to Ryan
"I have something..." Sael reached into his pocket. He had grabbed it while Ryan was dressing. "I... got this when I got my first paycheck. I wanted to give it to someone special. I thought it'd be my son, but over time that just faded. I always kept it. But now..." He dangled a round pocket watch, dangling silver in the moonlight from the chain.
"I want you to have it." It represents my passion; it represents all the love I've pent up since joining the army. It's the heart I locked away in the closet. It's yours now." At least that's what he would say if he could find the words. He could only say one thing to express his feelings. "I love you Ryan, as my brother, and m--... my boyfriend."
Ryan took the pocket watch and held it in cupped paws. He wasn't sure exactly what to say. He held the clockwork machine to his chest, and smiled happily at his brother, right before bringing him in for another kiss. "Thank you. I'll take good care of it" Ryan embraced his brother, chord of the watch trailing out of his paw. The two of them lay sprawled out in the grass, gazing not at the stars, but intently into each other's eyes
Sael couldn't even kiss Ryan. He was so stunned with the beauty he saw in his younger brother. His body was lithe, delicate. His face was warm, his eyes were--those eyes. He could see everything: the past, the future, and the now. He saw the true definition of love. He understood that he wasn't gay because he liked dicks; he was gay because he loved his brother. "I love you..." he whispered, wishing the words were as potent as he needed, the words falling so far from everything he wanted to say.
Never breaking eye contact with him, Ryan gently kissed his older brother's lips, fully understanding what wasn't spoken between them. "I know" He said, brushing Sael's cheek. "Whatever you're feeling big brother, I feel it too." Ryan cuddled against his brother's chest, and closed his eyes. He could've died happy, there in his brother's arms, in the most impossibly romantic scene he could've ever dreamed about, with his brother so close, and everything else so far away, yet so close at the same time. But if love could conquer all, then Ryan was confident that their future was in their paws, and that he would be his brother's arms.