Chapter 2:The truth
This is chapter 2 to my series What if... So if you havent read the first chapter i would recomend it.
After I marked the day on the calendar I went back into the living room picked up my guitar and started playing a song my mom would sing to me and my would play the guitar.
As the sun goes down.
Don't you put on a frown.
You just need to take a look at all your friends.
And know they'll stay with you till the end.
And the sun will rise.
It won't be a surprise.
Cause at the end of the tunnel there's always light.
And when the morning rises it will be all right...
I continued to play that song as I started to cry. I miss my parents so much. The image of the car crash ran through my mind and I caught myself not playing anymore but crying. I put my guitar away saw that it was past midnight and decided to go to bed. That night I dreamed about Jessica my parents and the old lady. They were all laughing at me saying
"you really thought she would marry you?" I woke up crying and sweaty.
"Man that was a strange dream."
'Well I'm waisting daylight I need get moving.' I went to the kitchen and made some french toast, my favorite breakfast. Then I went to my office and sat down. For I am a writer and I am in dire need to write a new book. That's one reason I was asking Jessica all those random questions. Cause I'm writing a novel on how the earth would be if humans didn't evolve. I felt some tears running down my face as I thought about Jessica. I just sat there till I tasted the salt in my tears. I was snapped back into reality when I heard my phone ring.
"Hello?"
"Hey! There he is. How's my main man doing?" I heard my manager Tim on the other line.
I instantly got a headache.
"Hey Tim what's up?"
"Just checking up on my favorite writer."
'I'm his only writer.'
"And I was wondering how that new book is coming along?"
I put my hand on my head."Tim it's not happening I've hit what I've dreaded the wall. It might be time to get a real job."
"A real job?! Nock nock anyone home cause I know it's not Justin." he said in that voice I hate,"Now Justin hear me out your just having a dry spell that's all. I know deep down there is another hit just like your last book."
"I don't know Tim this maybe it's really gone. I have no inspiration any more."
"what about Jessica she always helps you when your having a dry spell?"
"Jessica is no more." I hung up the phone after that.
'Jessica why did you have to leave?!'
I grabbed my coat and went for a walk before my phone had another chance to ring. As I left the building the city life hit me. The sound of cars and people passing by, the smell of pollution in the air, and the lack of wild life. 'I think I'm long over due for a vacation.' I went back into my appartment and packed a few things I'll need for the next few months and hit the road. I don't really know where I'm headed but I knew it was out west in the mountains so I decided to drive to Colorado. 'This will be a good thing. A new beginning. A new chance to start over.' the drive was long but rewarded
After the third day I hit the Colorado boarder. 'Awww the mountains. This is just what i need. Nothing ahead but fresh air ahead. I found a little town called Colorado springs and decided to stop here. I drove around the town till I found I hotel. I parked and got out of my car. Something was missing but not missed. The city sounds are gone. The air is clean. And there are people who don't think only about themselves. I walked up to the hotel and rang for the owner.
"Yes can I help you?"
He was a young fellow maybe 19 had a short hair cut and he was In a suit. 'I can tell I'll like this place.'
"Yes I would like a room please." I said being as friendly as I can be.
"Ok let's see how about room number 7? It has a good view of the mountains."
"Sounds good."
"So how long do you plan on staying?" he asked writing stuff down.
'No computer I like that there not influenced by technology.'
"Tell you what put me down for a week and I'll go from there." I said giving him a friendly smile.
"Ok one week that will be 200$."
'200$ that's not bad.'
Good thing I brought some money with me. I open my wallet and pulled out 200$.
"Here you go sir."
He took the money handed me the key and said,"Have a nice stay if you need something don't hesitate to ask."
So I went to my room and unpacked. As I looked out the window I realized he was right it does have a good view. So this is where I'll be staying for a while I can get use to this. The season changed and it was now December 25. 'I've loved it here but if I'm going to meet Jessica I need to get moving on.' a part of me doesn't want to leave but I want to hear what Jessica has to say. The drive home was a little depressing. I'm going to miss the mountains. As I got home I threw my stuff in a corner. 'I'll unpack later.' I looked over at my answering machine and saw that it was full.
"Looks like I was missed." I chuckled at the site of that," I bet it's all Tim wondering where I am. I bet he's thinking about sending a search party after me. I better give him a call."
I went to the phone and realized I left it off the charger.
"No piggy I'll just go get my cell."
So I walked over to my bag and started looking for my phone. After I looked for a while and still didn't find it I went to go search in the car. No luck there ether.
"I wonder where it could be..."
Then it dawned on me I plugged it up the night before I left and must not have repacked it. I kicked my self mentally.
"Well I guess Tim will have to wait till my phone charges." I said starting to walk towards the park.
I have to say I didn't miss the city. To much goes on here. I got to the park and started to walk the track they have. As I was walking I started to think about the upcoming day tomorrow. 'What if she says she doesn't want to marry me? I don't know if I could take that kind of rejection.' my trail of thought was disturbed as I ran into someone.
"I'm so sorry." I told her helping her up.
I just about dropped her when I saw how beautiful she was. She looked a little younger then me but not by much. She has long brown hair that was in a pony tail which stuck out of the back of her hat with a logo I've never seen before.
"It's all right I should have been watching where I was going. The names Jasmine what's yours?"
It took me a while to get my head on straight. I just couldn't get over her beauty.
"It's Justin..."
Before I could get another word out she screamed.
"Oh my god your Justin Star! Writer of the book, adventures with a Dragon. I love that book! Can I get an autograph please?"
'Great another fan. You would think I would love to have fans bit that book it wasn't me. I wrote it a long time ago when I was on drugs. And that was the out come.'
I smiled and said,"Sure do you have a pen?"
Part of me wishing she didn't. But it didn't go that way.
"Yea I have one right here."
As she pulls one out of her backpack. 'Great.'
"Who should I make this out to?"
"Umm tell you what I have a friend who is a big fan make it out to 'My friend Jessica Reed.'"
"My friend Jessica Reed." I said aloud as I wrote it.
I dropped the pen when I heard what she said. 'No I'm hearing things it can't be.'
"Is something wrong?...Mr.Star?" Jasmine asks worried.
"Did you say your best friends name is Jessica Reed?" I asked her hoping the answer is no.
"Yea is that a problem?" oh no I have to go if I'm going to make it to the party. Sorry Mr.Star but I really have to go thanks for sighing the book."
I watched as she ran off and didn't move an inch. All this time Jessica was a fan of my book and I never knew. I looked at my watch and saw it was getting late. 'My phone is charged and I need to go to bed early since I was driving for three days.' I got home and picked up the phone to call Tim. I hesitated dialing the number cause I knew once I was on I'll be on for a while. But I dialed anyway.
He answer and before I could get a word in he yells.
"Where have you been?!?!?!?!"
I opened my mouth to say something but didn't get a chance to.
"Do you have any idea what you put me through?! Explain yourself now!"
I put the phone on speaker and said.
"Well you see after Jessica left I just need to get away so I went to the mountains."
"So just like that you decided to get up and go to the mountains without telling me?!"
"Yea that just about sums it up. Hey I have to go. I had a long drive so I'm going to bed bye Tim."
Before he could say no I hung up the phone. Then I went to bed.
"Tomorrow is the day I learn if Jessica will marry me. I hope she says yes."
I didn't sleep well that night it felt like I just put my head down and my alarm went off. I sighed and turned it off. Then I went to go take a shower, eat breakfast and drive to manhattan to see Jessica. The drive there was crazy nothing but traffic I'm glad I left early. When I got to Jessica's house it was already nine o'clock.
"well looks I'm early guess I'll go site seeing."
I was about to leave when I saw jasmine motion me into the house. 'looks like I'm going in.' I parked my car for a second time and walked in.
"Hey Mr.Star what brings you here?" she asks in that I can't believe your here voice.
"I came to see Jessica." I told her.
As I started to walk around I noticed music playing the smell of dinner on the table and a bunch of people talking.' I might not be early after all.'
I walked into the basement and saw that it was just about shoulder To shoulder. With people dancing and talking and eating. I saw Jessica by the punch bowl and made my way over to her. Bumping into a bunch of people as I did. I think I made one of them spill there drink.
"Sorry." I said back to whoever it was.
Jessica heard my voice and smiled at me. She started to walk towards me. We met just about halfway.
"Um how's it going?" I asked her a little nerves about how this night will end.
She must have noticed.
"Why don't we go somewhere away from the crowd?" she asked leading the way out of the basement.
We left the basement and went to what seems like her room. It was purple with a bunch of stuffed animals on the shelves on the wall. The other thing I noticed was a poster of me on the wall including my book.
"Nice touch I said pointing at the poster."
"Oh yea I'm a fan of your stuff. Oh thanks for the autographed book."
"Any time."
We fell silent waiting for the other to say something. I was about to say something when Jessica broke the silence.
"Liston Justin about your proposal...I can't go through with it. Now don't think I don't love you I do I just have to live a little before I settle down."
My heart just about stopped. 'she said no.' I saw this coming so it wasn't to much of a shock. But it still hurt non the less.
"I know."
"You do?" she looked at me with a confused expression.
"Yea I did. When you left me that message a part of me knew you would say no. So I went to the mountains and prepared myself for it."
"I'm sorry Justin if you want we can spend this evening together before I leave in the morning."
The thought accorded to me and I was tempted to say yes. It has been a while since we have had sex. But I decided against it.
"No I think I'll just be on my way. Happy new years Jessica."
I was curious as to where she was going but I knew if I knew I would most likely follow her. So I left that a mystery as I left the room to go home.
"Leaving so soon?" Jasmine asked me as I grabbed my jacked.
"Yea I forgot there is something I have to do."
With that I went to my car and drove off. With every mile it seemed like I got a little lighter. As if something I've held onto was being removed. I was sad but yet happy at the same time. Traffic wasn't as bad on the way home I made good time. When I got there I didn't even bother taking off my close I just went straight to bed......in my sleep I dreamt of the old lady and she chanted the same thing over and over again. It was in a language I didn't recognize but she just kept on saying it...as I was asleep the countdown started for the new year. The people were all watching the ball fall.
"Five, four, three, two, one!...."
Well that was chapter two of my story What if...Let me know what you think. Remeber im up for good and bad comments so let me have it.