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Again my sleep was troubled. Toshi, I had not thought of him for months. Dear Toshi - his bright smile and giggles that brightened my morning when I woke on my bed. Toshi was in the bed next to mine. Before getting up we had to put on our bath robes lest sinful flesh be exposed and walk to the wash room where we would sponge ourselves under the robes.. All under the watchful gaze of Father Clint. Toshi never could manage a wash without getting his robe wet which clung to him revealing his shape. Then one day as we were dressing Toshi was told to report to Father Clint by a runner and so he went whilst we headed off to training.

Later that day I returned to my dorm and saw Toshi sitting there on his bed - his stare blank and frightened expression worried me. Despite asking him what was wrong he gave no reply, nor was even aware I was there. Then he stood - making me gasp at the blood that had marked the blankets and the seat of his pants. "Toshi.. what happened?" but he did not answer - only gave a cry and ran to the window and leapt to his death. We were told that he had been possessed by Tempting Evils and never to talk of him again. Father Brands now watched us whenever we washed from then on. Toshi.. the only other person there who I had thought of as a friend had become a Nameless Fallen.

Again I woke and lay there. From the dim light at the entrance the morning had come - myself being conditioned to wake at daybreak lest being whipped for the sin of Sloth. Chandra still slept behind me but stirred when I did - rolling onto his back and stretching his long frame. As the coverings fell off him more and more of his form was revealed but that was not caught my gaze. His... maleness jutted from the opening in his underwear. Long, red, inhuman in it's shape and taper. It glistened in the dim light and pulsed with his heartbeat. I was drawn to it - moving closer to look upon it's wickedness, its carnality, its.. Masculinity. I felt a rush of blood to my own loins and lust hazed my thoughts. Dimly I heard Chandra call my name before I trembling hands gripped IT. Holding it like I held George so many years ago. George who took me in his mouth like I took this male, tasting for the first time another's flesh that throbbed, pulsed and swelled. I sucked it in, gagging as it hit the back of my throat, lashing it with my tongue as the strange flavours pulsed and sprayed. My other hand fumbled inside my own underwear and gripped my own maleness - squeezing and rubbing the rigid shaft and swollen head. The maleness in my mouth.. no Cock.. Oh that Sinful slang for this meat that drizzled flavours across my tastebuds as it swelled even more and then.. Spurted for me. I.. I had made this happen to another male.. Me.. Ohhh Yess as my own Cock throbbed and drenched my hand with my essence.. Me.. me.. Oh God what have I DONE!!!!

I looked up in shock to Chandra who looked likewise surprised. "Sorry.." I whimpered "Sorry.. Sorry. sorry" as I backed to the entrance - expecting any moment for teeth and claws to rend me. But he was too quick and his hand gripped my wrist and pulled me back to him. I struggled feebly as his arms embraced me and tucked my head to his chest. "Shhh.. " he said "I'm not angry, just surprised.. Ok.. I'm not angry, it's ok.. it's ok.."

I do not know how long he held me not how long I cried for in my shame and humiliation. Chandra the only one who had shown me kindness and I had repaid him by forcing myself onto him. Letting my lust get out of control, my desires overwhelm me.

I felt furry fingers under my chin lifting my head. I looked away from him but he kept my gaze "Tom.. Tom.. Listen to me - it's to be expected. You would have gone through this at the centre when I am taking you Ok. It's normal. You have had so much of your feelings and needs repressed that it will erupt like this. Tom - please understand I am not angry.."

I looked back at him, the warm gaze, the smile on his muzzle. Nothing but understanding and forgiveness. "Come" he said "Let us get ready to travel."

The rain had stopped at least and Chandra seemed to know which way to go through the ditches and tunnels. At one time I fell and felt a stabbing pain as something dug into my chest. Reaching into the pocket I withdrew my sincture.

Looking at it. The tube of metal with thorns and barbs that I wore each night on my maleness to stop me having Evil.. no not evil.. just dreams. Chandra came back an looked at it also

"I... fell and it stabbed me" I said with a whisper. "Do you think you will need it again" he asked.

Gripping my hand around it - feeling it's points penetrate my skin and draw blood for the last time I turned and threw it - high and far from me - followed by the emblem around my neck. I screamed.. "Never.. Never Again will you hurt me.. I reject you. I reject your words, I reject your Faith, I reject your cruelty, I reject.." - panting I stood and felt a hand on my shoulder. Turning I faced Chandra who stood, smiled and nodded. So I stepped forward and took him in my arms "I.. embrace you.. my friend." And he held me also.

It was late afternoon when we crossed over the rise and saw the white walls of the Furlands. The land here was still marred by conflict but the grasses pushed through, and stunted trees reached for the sky. A simple road let to a gate where two figures stood and guarded. As I got closer I saw that one was a Wolf and the other a Lion.

"Chandra Ho.." the wolf said

"Liam - greetings to you also"

"Found another stray did you" the lion said with good humour

"Yes Basture, this is Tom"

I tensed as both Furs stepped forward but they just rested their hands on my shoulders "Greetings Tom, Welcome and Good Life to you" Basture said. Liam just smiled and nodded in agreement.

We moved on - Liam and Basture returning to guarding the gate.

It was so different here. Low buildings seem to grow out of the ground. There were colours too on the walls. And black area's adorned the roofs reflecting the sun's rays.

"What are those" I asked pointing to the panels

"They are Solar collectors - they turn the sun into heat and power we can use later"

"Power.. what is that"

Chandra laughed kindly "Tom - you have a lot to learn but I think you will enjoy it here"

Finally we reached a series of building with the flowing Fur script on it. As we approached the doors opened magically and a warm breeze ushered forth - scented with a pleasant tartness. Chandra seemed unfazed by this as we walked in - gesturing for me to follow him which I did.

Just inside there was a low bench and a Fur sitting there writing on some papers. She - it guess it was she by the shape of her curves - smiled and growled something to Chandra. He growled back and gestured to me and I thought I heard me name mentioned several times. Then she smiled at me and said in my tongue "Greetings Tom. Please come this way."

I was in shock by what I saw. People AND Furs sitting together. Talking, playing games of cards. Sacred Windows hung fro the walls showing moving scenes of trees and ..Flowers. Flowers were only allowed during Faith ceremonies lest their gaiety prove too much for the masses.

When we reached one of the doors Chandra turned to me "Tom. I know this is very confusing for you but will you trust me?" I nodded, and we both stepped through the door.

Inside was stark and clean. White tiles shone from the light above. To one side was a cubby with shower head above it and a lever below - so I was to wash. Looking around for the bathing robe to cover myself in but I could not find one. Chandra seemed to understand my confusion and smiled "You don't need a robe here. I would wait outside but I need to make sure that you are properly cleaned of all the mud and dirt" he moved closer and said softly "besides - there is not much that we have not seen of each other"

I nodded glumly, turned and started to unbutton my shirt. Away from my gaze I heard Chandra removing his coverall and other items. Then a hissing sound behind me started and a warm mist started to fill the area. I turned back and saw Chandra - Naked, clad in just his fur under the water jet. His back was to me so was spared.. was it spared? - the sight of his maleness. I removed my shoes and my pants - hesitating with my underwear but Chandra had asked me to trust him so I slid those off too. He turned - smiling and held out a wet hand which I gripped, and he pulled me into the warm spray.

Warmth - I never thought I'd feel warmth again. Chandra spread some liquid on his hands and rubbed it into his fur soaping it up. He gave some to me also and I patted a bit on me here and there but he laughed and grabbed a sponge and started to scrub me. The water turned dark and gritty as my skin shed the days.. or was it years of dirt. "I'm sorry Tom but I really need to make sure you are clean" he said rubbing the foaming suds into belly and lower. I watched as he did the same to himself - considerate that anything he did to me he also did to himself. Then he gripped the furry tube that was his maleness and pushed down - revealing the slender pinkish length that I had so rampantly abused earlier this morning. Running a hand over it to wash it, then released the fur and it obediently slid back to hide him from me. Then he turned to my maleness.

I hissed as strange hands touched me where only one other had before. He stroked my flesh to hardness with the foam, then reached lower to my sack and eggs and fondled them. Finally he gripped my maleness and pulled back my skin. I almost cried when the stinging soap touched there. I looked down to see white crud flaking from beneath the skin and the pungent odour of myself hit my nostrils. Chandra gave a sneeze so I guessed he smelt it as well as he continued to gently massage the flesh, cleaning it, and leaving it pink, hard, and shining.

Moving behind me his hands rubbed my buttocks and then between them to my.. Pucker. He seemed to linger there pressing and kneading with that warm soap and sending tingles that I had never had before through me. Groaning I reached to my maleness to try and ease the pressure but I heard a soft whisper "Let me.."

With one arm around me he held me to his chest, the other hand stroking the slippery soap up and down my shaft. Even though I had spurted more times in the past two days that I had in 6 months my body reacted with the same lusts until I cried and spent myself on the white tiles.

When we had finished I found my clothing was gone, replaced by a soft blue shirt and pants. Soft blue shoes with thin soles were also there. Chandra had similar but his footpaws were left bare.

Additional cleaning rituals were done - using a small brush he cleaned his teeth and told me to do likewise. Always reassuring me that this was normal for Furs to do.

Smiling he took my hand and led me to another room of wonders. Two beds were there made of metal with many things clustered around there. Another Fur - a bear I think - clad in white smiled and nodded as Chandra climbed and lay on one bed and gestured for me to do likewise on the other. A healing room.. Each time the bear would approach Chandra and do something he would also do it to me. He looked into my eyes, my ears, hovered strange amulets above me that flashed and chirped. Finally he gave me some pills to take.

We finished and went to a common area where food was served. Chandra made up a plate for me and himself. I'd only seen such items and smells on the Father's plates, and even then not the variety that was here. Everything thing tasted new and fresh. Chandra warned me not to eat so fast and to let him know if I needed to 'relieve' myself. I nodded and slowed my haste and tried to enjoy - guessing that I would never worry about starving again.

I pauses and a gripe twisted my innards, then another as my bowels threatened to betray me. Standing I looked around but Chandra realised what was happening and grabbed my arm - pulling me into some cubical that had pans for me to squat on.

Another spasm made me cry out - Chandra reassured me that it was all ok and it will be finished soon, then I shat.. Oh did I shit - I glanced down and cried in horror as white tendrils writhed out of me, and another painful spasm ripped inside of me. "Chandra.. I'm I'm dying" Chandra shook his head "No Tom.. you are healing. Those are.. worms that can live inside of you if you are not clean and well. The pills you took will.. clean them."

Ashamed I gritted my teeth as vile noises issued from my nether regions, till finally exhausted my inner throes eased. Chandra gave me some paper pads to clean myself with and made sure that I washed my hands afterwards. With a final glance at the terrifying sight in the pan he pushed a button and water sluiced it away.

My hunger diminished I picked at the rest of my plate and yawned loudly, the trials of the day suddenly catching up to me. Chandra smiled again and led me through some corridors to a room where two beds were arranged. On one side a big windows showed a area of grass in the twilight and trees dotted here and there. "This is your room Tom, until your are ready to leave here." Chandra said - looking a little sad. I was about to say something and there was another knock at the door and a tall Cougar walked in.

"Tom.." Chandra said "I have to go back out and look for others that need help. Maz here " and the cougar nodded "will be your guide and help for you."

Looking at my first true friend I cried "Will.. Will I ever see you again Chandra" He smiled "Of course you will. I 'll be back in a few weeks to see how you are doing Ok" and he stepped forward and hugged me tight, kissing my forehead tenderly. "Live long and Happily - Tom my friend". And he turned and left leaving me with the cougar Maz.