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Something was wrong. He could sense it and it woke him from his sleep.

Gold eyes slid open blurrily, sleep still gnawing on his brain and demanded to be heeded. But Liolyn ignored it, eyes dilating in the darkness.

The first thing he noticed was that the temperature was actually cool and that snow had fallen in from the door and opening in the ceiling. The other thing was strong, warm arms were wrapped around his waist.

He blinked in confusion at that, rolling onto his back to look at Kadell's sleeping face.

"Kahdahl?"

The wolf didn't move.

"Kah-Kadell?" Liolyn shook him. "Hey. Are you awake?"

There was a lower growl and a grey eye opened. "What?"

Liolyn stared. "You can talk?"

"And I can sleep too and was enjoying it when you ruined it."

Liolyn smiled brightly before snuggling into his chest and pressing his closed eyes against his neck. "You're not in heat anymore."

"No."

Liolyn's hands slid up and down Kadell's chest before wrapping around his neck. He whispered. "I missed you."

Grey eyes stared straight ahead. "What do you mean? I was always here."

The cat demon yawned, settling back down to sleep some more. "But you weren't really here. I couldn't talk to you or anything like that." He weakly punched his arm. "This is what happens when you deny me sex for weeks and force conversation on me."

Kadell smiled, wrapping his arms tighter around his waist. "Sleep now. Talk later."

Liolyn smiled before his stomach growled wrathfully, causing him to blush. "Go hunting when you wake up or I fucking will."

Kadell suppressed laughter for the sake of falling back to sleep sooner. "Will do."

Moku woke up slowly to find himself spooned with Derek and Derek rubbing lewdly against his ass.

The white haired boy groaned, lying there and waiting for it to end, knowing all too well that he was dreaming. He tried to ignore the odd and uncomfortable feeling of his friend's erection rubbing against him, basically fucking him with clothes on. He waited, blushing furiously, and mildly getting groped in the process.

It wasn't much longer before Derek gasped loudly and ground against him jerkily, shivering slightly.

Moku's eyes closed tightly as he smelled more than he ever needed to know about Derek's... intimate... stuff. He groaned and decided it was definitely time to get out of the cave.

"Derek?"

A sleepy groan was his only response.

"Derek! Wake up!" He tried to slide out from under the boy's arm but Derek held on stubbornly. "Come on! DEREK!"

Silver eyes slowly blinked open. "Moku?"

"Yep. Mind letting go?"

It took all of five second before Derek became very aware of his surroundings and jumped back as if Moku was a disease. "FUCK! It's not what you think! I was asleep!"

Moku sat up, rolling his eyes. "Well, duh. Do you really think this is the first time I woke up after mating season and being groped?"

Derek blinked in confusion then narrowed his eyes angrily. "It's not?"

Moku shook his head negatively. "Nope. One year I had Ethan lying on top of me and my shirt partially ripped off. The next year was Barex's nose buried in my crotch and then there was Ludus spooning me with his hand down my pants-"

Derek's mental note: kill friends.

"-so don't worry about humping my ass for all its worth. Heat induced dreams can be really powerful."

Derek still flushed with embarrassment and snapped. "You would know, wouldn't you?"

Moku's brows drew together in confusion. "What?"

"Don't give me 'what.' I fucking heard you moaning out Kadell's name like the little whore you are!"

Moku blushed. "I-I did?"

Derek growled. "And after he almost raped you and everything! I can't believe you fucking have wet dreams about him!" He got off and stormed to the barrier. "I should never have found you and let him rip you open for his own self fucking needs!"

Moku slowly curled in on himself, trembling.

Derek rolled back the rock and noticed that Moku hadn't moved. He felt regret gnawing at his conscience and didn't understand why. He had a reason to be angry. After all he had done for that boy he could have at least thought about him.

Derek heard sniffling and opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out.

He was spared thinking of the right words when Barex and Ludus came tumbling into his room.

"Hey!" Ludus said happily. "Are going coming or-Moku? You're here? Sweet! You didn't get molested!"

Ethan smirked from the doorway. "Oh please. Derek probably had his wicked way with him the whole month."

The boys snickered, not noticing Derek flush or either boy's sadness.

Barex smiled. "Come on! Last one in the lake has to spend the night with Raklyn! No offense, Derek."

Derek stared at Moku. "None taken."

The three boys sprinted out of the cave, laughing and tackling each other. Derek went to follow. "Coming?"

Moku wiped his eyes, sniffing. "In a minute."

Barex's voice echoed through the cave. "Come on, Derek! Move it!"

Derek crossed the distance between them and closed his hand closed around Moku's thin arm. "Come on. I'm covered in come, your covered in come and specks of my come."

Moku gave a weak laugh, allowing himself to be hauled up. "Ew, why?"

Derek smiled, tugging him towards the exit. "Are you kidding? Your fucking scent was driving me insane! Haven't you noticed that I'm dragging your ass with my left hand? That's because my right one is so sore and cramped that it's permanently stuck in a circle."

Moku laughed at that. "I told you to take the sleeping draft with me."

"Yeah, yeah. Whatever. I'll race you to the lake."

Moku smirked, still slightly shaking from crying. "I'm going to kick your ass."

"You can try, pussy boy!"

They laughed, running through the cave system, passing the other three who had waited. They leapt over lying and sleeping wolves to break into the bright sunlight and freezing cold.

Derek ground to halt right before toppling off the overhand, staring down at the ice covered lake. He really didn't want to be the one to break it but he should, being a full blood and all.

Unfortunately for him, and his pride, Moku passed him and leapt off the edge. There was a loud explosion as the ice smashed and water blast up and over the ice. A few minutes passed before Moku broke through the ice, shattering it, gasping loudly.

"FUCK!"

Derek looked down at him, worried and surprised. "You okay?"

"NO! IT'S COLD AND THAT HURT!"

Derek laughed, stalling before he had to jump into the below freezing water.

Too bad his choice was stolen by Barex and Ludus. They full out tackled him from behind and sent careening over the cliff and into the dark water. Ethan jumped with them and Moku ducked the splashing water.

Derek was the first to burst through the water, coughing and cursing anything and everything. Moku tackled him and they went back underwater. There was a mad fight as the four of them dunked each other down, laughing and splashing water.

The younger wolves came running out, screaming happily, leaping into the water too.

It was tradition, after all. All wolves jumped into the freezing lake after mating season to wash themselves and to prove their worth by staying in the longest.

"LUUUDUUUUUUSSS!"

Ludus yelped as something small and grey haired leapt on his head. He struggled to stay afloat with a child latching onto him. "Dona! Off!"

Dona pouted. "You're so mean, Ludus!"

Barex snickered. "Yeah, Ludus. What kind of big brother are you?"

"Shut up!" Ludus splashed water at him.

Dona pulled his hair roughly. "You don't love me! You're as mean as Rex!"

Ludus growled, still struggling to keep from drowning. "Well Rex is a bastard!"

She gasped. "YOU SAID A BAD WORD!"

Ludus gurgled, defeated.

Moku giggled. "Come here, Dona."

Dona swam over to him and Moku was able to stay afloat with her small arms around his neck. She shot Ludus a death glare. "See! Moku's nice! You're a jerk! Why can't you be like Moku?"

Ludus glared at his friend. "Traitor. You're making me look bad."

"HEY!"

They looked up to see an older looking Ludus staring down at them. "No molesting my sister! She's five!"

Ludus growled. "Fuck you, Rex!"

Rex smirked. "Aw... what's wrong, baby brother? Bitter because you didn't get any?"

"Go sodomize yourself with a pine tree!"

Dona called up to him. "Ludus called you a bad word and said that you were a big stinky head. And he was mean to me!"

"WHAT?! YOU LITTLE LIAR!"

Ethan called up. "Are you coming in?"

Rex eyed the ice covered water. "Uh... sure?"

Ludus smirked evilly. "What are you, chicken? JUMP!"

Before long all the occupants in the water was chanting it, looking up at Rex expectantly. Rex sighed, taking a few steps back before running and diving in.

He landed with a huge splashed where the four boys attacked him, pushing him underwater and being dragged down with him. Rex was putting up a good fight before laughter floated down to them.

He gulped, staring into his new mate's silver eyes before pushing the boys off him. "Guys! You're making me look bad! Off!"

Ludus leered. "But she already had sex with you. You can't get much lower in her eyes after that."

Rex snarled, grabbing his head and shoving underwater and holding him there. "Hey, Dari."

Dari had one hand cupping her mouth, hiding her amused smiled. "Hi. Having fun?"

"Oh yeah. Great. Spectacular. Wanna join?"

"I don't think so."

"Oh, but I think you do."

"Nuh-uh."

Rex was smirking predatorily, ignoring his brother clawing up his arm. "Come on, beautiful. I'll go up there and drag you if I have to."

Dari laughed. "Don't you dare!"

Rex let go of his brother and leapt up the cliff. Dari screamed playfully as he grabbed her and picked her up.

"Ready?"

"No! Rex!"

But he was already in mid air.

Liolyn awoke alone in bed with the sound of clothes rustling in the background. He rolled over, eyes blinking as they adjusted. "What are you doing?"

Kadell tightened the wrist band, not bothering to look up. "I'm going hunting."

The cat groaned, stretching languidly. "You could have waited until I got up."

"But you told me to go get you food when I woke."

"Oh yeah." Liolyn lay on his back, arms over his head from when he stretched. Golden eyes stared at the rocky ceiling, his own voice echoing in his mind.

"Kahdahl... I love you... I love you so much... don't ever leave me... please... I need you so mu-uh-uaaaaAAAH!"

His eyes snapped shut and he groaned. He hated climaxing so much right now. "Kahdahl... I think... I think I said something during mating season and we need to talk about it." The heel of his hands dug into his eyes. "Kah-Kadell. I... I, um. Nngh. I think I'm... what I mean is... I... I may-or I think I may-just be in l-"

Lips silenced him and a tongue swept into his mouth to briefly taste him. Gold eyes stared up into grey and Kadell ran a hand through his hair. "We'll talk about whatever it is when I get back with food. Hopefully. I'll try to catch you something. Okay?"

Liolyn nodded, feeling nervousness force nausea on him, and reached up to pull the wolf back down. "Okay." Their lips sealed in a passionate kiss, Liolyn trying to devour him.

Kadell broke it. "I'll be back."

Liolyn eyes searched him before laughing nervously, arms still around his neck and refusing to let go. "Yeah but last time you got ready while I slept and left you were deciding whether or not I was allowed to stay."

Kadell gave him a small smile before kissing the cat chastely. "I know but I'm just going hunting."

Liolyn tightened his grip a little bit. "It's almost spring."

"... I know." He refrained from telling him that it technically was spring.

"Are you going to go think about that?"

"Lio-"

"Because I want to stay!"

Kadell stared down at the cat, seeing the blushed that crept up his face and fear in those golden eyes. "Lio... I'm just going hunting, okay? That's it. It's a one track thinking process. Alright? Breathe and let me go."

The cat demon's arms loosened and fell to the bed. Gold eyes stared at something in the corner. "Okay."

Kadell hesitated before getting off and walking swiftly to the door. The moment he hit the cold air and out of the entrance he started to hyperventilate, arms hugging himself.

"Oh god... oh god... no... nonononono!"

He choked on bile but held it back, breathing harshly through his nose.

Moku was smiling brightly, completely enjoying himself when he suddenly inhaled sharply. He dove under and Barex yelped as he latched onto his leg, holding himself underwater.

"Moku! What the heeeeellll..." His eyes widened. "Raklyn."

The entire group looked up fearfully.

Raklyn stood on the ledge, staring down at the group with hard, dark grey eyes. Black and silver streaked hair hung loosely over his face, reaching his shoulder blades, and only darkened his features. Grey hair that would never change ran through it also and consumed his facial hair, showing his age. His arms were crossed.

No one spoke.

Katsu walked up to stand slightly behind their alpha. "Where's the brat?"

Ethan gulped. "I don't know?"

Katsu growled, flexing his claws, before Raklyn said, "Wait." in a dangerously low voice.

Bubbles rose from where Moku had dived down. Minutes passed and the group was wondering if Moku would pass out before choosing to rise to the surface.

Water sudden burst up as Moku broke through the surface, coughing up water and breathing heavily.

Raklyn glared before turning on his heel. "Come."

Moku coughed out. "No."

The entire lake froze and stared at Moku in complete shock before snapping up to look at their temporary leader.

Raklyn hadn't moved, back towards the lake. "What?"

Moku gulped hard, fear creeping up on him. He trembled from the cold and his own nerves. He finally bowed his head and his voice had a defeated tone. "I'm coming. I just need to change first."

"That's what I thought."

And with that, the older demon left, leaving behind a foreboding atmosphere and one broken little wolf.

Ludus let out the breath he was holding. "Fuck, Moku. Damn! Did you just try to do what I think you did?"

Moku didn't move or say anything. He just stared at the water.

Barex ruffled his wet hair. "Well. You have balls. Derek can't call you 'pussy boy' anymore."

"I shouldn't have hidden. I should have just done what he wanted." Moku said quietly. "I better go."

He slowly swam to the edge and got out of the freezing water, body shivering and skin unnaturally pale.

Derek kept his eyes adverted the whole time.

Kadell wondered aimlessly through the forest, deep in thought. He should have never let the cat stay. He should have forced him to leave. And now it was too late.

He ran a hand through his hair, gripping it painfully.

Liolyn loved him. Loved him. It wasn't just sex anymore, that he could handle, but love? Love was completely different. Love was almost binding. Love deepened whatever that hell they had into a relationship. And now the cat wanted to stay with him? He couldn't stay even if Kadell wanted him to! It was spring now and his exile was over. The wolves will be looking for him to bring him back. He was too valuable to be thrown away completely. They needed him to hunt.

And they would eventually find him... and Liolyn.

If Liolyn was found then that would just ruin everything. The cat will know about the war and despise him! Even worse, Liolyn would be hunted and killed. He wouldn't be able to stop them. One or two wolves he could handle easily but the entire pack? No. It would just be bad.

He pressed his palms into his eyes as visions came back strong. He could see the faces of those he killed, the ones he was ordered to torture and slaughter. He could never get that out of his head. He could hear the screams echoing through his head and feel the blood dripping from his body.

Kadell collapsed to his knees, tears falling down his face.

Liolyn could never know, never know the horrors that he committed blindly during the war. Such unforgivable acts that he was ordered to do all for a futile war over land that wasn't even theirs.

But something began to dig through his subconscious, turning him back on track.

Liolyn loved him but did he love Liolyn?

Kadell fell forward with groaned, face pressing into the snow, hoping it would suffocate him.

Moku yelped as his back slammed painful against the wall of the cave. He looked up at Raklyn with fearful eyes that were begging with him.

Raklyn looked him over indifferently. "Where were you, boy?"

Moku swallowed hard, shrinking back. "In the lake."

"All through mating season?"

There was a crack as Moku was slapped. His head whipped to the side, white hair cascading over his face. He trembled violently, blinking back tears. "N-No... I was with Derek."

"Oh, really." He snatched Moku's wrists and slammed them over his head, crossing them and holding them there with one hand. "And what did you and my grandson do, hmm? Did you fuck? Look at me!" He grabbed the boy's chin and forced him to meet his eyes. "Did he fuck you? I bet you would have liked that. Him driving into you as you panted like the little bitch in heat you are."

Tears weld up and spilled from Moku's eyes. "N-No. We slept. That's all."

Raklyn chuckled darkly. "I highly doubt that, boy. He is just like me, created in my image, and you... you were created for pleasure." Grey eyes slid over his body hungrily, his hand leaving Moku's face in favor of running down his neck. "You're no good at anything else. Hunting? Too weak." His hand ran down his chest. "Your sense of smell is pathetic." He continued downward, passed his torso. "You're useless." His cupped the boy and Moku yelped, struggling.

"Stop!"

Raklyn smirked. "You like that, don't you?" He rubbed and Moku choked out a sob. He leaned forward and whispered. "You're getting hard."

Moku bowed his head, tears running freely down his face, and tried to jerk away. "Please... don't."

Raklyn's tongue ran up the curve of his ear. "You have no purpose in life but to be screwed hard, fast, and endlessly." His hand left to reach around and grab the boy's ass, kneading it. "Your ass just begs to be fucked just like your mother's whole body screamed to be used."

Moku's eyes squeezed shut, crying audibly now. "Don't..."

Raklyn hissed. "You watched, didn't you? She would hide you when we came for you and offer her body instead. She was a whore, just like you. But a beautiful whore, unlike you. You're disgusting."

Moku twisted his wrists, testing Raklyn's hold. "Stop... I don't want to hear it anymore..."

Raklyn pulled Moku's hips forward to grind his own against them. "Disgusting. You're hard for someone you hate. Utterly disgusting, pitiful, and worthless."

Moku gave up struggling, sniffling and trying to black out.

Raklyn whispered softly. "I'm going to fuck you dry now, boy, and if you scream I'll only go harder and rip you apart. I may even go after your little friends or maybe Kadell might never come back. There are dangerous creatures in the forest. He's only one man."

Moku was trembling, eyes tightly shut. He felt like vomiting. He wanted to die.

"Raklyn!"

The wolf demon paused, claws digging into Moku. "What now, Derek?"

Derek stood in the entrance, casually leaning against the stone wall and studying his claws. "They're going hunting and wanted to know if you wanted to join them."

Raklyn ground out through clenched teeth. "I'm busy."

"So you're going to pass?"

"YES!"

Derek raised his brows in surprise. "... Really?"

Raklyn shook with rage. "Yes."

"Okay, if you say so."

Raklyn bit his tongue, thinking momentarily, before his curiosity got the better of him. "Why?"

Derek smirked. "Well, some of the other wolves-you know which ones-said you were getting too old and it was a waste of time asking you or even bringing you along. They said you would just drag them down."

Raklyn's eyes darkened, pinpoints of silver showing. "They said that?"

"Yep."

"..."

"..."

"Fucking bastards!" He released Moku and the boy collapse back, shaking. "I'm not too old."

Derek nonchalantly chewed on one claw to sharpen it. "That's what I said but they just laughed."

Raklyn stalked out. "I'll fucking kill them."

"Have fun."

Raklyn snapped back at Moku. "Get the fuck up and do your job! Worthless brat."

Derek waited until Raklyn left and was far away before even looking at Moku. "Are you okay?"

Moku didn't say anything, staring at the ground. He could still feel the lingering sensation of Raklyn's hands. He whimpered, closing his thighs tightly and hugging his knees.

Derek hesitated, concern written all over his face. "Did he... he didn't do anything too bad, right?"

Moku breathed in shuttering breaths, tears still running down his face. "What the hell do you think?"

Derek flinched back. "I'm s-"

"Shut up!" Moku let out a sob before furiously wiping his face. "He's right. You're just like him: selfish and cruel. You make me feel horrible about myself and you hit me for no reason... you're just like him..."

Derek didn't know what to say to that, his eyes wide.

Moku pushed off the ground, back pressing against the wall. "I have to go."

Derek watched him. "H-How can you say that?!" His rage started to get the better of him. "How can you say I'm 'just like him'?! I am NOT LIKE HIM! If I was, you would have been thoroughly fucked by now! I wouldn't have listened to your request! You would be unconscious in my room and unable to sit, let alone walk!"

Moku walked passed him and Derek snatched his arm. "What is this 'job' he was talking about? What are you going to do?"

Blue eyes wouldn't rise to look at him. "I have to go."

Derek studied him for a moment, hand gripping his bicep a little too hard as he tied to calm. "Moku... if you do what he wants he will still use you. It won't change anything."

"I have to go."

Derek looked desperately at him for a few more seconds before letting that too thin arm slide from his hold.

A snow rabbit peeked over the snow, surveying the scenery slowly. The only tip of its twitching nose could be seen. Velvet ear swiveled, listening closely.

After a careful analysis, it determined it was safe.

Snow sprayed out before the rabbit hopped onto it. A hind leg scratched an ear before its sense of danger shot off.

It leapt to its hole but powerful jaws snapped around it, breaking its back.

With a flurry of snow, Kadell rolled to a stop, breathing heavily and dilated eyes flashing.

He dropped the poor creature, sitting on the wet ice. The warming weather was turning it into slosh instead of fluffy white. He just hoped it warmed faster.

He basked in the glow of a job well done before it was blown away by the artic breeze of fear.

The rabbit reminded him of Liolyn which brought back the avoided topic of love.

Kadell smiled. Liolyn, the snow bunny. It suited him.

Stupid rabbit.

Kadell flopped back, staring up at the hazy sky. He now had food and had to go back home and face an apprehensive Liolyn and, possibly, a love confession. And then he would have to respond.

He heard rustling but the creature was down wind and he didn't really care what it was.

"Kadell?"

Fuck.

The wolf demon sat up to glare at the other. "Did you so easily forget my threat, Moku? Go. Away."

Moku stared down at him with frightened blue eyes. He was trembling and his eyes gave away his previous crying.

"Please, Kadell... don't send me away."

A distant memory of the same words but said in a different tone echoed in his mind.

Kadell's voice was softer. "You should go back."

It looked like the boy was about to burst into tears. "No! Kadell, please! Let me stay!"

"And then what?" Kadell snapped angrily. "Are we going to make passionate love only for you to lie afterwards!"

Moku flinched back. "No-"

"You betrayed me, Moku. If you didn't want to have sex then you should have just fucking told me and I would have stopped!"

"It's not that!" Moku looked frantic. "I did want you, Kadell, and still do! I love you! And I want to sleep with you, I've always have! I was really happy when you kissed me and when you were touching me. I wanted you so badly. I wanted you to love me. But when Derek walked in I just... froze. I was scared. I was scared they were going to exile me too and I would die. I'm not like you, Kadell. If you were exiled, you would survive."

"So... what? You just decided to scream for Derek, have him kick me off and cling to him like he was your last hope? I could have protected you!"

Moku collapsed to his knees in front of the older wolf, trembling, tears streaming down his face. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... If I would do it all over, I would choose you. I would rather be freezing to death with you than living warmly with them any longer."

Kadell stared at the boy, noting the bruise on his left cheek. But even with that he was still beautiful. He now remembered what fist drew him to the boy. His mind reeled as the memory of how he tasted, how hot their bodies were pressed together, came rushing back. He remembered the passion, the raw need that filled that cave six months ago.

He crawled forward, cupping the boy's face, tilting it to examine the mark. He leaned towards him and gave it a healing lick. Moku took a sharp intake of breath and looked at him with pleading eyes. He lean forward and pressed his lips to Kadell's.

Kadell distantly noted that they were trembling and wet from tears but also soft and welcoming.

Moku whispered. "I love you, Kadell."

And there were those three forbidden words. They echoed in his mind and brought up panting ones from a different voice.

He cupped the boy's face and kissed him again, tongue slipping into his mouth. Moku moaned, wrapping his arms around his neck and opening for him.

There was something about this kiss that was so different. It was weak and a little unsure, tongue wrapping with his. He didn't taste like how he wanted. It wasn't as hungry as what they had before.

But he didn't stop.

Before he knew it he was pushing Moku against a tree, the boy panting and moaning before him as he sucked and bit his neck. He rubbed against the boy's ass, shivering at the friction and moans from Moku that it produced.

But it wasn't right. Something was off...

He was plunging into the boy roughly and hard in his need to make it feel right. He grunted, slamming harder, not listening to Moku's cries. He shut his eyes tightly, driving towards something that he couldn't reach, couldn't get.

He head snapped back and he gasped, shivered as his climax ripped through him. He continued to grind against the boy, emptying himself completely.

He felt empty, unsatisfied and dirty.

He pulled out and distantly noted the scent of blood but his mind was spinning, searching for what was wrong.

And he knew immediately.

Moku wasn't Liolyn.