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Hello guys! Sorry I haven't been really writing much......well at least not on my stories.....for those who don't know I have a ton of research papers I'm working on in a class and I've been pretty busy with it. As you can see I have decided to end this series before I begin my new one. Thank you all for your patience and I hope I will make it up to you. I suppose this was my only way to show I wasn't dead or something. Enjoy!

(Ralph's view)

The whole carride back to the inn...I was shaking and screaming....I couldn't believe it.....I-I killed someone.........he hardly looked any older then me! I shot him without hesitation.......I-I'm a monster?!?

"I'm a fucking monster" I mumbled to myself.

"It wasn't your fault Ralph! The cop got in the way! He should have known he was risking his life!" Kelly said driving and taking sharp turns.

"I-I FUCKING KILLED HIM! I-I SHOULD HAVE TRIED TO SHOT NEXT TO HIS HEAD OR SOMETHING! A WARNING SHOT! BUT I FUCKING KILLED HIM!" I scream with tears filling my eyes.

"Ralph for the love of god! It isn't your fault!" Johnny shouted pulling me into a hug.....but I pushed him away. Johnny's head hit the window hard and everyone looked at me with amazed eyes......what the hell have I become?

I don't know what dark madness entered me....but I felt numb.......yet full.....of regret, and sadness......I was a murderer now....all the papers were right.....just a time bomb waiting to explode.........I-I-

No one talked to me until we reached the inn. I stormed out of the car heading start in it. All the others were yelling for me.

"Ralph!" Nick shouted but I continued my way into the inn and slammed the front door hard nearly breaking the glass.

The inn clerked looked at me with scared and shocked eyes and I pushed him out of the way to the storeroom looking for the one thing I always heard repaired or at least numbed a broken heart or mind............The one thing I swore never to touch........alcohol......

"Ralph man! Stop! This isn't like you!" Jack shouted with Henry right behind him ready to stop me by force.

"FUCK YOU! JUST LET ME GET A DRINK AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" I screamed as I started to pick up bottle after bottle and stuff them whereever in my jacket I could.

"Henry stop him before he hurts himself or someone else!" Jack said

Henry was then right behind me trying to put my arms behind my back......he was strong....but I was slippery.....mostly because of my thin stature compared to him....and the sweat all over my body.....and the endless tears running down my face.

I managed to wiggle my arms out of the hold and then I reached into my jacket and pulled out the very gun that started this mess.......the very gun I used to kill someone with and pointed it right at Henry and then at Jack.

"STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME OR ELSE I'LL KILL YOU TOO!" I shouted with my sadness and emotions controlling my actions. Henry backed away slowly with his hands in the air....he may be big but a bullet in the head would stop him....n-not that I want to kill him....but I didn't mean to kill the cop either....I-FUCK!

"Ralph man! Just calm down! Lets talk this over!" Caleb shouted noticing Jack and Henrys situation......the clerk ran up the stairs scared for his life no doubt.

"J-J-JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I shouted running up the stairs like the clerk did and then I ran straight to my room and I locked the door.

I scream once more banging my fist against the door so hard......some wood started to split....and my hand started to bleed......this did nothing to the pain in my mind.....it felt like nothing compared to the pain in my heart........I-I thought I was a hero....A FUCKING ROBIN HOOD CHARACTER BUT I'M A MURDERER! I DESERVE TO DIE! I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE!

I started to move slowly away from the door and I continued to walk away from it until the hit the wall with my back......I was breathing heavily......I don't know how many tears I had......but right now.....it felt like I had an ocean of them....

I huddled myself to the corner and buried my face into my knees and then my hands......an overwhelming feeling of sadness and regret washing all over me..........and then hatred..........hatred for myself....

I looked into my jacket and pulled out the first bottle of booze I found and twisted it open with great force....my hand still bleeding from the banging on the door mixing in with the contains as I poured down the whole thing down my throat. My tears runnign down my face also got into the mixture and the booze tasted awful....it was salty and disgusting....and I felt none of the 'numbing' happening...

I then threw my empty bottle against the wall and broke open the next bottle once again drinking the horrible mixture saying one thing over and over again.........

"I'm Sorry.........I'm sorry" I said nearly thinking I was right in front of the young cop again..........I was a monster.

(Melvin's view)

I was in the hospital.........waiting in the guest room..............but I knew Tucker was dead..........and its all my fault.......I should have done more! It should be me dead and Tucker............but then.........he would be in my position......crying...miserable.........Oh god Tucker.

I waited for what seemed like hours........so this is what life is going to be like without Tucker?........its horrible.........I hate it..........but as time passed......one thing was on my mind.........my heart, mind, and emotions may be sinking......but one thing was growing........revenge........pure-burning REVENGE!

I don't know which gang member killed Tucker but it doesn't matter! No more Dead or Alive posters! No more prisons or interviews! Kill on site! Shot at first sight! The gang has no place in this world! Kill them all! And I'll be the one.......I'll be the one who watches them all die!........and I'll laugh........I laugh at their misery! Their agony! Watching them slowly bleed to death! Or be burned alive! For all the pain their causing me now!

Before I could continue my thoughts a fat man along with a few other cops walked into the waiting room walking right at me.......Hubert.......his tone was about as pissed as mine.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE YOU USELESS FURBALL?!? FUCKING LEAVING YOUR POST JUST TO HUNT DOWN THE GANG?!? I SWEAR I'LL-"

"Do what you want" I said interupting him

"WHAT DID YOU SAY?!?" Hubert shouted pissed as all hell

"I said do what you have to.......demote me.....fire me.....but know this." I said standing up and looking down at him growling.

"I will personal see the whole gang die....." I said as I walked out the door and into the streets again...........this was war know Johnny Makarov gang........and I plan on taking no prisoners.......

(Jamie's View)

I went out with Anne to some local shops but it did nothing to get Ralph out of my mind......was he alright? Did he get hurt? Can we go to Italy now? I wanted to know and so did Anne......We should have known shopping was a complete waste of time.

We walked all the way back to the inn to see both a hopeful yet scary site.......the car was back......but it was littered in bullet holes..........and the tension outside I felt it.........Something bad happened......Ralph!

Anne was probably thinking the same thing as me as both our tails stood up and our fur was puffed out in fear....we both rushed into the door to see everyone inside the lounge.....looking sad......and depressed......like they've been through hell

Anne ran straight to Jack and the both shared a passionate hug and kiss.........and I was looking for my comfort....my boyfriend.........my love.

Henry...........Kelly.........Jack.............Nick...........Johnny.........Caleb............W-WHERE'S RALPH?.......W-W-WHERE IS RALPH?!?! I felt tears already flooding my eyes.....no.................No............NOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Johnny looked at Jack and Anne and gave them a pat on the back...........but when he looked at me..........God no.....P-Please NO! I felt my knees give out and I felt.......dead........Johnny ran up to me and helped me to my feet again.......but I was already crying......Ralph....

"Jamie! Jamie! Are you alright?!" Johnny asked concerned

"No.........I-I'm not alright.........R-Ralph's not with you......h-he died.........I can see it in all your faces.......something terrible happened and Ralphs not with you all............RALPH'S DEAD!" I said crying into Johnny's shirt.

"No-NO! Ralph is alive! He's upstairs in his room!-"

I felt me heart soar into the sky.....R-Ralph.........is alive?! I looked right into Johnnies eyes.........and I could tell....he wasn't lying Ralph was alive! Oh thank you! Thank you!

"Oh thank you god.......I-I though something terrible happened." I said trying to regain my emotions.

But when I looked at them all.......it still felt.........wrong.........Ralph isn't dead........but......

"Johnny? Whats wrong?" I asked waiting for him.....any of them to answer.

After what seemed like hours but only minutes passed I finally got my answer.........from Nick

"The job was intense and their were.......problems...........Ralph feel behind and was nearly arrested by a cop." Nick said......Nick....he seemed so...cold now.....and I felt something bad happened...........Maybe....R-Ralph was arrested?! Or shot?!

"Oh no....he-hes not injured is he?!" I said feeling my tears form again....

"No.......he's alright......or at least.......physical he is..." Nick said sadly.....w-what was going on

"W-What happened?"

"Ralph and a cop had a close encounter...........they both fired their weapons.......Ralph wasn't hit.......but...the cop.....he was shot in the heart........and we think hes dead..........Ralph......hes-hes not taking it well" Kelly said looking at the floor with a distant face.

Ralph.........Killed someone?.........My Ralph?

"Ralph killed a cop? No...not him!" I said not believing it.

"Ralph locked himself upstairs a few hours ago.......we think he plans on drinking himself to death....everytime we tried to open the door........it was locked....and...........god please someone else say this for me?" Jack said feeling terrible for Jamie as he comforted Anne.

"He threatened to kill himself" Henry said calmly but still feeling a bit bad for Jamie...

Ralph?..........he-hes going to kill himself?.......W-Why? I have to stop him I-I

"Please let me talk to him! I can calm him down! He obviously not himself!" I said begging for my chance.

Johnny and everyone else looked at each other and gave a small nod of approvale......I think even they knew....If I couldn't calm Ralph down...no one could.

"You have the key right?" Caleb asked

I nodded my head.

"Then go ahead.....don't do anything to startle him....hes very unstable right now" Caleb said as a warning.

"Thank you....I promise......Ralph will be himself again when I'm done." I said heading up the stairs to Ralph's room....I could hear the others say.

"Ohh man....forget this! Lets just use the key and force Ralph to get out of the gang! Hes had enough!" Hnery distant voice said.

"Did you take it well when you killed that agent Henry?!" Johnny's distant voice asked.........then no one said anything

I made my way to the door and knocked on it gently.

"R-Ralph?" I asked

"Go away...I'll do it I swear!" Ralph said behind the door and he sounded....awful.....not himself......what happened to you Ralph?

"Ralph.....its me Jamie....please let me in...." I begged softly.

"J-Jamie? I-H-How do I know the rest of the guys are behind you?! Waiting to force me to rob more banks?!" Ralph shouted in his anger tone.

"Because you know you trust me more then that Ralph.....its just me....and you know it" I said...even he should remember that...

"I-I can't go to the door.....y-you have your key right?" He asked.

"Yeah I do Ralph" I said putting the key into the lock and slowly opening the door.

I heard numerous clanks of bottles and shattered remains of bottles as I opened the door....and all these bottles had an aroma to them....alcohol.......how much could one man drink? There was enough for 10 men in here!

I looked at he floor then all around the room....it was dark....the lights were off....but I saw in the corner.....the once happy and loving man I knew with a beer in his hand...and a pistol in the other.....he was looking right at me with......oh my.....red eyes....that looked like they haven't slept in days...he suit was dirty and smelled of flith....god Ralph....how bad are you taking this?

"R-Ralph?" I asked concerned for him but I didn't pounce right at him...I remembered Caleb's warning

"J-Jamie.......do I deserve life?" He asked

"Ralph.." I said feeling such pity for him...of course he deserved life.

"Do I?!" He said loudly demanding an answer.

"Of course you do Ralph." I said moving closer to him

"No I fucking don't.......I'm a goddamn monster......a fucking freak of nature! A MURDERER! A HATED THING THROUGH TIME!" He shouted angrly at my direction....but the words were for himself.

"Ralph...your not a monster....you know that....you made a mistake....its not your fault." I said sitting next to I wanted to lean against him and take the gun out of his hands....but....he was stronger....and Calebs warning....

"IT IS MY FAULT! I killed someone Jamie! A person! A person with emotions and dreams just like us! A person who had a family and loved ones....and I killed him.....like he was nothing." He said looking at the door like his eyes were always fixed on them.

"Ralph....your not taking it like its nothing.....Ralph.....I love you.....nothing you could ever do will make me not love you." I said brushing my tail around his back. He jumped at first contact but he relaxed again.

"No Jamie......you loved a man who had morals.....who had a goal in life....who loved doing good things and loved life..........and I lost them all....the Ralph you know....is gone." He said with his eyes wanting to cry but it looked like he cried all his tears.

"But your right here Ralph! Your right in front of me and I still love you! I'm...........I'm somewhat glad.......your taking it this badly..." I said thinking maybe pouring out my emotions would stop him. He looked at me with a confused face...before he could even say what I answered him

"If you killed a man......and acted like it was nothing......you would be a monster then......killing like it was no big deal......but if by accident....you did kill someone.......if you cried and felt such regret and sadness you had now....it shows you are not a monster Ralph.....you have morals Ralph.....that you did care for life Ralph.....why do look at your life and think its like nothing? Do you think killing yourself will solve this?" I asked

"I made a vow Jamie...when I was little.....not to ever kill anyone.....most of all.....never a furry...as they raised me and treated me better then my own kind......I thought I could prove to both humans and furries that a human raised by a furries could be successful.....could be a good guy..........but now......it feels like I gave that up......that I gave up my past......." he said looking at me with sad eyes

"Ralph.......what about me?' I asked looking down.

"W-What?" He said before....I just let my anger take over me. I tackled Ralph to the ground and knocked the gun and the booze out of his hand and started yelling right in his face.

"I SAID WHAT ABOUT ME?!?! DID YOU THINK THAT KILLING YOURSELF WOULD MAKE ME SAY 'OH HE KILLED A MAN AT LEAST HE KILLED HIMSELF SO I CAN FORGIVE HIM'!!!!!! RALPH!!!! WHO ARE YOU RIGHT NOW?!?! WHAT HAPPENED TO MY RALPH?!?! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH MY RALPH?!?! ARE YOU REALLY THIS SELFISH RALPH?!?! WERE YOU ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT YOURSELF?!?! DID YOU REALLY THINK I WOULD GO ON IN LIFE HAPPILY KNOWING YOU WERE DEAD?!?!

"J-Jamie I-"

"YOU THINK I WANT TO GO TO ITALY ALONE?!?! YOU THINK I WANT TO MARRY SOME OTHER MAN AND HAVE KIDS WITH HIM?!?! I WASN'T SELFISH RALPH!! I WANTED TO BARE YOUR CHILDREN! I WANTED TO MOVE TO ITALY WITH YOU AND YOU ONLY WANTED ME RIGHT?!?! SO KILLING YOURSELF WAS THE BEST OPTION FOR THAT?!?! YOUR PATHEITC RALPH...YOUR............YOUR......

I collasped on top of him my sadness overcoming me anger

"Your my boyfriend.....my lover...........my soulmate..............I don't have anyone else but you now....if you killed yourself....I-I......I just don't know what I'd do! Please Ralph.....just say you forgive yourself....please say......you'll stay.....that we'll go to Italy no matter what...." I begged....if he said anything else.......that gun....maybe I should use it on myself......

"I will.......I-I was wrong Jamie.....I have been thinking only of myself....I should have taken your feelings into account.....I-I only shot that man....because I wanted to stay with you no matter what........I wanted to live for you......Killing myself would be a million times worse then having another man kill me.....Jamie?......" He asked but something was holding him back.

"Yes Ralph?....You can say whatever is on your mind..." I said feeling Ralph really coming back to me.

"Do you really want to bare my children?" He asked with......a smile

I giggled and hugged him tight.

"You bet I do.....and we'll have 10 of them...all girls of course." I said giggling in his chest ignoring the flith

"Oh the hell we will" He said chuckling as he returned the hug...and gave me a kiss.....

"Jamie.....is it okay if I gave my share of the job to the cop's family....as my way of saying I'm sorry?" He asked

"Oh course Ralph"

Ralph was my soulmate.....my future....my very reason why I love..........and he was mine...........I wanted him more then anything in the whole world........no amount of money could ever put a price on that.....

"I love you Ralph"

"I love you too Jamie...........I'm sorry for worrying you so much"

"I'm sorry......"

(Melvin's view)

Two weeks have passed since that horrible day.....Tuckers death.........I visited his family and gave my regrets and vows to them......along with it......30,000 dollars.....my entire lifesavings......Then I heard from the family that they also recieved 50,000 from another unidentified person.....at least there are some kind people like myself in the world....unlike the gang....I promised the family that I wouldn't stop until the gang was wiped out.

They told me do whatever I wished and asked for their privacy to grief for their lost relative....I respected their wishes and gave my final farewell to Tuckers gravestone.........I will avenge you Tucker.......My life is nothing now except for revenge....and when the gang falls.......I'll join you in heaven....

Thats right suicide......my wife and kid are gone...and good ridance! I don't want to see them in heaven or hell! I want Tucker and no one else!

Hubert didn't fire me amazingly....probably because ever since Tuckers death.....my record has gone up.....I've made more arrests, brought down more criminals, and look more organized......but my heart was dead......that.......was in complete disarray.

I was in my office going over paperwork before I heard a knock on my door....I looked up to see Hubert with a fancy suit.....that meant something was going on. I motioned for him to enter and he locked the door behind him. I stood up and said in my professional tone.

"Hubert....what do I owe the pleasure of your visit CJF President?" I said calmly....I felt so dead inside.

"Something that could bring the whole Makarov gang down..." He said with nod knowing it would gain my attention.

"What would that be?" I asked eager to know.

"We'll talk in my car....theres someone we have to meet." He said

Next thing I knew I was riding shotgun in Huberts new car eager to know what was going on.

"Sir can you tell me where were going?" I asked

"To a diner.....Tell me Melvin...how badly do you want to take down the gang?" He asked

"More then anything sir"

"Good...then I think its safe to tell you that we really haven't been playing by the rules."

"What do you mean sir?"

"Remember Tom's death and the offical report?"

"It said we traced down the gang and ambushed them......right?"

"In the report....yes.....in real life.....no"

"What do you mean?" I asked

"We can't take down the gang by tracing them...their to fast and the public loves them.....so how else do you get to them?" Hubert asked

"I don't know sir."

"Someone............from the inside"

"T-Theres a rat in the gang? Who? Is it one of the members?!" I asked amazed by this.....I hope it isn't the one who killed Tucker...I-I don't know if I could work with the one who killed Tucker.

"Where here" Hubert said leaving me with no answer and I desperate to know.

We walked into the diner and looked around......it was pretty slow except for a few men at the front drinking coffee and a figure wearing a large hat sitting in the back corner....that was the rat....Hubert and I approached the figure and sat opposite of the informate......

Whoever it was they had a slim yet firm figure....thin legs yet somewhat defined...and a tail.......of a tiger....

"Melvin......meet Anne Sage....Ripper Claw Jack's girlfriend" Hubert said as Anne removed her hat with a smirk.

So Ralph has forgiven himself for the murder but is everything fine and well now or is disaster on the horizon? Is Anne really a traitor? Or is she planning something to benefit the gang? Find out in the next part of Public Enemies. See you all later!