A Discovery Virgin Love
Even though it baffles me sometimes to remember the first time I found the fleshie fandom it hard for me to imagine life without it at this point. Even sitting here right now typing this out, I remember the first time I ever I found the depths of depravity that has completely consumed my life since.
I remember the day clearly, it was just after my 16th birthday. I had just got onto my new computer I had received as a gift the day prior. Knowing what I heard from the other guys at school I knew the internet was a source of all forms of debauchery, and my 16 year old libido had all but complete control over me.
I couldn't wait to get home from school and sign on to see how far I could dive into the world that I never knew existed until this day.
I started in the search engine and typed in almost every sexual word I could think of. The pages were endless as the imagination goes.
This was the first time I saw the fleshie porn. I had always been interested in them, but I never knew there was a name for it.
There was just something about them. Their relatively smooth hairless bodies, the way their bodies and facial features where formed, the power and sexual essence that some of the more muscular males portrayed. It fascinated me, in a way I never quite understood.
I had just found the queen mother load of fleshie porn when I heard my dad walk in the front door.
"SEAN! GET YOUR ASS OUT HERE NOW!"
My father was a smaller horse being a mustang, but despite that he always scared the shit out of me. Cowardly, I walked out to see what it is he wanted
"What the fuck is this shit, Sean? What did I tell you about leaving your school shit out on my fucking chair?"
With that he took my book bag and threw it at me, hitting me in the chest and about knocking me over.
"This is the LAST fucking time IM gonna tell you boy. Leave this fucking SHIT in my chair again and I am going to fuck you up." "Now go put your shit away and bring me a fucking beer!"
I moved as fast as I could without flat out running, putting my things in my room and jogging back to the kitchen to get him a bottle of his beloved Studwieser. Like always he already had his dirty pants and shirt off laying on the floor next to his chair watching sports highlights, scratching his balls through his dirty sweaty underwear.
I will give the old man a few things, one being he always worked his ass off. I never fully understood all the details of the construction site, but I knew he worked hard. Even though he was middle age, the constant work still kept him in pretty damn good shape.
"Sean, you gonna give me my beer or are ya gonna keep starting at me like a little faggot?"
He startled me and snatching the beer out of my hand.
"Boy I don't know what's wrong with you, but between your clothes and your friends you really fuckin' piss me off sometimes. Especially that little faggot fox you always bring over here."
I could not do anything but stare at the floor and fight back the tears
"Fuck off boy, you're ruining my ME time"
I sheepishly shuffled my hooves back to my bedroom and closed the door. I noticed a blinking icon on my computer, it was Adam, the fox my father despises so much.
GothFox16:Hey Sean can I cum over? Cockycolt13:yeah but don't come around the the front door. Come to my window, my dad is in one of his moods <:(
GothFox16: No Prob dude. Be there in 15. I got something you're gonna love ;) Cockycolt13:cool beans see ya soon
I had roughly 15 minutes of alone time before Adam was gonna get here, so I quickly browsed the fleshie porn, opening a few windows of random vids and pulled my shorts down in teenage boy masturbatory anticipation.
The first vid was some exotic Swedish species of fleshies, with blonde hair, blue eyes, and fair skin. It was a boy and girl bout my age, in their weird style of missionary sex. It was so foreign to me yet it was a good start to get me going. I had a small bottle of hoof softening lotion I stole from my friend's mom the week before. I started rubbing it all over on my equine shaft being sure to use only the soft parts of my palms and already feeling the tingling sensation all over my body.
Soon though I got bored with that vid and opened the next window. I assure you that I didn't know this when I opened it, but this was gay fleshie porn. My automatic instincts were to close the window in disgust, but there was just something about it. It was like a horrible train wreck that I just couldn't look away from. This was fleshie porn from someplace called the Czech republic, and twin brothers on top of it. At first I couldn't believe my eyes. I was shocked and horrified, yet intrigued and fascinated all at once. At first they were just licking each other all over completely naked. Both blonde haired and blue eyed, like the first video but with darker complexions and different features.
They both had a really nice build like they swam a lot. Their owners must have took very good care of them. In my bewilderment, I noticed my member was throbbing. I couldn't remember a time ever before in my teenage life that I was ever so turned on. I kept watching, stroking my cock and feeling myself all over like my own cheap 5 dollar whore.
Just when their licking, kissing, and sucking of each other had almost brought me to my climax, the more dominant of the two brothers, took his more submissive sibling and turned him around, bending him over and revealing his tight pucker of an ass. I just watched in awe as he started burying his face in his brother's ass. I had to immediately take my hand off my cock and squeeze my balls so tight it hurt to keep myself from cumming. I was seriously about to explode.
My cock throbbing hard, I bit the end of my fingerhooves like I was watching a horror film. But instead of fear all I felt was a complete state of never before experienced ignorant sexual bliss. He moved his tongue up his brothers asscrack and licked up his back to his shoulder, standing up and grabbing his fairly good sized fleshy member, spitting on it and then starting to try to grind it his submissive brothers anus.
After a minute or two, he had worked it in, his brother moaning in pleasure and started thrusting into him. As I was watching this and without even touching my own member I knew I was ready to pop at any moment, but I just had to see the video to its completion before I would allow myself to finish.
It went on for several minutes and I became so infatuated with it, I completely lost track of time. Since I wouldn't touch my own cock, I just ran my hands over my chest, pretending like I was there and I was feeling what they were feeling. I tried to imagine exactly what it would feel like. I tried to imagine the smells and the taste and what it would actually feel like. How great would it be to bury my cock into a real life fleshie, and my real life fleshie brother on top of it. It was disgusting and shameful but inwardly I loved it.
With my throbbing colt cock resting on my keyboard oozing precum, and with me lying back in my chair still feeling myself up like my own cheap slut, is when I heard the sound.
"Click"
Immediately I turned around, and there was Adam with his camera phone.
"ADAM WHAT THE FUCK DUDE!?"
"Sean I have no idea what I am going to do with this pic, but what ever I do, it will be epic."
I scrambled to get my shorts up so fast I fell out of my chair onto the floor, all the while with Adam laughing at me. I was so embarrassed and so ashamed. As I was lying on my back on the floor, shorts halfway up, my cock still half hard and hanging out part way, I hear the moans and realize the video is still playing, and now Adam is standing over the top of me taking another pic on his camera phone.
"Click"
He looked down at me with this shit eating grin.
"Dude...all I can say is ROFLcopter"
I covered my face with my hands and tried not to cry out of morbid,God awful embarrassment. Probably the most fortunate thing about this situation for me is Adam was my best friend. If this was anybody else, I probably would have died on the spot
In true fox nature I guess he had to notice my junk, and then the comments from the peanut gallery begun.
"Holy crap dude, so what they say about horses is true. How fucking big is that thing anyway?"
I tried to tuck my cock all the way back into my shorts, it just barely made it but was still defiantly visible through my clothing
"Adam please please PLEASE don't tell anybody about this. You know if my dad ever found out about this, he would beat the shit outta me!"
"Dude I know I wont say anything to anybody, and I'm sorry for fucking with you. But im keeping the pics"
He winked at me and grinned,......a fucking bastard fox he is.
"DUDE! What the fuck? Why?!"
Adam just giggled through a little fox grin.
"No reason in particular. Maybe just blackmail at a later time."
He winked at me again and reached out his paw to help me up. I stood up next to Adam and tried my best to fix my shorts and took a few steps over to my computer, and shut it off as quickly as I could. I turned around and faced Adam, and he was smiling at me in a way that definitely creeped me out.
"So, uh, yeah, Sean, so when did you start looking at "GAY" fleshie porn?"
I fumbled to make an excuse, but I was so embarrassed, nothing would come out of my muzzle but "ums" and mumbling stutters.
"Dude its ok, I've looked at that stuff before too, and the only reason I am telling you this now isn't just because I just busted you red-hoofed, but mainly because you're my best friend and I trust you." "And also because Sean, ......I think this is a better time to tell you than any,but I think I'm gay myself" He paused for a second or two,and I squinted at him.
"Well ok,I "know" im gay."
I was taken back but not surprised, he was my best friend and I cared about him, but most people, especially my father called Adam the neighborhood faggot fox anyway, and his sexual orientation has been in question since he was like 5.
"Adam, its cool dude, you'll always be my best friend no matter what...well as long as you never tell anybody that you seen my watching gay fleshy porn, anyway."
I returned the wink to Adam and he smiled at me, reaching over and hugging me. But this time Adam did something he had never done before and kissed me on the cheek. It surprised me and I just looked at him, and then I was confused. I tried to process these feelings combined with the feelings that I had had a few minutes before while watching the gay fleshie porn. I was still a virgin and had never had sex before with anyone or anything, either male or female. I knew Adam never had either, or at least so I had thought, but that story comes later.
Out of morbid curiosity from all this new openness I asked.
"Adam, why do you think that you're gay?"
"I think I just know"
He winked at me again.
"Adam, if you've never had sex with a guy or a girl how could you know that you like guys more?"
The look on Adams face went from a sinister grin to a look of worry and he looked away.
"Sean I just know, please leave it at that."
My curiosity just got the best of me, this was a side of Adam I had never seen before, I probably should have just left it alone, and looking back now, that may have been the smart thing to do.
"Come on Adam, you're hiding something. Don't act like a bitch, if you can tell anybody, you can tell me".
Adam sat there looking at the ground for a few seconds and looked up at me about to speak but paused for a minute, and I could see tears welling up in his eyes.
"You really wanna know Sean? ........You can't just leave this alone?"
No I just thought to myself...I couldn't leave this alone, I just had to know. I didn't say anything to Adam I just looked him in the eyes, and he knew that I wouldn't leave him alone until he told me.
"Yes Sean, I am the neighborhood faggot fox, just like everyone says I am, and I know people make fun of you sometimes for being my best friend, especially your dad. I'm sure some of them even think that we're some sort of fucked up gay lovers, even though we're not."
And as he was talking I saw the first tear fall from the corner of his eye down his furred cheek
The truth is Sean, is that if wishes or dreams could actually come true, we actually would be together. I have loved you more then a friend as long as I can remember now......but as your dad loves to say, "We can all wish in one paw and shit in the other and see with one fills up first"......My life is, and always has just been a steaming pile of shit. The only good thing in my life has been you."
What Adam just told me made my heart sink in my chest, I couldn't understand how I could care about somebody so much yet be so scared and confused by them at the same time. I don't know why but I just walked over to him and hugged him. He collapsed in my arms and started crying like a baby.
"Sean please don't hate me, if you never wanna talk to me again or don't wanna be my friend anymore I can understand. But just please don't hate me."
He said this to me and continued to cry into my chest fur and my heart sank even deeper.
"Adam its ok, you're still,and always will be my best friend"
As soon as I told Adam that he just gripped me tight. It's a good thing that he's so much smaller then me, because any other fur closer to my own size I wouldn't have been able to hold up for so long .
But even Adam in his smaller stature started to become heavy after several minutes. With the last of my strength I picked Adam up and carried him over to my bed and we laid on our sides, still hugging each other with him still sobbing. In my own head I was fighting a battle. So much about this situation was so fucked up, on levels I never knew possible before, But there was something still inside me telling me that I may actually feel the same way about him that he does for me....I didn't understand it and I didn't want to even acknowledge it, but it was there.
It was all so hard to wrap my thoughts around. What made it even worse is I knew if my father ever found out about any of this then not only would he beat the shit out of me, but this might be the situation that pushed him so far over the edge that he might try to hurt Adam too. These were all things my father must never find out about.
We laid there in my bed for another 20 minutes or so, but those few minutes felt like an eternity. There were so many raw feelings inside of me that I had never felt before for anyone or anything. I was so confused but in all the confusion all I knew was holding Adam close to me felt better then anything I had ever felt before. And instinctively without even thinking about it I found myself running my fingers up and down his sides and eventually running my fingers through the hair on his head between his ears. By now he stopped sobbing, and even thought he was just lying there with his eyes closed I could feel he was relaxed and the expression in his face told me he was relieved and happy there with me. And the funny thing was, I was happy there with him too.
A few more minutes went on and I noticed my hands working their way back down Adam's back, around his back side and down the back of his legs to the outside of his thighs . Against my better judgment I closed my eyes too. I kept exploring Adams body. Despite all the recent chaos we endured with each other, touching Adam this way started to arouse me. I felt my cock starting to swell in my shorts and I tried to move myself away from Adam just far enough that he wouldn't notice it, but my efforts failed. As soon as he felt my swelling member pushing up against him, he opened up his eyes and smiled at me. And it was no ordinary smile, it was definitely in such a way I had never seen him smile before in all the years I've known him.....all I could think to myself is 'what the fuck is going on here?!?"
I was embarrassed but sheepishly smiled back at him and he licked my muzzle. It sent shivers up and down my spine and I started to shake. At this point I could no longer move but I gave the fox enough reason to return the favor and he started to pet me and explore me with his paws in the same way I did him moments before. It felt so wonderful, but I was so scared and he knew it. It didn't stop him though
"Sean do you trust me?"
I couldn't speak, so I just looked up at him and gave a little nod. He smiled even bigger and just pushed me gently over flat on my back and started to unbutton my shorts. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine possible scenarios to come. I felt him reach his paw into my boxer briefs and grabbed my half hard cock into his paw, just massaging it. I opened my eyes just enough to look down at him and saw the amazement in his eyes. Ya it was big to most furries I guess.....12" at full length, but still I knew my older brother and dad were bigger and I probably would be just as big as them in another few years. Ironically however It was actually an embarrassment at times. Random wood in public places was the worst and almost impossible to hide, but overall it was mine and I was content with it...even if some of the guys at school made fun of me for it. My mind wandering off about my own cock was averted back to Adam as he started to gently lick the end of my glans, the feeling almost paralyzing me and bring me to full erection almost instantly.....wow that felt good.
Slowly and gently Adam started licking up and down the entire length of my shaft. It was awkward and we both struggled to get into proper position but neither one of us really knew what we were doing. He tried to take my cock into his muzzle and I felt the warmth of his tongue and maw but unfortunately I also felt his pointy fox teeth on the head of my cock and it made me gasp in discomfort.
He continued to try and take my cock into his muzzle, but the pain from his teeth really started to hurt and my once throbbing member started to go flaccid, I could see this was frustrating him. This made him just try harder but what he didn't realize was the harder he tried the more teeth I felt,and the harder it became for me to stay erect. He then looked up at me with a sad little fox frown.
"Sean what's the matter? You're not attracted to me? If you don't like this just tell me so and ill stop, just be honest with me."
I was embarrassed but very blunt and matter of fact to Adam.
"No Adam its not you, its just you keep hitting my cock with your teeth and it really hurts."
He just sighed and looked kind of depressed. He tried again in different ways but to avail. My cock was just to big and his little fox teeth were too many and just to sharp.
"Well Adam it felt good when you just licked it, maybe you can try that again."
He just nodded at me and started licking me again, and as the soreness from his teeth started to subside in my cock. I started to become aroused again, and after a few minutes I was fully erect and ready for something but I just didn't know what. I enjoyed all of this attention allot but after several minutes I was becoming a bit bored and wanted to try something else, problem was I wasn't quite sure what we should do, so I thought for a few minutes and looked down at Adam as he was still lovingly and eagerly licking my cock gently with his tongue.
"Adam lemme try this on you."
He glared up at me with his eyes, his tongue still around my shaft and reluctantly stopped and nodded at me, sitting up on the bed asking me with his eyes just what I may have wanted him to do. The biggest problem with this is I wasn't quite sure, but I would give it my best shot.
I pulled myself up and drug Adam up the bed closer to me. He was so light and so easy to wrestle with and maneuver. Even though he was the same age as me, he was so much smaller and I kinda felt like I was taking advantage of a little cub.
But he wasn't a cub and I knew he wanted this as much as I did....probably even more. I tried to undo his pants but fumbled with his belt and his baggy goth pants were so big with so many latches, buckles and zippers, it was hard for me to know where to start. I was becoming frustrated at this point because these pants would just not come undone, but I got his belt off and lucky for me he pants were so baggy I was able to pull them down without having to undo them the rest of the way. I laid him on his back and tried to tug his pants off the rest of the way, unfortunately for him his erect fox member got caught in one of the folds of his pants and I must of almost broke it in two with all my tugging until he let out a yelp. In a panic I blathered out.
"Dude what's wrong Adam!?!"
He grabbed his prick in pain letting out a pant or two and then muttered.
"Fucken eh!.... Hold on a second, you dumb horse you almost broke my dick off right at the knot!"
The way he talked to me kinda hurt my feelings but I could tell I hurt him and just let him have a moment to get situated on his own. He got his pants off the rest of the way by himself and I got to see him in all his glory outside of the locker room at school or random little kid experimentation before he left his second set of foster parents. Adams life was so shitty in so many ways,but selfishly I was glad things happened the way they did because even tho he was a pain in my ass a lot of times,I could never imagine life without him now. This was our time now away from all of that and everyone and everything else. Focusing back on Adams nakedness I forgot just how much his vulpine cock was so much different then mine. Sure ive seen him and allot of the guys at school but never one out of its sheath all the way other than sex ed vids in school and random porn magazines we stole from my older brother. It was red and veiny with a knot at the bottom of it, and quite honestly it was kinda funny looking too. It was smaller then mine, probably about 6" or so but atleast it seemed to have some good girth to it.
It wasn't very pretty to me compared to my own, or for that matter other equine guys I saw here or there, or even the fleshies but I still cared for him enough that we would make due, and I would get over my petty shortcomings for him whatever they may be.
I walked closer to Adam and hugged him again this time both our cocks pressing up against each others and for the first time I felt his cock and bare fur against mine. It all felt so good and I held him there with me for several moments just like that. Adam was eager though and made it very clear he wanted to keep going so I took him and laid him back down on my bed and ran my fingers through his belly fur and just couldn't help but stare at this veiny, pulsating, precum dripping red rocket pointing at my muzzle. I felt bad because seeing it in person kind of grossed me out, and seeing it this close I really didn't want to put this thing in my muzzle. But I had already said I would, and I was sticking to my guns.....we've already gone to far to back out now.
I sucked up what was left of my pride and stuck my tongue out for a taste, touching the tip of his cock with the end of my tongue. It was salty, slimy and weird tasting and for some reason smelled faintly like some kind of dairy product gone bad. I closed my eyes and just tried to concentrate on my feelings for Adam as a friend and someone I really cared about and not his funny smelling, weird looking fox cock. I just wanted to make him happy and wanted to make him feel as good as he made me feel. So I just took a moment and held my breath, puckered my lips and took his whole cock in my muzzle all at once. I guess this is one of the many advantages I have of being a horse, is a lack of sharp teeth and a deep muzzle. Some would say we are almost perfect for muzzle jobs and maybe that's true. With out tooting my own horn too much I knew without a doubt I was doing a much better blowjob on him then he was doing on me...even if I was a newbie at it too.
Maybe it was my newly discovered oral talent or maybe Adam was just way more aroused than I was but in less then a minute he thrusted up, his entire body tensing up stiff as board then his cock, balls and tail twitching, filling my muzzle with what can only be described as what seemed like at least a pint of chlorine and salt flavored fox seed with a hint of rotten milk for added grossness.
The taste immediately both surprised and disgusted me to the point of gagging. I quickly vaulted my head backwards off his cock and fought everything inside of me to not wretch and puke right then and there. The taste was something I had never experienced before and was totally vile. I wretched some more and part of it shot out of my nose. Jesus, I was going to die drowning in this stuff I just knew it. As I regained my composure and almost completely fought off the nausea, I noticed my reaction surprised Adam and somewhat hurt his feelings. ....ok, maybe I really hurt his feelings and somewhat embarrassed and mortified him too. I grabbed my boxer briefs off the floor to try and wipe every bit of fox jizz that was on ,and inside my muzzle away but only fought off the urge at the last second to save Adam even more embarrassment. I just quickly blew and wiped my nose, coughing a few times between some fake smiles aimed at comforting my fox friend, and tried very hard not to do anything to make this situation anymore awkward than it was for the both of us. I closed my eyes for a second and took a few deep breaths.........fucken eh,the aftertaste was just as bad as having a muzzle full of it. I looked back over at Adam and could see he feelings were getting hurt worse with every second. With his little sad fox eyes I laid down on the bed next to him again and hugged him but he was somewhat off putting and shied away from me.
"Adam im sorry, I....... I.........I just don't know why I reacted that way and I am sorry this is just all so new to me. You really are special to me, maybe we both just need to take this slower because this definitely isn't as easy as it looks on the internet."
He looked up at me deep into my eyes and I could tell he understood, and he just nodded. Unfortunately I could also tell despite somewhat understanding he was still hurt and disappointed with how I reacted to his cock and seed. Slowly after a few minutes of mutual awkward petting he got over himself and started to hug me tightly back again and we just lyed there with each other basking in our mutual what the fuck just happened type moment. I never knew there were so many different ways to be embarrassed before then. But as time went on I continued to learn life's hard lessons. Eventually Adam looked back up at me and asked.
"Well what about you? You got me off I wanna get you off to."
I thought to myself "please god no, no more pointy fox teeth on my cock." I wanted to get off and I knew Adam wanted to get me off just as bad, but I had no idea how to go about it, and everything else we had done up to this point was a total cluster fuck. He looked up at me again with a new glint in his eye and I knew he had an idea but after his other set of so called "ideas" this scared me.
" I know what to do Sean...we can do just like they were doing in the vid you were watching earlier."
Forgetting all about the videos in this spectacular debacle I cocked my head in confusion I asked him.
"Whaaa,....what do you mean?
Then I remembered the fleshie porn. Stuttering again I muttered.
"You.....you ,you don't mean....you don't mean you want me to fuck you do you!?!"
The huge smile on his face told me that's exactly what he had in mind and I let out a nervous sigh. Really this would have been a great idea and something I would love to try, the problems were he was so much smaller then me and I was afraid I would hurt him because I was so huge, combined with the fact that neither one of us had any idea just what the fuck we were doing.
"Adam I....I would love to try this with you, but I don't wanna hurt you. Maybe you can just paw me off and get me off that way."
This is where the guilt trip began and also where I learned my first important lesson in both fag drama and vulpine manipulation as the fox started to whine.
"Sean,pleaaaassssse,fuck me!"
The way he asked me not only seemed pathetic, but annoying, and almost completely put me out of the mood. Despite all that, I cared enough about him to consider it and as he continued whining and begging in the way that foxes do, I gave in after a few more minutes.
"Ok Adam, we can try this, but we have to go slow, I don't want to hurt you, or me and we cant force this........we can try it, but if it doesn't work we need to stop and that's that."
I knew I had to stand my ground in this, but what I didn't know is how persuasive foxes can be to get fucked. He was an eager bugger for sure, and bent over my end of my bed, raised his tail and wiggled his ass in the air in true faggot fox form. It looked so ridiculously funny I chucked a bit, and he looked over at me and smirked.
"Come on Sean you big stud stallion, come show this lil faggot fox how to get fucked!"
He had such a way with words, I just shook my head and walked over towards him wondering just exactly how I was supposed to do, but I figured as long as I did it like I saw in the vid everything would be ok. Boy was I ever wrong.
Standing behind Adam now looking at his lil fox pucker and my own equid dong I knew this was going to be a tight, and maybe possibly an impossible fit.
Ok,think Sean think, what did they do in the movie?
I then spit on my cock and then pushed my head against his tail hole.....but it wouldn't go in. Ok I thought...just push harder.
"UNF" "Adam,this isn't working.........how is this supposed to work?"
"Ummmm,got any lube Sean?"
I thought about this for a second and remembered my stolen bottle of lotion from my friends mom I was using earlier.
I went over to get it and reached under my desk to get it off of the floor.
"Yup!,Right here!"
*WHACK!* Smacking the top of my head on the desk as I tried to get up.
"FUCK .....that.....hurt!"
I rubbed the top of my head in pain, the fox looking at me somewhat concerned. He smiled at me, and it helped just to see the way he looked at me and even though most everything else was going bad about this night, he still made me feel special on the inside.
I just shook off the rest of the pain and marched back over to him assuming the position right behind him, cock in hand and fox tail hole in my sights. I knew I had to plug this fox, because he wouldn't let it go until we succeeded.
My mind raced......I was scared of hurting him, yet some sadistic side of me that I never really knew of before made me want to fuck him and make it hurt just to teach him a lesson.
I fought that feeling, and just told myself no........you care about Adam, he's your best friend, and no matter what you can't hurt him.
But yet there was that other voice too.....that ever so small evil side was like "YAAAA YA YA......fuck that fox and teach him a lesson!" I was so confused, but determined to at least try.
Besides everything else going on in my head, I was still horny and for some reason the thought of me fucking him like I watched in the vid really did turn me on somewhat. I took the cap off the lotion bottle and tried to put some on my cock....of course the bottle was now almost completely empty and I had to smack it ,and as I did the last huge glob of the lotion flying out onto Adams back and tail fur.
"Fuck dude! We need that".....I tried to scoop up the lotion on Adam taking some of his fur with it and smearing it on my cock......it felt good, but the little pieces of his fur didn't feel good and were scratching my dick so I tried to pick them out without much success. Adam just looked at me in complete and utter impatience.
"Sean, hurry up! I cant fuck myself and I really wanna do this!"
"Ok,ok already! Fucking hold on dude, lemme get the fur out of the lotion,it doesn't feel good!"
He just kinda growled at me and started rubbing his face into my bed and wiggling his ass in the air.
Ok.....I gotta get a little bit more out of the bottle, so I smacked it against my palm. *Smack,smack,smack* The last little glob about the size of a quarter was in my hand. I reached down and rubbed it on Adams pucker and tried to work it around with my fingers. Then Adam screeched out.
"OWE!" Sean, your huge fucking hard hoof fingers hurt!...Just use your cock already!"
I just glared at him and thought to myself....."ok...you want it bitch then im gonna give it to you".....I used the soft parts of my palms to jerk myself off enough to get back to full erection and just rubbed the end of my head against his hole and paused. I lined it up, took a deep breath and just pushed it into him. Boy did this lotion make a difference, it was still really tight but it pushed right into him. Unfortunately for the both of us this is where he yelped the loudest.
"YEEEELLLLLPPPPPP!!!!! OH FUCKING GOD!"
His scream scared the shit outta me causing me to jump backwards, tripping over Adams baggy pants and falling backwards on the floor. Not only did I see stars, but it made me go from hard as a rock to limp in record time.
In a few moments I regained my composure and sat up looking at Adam as he was doing some weird little fox dance and holding his ass whimpering.
"I told you I was to big Adam!....but no you just had to get fucked.......Jesus dude, this was all a bad fucking idea."
There was that sad fox face again and the welling up teary eyes. I never in my life had felt so bad so many times in a week, much less this many times in less than an hour. Adam broke the awkward silence.
"Sean, I can do this, and I can take it...I know I can, I just wasn't ready.....Just work it in slower,ok?"
I mumbled to myself and got up off the floor. There was almost no lotion left and certainly not enough to fuck him with now and I looked around the room for something else to use to no avail.
"Adam, we have no more lube, and this is just stupid!.....Lets just try some other time, ......come on, don't ya think that were going to fast and to many bad things keep happening? I mean, I really wanna do this with you and I really care about you Adam...... Maybe I even......lo......lo.......love you....I....I.." Adam butted in mid sentence.
"Ya got any crisco hossy?"
I just stared at him is disbelief.
"Crisco,butter,anything in the kitchen at all?.....what about the bathroom?.......conditioner,vasaline,anything???"
This fox was as determined to get fucked by me. And for me at this point all I wanted to do was just call it a night, lick my wounds and go to bed in shame, embarrassment and confusion.
But I just sighed and grabbed my shorts putting them on and contemplated how or what I was going to get without being confronted by my dad......then I had a horrifying thought.....what if my dad heard us?
Holy shitfire and everything sacred!.....wait no...he was busy watching sports and was all the way on the other side of the house......please God NO im just being paranoid. Think Sean............ok........deep breath... I can do this. Don't be paranoid....just go find something to use for lube, avoid dad and get back in here.
After my battling my paranoia for a second I glanced back to the fox.
"Ok Adam,I will be back in a few minutes...remember your not supposed to be here so be quiet and ill be back in a few.
As I walked to my door I noticed it wasn't even locked all this time and it just made me wince at my own carelessness and I just shook my head. I opened the door and to my utter disbelief and shock there was my Dad!
If looks could kill I would have been dead instantly. I slightly pissed myself in fear and he grabbed me by the mane and yanked me out the door. In a slight moment of clarity and foresight I was able to grab my door handle behind me slamming my door shut as he drug me down the hallway. All I could think to myself was I hope he didn't see Adam naked in my room....if he did I would be dead in less than 5 minutes.
He drug me into the kitchen slamming me into the counter next to the fridge.
"SEAN,I fucking told YOU NO friends over without MY permission!....How many FUCKING times do I need to repeat myself to you ya fucking lil JERK!"
I just sat speechless and stared at the ground like I always did when he did this to me. I scrambled to think of something ...some sort of excuse of epic proportion to defend myself. The good part is I knew at this point he didn't see Adam naked at least...if he did im sure he would be kicking my head in by now.
As looked up high enough from the floor, just enough to acknowledge my dad but not far enough to feel the wrath from his death stare I noticed his cock head peeking out from the bottom of his underwear and it made me pause for a second. There was a small drip on the tip, he must have been taken a piss in the bathroom hallway when he heard Sean in there with me. Then for some reason I tuned him out enough just focusing on his cock and wondering how it looked in full force....and maybe how it felt or tasted compared to Adams. Oh my fucking God what was I thinking! Snap out of it!......what was I doing!?! Oh Ya!......Right!...... Dad, pissed off, and I need an excuse, think Sean think!...I just mumbled out the first thing that came to my lips.
"I....Im sorry Dad....I...I just didn't want to bother you because I know ya were tired and I just wanted to let you relax....I just needed help with some geometry homework and needed Adams help.....he's just helping me finish my homework and he will leave."
He peered at me with a stare that went right threw me and all I wanted to do was just die.
He walked over close to me and looked me rite in the eye. In a very quiet,yet mean tone he spoke.
"Sean, if I have to tell you again that none of your friends are allowed over here without my permission, I will beat your fucking ass into next week.....I brought your ass in this world and I will take you out of it.....are we understood?"
This was always one of his favorite lines to use with me.... I quickly nodded "Y...Yes sir"
"I thought so.....get your fucking homework done and get your lil faggot fox friend outta my house.....tell him to go out the same way he came in,cuz I don't wanna see his fucking face either....and if EITHER of yall fuck up the screen in my windows climbing in ill beat both your asses, and his parents for having such a stupid kid."
"Dad, you know Adam is adopted......his parents....."
"SHUT THE FUCK UP SEAN, you KNOW what I mean!"
"Go back to your fucking room....I don't wanna see you for the rest of the night."
I knew to never argue with my Dad, but he can be so cruel at times......he knew Adam didn't have any real parents....his real parents were both drug addicts and cub services took him away from them when he was 5.....that's how we met....his first set of foster parents were neighbors of ours. I just hung my head back to stare at the floor in submission to my dad.......
"yes sir"
I shuffled my hooves back down the hallway as I heard my dad grab another beer outta the fridge and walk back to his chair to finish watching the game. Tonight was nothing but utter failure and right now I just wanted to be left alone go to bed and make it all go away......I hated my life. And my dad...I wanted to hate him too but I couldn't....it made me angry because I loved him so much and he was always so cruel to me....both of my parents were so miserable....they hated each other and I wondered most of the time if they hated me....I didn't understand why they were even together. All those years before my mom just left.
Oh ya.....all their stuff they had.....this house, the cars....we weren't rich but we had a decent life and some things and me my mom once told me before she left that my dad actually wanted both me and my brother,but growing up I always felt unwanted by the both of them.......even more so when my mom just left all of us.
Sure I guess I understood eventually why she left, and sure I had decent clothes and shoes and a roof over my head and food in my stomach...I had at least some kind of life. But the only times I knew my father actually loved me is a few times in my life I got really hurt or sick.
I remember when I was 7 in the hospital after a serious colic waking up to see him crying over me because they didn't know if I was going to make it. I remember hearing him praying to God and saying he would change and for a short time afterwards he did. It almost made me want to hurt myself in hopes it would make my father love me or show that he still cared. But no, I knew that wasn't the answer either.
I guess all I wanted was really know he loved me as much as my older brother who was a football jock...But I was never any good at any sports.....all I was in my fathers eyes is a lil emo kid, that was probably a homo and an embarrassment to him. God why am I so twisted, and fucked up in the head? So many times I wished I would just die.
When I finally made it down the hallway after a healthy dose of my frequent self loathing I opened the door to my room I looked right into Adams eyes. I can tell he heard everything and was sorry for me.
Even with his own shitty life and problems he knew I was hurting and at that point in time when he looked at me I knew he loved me. As I closed the door I had intended to tell Adam he needed to go, but when he ran to me and hugged me I couldn't.
I opened up, let it all go and cried in his arms just as he had mine not even an hour before. I didn't know how much different my life was now, but I knew it had changed significantly forever.
Crying into the neck fur of my best friend and now secret lover I didn't know what I was going to do with my life. I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up and as if my life wasn't already complicated enough now I didn't even know if I was gay or strait.
Most of all......how was this night going to affect my friendship with Adam....what was our future....does this stuff make us gay lovers......I just didn't know.
My life was now complicated on so many new levels.
THE END!