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TMoiM is a novella (of sorts) that takes place on a distant planet with different species. This is not canon and the characters/species are tweaked in order to make it readable and understandable by SF readers.

Their specise is heavily mutated and a "failure", and every one of them were sent to live in a minimally-staffed compound to await their few decades of existence to come to extinction. The story that follows is of a painful love between two boys, eelnods. This story contains heavy elements of depression and is melodramatic.

This is not a tragedy; it is an adventure in romance, darkness and ambiguous sexuality.

Soundtrack: "Sea Change", Beck; "Eye of the Hunter", Brendan Perry.

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PART ONE: BUT HABIT CAME OVER HIM

DAY ONE

The building was brown. More like a tan-orange really, sort of brick-colored, and brick-shaped. Although not rectangular, it was square, the perimeter at least. The outside wall, and the tallest wall of them all, was fully square-shaped while the smaller buildings contained within were rectangular. Enormous it was too. The size of a football stadium... but square. All around its perimeter was a forest; hills covered with dense vegetation and pretty much nothing else. Far, far in the distance was a tall, snow-peaked mountain.

The size is ridiculous. Don mused to himself mentally. He sat in a small room somewhere in one of those many small buildings, gazing out the window. He viewed a pathway down the center of the construction; the far wall and part of the garden were visible along with a few beings. Eelnods and human beings where the two most populace race within the Facility, all intermingled with no regard for sociological difference problems. The lack of compatibility between humans and eelnods was fairly mild save for the major flux in emotional relations between their own gender and sexual practices. Gender, age nor mental state were relevant in love for the Eelnods, where as humans were mostly homophobic and stricter about age limits. Most of them anyway.

Moreover, not all Eelnods were inclined to homosexual relations or trans-eon love patterns. Both species viewed the other's lifestyle culture odd indeed. The eelnod was quite different in appearances as well, being much shorter than the humans, and covered with fur. Humans described them as bipedal rabbit/dog/mouse creatures.

Most of it is unused anyway. Don thought to himself. He ignored the babbling of the professor on religion standing and speaking in front of him, less than five meters separated. He gave eye contact though; if he were caught daydreaming and dozing the professor would stop to get his attention then continue, and that would be embarrassing. Across the room were five other eelnods. He knew none of them except his friend Lee, who was sitting uncomfortably close to him. Lee was an older eelnod, not old, but older than Don. Unlike most Eelnods who all had very similar appearances, Lee went to lengths to keep his own appearance a distraction.

He noticed that Lee's leg was pressed against his and that Lee's paw was touching his. Don shifted where he sat on the large, room-sized cushion and removed the contact with his friend while stretching his upper torso. He was reposing against the wall nearest the window and had turned his body back towards the room after staring out the window gave his neck an ache. Lee smiled as Don's vision crossed his then leaned in ridiculously close and whispered to his friend,

"This is pretty boring huh?"

Don nodded and rolled his eyes; Lee chuckled and shifted his body to a prone position on his front side. Lee's head came close to Don's feet so Don pulled his short legs closer. Lee grabbed Don's foot as it moved away, the creepy goth-influenced guy grinning strangely. Don smirked and shook his head, reaching up to scratch an ear. Lee lowered his head to Don's foot and playfully bit a toe causing Don to muffle a laugh. The others around them glanced momentarily, for it was nothing special. Don paid Lee no more attention until he noticed that Lee was extensively licking his foot. Don tugged at the foot till Lee released it and Don pulled both his legs in, wiping Lee's spit from his toes. He shook his head again and Lee sighed, rolling onto his back.

"Boring, Lee?" Asked the boring-ass professor at the front of the room. Lee maneuvered himself upright to face the elderly Eelnod speaking to him.

"No, why?" He said in all seriousness.

"Well, you're being a tad distracting alright? So be quiet." Then he continued speaking about whatever it was Don and Lee where ignoring. Don yawned and stretched again, sighing. Lee tried again to play around with his friend some more, but Don ignored him more than he was ignoring the professor. Eventually, they both relaxed and listened to the last ten or so minutes of the session, and then the professor dismissed the listeners, all of them quitting the room.

Lee jumped up and stretched, spreading his limbs outward wide, reaching out with his foot to give Don's head a tap. Don then stood and left the room, quickly followed by his friend. Don headed down the hall towards the living building. It would take him about five minutes to reach his room. The hall was nearly vacant except for the beings that had emerged from the session only seconds ago. The walls and floor were plain and bare, all the doors tightly shut, and the place quiet. Lee stepped close to his friend and threw an arm around his shoulders.

"Sorry 'bout that Don, that religion stuff is totally lame dude," he babbled, Don kept his eyes on the ground in front of him, watching the distance of his steps between the tiles in the floor, "god that guy is so boring, he just goes on and on."

"Well, that's what they are supposed to do you know?" Don stated in his signature monotone voice. Ever since Don and Lee met, both of them wondered why or how they had become friends. Both of them at times wondering if they actually were. It did not matter to Lee because he liked Don a lot, and Don enjoyed Lee's company for the most part, because his manner of thinking was a little different from the other eelnods.

Lee knew right off the bat that Don was a quiet, shy boy and did not particularly enjoy being around too many people, especially rambunctious ones. That was not an anomaly, for eelnods were for the most part quiet and peaceful creatures, even when in crowds. Don and Lee's personalities were far from compatible; nevertheless, the two had a strange attraction toward each other.

"Where do you wanna go tomorrow?" Lee asked, however Don was not really in the mood to discuss their schedules.

"The afterlife..." Don said plainly. Lee's mood then dropped slightly and he averted his eyes.

"Uh huh..." Lee muttered as they continued walking. At an intersection, Don stopped suddenly and looked down another hall. He thought for a moment. His friend Mary was in session in the eighth room; he wondered if she would like to see him after she was done.

"What is it?" Wondered Lee, adjusting his black skirt-thing.

"I'm going to go wait for Mary to come out." He said and headed for the room.

"What? You don't wanna hang out with me any more?" Asked Lee, Don was not sure if he were intentionally whining or being serious.

"Well... no I just wanna say hi." He looked back to Lee who was obviously not willing to see the female Eelnod again. Lee did not like females, and he especially did not like Mary. Lee was an odd one, and probably one of the only eelnods in the Facility strictly pairing with his own gender for love and romance. And that was the major difference in the eelnod/human sociology: the open sexual relations, bisexuality and so on. There were not strictly gays or lesbians in their society, with the exception of Lee and probably one or two females out there. For an eelnod, sexual love between another of the both same gender and of the opposite was considered the norm.

Don stopped at the door and read the schedule posted there. Mary's session was going to end in 24 minutes. He sat down against the wall and sighed as Lee read the schedule as well.

"What the hell man? You're gonna wait for twenty minutes?" He asked, pseudo-baffled. Don did not care how long the wait was, he had nothing better to do other than go to his room and fall asleep.

"Yeah." Don replied. Lee sighed and sat down next to him, shifting close till their legs touched. They sat for a few moments silently, Don watching the ground past his feet, Lee watching Don's eyes. Lee slowly moved his hand over to Don's knee, sliding it across the fabric of his slacks, gently caressing him. Don shifted his eyes to Lee's hand as it moved closer to his genitals then he shot a look to Lee's face.

Lee laughed and took his hand away, placing it against his friend's chest. He leaned in a bit, bringing his face closer to Don's and playfully nudged his chin with his muzzle. Don smiled and Lee grinned again. Then he moved his hand up to Don's face and softly stoked his cheek. He knew how far he could go with his friend, for he had learned long ago to read Don's eyes to know when he had enough. Don was an odd one as well, not at all inclined to any sexual behavior, which alienated him from other eelnods. This was one of many things that attracted Lee to him, one of many, many things.

Lee inched forward more and lightly kissed Don's snout, close to his nose. Don's expression was static and Lee took that as an acceptance. He shifted his weight onto his folded legs and leaned into his friend's personal space until their bodies were pressed against each other. Lee's hand traveled from Don's face down to his throat, gently rubbing along his jaw line. Then he nestled his head under Don's chin and sighed. Don did not want to make his friend feel foolish so he nudged downward against Lee's head, moving it sideways slightly, only to let Lee know he was acknowledging him.

Lee wanted to kiss his friend more fully, but he knew Don would not do it. He had tried many times before but Don would not accept his friend's tongue. Lee lowered his hand again to Don's chest and gently tickled him. Don shivered slightly at the touch and smirked, pleasing Lee to a great extent. Lee lightly scratched his friend with his long, black nails, moving them in a circular motion around his pectorals. The physical attention relaxed Don, the gentle sensation quickly putting him in a mild trance. He moved his hand up towards Lee's head and rubbed against his ear with his digits. Don's trance was suddenly broke when Lee sighed and moved his hand down to his tummy. Don coughed heavily, purposefully, causing Lee to jerk his head away.

Don yawned and rubbed his face with both hands, stretching out his legs, and slouched against the wall. Lee smiled, pleased with the contact he had gotten from his friend and relaxed against the relatively uncomfortably hard terrain. After the approximate twenty minutes of reclining silently, the occupants of the session emerged as it concluded and Don stood, slowly though to avoid dizziness. More stretching.

Don was a weak, out of shape boy and experienced fatigue too easily for one his age. Even Lee, who was equally as lazy and laid-back as his friend was, seemed to be brimming with energy all the time, all day long. Don could get so relaxed anywhere he chose and his energy would deplete quickly if he remained stationary for too long. On the upside, he had no problems sleeping. Mary was the last of the eelnods to exit and upon seeing Don she embraced him lovingly and kissed his face. The two smiled and Mary became giddy as she noticed that Lee was there with him.

"Oh, did you two wait for me?" She wondered loudly. Lee hated her voice, her loud laughter, and her personality.

"Yeah, I just wanted to say hi." Lee wondered how Don could get along with her so well when she was more obnoxious than anyone in the entire Facility was.

"Oh thanks, you should have been in there with me, it was really cool."

"Oh yeah?"

"Yeah, how was yours?"

"It was fine." Don lied.

"Come here Lee, give me a hug." She said, and Lee wanted to run screaming. She moved in and embraced him against his will. He made grimaces as she hugged him, but Don was not amused.

"All right, you guys follow me, we're gonna play in the field." By 'we' she meant her and her lady friends. Lee wanted to vomit, for if they were to hang out with Mary and her idiot friends he was in for a giggle-fest and mindless female banter. He would much rather go take a nap with Don and cuddle.

"Well, I'm not sure Lee is up for that." Remarked Don. Lee thought it was lame that Don was trying to stick up for him.

"Oh, well it's not gonna be bad, we're just gonna hang out and talk."

"And actually, I don't really feel like it either." Don continued, and Lee was relieved by this. Mary sighed.

"Okay, fine, well... just walk with me to the field alright, I need someone to talk to."

"Okay, that's fine." Don agreed as he turned to face his friend, "You gonna come with us?" He asked.

"Sure, why not?" Stated Lee with blatant irritation, Mary paid him no attention however, for she was used to it. They collectively moved through the halls as a few other sessions ended and more bodies filled the building. Upon exiting the building, they became ensconced in bright day light, the star above them blinding and burning Earth. Don grimaced and covered his eyes with both hands as they walked.

"The trees are pretty today." Mary observed.

"Yeah." Replied Don.

"The clouds are pretty too."

"Yeah."

"I love the way the birds flock like that."

"Yeah."

"Butterflies are pretty."

"Yeah." The no-way, sporadic conversation continued thusly. Don did not care about anything Mary had to say, Lee was paying less attention, watching the ground in front of him. After a numb five minutes or so, they encountered a group of similarly dressed females and Mary began conversing with them. Don was quick to escape, not wanting any part of the rally, "I'll see you later Mary." He said and walked away; she ran up and hugged him from behind then moved back to her friends. The two males moved away and into the adjacent building.

"Thank fucking god we're away from them." Lee remarked. They were now in the living building, both his and Don's room were upstairs, but Lee did not really want to be here, "Where are we going?" He asked his friend.

"I'm going to my room; I'm not feeling well and I'm tired." He informed. Lee sighed, upset that his friend was leaving him.

"Oh... well, I guess I'll see you around then." Lee said, emphasizing his sadness. As he turned to walk away, Don nudged his shoulder.

"I'll see you later tonight maybe. Probably not but I might come down tonight." This was not enough to make Lee feel better but he smiled.

"All right, please do, that would be so cool." He said as he gently embraced his friend. He held him for an extended time, trying to savor the feel of Don's body, his warmth and his scent. He did not want to let go, he wanted to touch his friend in that soothing way he did earlier, try to make him feel better. Don pushed against him and Lee let go, but did not pull away. He took Don's head in his hands and kissed his cheek, slowly moving his muzzle around Don's face, enjoying the contact as long as he could. Don could not help but smile once.

"I'll think about it." He reassured, rubbing his hand against Lee's ears and hair. Then they parted and Don trudged upstairs to the door of his room. Lee had nowhere he felt like being except in Don's proximity, in his arms. Both the creatures felt alone now, for different reasons, not all logical and not all relevant.

Every time Don accepted Lee's love, he would stop it suddenly and leave Lee's feelings slightly damaged. After a few years of this one would expect Lee to be to distraught by Don's treatment and would become unwilling to emote with his friend or even spend another moment with him. But for some reason, he could not resist Don. He knew that he was in love with Don, and he was sure that Don knew this, though Don did not seem to care for it.

That was Lee's thoughts. The truth was that Don was scared of Lee's love, scared and confused in many ways. Don was not inclined to love other males, and he had never fornicated with another male before in any way, only mildly with Lee. It felt strange to be with males like that, but not so weird when he was with Lee, and that is why it scared him. If he did not like any other male except for Lee it could mean he was in love too. But then again, he did not like romance.

Those thoughts did nothing but confuse and piss him off. He wondered about how it would be if he accepted Lee's love, but he could not picture any particular scenario; he could not picture them being happy together, or if it went about ruining their lives. He could only imagine how it would make him feel, and even then, he could not imagine a particular feeling. He could not bring himself to think about how it would affect Lee. If Lee and he were to be mates, then Lee would most likely be even more touchy-feely with him.

Don entered his room and closed the door, locking it. He stripped off his clothes and approached the window on the far side of the room. Far out could be seen the field and part of the garden. The scenery was boring and monotonous to him, for the only place remotely comforting was his bed and the garden. He loved being in the garden, everything there was peaceful, and the placed smelled good to him.

On cold nights, he would wander out to the garden to loiter throughout the night bundled in a cloak while the other eelnods attended the Gatherings in the main lounge. Don hated the Gatherings, for romance and sex were things he cared nothing for, so gatherings of romance and sex were sickening.

Past the outer wall were the forest and a large hill, all green, lush, and beautiful. Past that was a human city. This was an area Don wished to visit. He had been there many years before as a child, but that memory was too faint.

His life before living in the Facility was too faint to remember as well. Early in childhood, as most other eelnods, he was taught that his life should be spent living, learning and playing in a Facility, a type of school where there are no grades. There he would spend the rest of his life. He had enjoyed some of the time spent here in the Facility; he found a few choice fields of interests and attended the sessions pertaining to them. However, he felt the knowledge gained from them was worthless, and his life still remained boring and meaningless. In all nine years living here, he had made only two friends: Lee and Mary. He refused to acknowledge anyone else after seeing what kinds of lifestyles his fellow Eelnods held. All in all, he felt his time here was a waste. Unfortunately, he could not simply leave and go somewhere else, for he had nowhere else to go. He would not know how to go about relocating, and he would be even more alone.

He shook his head, attempting to dissipate the thoughts, and closed the curtains. Turning to face the bed, he sighed, running a hand down the front of his body and scratching his belly. He glanced to the right and noticed himself in the mirror. He was shorter than most, though virtually no different looking than any other eelnod. He turned to face the mirror and examine his body from the front. Just a plain, light-brown, furry creature with big paws and large ears. He noticed that his eyes were somewhat smaller than normal, though he liked the violet color of his irises.

He sighed again and turned, flopping down onto the bed. The flat pallet was elevated a few inches off the floor and very small, unlike human mattresses which were ridiculously huge. After a few minutes, he relaxed his muscles and sprawled out on his back with his limbs stretched outwards. Above, on the ceiling, was a colorful painting: a flat canvas of shapes and squiggles. Lee had made it and gave it to him a long time ago, nine years precisely. Don thought it was cool. He eventually fell asleep, when last he checked the clock on the wall it was 16:00. The Gathering would be in three hours and he would not attend.

* * * * * * *

The lounge was large enough to house over a hundred eelnods and over a hundred Humans adequately. Though only Eelnods attended the gatherings, for very few Humans in the Facility were inclined to attend bisexual orgies. The atmosphere was stifling for an eelnod, all the pheromones of sexually active bodies around were strong, and could influence even them shyest creature to participate. The lighting was done with only a few lanterns hanging from the ceiling, dimly lit with pale yellow light. The bright florescent lights were all turned off throughout the entire Facility.

Lee seemed to enjoy the gatherings, and he had never missed one in the sixteen years he had lived here. He sat between three other males on a large beanbag- shaped cushion. Hands were fumbling all over bodies, phallic stimulation, orally and digitally, tongue baths and sodomy were all that he saw in the scenery. A particularly young boy sucked on him whilst being mounted by a larger, older male. To his right was one of his closer friends lapping at his chest and rubbing his groin area. The only thing he did not participate in was mouth-to-mouth kissing. He considered kissing more romantic, and saved it only for his love... whenever Don would finally decide to do so.

As the thought of Don appeared in his head, he realized that his friend had not come down. He questioned whether or not to break away from the sexual contacts and visit Don. He was nowhere near his first climax and it was not going to come any time soon with the poor fellatio he was receiving. He nudged his friend off then pulled the boy's head off then told him to do his friend instead. As he left, none of them questioned what he was doing. He hopped over bodies and maneuvered through the crowd of beings towards the exit.

As he stepped out into the cold night, the feeling of the chilly air hitting his hot genitals made him shiver and he involuntarily grabbed them. Here he stood and waited for his member to become flaccid and reenter the soft sheath.

When that occurred after a few moments he took off, sprinting to the living building at his top speed, which was not very fast, considering the short legs of his species. As he reached the entrance and entered, he thought for a moment and stopped suddenly. If he were to approach Don all out of breath and nude, Don may be less willing to communicate or be close.

Lee caught his breath and continued, walking at a normal pace to his room where he donned a white shirt, some underoos and the typical black skirt. Before leaving, he peered in the mirror to check the condition of his makeup: simply some black eye-shadow powder around his eye orbits. He also quickly brushed his hair, black as well, longer, sort of like a mane.

He left his room and continued on to Don's upstairs. It was difficult to find in the darkness, but his eyes adjusted quickly to the absence of light and he found the door. He waited a few moments listening, hearing nothing. He pressed his ear against the door and still heard nothing. He knocked quietly.

"Hello?" Don asked from inside. Lee smiled.

"Hey Don, it's Lee, can I come inside?" He questioned as he stepped back from the door. A few moments past and Don opened it. There he stood, silhouetted by a dim lantern on the desk in the corner. He was nude. Lee thought he was beautiful. Don noticed that his friend was wearing clothes.

"What? Did you not go to the lounge?" He wondered.

"Oh, yeah. But I really wasn't having any fun. I wanted to hang out with you instead." He said, touching his friend's shoulder. Don stepped back to allow Lee to enter.

"All right, but only for a while. I'm going back to bed in about an hour here."

"Cool, that's plenty of time for me to give you head right?" Asked Lee jokingly. Don just snickered and walked over to where he had been sitting, "Yeah I know, you're not gonna let me."

Don closed some books and quickly straightened some papers on the desk then stretched, reaching up high, standing up on his toes. As he came down from the reach, Lee knelt and embraced his lower torso, surprising him.

"Geez Lee! You almost knocked me over." He said, but his tone was mildly joyful, not of irritation. Lee felt more inclined to play around with him, for it was his goal to get Don to accept his love one way or the other. He held onto Don's hips and gazed up to his face grinning.

"Don't worry buddy, I'll catch you." He said as he pressed his muzzle against Don's belly, his mouth very close to Don's groin, making the shorter one a tad anxious. Don looked down to his friend as he began to kiss his belly, his arms wrapped around his legs and his hands holding onto the thick tail. As they watched each other silently, time seemed to slow and they slowly became more relaxed against each other.

Slowly Lee began to rub his snout along Don's pudgy abdomen while behind he stroked his friend's tail and legs in downward motions. Lee shifted onto his knees to get more comfortable, keeping his eyes on his friend's eyes. They gazed at each other, Lee's vision filled with his love and his mood was elevated largely. Don figured that his friend grasping him was not going to let go, so he allowed him to stay down there, even though him being nude and Lee's head so close to his member was somewhat awkward.

Don smiled and sighed. Once again, he had become relaxed and soothed by Lee's gentle caressing. He greatly enjoyed the feel of Lee's hands along his legs and the length of his tail. They continued to soothe each other like this, Don placing his hand against Lee's head, gently petting his ears and his hair. Lee softly moaned at Don's touch, pushed up against his hand to coax the guy to pet him more firmly. Lee moved one hand from behind to the side where he continued to caress Don's body up along his torso and down to his feet. Lee wrapped his hand around Don's foot, squeezing his toes and running his fingers around the sole.

The foot twitched and Don giggled, obviously being tickled. Both the males snickered and Lee could see that Don was being very acceptant of his touch. He had to fight the urge to go all out on his friend, but he was not going to keep it this mild. He decided to step past the line ever so slightly. He took his eyes of Don's face and pointed his head downward, his nose lightly touching his friend's shaft. Both the creatures become motionless except for Lee's caressing hand, which continued to soothe his friend while he softly breathed against his member.

Don's heart became a war drum beat, the feeling of Lee's warm breath against his phallus making him gasp. He was ready to push his friend off of him but he did not actually want to; he was enjoying the attention and was not willing to let a force of habit break the tender moment of love. Even if it were semi-consensual.

Lee did not want to upset his friend by crossing too far over, but he could not resist. Underneath his clothes, he had become aroused, and he knew that if he could stay in this position long enough for Don to become erect also, Lee might be able to taste his friend in a way that he had wanted to for so long. The dark-haired one moved his hand behind again and underneath the tail, sliding it along his soft posterior. Don's pulse increased more and he became anxious further, but he still did not want to stop his friend. He was questioning whether to stop at all. Normally when Lee became this intimate, it made Don uneasy, not warm and soothed, however now it was more romantic. Their moods were identical, and save for Don's apprehension, they were both calm and relaxed and entwined in each other's love. Don would not let himself get too worried over Lee's touching; he wanted to enjoy it.

Lee caressed his friend's soft rump as he continued to apply breath onto his genitals. Don was still petting him, this time being less forceful as to not unintentionally push Lee's mouth against his penis. Thoughts were running though his mind as Lee's hand squeezed his buttocks more firmly. If he were to allow Don to perform fellatio on him, would that not mean he accepted his love? It may seal their relationship to that of mates, this notion was still unnerving to him, and he did not want to think about it. In a way, he wanted to let Lee do to him whatever he wished with all regards to love for his friend, but it would not be that simple. If they were in a gathering it would be, but this was other-sensual love, not lust.

After another soft squeeze, Lee curled his hand around Don's thigh till he felt the warmth of his friend's genitals on his digits. Lee's heart was racing as well, and the urge to force his mouth and tongue on the member so close to him was hard to fight for a creature so overflowing with sexual energy. He stuck his tongue out halfway and almost touched the tip of Don's cock, but quickly rethought and brought the appendage back into his mouth. He knew Don would not want that... then again, he may want it, but would not allow it. He slowly crept his fingers up Don's inner thigh till they made contact with his testicles.

Don shivered again. The feel of Lee's touch was invigorating, never before had he been given such light and profound attention from anyone. It made him happy. Lee overtook a step and suddenly moved his fingers outward and began to massage Don's balls fully. He curled them around the sac and softly tickled him with his nails.

Never before had Lee so intimately touched him, never so romantically. Sure, many times before Lee had groped Don in jesting and fun but this was love, and Lee wanted sexuality. Don began to pant as he realized that he was getting sexually aroused. Lee realized this too as Don's sex scent began to emit from the immediate region. The smell riveted Lee and he grinned, knowing that Don's member would soon be exposed at its fullest to him. Their excitement was different now, and each of them mistook each other's reactions.

Lee thought that Don was finally accepting, but that was not the case. Don knew he was thinking this and he had to stop it. Even though it felt incredible, he was still too afraid of what would happen. He did not have enough time to think over it. He may have been making a big deal out of it, but that was not in his mind. He reached down and gently pushed Lee's head away from his groin. Lee looked up with evident confusion and disappointment, sadness moreover.

"Lee I... I, just don't." He mumbled incoherently. Lee saw that Don's eyes were not on his but elsewhere. The dark-haired one sighed; his spirit sank and he leaned away from his friend. He folded his arms on his lap, looking down, feeling embarrassed and upset. Don was upset too. He did not truly want to stop his friend but habit overcame him, and he stood there watching him. After a while, Don's excitement calmed and his pulse went back to normal. It killed Don to see what he had done. God, why couldn't I just let him suck my cock like he wanted? It's not the end of the fucking world! Were his only thoughts.

Don felt bad. He knelt down on his knees in front of Lee, placing both his hands on his friend's shoulders. Lee looked up into his eyes.

"Lee I'm sorry, I just..." He couldn't word what he thought.

"Hey man it's all right. I'm surprised you let me go that far really." He said smiling. It was now evident that Lee was not as upset as Don thought, and that brought some relief to him. Don placed his hand against Lee's face and kissed his nose. This made Lee smile, bringing his hands up Don's shoulders as well. "But can we do one thing?" He asked.

"What's that?" Don wondered.

"Please let me kiss you." Lee pleaded, taking his friend's chin into his hand. Don nodded and leaned in, Lee tilted his head slightly and pressed his lips against Don's and began to knead his friend's mouth with his. Lee then slipped out his tongue and licked Don, pressing it forward till he parted the lips and he entered Don's mouth.

Immediately he closed off around Don's mouth and began to caress his love's soft, warm tongue with his. Don was not exactly sure of what to do so he simply pushed against Lee's tongue with his. Although it was not the first time he had every done this, he found it quite enthralling to be doing it with Lee. Lee sucked lightly on his friend's maw as they continued to make out for a whole minute, Lee enjoying the flavor of his friend greatly.

He loved the moist feeling and the warm sensation, and finally he had gotten something from him that he had truly wanted. Lee kept the kiss going for a while longer, breaking the seal every so often to allow Don a breath. He brought his hands up to Don's head and caressed his ears and jaw as the passion absorbed him. Then he finally broke it and inhaled deeply, Don nearly gasping. They both stood and Lee embraced him, rubbing his muzzle along his. They both smiled.

"Thanks Don," Lee said, holding his friend's hands in his, "I really appreciated that." He kissed Don's fingers then let them go. Don yawned and stretched, Lee reached out and nudged him, trying to tip him over but Don kept his balance and reached out to smack his friend's hand away.

"I'm really tired all of the sudden. I'm gonna retire for the night okay?" Lee smiled.

"Sure buddy. You wouldn't be willing to let me sleep with you tonight would you? I mean... just to cuddle a bit huh?" Lee grinned sheepishly, knowing that Don would say no.

"Uh... maybe next time okay?" Don stated. Lee laughed and hugged him again then left. As he exited, he said 'goodbye' and headed downstairs to his room. He did not get what he truly wanted, but he got something that he had been denied of many times before and that made him happy. He would sleep well that night.

Don turned off the lantern and lay on his bed for more sleep. He instantly wondered if he should have let Lee sleep with him the night. It would not have been another incident like the caressing, and he might have actually enjoyed it too. It was too late to worry about it though, for he was tired and required sleep.