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It was happening. I was kissing my adopted brother for the first time... In the ICU. The only way it got weirder was that... I didn't pull away. Why was I doing this? I love Trevor but this is a terrible way to start a relationship with Shadow. What the fuck was I doing?! I need to get away... I need to think.

I pulled away from him finally. "I-I'm sorry Chris, I just." He started.

"No, no you're okay. I just... need to think, please get better Trev. I... I'll be back later." I finished and stormed out, passing by my family who all had confused looks on their faces.

I must look like a real winner right now. Getting a car that is now going to need heavy repairs, cheating on my first boyfriend with my adopted brother, what else can happen? When I walk outside I had better see Al Qaeda zombies invading us or something.

I got outside and when I noticed there were no bombs going off I started running down the road. The grass on the side of the road was more forgiving than the gravel on my paws. So I kept going. Someone came up beside me that I really didn't expect. I thought Shadow or maybe my dad was coming to get me. I looked to my left and saw Parker on a Ducati Streetfighter S.

"Hey Chris, stop for a sec, would yah?" He came to a stop right in front of me so I really had no choice. "I think you need a fresh ear to talk to, let me take you for a ride and we can talk, the helmets have walkies in them." He offered me a red and black helmet, it matched his and the bike. I reluctantly took it from him and slipped it on; I got on behind him and wrapped my arms around his lithe frame. "Talk to me Chris, what happened in there." He inquired.

After a minute of riding on the smooth bike with him I gathered my thoughts and managed to tell him about how I have fallen so hard for Shadow over the past few days, about how I mated for the first time, then what Trevor confessed to me and how we kissed.

I heard him give a drawn out whistle. "Wow Chris, a lot has happened over the past few days for you. But what I think you should do right now is to step back and try to take all of this in and make a decision for YOU. What do you want out of all of this?"

I had to think about it. I had to think about it for a while actually. I started getting cold and noticed the sun was about to set completely. Through my shivering I felt the warm fox, I held on a little tighter to steal his warmth, it made him giggle a bit. "I... I care about both of them so much. I think I want both of them."

He didn't say much for a minute or two; it worried me until he spoke up. "I have been down that road Chris; it isn't easy. Every time someone would always get screwed in the end. The one that the other two would be better off without or just plain don't care as much about him as they do for each other. I can't say I can see the future, but that is what will most likely happen, you would have to let go of one of them most likely, or even both. Wanting both of them might be selfish to others but speaking as someone that has been through it as well... It is something that is unavoidable and if you don't try then it will haunt you for a long time, even if you KNOW it will hurt in the end." He made a lot of sense, I need to truly grasp the gravity of wanting both of them and the very high chances of me losing one or maybe both of them.

"I care about your father very much Chris. I really think he is the one for me. I wouldn't give him up for the world and it has taken me 38 years to find him. You're young; you have a full life ahead of you. In ten years, do you see yourself with Trevor or Shadow, or both of them for that matter?"

"I don't know; it is very hard to say really. Both of them are super sweet, they both deserve a full lover to the both of them but I don't want to make them feel like each will only get half of my love. I want to give them both the love they deserve and I... I feel like I can give them both the attention and care. But I don't know how they will react to this. Shadow is so passionate and Trevor I know wants me really badly. Maybe... I think I know how to do it." I finished, I wanted to sound a bit more confident. But we don't always get what we want, do we?

I squeezed the fox a little, simulating a hug while riding. "All right Chris, you're welcome." He giggled a bit. "Let's head in." I looked up and we were about to get to the hospital parking lot. He timed this well.

I stepped off the bike and pulled the helmet off. I rustled my hair around into an acceptable fashion, the blue tips going in more than a few different directions. Parker patted my shoulder as he walked ahead and into the automatic doors of the hospital. I took a deep breath, trying to pull together the plan in my head.

The bike's vibrations numbed my legs a bit so I walked a bit awkwardly into the building. The fox had already rounded the corner and was on his way to the waiting room outside the ICU. I hardly noticed but I guess I zoned out for a bit. The next thing I knew I was walking into the waiting room too, getting hugged by Shadow. I tentatively put an arm around him, hugging him back.

This is... going to be harder than first predicted. My confidence crumbled every second I was hugging him. I didn't want to hurt him. But I need to try and get it out for me. I whispered to him to go somewhere private. "Okay Chris, how about the hospital garden out back?" He suggested. I wanted something a bit more private but it will have to do.

I was shaking while we were walking, I hope I don't faint from an anxiety attack right now; this would be a very bad time for it. We stepped out into the cool air, the hospital's garden was for their patients to get some air but luckily it was their 'nap time' so it was empty. I sat in a bench in the most secluded spot I could see and Shadow followed suit.

"Shadow, these past few days have been... Quite the experience." I started, my voice shaking as I continued. "I win a 100k car, figure out I am gay, get the 100k car wrecked, and..." I wasn't sure if I should tell him yet. It is best to lead him into this. "Anyway, I wanted to talk to you about us."

"What about us honey?" He asked, I could see in his eyes that he is afraid of the 'Let's be friends' conversation. He wasn't far off if that was the case.

"Well let me start by telling you that you had me fall head over paws in love with you faster than I thought anyone could." At that he smiled as I went on, "This relationship with us sort of landed in my lap, I felt drawn to you the moment I laid eyes on you. I am reeling at the rate of how things were going. Now this isn't your fault at all, it was out of our love filled heads' perception at the time."

He interrupted me, his fears mounting, "Are you telling me you want to take it easy for now Chris? I understand if that is what you want." He was putting on a romantic act but I could see the fear in him, the fear and sadness. This was killing me...

"Well... I am not specifically asking to take it easy. What I will ask is that you let me explore my emotions better and try to iron things out for me and for us. Because, Shadow, I have feelings for you but... I also have feelings for Trevor in ways I hadn't noticed until just recently." Oh gods, oh gods, oh gods! My heart was pounding in my chest and I was on the verge of crying.

Shadow picked up on my severe distress and pulled my head to his chest, hugging me tightly and petting me. That's it; I choose to lose it now. I start bawling into his chest.

"I-I don't want to lose you or Trev! I don't want either of you hurt, please don't hate-!" Just then I feel his warm paw cover my muzzle and hear him shushing me.

"Chris, I'm not angry. I'm not upset. I'm never going to hate you, silly kitten." I nuzzled my wet cheeks into his shirt. Was I hearing this? "Don't get me wrong, I am not sure how this will play out. But what I do know is that the info you just shared with me makes me happy, happy to know that no matter how bad you may think something is, you will tell me. I know you trust me and you know what? I trust you and I don't feel like I'm going to lose you. Trevor is a good guy in my book if he merits your affection. So if you want to explore your feelings with him I don't want to hold that back. I know how confusing it can be in the world of love when you first step into it. So if you keep Trevor as a love interest then..." He thought about it for a minute. "I guess I will need to start getting to know the guy better, since he will be hanging around more often." He added in the sarcasm which made me giggle and hic-up from crying. I couldn't believe how well he reads me and his maturity in the matter. He really does understand...

"You hic r-really aren't mad?" I stuttered out. Looking into his eyes; Getting lost in their depth.

"Nope, and to tell the truth, he does have a cute butt. Though not as cute as yours." He smiled and licked my nose. I hugged him as tight as I could, my long tail swishing happily.

"S-Shadow?" I wanted to run into Trevor's room now, this was big! "Can I go talk to Trevor? I want to see him, alone for now if that is okay." He just smiled.

"I understand Chris, txt me when you want me to come in." He kissed me as if we had been lovers for many years. I love this wolf so much.

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POV: Chester Alpine

"Well Parker I think it is time for us to go home for now." I started, "The boys can handle themselves and I left keys to the Viper in Trevor's room if they needed to leave, so we'll be taking the Ducati."I loved riding the bike, it scared the hell out of me but I guess I am used to being inside of a safe car.

"No problem Chester, mind if I take the faster way home? I am kinda tired." Parker admitted, blushing a bit. He was too adorable.

"Yeah so am I, and now I don't have to worry about my sons knowing." I grabbed his waist and tugged him to my side to plant a kiss on his cheek, making him giggle and nuzzle into my neck. It is quite the relief to be open again. Walking through the hospital, not having to look over my shoulder, being close to my mate.

The wind whipped our faces as the automatic doors opened, looking up I noticed a storm accumulating in the sky. I felt a tightness around my waist and look down to see my fox snuggling to me for warmth. "You arctic cats and your warm fur! My winter coat isn't even in yet..." Parker whined. I put my paw on his head, scratching his big ears.

"How about we warm up together at my place then?" I offer, smiling at the fox under my arm.

His eyes gleamed, "I would love to!" His big tail was wagging happily, silly fox.

We stopped at his bike and he handed me my helmet. I slipped it on and shakily got on behind him. Holding him as if my life depended on it. It sort of does but that isn't the point. He pushed the starter and away we went. It took all I had to not squeal like a kitten up a tree, he hauls ass on this thing. Pardon the expletive but that is the best way to put it. "U-uhm Chester dear, you're crushing me, blacking out on a bike is a very bad thing." I said sorry and relaxed a bit, trying to enjoy the ride. He was very good at riding. I have always heard the saying when people buy motorcycles, "It's not if you have the big crash, it's when." Well it worried me to death that he hasn't had that crash yet. My right paw trailed up to his left pectoral to feel his heart beat. It was calm, calm as can be while riding this machine. He was so masterful at it I bet he could nearly do it blindfolded.

Pretty soon we arrived at my estate. Pulling under my garage we got off the bike and padded inside. I remembered that the heater wasn't on when we all left so it was about as cold inside as it was outside. Parker audibly shivered and clung to me for warmth again. I could feel him shivering.

"Let's start a fire; that will work faster than the heater." I held him tightly as we stopped at the living room fireplace. I moved the loveseat closer and motioned Parker to sit. He hugged his bushy tail close to his chest and shivered, impatient with the pace I was going. I laughed under my breath and threw a few logs in, dousing them with lighter fluid and using a match to ignite them. Once I was satisfied with the size of the fire I sat with Parker. Wrapping an arm around him and putting my hindpaws up to the fire.

After a few moments of silence he climbed over me to sit in my lap and face me. Snuggling into my neck and getting close to me. It got very warm between the fire and my thick coat but I didn't mind. This was the first time I had been intimate with Parker in my home for a very long time. Not having to worry about us anymore.

"Chester?" Squeaked Parker, seeming half asleep.

"Yes?" I should have braced myself a little for what came next.

"Your sons are going to have quite the rough patch coming up." He said. I paused because he seemed to want to say more.

"Well I don't think the crash will make Chris hate Tre-" I was cut off by Parker shaking his head.

"No, I was going to say that they will have a rough patch because Chris is going to try to have both Shadow and Trevor as boyfriends." I sighed and laid my head back on the couch. I know he is still figuring out his feelings, so I guess since it is so early in his relationship with Shadow that he will understand. This will make home life very awkward if they break up and still see each other platonically.

"Chris is old enough to make his own choices and mistakes. I'm unsure of whether this is a mistake or not, yet, but we will see." I patted Parker's big ears and hugged him gently. I'm their father, not their love coach. I need to relax and unwind with Parker.

Soon I heard soft, mellow breathing from Parker; I craned my head around and saw his adorable face. Relaxed and asleep. There was even a small smile still there. I yawned and got comfy; falling asleep wasn't much of a chore today.

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POV: Trevor Alpine

Oh gods, oh gods, oh gods, oh gods. What did I do? These painkillers I'm on may have aided in my fall from grace even further. I crash my brother's car then confess feelings for him. And... kiss him. That, I think I don't regret that. I needed that. Look, you need to calm down Trevor, you need to recover and try to come up with something to say to Chris. And you need to stop talking to yourself.

I attempt to move a little. Feeling sick and dizzy, the back of my head stinging like no tomorrow. There must have been quite the gash on my neck, or a really deep puncture wound. Or both. I was glad that there were no broken bones. But the knowledge didn't alleviate the nausea from blood loss. The stress of what has happened was probably the worst pain. I feel so low for stealing his prize car and kissing him. He has already been stolen by Shadow. I should have told him my feelings a while ago. Before I lost my chance...

Soft padded paws were stepping outside my deathly silent room and the door clicked open. I look up expecting another nurse but who I see made my heart drop into my stomach. Chris, he looked as though he had been crying. And there was... a smile on his face?

"Trevor, I have been thinking..." He started, I couldn't stop my guilty head from interrupting him.

"Chris, I'm so sorry for what I did, if I could I would want to hug you and beg you to forgive me. I should respect your relationship and property..." I felt like I was ostracizing myself from my own family. But I couldn't think of any other way to convey my thoughts.

A soft embrace followed my statement. I looked and saw him still smiling.

"Silly jackal, I already forgave you. But I need to ask you something." I must have looked completely dumbfounded. "I have feelings for Shadow and that I cannot hide. But... I... I think I have feelings for you too. And I talked to Shadow and he understands if I want to... Well... Try to make it work with both of you. So I want to know, would you be okay with it? I swear I can give you both what you each deserve, all I want is for you to let me try."

"Uhm... Uhhhh... Well, I..." I can't get a coherent thought out of my muzzle. I'm not sure how to think about this. I don't know whether this will even work or if it is totally a bad idea. I suppose I could try and get closer to Shadow and see if I can work in this relationship. All I know now is that I have wanted to be with Chris for a very long time and it is worth a shot if he is the reward.

Chris lowers his ears, seeing my hesitation seems to crumble his resolve in seconds. Since I couldn't get a word out I had to let him know somehow. The best thing I could think of just came to me. I ignored the pain and reached for him. I pulled him in and kissed him, this time was a lot less forceful and he even responded with a slow kiss. We sat there kissing for what seemed like an eternity that wasn't slow enough. Waves of affection and warmth surged through my body. Making the pain go away and letting what seemed like a dim light flare like the sun inside me.

"Is that a yes?" Chris asked; I couldn't see him though. Why can't I see? I rubbed my eyes and noticed that I was crying, and so was he.

"Mhmm." I embraced him and didn't let go. I should be more honest with him. This turned out pretty well, considering the car I wrecked and being in a hospital and all.

Chris pulled away and pulled out his cell to send a txt message. He pocketed it and sat next to me, hugging me. "Shadow is coming." He whispered. I was curious to get to know him. I wanted to see what Chris saw in the guy.

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POV: Chris Alpine

I need to make sure I don't squeeze him too hard. Those bandages concealed painful cuts. Not to mention my own wrapped forearms. My tail twitched happily as I saw Shadow peek his head in. I smiled and motioned him to come closer.

He got close and nuzzled my face playfully, turning to Trevor to informally lick his snout. "So how are you both doing?" I smiled and blushed.

"I think we're both doing just fine." I replied. "Did the doctors say when you could go home Trev?" I asked.

"When I recover from all the blood I lost. Most of the cuts they said wouldn't even leave scars luckily. So as soon as they're satisfied with all the transferred blood I should be gone by tomorrow morning." I smiled brightly and Shadow sat with me, hugging my waist to his and wagged his big tail. Careful so he wouldn't swat Trevor.

"You two will be fun to watch." Both Trevor and I cocked our heads at Shadow and his statement. "Even though you aren't brothers by blood it will be kinky as hell." I started laughed and blushing deeply, Trevor started laughing but stopped from the pain in his chest. He sat smiling while I exclaimed, "Of course that is what is on your mind."

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Okay, I'm done with the damn writer's block. This concludes Chapter 3. In Chapter 4 there will most likely be some form of yiff and a race scene. I told you guys there would be a race in this one but I couldn't fit one into the story at the time so I hope the bike quickie can satisfy you for now. I should have Chapter 4 ready in a week or so. Thanks for hanging in there guys! And thanks for reading!

Your Humble Wolfox,

Arxl