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(Castiel's View)

Days flew by after the incident and...reassurance at Yuuta's castle. I remember the moment after the kiss, the feel of his warm and steady breath against my face and the warmth and comfort of his fur. How his orange and healthy fur kept the darkness and doubt away and how safe and protected I felt.

After confessing our love for the other we just held on, not letting go no matter what. We looked into the others eyes almost expecting the other to say they weren't serious and it was only a friendly favor but neither of us did. We both loved the other in 'that' way.

I think 10 minutes made it seem like 10 years had pass before I broke the silence. Thinking back at how I asked it I would have thought of a better...and more manlier way to ask him what all this meant.

"Yuuta? Does this mean...were dating?" I asked once again expecting one of us to say no.

"I think so...what do we do now?" He asked with his tail curled up in confusion.

It was strange and awkward for both of us. Back then we would have thought we could get ourselves out of any situation if it was political or physical. We believed we were unstoppable and never paused in our minds to consider another option....but when we confessed our love for the other, we hesitated, and we were left speechless and frozen. We were out bested by the other and we couldn't think of the proper way to handle it.

The scenery of the fireflies and the mystical fountain shining from the moonlight didn't change and neither did we, I would have believed we turned to stone right there...in the others continued embrace and care. I would think such a fate to be as great as being with the gods.

Only until did we hear a distant door shut loudly did we let go of the other looking around to make sure no one saw us now or worse before during the kiss. It looked like we were all alone before I once again broke the silence with a stuttering mumble.

I couldn't form the words in my mouth and Yuuta looked at me curiously but I think he knew what I was trying to say but he couldn't say it either. I didn't want to seem rude for asking this, I mean this has been one of-no THE best night of my life and I don't want to seem like I was bored or anything. If I could I would ask to live in the castle with Yuuta but I don't want to be asking to much of the relationship I-ooohhh! What do I do?!

"Y-Y-Yuuta...I-....I'm going home." I said looking away feeling like my face was on fire by the blood in my cheeks.

"Y-Yeah sure...Um-good night." Yuuta said back also having his back turned to me but neither of us took a step. Both of us were waiting for the other to walk but we stood there for another minute or so almost expecting the other to wrapped the other into another embrace and kiss. I wouldn't have argued or be against that...

"We'll-...We'll be together tomorrow right? You know like um...we'll still be around the other right?" I asked not wanting to turn around as I heard a soft gasp from Yuuta.

"Um...sure...how about here in the high town gardens again? Is that alright with you?" Yuuta asked with his tail twirling about.

"Yeah that sounds nice....goodnight Yuuta or-...um...my-my...um....boyfriend." I mumbled as I heard Yuuta give a girlish squeal to himself but he caught himself in the embarrassing moment as I couldn't help but giggle to myself.

"G-Goodnight....boyfriend" He said back giving another squeal as we both took a step away from the other and eventually we both lost sight of the other as I headed out of the gates and towards low town. An hour ago my whole way of life and thinking got turned around.

If Yuuta had done that to me when we were rivals I would have...well hit him and used that against him but now...am I really that attracted to him? Was this just a faze? A onetime thing? A sudden loose fantasy? Well theres a date tomorrow and that'll prove it to me that he really loves me back as a lover and not just some plaything.

As I walked home my mind I thought it was debated easily in my mind that Yuuta loved me or not and in the end when I got on the mid town- low town bridge I am pleased to say I really loved Yuuta back as a lover and that I was pretty sure that he loved me back but now there was a new concern in my mind.

A DATE?!?! WHAT SHOULD I DO?!?! WHAT SHOULD I BRING?! I'VE BEEN ON DATES WITH OTHER GIRLS BUT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT A PRINCE-A PRINCE OF HISTORIC ROYALTY HERE! WHAT HAPPENS IF I MESS UP?! WILL I LOSE HIM?! I NEED TO IMPRESS HIM IN SOMEWAY! SOMEHOW ME, A COMMON HUMAN LOW TOWN RESIDENT, MUST SEDUCE A TIGER PRINCE!

I've heard of the impossible happening but theres a limit! I have no idea what to bring or what to say! I got to afford high town chocolates or a special kind of flower! Yuuta could easily impress me with his charms and looks and he could easily afford things to spoil me.

As I opened my door and got into my house I looked inside to see my bare house and realize how unlikely I could ever impress Yuuta.

Oh Yuuta...what should I do? How could I ever manage to impress you? I bet you got it all figured out in your mind right now.

(Yuuta's view)

Oh gods I must have done something bad!!! It was probably the kiss! I know I was being to sloppy and disgusting having my lips slobber all over his! But I couldn't help it, no tiger can! When we drool it shows absolute desire and lust for something! And when I see Castiel and felt his lips against mine I-oooohhh.

I felt my body tingle and I started to get Goosebumps just thinking about the kiss. My mouth began to moisten just imagining about another kiss like that. I want another, I don't care what I have to do! Run in the streets dressed like a woman or naked, make an embarrassing speech about girlish like feelings, or do humiliating trials just to have Castiel's warn soft lips against mine again...But wait! I do have my chance!

The date! I must make it perfect! I must completely seduce Castiel no matter how much gold or Michael dignity it takes! But what if he already has a plan for a date?! What if that flower gardens date seems like I'm forcing him around to do what I want?! I don't want Castiel to feel forced to do this but I still want to force my lips against his....I said with more drool forming in my mouth.

One step at a time Yuuta! Think about what you should even wear, or how you should act! Maybe I should act cool like the kiss was no big deal...but if Castiel gets the impression that the kiss wasn't good enough for me and breaks up right there! No maybe seem totally obedient! If he asks me to jump off a bridge to get a flower that flew off I'll do it without a second's hesitation. No, that suicidal and Castiel might get the hint that I'm desperate.

Maybe act princely! Show off the Michael honor and act proud of who I am!...oh who am I kidding that will never work! What should I even wear?! Casual clothes, noble clothes, Royalty clothes?! I want to utterly seduce Castiel in some way but I need to find out how!

How could I ever impress that god of beauty?! I am but a prince and his looks put mine to shame! Advice! I need advice! The only way I could ever think of seducing and charming a human is by reading about it.

I went, or rather ran in a frenzied panic, to one of our libraries quickly scanning through books that supported such relationships. After an hour of hard and constant searching I only turned up one book...and it was for a female and male furry and human relationship...crap.

Nothing...I had nothing at the moment. No past details to go on and no advice on how to charm Castiel. I have to try my best though, that's right even though this has never been record or at least no dating advice as never been recorded I will still try! Castiel is special to me and...I should dress royalty like but yet act casual...hopefully that will be good enough.

Now gifts, I think Castiel must like something, maybe swords or armor? I thought back at the times I had with Castiel and I thought about things he lacked, looking back at it all he hardly had anything. Maybe necessities like better blankets and furniture. That will take some time for me to gather without my parents noticing but hopefully he'll be okay with high town chocolates and flowers for now.

Please let this date work out...

(Castiel's view)

The next day at school and I could already tell the atmosphere was different. It felt like things were at ease and nothing wrong was going to happen today. The people looked friendlier and all looked well. I even caught a glance at that teacher who spotted me and Yuuta...well...on top of each other during the necklace incident. I wonder why he wanted that necklace so bad in the first place? Sure he told me the meaning but it must have been a mistaken package, it was my fault in the first place to think such a royalty item would be sent to me.

When I entered the classroom and sat down I looked over to Yuuta's seat and....well...its not like I don't appreciate the attention but having tiger eyes on you all the time eventually makes you feel a bit at unease. The first class of him constantly staring at me hardly unblinking was a bit flattering but eventually it gets kinda creppy....but yet...

I can't bring myself to tell him to look somewhere else. I like having his attention on me, as much as I don't like a stare down but if its coming from him I won't deny him. His eyes weren't even scowling or glaring at me, instead it had that house cat look-that look of curiosity, interest, and complete attention.

Yuuta must be thinking about our date. I admit thinking about it too sends shivers of both excitement and worry through me. If I somehow messed up he could easily beat me up. I only managed to get a rose for him...corny I now but it was all I could afford and obtain with the planting season coming soon.

I noticed Yuuta's tail flick and twisted around his leg when I looked at him. When I was sure no one was looking right at us I smiled and I heard him give another girlish squeal quick he quickly blush from. Looks like all I have to do is smile and somehow Yuuta screams like a fangirl for a heroic knight...I shouldn't take advantage of that though.

Out of the corner of my eye though I noticed a girl tiger passing a note to a male cheetah and I thought about something...perhaps an idea.

When school ended I looked at Yuuta and we both nodded at each other, we agreed beforehand that we would meet at here at 6. As I walked back home I could feel my heart beat so hard and so fast that it was shaking my entire body.

O-O-Okay T-This is it. You'll just go there and let Yuuta lead. You don't want to seem too pushy and I have to be on my best manners. I cleaned my best clothes which were actually mid town clothes about to be thrown away and cleaned them like crazy.

I wish I could afford high town clothing...I think I would actually look decent in nobility clothing but they sure as hell won't be selling them to low town people like me, at least not at a reasonable price. I did however manage to get lucky with something else. After sinking my humbleness I asked a mid town vendor that I wanted to get some high town chocolates in exchange for the time I managed his shop a year ago and said I wouldn't need repayment but this was...necessary.

The man happily agreed claiming if I needed anything else he would happily give me it. I told him this would be enough and I went out to mid town central. The center of mid town had pretty much everything you could imagine. Blacksmith shops, market shops, houses and apartments for rent, inns, taverns, and some factories making farm equipment.

Strangely enough these streets and air are usually clean and pleasant. There are many people around but it was a nice place to do some shopping and trading. Though mid town and high town maybe marvels I was stunned at one other thing...not a place but a certain individual.....myself.

I looked up at a clock tower and looked at the time. 5 PM, I arrived an hour early so I wouldn't seem like this was a usual date for me. This was a date with not just some mid town or low town girl...but a high town boy. The Prince of the Michael heritage no less!

I sat down at a bench as the memories and thoughts I had in the past seemed to smack me back and destroy the reality around me like a hurricane.

How did it come this far?! When we were little we were rivals! Pure hatreds! When we grew up we were hardly any different until-...until I came out admitting I admire him and he said he admired me back. How did fake rivalry and blind pride lead into a date?!

2 months ago I hated Yuuta like he was a monster and now?! Now I'm kissing him and going on dates?! This was going so fast but I had to keep up, this is just so sudden and all. I admit I wanted to be with Yuuta for awhile now but for my dream to become real so fast! I feel like I'm dreaming!

How should I even behave during the date? Those high town girls always brag about being trained from birth even that they had to act so civilized and mannerly...I'm a low town farmer! But then again....Yuuta and I when we were training...having the smell of each others sweat and scent in the air and the talks we had during the exercises...they felt like dates to me.

But is Yuuta really impress by training dates or does he enjoy simple lay down and relax dates? I knew I rushed into this so fast....I'm at a complete disadvantage.

I looked up back at the clock gripping the box of chocolates thinking maybe Yuuta was joking around the whole time...it was only 5:05....how pathetic have I fallen for Yuuta? Panicking like a girl about what I should do. I need to toughen up! I need to be brave! I am not a girl! I am a man! A hard low town working man! I've trained with a prince of royalty! Worked in unimaginable conditions and come out on it all the stronger! Yuuta maybe a prince but he is still a warrior! I should have a nice friendly warrior drink with him! I'm tough and he's tough and theres nothing t-

"Uh...Castiel..." A voice came from behind me and it sounded memorized and entranced.

I turned around keeping my tough attitude in my mind. I had to act in control or at least not pathetic!...

But as soon as I made eye contact with Yuuta I felt my warrior side fly away like a piece of paper in a tornado. O-O-Oh my....he looks so nice in-in that outfit. It was a high town outfit for sure but there was something majestic and simpler about it.

It was shaped like a farmers clothing, brown boots, with white pants and long sleeved shirt and along with his Michael symbol amulet. On his shirt and pants there was silver coated vine patterns that focused around his chest area and I swear I could feel the heat irradiating from them.

Yuuta looked so...natural in this outfit probably because it fitted him so much, noble and majestic but yet had the endurance and strength of a farmer and warrior...here I am with my clumsy and unimpressive mid town outfit. I must look hideous to him. People are probably going to look at me thinking how such a loser and ugly person like me could ever get someone like Yuuta.

I couldn't help but think down at myself when I gazed at Yuuta. He clearly put more thought and concern about what he would wear rather than me. I should worn something better I should have-

"C-C-Castiel you look-look....amazing. I-I feel completely underdressed now! Please wait! Listen! I swear I didn't know what to wear! I didn't want to come out to fancy and take advantage of the wealth difference between us but I didn't want to wear low town clothing because I thought that would mock you in some way! Maybe I'll go back and change into something making yours Just wait-" Yuuta said as I was stunned at what he was saying.

ME?! I'm the one how looks great?! Is he blind?! Look at me compared to him! Yuuta looks down right, drop dead gorgeous! People will think he looks like an angel and I'll look like a pile of garbage next to him!

"Wow! Wait! Calm down Yuuta! You look fantastic! I'm the one how should be apologizing for looking so terrible. I tried to clean this outfit the best I could but maybe I should have put more effort into it." I said feeling ashamed as I looked down at my outfit.

It wasn't anything special. It was black mostly. The boots were black leather that were covered in dirt when I found them but with a quick and thorough scrubbing they were as good as new. The pants were a bit tight but I could still fit in them. It showed off my legs muscles a bit. The pants were a pale white. Finally I wore an underneath shirt that was white and wore a black vest over it. I admit I like the color black and the weather right now it a cool high 60's weather so I wasn't dying of heatstroke or anything. This outfit was dirty from a mid town man that claimed he fell off his wagon and landed in a big pile of mud. He said the outfit wasn't worth cleaning but I saw the thing as savable. At first I thought it would be the only thing to at least compare to Yuuta but now I'm taking it back.

Yuuta looked at me and raised his eyebrow.

"Seriously? Castiel I appreciate you trying to be humble but I look dreadful compared to you. You look like you're a model in those clothes. You must have put a lot of effort in trying to impress me with those and I'm absolutely entranced by them!" Yuuta said with his eyes fixed on my outfit but...it can't be! My outfit compared to his!

"No way you look much better! Your outfit makes me want to melt into your arms right now!" Yuuta said loudly as I was getting fed up with his pretending.

"Yeah right! Your outfit is so much better that I thought it was made by the angels!" I said back before realizing we were making a bit of a scene around us. Yuuta and I looked around to see onlookers looking at us strangely but they didn't seem to recognize Yuuta because a prince would very, very rarely wear something so simplistic as his outfit.

Most nobles are distinguishable by their outfits which were the colors red, blue, and green most of the time along with white during parties. Mid town people wear black and brown along with low town people but the material and fabric put into each clearly shows if the person is from mid town or low town.

Yuuta and I looked at each other annoyed that each others praize for the other was cut off but we still smiled and walked beside the other. Yuuta leaned over to me slightly and whispered.

"You really do look nice though." He said which made me blush and return the compliment.

"You look nice too."

We walked to high town talking about recent events, since Yuuta was a noble he would usually hear more interesting things about the world rather than me. He tries to ask me what I've heard but because of our social positions he almost always hears things first but I still appreciate him offering and asking me what I think.

(Yuuta's view)

As we walked through the streets of high town it was completely deserted. It was almost spooky but yet it was a nice day and I was with Castiel...meaning no one is going to harm him. I don't care what happens to me, I want to keep Castiel safe. If I had my way I would allow him to live in my castle now or ask father and mother to fix up his house and live there but this is still a secret relationship.

I looked back at Castiel who was talking about how marvelous all the high town houses were made and how he envied them...but I was more entranced with his looks and voice rather than the buildings around us.

He looked stunning I won't hide that. I almost wanted to get back into our who looked better argument but I'll leave it at a draw but the winner was clear in my mind. His hair was neatly combed and he was certainly scrubbing himself clean for this date. I smiled to myself knowing how much effort he put into trying to look good for me but I loved him however he looked.

In his average outfit, in this outfit, his training outfit, and his worker outfit when he works the field. I blushed and purred as I imagined him sweaty in a hot field which he was probably doing now and for a while now since Planting Season is about to begin. The best part is that Planting Season is when most of the nobles just laze about, more so than usual.

That means I can go on more dates with Castiel and can be around him more. In the back of my mind I wondered why Castiel and I still pretend to be enemies at school. Sure maybe we can't kiss and giggle in the middle of class but I should at least be friendly too him! He's my...boyfriend now. I said as I squealed in delight and my tail flicked but I caught myself again in the embarrassing act. I can't help it though, the fact that Castiel ,that strong sexy human looks at me and sees a boyfriend makes me feel so fuzzy and warm inside.

Oh how I wish he was a noble, this would be the perfect time to be around him, heck! I would come out openly about loving him and claim him to be mine. Darn Planting Season! If it wasn't for that I would have most days with Castiel!

I had the sudden idea in my mind to find some workers, hire them to plant Castiel's vegetable seeds and tend his fields so I could have him all to myself. I am haplessly in love with him, not only am I jealous when a person is near or delays Castiel but I am jealous of holidays and time!

I want Castiel every moment of everyday! Its just the first date and even though we had a shaky start I consider this my best date! But I can't deny this feels similar too....I mean Castiel and I always talk and walk together. I'm still holding the flowers for him in my hand while he still carries the chocolate box.

I am use to high town candy but coming from Castiel as a gift of love...it will be the best candy I will ever taste! I looked back at myself now and only frown at what I thought about the old times. When I was little I always wanted to be spoiled, on a date I wanted people to give me every type of chocolate, flower, and gift imaginable but the training and age mellowed me down.

It isn't the gifts that I love about Castiel its simply him I love, his body, his charms, his personality and attitude. If I could only go in the past and be lovers with him when I first saw him I would have jumped at the chance!

Before I knew it our walking date lead us into the high town gardens and a new turn on our conversation.

"So Yuuta have you heard any news about other kingdoms?" Castiel asked admiring the flowers as I thought about things my father said recently before some appeared in my mind.

"Oh yeah, I heard some bad news from the South. Apparently the Son of Jilio, Prince of the Nebain kingdom was killed in the island kingdom of Ahilo. The Queen of Jilio is calling for aid of the other kingdoms to lend aid to her so she can avenge her son." I said as Castiel was taken over by the news.

"I never heard about that. What do you think about it?"

"I personally think the prince was killed in a duel and the mother is just in grief by her loss. She probably can't think straight but she is no fool. The Nebian kingdom is on an island surrounded by jungle and are said to have a master naval army along with perfect jungle fighting ground troops. If she went in with her kingdom only she'd be slaughtered. My father and the other kingdoms are no fools though, they now of impossible odds when they see one and they wouldn't dare risk war." I said as Castiel nodded in agreement.

"Wow I can't believe what the world's come too, but I trust you and your family to lead Riften to safety and victory Yuuta." Castiel said as I felt all warm and soft inside.

Again I find it strange that me, such a built and strong tiger, trained from birth and taught such hardcore fighting techniques gets tamed and weak not from any weapon but from words...then again those words do come from the handsomest man in Riften. I was about to squeal again but I caught myself and only my tail flicked in happiness and pride.

Castiel and I looked at awe of the flowers as the high town gardens had flowers and plants from every place on the continent. Though I wasn't happy or all to interested with the flowers I was more excited with Castiel's expressions and smiles. Seeing him smile makes me happy...it makes me feel so proud of myself and that it was something unique that someone else can't have...like I was rich with my boyfriend smiling.

Castiel started asking questions about certain flowers and I answered them to the best of my ability, we may be the smartest kids in our class but we don't know everything. Castiel asked what special properties the flowers or plants had and asked if maybe sometimes there was a hidden meaning to them...I knew of many but there was a special one I had in mind for him...

The date lead us along the row of flowers where my gift lied for him. When I passed by it I smiled and turned my head slightly and waited for Castiel to be in awe of the plant...It definitely got his attention.

"Y-Yuuta...what flower is that?" Castiel asked with his eyes wide in awe and were entranced by the flower.

The flower was a golden color and when the natives first saw it they thought it was a gift from the gods and was made of actual gold. It was true though at first glance it did look like gold as the sun did reflect off of it like real solid gold would do. It was once also thought a statue but it was quickly disproven when the flower could be lifted up easily and held like any other plant and that it was indeed vegetation. The slight breeze proved us that it was not actual gold but instead so golden that it looked real.

I admit I was in awe of this plant too but no one was allowed to touch it back then because they were so rare...I've heard now that we're suppose to get some more in the coming years as more were found on top of some mountain in the west.

"The Royal Rose" I said softly as it was indeed a fitting name for the plant...gold for nobility yet simple and beautiful at the same time. The flower was shaped the same way as a rose and its meaning was about the same.

"I-I never seen such a beautiful flower...it's the most beautiful I've ever seen except-...except for you Yuuta" Castiel said getting a pinkish blush on his cheeks as I didn't even hide the squeal in my mouth. Oh my goodness! I never thought I would be so lucky enough to have Castiel ever say that to me.

"Its no where near as beautiful as you Castiel" I said holding him from behind as Castiel jumped from the hug as he gasped...but just as quickly he relaxed and let me embrace him tight. I wrapped my arms around his elegant body and brushed my muzzle against the back of his neck as I felt him get warm from pleasure.

I began to purr softly as Castiel placed his hands on top of mine sending shockwaves of ecstasy through both of us to have the other touch him. I-I adored this moment...how a simple sign of affection could make the hardest of warriors go limb and lose control of their minds.

I-I wanted Castiel, I want to hold him forever, I want to give him everything he deserves and for him to be mine. I want to take care of him and love him so much that we both melt into the other.

We stood there for several moments savoring the romantic embrace before another gust of wind woke us out of our dreamy moment...both of us were speechless from the hug but we didn't push the other away either.

I looked at Castiel's back and smiled at his outfit and body....so majestic...so lovely and entrancing. Such a wondrous creature deserves anything he wishes...

"There is a secret meaning about the Royal Rose Castiel" I said letting him go from the hug and I felt cold for a moment as I bent down and pull the rose gently from the ground as Castiel looked at me still speechless.

"The Royal Rose is used for courtship between nobles and royalty...Castiel...You make me feel rich, you've given me a reason to smile and enjoy my life and not think about training all the time. I'll give you anything Castiel as long as you give me the best thing of all.....you." I said as I held up the golden flower up to Castiel as he was blushing red now and barely managed to speak.

"I-I-I of course Yuuta." Castiel said taking the flower as he looked at the flower but looked back up at me.

I can see he wanted to say something but his lips were quivering...he couldn't speak but I think I know what he wanted to say, the problem is that I can't say it either. My lips began to quiver and I felt an impulse in my heart tell me 'the only way to stop the quivering is to let our lips kiss'

At that moment it was like Castiel had read my heart and mind as he gently placed his hand on my cheek making me shake in bliss as he leaned up a bit and....we kissed.

Another breeze of wind let his hair and my fur brush against the other as I felt numb. Castiel's lips...Castiel's lip....there kissing mine....Castiel is kissing me. Was all I could think as I felt greedy again and wanted more.

I wrapped one arm around his waist and let my other arm reach down to his other hand that held the golden rose and we held hands together with the rose in between our fingers. I purred again as Castiel began to moan as we were both sent to a different place from the others lips against the others.

I felt at peace, I was in paradise...I felt like I was meant to do these...to be here, kissing my boyfriend and holding him tight. Sharing the others breath and touching the others body. I-I should be content...we've only just started dating but I wanted more...More of Castiel.

Taking a chance, and looking back at it now it was a great risk...opening my mouth slightly to let us share tongue and saliva...not to mention it was the first date I wanted to try this. I panicked thinking Castiel would push away and say no. My heart raced as I opened one of my eyes and saw Castiel at first taken aback by what I meant with my open mouth but he started to lean in too opening his mouth and I could see his tongue.

What would it feel like? To have Castiel's tongue in my mouth? I thought it would feel disgusting but I've also heard it feels amazing for lovers. I knew Castiel was my lover...I want my tongue in his and his tongue in mine. Castiels tongue was about a couple inches away as my mind went blank ready for the enormous wave of bliss and ecstasy to rush through me. My body went limb and I decided to let Castiel to be the one to maneuver around my mouth and-

"I must say we could have chosen a better day to visit the gardens!" An old womanly voice broke the mood as Castiel and I snapped back into reality and panicked as we looked around to make sure no one saw us.

We heard footsteps coming from another row as Castiel and I noticed we were in the others embrace still. Luckily the flowers around us were tall and likely hid us from the intruders as we pushed the other away and pretended to be simple gazers until they passed.

We saw a couple of noblemen and women walk pass us not even fazed by Castiel wearing mid town clothing...usually they would be insulting a mid town person for being in the high town gardens but they looked busy with their gossip which was total nonsense and boring for me. Eventually I turned to see a whole party of nobles and knights coming to look at the gardens and soon the whole place would be packed with bigotry and snobbish attitudes.

Castiel and I stood a good 5 feet from the other as my body and tail slumped down in depression...I was about to experience the most amazing feeling of my life and those stupid nobles just had to come here and ruin the moment!

As much as I was frustrated from not being able to experience more of the best kiss of my life I sadly knew things like this might happen. I live in high town and expecting a noble to arrive somewhere is impossible to predict. Next thing you know I could be sleeping and there would be a noble walking in because he got lost from the party or something.

I sighed in despair and frustration, I can't go to high town and mid town is so crowded that we're bound to be caught and then people will start talking and eventually my father will get word and...and he'll place me in the most horrible in positions...to be away from Castiel.

I need to be around him, I want to be there for him always. To hold him and kiss him whenever he wants to or when I think he needs a cooldown. Instead of being the greedy taking noble I want to give something back to someone. I want to give all the love and care Castiel desires and that comes along with all the attention I'll give him too.

Curse my social standing! I hate being rich! I don't realize to appreciate the smaller things in life yet finally when I have something I desperately want it turns into a constant battle and worry to keep him safe from ridicule.

I looked at Castiel with depressed and shallow eyes and he looked back also sad as we knew eventually nobles will catch onto us. I sighed again in despair as I went up to him hanging my head low and barely muttering.

"Lets just get you before the nobles catch us." I said sadly as Castiel nodded.

Great....just prefect..... I ruined the whole date. I'm a prince and rich yet I can't give my most desired one a decent date. I feel so pathetic and sad. Worse yet that I realized we can't date at school because the students will likely gossip like crazy and my father will confront me. We can't go to mid town at certain times because it gets packed with people and were bound to get spotted. Low town is an option but like all the rest if I were caught Castiel would be humiliated.

Why am I so afraid to be caught with Castiel? I love him and yet somehow there is this fear in my heart that if I don't give him enough love I might lose him. I shudder to think about to have him think that I didn't love him enough so he goes off to someone else. Castiel is mine and I want him to be only mine! But how?!

During the walk home it was getting dark and we were still carrying the others gifts to each other. I would certainly enjoy these chocolates later and Castiel still looks at the Golden Rose adoring the color and mystical aroma from it. Still gifts aren't enough for me...I want to feel his body, to press his lips against mine and to feel his heat.

I want every part of him to surrender to me freely, in fact if I could have just that I wouldn't mind not receiving gifts! I have everything a person could ask for except for a loved one and...I want that person to be Castiel.

The walk home was awkward and pretty quiet between us simply because I think we were afraid that someone might see us walking together. I felt so horrible by letting him down and ending the date early. I wanted this to go so smoothly, I wanted to entrance him like he did to me...I even had dreams about how far we would go.

Before I knew it I was in other fantasy of mine...I must have been at a time where my parents and all servants were gone because I imagined Castiel and I running and playing around in the hallways and rooms of my castle. Sometimes we would run out chasing the other, other times we would be fake dueling and fighting the other.

It was like we were children but yet that has such an attraction to me...I never really had much of a childhood and neither did Castiel but I guess I was thinking maybe acting like little boys again would be a fun date.

Then our fun took a whole different turn as I tackled Castiel gently to the ground both of us sweaty and panting from the chasing and fun before. I was on top of him as we breathed each others breath and looked into the others eyes.

I felt my groin bulge and my fur began to tingle as we both pull the other into a kiss, a deep, passionate, romantic kiss with tongue also being used. I imagined us both moaning through the kiss before we parted lips and we both looked at each other with such unbreakable passion. I loved him and I wanted him-all of him, I want him to know every part of me and I wanted to know every part of him.

I stood up and took his arm as we both walked straight into my room which was suited for a prince and passionate romantic moments. The candles were dimly lit but the fireplace brightened the room to a comfortable nearly dark atmosphere and it put us both in a sleepy and dreamy like state.

Even though we shared no words and our bodies moved to their own desires we found ourselves almost reading the others mind...as if we knew what the other exactly wanted. Our bodies were slaves to the other but we were also free....we had both wanted to other to submit to the others desires.

I gently pushed Castiel onto the bed as he laid down with such an seductive smile on his face as I smiled back while buttoning my shirt. Castiel did the same as he still moaned a seductive lust for me, he began to move his body around the groin area so smoothly and showing off his flexibility a bit.

Castiel then fully removed his shirt and tossed it aside as I threw my own shirt next to the fire and crawled on top of the comfortable bed and better yet my drop dead sexy, gorgeous, soon to be mate. He looked up at me closing his eyes but still moaning in the seductive tone that I began to purr and press our chests against the other.

I pinned down his arms gently as we clasped hands and I pressed my lips against his as we began to dry hump the other with our groin area. I already felt on fire as I moved Castiels's hands and arms together above his head and kept them down with one of my hands as the other slowly moved down his body. Castiel's moan got higher toned and I could feel the heat coming from each other's intercourse.

My hand slowly made its way to his pecs and abs and I began to trace them out with my claw. Castiel broke the kiss and began to moan only making blunt yet all so sweet passionate words.

"Aaahhh....yes......oh god yes Yuuta...hmmm it feels so good." He said in a soft lustful voice as moved me head down to his neck and nibbled on him. Castiel gasped at the amazing feeling going through the body but still managed to keep his groin area humping against mine.

I bite down softly on his neck but it left a clear mark on him....one that would never go away. So he could always know I touched him in this way and that he touched me back. Our bodies were fused together as we both rested our Pecs against the other.

My hand slowly made its way down to his pants and I started to remove them. I let our tongues dance around the other before I felt Castiel's hands on my waist and he lowered them down to my pants also removing them slowly.

It was the heat of the moment. The climax of the beginning of sex, my body felt like some sort of puppet as our pants both dropped to the floor in unison. All that was left was the undergarments and as soon as we both place our hands against the others I-

"I had an amazing time Yuuta" Castiel said softly ruining my wild fantasy but I wasn't upset since he was the one who broke it.

I sighed though in despair...Castiel was just trying to be humble, this had to be the worst date I had even counting those ugly high girls. At least then we weren't interrupted and didn't have to worry about being caught.

"Don't lie Castiel...just say I ruined the whole date. I should have checked to see if there was anyone coming before we-um...kissed" I said with a blush as I realized it wasn't all that bad maybe.

"Yuuta it was the best date I ever had...I really enjoyed the view of the flowers, the gifts you got me, and the fantastic kiss. Yuuta...it was the best date because-it...um...it was with you." He said turning away slightly not wanting to see him blush but it didn't work.

I stopped in place and look at him with smile. He stopped too but didn't look back...t-t-that confession...It made me melt inside, I literally began to wonder if I would turn into a pile of liquid and be drained into the river.

"Maybe but...the way you kissed me it was...indescribable. Not only did I ruin the date I was a terrible kisser compared to you no doubt." I said walking with him for awhile as he said nothing back.

We walked until we were on the mid town low town bridge before Castiel stopped again and turned around. As I stopped he wrapped an arm around my back which sent shivers up my spine, froze my body and blood, and made my mind go blank.

Castiel leaned up and pulled me closer until...my eyes widened in surprise-C-Castiel pulled me into a kiss. We were underneath a light post and it was dark, no one was around but we could hear the water underneath us and the light was the perfect atmosphere for us....simple love...yet so majestic at the same time.

I closed my eyes as our lips bit down on the other gently as I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him in closer, I explain why but...just to feel his lips, the touch of his body...it drives me insane, it causes me to become mad in lust and pleasure. I only wanted more-more of Castiel more of his body.

I remembered the fantasy I had awhile ago...I was thinking about....sex...sex with Castiel. I can't deny it would be the most wondrous feeling in the world...to hold Castiel, to touch with my bare body, for us to be completely vulnerable and rely on nothing but the other for warmth and comfort. But as greedy as I was for Castiel...I want to give him things too.

Not just little things-myself! I want to give him everything, whatever he asked I'll give him it. All he has to say is 'Yuuta can I have-'and already I'll be ready to give him everything I can. I am still greedy though...I still only want Castiel, I want to spoil him, and I want him to be greedy for me. I want him to keep me all to himself. My lips are his slave, his toys if he wishes to call them.

But Castiel isn't like that. He wants me to freely love him back, he's too kind to demand much from me...I guess that's why I'm shocked about this kiss. I've never known him to demand something. He's always been ready to reject a gift or at least say 'are you sure? Do you really want to give this me? You don't need to get me anything.' But it makes me happy...happy that he doesn't ask for my permission to kiss me.

I perfectly fine with him kissing me and touching me back without asking, I bare it with a smile...and more. When we parted lips again I felt his breath against my face and it was driving me mad with lust. We looked into the others eyes again. I just can't help but look into those gorgeous eyes, so innocent and clear yet you can see the manliness behind it, the work he's done and the passion he has. I was lost again that not even my mouth could form the words in my head.

"Yuuta...you're the better kisser." Castiel said giving me a soft smile which made me tail puff up in embarrassment and passion. My tail twisted around Castiel leg which made him chuckle and I blushed even redder.

"I'm sorry Castiel it's just a tiger thing it-"

"You really do want me don't you?" Castiel asked touching my tail as I began to feel embarrassed. In most cases I would have thought being so strongly attracted to something to be embarrassing but when it comes to Castiel I-I feel so relaxed. I am embarrassed yet I don't have to worry about ridicule and taunts. Castiel is too kind to ever tease me in such a way and-and he loves me back too much to do that either.

"Yes...I-I have such a desire of you yet-...Damn those nobles! Damn the fear of exile and humiliation! I want you but I don't want to risk you being hurt and teased along with me I-" I said before Castiel placed his head on my chest and it silenced me again. I stood there for a moment and held him back. He felt and acted like...immature almost, not entirely like a kid but yet there was something different about this hug then from the rest.

"Yuuta...all I ever need you to do is love me back. I only ask that you deal with a few surprised kisses and hugs and everything will be fine for me. You and I are feeling the same thing right now." Castiel muffled into my chest as I looked down at him.

"We never really had anyone to hug like this when times were hard. When I was working on my fields alone when my parents passed on and during your training when your parents weren't allowed to show love in order to toughen you up...it was maddening for the both of us. We both wanted someone to hold, someone we could relate too and give each other all the love and comfort in the world. I-I....I want to be the person who gives you my love Yuuta, if you allow it my prince. I hope it will be a good enough present to you." Castiel said speaking from the heart as mine stopped.

It's like he read right through me, it was all true, I wanted to hold onto him, I wanted to protect him and love him because I knew he could do the same for me. That somehow through each other's loneliness and misery we would fine comfort, acceptance, and love with the other. I lowered my head down to his ear with my heart beginning to race I whispered softly.

"It's the best gift the prince has ever received."

(Castiel's view)

We stood there holding the other for several moments before we let go and started to walk the rest of the distance of the way back to my home. If you were to tell me months ago that I would be dating, kissing, and holding Yuuta I would have punched you...but yet in the back of my mind I would scream like a little girl in joy.

The very knowledge that not only is such a strong, noble, brave, and handsome tiger protecting me were enough is that somehow me, a little low town farmer managed to grab his hearts attention is this way. Yuuta is the man of my dreams, the one who is exactly like me. He could easily take care of me, love me, and keep me all to himself. I wouldn't argue with that...it all reminds me of my early childhood when I was a boy with my parents.

How I could be myself, my true soft, and helpless romantic self without shame. When they died I-I went cold, all those emotions were caged up and left to grow and that Yuuta's come along it literally wants to drown him in such romantic feelings, it wants to wash away my pretend pride and utterly submit myself to Yuuta.

Sadly though this is early in the dating game, I can't rush things, I can't demand too much but-but I want to feel him. All of him. I want him to share the ultimate gesture of love, to leave myself and my body into his care and for him to give me all the pleasure he can manage to give me

I blushed as my body got goosebumps about the next thing I thought to myself....I-I want to have sex with Yuuta. I can't deny it to have him as a mate, to know that stud of a tiger is mine is just hypnotizing. I'm tired of working, tired of having to be the best of low town-I want to just lay down and relax, I want to have a vacation. I want a mansion, I want a handsome lover, I-I want him to hold me and kiss me whenever he wants! I-I want to give him all the love I can manage to give him even if that includes giving up my pride and my body!

But this all lead back to my parents and my simple childlike gestures I could give to them like...I thought back to the other couples I see in mid town. Happy, smiling, day dreaming about things I was and...

My brain told my body what to do as we continued to walk together. My arm moved on its own and it found Yuuta's arm. My hand placed itself in his and I squeezed down on it. Yuuta jump a bit from the simple show of love and care but he didn't resist...he squeezed back.

We held hands and walk together...once bitter rivals, completely different people from species and social class now after knowing each other, we were holding hands. Yuuta must have been having bad thoughts about himself still because he brought up more things that shamed himself.

"I'm still sorry Castiel...I don't want to be greedy and selfish when I say this but-um...I still want to do more with you. I rushed into the date without making sure it was clear. Holding hands and kissing it certainly great for me but I want to be more than great to you...I-I want to be perfect." Yuuta said as I squeezed his hand hard enough to get his attention.

"You are perfect Yuuta, never forget that...but I also see where your coming from. Little gestures of love like are amazing and-" I said as I remembered what happened in class and realized what I wanted to suggest.

"Yuuta...are you okay with love notes?" I asked as Yuuta's tail fluttered with delight and he looked at me happily.

"Y-Yeah but we can't pass them in the middle of class! What if we're found out and-" Yuuta said obviously thinking about this idea but realized the danger too which only made me feel special all the more...that he was thinking about more ways to love me.

"Calm down Yuuta I meant like writing the notes before school and placing them in each other's lockers or desks. We could write down anything we like and it would be a great way for you to let me know which times are best to have another date...what do you say...boyfriend?" I asked as Yuuta's tail wrapped around my leg and I heard him squeal again...he likes the idea was all I could think to myself already getting use to his signs of love.

"Yes! Yes! It's a wonderful idea! Can I draw pictures and stuff?!" Yuuta ask grabbing my arm with both hands like a child would. He looked at me with kitten eyes and I couldn't help but laugh at his baby face. Yuuta kept a straight face kitten face until I was done laughing and looked at him again.

"Sure you can love" I said as his tail wrapped around my waist as we walked to my house.

When we arrived at my house I looked back and gave him a hug and a quick kiss.

"Until tomorrow love." I said as Yuuta grinned.

"I'll be looking greatly forward to it." He said as he began to walk away and I entered my house.

As soon as the door shut I placed my back against the wall and slid down. My heart was racing so much as if I had the most exhausting exercise in my life. Indeed to keep up with Yuuta's charm and sexiness I'm going to have to try my best to be the best boyfriend ever!

I looked around my house and I felt some sort of darkness entered me like the nighttime outside...but what can I impress with my stuff? I've borrowed pretty much everything from Yuuta, even the training room was a gift from him! I need to find something that could impress him but what?

Maybe after a good nights rest I could think of something! I went into my room and laid down on my bed but I was in no mood to sleep, I wanted to explore around to maybe find like a gold mine or a legendary item that would impress Yuuta but it was too dark to go adventuring. But I knew one thing for sure-...

(Yuuta's view)

As I walked away from Castiel's house I couldn't deny the desire to rush in and have at him right there or maybe pick him up and carry him all the way back to my castle and have all sorts of fun there but I need to stay calm!

My tail was twisting around my leg so much it hurt! I can't deny the feeling in my body, I want to touch more, I want to feel every last part of him and feel every last inch of his smooth muscular skin. I want our body scents to mingle but I am horribly greedy or in this case very selfless...because I want to bury him in my scent.

I want to be on top of him and claim him as my own! I want every person to smell my scent all over him and I want them to smell his scent on me! Forget being rivals! The teachers are going to have a hard time keeping us from each but not from hatred or fighting but instead from me becoming mad from lust and desire for Castiel.

Castiel is my boyfriend! MINE! AND NO ONE ELSES! Tigers are possessive and protective and I don't want a single hair from his soft healthy head falling off unless its from me running my fingers through his hair. I want to mess him up, create a mess with his body and clean him all up....Oh gods how much I desire to do that!

Curse time and dating rules! I know if I forced myself on Castiel now it would only lead into disaster. Castiel is calm and thinking about what to say next but when he touches me, when he kisses and holds me I freeze! My mind can't think right except for wanting to go further with him!

I want Castiel to let me mess him up. I want him to willingly give his body up to me and I will give him mine. But curse time! I have to wait for so long before I do that! Right now only his kisses and hugs are going to be what calms me. I need to find more info on Tiger mating, I need to find possibly any information about holding back until I think enough time has pass, not only that I need to keep seducing Castiel until then, to keep letting him know how much I care about him and how much I desire him. All it takes is one single wrong word, one misstep and he might stop. He might reject me and my desire to mate with him.

A cold shudder ran up my spine as I thought that, oh that would be a fate as worse as death or eternal imprisonment. I need Castiel around me, I need his love I'm a prince and I am most certainly greedy because I refuse to even consider being with anyone else except him....It-Its got to be Castiel I claim as my own.

I knew this before, even before we started dating...I knew this as we trained and talked, I knew from the second I walked in that class when we were so young and naïve that it was going to be him. Social class and wealth will not separate us...I know for a fact-

(Castiel and Yuuta)

I want to bed him...

(Castiel's view)

I hardly got a wink of sleep but I was by no means tired, I was excited! I was going to pass all the notes as possible to Yuuta whenever I can! I want to drown him with love letters and poems. I giggled to myself as I got dressed and walked to school thinking about all the possible best words to use to show my love for him!

When I arrived at school I went immediately to my locker to grab my piece of paper only to find a little note on top of all my journals! Could it be?! Did Yuuta send this?! I looked around to see if anyone was around and the coast was clear. I hastily opened the note to read Yuuta's first message.

Hello Love

I can't believe I'm writing this! I'm shaking as I'm writing this! I hope you can read most of it, I'm just so happy and nervous at the same time because I don't want to mess this up and bore you possibly! Castiel I love this idea of sending you notes, now we can at least have some way of communication during school and sadly for you I intend to send you so many notes that you won't be able to keep them in your locker! I love you, really love you! Love as pure as the gods themselves! Love as beautiful as the most amazing scenery on the continent and as you, love so strong not even the mightiest of warriors can scratch it!I will never stop thinking of you Castiel! Every heart beat I have always beats with the idea of you and me being together! Love you for now and forever.

Your lover (I think it might be best if we still keep our identities secret in case if it gets in the wrongs hands)

I leaned up against my locker and hold the note to my heart, oh his words of love were so intoxicating. I can't bear to think about throwing this away. Its decided then! I'll keep a folder for all our love notes and take him home at the end of the day!

I felt like such a girl but I just couldn't help it! Yuuta has fallen for me so far yet in my heart I want him to fall further! About as deep as mine. Damn the idea of common courtesy! After a note like this I would just simple say

"Your castle....Your room...8PM...I will be naked and you have total control over me."

Curses! Yuuta will likely want to take this slow but I want to touch him! I him to touch me back and force himself upon me!

Gods I can't believe how weak I'm feeling, after fighting for so long with Yuuta at strength and speed wise I thought I could hold out forever, I thought I was his equal match and perfect rival. But now when it comes to dating and romance, I'm pathetic, weak, hopeless, surely no match for Yuuta!

I should just make up some competition where the winners prize is to take the virginity of the loser. Oh I would feel like a winner in both cases! To have the stud claim me as his own, his trophy, his mate...My warrior side is falling apart, its tired of working and it just wants to please and be pleased right now for all its hard work.

I want to find that lover of my dreams and be with him forever! Yuuta is that lover of my dreams and I couldn't be any more happier! I can't believe all the time I wasted fighting him in the past, all the wasted potential and chances to kiss and possibly have sex. Oh well better late than never I suppose.

Forget being this fighter and warrior hero dream, I just want to hold on to Yuuta and love him forever! Time to let him know I love him as much back!

As I set the note inside one of my empty folders in my locker I noticed something on the back of the paper. I took it back out and I saw...I blushed and couldn't help but say "Aww" to myself which made me feel like nothing but liquid.

On the back were little chibi drawings of me and Yuuta holding hands along with a little heart above both of us, it was so innocent, adorable, and sooo cute! These drawings were well made too!

I then remembered the confession Yuuta made a long time ago on the bench. He said he wanted to be an artist and a drawer right? Wow, with this kind of talent I can see why! These were excellently made and a lot of time as put into making them and it easily won over my heart.

I then noticed a little PS in the corner of the back page. It read "I hope you don't mind these drawings!"

Without hesitation I put the note back into the folder and took out my own piece of paper and started to write down my own message to Yuuta...

(Yuuta's view)

Oh goodness that note must have seem totally pathetic to Castiel! It made me sound like some desperate loser to Castiel but sadly that is the truth! I am helplessly in love with that sexy human! I got to get my mind together to make sure my foolishness doesn't mess this up!

I was anxious in my seat, anxious to see if Castiel maybe placed a note in my locker but I couldn't leave class right now since many other students were now arriving. I buried my nose and lips in my arms the laid across the desk.

Oh I wonder what he wrote back. Perhaps a love poem or maybe truer words of love than mine. I hope my drawings didn't put him off, maybe he didn't like drawings or maybe chibi drawings. I think the next drawings should be more realistic and exactly like us! Yeah I should totally do that but what if Castiel said no to the whole idea?!

I was panicking in my mind, wondering if maybe the first note I gave him was either terrible or just barely good enough by his terms. I bit down slightly on my arm that were still hiding my muzzle as Castiel entered the room.

My tail sprung up at the sight of him and our eyes met instantly. I could just stare at him for hours, the only things better would be to hold, kiss, and have sex with him. Castiel gave me a hidden smile as he sat down, DOES THAT MEAN HE GOT MY NOTE?! OH I HOPE HE LIKED IT!

I tried my best to be focused in class but it was useless my mind was fixed on the idea of what Castiel's note would say back. I'm sure my eyes looked like they were in some trance as I began to day dream again.

I imagined myself walking down the hallway to my locker all by myself and the school looked deserted. I had the common student look as I opened my locker only to see Castiel's note hanging on the inside of my locker.

My heart began to race at all the possibilities of what it could say or contain! My hand was shaking as I opened it only to see...nothing! It was blank!Oh no I must have messed up in some way! I looked at every inch of it and it was clear white...he didn't write anything back.

My tail that was puffed in excitement slumped down in depression as I felt myself nearly ready to cry.

"I-It doesn't say anything....theres nothing." I said to myself whimpering as I held the blank note in my hand....until.

"Nope....better." A seductive voice said behind me as I dropped the note and my tail puffed out again recognizing the voice.

I turned around slowly to see Castiel leaning up against the wall behind me...and he was shirtless! Oh his perfect body staring at me right in the face. Castiel raised that eyebrow which said "Well aren't you going to make love to me?"

I stood frozen for awhile and even Castiel was wondering if maybe I was the one put off. Then without warning I pounced at him extending my arms as if I was some primitive tiger on the hunt and Castiel was my prey. I let out a cry of excitement as I tackled Castiel to the ground and-

a loud ringing interrupted my day dream and I let out a depressed sigh. Why do all my day dreams get interrupted? But oh well theres something better I get to do after class now to act casual as I get up from my desk and-

ignoring my thoughts I almost went into a frantic run to my locker and opened it up to see...there it is! Castiel's response! Maybe it will be like my daydream and he'll be shirtless behind me! I'm shaking and shivering with excitement! I placed my hands on the note and opened it up and began to read it.

My dearest Yuuta.

That letter you sent me nearly melted me into liquid! I stand no chance against your charms and praise of love for me! This note will seem child like compared to yours but I have to let you know I feel exactly the same way back! I can't bare any moment without you! I think of you constantly and always day dream of you and me making love to one another. I saw the drawings on the back of the note and I adored them! Your such a creative and amazing drawer Yuuta! I feel like the luckiest guy in the world to have such a perfect boyfriend like love me. Send all the drawings you want to me, send as many as you can draw! I love you Yuuta with all my heart!

From

The luckiest guy ever in the world to have you (and I agree let's keep this secret, you're so smart Yuuta! Just another reason why I love you so much!)

As soon as I got done reading the note I hug myself and let out child like moans and giggles of happiness and pleasure with the notes in my arms, oh he loved the note and my drawings and he wants more of them!

Oh happy day! Okay I succeeded in the first step now to keep it up! Hmm well in dating advice books they always recommend telling your lover about how much you love them as much as you can. So obviously I should send in more notes and drawings, I have plenty of time to do that after all.

With Planting Season beginning for farmers and with the mid town preparing for the harvest most high town residents just laze about, more than usual as this time they have an excuse to be so. Not me though, oh no I have a sexy boyfriend to praise and give my heart out to! No time for resting!

I moved over to the window and looked out at the city of Riften before I would look out at the city and despair about not having a mate, I would be depressed about having to work to gain honor to my family. And at the time I would angrily towards Castiel's rivalry...but now...

Now I look out at the city with a smile, like finally I'm being my own person and I don't have to worry so much about my families honor. Instead of constant hours of training and exercise I would be allowed to hold and kiss my boyfriend. Instead of acting tough, royal, and rich I could be my hopeless romantic self in front of Castiel and he would act the same back.

Castiel...my lover of my dreams...I owe you everything, you gave me a reason to smile, you gave me my emotions back and made me feel special. I much rather be your mate rather than the prince of the Michael line.

And nothing will ever come between us...

(1 month later)

I can't believe how much time has pass. Over a whole month of dating Castiel and everyday was better than the last! I look forward to everyday and every second of that day happily expecting Castiel to either hug or kiss me.

I was right about my time schedule and I have a lot of time to think about happy fantasies with my soon to be mate. Yes that's right someday I must ask him....ask him to be mated with me. I can't stand acting humble in front of him for much longer...I NEED to mate with him.

But I want to do it in the romantic way, an average day when he's not busy with farming and the weather is nice in the morning. I would dress like any other commoner and go wait for my Castiel in mid town square.

We would hug and give quick kisses to the other, then head over to the café and have breakfast and just talk about everything, each other, our love, our dreams and fantasies, and memories about our past and thoughts about the future.

Both of us laughing and agreeing with the other during talks, blushing and giggling when the other flirts or touches the others hand. We would then go out shopping for things with him. As a prince I would buy him everything, clothes, food, decorations, a whole new house if he were to ask of me! I would spoil him rotten with gifts and praise.

During our shopping spree we would have a quick snack for lunch...maybe lunch we made for the other and happily eat them in public. Giggling and acting like helpless romantic fools when we played with our food.

Then during dinner I would take him to a fancy high town restaurant and reserve it just for us. A dimly lit atmosphere and excellent service as we continued to compliment and flirt with the other. When the food came out we would talk about how delicious the food is and how much we appreciated the others company and love.

Then midway through the dinner one of us, it doesn't matter which gets a little stain of food of our nose. The other notices the stain and leans over the table and licks off the stain making the other one frozen with shock but yet warm in bliss as the others tongue licked the other clean.

When it was clean we would look into the others eyes and pull the other into a deep, romantic, and passionate kiss. After we ran out of breath I would leave a good sum of gold on the table and take my mates hand and lead him out of the restaurant.

No ones being spoken but yet as if we were reading the others mind...and we both liked where it was going. We would arrive back to my castle and go into my room. Castiel would be leading at the time as I hugged him from behind and put my hands underneath his shirt and started to touch and explore his chest.

I could feel his warmth and the tingle of desire as he let out soft gasps and moan of pleasure. He places his hands on each sides of my waist and slowly rubs them making me purr in lust to touch him even further which only made him touch me back more.

Our heads would tilt to meet each others lips as we touched the others body. Me holding him from behind as I felt like our bodies were melting into the others. The touch of his skin...so soft, so smooth yet his muscles so strong..so rough and manly. Eventually neither of us could take the teasing of each others touch much longer as we parted lips and Castiel headed over to my bed.

He took off his shirt as he went over there showing me his glorious musclaur and sexy back as I began to nearly droll in lust and desire. I did the same and started to take off my own shirt. But as Castiel laid down on the bed he calmly took off his pants with seductive moans coming out of his mouth.

I followed his lead and took off my own pants letting them drop to the ground as I walked over to my physically starved mate. Both of us were famished for the others body, starving each other so the meal of intercourse would taste all sweeter.

Then with only the under garments on I would crawl on top of him and kiss him again letting out tongues dance and twirl around the other as our hands placed themselves on the others garment and pulled them off.

Then with the both of us naked and most vulnerable to the other...we did do it. Right there, gently or rough I don't know. We just let our bodies do whatever they desire to give ecstasy and comfort to the other. To let the others essence and trust fill the others hearts and mind.

During it all I want to be saying encouraging things like "Your such an amazing lover Castiel" "More Castiel. Don't hold back" "Your doing amazing my mate" I wouldn't consider myself aggressive during sex but I honestly don't know..all I do know is that I want to find out....with Castiel.

But sadly none of that's happened yet!!! Those damn other nobles are like cockroaches and there all over the place! Probably just waiting for a scandal like mine to rise up so they can talk down upon it! AND WORSE THEY'RE EVERYWHERE!

Why is it now that I finally have a love of my life that I can't seem to get any alone time with him! High town is just crawling with nobles doing nothing because they're bored. I know I don't only have to seduce Castiel here but he keeps talking so highly of high town, saying it looked so fancy and romantic! How am I supposed to seduce my mate if these damn nobles won't leave for a few hours?!

I feel like such a bad boyfriend at times. Castiel keeps telling me that what little dates we do have are romantic but I know he's just playing kind. We have managed to sneak in a few small dinner dates but there always so simple. I want to utterly entrance Castiel with every part of Riften...and myself.

Speaking of Castiel its time to do a little hobby of mine I've started! Best of all it involves Castiel!...even though he doesn't know about it.

Now after I did some researching I discovered that I was playing this...stalking game with Castiel, a game where I watch him do his chores, study, and farm and I sit back to make sure no one dares think to have Castiel as they're own.

Its not that I don't trust Castiel to be loyal to me it's the other people I don't trust...I've seen them looking at him, a glint in there eye as he turns to them but I want to smack that person away to make sure he looks at me...all the time!

Castiel is mine! My mate! My boyfriend! My lover! And his attention should all go to me and I suppose just a bit to his daily life. Hmrph, if it were up to me I would tell me servants to work his fields while he and I make out passionately.

I put on my robes and headed out to low town to watch my soon to be mate work his daily life. It was routine right now because I've been doing this for about 3 weeks right now...not that anyone's counting or anything I just want to make sure he's alright! He's my boyfriend after all!...My boyfriend.

I would usually hide behind some of other farmer's crops to watch my mate tend to the fields. No one knows I use this spot as my hiding point but I'm sure not about to allow my mate to be taken by someone else!

I use the hood just in case if he looks in my direction so I can hide in plain sight as it were and pretend to be a worker at the other persons field. I admit these days were hot and it made the hood robe unbearable at times but I will endure for my mate's purity and for when I'm the one to mate with him!

Theres something wrong with me isn't there?

I can't help it though the thought of someone else touching him besides me...the very thought makes my tail puff in anger and disgust. I wonder if this is normal for tigers to be like this? To be almost obsessing over their desired mate. I should check it up sometime.

I looked at my boyfriend from across the fields and could see his forehead shining with sweat, oh why doesn't he just let others do the work so he doesn't have to tire out that beauty body of his?! Why does he stain his face with his sweat?!

Look at him too! He's all alone plowing out that field and no is there to help him! Shouldn't any thinking person be out there to help him! Curse my social position! I would be out there doing all the work for him so he could be resting his gorgeous body!

He wouldn't even need to pay me back! All I would ask for is his lips to kiss mine and for us to touch bodies together! Oh that would be the best pay ever! One of these days I should ask him! I should just lie to my father saying I'm helping my friend rather than worry about making a fool out of the Michael name!

Wouldn't it even be better that a rich person helps a poor person?! It would show the Michaels love everyone the rich and the poor! Heck mating with Castiel, a farmer, should be the greatest sign of acceptance of all social classes for the Michaels but 'nooooo' that would be dishonoring the family name! Whatever I have no care about my name or wealth, all I care about is my mate Castiel.

Minutes flew by as I began muttering to myself lowly. Preparing myself for dire situations that wouldn't likely happen but I want to be prepared...and they could happen someday!

"Okay if a giant dragon bursts out of the ground suddenly I'll just run over grab a wood cutters axe and fight off the dragon while I carry Castiel out of there..." I muttered to myself before the sound of a coming wagon broke my thoughts.

To my horror I saw what looked like a pretty tiger girl and her trade wagon and Castiel went over to her when she waved her hand in assistance! She better not be thinking. She took out a map and she started pointing at some place and was talking to my mate but I had no idea what they were saying.

But it was she had to do in order to tick off my protective instincts!

"RRRRRRRR" I growled lowly as they continued talking.

"Keep your distance ugly women! Keep your paws off him!" I said as their hands were probably mere inches from the other. Castiel was just helping this lady find his way and I bet in the back of her mind she thinks to take him for her own!

No one could hear my make my child like threats but I couldn't care Castiel doesn't need to bother with anyone except me.

Castiel back away from the map and the lady did to after nodding in agreement. He shook her hand and she jumped back up on her wagon and started to ride away from town.

"HA! Take that! That's right just walk away you know you're not good enough for my Castiel!" I said clenching my fist in victory before my tail hit my back....what am I doing? Am I really going this far to keep my Castiel safe?

After a small debate in my heart the victor was clear...yes I will go this far for my Castiel.

I won't forgive that woman for being near my boyfriend and I'll be damned before I let anyone else-...wait is Castiel?....oh my yes!

I said going a bit closer to Castiel and I noticed him wipe away some of the sweat from his head and he was doing my favorite part of watching him work. If its hot enough and I'm lucky enough Castiel will take off his shirt to get a bit cooler and his sweaty abs could be seen miles away in my prospective.

Oh my just look at them glisten against the sun, it almost looks like he dumped oil on himself making him look so soft but I know that his body was rock hard....like another part of me right now. I get so excited seeing him shirtless now I can't help but be turned on.

My tail twisted around my leg again as I began to drool in desire. Oh I just want to go out there and tackle him in the dirt right now. Best yet I'm getting sweaty now too and with both of our bodies...kissing and touching in the sun. Rolling around the dirt but yet it would be so pure between us...just to kiss everywhere when possible.

I think the heat of my desire was beating back the sun as I began to get frustrated with reality. OOOHHHH! WHY DOES TIME HAVE TO GO SO SLOWLY?! I WANT TO TRY YOU LIKE A LOVER CASTIEL BUT YOUR BODY DRIVES ME MAD IN LUST! I WANT TO TAKE THINGS SLOWLY BUT I WANT TO HAVE YOU EVERY SECOND OF EVERYDAY!

We haven't even kissed in tongue yet but now I want to go all the way with you! I want to feel every part of you, to let you be vulnerable to me but to trust me enough to make you comfortable! You're my best friend! My boyfriend! My lover of my dreams! But I know if I make one mistake it could be all over with!

Remember the Michael virtue Yuuta....patience....good things come to those who wait.

(Castiel's view)

It may be me but I think I've noticed Yuuta being a bit more...interested in me. I swear sometimes it feels like he's watching me some days but when I look around its just an average day...maybe I'm getting too excited to be with Yuuta most days.

I can't deny I would feel so lucky if such a studly prince were watching me right now. It would make me feel so special, so unique that I should be cared for 24/7. How much I would just desire to rest and love rather than work and have to plan for tomorrow, I just want to rest.

But dating Yuuta is the next best thing compared to resting, and I would prefer to be loved by him rather than anyone else. Oh look at me! Working in the fields and day dreaming about what it would be like to date Yuuta! A year ago the only thing I would wonder about him is what he was planning and how I could beat him.

Now I couldn't care less about who is tougher or stronger, I'll gladly admit being weaker if it means that he'll bed me sooner...maybe thats what he's waiting for! Maybe he feels like he doesn't know who should be on top and he simply doesn't ask for permission to be either!

But I'm also afraid of over stepping our dating, its been a month and perhaps in another month or 2 maybe I should ask but I want him now! I take one look at his bare chest and I feel smaller, weaker, almost pathetic really compared to his god like body.

I have to wonder myself if Yuuta wants to bed me now. This last month of school has been the best of my life, since Yuuta and I already have top class grades we could almost fool around in classes and still have enough to pass. I don't pay any attention to class much anymore my mind always go over to Yuuta and the notes I receive in my locker.

At the time I wanted to be the one to shower him with notes of love but instead I'm the one getting swamped with letters and drawings! Honestly, everyday theres at least 3 notes or drawings waiting for me in my locker, each of them declaring such pure and great love for me and I can't keep up with them! I send him one he sends me 3 or more! The record right now is 10 letters in a single day!

I know Yuuta is royalty and has plenty of spare time to write these but I'm starting to wonder if thats all what he does in his castle! I sent him one of the few notes I could saying I was sorry for not being able to send more notes to him and that if I really did have more time I would send more but after receiving around 7 letters of "its alright! I love your letters! I think its me who doesn't send enough letters and drawings!" I knew he really didn't mind getting 1 letter everyday or so.

My folder that I originally had for these letters got stuff quickly and I had to take it home and borrow more folders from the teachers. Right now I got 3 completely stuffed folders underneath my bed filled with drawings and poems of Yuuta's love for me.

At night I look at them and smile to myself as if I was that child again, when my parents would comfort me with a hard days work. His letters are so sweet, caring, gentle like my mother but his drawings and Yuuta himself is exactly like my dad. Determined, strong, and charming...Oh I am the luckiest person in the world right now! Nothing could go wrong now! Nothing as long as Yuuta is with me!

After another days work it was getting late near 6PM and I sighed in despair that I probably wouldn't get anytime with Yuuta now. Sometimes if I'm lucky the dirt will be soft enough so the chores go fast and I could actually get a little talk with him but that comes like once a week.

I honestly don't feel like the great boyfriend Yuuta describes in his letters and drawings...oh and another personal issue with Yuuta is that his drawings are getting a little more...detailed than the chibi drawings before.

Right now he sends me about 2 drawings a day of me and him...holding hands or blushing around the other. At first I adored these pictures. They were well drawn and detailed and I can see why he wanted to become a artist before he has real talent!

Other times he would send drawings on me or him alone with a soft gentle background...like me in the woods leaning against a tree looking off to the sky or him sitting comfortable in the high town gardens. They were so majestic, masterpieces of their ownright...but recently he's taken a higher step in these drawings.

Now he send pictures of us kissing, touching the other in romantic settings and they make me both uncomfortable and envious of the drawn figures...I want to kiss and hold Yuuta like that more. Now he's drawing near sexual situations like both me and him shirtless and I was pushed against the wall with us kissing deeply and passionately.

Or other times me looking helpless against him as he touched my body in the drawings. They make me both furious and embarrassed, furious in my pride sense to think I would look that helpless against him but also embarrassed that it might very well be true....

But I can't bring myself to say enough with these pictures...if I did he might get the wrong message that I wanted him to stop praising me and showering me with love and attention. I don't want that, I-I want to be spoiled, I want to be greedy and this is the only way I can have it without risking the relationship.

Yuuta...shower me all you want with desire...show me how much you love me. If you really do want me that badly don't even feel afraid to just force yourself upon me because-because I want you to. I-I want to be with you Yuuta and I'll be the happiest person in the world when you mate with me...hopefully someday soon.

As I started to go home I noticed something at my front door...a note. My heart lifted when I thought Yuuta sent it and I ran over to it dropping my farmer equipment.

Strange....he's never sent it to my house. He's always given me the letters during school...I wonder if something is wrong or maybe he's just taking a further step in the relationship. I opened to letter and I was even more confused by what it said...most of Yuuta's letters were filled with hearts and words but this one was bare...all that was written in it was.

Meet me in the low town bar at 7 if you can. I long to see you again.

And that was it, no chibi drawings of him or me together, no hearts or name even. Heck the words looked a bit different but that is certainly noble writing...it must be serious, maybe he's going away for awhile on royalty business.

I put the letter on the table inside me house and changed my sweaty clothes and headed out immediately. I was somewhat scared the maybe he was leaving for awhile, how long do royalty businesses last? Yuuta told me before that at most they last a week but I suppose I would like to get a warning ahead of time if thats the case.

Still why couldn't he have written it in the letter? Why not write he was going to be gone in the letter? Then again this is Yuuta were talking about, he probably wants to tell me in person, to get one last look at his lover before leaving. Yuuta you helpless romantic you...thats why I adore you even more.

I walked into low town and headed over to the bar and opened it. It wasn't very busy since many farmers would prefer sleep rather than drink during Planting season but there were a few groups around drinking calmly and gossiping among themselves.

I looked around the bar to see Yuuta or in this case a hooded robed person as thats usually him. It somewhat saddens me that he can't be himself here but one day it will all be better. It didn't take long to spot a hooded person in the corner of the bar and he motioned his hand to come to him when he noticed I spotted him.

That must be him! I wonder whats going on? As I got closer I starting to realize some things...wow he looks...kinda smaller now...and the robes are smaller and cleaner than the ones he wore. His face was also completely hidden from me as Yuuta would usually peak up to show me his face but then I got the ultimate proof something was wrong.

When I was just about to sit down I looked for a moment too see no tail...t-this wasn't Yuuta. I sat down somewhat scared about this man how must have sent me this letter but I don't see any reason to panic...I can handle myself if he starts anything.

"I'm glad I didn't get the wrong house. I was scared that you wouldn't come." He said referring to the letter. I sat down awkwardly across the man as I was given a drink.

"Um-yeah...w-who are you?" I asked smelling my drink to make sure nothing was wrong with it before I took a sip...it tasted fine as usual...maybe he has the wrong person.

I took a closer look at this mysterious person and noticed a few things. First he was actually smaller than me by a few inches and that he didn't have the same smell like other travelers have, I know this smell because I'm the one who usually welcomes traders and adventures to Riften. Also he didn't look very intimidating, no real muscles like Yuuta has nor a real feel of a fighter...but you don't have to be strong to be a thief or some assassin.

"I don't blame you for not recognizing my voice, we only talked for a few moments during that party long ago. Here." He said taking off his hood to show...a boy! A kid about the same age as me. He had honey blonde hair and blue eyes. He also had a soft yet kinda creepy smile on him...I-I don't think I know this kid but...

"I-I'm sorry but I...wait...party?" I said before asking myself about the party he referred too. I only went to 2 noble parties...one was the night Yuuta kissed me and the other was when I pretended to be a butler.

But I don't remember anything going wrong with the butler party except almost being....wait a moment. I looked back up at the boy and imagined himself in white makeup and wiped some of it in my imagination...wait its-its!

"Y-Your the Philips prince!" I said remembering him as he nodded and kept the same smile.

"Ah I knew you would remember me because I certainly remembered you..." He said he changed his smile a bit and raised his eyebrow in a flirty manner what the-?....oh my.

I remembered what he said to me long ago...that he was willing to spend over 25,000 gold for me...and he claimed that he wanted to kiss me! Oh damn this is bad!

"O-Oh! Um what are you doing in Riften? J-Just passing through?" I asked getting nervous as I hope he wouldn't say-

"I came here to see you."

Crap...

"Why me? Wait...for that matter how did you even find me?" I asked somewhat defensive that maybe he was spying and stalking me before he leaned back explaining himself.

"Well I told my mother that I wanted you that badly and I was willing to spend a lot more gold for you but she said you weren't worth that much. I begged her to tell me anything you told her as I say you talk to her briefly and I got only your name Castiel..." He said as a shiver went up my spine...oh no...OH NO!

"W-Well did you need something? Are you lost or-" I asked before he confidently said.

"I came here to see you...I want you to consider being with me." He said as my heart was panicking hoping maybe Yuuta would step in but I know he wouldn't be here.

"W-Why? I-I'm not interested in being with someone else! The butler day was a little joke gone wrong! I'm not really a butler! I'm a poor farmer and obviously not worth-" I said before the Philips boy again interrupted.

"I don't mind. I really like you, but why wouldn't a farmer like to be with a noble person like me? Wouldn't most poor jump without hesitation at the chance to be with someone richer?" He asked as I knew I was in deep trouble. I can't tell him about Yuuta and I but I need to give a good reason why not to be with him!

"W-well you see....I-I um...I already have a special someone! A-A girlfriend! Sorry but I really don't think you want to cause trouble by telling some random girl that she can't have me. I'm sorry that this trip would be useless but Riften has lot of-"

"Oh whats she like?" He said as he smiled still....as if sensing my lie.

"Oh well...s-she's beautiful. Shes strong and so caring....so soft with her fur and-...so loving...so protective." I said before going off to my feelings for Yuuta...even in panicked situations I just have to think about Yuuta and I'll get calm.

"She's sounds nice" the Philips boy said as I continued on.

"I can't believe such of beauty would fall in love with me...a god among us and they choose me...a farmer and low town resident to be their loved one."

"Oh? So this person must be a high town girl right?" Philips said before I snapped back into reality. OH CRAP! I JUST MADE THE SEARCH EASIER FOR HIM!

"NO! I-I you should just leave! Go now! I'm not telling you anything else! I won't let you get me in trouble and cause anymore problems for him!" I shouted before Philips placed his hand on his cheek.

"Him? So its not a girl?" He said as I was nearly going to faint as panicked as I was...dammit, dammit, DAMMIT!!!

"Thats it I'm going to kick you out and-"

"Its Yuuta Michaels isn't it?" He said as my heart froze....shit.....shit.....he found out....he-he knows.

"I-I'm begging you just leave....Please...how can you claim to love me if your the one causing me emotional stress?" I said as the Philips kid was actually taken aback by my words. I must have landed a hit.

"Well...I admit I must not be handling this situation well...and yes I suppose I am causing you some pain but....it will be like nothing what Yuuta Michaels parents will do to you." He said as I looked up.

Y-Yuuta's parents?

"W-What?"

"I mean I should be glad for you and I can see why you would much prefer to be with him rather than me. I won't lie my families wealth is like pocket change compared to Michaels wealth...his wealth against mine and its clear who you would rather be with." He said admitting some defeat as my heart felt like it was healing.

Sure I was happy that he was admitting some flaws with his crush for me but I don't any pleasure in it. Oh well I'll tell him that Yuuta really does love me and that-

"So what are you offering Yuuta's parents in return for dating their son?" He asked as once again I froze like ice...and this time Philips couldn't say anything to make me feel just slightly better.

"O-Offer?" I asked as Philips nodded.

"Yes you must have something the Michaels want in order for you, a farmer, to date their son. Is it your land? It would have to be hundreds of acres long for them to consider dating him. Or maybe your family own some gold or silver mine? Jewelry is in high demand and an easy way to get some money...or possibly...maybe you found some lost ancient Michaels artifact and your using it to get the Michaels wealth!" He said offering so many explanations...and-and...I had none of them.

I-I didn't have an artifact Yuuta's family wanted...I-I didn't have a mine that would make me rich. And I barely have enough land to care for myself. W-Why would that matter? Yuuta said-Yeah thats right.

"W-What does it matter? Yuuta said he'll take care of me!" I said giving him my explanation. His eyes opened widely to my response...but then he shook his head.

"I suppose since your not nobility you don't know how noble dating works. You see most nobles only date other nobles for protection. You see if one noble family ran into a tough spot and couldn't support their house, they would just move into the others house until it picked back up. Basically most noble marriages are like back up houses, last resorts and such...I saw that house you live in. I thought maybe it was a little storage cabin but...thats your house isn't it?" Philips asked as I jumped at the question.

I felt...I felt my eyes growing heavier and my heart was sinking. I wanted to end it right there. I just wanted him to leave but...t-this has been a concern of mine. T-That I couldn't care for Yuuta if he was in trouble. I-I am poor...I barely have enough money to feed myself and survive...to care for Yuuta and his parents I-I wouldn't possibly make enough money for that...

"Y-Yeah..." I said sadly nearly breaking down to tears as Philips shook his head again.

"I was afraid of this...so pretty much Yuuta fell in love with you? A poor farmer who can't offer anything else back to his family or their legendary honor?" He said putting the situation perfectly as it felt like a dagger went through my heart.

Don't answer him...just get up and leave, he doesn't know what hes talking about. Yuuta would certainly consider...he would...I mean-I am...

I couldn't even think straight as I only managed to mumble out in sobs.

"Y-Y-Ye-Yes" I said before a few tears left my eyes.

"Castiel...I won't force you but...this relationship is way over your and Yuuta's head. If you get caught there would be terrible consequences not only for you...but for Yuuta." He said as his mere name in trouble made me jump in fright.

"If Yuuta's parents found out about your relationship they would disown him and he would have no where to turn except for you and your tiny house. It would extremely hard work you know? And so much different from what Yuuta experiences. Yuuta is use to having everything done for him while your use to work. At first Yuuta would be willing to work hard, try with all his might to make the best of the situation but eventually he will break. The work and simpler living style would break down any noble born child. He'll curse the idea of having to work for the rest of his life. He'll curse having to cut back on everything from fun to meals. And then finally..." Philips said as my heart braced itself not wanting to hear the rest...but it was too late.

"He'll hate you...he'll hate himself for ever falling in love with you and he'll go back to beg his parents to take him back...they might even but they might require one thing....never to see you again. They could choose to exile, jail...or even execute you for him to get back to his wealth."

I couldn't hold back my tears anymore...I-It was all true...but...I love him. I love Yuuta he-he said he would...but I can't offer anything back! Yuuta is smart though! He'll find a way-...but that would only make it worse if they found out! He said he couldn't bare life without me but-....

"I have to even admit myself...I really did think you were a butler. A butler at least has a decent house at times, a nice cozy mid town like house. When I got that house address I thought it either a mistake or that maybe you just bought some land to invest in the farmer economy. It was small land, I truly thought it was a safe little investment just in case if it didn't work out but...your living off of that little land aren't you?" He asked as-as

I felt weak again, I felt helpless, pathetic, and utterly weak. Like my emotions and feelings didn't matter...that feeling when my parents died and-and no one was there for me. That I didn't have time to cry and start working immediately after that....I hated it...I hated that I couldn't cry, that I didn't even get the chance to mourn. I got angry, I used my anger for work, to get more done so maybe hopefully I would get time to cry but-...there was always more work for me. I looked down at my fists as I let that angry flow through me again. I only ever once cried in front of Yuuta but I had a connection to him...that I could really be myself and not worry about being teased and insulted for crying...but this wasn't Yuuta-This was some-some snot nose asshole!

"Castiel?" Philips asked before I slammed my fists into the table and muttered out.

"Get out...I don't want to ever see you again!" I said to him upset beyond all reasoning as he calmly got up and touched my shoulder.

"It had to be said...I'm sorry. Maybe if you got enough money someday you might-"

"GET OUT!" I screamed at him with my tear stained face as he did just that with a emotionless face. Without even looking back he went out he door and lost sight of him. Just like that he was gone...I wish that he took his words with him thought but they were stuck on me...

I placed my head on the table and let my tears drop to the ground...my heart and mind both weary but still fighting the other.

Yuuta loves me..he'll care for me no matter what....but if something went wrong he might hate me...I couldn't stand that...but he's like my parents! He's my comfort! My joy!...but I'm a burden...a rock on his back. A problem...

He clearly loves you! He's willing to give you anything! He would never hate me! But I can't give him anything...I-I have to work so hard to just barely give him a little gift...You can't give up on him he trusts you! And I trust him...we're both so alike! Same feelings same training same......

No...its clear now...I should have known from the start. I don't need to worry myself anymore...I-...I know what I have to do...

I calmly got up and went back to my home without anymore struggle in my heart or mind I went upstairs and opened my paper cabinet and I took out a single piece of paper and started to write down a note.

(Yuuta's view)

Oh what a nice day! I had a good nights rest and I had a lovely dream about me and my Castiel loving each other as always! I love him so much! I'm so happy to have him in my life! Best of all one day I can be with him forever!

I'm so glad I haven't done anything wrong so far! At this rate I can convince my parents to maybe let him move with me after they see how happy and lively I am! It might take some adjustment but hopefully my parents will see how much of a positive affect Castiel's love has had on me.

As I got dressed I wrote down another quick love note for him and headed off to school. We're going to have a holiday coming up soon and Castiel and I can date then! Then-...then I'll ask him...to mate with me.

I'm ready. I shouldn't be afraid, I want him to take it as a compliment. Surely for a farmer to know that he seduced a prince so much that the prince wants to have sex with him to be a compliment right? I'll let him know that I'll love him no matter how the sex is!

Oh I'm so nervous! I can't wait to see him today I don't know If I can barely contain myself!

I went off to school smiling happily to myself as I went straight to his locker and left the note inside. I think I'll let up on the letters for awhile now...I hope the sex question will make up for fewer letters. I went to the classroom and sat down happily waiting for Castiel to arrive.

I was first again to class as always and usually Castiel arrives second...I waited....and I waited...then other students began to arrive. Then more and more until literally the whole classroom was present except for a few low town seats. My tail that was up in excitement and eagerness started to drop in worry and confusion.

Castiel...he's usually around here at this time. Maybe, oh right sometimes a few low town kids have to miss the school day to farm and Castiel is all alone working so he just needs another day to work. Still I was saddened that I wasn't going to see his face today. I wish there was someway too....wait...Maybe he left a note for me!

The class hour went slowly but when it finally finished I quickly went over to my locker...oh I do hope he left me just a little note, anything would be nice. A little poem, a nice drawing of his own, or even a blank note saying "I still love you" Would be more than enough for me!

I got to my locker and hastily opened it and I scanned around. Then to my luck on top of my books I saw a little piece of paper!

"YAY! He did leave me a note! What does it say?" I said happily to myself as the front of the paper said Yuuta as always and I turned it around to read-...

My body and heart froze I dropped the note to the ground and back away from in total terror. I started to breath heavily in shock as I backed up to the wall but it almost seemed like the words were still the same size even from a distance. My tail slumped down so far I swear I thought it dropped off as my fur stood up in horror. My eyes were fixed on the note and my eyes were as wide as platters.

I prayed I was in some dream-some nightmare and that I was going to wake up. A cold sweat running down my body though told me otherwise...my last hope was that he would just suddenly pop out of nowhere and say it was a joke...it wouldn't be funny but-...this-he's....he's not really here.

My heart felt like shattered glass as my blood ran as cold as were the words written on the letter...

"I'm breaking up with you"