lMore Then Just Friendsl *Black Thorn* lDecayl
Gay relationships, be at least 18, bla bla bla bla bla, I'm not held responsible for anything.
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A special thanks to: Arctic Fox 9, Libahunt, W.A.F, foxpaws, Arctic pup 23. Liode, Jon Talbain, Lucas Kale, flipp_the_fox_13, and Cove
Try Listening to- STEVEN! by Alice Cooper or When You Were young by The Killers.
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Sekhai woke up lazily and stretched, he just had a nightmare once again, as he laid awake he felt a paw cup over his boxers where his balls were.
''Azrain?'' he called out.
''Yes Sekhai?''
''Mind moving your hand?''
Azrain kissed Sekhai on the cheek.
''Are you sure you want me too''
''Well...'' Sekhai tried to recall why him and Azrain couldn't indulge in each other, he actually forgot why and could not remember.
''I suppose I don't really mind'' Sekhai added and kissed Azrain back.
The Husky lowered his hand under Sekhai's boxers and fondled with his jewels as Sekhai continued to lay down letting his ball sack have Azrains attention. After a few seconds the Ocelots arousal grew apparent as his erection formed a tent in his boxers. Azrain removed the bed covers from Sekhai to have a better view and appraised Sekhai's malehood, them at last removed him of his boxers.
Azrain embraced Sekhai as he kissed him, meanwhile Sekhai him self was preoccupied with stripping Azrain in return, as he did he felt his groin rubbing against Azrains own as he moaned.
''We are going to do it aren't we...''
''Well we don't have to if you don't want to''
Once again Sekhai tried to remember but he couldn't, maybe he was to tired for his mind to function at the moment.
''I'm to tired to do anything actually, I'll just try resting I guess''
''Wait you wish to try something?''
''What''
''Let me surprise you, just close your eyes''
''Okay...'' Sekhai followed Azrains suggestion and closed his eyes.
''Now sit up against the wall''
Sekhai think he knew what Azrain had in mind, and furthermore followed Azrains instructions and laid against the wall as his legs spread out, exposing his malehood.
''If you want me to stop I will''
Sekhai felt Azrain licking Sekhai's furry sheath then he brang his tongue up the ocelots member, and as the Husky did Sekhai shuddered slightly. Azrain inhaled Sekhai's scent and lowered his mouth and began pleasing Sekhai's member as the Ocelot moaned furthermore. Azrain began to lower his muzzle over Sekhais member, and as Azrain did Sekhai could feel the Huskies tongue licking his virgin tip as he laid his head back and moaned softly in ecstacy. As Azrain continued licking at Sekhai's full length of his member Azrain finally decided to give Sekhai's knot some attention and then began licking up and down over the entire member. Sekhai's member began to leak pre-cum, Azrain tasted the Ocelot as he rhythmatically pushed his muzzle in and out over Sekhai's member.
Sekhai laid his head back and suddenly noticed...he was on top of Azrain?, after a few seconds of being in an awkward confusion Sekhai finally came to notice it was all but a dream, which could easily become actual reality. Sekhai had known Azrain during only the summer and Lexiharin for 4 years, yet sadly in the short time Sekhai began to evolve a relationship with the Husky at an incredible speed, First hugging and now kissing. Sekhai had numerous problems himself, and many things to worry of as well...but sadly the one that Sekhai wanted to clear out the most at the given moment was how to get rid of an erection without the relief of using five fingers on his paw. He tried to think it off but after having a dream of doing it with his ''friend'' Sekhai was laying on top of, it was rather complex to get rid of it.
Erotic thoughts kept swarming Sekhais mind non stop, specifically of him and Azrain, the Huskies hyperactive and cheerful self made him seem like he didn't ever think of sex, yet it was clear he did, his appeal was so innocent, but to see the Husky actually horny was a bit attractive. Lexiharin on the other hand wasn't hyper much, he was somewhat cheerful, but always had this silent, selfish dignity, as expected just like Oklain. Sekhai once tried to hint around if Lexiharin was gay, or to hint around he himself was gay. Sekhai another time though asked straight forward to Lexiharin if he was straight or something else, Lexiharin never said he was gay but answered the question with ''I'm a Pan Sexual''
Sekhai had to ask Lexiharin what a Pan Sexual was, it appeared in the end though as Lexiharin explained it's sort of like a Bi sexual but they don't care much for sex, Sekhai never really believed Lexiharin, the Fox could not say he never had just plain lust for another. Lexiharin answered that question as well. ''Pan Sexuals usually have sex, it just means it doesn't cross our minds when it comes with getting in a relationship, until it evolves to that anyway...''
Maybe him and Lexiharin really is possible...Pan Sexual and Bi Sexual, same difference, Lexiharin constantly said he didn't care which gender, just as long as the relationship was out of friendship and altruism. Sekhai was Lexiharins only friend....and he did care for Lexiharin, not for his own wishes either.
''Your a bit happy to see me aren't you'' Azrains voice suddenly peirced sekhais thoughts.
''Erm'' Sekhai had nothing to say as his boner was still apparent and against Azrain's own malehood.
''Don't worry I don't mind the position, it's a bit comfy actually, even if I do have you kind of jabbing me''
Sekhai felt embarrasement creep him, at least Azrain was gay or else he'd probably die of it.
''Well I wa..''
''Dreaming of me?''
''How'd you guess...''
''Well it was either me or Lexiharin, no way in hell is it going to be of Oklain''
Azrain suddenly pictured Oklain naked, entirely black fur and with his normal depressed miserable self.
''Well Oklain would actually be a bit cute if he wasn't depressed or miserable...or Nazi obsessed, he'd probably be black like coal''
''Did you know his stomach, chest, and his thighs are white?''
''Really?''
''Yes, even his sheath is''
''Wait how the hell do you know that? did you experiment with him or something?''
''Not really, I visited him once and he was drunk, and naked, I actually constantly kept looking at it, he didn't seem to mind...but then again he didn't seem to notice either''
''How come when you explain him to me he's always doing crazy stuff and everytime I see him he actually has dignity?''
''That was probably the alcohol losing it's effect, he used to be really crazy with what he did at times''
''Mind telling a few? I'm curious to hear what trouble he got in'' Sekhai grinned.
''I'll tell you, you look cute when you grin''
''Why thank you''
''No problem, well one time he actually tried to add pesticides to the drink...I had to swipe it from him quickly, then there was the time he looked like he was in a glam rock band, that was a really odd day. And I remember school days when he'd have a hang over first block and often sleep the entire first class, a lot of teachers gave up on him, but some gave him hell, they'd ask him a question while he had his head down randomely, and even more amazing was how he would answer them and actually be correct, kind of funny''
''How?''
''Imagine a drunk wolf sleeping in rags looking undignified in every way, then a teacher who tries to look professional asks him a question randomely, due to him sleeping they expect him to get it wrong, and yet he gives this detailed explanation, then finally the answer, then goes back to sleep.''
''Well I suppose it's humorous in a way...''
''Yeah, Oklains smart...''
''Smart and?''
''He's like one of those comic book villains, extremely smart, yet entirely selfish and ambitious, didn't you ever notice that?''
''Not really, I see him more of a pissed off Nazi''
''Aw the shows over''
''You were looking at my dick the entire time?!''
''Well you mainly but it was kind of exploding in my face''
''Well don't expect an encore''
''Fine, any ideas what we should do?''
''Let's try and not worry so much today, me about Lexiharin and you about Oklain''
''Nah Lexiharins alright, let's just forget about Oklain''
''I suppose, I still don't know though...''
''Well either way make sure Lexiharin has become what he already should be, not someone that changes, he could be just like Oklain after all''
''Ok'' Sekhai got off the bed.
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Resiren walked down the hospital towards Halls room, but could not notice Hall in the room instead a nurse was seen, was he dead? no maybe he was just transferred...
''Is a Fox named Hall here?''
''Afraid we keep his kind down in the morgue''
Resiren was suddenly struck down as his heart beated fast, Hall was dead?
''H-how?''
''Due to too much people crowding the hospitals here the government has decreed we are allowed to use Euthanasia on specific patients, those that are in Critical condition, we often don't ask, usually the patient decides if they want to die legally''
Guilt now devoured Resiren, it was Halls own fault he got shot but it was Resirens he was dead, only an asswhole would yell at their friend when they think they are dying anyway...Resiren just wanted to leave the hospital, or see Hall one last time...even if he was going to throw an insult or a comment nurtured of hate...he half expected to hear Hall bitching at him for letting him die.
''Any reasons why he allowed it, did he like say any?''
''Well he said he wanted his friend, Resiren to stop working for an Oklain, Personally I'd agree as well, if your in the mob everyone is chasing you''
''Oh really, whats this Resiren look like?'' Resiren was aware of the irony of asking this.
''He never said anything of his friend, probably doesn't want the cops involved, that Fox was probably a crook but in the end we're a hospital, our jobs to end peoples pain, one way or another''
''Well thanks...'' Resiren walked away wanting to once again continue his own tradition of breaking down into tears, lately that's all he did was cry and work, as he entered his vehicle he phoned Oklain, the younger one that is.
''Hello Ok-...lain''
''Hello, are you upset?'' The wolf responded.
''Halls dead''
''Really?''
''I'm sorry I can't work for you, I can't take it, I tried to stick with this as long as I could but everythings going to hell, and is it true your father will kill me if I don't answer the third ring?''
''Yes, it's a custom phone that explodes after the third ring, or gives away your position so they can kill you''
''Okay...''
''Don't worry I understand, I'm sorry about Hall, I'll make sure my father dies for this, just don't miss a call, I'll make sure sooner or later you don't need to worry of that any longer''
''Thanks...'' Resiren hung up, and as he did Oklain just stared at the cell phone, and threw it across the room.
He lost one of his best sources of info, Oklain walked over to the phone and called a Taxi to pick up a cell phone for him and bring it back. Oklain wasn't sure if he hated him self more for making one of his friends suffer through a selfish desire, or his father for being the cause of everything. Suddenly the phone rang, the first thing that crossed Oklains mind was that it better not be who he thinks it is, but it was indeed the last person he wanted to speak to, his father.
''I have another errand, the Kaylard's left town a few days ago on a trip of some sort, I wish you to go in there house and check through the places interior and check every route of escape of the place, to check every room, you'll see why later. he hang up instantly.
Oklain knew he was going to dread this one, he thought maybe he should bring something, but quickly decided not to, first he was going to see Amber then do the errand. Oklain stepped out the door and quickly prepared to head towards Amber.
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Lexiharin sighed, all he did was either lay in his bed awake until he fell asleep, or laid in his bed asleep until he could wake up. He was tired of always falling asleep and always waking up being lost in an on going void of damnation. He no longer knew what was a dream and what wasn't, but then he quickly remembered a quote by Socrates ''I think there for I am'' or perhaps ''How do I know if I'm alive or if this is but a dream, but I dream there for I am'' To Lexiharin all of Socrates' quotes sounded the same, but in the they had different meanings and actually made sense...philosophy was important to Lexiharin.
He wasn't sure if everything was science, in this world science has created everything, but he thought what created science? why did everything everyone had to know had to be based on there knowledge of science, why not a possible greater power? but ironically Lexiharin was aware he was going in circles since he didn't believe in god *which Sekhai was often upset about*
Lexiharin thought why must everything be judged or be dictated to be real or not only based on the knowledge of what was already proven in science, not in something outside it. He considered him self a genius for thinking this up, but sadly he found out Albert Einstein made it first, the theory of relativity. This suddenly slightly angered Lexiharin...
He always knew stuff other's would never think about, just like many great minds in the past, and yet in a few years the teachers would be teaching something Lexiharin already knew, and he would never get any credit for it. He would just get a C+, and the horrible remainder no one will respect him for it. His views were always challenged, and when they were the people that challenged them didn't prove any thing, they just had random insults, yet always it was them that seemed smarter to everyone else.
Lexiharin hated everyone, every friend he had died or moved away, his parents would always be disappointed in him coming home without a girlfriend, despite his looks which surely could get him at least four of them. He tried to commit suicide three times...the only thing that stopped him was fear. He was envious of being nothing but a fox born in the wrong time, either it was to early for people to accept him, or to late...this only made him more irritated.
In years people would probably see things his way, when he was dead and no one could say he came up with it, obviously Lexiharins biggest aspiration was always fame of some sort. Not to be a famous musician, an actor, but to be someone that could of revolutionized at least one thing. He'll admit he was selfish, his problems weren't that bad, but he was never sure whether he respected Socrates, Leonardo Davinci, and Albert, or if he envied them..
Lexiharin didn't know why he tried to commit suicide three times, but was fully content he never told Sekhai of it. Lexiharin was never sure whether everyone liked him or hated him, a lot of people would greet him, but he thought they were just being kind nothing more, and when anyone insulted him or said anything of him, he instantly was depressed. Maybe he just lacked in self esteem...
Lexiharin didn't know why Sekhai was his friend, Lexiharin saw all jocks as bullies, even the ones that were nice to him, it took him 2 months to actually trust Sekhai. He always had a slight assumption that Sekhai was gay, he often times gave a few hints about it anyway. Lexiharin remembered Sekhai when he admitted he was gay, Lexiharin should of been a bit nicer or something, he didn't yell at Sekhai or anything, but wasn't the most acceptive of it, he just blindly said he was fine with it... but truthfully it only worried him.Lexiharin knew Sekhai meaned he liked Lexiharin. but his parents always said homosexuals had this way of spreading there ways like a contagious virus, Lexiharin didn't want to be gay...but it could've always been that way even before Sekhai.
Lexiharin just wished everything could be simple as him and Sekhai just friends, and maybe the Husky with Sekhai, but deep down he knew he'd be consumed alive once more with envy, he wanted Sekhai. Lexiharin hated being hugged by his mother, he hated her asking questions, but he always had visions of him and Sekhai embracing each other, someone to hold on to...not his mother...he hated him self for this, but he hated her, she never did anything horrible to him, she wasn't mean to him, he wasn't by accident, she was successful, she was smart. Lexiharin just hated her. He remembered when Sekhai's parents died, not that long after they met, just 6 months later. By then Lexiharin finally trusted Sekhai, and the Ocelot saw him more...a lot more, Lexiharin began to believe he actually stopped hanging out with his other friends. Sekhai was very sad when his parents died, he actually called Lexiharin and instantly the Fox was there, Sekhai ran up and actually hugged Lexiharin, he accepted it even if it was from another of the same sex, but as soon as social services came around he instantly pushed Sekhai off him cruely.
Lexiharin felt guilt, here he was complaining on how other people hated him and treated him horribly, yet the one person that treated him good was treated horribly. Sekhai would hug Lexiharin more then once, he often didn't tell Sekhai to get off, but just stayed quiet as he was actually nervous. Lexiharin had to admit it...he was a screw up, his parents being kind to him yet he had to be gay.
Lexiharin hated it in everyway, but the truth was very obvious, when anyone would say ''Faggot'' instead of Lexiharin seeing them wrong for judging a gay person, he'd see gay people wrong for being called that. Stupid mother...that's all he could think of to blame it on, Lexiharin tried to get up a few times, and he finally did at last, he couldn't run his finest, but he could at least, enough to get him where he wanted.
And after his parents worrying about him for days and nights, Lexiharin did what he usually did; he disappeared and instantly ran from the house, and planned only coming back by night. He knew they wouldn't yell at him, they'd probably be thankful he was alive. Lexiharin felt selfish for manipulating his parents emotions like this, and even being as ungrateful as to get out of the house before they could even wake up. Perhaps this was very ''Oklain like'', covering his own ambitions first, and knowing everyone elses emotions can be compensated, and there beliefs expendable.
Maybe they really did have numerous things in common, Lexiharin liked talking to Oklain, because he could be someone that wouldn't insult him for his beliefs, they could actually understand each other, and they both hated at least one person in their family.
Even though Lexiharin just found out Oklain was really the son of the murderer of Sekhai's parents, he could tell Oklain hated his father very much.
Both of them knew how to hate, both of them know how to feel envy, but only one of them could be the lesser of two evils, and only one of them, could truly be considered more foul, but which one? Lexiharin didn't believe in Heros and Villains, he believed Hero's were just the over opinionated bastards who always had their ways, and the villains the ones that lost, thus there side of the story was un heard of, Lexiharin almost always routed for the villains. Sometimes their views weren't entirely evil, it's just how they got to them.
Maybe thats all him and Oklain were, A hero and a villain, both with there own views, which they could only justify by the demise of the other, no matter who was worse, only the one to fall would be a villlain, and the one to thrive would be the hero. Because the dead do not tell tales, only the one living does, and they usually get drunk off their own power, and live in a delusion that every thing they did was right, and the other wrong.
Maybe heros and villains really were real, just they didn't have super powers, they just had power...and ambition.
This quickly reminded Lexiharin of the time his uncle visited, Kendall Fesiùr, he was a kit back then, only 10 years old, Kendall had a personality not a lot of people could really stand, but Lexiharin always liked Kendall, even if he was a jerk.
One thing that Lexiharin remembered all his life was on how Kendall always said that he hated kids, and it also appeared he hated his wife as well. Everytime Kendall would come it was rarely, apparently he didn't like his sister to much *Which was Lexiharins mother* and he really hated Lexiharins father because he reminded him to much of Anubis.
Kendall, the last time he visited he died 8 days later, and it was also said he divorced his wife before the last visit, which would explain why she never showed up. Lexiharin wanted to know about Kendall and actually asked him a few questions, he accepted the kit, and he appeared worse then usual, it was like he was weak, very weak. Lexiharin asked why Kendall divorced, he just said he didn't like girls. Lexiharin didn't understand back then, but now looking back at that time...maybe Kendall was gay. Kendall was just as bad as Anubis, the wolf hated foxes and Kendall hated wolves. He said how he once had a meeting with Anubis to disband the Jackals, didn't go to well. Kendall was slightly hysterical before he left from his visit, he kept saying how he was probably going to die, he almost even pulled his gun on Lexiharins father thinking maybe he really was Anubis.
At that time he was in a bad state of mind, every visit he was worse and worse, and his last visit he was nicer then usual at first, even told a few things to Lexiharin, but after that he just plainly snapped, 4 days before his death his parents visited him on his death bed. He was almost asleep and he apologized to Lexiharins father *Or his actual name Max Hari*, he wasn't sure whether to accept it because he was scared of another outburst. Soon his ex-wife came in to see him, and he actually shouted at her to get out, later that day which was after they left the hospital the nurse called of him falling in a coma, and also of a certain canine named Nicholas who was a suspect of the reason, a few days later Kendall awoke out of the coma and requested the canine, when he left the room Kendall was dead, and the canine was instantly charged for murder, life in jail for killing an officer.
Lexiharin wondered if the canine really did do it, Lexiharin always figured maybe Kendall wanted to die and be put out of his misery, he we losing it, and the Canine was probably someone he cared for. Lexiharin always wanted to see the Canine...Maybe he should check out a prison for him.
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Sekhai sighed, only the morning and yet Azrain was getting him self drunk, Oklain finally quits and Azrain starts...
''There that was refreshing, you know Sekhai this isn't the type of thing people get drunk off right?''
''What exactly is it...''
''We call it Irish coffee, basically Coffee with alcohol in it, very good tasting and it adds a nice buzz'' Azrain said dreamily.
''How much do you drink this exactly?''
''Very rarely, why not enjoy a cup with me''
''Well...''
''Its impossible to get drunk off this stuff in one cup, and it'll wake you up''
''Well...I suppose I can have a bit''
''That's good to hear, let me get you some...uh just what type of coffee''
''Anything I guess''
''All right then'' Azrain replied in his usual enthusiastic manner as he began to fondle around with the coffee maker.
''It must be good being rich like you are, isn't it?''
''Not exactly, this mansion scares the shit out of me, of course I shouldn't watch so much horror movies then that would help though, and there is also the fact I feel like Paris Hilton, I hate being like her....I want to contribute something to society, not do nothing and have everything I want just because my parents are rich'' Azrain replied as he still was preparing Sekhai's coffee.
''I never thought you as the philosophic type''
''Yeah she's ugly by nature anyway, those huge glasses....I look more feminine then her dammit''
''I don't recall you wearing a blouse'' Sekhai added.
''Well I'm not a femee,uh am I?''
''You act slightly feminine, but I've never seen you cross dress''
''Good let's keep it that way, as long as I look cute n' cuddly'' Azrain finally finished preparing Sekhais irish coffee and handed him it.
''Your cute, but why don't you have a lot of boy friends if you are''
''Lyon, Everyone has there worst of times, Remember all the many boys I did it with?''
''Yeah I suppose''
''I have many hitting on me, but, I want an actual relationship, not something that'll last as long as we can fuck each other''
''So why do you like me?''
''Well the people I previously did it with were a lot of my friends, not random strangers, a few of them were though...I suppose I wanted to try and see if I liked someone that was new, but at the same time not entirely ambitious in just the sex.
''Well I think of sex enough....It's Lexiharin that doesn't''
''I know, but you could tell they were only thinking of sex, they left me as fast as they hitted on me, and I'm sure he masterbated at least once''
''Meh'' Sekhai took a drink of the irish cofee.
''Sekhai...do you think there is a life after death?''
''Well...yeah, we can't just live to die, why would there be all these laws and principles of gravity if life it's self was incomplete''
''Never saw you as the philosophical type Seki...''
'From Lexiharin, what do you think is after death?''
''Well I always worried of it, Oklain always told me it meaned I was six feet under and nothing more, Lyon was more comforting but not by much because he said ''You can question life all you want but you'll only find out what it truly is when it ends'' Oklain always saw things in a horrible way, yet he never was suicidal, he always blamed it on his father.
''Oklain sounds like one of those people you expect to try and commit suicide''
''Usually it's the more least expected to, usually the silent people...like Lexiharin''
''He said he had to much to live for''
''When he visited, it was like he was afraid of me...''
''Really? well....maybe you were too clingy''
''Nah, he just seemed nervous, like he saw something...''
''Lexiharin is blind, he couldn't see something because he can't see anything''
''Okay then, you might wish to talk to him about it though...lets put it this way, the Fox I saw in that bed yesterday was a different person then the one I saw at my house, speaking of him shouldn't we see him?
''No, he needs rest, we don't want him moving around too much as soon as he wakes up''
''Okay, but I really think we should be entirely open...''
Sekhai looked at Azrain suddenly.
''We kissed...I don't think we should keep this up to much, Lexiharin is awake and you should just pick him over me, quit while your ahead, so no conflict happens...you only knew me about 8 days'' Azrain added.
''So you think I really only was taking advantage of you, only used you because I couldn't have Lexiharin?''
''No...I just feel guilty, look at it this way, Lexiharins point of view probably. This Ocelot befriends him since junior high school, 4 years later this Husky comes out of nowhere during the summer, and right under his nose while he is in a coma this Ocelot suddenly likes the Husky.
''Well there is something we can do...''
''Only asswholes have affairs Sekhai...''
''Other then that Azrain, Lexiharin thinks love is artificial..., He always thought it was just a bunch of fake illusions formed to think someone was more important then just to reproduce with...''
''Wow he's as bad as Oklain''
''Yeah, I remember long ago when I first befriended him, I was actually nervous to be around him, he was just full of hatred, he is hateful as hell, I think I helped him though...I guess I proved him wrong about love.
''Stop stalling Sekhai, we need a solution to this...''
''Honestly I can't think of any, Let's just stay together for a little longer''
''Once again, what about Lexiharin?''
''Why is it you worry about him so much, shouldn't it be me to?''
''I know inside your tough exterior it's consuming you, that's why I worry for him, I care about you enough to lose you, as long as you don't entirely hate me, at long as we can still share something...even if it's just friendship. We both know we'll only get more and more atatched to each other, and you'll feel even more guiltier on how you abandoned him''
''I know despite all your friends you feel alone, so I'd still feel guilty leaving you''
''So you found out, Because Lyon?''
''No, I can just tell...you never see your friends''
''Well....one of them knew about Lyon, I actually confided in him, of it...in no time he spread the word that I sleeped with my brother, I actually can't even look my friends in the eyes any more, he didn't tell all of them, but I still just can't talk to them''
''Am I the only person that doesn't see incest entirely bad''
''Well Oklain didn't, but then again we were his only friends''
''So do you really think we shouldn't see each other''
''I have nothing with seeing each other...I just think we shouldn't actually...''
''Thats impossible, I already have feelings for you, do you actually expect me to strip my self of them in no time and just run to Lexiharin, why are you all depressed so suddenly?''
''All Oklain and Lexiharin know is hatred, you ever notice that?''
''Yes...Lexiharin always had a specific anger towards society, and Oklain towards his father?''
''And me, and you''
''I think your depressed from all the problems suddenly coming up, Oklain suddenly being...a total asswhole, your worried about my guilt, and about me leaving you at the same time, Just don't worry on those things, not now anyway. I used to think I was straight''
''Is that really relevant to anything?''
''I used to worry so much that I might have been gay, that I constantly dated girls, almost to the point where we had sex, but I always broke up with them, cause...I decided I really just couldn't like women, I don't want kids, I don't even want a family, I just want to be a couple, I always saw females like they are irrational and selfish in a relationship, it was always built off her''
''Don't you think that sounds a bit sexist''
''I don't know...I just never cared for woman alot''
''Ambers not like that, she did a hell a lot more for Oklain then he did for her''
''Well either way I'm just saying that I worried on something that didn't really matter''
''So Lexiharin doesn't matter your saying?''
''Of course he matters... It's just you shouldn't feel guilty for anything''
Finally it was as if that sentence sparked his memory and he finally realized why Azrain was depressed, he remembered last night when he asked The Husky to be more honest with his feelings...as happy as he seemed Azrain was more depressed then actually happy for a majority of the time. Sekhai eyed Azrain for a bit.
Sekhai couldn't see too much sadness in Azrain, instead he saw worry and fear, Sekhai had always just heard Azrain, but he never actually saw his eyes, and now that he had he wondered...what was Azrain afraid of. Perhaps fear that Sekhai might leave him... even if Azrain keeps saying for him to do so.
Sekhai suddenly got up, which really didn't surprise Azrain, considering he adapted to Sekhai always randomely moving...but as he stared back at the Ocelot, Sekhai walked towards Azrain. Sekhai just hugged him, Azrain just remained silent for it was usually the other way around.
''Azrain?'' Sekhai whispered, but from the Husky came no reply as he just remained silent. Suddenly he broke down crying and put his head down on the table.
''Azrain?'' Sekhai began to worry about Azrain.
''Why does god hate gays...'' Azrain sighed.
''God doesn't hate gays'' Sekhai replied.
''In the bible it's a sin to be gay, but some reason why it's not a sin to spread hatred and to kill us''
''Oh the bible, I never believe it, Lexiharin would say on how it's nothing but propaganda, I believed him. Since afterall, when was the bible ever actually right''
''I suppose, I...everythings just going wrong, my life isn't perfect...it's just full of materials and luxeries''
''Mind telling me what's wrong?'' Sekhai cuddled to Azrain even more.
''I'll only live the life that I have because my parents are rich, I never achieved it my self, and I probably never will, I don't think my life has any meaning other then being a stereotypical rich spoiled brat''
''I don't find your spoiled...''
''I have everything and I'm still depressed''
''You don't have everything, and your life does have a meaning, what are you good at?''
''Not sure''
''Well why not use your money to help other people?''
''Can't, it's not my money, it's my mothers, I can't do anything with the money''
''I'm like the midas touch, except everything I touch dies''
''It's not your fault Lyon died...seriously''
''It's not that... I always knew this and I should've told you sooner...I'll just say it...sorry that I never told you...''
''If you can't say it then don't tell me''
''You know when I told you of Oklain being skilled in his duties his father handed him?''
''Yes?''
''He always seeked out the targets of his fathers victims, and it's possible he killed one of them himself''
Sekhai remained silent...
''It may have been His father that killed your parents, but in the end it's his fault they died in the first place...''
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Lexiharin only stayed out for two hours, he was tired...very tired, it would seem he still didn't fully regain his strength. Lexiharin had been doing research, lots of it, and eventually he found it, Nicholas really was still alive, and Lexiharin was going to visit him tomorrow, he still was supicious of Oklain, but of another thing.
When Lexiharin returned his parents were more depressed then happy to see him, they new he hated them and they tried to speak to him, but found nothing to say, they just eyed him as he went to his room without saying hi or without any form of communication. Was he as bad as Oklain...or was he worse?
''I'd bet he would be happier with an orphanage then with us...'' The Wolf sighed.
''You talk to him, maybe you should try for once instead of me''
''Huh?''
''Your his father, you should talk to him, I'm not a male, I dont have a damn clue how to get his attention...''
''Ok then dear, but do you think he'll really listen?''
''I don't understand the mind of a teenager, hopefully you two can bond or something''
Lexiharins father walked up the staircase and slowly opened the door, but found Lexiharin was sleeping, there would be no attempting to patch up the problems tonight, just like every other night their was... he softly shut the door and walked down the stairs and heaved a sigh.
''We aren't bad parents are we?''
''Well, we do kind of treat his friend bad..., because he is gay...and yet Lexiharin might just be himself''
''I wish they would know it's a sin to be gay, why don't they just change?''
''Maybe when Lexiharin wakes up I'll ask him, he must know a FEW things of Sekhai afterall''
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Oklain gazed at the mansion in front of him, it was dark and he had been once again at the mansion he once would visit everyday, and tonight once again he would investigate it once more, like he did years ago. This was Azrains mansion, or as his father would call it ''Kaylards'' which was Azrains last name. Oklain broke the window to the basement, and quietly replaced the broken window with a new pane that he brang along, thanks to Amber.
She always carried supplies Oklain would be expected to use in one of his errands his father gave him. he was lacking of a flashlight, but he didn't need one as he could see exceptionally well in the darkness, and this basement was where Oklain shined.
Oklain remembered how much Azrain hated this basement, he even thought the killer of Lyon lurked in their waiting to kill him.
Oklain knew the truth, he wish he could tell Azrain, but he knew he'd just have to wait until his plan finished, then he could explain everything. Oklain still struggled through the basement trying not to make to much sound, which could be considered almost impossible due to the rediculous amount of objects.
Finally Oklain found the staircase and silently opened the door and checked both ways, no sign of them. He quickly dashed to the kitchen and noticed a liquor bottle lying on the table, someone must've been drinking. he took one of the keys, for the front door then quickly began sprinting towards the front door, and closed it as soft as he could fast. That was all he needed to do, a simplistic errand perhaps, but he knew this errand was connected to another one his father was going to hand out... Oklain had no choice but to follow the next errand whatever it may be, as Oklain continued to sprint but found him self suddenly tackled into a back alley way.
''Hello Oklain'' The familiar voice called, it was ''them,'' the few that usually beat up Oklain, and he knew he was in an even worse scenario then usual, it was dark and he was in an alley way, no one would see him in his distress, and they could do worse things to him tonight then they usually would. Oklain couldn't believe he didn't catch there scent, he must've been an idiot to take his mind off the imminent danger and to be caught in his thoughts.
Oklain pushed one of them off and quickly scrambled to his feet, there would be no escape though, and they were still all over him so it was impossible to move, he could only stand.
''What do you want this time...'' Oklain muttered.
''The usual'' The leader of them, a Wolf just like Oklain punched him on the muzzle.
Oklain cursed under his breath.
''What's that Oklain?'' He kicked Oklain in the gut as hard as he could, Oklain fell on his knees as the other two were still holding on to his paws. Oklain finally took notice to his own muzzle that was bleeding''
''Well Oklain? tell us what you said'' Suddenly the victimizing wolf kicked Oklain in the chin as the other two let go of him as he fell to the ground, then the other wolf forcefully stomped his foot on top of Oklains head. Pain swept over Oklains head, how long would they continue? He knew this wasn't the worst they had to offer...
''He won't even answer me'' The wolf growled and got out a knife and put it to Oklains throat, Oklain tried to speak but he almost couldn't, his words didn't even come in a grumble even more.
''I said Fuck'' Oklain replied.
''Well thats good, I suppose we won't kill you''
Oklain wasn't sure if this was exactly a good thing, they'd definitely still torment him.
''Tell you what, we just want to have some fun with your body, 10 minutes that's all, you can even imagine we're girls if you want''
''N-NO'' Oklain stuttered.
''We thought you were smarter then that, you don't have much of a choice here'' The wolf suddenly stabbed Oklain in the chest with the knife and drove it down to his gut, blood began to pour out of him, blood even escaped his muzzle. Only now could he come to a realization, he was dying.
''So much for your plan'' One of them called out.
''We'll still have fun with him'' The wolf snapped back.
Suddenly he removed Oklain of his shirt, the cuts were very deep, maybe he had gone a bit far.
''Now will you do as we say?''
''No''
The wolf lowered his hand down to Oklains jeans and pulled them down enough to appraise his sheath which was beyond the boxers. He then removed Oklain of his boxers, Oklain felt fear like he never had before, he was going to die and at the same time humiliated. He had to think up something but they had him beat at every thing. When the other wolf reached his hand out to grab Oklains balls he instantly kicked him in the mouth and threw him self far from them as he could and quickly got out a cell phone since his hands were finally free.
''Come near me then I get Oklain'' Oklain shouted.
''Oh we all know your bluffing, your not his son, and your not him''
''You wish to test that out, check out the number on here''
They looked at it and instantly saw Oklain text in the phone, he really was calling the rival mob boss. They instantly ran for it, and Oklain still called, he needed someone to come here....even if it was his father.
After speaking to his father Oklain went back to worrying, as he pulled up his pants, but he could not grab his shirt, it was to far, and he was to weak. Oklain remembered when he was a pup, if he ever had an injury of any kind they could never send him to the hospital, they were too worried they would know he was related too Oklain. He'd always have his wounds looked over by that same Dalmation which he saw at the club, speaking German, and almost always carrying that same knife.
Oklain closed his eyes suddenly, he was to weak to keep them open...he instantly regretted it though, because he knew this was just another sign that he was even closer to death, Oklain let out a whimper, he should've just told Azrain...he shouldn't have hid anything from him...Oklain had control over Luxir, he had something that Luxir wanted, but now if Oklain died then Luxir would probably wreak havoc...and have his first victim starting with Lexiharin.
Oklain almost was raped, but he barely escaped that fate, he was lucky to keep whatever dignity he had left, even if it did mean death in the end, even though his eyes were closed, everything seemed even darker now, he was losing his conscionce with reality.
Though his back was on the wall he fell over sideways almost lifelessly...he hoped someone would be their soon... he pulled out his cell phone with whatever strength he had left, he wasn't going to be saved by his father, he just couldn't let that happen. He couldn't stand being alive because of the person he hated saved him.
Oklain called Amber and instantly got her, he called Resiren, and even Azrain, but no answer came from the Husky, Azrain had caller I.D, and of course wasn't aware that Oklain was dying...he probably just thought Oklain wanted to beg for forgiveness, and had intentions on hearing from Oklain. he dropped the cellphone, hopefully it would be Amber that would be their first, and he could see her a last time.