Through the Fire and Flames
Where would you walk?
_ Re-Re-Re-REMIIIIIIIX _!!!!!!!! *Obnoxious Airhorn!*
He-hey there, denizens of the wild and weird world of all that is fuzziful! You thought I was dead, didn't you? You thought I was gone forever, huh? Well YOU WERE WRONG! HA-HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! GUESS WHO'S BACK, BOYS AND GALS?!?
...Me. I-It's me. I'm back. Well, sorta-kinda. I found enough time to recombobulate this thingie majigger, anyways.
So, I'm going to go ahead and admit my bad on the whole 'going dark' thing I've done for the past few years. Not really mad at anybody or "disenchanted from the fandom" or anything like that. I've just had a lot going on and very little motivation to write anything. One thing that I HAD been planning on doing for quite some time was going back and revamping this little tidbit raght heah! And now I've finally done it!
I've gotten so much positive feedback and so many wonderfulcomments on this story over the years. So many amazing people telling me how mywork affected them, whether it drove them to tears or warmed their hearts. I'llbe the first to admit that it was a HUUUUUUUUGE ego trip for me. I didn't go "mahd wit powah" or anything, but I did sort of have rose-tintedglasses about it for the first little bitFor all the praise it's received, however, every time I looked back at it as the years went by, I couldn't help but begin to pick it apart, like a... like a... thing that people pick apart? <_< >_> "0_o' I acknowledge that the idea is solid - one of my best, in fact! That's why I wrote it. It just needed polishing. A LOOOOOOOT of polishing! So that's what I attempted to do here - polish up all those rough (pun not intended!) edges and flesh out those areas that seemed sort of thin, while still keeping the heart and soul of the story in its original, unmolested state.
Oh! Disclaimer thingy! If you're under the age of eighteen, or even twenty-one in some backwards, archaic societies, DO NOT GET CAUGHT!!!!!! I will not be responsible for what your parents and/or the authorities will do to you if you are too dumb to lock your door or cover your e-tracks. This contains at least one scene of graphic (a.k.a. Totally awesome) sex between two consenting adults, as well as violence, harsh language, and death. If the previous does not apply to and/or offend you, feel free to brave the dangerous waters of the following furry smexy-ness (This writer is also not responsible for sore eyeballs due to skimming paragraphs to find said smexy-ness).
Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open, for a while
In a box, high up on the shelf
Left for you, no one else
Lies a piece to the puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight
Whatever happened
To the young man's heart?
Swallowed by pain
As he slowly fell apart
Shinedown, ".45"
***
Through the Fire and Flames
He was running. He had no idea where. All he knew was that for some reason he couldn't see - couldn't breathe. The air was thick with... something, he couldn't tell, but it made everything feel heavier in some inexplicable way. There was a smell. Something he knew all too well, but wished he didn't for some reason just beyond his grasp. It was bright. Very bright. Extremely bright. Painfully bright. It wasn't a natural light though. It was something more primal - more malevolent.
He heard a scream from somewhere ahead and off to the left. He knew that voice; had heard that scream before, but where? He stopped as another scream sounded, closer this time, more desperate. Who was it? Where was it coming from? Why the hell was he even here?
He fell to his knees and threw his hands to his head as a third scream rang out. This one was the loudest of all, and his own voice rose to match it. But while his exclamation was one of fear, confusion, and desperation, this one was equally full of pain. No, more than pain. Suffering. Anguish. This was the scream of a person being put through the worst kind of physical torture. This was the scream of someone who was dying.
"Mother!" he heard himself cry, but it wasn't his voice, not really anyway. It was higher, lighter. Everything was rushing back to him, like a runaway train. The air, the smell, the light.
Heat.
Smoke.
Fire!
He screamed again as the ceiling in front of him collapsed, and all at once he knew, without a doubt, that what his mind told him was right, because the rubble in front of him was on fire, and the heat and smoke went from annoying to unbearable.
He was frantic now. He tried to find a way over or around the flames, but every time he got near them they seemed to grow larger. Jumping and flickering. Eager to swallow him up.
"Help!" he heard the voice he now recognized as his Mother's shout. He didn't know how he knew it was her, but he did all the same, and he knew he had to get to her before the inferno in front of him did.
"I can't!" he begged, pleaded to her, "the flames are too high!" He had to make her understand, make her see why he couldn't get to her, couldn't help her, couldn't save her.
"Try!"
"I am!"
"Not hard enough, boy!" a different voice said. It was full of sarcasm, venom, practically dripping with malice. A face, then a shadowed body appeared behind the flames, towering over him, sneering down at him. He cowered before it, fearful of what even that figure's voice could do to him. He knew that voice as well, and he hated and feared it with a passion that equaled and maybe even surpassed that of the love he had for his mother.
There was a rush of air, a blinding light, and the heat became a burning, and...
***
...and he woke up screaming. He sat up, still yelling at the
top of his lungs, and began to swat and bat at himself, trying to put out the
raging fire his sleep-addled brain told him was slowly consuming his body.
He slowly came to his senses, getting a grip on his
surroundings. He wasn't in a burning hallway alight with flickering flame, but
in his little, rundown, and all together not-on-fire apartment room, lit only
by his digital clock, which read o:00 A. N., but probably meant 6:00 A. M. The
sensation on his skin wasn't tongues of flame licking at his body, but the cold
sweat that covered him and his sopping wet bed.
He became aware of a noise, a pounding and shouting. All at
once he realized that it was his neighbor, one of them at least.
"Hey! Keep it down over there! Some people are trying
to sleep!"
"Gee. Thanks for caring, jackass" he muttered.
"So much for 'citizens caring for citizens in Verona' !" He looked
back at the clock, standing up with a grunt and a sigh and beginning to get
ready as he realized he would have to be at school in a couple hours anyway.
Michael North scratched at the back of his arms as he began
to put on his shirt, long-sleeve, even though it was Summer, and the weatherman
hadn't reported anything other than sweltering temperatures for the next month
or so. He walked to the bathroom, flicking on the dim, yellow light and
checking over his reflection in the mirror on. Everything seemed normal. 6'
1" human male. A decent build. Short brown hair, eyes the color of muddy
earth and a stubble on his chin that suggested he hadn't shaven in at least a
few days. He frowned at himself. He'd have to take care of that sometime. For
now though, it could wait. It wasn't as if he had anybody to look presentable
for, anyway.
Michael thought back to the details of his dream - his
nightmare, brow furrowing in thought as he took up his toothbrush and gave his
mouth the quick scrub required to ensure his teeth didn't start falling out of
his head. It had been different than usual. There had never been a hallway
before. They hadn't even had a hallway. As he continued to ponder it, he
realized that his Mother's voice had been different somehow, too. In fact, it
hadn't even really sounded like her, from what he could remember. His frown
deepened as he ran a comb through his hair enough to make it look as though he
hadn't been trying to sleep on a running treadmill.
He sighed, splashing a handful of water from the faucet on
his face to try and force it to relax. He flicked the light switch again as he
left, plunging the room into purple pre-dawn darkness, and picked up his keys
and wallet from the nightstand by his bed as he made his way to the door;
kicking aside piles of clothing, old pizza boxes, and other assorted junk as he
went. It was best not to dwell on these things, he decided. A dream was a
dream, the past was still the past, and what was dead was dead.
You don't call what happened to me a sacrifice?
Okay, okay! So maybe it did, but at least he doesn't hate
you, doesn't fear you.
I would think he has every right to!
That was a mistake!
A mistake?
Yes, a mistake. You know I never would have done that if I
were in my right mind, and anyways, I've already paid for it.
Yes, and you're still paying. So I suggest we drop this
whole thing and focus on the task at hand.
Yeah, whatever.
Understand?
Yes!
Good.
Verona was a quiet town, for the most part. Hardly anyone
outside of the community even knew it existed. It wasn't even really a town,
more like an extremely large suburb to the even larger city of Mab. Mab was
where the action was. Mab was where the movers and the shakers and all the corporate
bigwigs wheeled and dealed and bet millions on schemes that wouldn't see payoff
for the next twenty years. Mab was where the difference between law-abiding
business and criminal enterprise was a few forms and taxes and which branch of
the Feds was breathing down your neck.
Verona was mostly residential, with a couple malls, some
parks, and a handful of apartment complexes mixed in. Verona was quiet. Verona
was plain. In Verona, no one wheeled or dealed or did any sort of scheming at
all. Plans were made on the short count, or they weren't made at all. Verona
was, to put it bluntly, boring.
Verona suited Michael just fine.
Michael sat on a bench, lazily picking at a sandwich on his
lap. He was pretty sure that more than half of it was going to the birds that
crowded on the brick walkway in front of him to beg for scraps. He never really
ate lunch, but holding the food made it look as though he wasn't just staring
at the people walking by. Not that he was, but there was a no loitering sign, and it wasn't as if the security here had
anything better to do than give him hell for quite literally doing absolutely
nothing.
The park that Michael was currently seated in was
conveniently located right next to C and M Community College - his college. It
wasn't much, but it had what he needed, and more importantly, it was much
cheaper than going to a State University. Cheaper college meant cheaper loans,
and cheap loans were all he could afford if he didn't want to be in debt until he
was a grey old man. Accountants weren't paid minimum wage by any definition,
but they didn't exactly break the bank either. He couldn't complain, though; it
was what he wanted to do. He'd always been good with numbers. Numbers were
safe. Michael liked safe. Let the Type As eat each other to death trying to
make it big and do it loud. Michael didn't need big or loud. Michael was just
fine with safe and quiet. And if he had to make due with a smaller TV or
off-brand cereal, then he was okay with that too. Maybe his life was rather...
Spartan, but he could do Spartan. Spartan suited Michael.
Michael scratched at the sleeves of his shirt.
It was late April, just getting into the heat of summer, and
hot enough to cook an egg on the sidewalk. Nobody was doing much. A girl
sitting on the edge of the large fountain fanning herself with her hand. A guy
fiddling with a small electronic device Michael assumed was a phone. And on the
other side of the park, off to themselves, the furs.
There weren't any segregation laws - nothing legally
separating the two groups. At least, not anymore, but there was still a stigma
- a hostility that acted as a wall between humans and furs. There were people
on both sides that perpetuated it. There were those that still wanted both
human and fur to remain apart. It was less... overt than it had been in the
past, but still there. Less an open hate and more a mutual distrust that led to
a inborn sort of apathy. It didn't stop Michael from scanning the scattered
crowd around him: canine, feline, cervine, bovine, equine. Not really paying
attention to individual faces. Just an abstract search for... what? He didn't
know. What was he looking for?
Just something to look at, he guessed.
His eyes wandered to a vixen sitting by herself near the
edge of the group. She was leaning against a tree with a book in her lap, a
calculator in one hand, and a pencil in the other. Pretty plain, all in all.
Pretty, true, in that abject, artistic way in which all femininity is
inherently pretty. The sweep and curve of her lines against the backdrop. The
play of light and wind in russet fur. Pretty like a portrait. Pretty like a
flower. But pretty plain, too. Nothing that really should have drawn his gaze.
So then why was he gazing?
And not just gazing. What he was doing now qualified as
outright staring. The dull glint of a claw as she turned the page of her book
and fleshy, mottled pink of the pad which cradled the spine. The tuft of white
peeking from the top of her - Stop staring! What was different about this girl
- about this vixen? Why should she attract his eye, and not someone a little
less... exotic?
His answer came to him in the form of a huddle of three
human males that broke from the crowd and began to walk towards the pretty,
plain vixen that he was staring at; each grinning like the hound that caught
the proverbial fox. But though they smiled, these men were very obviously not
her friends.
Michael sighed and, throwing the rest of his sandwich onto
the ground, stood up. He navigated his way slowly but surely through the various
knots of students, making certain to act natural and not draw attention to
himself. There was something odd about those men. Each of them was shaved
completely bald and had Leonardo Da-Vinci's "Vitruvian Man" tattooed upon
their left shoulder. The bald thing might not have bothered Michael by itself,
but nobody wore that symbol as a simple fashion statement. Not unless they
wanted the tar beaten out of them and the offending ink (as well as any surrounding
skin) ripped promptly and violently off of their arms. It could only mean one
thing.
The People.
The People meant trouble.
Michael hated trouble.
The People, as they liked to call themselves, were a "Human
Heritage Activist" group - basically KKK for furs. They were founded soon
after the first furs came off the line, back when the government had first
legalized genetic engineering. People had paid big money to have their own
partner built for them; essentially, sex slaves or personal bodyguards. The
government quickly put that down, but it resulted in thousands upon thousands
of "abominations", as The People called them, left roaming the
streets to fend for themselves.
Most of them went back to what they knew best, turning cheap
tricks as prostitutes and killing for hire as mercenaries and assassins, but a
small portion took to society, got jobs, houses, found each other, and started
families. A few even became quite wealthy. It was this group that The People
targeted.
It began in the South, as these things often do, but it soon
spread so far that the People knew no region, nor even nationality. It wasn't
everyone, but there was a substantial portion of the human population that
either belonged to or openly supported the People and their cause. Most of the
others just turned their heads.
The People's MO was petty crime, at first - vandalism and
theft. Things that could be dismissed. Things that could be ignored, but then
they started to get out of control. Furs began to disappear, others turned up
beaten senseless in front of hospitals, hardly even recognizable to their own
families. The People's signature was to hang a collar on a porch or in a tree in
front of a house they'd "purified". To show them where they belonged,
and who they should belong to.
Then one day - Martin Luther King Day to be exact - the
world finally had to take notice. There was a protest in DC. A march for equal
fur rights. It began as a peaceful demonstration, but then the People showed up
in a countermarch. Nobody knew who fired the first shot, and nobody cared after
the first shot was fired. The peaceful march became an all out riot. Chaos. A
bloodbath. People, human and fur, dying in the streets. A city on fire. The
National Guard called in. The President forced to declare martial law at the Capitol's
very doorstep. A national embarrassment the likes of which hadn't been seen
since MacArthur drove his tanks over the Bonus Army.
Soon after, the UN and Interpol began to raid the People's
chapter houses worldwide. There were tense standoffs, chaotic shootouts. It
nearly became a war. Eventually the ringleader was caught cowering in a hole in
some third-world country, and the rest of the People disbanded, but so-called
"nonviolent" chapters remained in operation. They paid off corrupt
cops and officials to remain standing, performed favor hits on political rivals
and problem gangs, and did everything they could to keep their names out of
every fur killing reported. The bottom line, the People were alive and well in
the world, and willing to recruit every loser, weirdo, brainless bruiser, and
distraught youth with hate in his heart and a will to direct it at the closest
and most convenient minority.
The thugs moved forward until they were right in front of
the fox-girl. Startled out of her trance-like studies by the sudden change in
light, the girl looked up to see three tall shadows towering above her.
The first one was small and lithe, with a jittery little
twitch and a demeanor that suggested being a few marbles on the South side of
sanity. The second was huge, his arms were easily larger than the average man's
waist, and his butchered smile revealed that he was no stranger to a fight. The
third seemed to be the brains of the operation. He was arrogant, fairly
intelligent looking, wiry but far from scrawny, and acted as though he was used
to getting what he wanted, when he wanted it, and if he was still interested in
it by the time it got to him.
The anthro girl's fur bristled, fluffing in an instinctual
urge to make herself look big and intimidating before these obvious predators.
She quickly glanced back down, realizing how ridiculous she must have looked,
and attempted to smooth out her inflated pelt. The leader stepped forward and
began to nudge her with his foot.
"Hey fur! What'cha lookin' at, huh?" His friends
chuckled. The vixen muttered something, her eyes flickering back and forth in
their sockets.
Murmuring something too quietly for Michael to hear from his
vantage point, the vixen began to gather her things in an attempt to leave, but
stopped as the two remaining thugs moved to either side, hemming her in between
themselves and the tree behind her.
"Whoa!" the first skinhead exclaimed in mock
surprise, "The fox talked! I didn't know foxes could talk! Say something
else." The vixen shook her head in the negative and tried to slide between
a gap in the impromptu crowd, but was caught short when the big one grabbed her
by the arm and roughly threw her back against the tree.
"Answer when yer spoken to, bitch, 'r are ya just
stupid?" She struggled against his grip, but he held tight and, for good
measure, began lifting her up off the ground until her feet were barely touching,
scrabbling for a grip. "Understand?" he asked her. She nodded
fearfully, looking around for any means of escape."Good. Now, wag your
tail n' bark fer me like a good lil bitch."
Fear shone in her eyes as her body began to tremble,
glancing at the leader in a silent plea. Hadn't they humiliated her enough?
Surely they'd more than proven their point. His cool, cruel gaze met her own,
waiting. Swallowing the icy lump that had formed in her throat with a soft
whine, she began a slow, mechanical wag of her tail.
"Goooood. That's it," the man murmured in a voice
that would almost have been soothing if it hadn't been so cruel. "Now the
other part. Bark for us like a good puppy." A smile graced his face, his
gaze gaining a hungry edge. "Do a good job and we might just make you our
little pet."
A chill of raw terror ran down her spine as the big thug's
hand began to wander, groping at the slim contours of her stomach, inching
slowly lower until his fingertips brushed the denim waistline of her jeans.
"Hey guys! What's going on?" Even as the words
left Michael's lips he regretted them. The three turned on him, arms raised,
ready (and even eager, in the case of Mr. Big) for a fight. The fox-girl,
afraid to try another escape, slid down until she was sitting on the ground again
with her back to the tree. In Michael's defense, the big one hadn't looked as
big from far away, but up close? He had to be at least two feet taller than
him. It was an intimidating sight.
"The fuck do you care?" the lead skinhead asked
with a snarl as he turned. He stopped for a second, seeming to recognize the
boy in front of him. "Hey! Aren't you that North kid? You are, aren't
you?" he raised hand in a gesture of greeting, " Sorry about that. I'm
John, John Greene. My Dad knew yours." he smiled. "What's the
matter?" he asked as Michael scowled. "You want a piece of the
action?" He stepped aside, gesturing toward the vixen in invitation.
"No," Michael replied, "What I want is for
you to let her go". What the hell was he doing? He didn't even really like
furs! In fact, he probably had every right to blame them for the way his life
had turned out. Why was he putting his neck on the line for some stupid fur
bitch?
A small voice somewhere in the back of his head told him
that it was because she wasn't just some dumb bitch. She was a person, just
like he was a person, just like everyone was a person. His mind re-rationalized
it, translating the message into a form his conscious brain could comprehend.
These guys were scum, and scum like them didn't have any right to hassle
anybody, not even a fur. Yeah, that would work, that would work nice.
"Oh, really?" John asked calmly. It was a calm
that held something behind it, something sinister. It was the calm right before
your house was hit by a tornado, like the quiet at the scene of a murder.
"Shame, I respected your Father, I really did, but if that's what you
want..." He gestured to Big, who promptly cocked back an arm and struck
Michael across the jaw, hard. Michael fell to the ground with a thud, tasting
blood in his mouth.
John stepped up to Michael and knelt down in front of his
face, smirking down at him with his arms on his knees.
"Have fun with your bitch, dog-fucker," he
smirked. He stood up and began to walk away, gesturing for his cronies to
follow. The big one spitting a stream of what appeared to be tobacco juice onto
Michael's cheek, and the twitchy one stopping just long enough to deliver a
swift kick to Michael's gut as he tried to get back up, before he too ran off
to join Greene and Big.
Michael stood back up slowly, wincing as he gingerly felt
around his ribs and jaw, wiping off the spit and blood there with the back of
his left hand. He limped over to the vixen and stuck out his hand in offering,
buy she slapped it away, standing herself up and glaring daggers his way.
Michael cocked an eyebrow curiously, eyes following her as she rose up to his
level, or about a foot below his level, to be exact.
"I don't need your help!" she snarled. Teeth
bared, eyes glaring and fur bristling.
"Oh, I'm sorry," Michael retorted, "I suppose
I should have just let that asshole and his little friends beat the crap out of
you, and then do God knows what afterwards, huh?"
"You don't think I see through your little
charade?" She asked. "I'm not stupid, you know? The big, brave,
dashing human comes in the knick of time to save the vixen-in-distress from the
terrible, horrible band of ruffians! You and your stupid friends didn't have me
fooled for a second!"
"What!" Michael sputtered, offended, "You
actually think I'm friends with those little fucks?"
"Yeah, Prince-charming, I do! The first one even said
it himself. Your folks are old fucking pals. And you know what else?" she motioned
him in closer with her finger. Michael lowered his head until her mouth was
practically inside of his ear in an attempt to humor her. She drew in a
breath... and socked him right in the stomach.
"Your fake limp needs work. Gave the whole thing away."
Michael felt something in his chest crack, and for the third
time that day, he fell... and didn't get back up. The last thing he thought
before he blacked out was that something must have gone wrong with his vision.
He'd seen her eyes. They were purple, the irises at least. He'd never seen
anyone with purple eyes before. There was a strange smell in the air too; an
odd mixture of cinnamon and citrus fruit. He kind of liked it...
The fox crossed her arms over her chest, frowning and
tapping her foot like an impatient mother, waiting for him to quit the act. She
growled softly under her breath. Michael, for his part, remained still and
quiet in the dirt.
"You're not fooling me, you know..." she stated
after a while, nudging his prone form with a toe, he still didn't get up. She
gave a miffed sigh and knelt down, placing an arm on his shoulder and shaking
him this time. "Hey, buddy! It's not working. Come on, you don't really
think I'm that gullible, do you?"
She flipped him over and gasped as she finally noticed the
blood slowly leaking from between his lips. There was already a small pool of
it collected on the ground below him. She had no idea where exactly the blood
was coming from, except that it kept trickling slowly out of his mouth. That
shouldn't be happening. She hadn't hit him nearly hard enough to cause any
internal damage. That is, of course, unless-
"...It wasn't an act, was it?" she breathed to the
unconscious boy. Oh shit, she'd killed the poor kid, and all he'd done was try
and help her, but why?
She decided that it was best to ask questions later, when
there wasn't a guy hemorrhaging his life's-blood away at her feet. She stood up
quickly. "Hey!" she shouted, "Somebody help! This guy's
hurt!" She looked around, pleading with her eyes, begging for somebody,
anybody to help her.
"So what?" a buff tiger off to the left answered
nonchalantly. "Why should we care? Let his kind help him."
"Well?" she asked to a group of humans across the
path. They didn't even give her the courtesy of an answer. Some of them turned
their heads, others began to walk away. The most brazen just stared straight
through her like she didn't exist.
She sighed. Draping one of Michael's arms around her
shoulders as she half carried, half dragged him off towards the parking lot and
her car.
"Sheesh, buddy!" she muttered, "lay off the
cheese-burgers, why don'cha!"
Wow! they've only just met, and she's already broke him!
Sarcasm doesn't help anybody.
I'm just stating a fact.
No, you're being difficult, and it's bringing back memories.
Good memories?
If only...
Hey! I thought you said that sarcasm didn't help.
Just focus on what you're supposed to be doing. Unless, of course,
you'd rather go back?
Don't! Don't even joke that! Do you have any idea what it's
been like? Day after day, year after year without being able to be near you,
talk to you, and now we're together again and all you want to do is fight.
We're not here to talk, we're here to do a job, and, lest
you forget, this job could mean the difference between life and death for more
than just one person. Now go do your little scary ghost-y thing!
Yeah, Yeah! I hear you.
And for Heaven's sake, give it some effort this time!
Smoke.
Fire.
Laughter.
*BANG!*
Michael gasped, mouth gaping, sucking in air like a stranded
fish. He sat up, bewildered, and fell straight out of the tiny white bed he had
been laying on. He scrabbled backwards across the tile floor, backing himself
into a corner. He screamed, loud. Where the hell was he? How had he gotten
here?
"Where the fuck are my clothes?"
Suddenly the room was flooded with white coated men and
women. They were on him in a second. Grabbing him and quickly depositing him,
kicking and screaming, back onto the tiny white cot. Michael couldn't help
himself. He fought them, wild eyed, incoherent, struggling with all his might
to escape their grasp. A man was saying something into his ear, but he couldn't
hear him.
Someone grabbed his arm, straightening it and sticking in a
long needle. He saw more than felt it sinking into his skin, watching as the
blue-tinted fluid was pumped into him. It spread upwards and outwards, like
liquid ice through his veins, chilling him, and he was tired... so tired. It felt
so good to relax, and his eyes were so heavy. Sleep would be good, his sluggish
brain told him. Yes, sleep sounded like just the right thing...
Michael became aware of himself, slowly, achingly. He was
sore as hell. Good, that way he knew he was alive. Head, fingers, toes, arms,
legs, all accounted for. He began to test them, twitching, then wiggling, each
in turn. Once he had movement down, he tried sight. Colors and shapes swirled
in his vision. That was green, that black, and that one was definitely
white.... or grey.... no, white. Hearing came after that. He heard a strange
snicking noise, like the sound of a latch being unlocked. The door opened, and
a white-clad man stepped through the doorway and into the room.
"Oh good! You're awake!" he stated cheerfully.
"I'm not surprised. They pumped you full of enough tranquilizer to down a
bull elephant, but then again, you fought like one."
Michael attempted to sit up, and found himself unable to. He
looked down his body and found the straps crisscrossing him, holding him
tightly to the hospital bed. It reminded him of pictures he'd seen of men
prepared for the lethal injection.
"Why am I tied down?" he asked. "Wait, did
you say tranquilizer? You drugged me!"
"We didn't really have a choice. You were half-crazy
with pain, unresponsive. We tried to calm you down, and yes, a broken nose and
a few bites and scratches later, we finally had to use the syringe. Sorry about
the restraints and the lock and everything, but we couldn't have you moving
again, for your safety, as well as ours. You nearly undid your stitches, and
those things are a pain to have to do twice."
Michael stared disbelievingly at the doctor, "Broken
nose? Bites and scratches? You can't be serious!" The medic pulled up his
sleeve, showing him the large bandage wrapped around his forearm. Michael
blushed, "You mean I really... I mean... I honestly... I... sorry."
he finished lamely.
"Don't be, I've seen worse. In fact, we've got a guy
one ward over that's been giving me heck all day! His sheet says 'abdominal
hernia', but whatever they've got him on for the pain must be the good stuff,
because when I asked him if he knew why he was here, he kept insisting that he
had herpes in his eyeballs!" Michael laughed, he couldn't help himself.
"Ouch!" he exclaimed as he fell a sharp pain in
his chest.
"Sorry! Shouldn't have done that, and here I was the
one warning you about busting your stiches."
"What happened to me?" Michael inquired.
"That's what I was just about to ask you. Your file
says you're... Michael North?"
Michael looked away, avoiding his gaze. "If that's what
the file says."
He gave a knowing smile, "Are you saying you're not Mr.
Michael J. North, land-holding resident of the commonwealth of Verona,
Colorado?"
"I'm saying that I agree to whatever it says in your goddamn
file, and that I'd really appreciate it if you didn't go shouting my name from
the rooftops, thank you very much!" Michael growled through gritted teeth.
"Why not?" he asked wryly.
"I think you know very well why not. That's not a name
many people want to have. In fact, several of my relatives changed their names
because of what that name stands for these days."
"Now calm down!" the doctor chuckled, "This
is a hospital, not a courthouse. We don't judge people here. You could have
blown up your own meth lab like the guy in the room over, but that doesn't mean
I won't still treat your burn wounds."
Michael suddenly became very uncomfortable. "You never
said what happened to me."
"Oh, yeah! Sorry about that. Some girl carried you into
the E.R., screaming and yelling for help, blood all down one shoulder, and you,
draped across her back like some macabre scarf. Caused quite a stir, matter of
fact."
"Girl?"
"Vixen, about so high, jeans and... oh, yeah! Her eyes
were purple! Know her?"
Michael shook his head no. He thought it best not to mention
that she had been the one that had put him here in the first place. Showed him.
That'd be the last time he'd ever put himself on the line for someone else.
He must have frowned, because the doc flashed that
all-knowing smirk of a smile again.
"Thought so. Anyways, you're lucky to be alive. One of
your ribs broke and punctured your left lung, collapsing it. As strange as this
is going to sound, that's what saved you. If your lung had been inflated at the
time you would have suffocated. Basically, drowning in your own blood.
"That being said, however, doesn't mean that it was any
less expensive to fix you. Bio-glue to re-attach that rib, and one very complex
procedure to re-inflate your lung. Costs quite the pretty penny. Round fifteen
grand, cash price."
"What! I can't pay for that!" He started to thrash
about in a panic, "I don't have any insurance and I'm up to my ears in
school loans! I live in a Goddamn one-room apartment of Chrissakes!"
"Relax, relax!" Now it was the doctor's turn to
laugh. "Your friend paid for everything."
"Seriously?" Michael head was really in knots now.
First she kills him, then she pays to bring him back. This was one seriously
whacked-out chick. "Where is she now?"
"Gone. Left right after she heard you'd be okay."
"Did she leave a name, an address, anything?"
"You mean did she tell me who she was or where she was
from? Nope." Michael sighed, dejected. The surgeon's smile, however, only
grew wider, "She did charge your bill to her credit card, though. It would
be highly unethical, as well as a complete violation of HIPAA, but..." he
drew the word out, "I suppose I could, maybe, pull a few strings."
His eyes rolled upwards, suddenly becoming very interested in counting exactly
how many little black dots were in the tiled ceiling, but Michael could see the
ghost of a smile on his lips.
"You'd really do it! Thanks so much!" He tried to
sit up, but couldn't. Then he remembered the cords that tied him to his bed,
and fell back.
"Hey, hey, hey! Calm down! I said maybe. I'll see what
I can do. As for you," he pointed an accusing finger at him, "You
need to rest, buddy-boy. First we need to heal that rib. Then we can worry
about getting names and numbers. He winked over his shoulder as he walked out
of the room, shutting the door behind him.
"Hey, wait! You forgot to untie me! Aww, c'mon! I'll be
good! ...Mister?"
Michael stepped out of the cab, glancing at the address in
his hand for what had to be the thirtieth time to make sure it was right.
Michael had realized why the driver had been so surprised when he'd heard where
he was going from the moment they'd turned into the neighborhood. Every single
house in the sub-division was gigantic! Not one had less than two stories, and
all of them had to contain at least five bedrooms.
He paid the man with the cab fare they'd given him at the
hospital and watched as he drove out of sight. As he turned back towards the
house, he got the feeling of being alone in a very strange place. He gulped,
gathering his courage, and began the long walk to the doorstep. He paused as he
reached the entrance.
What was he even doing here? Obviously the girl didn't want
to speak to him. Why else would she just leave like that? He sighed, there was
no way around it now. He would have to knock, if only to ask to call a cab back
home. He would never make the walk to his apartment, not even if hadn't just
gotten out of E.R.
He was about to ring the doorbell when a voice crackled to
life out of the intercom system next to the door.
"Whatever you're selling, we don't want any," a
male voice stated coldly. Michael looked around, deciding it must have spoken
to him. He pressed the reply button.
"Um, I think there's been some mistake. I'm not selling
anything. I'm looking for a..." he checked the card again, "Miss
Sarah Coulding?"
"And why, may I ask, should I open the door for
you?"
"I... I'd like to thank her for... something she did
for me." There was a long pause.
A very long pause.
Michael gasped as the door opened, and he suddenly found
himself staring down the barrel of a very real, very deadly, military grade
pump action shotgun. His hands instinctively rose above his head, and he began
to back slowly away from the door, and the gun totting human male holding it
open.
"I think it would be in your best interests to leave,
sir," the man said with a smile. It would have come off as polite had it
not been for the twelve gauge casually cradled in his right arm. He looked to
be in his late twenties, and extremely fit at that. The black and white penguin
suit clashing strangely when juxtaposed against the firearm in his hands. He
opened the door fully, bringing around his other hand to smoothly load a round
into the breach. The way he handled the weapon suggested that he was no
stranger around a gun, and the careless smirk he wore, that he was no stranger
to using said gun.
"Wayne?" A familiar female voice asked from somewhere
inside, "who's at the door?" The fox-girl, Sarah, appeared over the
man's, Wayne's, shoulder. She let out an exasperated sigh as she caught the
glint of metal in his arms, "Wayne! How many times do I have to tell you.
We don't... Oh!" She stared at Michael, finally realizing who he was,
"It's you..."
"Would you like me to escort him off the premises,
ma'am?" Wayne asked with an eager smile. He hefted the gun onto his
shoulder, glaring at Michael hungrily.
Sarah seemed to collect herself, "Um.... No, I don't
think that will be necessary Wayne. You can, however, begin preparations for
dinner." Wayne gave her a dubious look. She returned with a stern one of
her own, and he backed off, heading off with hands raised in a gesture of
surrender down one of the several corridors that lead off the main entryway.
"Oh, and Wayne?" she called after him. His head
popped around the corner, much too fast for someone who should have been quite
a ways down by that time, Michael thought with a smirk. "Set out an extra
plate, will you? I think we'll be having a guest for supper." Wayne rolled
his eyes, but rounded the corner again with a, "Yes, ma'am!" and headed
for what Michael assumed would be the kitchen.
"Follow me..." Sarah said flatly. She set off at a
brisk pace, turning this way and that through a literal maze of hallways and
rooms. Michael nearly had to run to keep up; something which, coincidentally,
was extremely hard to do with a recently mended rib.
Every time he turned another corner to continue following her
she got a farther and father lead on him. Eventually he found himself
completely alone and utterly lost. He walked to the end of the hall, looking
left and right for any sign of Sarah.
"Who are you?" she called. Her voice resounded off
the walls, seeming to come from everywhere and nowhere all at once.
"You mean you don't already know?" he asked
incredulously.
"Should I?" she shot back.
"No! Erm, I mean... They didn't tell you when you took me
into the Hospital?"
"I kind of left in a hurry, remember?"
"Oh, Yeah... You did, didn't you."
"And do we have a name, oh mysterious stranger?"
"Michael. I...." he swallowed the lump that had
been slowly growing inside his throat, "My name's Michael."
"Hello, Michael," her voice resounded. The effect
was extremely intimidating, despite the fact that he already knew the ghostly
voice's owner could do no more harm to him than a fly could, "I'm Sarah.
Now may I please ask just exactly how it is you found me here?"
"You used your credit-card to pay my way through
surgery, I just asked for the billing address," he turned about, searching
for where her echoes were coming from.
"I don't know whether to feel worried that they just
gave out my personal information like that, or creeped out by the fact that
you'd ask," she laughed, but it was a monotone, emotionless bark of one.
"I guess they didn't think I could do much harm in my
state, could I? That and I couldn't do much with your credit information. I
don't look much like a female fox-morph." This time she really did laugh.
"No, I guess not. That still doesn't explain why you're
here, though."
"I... I wanted to thank you, I guess..."
"For what? Calling you a liar, or giving you that
pretty new hole in your lung?"
"For paying to fix me afterwards, most people I know would
have just left me at that hospital's doorstep. A few wouldn't even have done
that... The way I see it, we're even."
She stepped out of a door to his left, a sad smile playing
across her face. "You must not know many good people then."
"No... No, I guess I don't. To be honest, I don't
really know that many people at all." Her ears twitched, head cocking to
the side in a very canine fashion.
"Oh, the introverted type, are we? And what do your
parents think about all this?"
"My parents... aren't really around anymore." He
shuffled a little, suddenly becoming very interested in his own feet.
She frowned, "They abandoned you?"
He laughed, "Oh no! Nothing like that! They died."
"Oh my God!" She gasped, hands moving to cover her
gaping mouth, "I'm so sorry!" she squeaked.
"It's okay, really! It happened a long time ago."
Her muzzle poked through the crack between her hands,
"What happened?"
"I...I don't really like to talk about it."
Her hands went back over her face, "Oh God, of course
you don't! I-I'm so sorry!"
"Quit being sorry!"
"Sorry!"
"Stop it!"
"Mmph!"
"What?"
"N-nothing!N-n-nevermind!"
"Thank you." He let out a blast of air from
between his lips, leaning his back against the wall.
"Wait," she cocked her head again in that curious
dog fashion, "So that means...what? You live alone?"
"Yeah... I guess. Until recently I was a ward of the
State," He stared off over her shoulder, eyes glazing over as though his
mind was some place far away. "I moved around a lot, never stayed in one
place for long," He chuckled. "I met some pretty interesting people,
though. This one old lady, she kept, like, twenty cats. I think she might have
thought I was one of them..." He paused for a second, thinking. He shook his
head, "They sure were tasty, though."
"The cats?!"
"No, no, no! She made these awesome cookies. Oatmeal, I
think. Then there was this one couple. Don't get me wrong, now... I mean, I'm
perfectly fine with a little Religion in the home, but these people were,
pardon my language, Jesus-freaks. Every time I was in the bathroom for more
than ten minutes they thought I was masturbating and sent me to Church for
confession."
"Were you? I mean..." She blushed, clearing her
throat.
"No! Not usually at least. Sometimes I would, just to
screw with them a little," Her blush intensified.
"But, umm... what I meant to say was-uh... You don't
have anyone to take care of you?"
He thought for a moment, "Nope, can't say that I do...
Why?"
She stared at him, and Michael sighed inwardly. He knew that
stare, he'd been getting that stare since he was a kid. He'd seen it, heard the
whispers of people he passed in school or around town. He knew what they were
saying.
"Such a pity..."
"And his Mother was such a good person, too."
"Wonder who's
taken him in this time..."
She pitied him. Why did everyone pity him?
"When's the last time you had a home-cooked meal?"
she asked, jerking him from his reverie.
He bit his lip, "Does microwave pizza count?" She
smiled coyly. Michael didn't like that smile. There was something behind it,
something deeper, something scheming.
"That does it," She said matter-of-factly,
"You're not leaving until you've had a good meal."
There would be no arguing the fact, he could
tell that much. Even if he ran, which he seriously contemplated attempting, she
would catch up to him in a heartbeat. He didn't put it past her to tackle an
injured man, he'd learned that first hand. Best to humor her, he decided.
Anyway, a free meal was a free meal, and he had never been one to look a gift
horse... fox, in the mouth.
Admit it. It's working.
Maybe...
Oh, come on! Look at them!
All I see is a hungry kid and a fox who can't bring herself
to turn away an injured guest.
Well, at least it's a step in the right direction. You can't
deny that.
Okay, okay, I'll give you that much, but I won't believe any
of this until I have proof.
What do you want to see, them doing it on the kitchen
counter?
That'd be proof...
You little pervert!
I didn't say I wanted to see it! Just that it'd be proof.
It's still nasty!
You said it!
Alright! What about a kiss?
One kiss?
One kiss.
Okay, one kiss. On one condition, though. It has to be a
real kiss, not just some innocent peck on the cheek. A full-on, open-mouth
kiss.Deal?
Alright, it's a deal.
And if that leads to them doing it...
Perv!
Michael had never seen so much silverware in front of one
plate. There were three spoons, knives and forks of various lengths and sizes,
a set of chop-sticks, and several pairs of utensils whose purpose at the dinner
table defied his woefully limited culinary knowledge. He tried to look to Sarah
for cues, which was hard, due to the fact that she had chosen a seat halfway
down the seemingly mile-long table from him.
The dining room itself was immense, decked out with more
class than any five-star restaurant. Banquet hall would have been a more
fitting word for it. The floor was made of solid white marble, and a huge
crystal chandelier hung high above at the apex of the twenty-foot-high ceiling.
A spotless white table cloth covered the long mahogany dining table, and the
center piece consisted of a tiered tray covered in hundreds of long, pale
candles. Their light was drowned out by the electric bulbs in the ceiling that
illuminated the table, and the diners seated at it.
The fact that only Michael, Sarah, Wayne, and five other
servants were present made the room seem all the bigger. They were all to one
end of the table, talking and chuckling amongst themselves, while Michael sat
near the other. The way they kept whispering as though they did not want him in
their conversation made Michael feel a little ousted. He couldn't blame them
however; Michael had just crashed their party, so to speak.
Michael cleared his throat, "So, um, what is it exactly
that your parents do for a living?"
Wayne turned from his plate, staring daggers at Michael,
"That's an extremely prying question, and I wouldn't blame Miss Sarah for
refusing to even acknowledge it was asked!"
"I can speak fine myself, Wayne." she laughed, but
even Michael could tell the meaning behind her words. She didn't approve of the
way Wayne was treating him. Just the thought made him feel warm inside. Why was
that?Probably just seeing that stiff-necked starched collar get taken down a
peg. Yeah, that was it...
She continued, "They trade stocks, mostly. We may look
human, but there's still enough of our animal instinct left over to tell when
and where to buy and sell. Some would call it an un-fair advantage. I just say
it's playing the field using whatever means you have." She gave Michael a
predatory smile that made it suddenly very hard to swallow.
He finally downed the bite, washing away his cotton-mouth
with a sip of water, "You said mostly. What else do they do?"
"My Dad sells real-estate on the side. This used to be
the only house around here, then my Dad came along, and this neighborhood
sprouted up around us like a brickwork forest."
"And your Mom?"
"She's a psychiatrist, works out of the house. It can
get awfully annoying sometimes, living with a person who knows every clinical
reason for the mood you're in or a dream that you had. She also has this
uncanny ability to ferret out the truth."
"What do you mean by that?"
"She can tell when you've lied or when you've left something
out of the full truth. She says she can read peoples' body language, but I
think she reads their minds!"
Michael gulped, "Minds?"
Sarah laughed, "Relax, it was just a joke. If you don't
mind my asking, how do you support yourself? I mean, money doesn't just fall
from the sky into your lap, does it?"
"Hell no!" Michael exclaimed. Sarah gave him an
odd look, "I mean, no, it doesn't. I..." he blushed. He hoped it
wasn't visible from this distance, "I-I work in a... in a pizza joint."
Wayne coughed into his napkin, but Michael could tell it was to cover up his
laughter. "I guess we all know what you do. Hey, servant boy?" he
snarled
"Excuse me?" Wayne stood up, tipping his chair. "I
make triple your annual salary in a month!"
"Well at least I enjoy my job!" Michael spat
sarcastically, also standing.
"Are you questioning my loyalty to Miss Sarah and the
Coulding family?" They advanced until they were nose-to-nose. Glaring into
each other's eyes.
"I'm not questioning anything! I just wonder if you'd
still do it without that nice little pay-check at the end of each month."
"Why you-"
"That's enough!" Sarah shouted, ending their
little staring match. "Wayne, I would never question your loyalty to this
family, bu-"
"Thank you, Miss Sarah," Wayne said with a bow.
"-but we do not judge other people by their
income."
"Thank you, Miss Sarah," Michael mocked with a
flourishing, exaggerated mimic of Wayne's bow.
"After all," She continued with a mischievous
glint in her eyes, "Why mock someone's lousy pay when you could comment on
his pasty complexion, weak jaw-line, grubby clothing....."
"My clothes aren't grubby!" Michael defended as
the servants at the end of the table began to giggle. He looked down at himself
as Sarah cocked an eyebrow, "Okay, maybe they are grubby, but between
being in the hospital and coming to find you I didn't have much time for
washing."
"Speaking of washing," Sarah interjected,
"when's the last time you had a bath?"
"Uh... A couple days before our little incident
together.So about... two weeks or so?"
"Ugh!" Sarah reeled back as if he had the plague,
covering her nose to protect herself. "That's it! You're not leaving here
until you've scrubbed soap on at least one part of your body."
"Do my hands count? I washed them before supper."
"No, they do not. You need to at least get under the
shower and run some water over yourself. I don't care if I have to hold you down
and soap you up myself!" Michael blushed, that odd feeling coming over him
again. He tried to change the subject to cover his embarrassment.
"First a meal and now a bath? Next thing you know I'll
be sleeping here!"
Sarah thought for a moment, rubbing her chin with a hand,
"Good idea!" she concluded.
"What!" Michael and Wayne shouted simultaneously,
glancing to each other before turning back to stare open-mouthed at Sarah. They
both began to babble incoherently.
"B-bu-but... m-my stuff! I-I hav-have to-"
"Miss Sarah! Are you... Do you... You're sure th-"
She waited for the noise to die down, only speaking after
they had been silent for nearly a minute, "Look, you're dirty. Your
clothes are dirty. You look exhausted, and I don't like the idea of you getting
in a cab by yourself at this hour. It's dangerous."
"Wait a second. A week ago you broke my rib, and now
you're worried about me getting in a cab by myself?"
"That was different. A week ago I thought you were just
another human."
"Hold on," Michael pointed an accusing finger at
Wayne, "He's human."
"Yes, but he's different."
"I'm different. Everybody's different."
"-And thank you for showing me that," she patted
him on the head, and a shiver went down his spine. Damn-it! She couldn't even
touch him without him practically fainting. What was wrong with him?
'Nothing,' the voice in his head replied.
Okay, he'd admit it. She was pretty hot, but she was an
animal for Chrissakes!
'No, she just looks like an animal,'
But she's a fox!
'A hot fox,'
Alright, a hot fox, but still a fox.
'So what? Interracial couples have worked out before,'
We're not talking interracial here! This is interspecies, and
who said anything about a couple? She didn't even know him!
'-and yet she's inviting you to spend the night at her house...'
"Michael? Michael! Earth to Michael, are you with
us?"
"Huh? What?" Michael shook his head, jostling away
his internal dialogue. He looked around and found that the entire room had
cleared save him and Sarah. The food was gone from the table, and the sounds of
dishes being washed filtered in from the kitchen
"I was saying that you could take one of the guest
suites. They've all got full baths. You can clean yourself up and then get a
decent night's sleep. We'll wash your clothes... A-hem, burn your clothes,
" she said after giving his shirt a sniff, "and then I we can go
shopping for some new ones in the morning."
"Erm, I don't really... have any money on me."
Michael mumbled.
"Who said you were buying them?"
"I can't just let you spend all that money on me!"
"Please,"she rolled her eyes, 'It'll be
chump-change. Rich, remember? Anyway, think of it as a gift for me from myself.
After all, I'm the one who has to stand next to you, stinky-head!"
"What do you mean stand next to me? When are you going
to be standing next to me?"
"A lot, hopefully,"
'Yes!'
"We are friends now, aren't we?"
'Damn! Friends!'
"Er... Oh... Friends."
"Yes... friends," she said slowly, pronouncing
each word carefully as though she were speaking to a slow person,
"Friends... Good! We. Like. Friends. Yes?"
"Alright, alright! We're friends. On one condition,
though."
"And that would be...?"
"You have to get declawed. I don't need anymo-"
*Pow!*
She punched him right
in the nose, laughing as he fell back in what she thought was a fake gesture of
pain. He clutched at his face, rolling around on the ground as blood began to
pour from his nostrils.
"Oh God!" she muttered, "Not
again."
Michael pulled the wad of tissue from his left nostril,
sniffing and rubbing at his nose. He stole a glance at Sarah, who was running a
wash rag under a faucet in the bathroom of the massive four-room suite he would
apparently be spending the night in. It had a bedroom, master bath, living
room, and even a small kitchen complete with fully stocked minibar.
She pulled the cloth from under the stream of water, turning
the knobs to the off position and wringing it out over the basin before walking
over to where Michael sat on the edge of the huge four-poster bed that would be
his, at least for tonight.
"Here," she said, rolling the damp rag into a
small log and pressing it tenderly against the bridge of his nose. Michael
yelped, "Sorry!" she pulled it away, "does it still hurt?"
"No! It's cold!"
"It has to be. We have to cool that schnozz of yours
down so it doesn't get any bigger than it already was to begin with," she
bit her lip to try and keep herself from laughing. It didn't work.
"Oh, Ha-ha! Very funny!" he said crossly, "I
think I'm starting to notice a pattern here."
"Yeah, you can't stop getting beaten up by girls!"
she gasped, head falling between her legs in an effort to dam her fit of
giggles.
"One girl, and it appears she finds this whole thing
very amusing."
"Very?" she snickered
"Very. She eve-"
The rest of his jab caught in his throat as their eyes
locked.
"Well," she drawled after a poignant silence, extending the word for a few
extra syllables and blushing beneath her fur, "I guess I'd better let you get to sleep. We've got a
busy day tomorrow!" she stepped around the bed and began to make her way
out of the room.
"Wait!" Michael called after her. Her head poked
around the corner of the door, cocked quizzically, "What about my
clothes?"
"Oh!" she blushed, "Um... I'll just,"
she went back behind the door, leaving it cracked open, "step over here,
and you can pass them around the door. I'll have Wayne bring you some of his so
we can go shopping in the morning."
"I... Okay. Alright, that's fine. I... I just... Just don't
look?" Michael asked, puzzling Sarah. It seemed a childish question to put
forward. Sure, there was the whole 'girl seeing me naked' thing, but it wasn't
as if Sarah hadn't seen it all before. She'd been with a few guys before, and
had even done a few things with a couple of them. None of them had been human,
of course, but they were all definitely male. He had asked it with enough
genuine fear in his voice however, that Sarah's tone was dead serious when she
replied.
"Promise." she assured warmly, smiling.
"Thanks," came his muffled reply, and if Sarah's
ears weren't fooling her, it sounded as though he was almost on the verge of
tears.
Sarah thought better than to ask why. She decided she had
caused enough grief to him already. First she'd hit him, then she'd made fun of
his dead parents, and then she'd hit him again. Making him cry would only add
to the guilt she felt whenever she was around him.
Sarah's ears twitched atop her head as she began to hear the
sounds of clothing being shed filtering through the door. That was a good sign,
she guessed. At least he wasn't so self-conscious that he couldn't force
himself to do it. She rested her back against the wall, sighing
absent-mindedly.
"Do you wear contacts?" Michael asked suddenly
from his side of the door.
"No..." Sarah replied, taken aback,
"Why?"
"Your eyes, they're purple."
"Oh... Oh, yeah! It's weird, really," she began to
play with her hands, twiddling her thumbs back and forth. "You see, when
they first began creating furs, there were some unexpected side-effects."
She tapped at her eyelids, although she knew he couldn't see it, "This was
one of the less harmful ones.
"You know that blue eyes are recessive, right?"
she heard an odd rustling noise that she took for a nod from Michael,
"Well, something in my one of my ancestors genes gave us the possibility
to have a pink tint over our blue eyes, making them show up this ice-purple
color. It has half the chance of occurring that the blue-eye allele has, but
it's not uncommon."
There was another long pause.
"Hey Sarah?"
"Yes?"
"You never intended to let me leave here tonight, did
you?"
Sarah chuckled, "Well, I thought you would have guessed
that when I said, 'why don't you stay here tonight'."
"No, I mean before that, in the hallway."
"Oh!" she giggled, "Maybe?"
"Hey Sarah?"
"Yes Michael?" Sarah replied. For some reason she felt
she wasn't talking to Michael anymore. At least, not the same Michael she had
been talking to before. He seemed somehow smaller. It was almost as though she
was speaking to a child.
"Thanks..." With that single word, Michael spoke
volumes. Thanks for the dinner. Thanks for the room. Thanks for defending me.
Thanks for keeping my ego in check. Thanks for what she had done, what she was
doing, and what she was going to do. Thanks for caring, and thank God for
understanding.
Sarah smiled, "You're welcome". That was exactly
as long as it sounded, but had no less gravity. Thanks for that too. Michael
passed his clothes around the door, making sure she only saw the barest tip of
his hand.
"Night, Sarah."
"Sweet dreams, Michael. See you in the morning."
Michael could have sworn, in that one single
instant, that it was his Mother, not Sarah, saying those words from behind his
bedroom door. The thought somehow comforted and warmed him as he got into bed,
falling asleep without even pulling the covers over himself, and for that one
night, he didn't have a single nightmare.
I can't do it.
What do you mean?
I mean I can't do it!
Why not?
Look at him! Just look at him!
He's asleep, just like every other time...
He's happy! For once, he's got a chance to be happy... to
have a good, happy life, and I don't want to be the one to steal that from him.
Why do you care all of the sudden?
Because that was the one thing I could never do! I could
provide for him, I could even teach him a lesson once in a while, but I could
never make him happy!
That's... not true.
Oh really! Name a time! Name one time that he was happy
around me, and then I'll admit that I was wrong and go back to haunting him,
back to making him miserable again.
...
See! I knew it! I... I can't do this anymore... Not now, not
tonight. Just... just leave me alone right now... I need to think.
...We're not here to make him happy.
What?
I said, we're not here to make him happy.
I... I can't believe this, not from you. You, of all people,
are telling me that our son can't be happy...
I'm only telling you the truth. You and I both know why
we're here. We knew the job we were being asked to do before we ever agreed to
do it. Yes, it's terrible. Yes, I feel even more terrible about because it's
our own son that we're doing it to, but the good outweighs the bad. Dozens -
maybe even hundreds of lives will be improved because of what we're about to
set in motion.
So, what? He's going to be some sacrificial lamb? He has to
suffer for my sins - for what I did wrong? Well that's not right! If that's how
it has to be, then I'll just go back. I'll do it gladly, because I know it's
the right thing. No 'greater good' should outweigh the health and happiness of
our own son!
It's not like we're strapping him to an alter and carving
out his heart! He'll get to choose, just like we both got to choose to set this
whole thing in motion in the first place. If everyone's destiny was set in
stone, then good would cease to be good and right would be just another word.
I don't give a damn about any of that! I'm not a fricking
philosopher to say what's good and what's right! All I know is that, for the
first time in years, our son has a chance to be happy! Even if it's just for a
few days! I don't want to ruin that! Just... just give him tonight. Please?
...Alright, you've got tonight off, but tomorrow, no matter
what the circumstances, you're going right back to it. We've got a job to do,
and, although I can't believe I'm saying this, we can't let sentimentality get
in the way.
Thanks, dear.
It's Caroline...
...Thanks... Caroline.
Wow! Michael felt rested, relaxed, rejuvenated, and all
around content with the world and everything in it. He hadn't felt like that in
a long time. In fact, he could hardly remember ever feeling like this, except
for when he was drunk. Actually, he felt kind of drunk right now, that special
little high you get when you're right between sleeping and waking, caught
between the real and dream world. He was so enraptured by how good he felt,
that he almost didn't see the dark silhouette lurking in his doorway.
His eyes flew wide open. That was it, he was awake, and
painfully so. He was on his feet in a second, fight-or-flight kicking in. His mysterious
attacker was covering the single exit to the room, so fight seemed to be the
only option at the moment. He ran, screaming a primal, guttural warcry, straight
into his assailant's stomach, throwing them both to the ground. They hit the
floor with a thump. Michael snarled in triumph, prepared to deliver the final
blow.
"What, in the name of all that's holy, do you think you
are doing?" Wayne asked calmly from his position under Michael. Michael
shook his head, blinking several times before he looked, really looked, at the
man beneath him. His eyesight was still blurry from sleep, so he couldn't tell
if the expression on Wayne's face was one of annoyance, bemusement, or a mix of
both. Probably both, with a little confusion and shock thrown into the mix for
good measure. It was about that time that Michael remembered he was naked.
He leapt from atop Wayne like he'd been struck by lightning,
and even if a bolt from Zeus himself had thought to come down on him at that
moment, it probably would have missed. Michael was back in his room in a
second, slamming the door and pressing his back against it, blushing in
embarrassment. The embarrassment quickly turned to anger as he cracked the door
back open, sticking his head through to glare at Wayne.
"What the hell are you doing staring at me while I
sleep?" he hissed, eyes narrowing, waiting for an explanation from the now
apparently voyeuristic butler.
"I was not staring! For your information, I had just
opened the door, and was about to wake you."
Michael cocked and eyebrow, "Who said I needed
waking?"
"Miss Sarah. She told me to wake you up at nine so you
could bathe and make yourself presentable for your trip to the mall. Speaking
of which, I've already run your bath," he gave what he assumed to be an
inviting gesture towards the bathroom, "If you would just step out here, I
can make some final adjustments to the temperature and be out of your
way."
Michael's blush deepened, "I can turn a knob myself..."
"Good! Then you'll be able to open that door the rest
of the way and come out where I can see you." Lord, Michael had walked
right in to that one.
"This really isn't necessary..." he said,
searching for a better argument.
"I don't really care what you think is necessary,"
Wayne stated condescendingly, "Miss Sarah has asked me to provide for you
the same services offered to every guest of the Coulding household, and I
intend to follow her instruction to the letter." He emphasized the last
word as he grabbed the door-handle and pushed, knocking Michael off balance and
causing him to fall back, door opening to throw light onto a shocked and very
naked Michael. As he fell he had twisted to catch himself and ended up lying
buck-naked on his belly, staring up over his shoulder at Wayne. Wayne's casual
smirk was wiped from his face as he caught sight of Michael's exposed back and
arms.
"What... What happen-What's wrong with your-" he
stuttered. Michael quickly got back on his feet, rounding on Wayne with a look
that spoke something akin to murder.
"Out!" he shouted, screamed. "Get out
now!" He grabbed Wayne by the collar, tossing him out of the suite's
doorway and into the hall. Wayne hit the wall and slid down to the floor,
raising his arms as if to protect himself.
"I didn't - I mean - I promise! I w-won't..."
Wayne stammered. He looked terrible. Flustered, confused, embarrassed, but
mostly, he looked as though he felt sorry for Michael, like he pitied him.
Michael hated it! It enraged him, made him want to hurt someone, throw
something! He did, grabbing an expensive-looking vase and hurling it at the
wall beside Wayne's head. Flowers scattered across the corridor in a flurry of
reds, yellows, and blues, like a multicolored snow-storm. A piece of ceramic
shrapnel from the vase struck Wayne in the face, leaving a small cut on his
cheek that was already beginning to ooze blood. If he felt it, it didn't show.
The only thing that was showing on his face was a mutely stunned expression as
the maroon fluid began to drip from it, falling softly to the ground below.
Michael's eyes widened, suddenly realizing what he'd just
done. His glance flickered between the shattered vase, Wayne's cheek, and the
blood that was now forming a small puddle on the cream carpet. He swallowed a
lump in his throat, blinking away the salty droplets that were beginning to
form in the corners of his eyes.
"I-I'm going to take that bath now. I won't need any
help." He looked into Wayne's eyes, searching silently for forgiveness. If
there was any, Michael didn't see it, just that same blank stare. He continued,
"If you could please get me some clothes... something with long sleeves. I
would really appreciate it." He tried to be as courteous as possible.
Right now, he would understand it if Wayne were to leave him there to walk
around naked for the rest of the day. Hell, he would understand it if Wayne
called the cops on him. He had just technically assaulted him. But he didn't.
He picked himself up, dusting himself off and dabbing at his cheek with a wrinkled
sleeve.
"Certainly," he said curtly, turning on his heels
and marching quickly down the hall and around the corner. Michael continued to
stare at the space where he had been not a minute ago before quietly closing
the door. He made his way into the bathroom, stepping over to the jacuzzi bath
and testing the temperature with a finger. It was perfect. He cursed, loud. It
could have been anything - too hot, too cold, but no, it was perfect, fucking
perfect! He stumbled over to the sink, leaning against it with both hands and
glaring at his reflection in the mirror through his bangs.
"I hate you," he whispered to the face staring
back at him; teeth clenching as he drew back a fist. He threw it forward,
driving it through the reflective surface and into the medicine shelves behind.
Bottles and tubes cascaded to the floor in a waterfall of cosmetic remedies and
vanity paraphernalia. His fist connected with something sharp, and he cursed
again, crying out in pain and anger as he saw the disposable razor blades he'd
just punched fall to the tile floor as well. He turned on the faucet and ran
his hand under the water for a few seconds before snatching up a displaced roll
of gauze from the floor to bandage his hand with.
Michael threw himself onto the floor next to the tub,
sitting against the wall and groaning as he ran a hand through his hair. He
looked up and saw that half of the mirror lay intact upon the floor. He snarled
into it.
"I hate you!" he screamed. He kicked out with his
foot, watching through blurred eyes as thousands of his doppelgangers cried
silently back at him in the shattered remains of the mirror. The sink had begun
to run over onto the tile, sweeping away the reflective shards and causing the
walls to flicker and sparkle as they shone off of them. It reminded Michael of
flames licking across the wall and ceiling, a raging inferno caused by his
anger and hate. Hate for his family, hate for the way his life was going, for
how it had gone, hate for this town, hate for all the stupid, ignorant jerks in
the world, hate for the world itself, but mostly... hate for himself. He curled
himself into a ball, hugging his knees to his chest and rocking himself gently
back and forth as he wept bitterly.
"I hate you."
Sarah arrived to find a clean, smartly dressed, and smiling
Michael waiting for her at his door. He had taken his bath, dressed in the
clothes given to him by Wayne that he didn't deserve, and stuffed the broken
vase and mirror into the bottom of a waste basket somewhere, along with all his
repressed feelings of rage and other assorted emotional baggage. He'd also
washed the tear stains form his face (not an easy thing to do without a mirror
for reference, mind you). His red, puffy eyes and cheeks could be explained
away as a symptom of overly-hot water, and the bandaged hand on one
sharp-cornered dresser. Add a happy face and a pleasant demeanor and boom, you
get one snazzy guy who looked nothing like he just half-destroyed a room,
assaulted a butler, and spent the next twenty minutes bawling his eyes out
naked in the fetal position.
Michael had to hand it to Wayne; he knew when to keep silent
about something. He'd managed to act normal around Michael the entire time
they'd been at the mall, even though he'd been forced to sit right next to him
in the car on the way there. When they finally arrived however, he'd hung back
from them, lingering at window displays or staring absent-mindedly at the
scenery. Sarah, for her part, remained blissfully oblivious to her servant's
silent plight, giggling like a schoolgirl as she used Michael like a human doll
to try on various outfits, all of which were long-sleeve, at Michael's mumbled
request.
Finally Sarah left them, to "go use the little girl's
room" she'd said, and at last, they were alone. They'd taken a seat upon a
sunny bench, lit from above by the panoramic skylights in the roof. They
remained quiet for what seemed like an eternity, and the tension was so
tangible that people walking past began to shy away after a single glance at
the two. Finally, Michael said something. He had to! If he didn't, he'd explode,
leaving nothing but a black stain on the bench and a plume of smoke hanging in
the air where he'd been.
"I'm sorry!" he burst out suddenly, causing the
heads of several nearby shoppers to turn. "I didn't mean to hurt you! It's
just I-I mean...I-I-I...you know? I nev-I mean... I woul-"
"It's okay!" Wayne interjected quickly, placing a
hand over his mouth to shush his stammered explanations, "Really! It... It
was my fault."
"Oh..." Wait... What! He'd attacked Wayne, cussed
him out, thrown a freaking pot at his head, and Wayne was apologizing him?
"I shouldn't have forced the door open like that,"
he continued, blushing softly, "and I shouldn't have said that there was
something wrong with you... there isn't, you're perfectly normal, just like
me."
"No," Michael whispered under his breath,
"I'm not."
"What?" Wayne asked, leaning in closer in an
effort to hear him better. Michael thrust his right arm at Wayne, causing him
to flinch back. He reached up slowly with his other hand, pulling down his
right sleeve to show Wayne the blotched, pink scabs that deeply contrasted the
olive color of his natural skin. Scars crisscrossed the back of his arm,
extending up beyond where the sleeve still covered, and all the way around to
his shoulders and back. They weren't the thin lines of slash or shrapnel
wounds, but the spotty, pale lumps of a severe burn victim. By the looks of
them, they had to have been at least third degree burns, and from what Wayne
had seen back at the manor, they covered nearly a fourth of his body.
"I'm scarred," Michael said softly, "I'm
ugly, a freak born of prejudice and hatred. I've suffered my entire life for
the sins of my ancestors, of your own, of our entire species, and I'll continue
to suffer for as long as I live."
"What are you talking about?" asked Wayne,
confused.
"You know my last name?"Michael queried.
"Yes, North, but I don..." A look of recognition
crossed his face. Michael nodded a mute confirmation, "No... It
couldn-"
"-Be the Michael North?" he finished. "It is,
my father and mother are Gregory and Caroline North. I'm their son, last surviving
member of the North clan. Their legacy dies with me, along with their ignorance
and blind hate."
Wayne looked around, making sure no-one was eavesdropping
before continuing, "But what happened to you?"
"You don't know?"
"Wayne shook his head no, "Well... I remember
something about a Gregory North in the news as a kid, and I remember mentioning
a son who survived, but they never said anything about how badly he... you,
were hurt, or what happened to him... you, afterwards."
Michael sighed, "It's funny," he chuckled, "
the things that you remember. I still recall vividly the dream that I had that
night. It had been right around Christmas, and I'd been asking all year for a
puppy. That's what I woke up from when I heard the screen door slam shut..."
***
He sat up, ears straining, and sure enough, he began to hear
the sounds of muffled voices filtering through the door. That could only mean
one thing, Dad was drunk again. It always started out calm, she would ask him
something, and he would answer. Their voices would slowly rise as each question
was asked and each answer given, until it became a fierce shouting match that
could be heard throughout the entire neighborhood, let alone Michael's room.
Something was different this time. Mom's voice didn't sound
angry, there was a completely different emotion there, but he didn't quite know
what. It was still a loud one, though. Michael got out of bed, tip-toeing over
to the door to better hear the conversation. Mom was saying something about how
Dad had to leave, that he couldn't stay here. She wasn't ordering him to do it.
In fact, it sounded more like she was begging, pleading with him to go. Michael
suddenly realized the emotion in her voice. It was fear.
He opened the door, peeking his head out to see what it was
that could cause his Mother to be fearful. She was backed up against the
counter, hands raised in front of her body as though to protect herself from
some unseen force. That force was, of course, his father, who was beyond his
field of vision, which was limited by the doorway. Dad could, and most likely
would, beat Mom when he was drunk, badly. She had gone into work many a day
claiming to have tripped on the sidewalk on the way to her car, or have taken a
slip on a wet bathroom floor. It was this thought that caused him to come
running to his Mother's aid when he saw that she was in trouble.
What he had failed to see however, was the liquor bottle
cradled in his Father's left hand, the snub-nose revolver in his right, and the
lit gas range behind his mother. Michael reached his mother just as she
realized he had come running, and was quickly swept up behind her. Something
about the sudden movement or the rush of noise had set his dad off, and he
threw the bottle with all his might, aiming to hit his wife's head, but
missing, and shattering its highly flammable contents all over the lit burner
of the range. There was a loud bang, followed by a rush of heat and light, and
then everything went black...
***
"...Then the stove exploded. My Mom had bent down to
pull me behind her, but her head was just high enough that the metal grill was
able to hit her right in the right temple, killing her instantly. I was lower,
so I just got the flames across by back and arms, and Dad was knocked clean
through the door, hitting his head on the ground and blacking out. He woke up a
little while later, saw the pistol lying beside him in the grass, and put a
round through his head. Then the cops came, bundled me up, and took me down to
the station for questioning. I... I was the only witness."
Wayne shook his head, "I just don't understand. What
would make anybody do something like that?"
"He was a member of the People," Michael stated
simply.
"But I thought they hated furs, not humans."
"They do. He and a few friends had been drinking in a
bar. One of them had the gun. They thought it would be fun to go scare some
local furs with it, and went to the house of some family of skunks, busting
down the door and scaring the heck out of all of them. Someone got edgy,
though, and they ended up killing them all, husband, wife, and all three
kids," he sighed. "The youngest one was five... Dad knew he'd end up
spending life in prison for what had happened, figured he had nothing left to
live for..."
"So he decided to kill you?"
Michael glanced up, looking somewhere off in the sky as he
said, "If he had nothing to live for, why should we? We're family,
right?" he finished sarcastically. Wayne opened and closed his mouth a few
times, looking as if he was about to say something, and then deciding against
it.
"Wayne?"
Wayne, who had been staring at the floor, suddenly met
Michael's gaze, "Please don't tell any of this to Sarah." This was
it, the moment that could make or break whatever relationship he and Sarah
might have. One word of this from Wayne to Sarah, and she would drop Michael
like a hot potato. If she ever heard anything about this, she'd be horrified,
she'd be scared to even look at Michael. If he said anything...
"...I won't."
"What?" Michael exclaimed, "but I thought you
loved her!"
"I do," Wayne said, reaching out a hand to cover
Michael's gaping mouth, "I love Sarah like best friend, like a
sister."
"But you don't 'love her' love her?"
Wayne laughed, "Oh no! I'm gay!"
"What!" Michael jumped from his seat as though
scalded.
Wayne sighed, "Yes, that's usually what every straight
guy I tell that to does..."
Michael thought back. Had he?... Oh no! "You saw me
naked!" he squeaked, eyes practically popping out of their sockets. "You
were watching me while I slept, and then I was on top of you.... and I was
naked!"
Wayne shook his head, eyes rolling to the ceiling in an
expression of exasperation, " My Lord!" he grabbed Michael by the
jaw, who finally ceased his struggling when he his gaze met Wayne's. There was
something hypnotic about his eyes, it repulsed and attracted him at the same
time. Wayne spoke slowly, making sure the full meaning of each word was received
by Michael, "Just because I'm gay does not mean that I want to screw every
single living male on this Earth. Are you attracted to each and every girl in
the world?"
"Well..." Michael thought for a second, a
particularly unsavory female from his school suddenly popped into his head.
Eww! Hell-"... no, I guess not."
"See!" Wayne stated matter-of-factly, tapping
Michael on the tip of the nose with a finger.
"So you find me unattractive?" Michael frowned.
For some reason the fact that Wayne didn't think he was good-looking annoyed
him. Not that he felt anything for Wayne, but being told you were ugly to your
face still hurt, even if it was another guy saying it.
Wayne blushed, "Now I never said that... but you're
obviously not interested in me, plus you're off-limits."
Michael did a double-take. Off limits?... "What's that
supposed to mean?"
"Isn't it obvious?" Wayne giggled, "She likes
you!"
"Who?"
"Oh, good God!" Wayne muttered under his breath,
"Do I have to spell it out for you? Here's a hint, starts with an 'S', ends
with an 'arah'."
"You're kidding me..." She liked him too? Wow! He
must have missed a huge clue somewhere. Why couldn't girls just be
straight-forward for once? If someone liked you, why didn't they just come out
and say "I like you!", but no, that'd be too easy, wouldn't it?
"Nope," Wayne chirped. Holy hell, he'd chirped.
Guys did not chirp. At least, not straight guys. Michael was amazed he hadn't
seen it earlier. Wayne was, for lack of a better word, flaming. "She's got
a huge crush on... Miss Sarah!"
Michael blinked, "She's got a crush on... Sarah?!"
He jolted as a furry arm touched his shoulder.
"Who's got a crush on Sarah?" a disembodied, but
clearly feminine voice asked from somewhere behind him. Michael followed the
red-furred arm up from his own to its owner, gazing up with what he hoped was a
casually innocent smile when he saw Sarah staring quizzically back down at him.
"Erg... Emily!" Wayne blurted quickly, thinking on
his feet.
"Emily? Emily-from-the-house, Emily? That Emily?"
she gave Wayne a disbelieving squint.
"Er... Yes ma'am, that would be the Emily I was
speaking of..." Wayne said with a look that suggested being slightly hot
under his starched collar.
"You mean she's..."
Wayne chewed absent-mindedly on his lip, "Like a...
Like a flamingo, ma'am!"
"Huh," Sarah said with a shrug, "Never would
have guessed..." she paused, thinking for a moment before shaking her
head. 'Well... Live and let live, I say! C'mon boys. We still have half a mall
to raid!" she began to march off towards the next store on her seemingly
infinite mental list. Wayne began to move off, but Michael stopped him,
grabbing him by the shoulder and pulling him in close.
"Who's Emily?" he whispered into Wayne's ear.
"She-she's a maid back at the house..." he
stammered
"Is she really...?"
"No!" he covered his eyes with a hand, "She
has a boyfriend and everything! She's gonna' kill me!"
"Well..." he couldn't do it. He couldn't hold it
in any longer. It burst from him like an alien, laughter so severe he had to
double over to keep it from tearing him apart. "Good luck with that!"
he said finally, wiping his eyes and giving Wayne a sympathetic pat on the
shoulder before walking off to find his Foxy host who, it just so happened,
looked great walking away. Michael was afraid people may begin mistaking him
for a bobble-head doll. Wayne shook his head sadly, punching himself mentally
as he went off to join the two.
Unbeknownst to the group, another threesome had been
watching the entire affair from across the hall. John Greene turned from the
poster he had been pretending to examine for the past few minutes or so. Big
and Twitch shared a glance before looking to him expectantly.
"What're we gonna' do, boss?" Big drawled slowly.
John frowned, eyebrows knitted together as he thought. "Well?" Big
asked.
John walked a short distance away, a smile beginning to
spread across his face as an idea slowly formulated itself in his head, "I
know exactly what we're going to do!" he said.
"What?" Big and Twitch chorused.
"We're gonna' have a little fun with North and his
little bitch, that's what we're gonna' do!"
"Yeah," Big said, "but... how?"
"I'll tell you in the car," John said,
brushing past the two as he made his way towards the exit. "We've got to
go get some stuff. Stuff you can't find in a mall..."
Well, things seem to be going as planned.
And we make our way slowly towards the endgame...
Stop that!
What?
Talking about this whole thing as though it's a game of
chess.
A game? This is no game. In a game, both parties have equal
ability to win or lose. His fate was decided from the moment he was placed on
the board. He's the loser, the fall-guy in this little charade, and the
winner...
The winner is the world.
You keep saying that! You keep telling me that all of this has
the power to change the world, to make a difference, but in reality...
I don't have the answers, I didn't make the rules, I just
play my part, and you should too. We have to trust that what we're doing is for
some kind of good. Why would they lie to us?
Because they like watching us puny mortals cook our own
goose...
You and I both know that isn't true. You're just trying to
give yourself a reason to quit.
What does it matter anyway? You, me, and little Mikey down
there... we're all pawns, the queen's a fox, and the bishop is a goddamn homosexual
butler! Jesus! Whatever happened to the lightening and thunder? Whatever
happened to parting the seas and raising the dead and all that?
People don't believe in that stuff anymore. All
the miracles can be explained away, all the magic can be rationalized... or
ignored. It's us, it's people that have to make the miracles now. It's man that
has to make the magic...
"You bought me a
suit?" Michael hoisted the offending three-piece, staring at it as though
it might bite him if he let it get too close. "So... what? I'm going to be
joining Wayne as co-chief-butler-guy, or something? 'Cause if you want me to
get a job I can, but I'm not really one for the whole 'servant' thing..."
"Aww..." Sarah whined, bottom lip quivering piteously,
"but I think you'd be great as co-chief-butler-guy, and it looks so good
on you!" She walked around behind him, placing the suit between Michael
and the mirror to superimpose it over his current attire. Sarah cocked her
head, ears canting back and lips pursing in a appraising manner. Whatever she
had been looking at seemed to check out okay, because she smiled, moving to the
bed and folding the suit neatly before placing it on top of the covers.
"Besides, if you don't like it I can always bring out the bit and
bridle..."
Michael put a hand to his chest in mock disgust, "I'd
rather go naked!"
"That can be arranged..." Michael gulped, looking
away quickly in an attempt to hide his blush. "Oh-ho!" Sarah
exclaimed, raising a triumphant finger to the sky, "Struck a nerve, did
I?" She advanced on him, pinning him against the wall and running a hand
along his cheek and down his neck. Michael shivered. "Admit it," she
whispered, "You like me..." Michael was taken aback by the sudden
assault, and found himself speechless. "Say it..."
"Never!" Michael stated bravely, realizing at once
that the whole thing was a joke. He hoped it was one of those jokes that was
kind-of-a-joke, but had a crunchy nugget of seriousness at the center. Michael
loved those jokes.
"Say it or I'll tickle you!" She didn't even give
him a chance, moving from assault to battery as her hands went to work,
tickling and scratching at his torso and the underside of his jaw.
"Alright! Alright!!!!" he gasped, pushing her away
from him and causing her to plop down onto the bed, "I like you! I worship
the very ground that you walk on! And sometimes I secretly wish I could shave
off all of your tail-fur and make it into a teddy-bear so I can snuggle it
whenever I want, but I couldn't stand seeing you walk around with a hairless
little rat tail, so I'm forced to settle for the real thing!" He pounced
on her, grabbing the offending appendage and hugging it tightly to his chest,
sneezing as she used the tip to flick at his nose.
"Well I'd love to give it to you," she snickered,
continuing to flicker it against his sensitive sinuses, "but I'm afraid
it's attached to my butt!" Michael suddenly remembered where he was, and
how close he actually was to said butt. He jumped up off of her, dusting
himself off and clearing his throat in embarrassment.
"Sorry..." he said, offering her a hand to help
her up as well. She took it, using his weight as leverage to pull herself off
of the downy surface.
"It's a good thing you're so modest, you'll need it
when you meet my parents tonight."
"What?" Michael asked, flustering himself even
more.
"This is their home you're staying in," she
reminded him, "and they're having a party tonight. That's the real reason
I bought the suit."
"A party?"
"Yep, and from what I understand, there's supposed to
be a lot of well-to-do folks coming, too. I figured we needed someone to cart
around cocktails and such, and you just happened to be handy, so..." she
crossed her arms, staring expectantly down her nose at Michael.
"Will I have to wear a little hat and call everyone
sir?"
"Only my Father, that and explain to him exactly what
it was you were doing in his big, empty house with his baby girl... alone,"
she rolled her tongue on the last word, giggling into his ear as he blushed yet
again. If it were possible to worry yourself into a coma, Michael would have
out slept Rumple-freaking-stitchkin.
"But I-I mean-I didn't-You know I never would
have-" he stammered.
"Ah... but does he know that?" she asked coyly.
"Oh, you're evil..."
"I hope you know how to make a really good grey-goose
martini..." she leaned against the door-frame, giving him one last glance
over her shoulder before rounding the corner with a playful little shake that
began in her rump and ended somewhere around the end of her tail.
"Damn she's hot..." Michael muttered.
"I heard that!"
"Joking!" Michael loved those jokes.
"So, Mr..." he extended a hand, crushing Michael's
own in it's iron grip and shaking it about like a piece of meat. Michael had
almost fainted when he'd first seen him. Mr. Coulding was a big fox, by
anyone's standards. He was by no means chubby, but Michael would never make the
mistake of calling the man scrawny.
"Er..... Holdin," Michael thought quickly. He couldn't
tell them his real last name, not yet.
"Mr. Holdin!" Sarah's mother said brightly,
patting his arm.
"Please ma'am, it's Michael..."
"Well, in that case," she said teasingly,
"you can call me Jenny!"
"Honey, I think you're embarrassing the boy," Mr.
Coulding whispered to his wife.
"I can't help it," she retorted, "he's so
shy, and so sweet!" she smiled apologetically.
This was good, no-one was throwing things, and he hadn't
been called a racist bastard once, as far as he could tell. It was a big party,
and there was a great deal of hushed comments wherever he went. He was, after
all, the supposed new boy-toy to the heiress of a multi-million dollar stock
fortune. Michael had even heard one hushed comment of "won't last a
week...", to which he'd replied by "accidentally" stomping on
the older human male's toes as he walked by.
"I'm giving myself two," he'd whispered into the
man's ear as he'd pretended to check if he was alright, walking off before the
old man could say anything more than a few angry splutters.
The party was taking place in the manor's rear grounds, a
series of hedgerows, fountains, ponds, waterfalls, and flower-gardens that
meshed together to form a lavishly tiered courtyard that rivaled anything
Washington had to offer. The entire area was lit by citrus-scented tiki torches
and underwater landscape lights that cycled through a myriad of colors. Which,
when combined with the warm summer's night, came together to give the whole
affair a very tropic feel.
The gala had slowly begun to wind down as guests made their
way back to their limos or, in one Middle-Eastern Fennec Oil-Prince's case,
helicopters, some stumbling or weaving slightly based on how much alcohol each
had consumed, and how well he or she could handle their liquor. Michael, to his
great worry, had suddenly found himself alone with Sarah's parents, who were,
to put it lightly, a little bit more than a little bit tipsy.
"So..." Mr. Coulding said again, covering his
mouth as he slurred the word slightly, "Sarah tells me you got her out of
trouble with a couple of thugs!"
"More like she got me out of trouble. They beat the
crap out of me!" Michael laughed, a little bit too loudly, he noted
somewhere in the back of his head. He didn't drink... normally, but something
about the atmosphere had loosened his inhibitions slightly, which were further
unhinged by his first few drinks. Big, sweet, and girlie, in the spirit of the
night, but that didn't mean they weren't strong. Michael could have sworn the
guy behind the bar had emptied half of its contents into his glass before
handing it to him, smelling strongly of strawberries, pineapple, and top-shelf
booze.
"From what I heard, so did she," he said,
chuckling at his own joke.
Michael made an indignant noise, waving a hand and nearly
knocking himself off balance, "Please, she didn't hurt me that bad!"
"You want to see the doctor's bill I got to prove
that?" Mr. Coulding asked.
"Okay, maybe she did, but those guys softened me up
first." he leaned back in his bar-stool, which really did knock him off
balance, causing him to topple out of his chair and onto the floor. It probably
should have hurt, but a mixture of liquor and adrenaline made it feel more like
a dull thud as his back connected with the concrete tiles.
"Smooth move, sweetie," Michael tilted his head back
to meet Sarah's upside-down and slightly blurry gaze.
"Since when did I become 'sweetie'?" he asked,
extricating himself from the stool and rising unsteadily to his feet.
"Right after you graduated from 'pompous
asshole'," she replied, sticking out her tongue.
"Well," Mr. Coulding sighed, wrapping an arm
around his wife and giving Michael a farewell pat on the shoulder, "I
guess everybody else can find their own way out. As for us, I think it's time
we hit the hay." They turned to leave, "Oh... and sweetie?" he
said, turning back to the two. Michael and Sarah exchanged a glance, staring
back at Mr. Coulding for a second.
"Me or her?" Michael finally asked, causing Mrs.
Coulding to roll her eyes and snicker.
"Her!"
"Yes Daddy?"
"Tell the boy that I'll cut his balls off if he gets
you pregnant," Michael's eyes grew to the size of saucer pans, addled
brain taking a few minutes to relay that it would be physically impossible for
him to impregnate Sarah, her being a fox, and that Mr. Coulding's remark must
have been a joke. By that time; however, he had already disappeared into the
house, muttering something along the lines of, "Now where the hell is our
room?" under his breath.
Michael felt a sudden weight on his shoulder which, upon
further inspection, turned out to belong to the hiccupping muzzle of his
slightly buzzed hostess, who had apparently decided that his arm made a fairly
comfy pillow.
"I'm drunk," she stated simply, blinking up at him
with sleep-heavy eyes.
"I can see that..."
"So are you," she said, yawning loud and lewdly.
"And?" he asked, not even bothering to deny his
blatantly obvious state of intoxication.
"Would you care to escort a lady to her room?"
"I would if I could find one..." he replied slyly,
earning a smack to the back of his head for his trouble. "Couldn't Wayne
take you?" he asked, rubbing the back of his sore skull with a hand.
"He'll give me a huge lecture and tuck me into bed like
I'm a kid!" she whined, pulling at his shirt-sleeve piteously.
"I take it this isn't the first time this has
happened?"
"What's fifteen more than twelve?"
"Er..." Michael tried to count it out on his
fingers, giving up after he remembered that twelve was more than ten,
"Fifty-two?" he guessed. He was never good at multiplication.
They arrived at Sarah's room after two hours of aimless
wandering and set of directions in broken English from a French ferret maid
that, Michael was not afraid to tell, was extremely hot. It took Michael
another twenty minutes or so to figure out how to open the door with his arms
busy keeping a semi-conscious Sarah from becoming very good friends with the
hallway carpeting. After finally defeating the devious doorknob by crouching
down and jiggling it open with his teeth, he tossed Sarah unceremoniously onto
her bed and turned to leave, wobbling slightly from exhaustion and inebriation.
"Hey, Michael?" Sarah called feebly from her bed.
"Yeah?" he asked, rubbing a hand across his eyes
in a failing attempt to rub out the sleep there.
"Can you c'mere for a second?" Michael stumbled
his way back to her side, leaning in to hear what she had to ask. He panicked
as he found himself drawn into a deep and unexpected make-out session. His
attempts to pull away slowly faded and died. He melted into the kiss, wrapping
a hand behind her head and leaning in further to kiss her back, tongues waging
a tequila-scented war between their joined lips.They finally broke, partly to
catch their breath, and partly to avoid the stereotypical
puking-into-each-other's-mouths bit that was so popular in the movies.
"That was... amazing!" Michael gasped.
"What's it for?"
"For... for everything," she replied. "For
putting up with my crazy parents, my over-protective butler, and me, for
standing up for me with those bullies and all the rich jerks that were spreading
rumors about us tonight, and for... for saving my life." She started to
cry, tears matting down her fur.
"Hey now..." he said soothingly, "Your
parents rock, Wayne and I turned out okay in the end, and you... you're
awesome," he kissed her again. "As for standing up for you, I would
have done it for anybody, but it helps that I've secretly had a crush on you
since the moment I saw you."
"Really?"
"Really," he whispered, chuckling softly into her
ear.
"You're just teasing me..." she said, pushing
against his chest. He kissed her a third time, deeper and longer, trying his
hardest to put every single emotion he was feeling for her at that moment into
the kiss. It was a long kiss, but he didn't care, he was feeling a lot of
emotions at that moment.
"Does it feel like I'm teasing you?" he asked.
"I wasn't joking earlier. I really do worship the ground that you walk on,
and I'd spend my entire life wearing a silly little hat and serving cocktails
to rich jerks if it was the only way I could see you."
"Does that mean you really want to make my tail into a
teddy-bear?"
"Alright, so I was joking a little, but your tail is
really cute."
"So are you," she replied, grabbing his nose and
waggling it back and forth playfully.
"Only when I'm drunk."
"I'll have to remember to slip something into your
drink next time you're here. I like you like this."
"I like you like this..."
"Want to like me even more?" she murred, pulling
him onto the bed and rolling him over so she was straddling his chest. As
Michael watched on in amazement, she proceeded to pull her dress over her head
and toss it off into a dark corner of the room, leaving her wearing nothing but
a bra and a tiny pair of silk panties.
She was beautiful! The white of her hands, feet, and
tail-tip was shared in the ivory stripe that ran from the underside of her
chin, between her breasts, and finally disappeared into her underwear. The rest
of her was a vibrant rusty-red, making her ice-purple eyes stand out all the
more. Her bust was generously proportioned, while not seeming overly-large, and
there was no lack in the curves department. Her panties were small, pink, and
frilly, and the matching bra showed an ample amount of cleavage without coming
off as slutty or vulgar.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa!" Michael stammered, tearing his
eyes away from her body long enough to make another half-baked escape attempt
when her hand found its way beneath his pants and into his boxers, "That's
not what I meant!"
"You don't like me?" Sarah asked, dismounting
Michael's torso as tears sprang to her eyes once again.
"No!" Michael exclaimed, "I mean-Yes! Yes, of
course I like you! I love you! You're incredible... and that's why I have to
leave... right now, before we make a huge mistake and ruin our whole
relationship." He walked over to where Sarah stood, wrapping his arms
around her waist lovingly and smiling warmly into her eyes.
"I'm clean," she said quickly, thinking he was
afraid she had something. "I get checked every year, and..." Michael
silenced her, hushing her and standing silently with her for a few minutes ,
rocking her gently back and forth to help calm her down.
"That isn't what I meant either," he said after
she had stopped crying. "It's not that I don't want you, or that I think
you're diseased or something, but I can't trust myself to know what's best
right now. I know when I'm drunk, and right now I'm somewhere between hammered
and plastered, so I can't honestly say what I'm feeling for you right now, but
I know that I want to feel it for the rest of my life, and if we do this now,
I'll never be able to forgive myself, 'cause I'd be taking advantage of
you..."
"But I want you to take advantage of me!" she
whimpered.
"I'm... going to go try and find my room now," he
told her sternly, giving her one last kiss and body slamming himself in his
head for walking out on what was essentially a free ticket to hot, wild sex
with the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen.
"Wait," she said, "Could you just... just
stay with me tonight? Just lie here with me?"
"I don't know..." he sighed. He still didn't know
if he could trust himself.
"You'll never find your room in your state, I don't
even remember where it is right now. We don't have to do anything, I just want
a little company. C'mon," she cajoled, massaging his shoulders in a
soothing manner.
"Well..."
"Please?" she asked, giving him a dose of her
perfectly pitiful puppy-dog eyes to hammer the last nail home.
"Okay, but just so long as it's limited to cuddling
only, and you have to be in the back," he added on a last thought.
"Why?"
"I... Let's just say I don't want things to get awkward
if I get a little excited in my sleep."
"Oh!" she said, blushing as she realized what he
was talking about. Michael removed his jacket and dress pants, stripping down
to his long-sleeve undershirt and boxers and pulling aside the covers to allow
himself and Sarah to get comfortable underneath. The last thing he remembered
before he fell asleep was hearing Sarah whisper the words, "I think it
just got awkward anyway..."
'Damn you underpants,' he thought, 'You and your inability
to adequately hide an erection...'
Well, that's it.
That's it.
You win.
I win.
What were you supposed to get if you won again?
I don't remember. Did we ever actually decide?
Now I guess... I guess it's time to get down to business.
I guess so.
This would be a lot easier to do if you'd stop repeating
everything I say.
Sorry.
Alright, let's do it.
Let's do it.
Sarah's ears were sore. She realized why as she began to
wake up fully. Michael was sitting bolt upright, eyes wide open and staring
blankly into space. He was screaming, stopping only long enough to refill his
lungs before unleashing another blood-curdling wail.
"Michael!" she shouted, sitting up and placing a
hand onto his shoulder, shaking him in an attempt to break himout of his
terrifying trance. "What's wrong? What's the matter? Are you hurt?"
He hit her, knocking her off of the bed as he continued to scream, trashing
about, banging his skull against the headboard over and over as his body was
wracked with almost epileptic spasms.
Sarah crawled into a corner, sitting horrified with her
hands over her ears, rocking herself silently until he became quiet. She stood
back up, stepping timidly to where he sat on the sheets, still staring off into
the air, shuddering like a wounded animal.
"Michael?" she asked softly, reaching out a
shaking hand to touch him again. He turned, head jerking about with unnerving
speed.
"Mom?" he said, staring at Sarah as though he
didn't quite know who she was.
"No.... No, it's me. It's Sarah......" She pulled
him in close to her, wrapping her arms about him. He was freezing cold, and he
still couldn't keep himself from shaking like a leaf as he sobbed into her
shoulder.
"You have to believe me Mom, I never meant to let him
hurt you! I couldn't move! I was scared. I was so scared........"
"It's...... Its okay. Everything's alright Michael.
Everything's going to be okay." Sarah didn't know what to say. Michael
thought she was his Mother. What had happened to her to make him this upset?
All Sarah could do was hold him, shushing him softly until the whole thing
rolled over. Michael fell against her, trapping her underneath him and weeping
into her neck.
"I'm so sorry Mom. Please! Please just tell me you
forgive me....."
"It's okay Michael......"
"Please........"
"I......" she paused, breath catching in her
throat. This was terrible! Sarah was going to pretend to be Michael's dead
Mother to try and comfort him. It was wrong! It was disrespectful! It was......
"I forgive you Michael...... I forgive you." She patted the back of
his head gently, holding him to her chest until he went silent again. She
looked warily down at him, as though she were afraid he would start again if
she made a wrong move.
She couldn't believe it! He'd fallen asleep, nuzzling into
her chest-fur and snoring loudly. She didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
She did both.
Michael woke to find himself alone in Sarah's bed. There was
still a warm spot in the sheets where she must have been laying earlier. It
smelled like her, a mixture of cinnamon and citrus fruit that Michael couldn't
get enough of. He lay there for a while, letting the light and the cool
Summer's breeze from the open balcony doors bathe over him.
Wait a second. Michael didn't remember a balcony, nor did he
remember the doors being open when they'd fallen asleep last night. In fact, he
didn't remember much about last night at all. He looked up, finding Sarah
leaning over the railing and gazing out at the sunrise.
"Morning!" he said brightly, walking over to wrap
a quilt around her shoulders. "You looked cold," he explained as she
gave him an odd look. They stood there for a few minutes, Michael's expression
becoming more and more troubled as he saw how anxious she looked. "Are you
okay?" he asked after a while.
"Yeah...." she replied distantly. She shook
herself, clearing whatever thoughts that had been occupying her attention out
of her head. "I'm fine," she said, giving him a reassuring smile,
"How are you?" She frowned again, pulling the quilt tighter about her
while her ears flattened back against her skull.
"Actually, I feel great!" he said, which made her
frown deepen for some reason. "Did I....... Did something happen last
night?" he asked finally, afraid the blank spots in his memory held some
dark secret.
"No... Nothing," she said quickly, which only made
Michael's suspicions of foul play even greater.
"You're sure? 'Cause if I did anything that I shouldn't
ha-"
"You behaved very gentleman-like," she said,
cutting him off. She wouldn't be able to stand it if he thought he'd done
something wrong. She had to change the subject. "That reminds me... Last
night you said you didn't know how you felt about me..."
"Yeah, I remember saying something along those
lines......."
"So?....." she asked, bumping shoulders with him
playfully.
"So what?" He bumped her back.
"So.... How do you feel about me?" This time she
gave him a shove, pushing him back into her room so he fell to his rump on the
floor.
"I'd tell you if you'd stop beating me up!" he
stuck out his tongue at her.
"Oh please! I'm beginning to think you like
it...."
"Only when it's you doing the punching," he
retorted.
"You're avoiding the question."
"What question?"
"You know very well what damn question!" she said
in mock exasperation.
He was smiling from ear to ear, but his eyes told her how
serious he was when he said, "I love you. To the ends of the Earth, I love
you. Even if I had to walk through hell and back, I love you!" He grabbed
her around the waist, swinging her, laughing and screaming, in a circle around
himself.
"You still feel drunk?" she giggled as he set her
back on her feet.
"I always feel kinda' drunk when I'm around you,"
he teased.
"You know what I mean. Does it still feel like you've
got alcohol in your system?"
He thought for a second, "Nope, I feel pretty
sober."
"So do I. So I can honestly say that I am extremely
horny right now." She pushed him back onto the ground, going to her knees
over him and pulling him into a passionate kiss.
"Same here," he gasped when they separated,
"but......." he swallowed the jittery lump that had formed in his
throat, "You're sure you're ready? It doesn't feel forced or rushed
or......"
She silenced him with a finger to his lips, "It feels
perfect, and it'd feel even better if you'd stop second-guessing yourself and
just do what feels right!"
That was it. There was nothing else Michael could say, no
argument that he could possibly give that could ever stop the beautiful train
wreck that was about to occur. Off came the bra, her wonderful breasts spilling
out for all the world, er.... all the world that happened to be in Sarah's room
at that time, to see. Her panties quickly followed, experiencing a brief
occupation change into a sling-shot as they joined the rest of her clothes.
Was there a word better than perfect? Sarah was...... impeccable?
No, that sounded too uptight. Glowing? No, that made her sound pregnant or
something. Stunning! Sarah was stunning! Her breasts were firm and round, with
smallish pink nipples that stood to attention in the crisp morning air. Michael
felt his eyes wander South. She was great there, too, the soft pink of her
folds creating a beautiful contrast to the clean, bright white of her inner
thighs.
She wasn't kidding when she had said she was horny, she was
already hot and practically dripping, creating a small wet stain on the leg of
Michael's boxer-shorts. She began to tug at the hem of Michael's shirt,
stopping upon his request.
"Please.... just not now, maybe tomorrow, but.... just
not today. You'd hate me."
"Now c'mon..." she said, giggling into his ear as
she gave him a loving peck on the cheek, "How could anything in there be
that bad? You know there's nothing about you that could ever make me hate you.
You're kind, and caring, and funny. You're the perfect man!"
'You have no idea how wrong you are....' Michael thought.
"Please.... not today. Later, but not today."
"Alright!" she conceded, "but this?" she
purred, clutching at the fabric covering his clearly aroused crotch, "This
has got to come off if we want to get anywhere." And so she said it, and
so it was. The briefs flew through the air, falling to join the small mountain
that had formed in one corner of the room. She rested his member in one of her
hands, examining it for a few moments.
"Not the most remarkable you've seen, huh?"
Michael said as she continued to stare.
"It's perfect," she assured, "In my
experience, all the huge guys have egos to match, not to mention their
self-image, which is somewhat akin to that of an overweight peanut."
"Wow... Now I'm glad I didn't buy those
pills......"
"You actually considered buying pills?" she
snickered.
"They were on sale at the mall...." he mumbled
lamely.
"Well don't worry, I'm sure you'll do just.....
fine!" she gasped, sinking herself onto him with the last word.
She was wonderful!Michael closed his eyes, taking a sharp
breath as she slid him home within her. Her tunnel felt like someone had liquefied
the world's hottest satin and poured it around him, but no.... that seemed
rude. It depersonalized what she was doing for him right now, the gift she was
giving him. It felt like her, that's all.
That's all Michael needed.
He gasped again as she began to thrust herself down on top
of him, changing her speed every now and again to give them both the maximum
amount of pleasure. Michael knew what she was doing, she was going to make sure
they both finished at the same time, but Michael wasn't going to have any of
it. She could probably orgasm five times before he was done, and he would make
sure she lived what they were doing to its fullest.
He grabbed her by the scruff of her neck, pulling her off of
him only to replace her position on top, thrusting into her hard and fast. As
he experimented with Sarah's different depths and regions, he found a specific
spot that made her moan and writhe underneath him. He smiled, 'gotcha!' He
picked up the pace, hitting that same spot over and over. She spasmed around
him, 'That's one...' She clutched at his shoulders, digging through the fabric
and skin hard enough to draw tiny pinpricks of blood.
"Oh God!" she stuttered, "I-I'm so
sorry!"
"It's fine...." Michael grunted into her ear, gasping
as she shuddered again, crying out in pleasure, 'That's two...' Sarah began to
hunch herself back against him, meeting each of his thrusts with her own.
Michael, to his dismay, realized all too suddenly that he wasn't going to last
for five, or even four. He hissed through his teeth, scrotum drawing tight
against his body as he came forcefully inside of her, which caused her tunnel
to clench itself around him one last time, milking him for every drop he had to
give, genetics providing nature's perfect condom.
He fell against her, sighing as they both came down from
their shared afterglow. He felt something warm and fuzzy worm itself around his
leg, laughed as he found Sarah's tail wrapped around his leg like a furry
boa-constrictor.
"That was....."
"Amazing?"
"I was going to say incredible, but that's fine
too."
"Do you always have to one-up me?" she asked,
shaking her head in defeat.
"Two..."
"What?'
"One-up implies that I got one up on you," he said
matter-of-factly, "I got two."
"Okay Mr. Mathlete... What's twelve more than
fifteen?"
"Twenty-seven. Why?" he queried, confused as to
why she'd asked such a simple question.
"You really don't remember much about last night, do
you?"
"Do vague blurs and your terrifyingly hulking Father
telling me he wanted to cut off my junk count?"
"Geez," she muttered, "You really were
plastered."
***
"Boom."
John smiled, watching on with an eerily child-like
fascination as the flames slowly consumed the old, decrepit shed that was
acting as their guinnea-pig, paint-chips and ashes floating away on the cool
Summer's breeze.
They'd come out into these God-forsaken woods test-run their
payback for Michael and his fox-bitch. Molotov cocktails were surprisingly
cheap and easy to make. All you needed was a bottle, preferably glass, of cheap
liquor, an old rag, and a lighter. The effect was impressive, a burning ball of
molten booze and red-hot glass shrapnel that extended eight feet in every direction.
Deadly, but, if all went as planned, they wouldn't need to be.
They didn't want to kill anybody, how would they scare the
damn kid away from the fox if they were both dead? No, if everything went off
without a hitch, they'd create a lot of damage and chaos, without having to
spend all those years in jail for murder. That's how he'd finally convinced the
other two to go along with it. He'd neglected to tell them that what they were
doing was technically felony arson, which would mean around fifteen to twenty
years if they were caught. What they didn't know wouldn't hurt them.
"Okay, put it out,' he told Twitch and Big as the
surrounding foliage began to catch fire as well. "We don't want anyone to
notice this fire." The two set to work, using a pair of fire-extinquishers
to methodically douse the inferno.
This would be easy.
This would be fun.
***
"You're sure you don't want to come in?" Sarah
asked, paddling her way over to the edge of the pool. Michael nodded his
confirmation.
"I'm fine," he assured her, taking another long
draught from his glass and wiping a hand across his forehead to try and dam the
river of sweat already forming there.
Michael was not fine.
This had been going on for over an hour. Sarah floating
lazy, rambling circles in the crystal clear water, stopping every now and then
to check on Michael and his increasing state of discomfort. It had to have been
over a hundred degrees, and the balmy wind that had been blowing this morning
had slowly died as the day went on, cranking the heat-index up to nearly
one-hundred and ten. Needless to say, Michael was slow-baking in his spiffy new
turtleneck.
"Your loss," she shrugged, back-stroking her way
out to the middle of the man-made swimming hole.
"You know I'd love too, but I didn't bring any
trunks!" he called out to her.
"Then jump in with what you have on!" she called
back, spitting a stream of water at him through her teeth.
"My shirt'll shrink!" he whined, reminding Sarah
vaguely of a dorky kid she knew in grade-school.
"So...?"
"So... You bought it for me, and I don't want to be
ungrateful."
"Then just take the damn thing off!" she shouted,
smacking the water in annoyance.
"You know I can't do that."
"No. You won't do that, there's a difference. What's
got you so worked up you won't even take off your shirt around me? If it's
because you think you're fat, I think you'd have sweat off all the extra weight
by now."
"It's... It's not that." he said, avoiding her
gaze.
"Then what? Do you have, like, a third arm or
something? Ooh! No wait, I know!" she exclaimed raising a finger to the
sky in triumph. "You're a robot, an alien-robot, and you won't take off
that shirt 'cause it'll expose all your circuits and gears to the UV radiation
from the sun, frying you like an alien-robot sausage!" she gave her best dramatic
fake-death, gasping and clutching at her throat, sinking below the surface so
that only one twitching hand was left above the water.
"Ha-ha! very funny..." Michael said sarcastically
when she had re-surfaced.
"Okay, Mr. smarty-robot. What then?" She climbed
out of the pool, shaking the excess water from herself before placing her hands
on her hips, waiting expectantly. "You don't have to hide yourself from me, you
know?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"Oh, c'mon!" she whined, pouncing on him and
tugging persistently at the turtle-neck, "You won't fry that fast, will
you? All I want is one little peek!" She continued to tug and pull at the
hem, despite Michael's increasingly desperate pleas for her to quit. After
being repeatedly yanked in two directions by the tug-o'-war between Sarah and
Michael, the fabric had had enough, giving way with a loud ripping noise.
"Oh God, no," Michael muttered, slamming himself
back in the lounge chair to prevent her from seeing anything. The shirt was
torn clean in two, hanging in tattered strips from his torso.
"I don't see anything..." Sarah said, confused and
annoyed.
"See, I told you it was nothing!" Michael said,
giving her a push to remove her from his lap.
"You're hiding something!" she accused.
"No I'm not!" He shouted, pulling the shirt about
him to prevent her from glimpsing anything he didn't want her to see.
It was too late.
Time seemed to slow down as Michael watched on in horror.
Sarah grabbed him by one arm, tugging hard so that he flipped out of the chair,
catching himself instinctually. The sweater snagged on the arm of the lounger,
ripping the rest of the way off of him and exposing his raw back and shoulders
to her. She gasped.
"What... What-"
Michael jumped to his feet, rounding on Sarah, eyes blazing
in the midday sun. He grabbed her by the throat, clutching so tight that she
began to choke a little, gagging slightly as the walls of her wind-pipe
touched. He brought her in close to his face, glaring deeply into her eyes. She
gasped again. There was something there, something that hadn't been there before,
had never been there before; a fiery glint in his eyes she'd never seen, never
dreamed she could see in Michael. It was animal. It was primal. It was almost
murderous. He picked her up, lifting her bodily off the ground with that single
hand before tossing her backwards. She hit the water with a splash, sinking
below and sitting there for a while, absorbing the shock of what had just taken
place.
"I didn't-I didn't know," she spluttered when she
had come back up, mortified and more than a little frightened. "I'm so sorry,
Michael! If you had just told me why, I never would have done something like
that!" tears began to streak their way down her already soaked face. "I... I
didn't know!"
"Yeah? Yeah? Well now you do! Huh?" He
kicked aside a table, causing the glass top to fall to the concrete, shattering
in a shower of glass shards. He turned the backs of his arms to her, scratching
them deeply with his fingernails until they bled, thick streams of the viscous
liquid pouring down them, glistening in the sunlight as it dripped to the
ground below. "Now you know everything, right?" He thought for a
second, sneering as an idea formed itself like a black, poisonous cloud in his
head, "No wait! You don't know anything, do you? You don't know a damned
thing!" He laughed - a terrible, horrible, manic laugh. "Well then, I'll
tell you! I'll tell you everything! Everything you ever wanted to know about
me! Since you seem to be so damn curious!
"My father was a hate criminal and a thug! He was a loser
and a drunk who couldn't even hold a minimum-wage job, and he spent every penny
he did earn on more booze to drown himself in! When he wasn't hanging out with
his skinhead buddies at the local dive bar and commiserating about anything
with a tail, his favorite pastime was beating my mother and I black and blue,
and blaming it on us!
"But you wouldn't know anything about that, would you? You
never had to stand up to a raging drunk, four times your size, to keep him from
breaking a bottle over your mother's head and giving her another concussion! You
never had to learn when to go limp, so he didn't hit you so hard you couldn't
make it to school the next day! You never had to hear your mother lie
to you afterwards! Tell you it was alright when she knew it wasn't! Tell you it
would be different when she knew it never would! Tell you that it was
over when she knew damn well that tomorrow you would both wake up in the same
damn hell
that you had to call a childhood and relive it all over again! Day! After!
Fucking! Day! You spent your whole life in this sheltered little upper class
villa; with your loving parents, and your big pink bedroom, and your pandering
servants, and your butler, and your... your fucking pool!"
He told her everything. His Dad, his Mom, him, the burner,
the gun, everything. He cried, he screamed, he sounded crazy, and he knew it,
and he didn't care. He felt crazy. He was crazy. He'd been crazy ever since that one moment; that one, single, damn night! So he
told her, laughing, screaming, crying, and then he was done. It was gone, as if
it had never happened, but then he looked up, and he saw Sarah crying too, and
he realized that it wasn't gone. It had moved, but it wasn't gone. It was in
her now. Now she had his pain, his confusion, his anger. She hadn't asked for,
she didn't deserve it, but he'd given it to her, tossed it off to try and alleviate
some of his own frustration, used her as an emotional punching bag to help rid
himself of some of his own hurt. He'd acted selfishly, inconsiderately, he'd
acted... just like his Father!
Michael screamed, pounding, punching himself in the head
until he saw red. He grabbed the remains of his shirt, wrapping them around his
arms to try and stem the flow of blood. He turned, running up the walkway and
into the house, not stopping until he was through the front doors and out onto
the street. He started to walk. He didn't know where to, he didn't really care.
All he wanted to do was get as far away from this place as possible, get as far
away from her face as he could. He had to hide himself, hide from himself, lose
himself for a while, if he didn't he'd kill himself. Even now he had to strain
to stop himself from throwing his body in the path of each and every car that
passed him on the street.
He never recalled exactly how he got to his
apartment, but suddenly he found himself on his floor, outside of the door that
led to the dive that was his home. His hand went to the doorknob. He turned it,
looking numbly around the empty room. All of his stuff was gone. He wasn't
surprised. They'd probably assumed he was dead, thrown away what they couldn't
pawn off for quick cash. His mattress was still there, and he threw himself
onto it, falling into a deep, restless sleep almost immediately.
"Get up, boy. It's showtime."
Sirens. Lights filtering through the dirty glass of the
windows. Red and white. The color of winter. The color of flame. The color of
blood on the snow. He knew those sirens. He knew those lights.
_An ancient memory. Cold
and heat in the night. Those same lights, reflected not through glass, but off
the black ice that covered the sidewalk. He was on his stomach. In bed. He was
awake now. Had he been sleeping? He was moving. The bed was moving. It wasn't
his bed. It wasn't as comfortable as his bed. Not that his bed had been very
comfortable to begin with. Men in uniforms were pushing his uncomfy not-bed.
One slipped on the ice, cursing. Another hushed him._
_They passed a form,
crumpled and sprawling in the lawn. Red on white. Deadly steel still smoked in
the snow. Still hot. Ice cold. A third man began covering the form in a sheet.
Michael wished he had a sheet. He was freezing. No. No, he was on fire! His
back! His arms! Burning!_ He _was
burning! He_ hurt_! Those same sirens
pierced the silence of the night. Someone was screaming._ He was screaming!
_Mother! Where was
mother? Mother wasn't there. Mother was in the house. The house. The house was
burning._ His house was burning! His mother _was burning! Eyes raised. Crying for
mother. Screaming for mother. Mother, help! Help mother! Hands raised.
Stretching for mother. Stretching for the house. The house was groaning. The
house was in pain. The house was dying. The house was falling! The house
screamed. He screamed. He was falling. He and the house hit the ground. He was
groaning. He was in pain. He was in_ so much _pain. He was dying. Eyes raised. The house was gone. Mother was gone.
He was gone. It was all gone._
Sirens.
Lights.
Red and white.
Eyes closed.
Back to himself. Back to his room. Still sirens. Still
lights. Now reflected through the windows. Not ice. Not cold. Back to his bed.
He was on his back. He was hot. His back was cold. His arms were cold. Sweat on
the bed. Soaking. He stumbled to his feet, glancing through the shades at the
street below. Sweat on the window. Trickling. Reflecting light. Light like
fire. Red and white. There was a truck. Red and white, like the lights on its
roof. Men hung off, like performers in some twisted circus act, wearing thick
yellow jackets and strange red helmets. Men in uniforms. Firemen. Fire truck.
Fire!
He looked further down the road, watching as smoke billowed
its way into the purple sky, silhouetted against the sunset horizon. That
couldn't be what he thought it was, where he thought it was coming from, but
somewhere deep in his heart, he knew it was. It had to be.
"...Sarah."
He ran. Out of the room. Out of the building. Sprinting down
the middle of the road. Hopping fences like hurdles in a race. Anything to help
him get there quicker. His lungs breathed fire. His veins pumped battery acid.
Every inch of his body screamed to slow down. Every neuron in his mind screamed
to go faster. Somewhere halfway through his marathon it crossed his mind that
that he was still completely naked from the waist up. He didn't really care.
There was only one thing to care about. He rounded a corner, skidding to a halt
as he finally caught sight of what he had been praying existed only in his
nightmares.
There was Sarah's home, curtains and smoke flowing out of
broken windows like the oozing wounds of some great beast. Sarah's home
groaned. Sarah's home was dying. Fire trucks and ambulances parked haphazardly
on the lawn and street. Sirens. Lights. Red and white. He walked amidst them,
watching on, as if in a dream. Employees of the house and emergency workers
brushed past him. Some cried into hands or handkerchiefs. Some shouted orders.
All were frustrated and confused. Someone slipped on wet grass, cursing.
Someone else hushed him.
Two men carrying a boy in a bed passed him by. The boy was
burnt. His back. His arms. The boy cried, reaching for Sarah's house. The boy
was screaming. Michael turned, taking a second look. He knew that boy. The
problem was, what was he doing here? The pieces slowly came together in his
head, and Michael snarled.
"You!" He grabbed Jonathan Greene, lifting his
torso off of the gurney to glare into his eyes. "What the hell did you
do?"
One of the EMTs hooked him around the waist, pulling him
away and holding him back. "We've got to get this kid to the hospital!
He's got third degree burns all over his back and arms."
"He'll survive long enough to answer my question, damn it!
Now get the hell off of me!" He gave the medic a hard elbow to the ribs,
returning to Jon's side and shaking him about like a ragdoll. "What
fucking happened?"
"I-I don't know-"
"Don't give me that! What did you fucking do?" he
slapped him across the face.
"W-we threw a Molotov through the window. It was just
one. That house is fricking huge! It shouldn't have gone up that fast! We never
meant to hurt anyone. We were just trying to scare you away! You gotta believe
me!"
Michael's eyes widened in horror, "Who's hurt?" he
asked, knowing who it was before the answer had even begun to form on John's
lips.
"I-I..." he looked away. He looked to the house.
"God damn it, John! Who did you hurt?" he shook
him again.
"The girl!" he blurted, "She was in her room
when the fire started. They tried to get to her. I tried to get to her,
but... but the flames were too hot! They'd already taken up the entire hallway
leading to her room. There was no way through! But I tried! You have to believe
me! I tried!" Tears began to run down his face, Michael realized
somewhere in the back of his head that they must be tears of remorse, but he
didn't care. The boy was crying. The boy reached for the house. The boy had
failed. He was no longer the boy. He was running for the front door before the
boy even began to fall.
He was almost there when somebody tackled him. They
struggled on the ground. Michael wrestled for freedom. His assailant to keep
him from it. He flipped himself over, prepared to do whatever it took to get
out from under whoever was holding him back, when he saw who it was.
"What the hell are you doing?" Wayne asked
fiercely, bringing an open palm across Michael's cheek in an effort to snap him
out of whatever kind of insanity had come over him.
"It's Sarah" Michael pleaded, pushing at Wayne's
chest to get him off, "She's still in there!" Wayne didn't move.
"You don't think I know that?" he screamed,
"You don't think I realize that she didn't make it out?" he shook
Michael till his teeth rattled in his skull. "God knows I know she didn't
get out! We all know she didn't get out, but none of us are trying to kill
ourselves over it!"
"Please?" he begged. "Please! She's all I've
got! If I don't at least try...?" Tears began to stream down his face. Tears
of sorrow.Tears of rage.Tears of helplessness.
"God fucking damn it, Michael! She's dead! She's
fucking dead...and it's your fault!"
"Don't you dare put this on me! It was that Greene kid
and his fucking racist buddies! You know that!" Michael punched him across
the jaw.
"You don't think I saw your little fight today?"
he punched Michael back. Michael tasted blood. "Sarah was in her room because
you!" He hit him again, "couldn't get over your fucking ghosts long
enough to realize that she fucking loved you!" He hit him a third time,
and the corners of Michael's vision began to grey out, "That she was
fucking crazy about you!" Another blow, Michael blacked out for a second,
but he was still able to hear every sorrowful, every rage filled, every
helpless word Wayne said. "She sat in her room for hours afterwards,
bawling her eyes out... because she loved you." Michael felt droplet of
liquid falling onto his face, and as his vision returned, he saw that Wayne was
crying. So was he.
"Hit me again," he slurred, wincing in pain as
something within him shifted. He must have broken something. He could worry
about it later.
"What?" Wayne asked.
"Hit me again. Because if I don't go in there? If I
don't do everything I can to save her? Then I've got nothing left to live for."
"...You told me your Dad said the same thing. Why
didn't you listen to him then? Then Sarah wouldn't be in that damn
building."
"Then let me do it," Michael whispered, "Let
me go in there! If it works? You get Sarah back, and you never have to see me
again. I'll leave! I'll go off into some dark corner and die. If it doesn't
work...? You still don't ever have to see me again."
Wayne's eyes buzzed with thought, glaring down at Michael.
Finally, he let him up... and punched him again, knocking him flat on his back.
"Come back with Sarah, or don't come back at all."
Michael stood, spitting a pinkish mixture of saliva and
blood into the dirt, "That's the plan."
Michael's journey through the Coulding Manor was a much less
pleasant one than he'd had last time. Last time there hadn't been flaming
debris falling from the ceiling, or weak floors that gave way as you tried to
cross them. It seemed as though every room in the house had caught on fire.
They probably had; Michael had noticed that the manor was older, and had gas
heaters that were all most likely connected to a central tank. That Molotov had
probably hit the starter flame that remained on throughout the year, and the
fire had spread through the entire mansion through the gas lines. Michael could
only hope that Sarah's room hadn't burned up worse than any of the others he'd
seen. The problem with that hope was that each room he passed seemed to be
burning worse than the last.
He turned the corner onto the hall that lead Sarah's room,
and was brought up short by a wall of smoke and fire so thick it might has well
have been a solid mass. The entire hallway had been engulfed by the blaze,
disappearing behind a curtain of flickering flame. Fear struck him like a blow
to the chest, drawing out what little breath he could snatch through the thick
smog of smoke and ash that filled the air in a sharp gasp. He couldn't move. He
couldn't breathe. All that he could think of was his dream.
The burning hallway.
The voice.
A scream ripped its way through the inferno; a sound of
pure, unadulterated horror. He knew that voice. He'd heard that very scream
night after night. It had haunted his nightmares for longer than he could
remember. His mind reeled - his world unraveled at the seams to crash about
him, like so many broken shards of mirror; each reflecting a different facet of
his own horrified visage. And as he screamed in terror, each one screamed back
at him, and each one was screaming the exact same thing. It hadn't been his
Mother in the dream...
It had been Sarah.
"Oh God, no."
Another cry tore through the hallway, more desperate, more
fearful.
"Please God, no!"
"Oh-ho God... Yes!" a voice sneered from behind
him. Michael turned, staring into the mirror that hung on the wall, but the
face that gazed back at him was not his own.
It was his Father's.
"You," he whispered, clutching at his thundering heart as he
gazed upon the very face of his every nightmare. The monster that he had been
forced to call 'father' as a boy, now sneering at him from the silvered panel
that hung, ghostly on a wall that should not have been able to hold its weight.
"No. You're dead. Y-you died! You shot yourself in the head with a .45! You're...
you're dead! This isn't possible!"
" 'Possible' goes out the window when your nightmares come to
life," the hellish face in the mirror smirked, spurts of flame flicking out
between his teeth with each word; his eyes alight with the reflected blaze as
smoke rose lazily from his smoldering clothes. "Don't question what you see.
You'll only be wasting both our times. Come to grips with what you're looking
at, or you and your vixen bitch are both going to die in this hellhole!"
"Fine!" Michael spat in hate. "Fine, you're there. I'm
not crazy and you're really there. Or I am crazy and it doesn't matter anyway. What
do you want from me? You took my childhood, my home, my mother. What more could
you possibly do to me?"
"Anything," he laughed, "Everything!"
His voice softened, "but I don't have to."
"What are you talking about?"
"The fox," he replied. "She's not dead yet,
but she will be soon. That is, unless you can do something for me in return."
"Why do I feel like I'm making a deal with the
Devil?"
"Actually, it's the exact opposite." he said.
"What?"
"I'm here to make a bargain alright, but the guy
calling the shots isn't of the cloven hooves and pitchfork variety. There's
more going on here than you know. I can't go in to all the details right now.
There isn't enough time."
"What's the deal, then?" Michael shouted, fighting
to be heard as the wind from the roaring inferno blew his hair in every
direction. He was running short on time already. He didn't know how he knew,
but he did. The flames got higher and hotter with every passing second, and as
they did they spread. In little under an hour, the building would collapse in
upon itself as the fire ate through the supports that kept it standing, burying
anything left inside it in a combination tomb-and-funeral-pyre. That hardly
mattered, though, because the flames would most likely burn through all the
breathable air in the vast mansion in around half that time. Even now, Michael
could feel his head swim with the effort it took to draw a single breath of air
into lungs that were already beginning to sear from the heat.
"The deal's you," his father stated simply,
"Your life for hers."
"Is that all?" Michael asked, forcing a laugh that he
regretted immediately; coughing and hacking as he sucked hot soot.
"Yes." The face in the mirror replied, charred lips pressing
into a grim white line.
"You're... You're serious, aren't you?" he asked.
"Yes." it repeated.
"So... So, then I'd actually...?" he let the question hang, too
afraid to finish.
"Die?" the bodiless reflection of his father finished for
him."Yes. You would die, and she would live. You don't have to do it. No one is
forcing you. If you choose not to, though, she dies in your place."
"What the hell kind of choice is that?"
"It's the most cut-and-dry decision you will ever make. Save
your girl or save yourself. That's all there is to it. It's your choice."
A dilemma, then. He wished it wasn't. To a better man it
wouldn't have been a difficult choice at all to make. Michael wished he was a
better man. If he were, he would have done the right thing without any
reservation. But the truth was, Michael did have reservations. Many
reservations. He loved Sarah. He knew that much. But he was afraid to die. He
knew that as well. Would it hurt to die? Would he die quick and simply, or
would he have time enough to regret his decision before the end? It was all
very poetic and chivalrous to speak of dying for the one you love, but could he
really do it? More importantly, could he live with himself if he didn't?
That was the answer then. The thought of death was
frightening, true enough. The thought of life without the one he loved, though?
The thought of living with his choice for the rest of his days - of living
because he had chosen to live, while she had never been allowed the same
choice- of living at her cost? That was not just
frightening; it was horrifying. It was unthinkable. He couldn't even imagine
it.
So he didn't.
"What do I have to do?" he asked when he'd made up his
mind. A wooden beam in a room off to his right cracked loudly; splinters
exploding outwards as it split in two, dragging half of the room's ceiling with
it. A loud groan filled the air as the house shifted and shook. He was almost
out of time.
"Walk. All you have to do is turn around and walk down
that hallway."
He looked back, "That hallway is on fire!"
"Did I say it would be easy?"
"Easy!" he shouted, "Easy? This is
impossible! How can I play the hero and sacrifice myself for her if I burn up
before I even get to her?"
"You don't have to do it. Nobody's forcing you to. You
can just turn back and leave. I wouldn't blame you."
Michael swallowed, amazed that he still had the spit left in
him to do so. "No. With her or not at all! That's what I said! That's how it's
gonna be!" He took a deep breath.
"Deal."
His Father smiled, not a sneer, not a snarl, but a pure,
genuine smile, "'Atta boy! I may not have done much, but I didn't raise
you to be a coward."
"You didn't raise me at all," Michael said coldly,
"I picked it up myself."
He sighed, "You're right, but... and I know it sounds
crazy. This whole thing is crazy." His smile broadened, "Just know
that I'm proud of you boy. I don't know if you care. Hell, I wouldn't give a
damn if I was you, but it's the truth. I've been so proud of you... all your
life! Since the first moment I held you in my arms in that hospital, with your
Mother watching on. You were a fighter then, and you're a fighter now.
"She's proud too," he continued, laughing again,
but it was different this time, warmer, "and she wishes so bad that she
could be with you right now-"
"-I know she does," Michael interrupted, "You
stole her from me."
"I know," he said, eyes downcast. "I did wrong
by you, son. I did a lot of things wrong. My whole life it seems was just one
big series of wrong turns and mistake. I know that doesn't make anything I did
to you and your mother... or anybody else, right, but we can argue about that
later. Right now we've got a job to do. We all do. Now go get'em, Mikey! We'll
be waiting for you on the other side."
His image faded from the mirror, and Michael couldn't help
but feel alone.
He heard a third scream, louder still.
He took a deep breath, holding it for a few seconds, before
releasing it with a soft sigh. He turned.
He stepped forward.
'This is my fire,' he thought, 'This is my forging,' The
flames leapt, broiled, bounded, eager to receive him, to embrace him as an old
friend, as an ensnared enemy.
'This is where I'll walk,' They licked at his shoes, curling
laces, singing leather, melting soles.
'This is where I'll tread,' they whipped at his legs,
charring denim black.
'This is where I'll thrive,' they found his skin, wrapping
molten fingers around his ankle, flesh chapping, cracking, blistering.
'Through the fire and flames.Through the valley of the
shadow of death.Through hell or high water (Please God, high water). That's how
far I'll go. That's how long I'll fight. Set the marker high. Set the target as
far as you like. Give me an impossible goal. I'll prove you all wrong. I've got
a reason to live, at least for a little while longer.'
The fire raged, swirling around him in a blazing cyclone of
searing air and flickering flame. Michael balked, crying out in pain and
frustration, falling to his knees, covering his eyes and gritting his teeth to
protect them from the blaze. He couldn't go on. It was too hot. It was too
hard.
'Are you gonna give up now?' his father's voice asked
fiercely from within his head, 'After all that hype, all that jazz? You're just
gonna give it all up because things got a little too hot? I thought you were
stronger than that! I thought you were a fighter! You're just gonna quit when
the job's only half done?'
"No!" Michael screamed
'Then get up. You're almost there. She's right around the
next corner. All you have to do is get up!' a blast of air lifted him to his
feet, tousling his hair and causing him to stumble forward a few steps. His
eyes flew open, smoldering with a fire of their own, and a wall somewhere
within him shattered, flooding him with a new strength.
'One more step.'
One more step became his mantra. One more step became his
life. He had to keep telling himself that'd soon he'd be out, soon he'd be
done, soon he'd be free.
Free from pain.
Free from anger.
Free from hate.
One way or another, it would all be over soon, but for now?
For now he had to stop being such a selfish little bitch and think of someone
else for once in his life! He could feel pain later. He could be angry later. He
could hate himself and everything that revolved around him for the rest of
eternity. Right now he was running on borrowed time. Right now he had a girl to
save. He wasn't living for himself anymore.
He was living for one more step.
He was living for one more chance.
So he walked. He had walked nearly five extra feet before he
realized that he was out. The only thing that had snapped him out of it was
Sarah's voice screaming his name. He looked to his left, watching her wave and
shout at him through the window of flame that covered her entire doorway. He
couldn't tell what she was saying. He couldn't really tell much of anything
right now. He just turned.... and walked straight through. He'd already crossed
an entire hall filled with the stuff, what was one more step? He passed
through, and the flames stopped, dispersing as if blown apart by a strong wind.
"Michael!' Sarah shouted, pulling him to her and
holding him tight.
Michael shushed her softly, "It's okay Sarah.
Everything's going to be alright. You're safe now. You're safe."
"Oh God, Michael! I was so scared!" She buried her
head in his shoulder, her own heaving as her body was wracked in a sobbing fit,
"I was asleep, and then everybody was yelling and-and running. I tried to
get out, b-but the flames had b-blocked the d-d-door!"
"It's alright Sarah. It's all over." He pulled her
away from him, looking her deep in the eyes, "Now I need you to listen
carefully to what I'm about to say to you."
"What are you talking about?" she asked,ice-purple
eyes widening in panic and horror, "What's wrong?"
"Nothing!" He reassured her, "I-I just... I
need you to go first."
"What do you mean? Wh-Why can't we go out together?
You're coming with me, aren't you?" The fear in her voice grew.
"Of course!" he lied, hoping she couldn't see
through it, "I'll be right behind you, but I want you to go ahead of me...
To make sure you're alright."
"N-No..." she stuttered, "We're leaving here
together, side-by-side, or I won't go!" She clung to him like a stubborn
child, squeezing him tight to get her point across.
"Alright, alright!" he smiled,squeezing her back,
"Side-by-side...."
They weren't going to leave side-by-side. Michael would make
sure of it....
Something crackled above the door, like dry firewood.
"We don't have much time," Michael told her
sternly.
"No. No, we've got plenty of time!" she said
desperately, knowing deep inside that she was wrong. It didn't stop her from
saying it. She had to. She needed to, "We've got all the time in the
world! We're going leave here, a-and we're going to have a house... and a
family! I know we can't have kids, not real ones anyway, b-but we'll adopt!
I've always thought little bunnies were so cute! And they breed like, well,
rabbits. So there's plenty of them in the orphanages, just waiting for a good
home like ours!
"We-We'll move out to the ocean! California! Or
Florida! I've always loved the ocean, and I think you will, too. Buy a little
beach house, and you can get a job fishing out on the sea. I'll sit by the big
bay windows every night that you're gone. Just staring out at the waves, and
knitting o-or reading while the baby sleeps, and then I'll see your ship coming
into the harbor. a-and we'll both be waiting for you when you come home... all
salty and grizzled. We'll have a big party to celebrate!" She laughed,
tears streaming down her face as she did so.
"We'll watch our baby grow, an-and go off to school,
and then college! The best, cause he'll be s-so smart! He'll go to Harvard, or
Princeton, or Annapolis. He'll be a lawyer, o-or a doctor, or a b-big, brave
Admiral in the Navy. We'll b-both be s-s-so proud of him! We'll watch him find
somebody, and start his own family, and give us the most beautiful
grandchildren. And we'll grow old together!
"And then one night, when we've both lived long, happy
lives?" She kissed him, hard, fiercely, desperately. "We'll pass on
together, warm and safe... an-and happy! In our wonderful bed - in our
wonderful home , surrounded by pictures of our wonderful family! Not here.
Not now. Not like this!" She looked him in the eyes, smiling at him and
wiping away the tears that had gathered there.
"Sarah..." he said sadly, hugging Sarah tight and
kissing her for, what they both realized, would be the last time, "I hope
you're right. I hope to God you're right. I hope you live a great life.The best
life. With someone who loves you. Someone who adores you as much as I do. More
than I do, but not me..."
"Why not you, Michael? Why can't we do that?"
He wanted so badly to cry. To fall to his knees at her feet
bawl his eyes out like a baby, but he couldn't. He had to stay strong. For Sarah's
sake, "I am so sorry. If I could change it, I would. All of it, but..."
"Michael!" she said fearfully, "Michael, no!
Oh God, no! I won't let you do this! Whatever it is, I won't let
you!"
"I know," he whispered to her tenderly, holding her close to
him, pressing himself against her to try and make up for a lifetime of intimacy
and comfort that he knew now he would never be there to give. "You don't have
to, because I do it freely. I do it without asking. I do it for you."
The door crackled again, louder this time. Without a second
thought, he lifted her up and heaved her through the doorway just as it
collapsed. There was a tiny crack left exposed. He could see Sarah's face through
it.
"Sarah?" He called through, "Sarah, you've
got to go! The way's clear now. Just go where there aren't flames."
"Michael!" She called back, "Michael... I-I
love you!"
"Sarah, I...". Crap. He'd known. He'd known for a while
now, and he'd known that he loved her the same way, but he couldn't say it. He
couldn't let her love a dead man. Wouldn't let her."You have to go now!"
"I'll send somebody back for you! I won't just leave
you here!"
"Get out of here now, damn it!" He screamed. He
hadn't meant to sound angry or frightened, but he guessed some of it had
slipped out, because she was gone in a flash.
The room became quiet, all but the cracking of the fire as
it slowly spread across the floor. It was odd, but Michael felt a strange sense
of calm as he watched the flames creeping slowly towards where he stood. He
felt as though he'd just received some great prize, like he'd just won a gold
medal in the Olympics. He smiled. He felt... fulfilled.
Maybe it was his imagination, or maybe his body was hallucinating
from the lack of oxygen to his brain, but he could have sworn, in that moment,
that his parents appeared in that doorway, as though they'd walked straight out
of the fire. They were smiling, and holding hands. They looked younger than
he'd imagined they would, like they hadn't aged a day since that night back at
his old house. They were transparent, see-through, part smoke and part spirit,
but still substantial enough to walk across the floor without falling through.
"Mom?" He asked them, 'Dad?"
"We're so proud of you," She said, voice echoing
across the silence.
"It's been so long... I've got so much to say."
"Well then, looks like you're in luck!" His Father
chuckled, sounding a lot like Michael, "You two have got all the time in
the world to catch up."
"What about you?" He asked, "You aren't
coming with us?"
"Maybe someday," He said, reaching out a hand and
patting him on the shoulder, "But I've got to go somewhere to go first.
I've still got time to serve..."
"But.... But you're not bad!... Not really. Maybe-maybe
me and Mom can say something...."
He laughed again, "I appreciate the sentiment son, but
I made my mistake. I knew what I was doing, and I did it anyway. A man's got to
take up for what he's done in life. It's something I should have taught you
myself."
"So what happens now?" He said softly.
"Now?" A sad look crossed his Father's face,
"You're not dead yet, son. We can worry about what's next when we get over
that hurdle. Together."
He took a hold of one of Michael's shoulders, and suddenly
it began to get very hard to breathe. His lungs searching for air that wasn't
there to give, consumed as the fire continued to crawl like a hellish crab
across the room.
"Mom?Dad?" His vision began to fade, going red,
then grey, and then black, but still he remained conscious to everything going
on around him. "I'm scared. What if it hurts?"
He felt two sets of arms wrap him up in a tight embrace,
"We'll be right here," his Mother's voice whispered into his ear.
"The smoke'll get to you before the flames ever do, if
that's any comfort to you," came his Father's voice. It wasn't, but at
least he was trying.
His hearing started to fade as well, their voices sounding
as though they were coming through a filter.
"It's almost over Michael. Just a little bit more...."
"But it hurts!"
"It's just like getting a shot back when you were a
kid? Remember that? You'd cry and cry, and then we'd go get some ice-cream...
and you'd be all smiles again, like nothing ever happened."
"Is there ice-cream where we're going?"
"It's heaven. There's whole oceans full... If that's
what you want."
"No. No. What I want? What I want... is to know that
Sarah'll be happy, that she'll have everything she wanted, all the things we
talked about, but mostly... That she'll find somebody else. Somebody who'll
treat as good as she deserves, and give her everything she ever wanted.
Everything she needs..."
"We can't say. That's her choice... but I'm sure she
will. You asked her to, after all.... and she'd never go against what you said.
She's crazy about you."
One last thought crossed his mind, and he laughed, "She
was wrong. She said I saved her life, but she saved mine, and more. She saved
my soul."
A white pinprick appeared in the center of his eyesight,
widening slowly, as though Michael were coming to the end of a long tunnel. He
smelled something, not burning. It smelled good, like cinnamon and citrus
fruit. Michael couldn't get enough of it.
So he didn't.
Epilogue
"Why am I still not used to this?" Michael asked,
wincing in pain as his head connected with a tree-branch that hurt a surprising
amount, considering he was dead. He grabbed ahold of the limb, clinging to it
to keep himself from floating off like a ghostly balloon.
"It takes some time," his Mother chuckled, taking
a seat on the branch before pulling him up to join her, "You'll get used
to it eventually."
"I wish I were used to it now..." he muttered in
annoyance.
"Patience is a very good virtue to have when you've got
the rest of eternity ahead of you to practice it," She said sagely.
"Speaking of eternity... How long has it been since...
you know?" he coughed
"Honey, Hours and days were invented to monitor the
passing of that little imaginary loop that mortals call time. It doesn't really
apply here, but... around three or four years?"
"Years?" Michael asked in disbelief. 'It hasn't
even felt like three or four days!"
"Like I said, time doesn't really apply here... At
least not their sense of it."
They stared out over the park. It was a beautiful place, and
any other would have been completely filled with people on a bright, sunny day
like this, but right now the only occupants were a man, a fox, a bunny, and row
upon row of polished white stones.
"Who's the dude?" Michael questioned.
"You won't believe this," she warned him.
"No..." he said, looking closer. He wasn't angry,
just amused and slightly amazed at what he saw before him, "That can't be-"
"-John Greene," She confirmed with a nod.
"What happened to him?" He asked as he noticed
that John was wearing a long-sleeve shirt, not unlike the kind Michael used to
own.
"He got burned in the fire," She explained,
"Scarred up his back and arms. Ironic, huh?"
"Yeah, but how'd he end up with Sarah?"
"She went to visit him in the hospital, upon her
Mother's request. She said it's what you'd have wanted."
Michael shook his head in bemusement, "Sarah wasn't
kidding when she told me that woman could read minds... So what happened?"
"He saw her eyes," She said with a smile,
"They had him so drugged up on painkillers that he didn't even notice when
he told her that they were the most beautiful he'd ever seen."
Michael chuckled, "What did she do?"
"Hit him," He winced, knowing how badly Sarah's
punches could hurt when she wanted them to, "Knocked him out cold. Then
she walked up to the front desk and paid for his treatments... in full."
"How many times has she done this before?"
"Just once. With you, actually, but when you find
something that works..." She shrugged.
His gaze shifted to the little rabbit-boy between them,
"What about the kid?"
"Theirs.Adopted."
"Well durr!" He said, "I meant... How old is
he? What's his name? Stuff like that, you know?"
"He's seven."
Michael floated closer, "Rough age? He doesn't look too
happy."
"No. He just doesn't understand why his Mom and Dad
have to drag him out to this old, creepy cemetery on the same day each year so
they can put flowers on an old grave and just stand around there for
hours."
Michael frowned, "Well that's considerate of
him..."
"He's seven, remember? Not a big sense of reverence...
or attention span at that age."
"Oh please!" He rolled his eyes, "When I was
his age-"
"-You couldn't even stand being around your Grandma
when she was alive," She reminded him.
Michael looked away, sulking, "What's his name?"
"Michael."
"Really?" he looked back, "They named him
after me?"
She nodded, "Michael Blaze Greene."
"Michael Blaze Greene?" He asked, "Oh c'mon!
That's sick!"
"I like it," She snickered, "At least it has
some meaning behind it. Names like that are hard to come by these days, even in
biological children. Right Jeremy?" She snickered again.
"Hey!" He exclaimed, "You chose my middle
name, not me!"
"Whatever," She laughed, "Now c'mon. We've
got to go."
"Aww!Really?"
"Yes! Now let's go!" She hopped off the tree.
Flew, actually, fading as she got higher, "Sheesh! You die once, and
suddenly you're five years old again..."
Michael smiled, taking one last look back at the three
before moving off to join her. He'd have liked to stay around, but the world of
the living was just like it sounded, for the living. Besides he had an ocean of
ice-cream to get back to. Cinnamon and citrus fruit, his favorite.
Hey, a guy could indulge himself every once in a while,
right?
End
Whew... Holy Hell! Two whole months! It's finally over! Do
not be surprised if you see a strange man dancing through your streets. It's
probably just me celebrating having finally finished this... this
whatever-it-is. And yes, I know. I was weak and said the words "He
came" once, but I was tired, and it was 4AM when I wrote that part.
Oh yeah! All characters in this story are copyright to me.
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Edit: August 31, 2008 - Tweaked some minor spelling and
grammar errors, reformatted the last half of the story, which was all in
italics for some odd reason.
Edit: 2015 - Tweaked all of the MANY
spelling and grammar errors (and ellipses), and fleshed out some of the thinner
areas of the plot.