Mended heart part-1
Well, first submission. I'm proud at how this turned out. Revised it nicly, I'll stamp out small things if I see them. But now with less grammatical errors. ^.^ I hope you enjoy this story. I'm quite pleased at how it turned out. Well legal thingies here. You must be 18 or older to read this story. It contains 'adult' situations and should not be viewed by minors. This story is by me, WolfofAzure, if you wish to use in other places, please ask first. Would be flattered if you did, but would prefer it be my name on it, instead of someone elses. * * *
It was just an ordinary day. It started like any other for me, except today I had enough. Rock was horrible, our mateship needed to end. What a perfect way to end it too... "Shut it bitch, you're nothing without me!" Rock shouted at me. Taking this abuse again like I have too many times in the past. I don't know what it was that sparked me to fight back. But that bastard had it coming no matter how you look at it. Enough was enough for me. "No Rock! You're nothing without ME! I've done nothing but help you in every way I can! Not once have you helped me in the same way! It's OVER!" I screamed this to him at the top of my lungs. Screaming at him with tears running down my cheeks. Because our mateship really was over, finally. At least on my side it was. He never really cared, or he did, but always had the worst ways of showing it. Especially on how he tried to keep me. It was... Pathetic and shameful for anyone to act like that. As he looked down at me with nothing but anger in his eyes, sadness in my own. I could see him raise his hand towards me. "Don't make me hit you woman! You aren't leaving!" I ran, ran as fast as I could. Before he could get that slap in. I made damn sure he saw my last gesture to him though. It was Just one finger, pointed up, and straight at him. Walking out and slamming the door to his apartment right behind me. I went rushing down to my car for a quick get away. Shaky with every action after that. Moving the key constantly, taking at least five tries before I could even get it in the keyhole of my car. Looking worriedly at the door that came out of the hotel he lived in. Praying he doesn't chase after me, if he did it wouldn't be pretty. I was still in my sunday best as it were, so I had no quick escape. "Stupid key..." I mocked it, when it wouldn't go in. It took far too long, I was crying the entire time I was trying to get in the door. Finally I got into the car. Then I had to put it in the ignition. My damn shaky hands wouldn't let it go in. Still looking at every surrounding I had. Expecting Rock to jetteson out of somewhere and jump me. "Yes." Was the chant I made when the engine started to my car. Being able to finally get out of that damn place, but not before checking the mirror above my head to see how bad I looked. "Damn..." Grabbing a tissue, I promptly wiped my eyes. As well as the tears still on my cheek. Driving away unhappy with what just happened that morning. What a godawful morning it was. But I felt a little proud, finally able to get the courage and leave him. I quickly got away. Moving the car out of the parking lot, looking for anyone I may know, could console in. But why look on the streets, there wouldn't be anyone there. But there was always one place I could find solace in, where I felt calm. Even thinking about it made me smile, I'll never know why either. A bookstore few knew about is where I headed. It was a small place, and had a nice old look to it. With two floors, many different sections, and probably THE best service as well. At least to me since I always went there to clear my mind, that or to browse for a new book to read, one of the few things that calms me. It did help since I was friends with the manager and clerk. I walked in. My cheeks were still dripping tears, and my clothes weren't taken care of because... Well didn't have or felt the need to change them. The dress I wore last night. A nice black one, that was wrinkled now, and just wasn't as good as it was when I put it on. I looked like shit in all honesty. But as I stated, I just wanted to clear my mind. "Hey Crystal!" Ah Marvin, the store clerk. Always there when I entered, same exact smile and wave towards me as I did. He was the one always working here, and even when I discovered this place. Not once have I seen him angry or hate filled. He always had that kindness around him. I giggled every time when I think he has a thing for me. I mean we've talked so much, we're like old friends. But today was different, he could tell as I walked towards the counter. His happy waving was exchanged for a face of worry. "Any new Books Marvin?" "Yes, there is one new romance novel. Saved it for you before placing it on the shelf." "Thanks Marv." Another sniffle. I knew I looked horrible but I graciously took the book he offered and went back into my usual spot. Opening it and quickly going through it. Just reading, and dreaming of the worlds it offered. How that... How if things can be imagined so pure, they must be like that somewhere. This was probably why Marvin was alwa--- I could over hear him with my thinking, him and his friend, Chester I think was his name. My ears twitched in the air a little as I heard them talking. "Come on Marv. She's perfect, you know it. Why don't you just do yourself a favor and step in." "I can't Ches... She's vulnerable right now. Problems with her mate." I couldn't help but look over and listen in. It was clear they were talking about me. Even in my sorry state. Flattering, but he was right. I think if he even came up to me I'd say yes to whatever it was he wanted to do. My tail swishing a little as they talked. I caught it with my hand before they could hear. Marv knew my habits when I was happy or calm. Of course I could just have blamed that on the book I was reading, but there would be no reason to. I kept listening, unable to draw my ears and eyes away from them. "So she has a mate. You know how he treats her. Come on, you'd be doing eachother a favor I'm sure." "Yes, so she does. But for whatever reason, she's happy with him. I want her to stay that way... No matter how hard it is for me." My eyes lit up a little. I always knew he had a thing for me. This even cheered me up as I heard thier little conversation. This even reminded me of the cheesier novels I've read recently. That just made me giggle a little more. So I sat back against the chair and opened the book back up. But closed it quickly, I felt I needed to groom a little, and I had stopped crying, so there was no harm in going back home. Taking the book under my hand and going back to the counter. I sniffed again for whatever reason. Yet... As I handed him the book and made our usual exchange when I bought things I blushed a little. Even gave him a shy smile. It was the rebound of what just happened. That's all it was to me. Vulpines should stay with vulpines, at least... That's the only reason I'm with Rock. Both of us being wolven. So I shouldn't be with a cheeta. At least that's what my mind was shouting at me. My ears even picked up the end of thier conversation as I left. "Come on Marv, look at that walk." "No... There's more to her than ju---" Made me smile even more. Sitting back in my car, finally able to return home. I opened the door, then walking in and going towards my shower. It then hit me... I gave Rock a key to my place a while ago. My eyes started to water as I became a little paniced. "Shit." Scurring around every inch of the home. Looking at every nook and cranny, every cabinet, drawer, and hiding spot there could be. Knowing that he could come in at any time, I couldn't stay long. I only had enough time to get a nice shower and new change of clothes. Then I also needed to pack up a weeks worth of clothing. It would definatly be a long day for me here. It was mid-afternoon too by the time I was ready to leave. I locked the door behind me, then went to my car and didn't look back. Looking for someplace in this city where I could stay for at least a week. Anywhere would do for me. I went to countless cheap hotels, but they would only offer a decent price for a single night, and extended times needed papers that I just didn't have time to go through. I was defeated that day. The entire day, it got to be nightfall when I decided I needed a drink. Yes, a drink would definatly calm my nerves at this point. It was all I could think of that would. I found a bar nearby, it was actually a nice place for something in a back alley. The furs there seemed nice enough. Looking around the area for familiar faces as I always do. Looking for friends, enemies, and just folks I've enjoyed talking to in the past. I sighed. "No one..." Taking a seat upon a bar stool. Sitting up with my tail swaying from side to side as usual. I think it was fourtunate I didn't notice anyone I knew, but one noticed me. Because not much longer than after I sat down, a kind gentleman bought me a drink. It wasn't that hard, but I needed it. The barkeep wouldn't tell me who it was though. So I sipped it and looked around. I had to know who it was who did this for me. My eyes dived into a corner of the room. It was clear who, he was looking deep into a book. A hat on to hide himself, and a ginger ale in his hand, no liquor. It was then I knew who it was, and I giggled to myself. But my heart also skipped a beat. A strange smile reaching across my face, looking into the drink he gave me. The empty glass that was left. Gazing into it and looking at my reflection from it. I looked back to the male who did this for me. Wondering wether to approach him or not. My own heart fluttering, I'm sure his was as well. I had to, I got up off my barstool and sat beside him. My hips and tail swaying in thier usual way as I looked at him with that awkward smile I had. Letting my hand reach up and gently pull back his hat. "Marvin?" I asked, even though I already knew it was him. Seeing that content yet shy face. He was even in a full blush the moment I pulled his hat back. "Y-y-yes?" Was he nervous? Yes this was the first we've seen eachother outside the bookstore. But that's no reason for him to be like this. Even thuogh he clearly knows who I am. Thuogh the strangest thing happened as I removed his hat. I got a true look at him. His hazel eyes how they shined. Even as they stared into the distance. It was that moment a thought popped into my head. It was strange, yet I liked it. A simple thought of him taking me, being there. Seeing him Lay me upon the bed and showing me a love that none have shown me before. I shook my head, knowing I probably couldn't get that, and he wouldn't give it. Even as I looked to him, and he looked to me bashfully. All I could do was turn around and look back at the bar, talking to him with a sigh. "Well... Thanks for the drink Marvin. I really needed it. But I really have to get going. I need to find a place for the night." There wasn't much left to do there. Even if was sitting by him. I grabbed my coat and headed towards the door. I probably should have said something to him about what happened before I got up. Maybe I should have kissed him and had seen where it went. But it was a little late, and I needed a place to sleep. I couldn't return to my home, I knew Rock could easily be there. But just before I left, I heard him call to me. "Crystal. Wait..." I smiled and glanced back to him. Walking back towards the cheeta. Heaven help me, I was hoping he'd give me what I needed tonight, so I wouldn't end up sleeping in my car bathing in my own tears. As I looked towards him, my breathing was nervous. Waiting for him to say something, anything. "Crystal. What happened this morning? I've seen you come in depressed, but that was the worst you've been in ages." That was what he stopped me for? It's nice for him to show concern, but can't he tell when a girl can't go home? No he wouldn't... But he should, at least I wish he did. Maybe I should tell him. No, I can't it's too... It was then I began to tear up. Having all these thoughts race through my head about so many different things. I sniffled a little, then I fell into him. Never knowing why, but I just needed to. His timid self barly got it to himself to let his arms fall down on me. I just looked up at him with pleading eyes. "Maybe I should take you back to your home..." "No! I mean... That would be nice but..." Tripping over my words great. He can't know that I can't return home because I'm afraid that my mate could be there, waiting for me. I can't go home because I could get killed if I do. WHY can't I tell HIM? It makes me so angry. I was always confiding in him. I hate it when my thoughts would race like this. But I kept my gaze upon him the entire time. "Crystal, tell me what happened at least. If you're uncomfortable telling me here I can take us back to my place." My window, that was it. My chance for everything I've wanted this night. Even with the one I want it from. All I could do was nod though. I didn't want to say anything, it'd come out jumbled, or something. Just as my thoughts were rushing through so many things. "Then come on. Lets go." He sat up, and like a true gentleman, helped me back to my car. Or it was his car, yeah it was his, I could barly see straight at that time. Maybe the liquor I had was getting to me. I wanted to get my things from my car, but I didn't want to seem like I was moving in with him, maybe I didn't remember I had things in my car. We went back to his home. Surprisingly it was the bookstore that he ran. Well not so much surprising, but I didn't expect it in all honesty. My tears were finally dying down by the time we were in the back parking lot. Marvin walked around and opened my door, helping me up and out, then into his place. He had a backroom that was perfect. A couch, entertainment center, bed, a small bathroom to the side, and a small kitchen. I went straight for the couch. Flopping down upon it, and I gave off a heavy sigh. Looking towards the cieling, which even had it's own shine for some reason. He chuckled and told me to scooch a little so he could sit down. I obliged, then let my feet go back where they were, at least ontop of his lap this time. He looked towards me, and I towards him. "Now please Crystal, tell me what happened. Was it another fight with your mate?" "It was... But this time it was more than a fight. I need some space from him. I don't really want to see him again. Ever." "Why wouldn't you? Aren't you happy with him?" Yes, I was, at one time, so long ago. For about the first month then he was showing his true colors. Like a dumb girl I stayed with him for a few years. Letting him mooch off me, thinking he would go back to the sweet gentle person that he was. And punishing me whenever I did something he didn't like, or taking my body without asking. Ugh, I don't want to look back on him. So I... I lied through my teeth towards Marvin. It was cruel yes, but I never wanted Marvy to know how Rock treated me ever since I began talking to him. Marvy.. I like that. "Yes, I am a little I suppose. But I still don't really want to see him, we've become distant." Oh Crystal, you know better than that. He's the one you can actually tell everything that happened. Marvy, this one who isn't trying to take advantage of you. Even though he knows how desperate you are. It's so simple, I can see it in his eyes. Just now I noticed, that was how Marvy always looked at me. I wondered if that's how I was looking towards him now. "Crystal, something is definatly bothering you." He said this, hoping for me to say more. Even though he probably knew I couldn't. Rock would deal worse than death if I did. "Please tell me, what was it that happened between you and Rock. I want things to go well between you two." Oh shit, he really does care. So much so that he truly is sacrificing himself. I wept inside a little, and leaned in closer to him. It was the first time I could ever feel him. It was, so very nice, to have him this close to me. As he kept his shy arms on my one shoulder instead of wrapping them around me, as I had mine on his. He couldn't get it in his head. I pulled his arm around for him with a small giggle. "Crystal, what about your mate. I... I don't want to get between you two." "What about him Marvy?!" I looked up into his eyes again. Seeing how they sparkle, how they shine, that glance was for me and only me, it was so clear. "Why would you want me to stay with him? Why don't you be a man and tell me what you really want." "Crystal, you're drunk. I want you to be happy, you're happy with Rock, there is nothing more to it." Okay, maybe I was a little drunk. But that buzz was wearing off, and it was replaced with a need that was hidden during that, one that I had to sedate. And there he was, sedating it, his words of worry did just that. But I still needed, and hungered for more. I leaned up to him. Placing a small kiss to his lips. "But I could be so much happier away from Rock. Don't you think Marvy?" "I-I-I... You could be but... What are you-" I cut him off there. Letting my hand wrap to the back of his head. My breathing clearly increased the closer I pulled our muzzles. With that I gave him another kiss. Letting our muzzles lock for just a single moment, just a little longer than the last. I leaned back, looking directly into Marvy's eyes again. Those calm, gentle, innocent eyes. Letting him stare back into mine. I think he was finally starting to get it. But he was still timid, too timid, thinking me and Rock were still together. I don't know wether to hate him, or admire him for that. "Marvy please... Tell me what you really want me to do." He was stunned. It was funny to see him like that. He must be going through everthing in his head. Even looking me over, seeing my body and curves. Undressing me with those eyes. Perhaps he wasn't as innocent as I thought, but he's never let that part shine through. He... He was actually just like those men in all the stories I've read so many times. I kept the same pleading look to him. He wouldn't budge. Even knowing exactly what he wanted, and even knowing what I needed. "Tell me Marvy. Tell me exactly what you want." "I-I want you to be happy Crystal. With whoever you choose... Even if... If the one you were with takes you for granted and doesn't deserve you." "Marvy, just tell me you want me! Tell me how much I mean to you. Then I'll tell you how much I ne--" I stopped myself at the last word. It wasn't something I wanted him to hear just yet. No matter how true it was. I needed him badly, he was making me feel better than I ever had. Like I was actually wanted for once. As if I meant something, there was only one way to be sure if he wanted me though. But I wanted that part more than anything else. "I want you with..." He mumbled the next part. I swore it sounded like 'with me' but I needed to hear it clearly. So I urged him on, in the only way I knew how. Giving him another kiss. Letting my paw slip to his chest as the other remained behind his head. "With... With me Crystal. But I couldn't, if you were happier with that other." Finally coming to his senses. I let him see the best smile I had given to anyone in a long while, a smile that has never been out in a long while. A true one, not some half-assed fake one I give to everyone else. Batting my eyes a little, looking to him. Telling him exactly what I wanted at this moment. "Don't tell me Marvy. Show me how much you want me with you. How much I'm wanted in your life." That was it, we both stopped playing coy at that moment. I could practically hear his heart jump a beat at my words. My own heart skipping a few beats as well. He embraced me with his lips to mine. There was no other way to describe it. My eyes rolled back, his hands and arms quickly wrapping about my body. This was it, that small vision I had coming true. Oh thank God that it is. I could tell by his touch how gentle he was, and its something that couldn't be faked. No matter how hard anyone tried. He was petting at my back as we kept in that embrace, something I wish for not to end. He was pulling me up, and I followed every step with him. He was stumbling, with a combination of pulling me and walking backwards who wouldn't. He was going to keep us within eachother's arms as long as he could. As we finally reached his bed, it was quick. He stopped kissing for but a second to throw my shirt over me. I turned the lights out, wishing him to see my body, but not my tattered body. He didn't seem to care at all. He just needed me close. Each of his hands perfect, like magic with thier movements. Going across me like I have never had in my life. Quickly working off the bra strap, leaving me half nude for him. I took his hands and placed them atop of myself. Letting him feel his effect on me, in more ways than one. Since I had him straddled I was sure he could feel me dripping upon his pants. I was panting, and getting exactly what I wanted as he delivered. Keeping one hand upon my breast as if it were an obsession. But I was more interested in the hand trailing down my back and to my skirt. Each moan he got from me escaped into his lips. I was rocking, rubbing up against his crotch, probably as bad as if I were in heat. The hand reached and pulled my skirt down, and then my undergarments. There I had him stradled me in full nude. Breathing heavily, unable to control myself anyfurther. But he knew everything he was doing. I figured he wanted me to feel as wonderful as possible, knowing that's how I made him feel every time I entered his store. It was so very nice to be the one getting all the attentions. Instead of just being that girl that was nice to have a dick shoved in. Marvy got up and moved me. He stood at the foot of the bed and started to strip. He dropped his pants as he kept me laying there, my legs spread out as I watched him. No he wasn't of perfect tone, but broad shoulders, swaying tail, nice flat stomach, and the throbbing member that fit him perfectly. He leaned back atop of me. Gods I couldn't stop panting, my hand grasped his member instinctivly, pulling him, drawing him closer. But he kept his distance for some reason. At that moment I knew why. He had to whisper one thing into my ear before he could take the plunge. Those words will always stick with me, it made that single moment far better than I ever could have imagined. "I love you, I want you more than anything in the world. Be with me and stay with me... Forever." Right after that, he moved gently into me. I was letting out the moan of my life and he muffled it with his lips. I couldn't help but let a few tears fall down my cheek as we connected. It was marvelous, more than words could describe my feelings for him. My own teeth clenching as he moved. Going in slow enough so I could feel each inch he had to offer. Until he finally hilted me. It was at that moment I had to break our kiss only to gasp for air. My juices heavily flowing out and onto him. It didn't take much longer at all. His tail was swishing back and forth in pure delight as he pleased me in more ways than I can describe. His pace was soon quickening and he was as ready as I was to finish. It was then it hit me. My first real orgasm, triggered more by emotions than stimulation. It was so wonderful, a torrent of my juices firing out of me. My legs were like they were on fire, those few moments felt like they lasted forever. At least I wish they would last that long. It wasn't too long after mine, that he soon followed. My eyes shot open as I felt each drop of his seed pour into me. My hands clinging heavily onto the sheets. Ruffling the sheets under me. It didn't push me over again, but got me really damn close, and I loved every minute of it. "Oh... Marvy... That was..." It was impossible to describe exactly how he made me feel that exact moment. I just wrapped my hands around his back. Pulling him close to me, being sure I could nuzzle into his chest. Feeling so wonderful as he remained inside me. He was finally able to share this passion with me that he's been dying to. I felt needed, loved, complete for the first time in the longest time. I think... That's exactly what love is supposed to feel like. I could say it and mean it. "Marvy, I lo-love you... Keep me... Don't be stupid and let me leave..." "Crystal..." His tail still swayed from side to side, then finding a resting spot as it curled around my own. His arms stayed wrapped around my back, rubbing upon the swell of it. Every touch he gave me that night was marvelous. I was comforted, and safe in his arms, his grasp. I never want to leave him. So wonderful afterwords, us holding eachother close, I could do nothing but bask and melt into him at that moment. "Crystal, I love you. Every part of my heart. There is now way I could do anything to get you to leave me." He was right. Nothing he could do would want me to leave. Everthing he would do was always to make sure I felt good. So I would be safe, and not in danger even in my own home. My eyes closed, letting a smile across my face as I drifted to sleep. He wrapped in his arms, and I wrapped mine around him.