A fear inside
Mostly a poem to describe my panic attacks. Please comment so I can improve the poem to
The whisper of light comeing throgh the dark mind. A world away but so close in time. I walk blindly on this road deep inside. I fall over past memorys throwing me off and down in so many ways. I fell so detached from my reality.
yet i fell so alive in this life. they told me to trap my emotion deep inside. That left me scar's that might never heal the right way. With out the right help.
Afraid of the guilt and humilaten. I hide my self far away. For the fear i fell is to great that i quaver and cry inside my self. There is no escape from my mind.Will any one ever help or leave me lay. For the pain i suffer i throw onto other's in hope it will go away. Instead hitting me harder in my head for i fell dread for what i dealt.
Only few can comfort me in my spill for all other i will push down a hill. not of hate but of fear. i know it not real but it there and wont go away. Just let me lay till it go away for i allready fell humilated in so many way's. It as change me in so many way's that i fell so twisted inside and like im about to break.