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I watched him as he walked off. I knew that I would miss him dearly, but what I didn't know, was that I couldn't get over him. I held out my paw but said nothing as he continued to walk away from me with his back facing my direction. I tried calling his name but couldn't find myself to speak.

I took small steps towards him kicking up some dirt and gravel with each stride. He slowed his pace and came to a halt as I stood behind him. I hadn't realized it but he had tears streaming down his face as I did.

I leaned into his back and began weeping silently. I didn't want him to hear my sobs and heaves, I didn't want him to know that I was weak. I felt his head hang from the shift in muscles as my head was pressed against his back. I spoke between my sobs.

"I-I'm gonna miss y-you."

I wanted to hug him, but I knew if I did it would be harder to not kiss him. My arms proceeded to wrap around his chest. I blushed and yet tears continued to fall. I felt his arms wrap around mine taking my paws in his claws, I hesitated but then waited for him to continue. He lifted my paws to him maw and whispered something into them.

He spoke lowly but loud enough for me to hear.

"I'll miss you too."

I knew that sooner or later I would have to let him go, but I wanted for him to stay. As he lowered my paws, I began to drift in thought as I was still against him.

I began licking his back and nuzzled him gently.

I asked him, "I know you have to do this, but can we do something before you leave?"

He looked up, thinking about what I possibly could mean. A small grin spread across his maw as he spoke the words

"Sure, I'd like that."

I loosened my grip of his chest and slowly backed off of him, he turned around for his eyes to meet mine.

"What do you have in mind?" he inquired.

"It's a... surprise," I blushed "but first I need to know something," I bit my lower lip preparing to ask the question. I hesitated again.

Croconaw bore a perplexed look across his face and cocked his head to

the side.

"What is it? You can ask me anything."

Croconaw placed his blue smooth scaled claws onto my shoulders and stared deep into my eyes, I blushed and blacked out at his warm touch and intense stare.

"Crap!" He shook me violently trying to wake me.

In my blank slate of a mind, I sat alone.

"I fainted, I can't believe myself!"

Another quilava appeared, it was me but was white, as I became black.

"Well, I have to be honest with him"

Black became denial.

"I'll tell him the truth, that I want him to fuck me, and be my mate. Yeah, like that's happening."

White frowned and a Blue was created.

"What if he does say no? And what if he thinks I'm a monster?"

Black smiled knowing his point got across to someone. Red and Orange were created.

"I'd be glad if he accepted."

"But what if, he doesn't? I wouldn't be able to bear his face without remorse. If I can't have him no one will!"

Green slowly dissolved in.

"Why can't I have his features?"

A pink came into the field.

"Oh, the future we could have, living together, nuzzling each other on those cold nights next to the fire."

Pink sighed in content as Orange began again.

"That sounds wonderfully pleasant. To enjoy each other's company... Hmm."

White interjected Orange's thoughts.

"We've been friends for years, even if he doesn't accept-"

Black jumped in.

"Exactly, how would I have to deal with his rejection? It's all just a fantasy..."

A purple mist flooded around them as they all silenced.

"I'm going to find something better than mist"

The mist formed into a purple quilava.

"Oh," It rubbed it's body. "My my my, think of how delicious Croconaw would taste."

Purple licked his paws and encircled his lips.

"And all he has to do is say yes."

The different colors all bickered and bantered for what seemed to be hours. As they continued, their shapes changed and resembled pokemon that best fit their personality. White had formed a female Dewgong. Purple became a female espeon. Green was a male snivy. Blue shifted into a timid male Lucario. Pink turned into a female chansey. Red transformed into a male arcanine. In the place of black, Duskull. Orange bounced around as a buizel. They all spoke as the same poke, Quilava. About the same poke he was in love with, Croconaw. And the two questions still hung.

What happens if Croconaw doesn't accept? And what happens next if he does?

As they continued, a small yellow discharge illuminated the plain. They all stopped and looked to the yellow light. A manectric walked across them.

"Enough of this. I can't focus on what might be if I don't try. That's the only way I can get answered!"

All pokemon looked down as if in shame of their actions.

Croconaw was still freaking out and held Quilava's body close to his and started weeping.

"Don't do this to me. Please. I-I.."

Quilava regained control.

"Croconaw..."

He looked up.

"Thank Arceus! What did you want to ask me?"

I blushed then slowly spoke.

"I have to know... If..." I took a deep inhale. "What would you say if I said that I liked you?"

In quilava's mind, "Why did I say that?!"

Croconaw looked to me with a smile.

"I'd say that, I like you too."

I smiled, then frowned and looked down.

"What's wrong?"

I looked up at him still frowning.

"That's not what I wanted to ask you..."

He looked at me perplexed.

"Oh?"

"I want to ask you something else but when I begin to ask, I'm afraid of what the answer could be."

He smiled again and held me close to his body and spoke in a gentle voice.

"You don't have to be afraid, I assure you whatever it is you have to ask me, you'll get the answer you're looking for."

It seemed like he had known what Quilava was asking him but he actually didn't.

He pulled off of him held his claws on Quilava's shoulders again looked deep into his ruby eyes and demanded him to speak.

"Now, what is it you want to ask me?"

I returned his gaze and finally asked him.

"I need to know, if you're gay, or not?"

He released his grip on my shoulders and his arms fell off mine. He looked down and blushed.

In those moments, I felt the entire weight of guilt latch to my back. The world stopped, I couldn't move, I asked the forbidden question. My subconscious mind screamed at me. I shouldn't have asked.

Croconaw looked up and pulled me into another hug this time he rested his head onto mine. He slowly swayed our bodies together in unison. I was confused.

He whispered loud enough for me to hear.

"I am."

I smiled under his head. I've never been so glad to hear him say that.

Croconaw smiled but and seemed pretty nonchalant about it but, when he spoke there was a certain pitch of uncertaincy and concerned that made me frown.

"Does that bother you?"

I was shocked. I honestly didn't expect him to ask that question. I pulled aw to look him in his eyes.

"No, of course not. I'm gay too."

He smiled.

"Now, what was that thing you had in mind?"

I blushed.

"I love you."

He smiled and stuttered out. "I love you too,"

I leaned in to his maw and kissed him to which his reply, was a kiss with equal passion. My arms wrapped around the back of his neck to deepen the kiss and when we broke for air, I whispered lustfully in his ears.

"What I had in mind... I want you to take me."

His eyes widened at what I just stated.

"You really want to do that?"

"I'm serious, I want you to claim me as yours so when you come back, we'll forever be each other's."

He nodded.

"That's so sweet of you."

I got onto the ground and took position awaiting him to make his move.

Croconaw assumed his role and gripped Quilava's sides but hesitated. Croconaw knew that he was larger than Quilava and wanted to start but didn't want to hurt him.

Quilava got up and looked at him.

"Is there something bothering you?"

"I don't want to hurt you, and since I'm bigger than you..."

I kissed and comforted him.

"I can take it."

Croconaw smiled.

"If you're sure."

I went back down and eagerly awaited his entry. He gripped my sides again. I blushed.

His length grew from his slit and I felt him slowly push into me. I moaned as I felt him enter. He slowly pulled out and thrusted back into me. I shuddered feeling his entire length grind across my interior. I stuttered.

"I'll al-lways be h-here f-for you."

"I know you will."

He smiled as he began to thrust faster into me. I moaned out as my member peaked from its sheath and started to harden and lenghten.

Croconaw pressed his belly onto Quilava's back and reached under him to grab his member.

I let out a squeak as he gripped my shaft. It begged for it though as it leaked

pre and throbbed. He slowly pumped giving me the attention towards my crotch that I desired. He teased my tip as his claw traced along my length and found its way in at the tip and slowly pushed in and out.

After a minute of doing that he decided to pull out. He gripped near the base of my shaft rubbed all the way up and came back down. He pumped faster and faster. I knew I was close. I moaned out as he continued. On his last up stroke I came into his claws. He smeared my seed all over my shaft using it as lube. My sphincter contracted around his member as I reached my orgasm which caused him to coat my walls with his Croconaw cream.

He bit into my shoulder. I winced in pain but it quickly faded as he began licking the blood away. I knew why he did it though.

He wanted to mark me for a few reasons. One, because he loved me and I was only his. Three When he came back he wants to be able to tell me apart from other Quilava and Typhlosion with an indistinguishable mark on me.

We were finally together and I would be able to make it through the year.

I broke out of my thoughts. I was still holding onto him and nothing had happened between us. It was all in my head, and oddly enough, it had only been for a few seconds, and I was still crying.

I opened my mouth and spoke.

"Can I walk with you, to see you off?"

He smiled.

"I'd like that."

I wiped my tears and he brought his claws up to his face for a moment then lowered them.

I walked to his side and leaned into him. He wrapped his arms around me and we set off.

The strangest thing happened as we walked, I felt compelled to ask him something. I wanted to say, "Why'd you have to go?"

I knew the reason why, and it was one of those chances you couldn't miss for

anything. We both wanted this but in the same way I wished he didn't have to go. As we exited the forest area and came upon the beach, each step felt all the more heavier. I felt as if I couldn't place my hindpaws in front of one another but I did.

We were very close to the water. I smiled. This was it. He stepped into the water

and turned to hug me one last time, I wanted it to last longer than it did, but I had to let go first.

I waved goodbye to him, and he did the same. I watched as his body lowered into the water, and as he submerged my heart sank with him. A single tear rolled down my cheek and I wiped it away.

My gaze was at the water, and I followed a water current until it dissipated. It was him. I smiled and knew that he was on his way, to become a Feraligatr. The tide was going to come out soon so I started towards the forest.

With the departure complete now, comes the hard part. Playing the waiting game. A year of waiting. I'd better go find something to do to take my mind off things.

-Croconaw Point Of View-

I swam alongside a few other croconaw we were all headed to the same place, Shinkashima. The island of Evolution. This island though is specifically meant for Croconaw who are evolving into Feraligatr. There were two Croconaw swimming at either side of me that I suppose were trying to talk to me. Their voices broke my train of thought.

"Hey, you there! You okay?"

"Huh?"

They smiled.

"Good you're still in there. What were you thinking about?"

I blushed.

"Uhh, about someone special..."

"Oh, you already have a mate?"

"Sorta..."

"Who is the lucky female?"

"Uhh, male..."

"What?"

"He's male..."

"Ohh, you're gay."

The moment began to get awkward, and I refused to respond to that. I hadn't realized the blushed still on my face. They chuckled.

"Don't sweat it. I'm gay too."

I smiled and my blush faded.

"I don't have a mate yet but I'm looking. Oh yeah, before I forget, my name's Tucker."

"I'm Cronas."

"Nice to meet you. What about you?"

We turned to the other Croconaw who seemed to be very shy. He blushed.

"Oh me, umm... Well my name's Ronni. And I haven't been looking for a mate yet."

"Really? Why 's that?"

"Well... I never really thought about it."

His blush deepened.

"There's no shame in liking another male."

"It's not that, it's... I haven't decided what I like yet..."

Tuck hugged Ronni.

"Take all the time you need. No one's gonna force you to make that decision but don't wait too long."

"Thanks Tucker."

"Please, call me Tuck."

"Okay Tuck."

I shook my head at them smiling. The three of us continued on our way, it was going to take a while to get there, but at least I had company.

The only regret I have though, is not telling Quill how I feel about him.