FSE

Furry search engine

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Headache... what happened?

I open my eyes. My sight is blurry, I can feel a crust on my eyelids. I carefully rub it off. My sight is still blurry. A black screen in front of me. The humming noise of a small fan. I sit on a black armchair... my arms... I still wear my shirt, jeans... I look at my hands... I should cut my fingernails again... I put on my glasses.

Something feels wrong... I look out of the window. It is dark outside. I move the mouse, the screens turn on. 4:13 AM. I have slept for maybe three hours... I feel like I had a dream, but I don't remember it. I feel... sticky? What the- oh great... I had a wet dream and can't even remember it. Fuck. My. Life!

The screen shows the story I am writing at. I must have fallen asleep while writing... no... I opened the document but didn't even start to type. Hasn't there been some noise outside? No... and even if, that was three hours ago. A car crashed into the tram? Was it that? Maybe... why do I even care? Hungry... and I feel like I slept for a week... but the date on my PC clearly tells me that I have slept mere 3 hours.

I scuffle into the kitchen. A plate in the sink. I clean it, then put four slices of bread on it... a drop of ketchup on each of them, cheese on two, salami on one, ham on the last one. Grabbing the plate I walk back to my PC. Out of instinct I open my browser, click on my usual bookmarks. A site where people upload pictures, mostly related to furries and sex, but sometimes also other pictures. The other site is the one where I have published my story on so far.

I type 'dragon' into the search field on the picture site, it filters out everything that is not tagged with dragon. Hmm... three new pictures since my last visit. A female dragon presenting the inside of her pussy to the viewer. Bah... I close it. A cum-creamed cock in a close-up shot. Too simple for my taste. I like to see a bit more than just the dong by its own. The last one is the upper body and head of an anthro-dragon, a male one. He has this smirk on his face. A bit sly, a little playful, and so fucking sexy. I move it into a folder on my desktop, into my 'porn-stash' as people would call it.

I close the page. Now the other one. New posts in three of the threads... a story about a woman getting raped by wolves in a dark forest. Huh... if I just could switch places with her... *sigh*

The next thread is someone who wants to fuck another one's bitch in front of him... People replied that they are looking for the same... oh no, there is actually one who tells him that the story-section is the wrong place for this kind of search. But no one tells them that simply fucking a dog for the fuck's sake, not even your own dog you care for... meh... too lazy too reply... they wouldn't care either

And the last one? Oh... it's from the author of a story I am following. Yay, a new chapter. I grab a slice of bread with cheese, take a huge bite. He's advancing the story. The main character is coming closer to a point where he will be reunited with his love after a long time. Half a slice of bread is left as I finish reading the new chapter. Again he didn't reunite just yet. A cliffhanger.

I'm bored... what should I do? I could jerk myself off... or... no... my balls don't feel like it... probably still empty form my wet dream earlier... damn it, I wish I could remember that dream. Was it something about dragons? Maybe I dreamt from the characters of my story? Or maybe something else? The words 'red puppy' hush through my mind. What? A red puppy? The fuck? Maybe I am still tired. I should go to bed and sleep till noon. Tomorrow... Today is Sunday... for the next twenty hours it will still be Sunday. Yeah... napping till noon.

I turn off the PC and the monitor, then let myself fall onto my bed. I put off my clothes while I am lying in there. No strength, just want to sleep, everything is so boring. The beaming green eyes look at me... no... just the LED of my second screen and its reflection on the window. Maybe my dream will continue if I fall asleep quickly enough. Maybe this time I will remember it. I reached my underpants, they are still sticky. Right... I should clean myself, otherwise my bed will be all sticky, too.

I stand up again, throw my underpants on the ground near my drawer. I'm walking completely nude through my tiny apartment, into the bathroom. I place my crotch on the edge of the basin, turn on the water, wait for it to reach a good temperature. I finish cleaning my crotch, dry it, then slowly walk back to my bed. I pull the blanket over me... I can't sleep... I know I have forgotten something important... have I turned off the lights? Yeah... they are all off. The stove? I didn't even turn it on. The water tap? No, I'd hear it if the water was still running. The PC is off, too... What have I forgotten? And why do the words 'red puppy' and 'green eyes' ring in my head? What do they mean? Are they from my dream? Did I have sex with a green-eyed red puppy? My mind is fucked up, yes, but that color combination? No... no, definitely... not?

I look onto my alarm clock. 6 AM. Awake for two hours already. I can't sleep. What about the accident? I get up again and put on my clothes. I skip the underpants as I don't want to grab a new pair just now. Shoes... jacket... scarf... gloves... and go.

I leave the house, turn to the left, towards the main street where the tram drives. There is something... I am sure about it. Something tells me to come here. I reach the corner, pass it. A few people... about my age, hanging around with some bottle of cheap alcohol, they ignore me. I walk towards the street and for reasons unknown, look at the power lines of the tram. They seem intact. Why does this confuse me so much? What did I expect to see?

I cross the road and walk through the underpass of the train rails nearby, take a walk to the park a few hundred meters further. I hear dogs bark, my legs speed up. Why? For what reason am I running there? I reach the park. I see the barking dogs. Their owners seems to have trouble keeping them from attacking each other.

This is driving me mad. Why can't I sleep? What is it with the red puppy and the green eyes? What made me come out here? Why do I feel so... so lonely? I look into the sky. I can still see the moon and the stars... elements I used in my story to describe the eyes of my characters... I thought it might help me remember my dream. It doesn't. But maybe if I remember my dream, I'll be able to sleep. I walk back home, through the park, the underpass, across the road. I meet my neighbor in the staircase. We greet each other. She asks me why I am up so early. I just say sorry and enter my apartment. 7 AM. The sky slowly starts to turn brighter. I start my PC, go to the bathroom to splash some water into my face. I feel restless. What has happened in those three hours I slept? Has it ended in a nightmare? Was I afraid to fall asleep? Back at my PC, I open the same bookmarks as before. No new pictures, but one comment in the 'want to fuck your bitch' topic.

If you want to fuck an animal so badly, go and fucking get an animal yourself. You don't want to care for it but just put your dick into it? Hope she bites it off. Go and fuck a plushy, that way no animal has to suffer because of you!

Finally someone who feels the same way I do. Well said my friend. You get 10 points from me.

I click my usual bookmarks and... wait... I just did that... my brain is still on stand-by. I go to one of my anime streaming pages. Let's see... Yeah, the new episode is out already. What was that noise? Was it outside? Oh... no... the video had already started in another tab. "Chris?" Huh? Was someone calling me? I put my headphones away. "Hello? Is somebody there? Hello?" No response. Must have mistaken some of the Japanese language... after all my brain feels mushy and it's hard to make a clear thought.

"Chris?" Again... and it did not come from my headphones. The door? No... more like...far away...but I still hear it loud and clear. "Hello? Who is there? Who are you?" "Chris? Can you hear me?" "Yes, I can hear you loud and clear. Who are you?" This voice... where have I heard it before? This deep but still soft tune... Why can't I remember? "Chris, please answer me." "I am answering you. Who are you? Please show yourself." "Chris, come back to me." What? Whose voice is this? Was I going to become mad? "Chris, hang in there. Don't leave me alone." "Shut up. If you don't tell me who you are, I don't want to hear you anymore." I lie back into my bed, my clothes still on. "Chris? Chris? Can you hear me? Chris?" I put the pillow on my head, want the voice to disappear. I'm tired. Why can't I just fall asleep? Why can't this voice just shut up? LET ME SLEEP ALREADY!