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I stared at that magnificent sky for far longer than I should have. My eyes had always been weak. To see without the aid of my glasses felt so alien to me. I brought my hands up to my eyes, rubbing at them, blinking, seeing if what I was looking at was real.

It was! I vocalized my surprise with a quick bark of delight. However, it quickly diminished once I noticed the peculiarity of the star-stroked sky. I had been out here long enough to recognize the patterns of the cosmos, and this place certainly wasn't where I came from.

I scrambled up to my feet, only for my pants to fall down about my ankles. I stumbled forward and grabbed onto them, holding a death grip on them in the cold and strange new land.

I was perplexed, to say the least. It wasn't like my belt was broken or anything. I was about to examine the waistband when a sharp pain shot through my leg. I fell to my butt and reached down, rubbing at my calf, trying to loosen up the tightness that pulsated down there. My muscles thrummed with warmth, but after that initial shock, it strangely didn't hurt. In fact, the pressure I was feeling down in my soles and up through my toes was comforting, like a security blanket. The sensation was also mixed with a sort of anticipation, like waiting for a model volcano to finally erupt. I contemplated both the feeling and my response to it when I noticed the sticky watery wetness on my skin, making way for a rough regularity.

I lifted my leg a bit, and higher, and higher. I had never stretched it to such a length before. My pant leg rolls up along my body, sticking to my thighs, but giving me a look at the gray skin beneath.

A million thoughts ran through my mind, but at that moment, all I could do was trace my sharp nails over the rough scales, letting the scratch and texture send a shudder through my body. The more I ran my fingers along the scales, the more they spread along my calf and then my ankle and then finally to my heel.

The pain jolted through my sole and to my toes, but it wasn't a bad pain. No, it was more of the excitement of a stretch, or the need to stretch. The need to break free. I grit my teeth, sharp snapping bone syncing into place in a mouth that felt much roomier. It was then I realized just how flat my face had been. How ridiculous is that? How can anyone eat with a snout smashed in and separated?

I clumsily clawed at my boots, tearing them off of me. My socks did not survive, the fabric torn to shreds by large clawed toes. I grabbed ahold of this reptilian foot, my foot, and wiggled those powerful toes. I planted the foot firmly upon the ground. Unshod as I was, the feeling of the warm mud beneath me felt right, and so I tore off my other boot, removing it altogether.

I stood up, this time, my pants did not fall. In fact, they held on fast, but why? Something poked out from behind. I reached back and grabbed a thick and wriggling appendage. Pressure came to it when I squeezed it. Whatever this was, it was me, and I pulled it from behind me, realizing that it was, in fact, a tail!"

I ran right towards the water. However, I tripped on my new and clumsy legs. I fell face-first into the mud, squishing my new and sensitive breasts against the ground before I even realized that they were there.

I rolled onto my back, grasping at my chest, letting out a squeaking sigh as I moved the lovely lumps between my palms. By my sharp fingers tore at my top, tattering it and exposing the bare scales to the crisp night sky.

I should have been scared. I should have been terrified beyond all belief, but at that moment, int hat one, magical time in my life, I knew that this thing that should be wrong was oh so right. I tore at the remainder of my outfit. As I did, all the rest of my humanity went with it. Like a transformation into a monster, I let this new form explode forth, destroying all connections to the man I was before. I threw my head back and laughed a triumphant laugh with pieces of fabric clutched in my fists, letting the moon be my witness that I felt, for the first time, finally free.

I fell to my knees, looking down at the suddenly clear and calm water. There, looking back at me, was a beautiful creature. I ran my fingers through my crimson hair. I fell in love with those eyes of fire. I marveled at the fact that I had become something totally alien, and yet, something so totally passionate and, dare I admit it, alluring.

I wouldn't say I became some wild animal at that point. No, all of my faculties were still present. Yet, I did not let the desire for survival and the need to understand my plight get in my way. I took that moment, there in the moonlight, to admire myself. My hands moved down along my body, fingers caressing every inch now that I knew what I was. I cupped at my breasts once more, and stroked my thigh, exploring more in-depth, and from that point, my tail shot straight and my toes curled as I brought myself to an understanding of myself I never had as a human—that wonderful feeling of loving my body and loving who I am and what I can possibly be.

Since then, I have not lost that sense of wonder, of love for myself, and that burning, aching need to please this new form of mine. I have never lost my curiosity and my need to document all that I've learned. I feel, though, that I will be learning many more different things than my former colleagues at the university would have ever imagined. And that is the most exciting part!