Part One: Converstation.
Story by GeminiMacro on SoFurry
This is part one of a five part series, with a bonus piece, of my own personal struggles to let someone go. This was made in early 2020 and has largely finished. Any attempts to return and continue it have been pretty fruitless.
His eyes, once vibrant with his brown stare look down. They see a familiar ground below his slippers, carpet, well worn from the office chair he sits on.
Suddenly there was cracking around his walls. The drywall flying around in a shower of white chips. The human did nothing, sitting there, closing his eyes occasionally when the chips fly near his face.
A familiar growl to many micros in his position. His white smug smile grows as he approaches. Those whiskers flicker around the wall of the apartment as his breathing huffs the clothes on his back.
"What are you doing here" The human said, cold, lifeless, and hostile. He did not turn, he did not flinch
"Do I not exist here for you?" Rebutted the smug mouse. His smile getting wider as he approaches, eyes squinting happy to see a tiny in his sights.
"Not here, not now" _The human still kept onto this wall, something that cannot be seen but is clearly felt. So much that Gemini kept a gap between him and the human. _
"I don't believe you have a say in that" He giggles with his throat, soon approaching down to get mere touching distance. Whiskers rubbing against the drywall cracks around his face.
"I do!" Suddenly the human jumps up from his chair stares him down. Those once glossy eyes were not filled with a raging stare, unflinching and neither worried about the literal size he's in.
"I don't need you here, you don't belong over me."
Gem scoffed under his breath, as the anger doesn't affect such a giant mouse god like himself~
"That's unfortunate because I am over you...and you and I know you li-"
"NO! FUCK YOU, Because every fucking time you bring nothing but sadness and misery!" He points his finger at him "You are only needed when I am happy, and right now I am not happy- because when I see you when I see them."
Gem was uncharacteristically quiet. He did not utter another rebuttal
"Yeah, it's not fun, is it. Begone" The human, with brown flames within his eyes, turns away to his seat
"That's not it" The mouse said immediately after
_There was a pause before an enraged head turn looking back at Gemini again. _"Are you still talking, LEAVE!"
_Gem felt a sharp pain in his heart, one he doesn't feel a lot. _"No, because there is a lot of baggage you still hold. When you are me, you bring people genuine joy an-"
_The human turned and with all his power from his voice screaming, arms curving within themselves "_I AM NOT YOU, I CAN NEVER BE YOU!"
"Don't interrupt me please..." The fed up human waves his hand, checking out, and getting back into his chair.
"I am talking to you, don't give up on me" Gem's golden_ eyes were looking down at him with his snout up._
"Fuck, off" He said to him as his hand grabs the tip of his chair
_Gem snaps to grab him and him against the gashed drywall _"Listen! Because you don't have that ability. I am not Califia's creation, I am yours. I bring you and many other people on this planet joy, so who are YOU to deny your happiness?!"
_The human took a moment, even though he knew the answer "_Me... my rage"
"Fucking let it go, rage it out- yell about something, I don't care. I am not their replacement either, I am you. I am not some tool to get you and other people off, you are me. You want to give up- give up on them." h_is _little body moves and squirms, uselessly banging his elbow against the hand.
"That's it... let it all out...." As he hits his hand, tears start falling off and his mouth opens to sob
"I can't they are so...so importan-"
"They aren't, you are important. I am you...so love yourself...right here" Gem whimpers as his golden eyes would glisten from the tears being held back
"I need you, as much as you need me. I exist as your ego- to get you away from them... You made me, for you." _The human's eyes look up with tears dripping onto his cheek. He stops and holds onto the finger tightly, drooling on it, along with his tears. _