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Dungeons and Deer

© Cederwyn Whitefurr

2nd March, 2025

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A dozen squires had stepped forward. The trials had begun. Their armour was polished, their vows affirmed, their hearts pure and valorous. Each swore to rid the ruined abbey of the beast, to return with its head or die in noble combat.

Eleven went out. None returned.

Now, only one remained.

Renard, the last aspirant, a small fallow buck, stood at the threshold of the ruined abbey's undercroft. He was late, as usual. The others had departed with confidence, their mailed fists gripping swords, their voices ringing with bravado. Yet he had struggled beneath the weight of his armour, not made for one such as he. The steel pressed down on his slender frame, the plates shifting awkwardly with each step. He had spent extra time fastening the buckles, making sure the fit was right—because if he failed, there would be no second chance.

He took a steadying breath. The air was damp, thick with the scent of old stone, rotting wood, and something else—something wild, something wrong. His heart drummed a frantic beat against his ribs, though he willed it to slow. He was virtuous. He was prepared. He believed, heart and mind, in his mission.

And yet—

Why did his wedge-shaped tail frizzle in fear?

The darkness beyond the crumbled archway seemed endless. The stones yawned wide, an open maw swallowing what little light remained from the overcast sky above. A fine mist clung to the ground, swirling between the broken pews and shattered columns, whispering with the ghosts of the past.

He stepped forward. The stairs led down to the undercroft, the iron doors that had sealed it now rent and twisted, sundered. As he stepped over the threshold, his hoof clacked against the stone, the sound sharp and intrusive in the silence. Another step. The mist curled around his greaves, chilling him. Another.

Then—a noise. A rustling breath. Low. Measured. Listening.

The knight froze. His ears twitched, straining.

A growl rumbled from the depths of the ruin, deep and resonant, a sound not meant for mortal ears. It slithered down his spine, making his hackles rise, his muscles lock. The beast was here. Waiting.

He reached for his sword. His fingers trembled against the hilt. He willed them to be still, to be steady.

A shadow moved.

His own.

Renard trembled, then forced himself back to calm. He was a knight-aspirant, not some quivering peasant hiding in a hovel. He would be resolute, clad in his faith and his armour, his vows virtuous and rigid.

I will not know fear, Renard repeated silently to himself, reaffirming the tenets of his faith. His vows.

He started to have doubts...

*

Renard stepped further into the shadows, his breath shallow as the silence pressed in around him. His heart hammered in his chest, a constant reminder of the danger that stalked him. The air grew colder, the mist thickening until a shape loomed before him—a broken figure sprawled across the stone floor.

He froze.

A fellow squire. The face, twisted in a final expression of terror, had contorted into a rictus that made Renard's stomach churn. His chest plate had been rent in two, jagged edges of steel hanging off the remnants of his armour The under-layer was torn open, deep gashes cleaving through flesh and bone. Blood pooled around the body like a dark halo, its warmth long since faded. The sword—once drawn with pride—lay shattered beside him, useless, broken in a fight that had never been fair.

Renard's pulse quickened, his hand instinctively reaching out, but his fingers halted before they could touch the fallen squire.

A battle? No.

This was a slaughter.

The beast had not hunted like a knight. It had torn through him. It had feasted. Its hunger was the only thing evident in the carnage before him.

Renard swallowed hard, a sick knot twisting in his gut. His breath seemed louder now, sharper in the silence, as if every exhale might disturb the stillness of the grave. What had claimed this young squire's life wasn't the work of any mortal beast. No. It was something far worse. Something primal. Something hungry.

The oppressive silence stretched on, suffocating. The cold stone beneath his hooves felt heavier, the blood-soaked ground seeming to reach for him. For a heartbeat, Renard thought of turning back. The sight of the fallen squire—the shattered armour, the cold blood, the broken sword—was too much. I am not ready for this.

But Renard didn't.

With a final glance at the fallen squire, he squared his shoulders, hooves firm against the stone. His breath steadied, chest rising with new resolve. He would honour the fallen. He would not be another name left to rot in the dark.

The beast would pay for this.

*

Renard's chest tightened as the werewolf's words slithered into his mind, disorienting and foreign, yet deeply familiar. His body, ever the dutiful knight, had always fought to uphold the ideals of honour, strength, and duty. But here, in the presence of this creature, those ideals seemed so distant, so fragile. The werewolf's words cut through the layers of self-imposed restraint he had crafted for years, revealing a truth he had tried desperately to suppress.

He had always known, deep down, that his heart was not entirely aligned with the path he had chosen. But admitting that, here, now, to the creature who seemed to see through him in ways no one else had... it was terrifying.

Renard's hooves scraped desperately against the cold stone, grounding himself in the present moment. He didn't know how to fight this—fight himself. Every inch of his body screamed for action, for freedom, but every instinct told him that this moment was bigger than any sword he could wield. The werewolf wasn't just toying with him—it was forcing him to face a darkness he had buried deep within, a primal desire he wasn't prepared to confront.

The werewolf's lips twitched into that dark, knowing smile, sensing Renard's turmoil. “You think you're the only one who fights within?" the creature mused, its tone a strange mix of sympathy and mockery. “I've seen knights like you. You all wear the same mask, the same armour. But underneath..." The werewolf's gaze flicked to Renard's chest, his heart thudding beneath his rib cage “Underneath, there's something else."

Renard's throat tightened, his breath hitching as the pressure of the creature's gaze bore down on him. He could feel his resistance crumbling, piece by piece, and the primal part of him—hidden for so long—was waking up. The werewolf's scent, that intoxicating mixture of earth and blood, filled his senses. It was like a pull he couldn't escape, a magnetism that drew him closer to the beast, to the truth he had denied for so long.

The werewolf let out a soft growl, the sound vibrating through Renard's body, sending a shiver down his spine. “You don't need to deny it anymore," the creature whispered, its breath hot against his skin. “Let go of the knight you think you are. Let me show you the fawn you're meant to be."

Renard's heart pounded in his chest, but it was no longer just fear. It was something else—something deeper, something he had never dared acknowledge. He had always fought to remain honourable, to live by the code. But now, with the werewolf so close, so intimate, all of that seemed so... irrelevant. The truth was clear, though painful: the knight he had fashioned himself into was a cage, and the fawn the werewolf spoke of was the key to freedom.

The werewolf's claws gently traced the edge of Renard's plate armour, a silent promise of what could be. “I'll show you, little knight. All you need to do is surrender." The creature's voice was thick with dark promise, its amber eyes glinting in the dim light.

Renard's breath caught again, his body trembling beneath the weight of the werewolf's words. His mind screamed at him to resist, to fight—to do what a knight was supposed to do. But his heart... his heart longed for something else.

The werewolf's grin widened as it sensed Renard's internal battle. “There's no shame in what you feel, fawn. You are more than the knight you've chosen to be."

Renard closed his eyes, his body betraying him with the pounding of his heart. The war inside him—between duty and desire—raged on. He wasn't ready for this. He wasn't ready to face the truth of who he truly was. But it was too late to turn back now.

The werewolf leaned in, its breath a caress against Renard's neck. “There is no need to fight anymore. You've already lost."

And in that moment, Renard felt his world slip away.

*

The werewolf moved with slow, deliberate precision, each motion calculated to strip Renard of any remaining resistance. His every touch pulled Renard deeper, drawing him into a space where his will no longer mattered. The creature's skilled tongue worked over him with an almost predatory grace, guiding Renard toward pleasure he hadn't sought, but couldn't stop. Each stroke brought him closer to a climax he hadn't wanted—one he could neither deny nor control.

Renard gasped, his body jerking, breath hitching as the beast's mouth moved him relentlessly toward the edge. The pressure built within him, the tension snapping like a taut string. He trembled violently, a cry slipping from him—raw, unrestrained, something he hadn't known he could make. A wave of shame surged through him, but it was quickly drowned by the primal heat that coursed through his veins.

The wolf's eyes never wavered, patient, knowing that the fall would not come by force, but by the overwhelming weight of what had already been done. It didn't rush, moving closer only when it was certain Renard's resistance was slipping. Renard's heart raced, fear fluttering in his chest as the creature's warmth washed over him, each moment a reminder of his growing helplessness. But he couldn't stop the pull—it was too powerful, too consuming.

The wolf drew closer, its massive form hovering over him. Renard's pulse thundered in his ears, his body trembling as he instinctively fought against the pressure building between them. But despite himself, he surrendered, the knot in his chest unravelling as weakness from his earlier climax took hold. The wolf slid inside him slowly, inch by inch, pushing through his resistance. Renard's breath hitched, his body instinctively fighting the intrusion, but the pressure only grew stronger, relentless.

The wolf moved with patient intent, not rough but certain, finding its rhythm within him.

Renard gasped, a shudder running through his body with each measured thrust. He clenched his hands into the earth, desperately trying to hold onto something—anything—but the pull of the creature's dominance was too strong. His resolve, the knightly pride he had so carefully constructed, began to crumble with every passing moment.

The growls of the wolf reverberated around them, a steady rhythm building. Renard's breath quickened, chest heaving as his body involuntarily moved with the wolf, responding to the pressure that was becoming too much to fight. His mind was in chaos, but his body—his body betrayed him. It moved with the creature, surrendering to its strength, and piece by piece, Renard's resistance shattered.

The wolf's growl deepened, vibrating through Renard's very bones. It was close—too close to stop. With one final, powerful thrust, the wolf buried itself deep inside him. Renard gasped, a broken, guttural sound escaping him, his body overwhelmed by the surge of warmth that filled him. It consumed him, every thought slipping away as the wolf's release flooded through him.

In that moment, everything changed. The knight, the vows, the armour—gone. All his carefully constructed walls crumbled away, and what remained was the truth he had spent his life denying. The lie had always been there, buried beneath duty and honour, but the wolf had exposed it. In the heat of their union, Renard finally saw himself for what he truly was. The battle within him had been fought and lost—not by the wolf's force, but by his own inability to resist the raw, primal truth of his being.

The wolf's breath came in ragged pants as it loomed over him, licking his neck with a satisfied growl. The tie between them held them together, a bond deeper than anything Renard had known, and for the first time in his life, he felt... free.

The wolf stepped back, dismounting with a final, lingering touch. Renard collapsed onto the cold stone floor, his body slick with sweat, his chest heaving with exhaustion. He gasped for breath, but the world felt different now. It was quiet, but in the silence, a sharp claw pricked his chin, forcing him to look up into the amber eyes of the creature.

“You expected a monster," the werewolf murmured, voice low and amused. “But you found a mirror instead."

Renard swallowed hard, his throat tight, as the weight of the creature's words settled in. The werewolf's gaze never left him, knowing and unyielding. It had always known, hadn't it? From the beginning, it had seen through the armour Renard had constructed. The body's responses—the quickening pulse, the way his breath hitched at every touch—all the signs had been there. Renard had denied them, fought them, but the werewolf had always known.

“Why do you fight it, little knight?" the wolf growled, its voice thick with an intimate understanding. “You've been lying to yourself for so long, pretending you could hide it. But the truth is still here. Buried beneath your layers of duty and honour I can see it."

Renard's heart hammered in his chest, a dull ache spreading through him. He had tried to hide it—to push it down beneath his vows, his title, his life as a knight—but the truth had always been there. And the werewolf had seen it. He saw it now. Renard had always known, deep inside.

“You've spent so much time pretending," the werewolf continued, its voice soft but unyielding. “But none of it has ever been you. You can deny your desires all you want, but I've known your heart all along."

The werewolf's clawed hand traced down Renard's chest, a silent reminder of how little control he had left. Renard's hands shook, his mind reeling from the onslaught of realization. He wanted to run, to fight, but there was nowhere to go. No armour to hide behind. No walls to protect him from the truth.

“This isn't weakness," the werewolf murmured, voice soothing yet firm. “It's freedom. Acceptance. You've been running from yourself for so long, but now... now you can face what you are. Who you truly are."

Renard closed his eyes, the weight of the werewolf's words settling deep in his chest. He had spent his life fighting against this truth. But now, in the rawness of this moment, in the silence that followed, there was no more denying it. The walls, the lies, the armour—they were all gone.

He had been broken, yes. But it wasn't the werewolf's force that had broken him. It was his own truth. And for the first time, Renard embraced it.

*

Renard trudged back to the order, each step heavier than the last. The weight of his armour felt suffocating, like the very metal was a reminder of everything he had tried to suppress, everything he had denied. The abbey still lingered in his mind—the werewolf, the test, the confrontation with himself. He had expected to face a monster, but what he found was far worse. He found himself. And now, burdened with the weight of the truth, he was unsure how to reconcile it with the ideals of knighthood he had clung to for so long.

When the gates of the order finally came into view, Renard paused. The grand structure loomed ahead, its stone walls a symbol of all the discipline, the honour, and the duty he had spent years aspiring to. But now, it felt foreign, like a place he no longer belonged. He had returned, but who was he now?

His heart heavy with guilt and confusion, Renard entered the courtyard, walking slowly toward the High Knight's chambers. His hands trembled as he reached for the sword at his side, the same sword that had once felt like an extension of himself. He could barely bring himself to look at it now, knowing it was a symbol of everything he had failed to understand about who he truly was.

The High Knight was waiting for him. The elder stood tall, his gray hair a sharp contrast to the darkness of the stone walls behind him. His gaze was steady, yet devoid of judgement—only quiet wisdom, as though he had been waiting for this moment all along.

Renard knelt before him, placing his sword at the elder's feet. His head bowed in shame, his voice barely a whisper. “I have failed."

The High Knight didn't speak immediately. Instead, he bent down, lifting the sword with surprising gentleness. When the blade rested in his hands, he placed it upon Renard's shoulder in a soft, deliberate gesture. Renard flinched—not from pain, but from the raw vulnerability the motion stirred. He could not meet the elder's eyes.

“You did not fail," the High Knight said, his voice a low murmur that filled the space between them. “You passed the greatest trial of all—the trial of self. The monster you thought you would face was never the real enemy. It was never the creature in the dungeons beneath the abbey. It was you. And now, you know that."

Renard closed his eyes, trying to hold back the flood of emotions threatening to overtake him. The werewolf had not been the test. The test had been within him all along. His shame, his guilt, the way he had tried to hide his truth, to deny who he was—it had all been a lie. He had thought he was a knight because he followed orders, because he abided by the rules. But the rules had never accounted for the complexities of his heart.

The High Knight continued, his voice carrying an undercurrent of understanding. “The trial was never about perfection, Renard. It was never about adhering to some ideal of what a knight should be. It was about facing yourself—the parts of you that you tried to bury—and embracing them. Your true honour lies not in denying what you are, but in accepting it, with courage and honesty."

Renard's breath hitched. He had spent so many years trying to bury what he had known deep down, afraid of the consequences, of the shame it would bring. But now, in the face of the High Knight's words, he felt the weight of his secrets begin to lift. The shame had been his own doing—a self-imposed burden that had kept him from living as he truly was.

He looked up at the High Knight, searching for some sign, some reassurance that he had not utterly ruined everything. The elder's expression was calm, not unkind, but firm in its wisdom.

“You were never meant to be perfect, Renard," the High Knight said softly. “You were meant to be true. And now, you have passed the trial—not because you are flawless, but because you are honest. You have embraced your truth, even if it means stepping away from what you thought you were."

Renard felt a weight lift from his shoulders, though the path ahead was still unclear. But for the first time, it no longer felt like a journey he had to take alone. He had not been broken by the test; he had been shaped by it, refined by the very truth he had feared. The High Knight's words, though simple, held a power Renard could not deny.

The High Knight's hand fell from the sword and rested on Renard's shoulder, a gesture of finality, of acknowledgement “Rise, knight," he said, his voice firm but kind. “For you are worthy."

Renard stood slowly, the weight of his armour still present but no longer oppressive. The words of the High Knight echoed in his ears. He was worthy. Not because of his perfection, not because he had hidden his truth, but because he had embraced it. He had become a knight not by pretending to be something he was not, but by accepting all that he was—desires, flaws, and all.

As he rose, the sword in his hands felt different now. It was no longer a symbol of his struggle but of his acceptance. The armour that had once felt like a cage now felt like a shield—one that he could bear without shame. The knight standing before the High Knight was not the same one who had entered the order. He was something more—something real.

The High Knight's voice broke through his thoughts once more. “You have passed the test, Renard. Not by following the rules, but by being true to yourself. Honor is not about suppressing who you are. It is about embracing it and living with that truth. Go now, and be the knight you were meant to be."

Renard nodded, the weight of those final words settling deep in his heart. He had come to the order seeking perfection. But now, he understood. Honor was not about perfection. It was about truth.

And with that, Renard left the High Knight's chambers, not as a knight who had conquered his demons, but as a knight who had accepted them—and, in doing so, had truly become the knight he was always meant to be.

*

Renard rode out into the forest, the weight of his new plate armour settling comfortably around him. The tabard of the knight's order hung over his chest, its rich fabric marked with the symbol of his vows, the colours that would now forever define him. The armour itself fit him like a second skin, unlike the heavy, rigid plate worn by other knights—it was crafted to mold to his frame, light and flexible, designed with his unique form in mind. It moved with him, a seamless blend of human craftsmanship and something more primal, more instinctual. He could feel the armour's embrace as though it were an extension of his very being, the leather and steel a physical manifestation of the journey he had walked.

His destrier moved with ease beneath him, its powerful hooves barely making a sound as it carried him deeper into the heart of the woods. The forest stretched before him, an endless expanse of green and shadow, as if inviting him to find his way within its confines. He had learned much in the last few days, but still, there was more to learn. His heart felt steady, the doubts that once plagued him fading into the distance, replaced by a quiet resolve that seemed to echo in every step of his steed.

He was no longer just the knight who had set out on this journey with the weight of self-denial. No longer the boy who had hidden from his own truth. He was something more now, something whole. The test was not just to prove his skill or loyalty, but to prove to himself that he could stand in his truth, that he could accept the complexities of who he was. The werewolf's test had broken him open, and in the breaking, he had found himself.

The wind whispered through the trees, rustling the leaves in a soft symphony. And then, in the distance, the unmistakable howl of a wolf reached his ears. His body tensed instinctively. He knew that howl. He knew it deep in his bones, as though it were part of his own story, his own journey. The werewolf—its presence, its wisdom, its challenge—had not been a one-time encounter. The creature had offered him a mirror, showing him truths he had denied for so long.

He had left the forest with new eyes, but he knew that the lessons had not ended. Not yet. He would meet the creature again. And when he did, he would be different. Not because he would be less human, but because he would be more. He would understand things he hadn't before, and face the unknown with the strength he had gained in accepting himself.

Renard urged his destrier forward, the rhythmic sound of hooves on dirt grounding him in the present. But somewhere in the back of his mind, the howl lingered, a reminder that the journey was not over. The path he walked was still unfolding, and the trials he had faced had only been the beginning. There were still more lessons to be learned.

And he would be ready.

END