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After he got home Oliver ate more of the soups Paul made

for him, getting nice and bloated in the hope that he wouldn't dream. He sat on

the couch with a throw pillow in his lap."Hi mom...""Hello, it's been a while...""Hey... Please don't hang up..."Oliver practiced over and over the different ways he could

say hi, his resolve for calling his parents loosely tethered to the hope things

would change."They'll just hang up... Prime please let them not

hang up," he prayed.  "Don't get too hopeful, if you expect nothing it

won't hurt," he thought, then argued with himself, "it always hurts

they never answer and won't like you calling in a way that tricks them into

picking up."The light headed fuzz was there he didn't think it would

go away."How can I love them when they don't love me," Oliver

thought.He let out his claws then pulled them away."What if Sean can't take his meds again, or he had

died," Oliver thought then there were two smaller throw pillows, one in

each paw."Damnit, I need Kevlar covers," Oliver muttered

then tossed the torn pillow cover over his shoulder, only to continue to play

with the faux down, "or to just go to bed."He checked his phone, it read 11:13PM, he sat wanting Sean

to be up and texting him. He felt lonely. After scattering the fluff across the

living room he decided to make tea. Half way through he switched off the burner

feeling too bloated. He walked to his bedroom."It shouldn't matter, why does it?" Oliver thought

then flopped onto his bed.He undressed and slid under the covers, happily

reminiscing about kissing Sean the taste and smell of him.He drifted to sleep praying Sean would be ok.   I stand in Sean's

narrow apartment, it smells so good. He tells me it's my home now, and I finally

feel safe.The darkness says,

"He can't protect you, no one here can, you're mine, give up boy.""I'm not

yours, nor am I the kid you bullied," I say.It shifts in the

corner of my eye, "I will take from the others because you defy me.""So do not

fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your Prime. I will strengthen

you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right paw." I say

far more calmly then I feel."Boy you have

no Prime, you left him and your family," the darkness says.I notice Sean's

medical bracelet on my wrist warm and soothing like a beacon of hope.I say, "No

matter what you say or do I'm not alone.""You tether

your soul to weak and worldly things," the darkness says."I am in this

world but not of it, I love, you don't, you can't," I say."Then I will

take all that you love boy," the darkness says.I'm in Sean's

kitchen."Sean, Put him

down," I say as everyone moves back from the table.Paul looks at me

with a pleading panic.Sean then does set Paul

down and vomits in the sink.I smell and see the

flecks of blood in the bile.Sean fell backwards

like a rag doll someone let go. He jerked and writhed on the floor, foaming at

the maw. I reached for the wooden spoon just like before, but when I crouched

down next to him I wasn't in Sean's kitchen anymore.The spoon clattered

to the subway platform. But it was now open to the air.The tracks were now

more like a chasm dropping into unending darkness."Look into

your future boy, the emptiness before you," the darkness said."You have no

place here in my heart or my mind, I will not be made low by the likes of

you," I said."I told you

boy, I will take all that you love," the darkness said.I felt a tugging at

my wrist Sean's medical bracelets clasping chain was now quiet long and dangled

from my wrist down the chasm."You can't

have what I love," I said, "My angels protect me.""Your

angels," the darkness laughed, "it's them I will take." Then with a reaper

scythe the darkness struck up at the air.It was then that I

noticed my Angels in formation flying with all speed to me."NO! Run away!

Run," I screamed.Too late, my Calico

Angel and Wolfy plummet from the sky."It

begins," the darkness laughs then retreats from the rage of my Shepherd.My bleeding Calico

angel lands hard on his side barely able to move."Wolfy,

where's Wolfy?" I plead.Weakly my Calico

Angel points into the chasm.I cautiously peer

over the edge.Broken winged wolfy

barely has a grip on the wall, his beautiful gold and silver feathers drop away

like wilting petals in the wind. The rock he's holding is pulling away from the

wall soon he and the rock will fall and a train is coming.The medical

bracelet chain dangles near my Wolfy, so I swing it his way then brace myself,

"grab it wolfy grab it."His weight flattens

me to the ground and drags me precariously close to the edge.I barely come to a

stop but thankfully I do. I pull on the chain, but it's taking all I can do

just to keep him there.My Shepherd returns

battered but strong, he leaps head first into the chasm.To my relief I feel

the weight lighten, and together we bring him back over the edge.My Shepherd has his

head pressed to Wolfy's chest and he is weeping.I fear the worst

and rush forward, "is he ok?"My shepherd rises

and nods at me, placing my paw in Wolfy's, I know then I must protect him.I clasp the weak

and broken Wolfy. The train rushes through the station and into the chasms dark

tunnel to our right.On the other

platform is only a pool of blood, my Calico angel is gone lost with the train.My Shepherd rises

spreading his dirty but unbroken wings as far as they'll go, then runs full

pelter off the edge leaping in a wide spiraling ark into the maw of the

darkness."Find him,

please find him and come back," I say.   Oliver opened his eyes and startled at the dark shape

which loomed over him."Aaaah! Who's there?" He yelped."It's me," Sean said."What are you doing here?" Oliver asked in

confusion."I came to get my meds, I didn't want to wake you

but where are they?" Sean asked."In my dresser, wait Sean you're ok, Praise the

Prime you're ok," Oliver said then leaped up to hug Sean."Wait wait, I need my meds and five to eight hours

for them to get into my system," Sean said.Oliver's excited bouncing won a smile from Sean, he

hovered as Sean found the meds."Now you're sure these are mine?" Sean asked."Yeah mine are on the bed stand, Sean, I was so

worried," Oliver said."I'm sorry, I didn't mean for that to happen, kinda

ruined the date," Sean said, "I'll make it up to you later today I

promise, now go back to bed.""Yeah I'm totally going to sleep after you show up

after nearly dying," Oliver said sarcastically."Well I didn't and I have to go sleep as well, I'm

not one hundred percent, I just want to make sure I can see you later

today," Sean said.Oliver squeezed his paws, "if I could I'd kiss you Sean,

I'll see you soon.""If I could, I'd do quite a lot more," Sean said."I want that to be you," Oliver said, "the

first that I have willingly."Sean stood still for a moment, "I hate what happened

to us I want you to feel loved.""I do Sean, I was going to call my parents today or

tomorrow on Paul's phone, you've given me the confidence too," Oliver said."Why would you need Paul's phone did yours

break?" Sean asked."They won't answer for mine," Oliver said.Sean moved like he was going to hug Oliver but stopped at

the last second, "they don't deserve you, and neither do I... but I have

to go, let me know whenever you need me, I'll come running.""It's ok Sean-""Promise me! I want to be there," he insisted."Fine Sean, I'll call, or text, if Ever I need you,"

Oliver said, with Sean appeased they held paws then Sean left.Oliver couldn't relax it was too exciting that Sean was

doing better."Wait Sean got inside I must have left the door

unlocked again, I'm horrible at that," Oliver thought.He paced the room then walked through his place with

nervous energy. He found Sean had re-stuffed the pillow he tore before bed and

left a note, "this is why I need you to pick out tougher blankets and

covers for my place, I like my pillows stuffed."Oliver sniffed the pillow to scent Sean again, it gave

him a head rush and a bit of a boner.Oliver nuzzled the pillow imagining it was Sean while he

pawed off.Then he showered and got on MuzzleBook still not sleepy.He scrolled through posts and photos of former friends

that wouldn't talk to him. The pangs of loss and for family stirred. It didn't

matter they wouldn't message or care to hear from him.His sister had blocked him on MuzzleBook but he saw many

of her posts through her husband's page. He hadn't cared or had been too lazy

to block him. He looked at his niece and nephew wondering if they remembered

him or if the family even mentioned him."They probably don't, and won't," he said to

himself.Before he signed off, a chat window from Jill popped

open, "Hey, Oliver your up early?!!""Yeah Jill I got woken up, yay... why are you

up?" Oliver sent."Oh had to go to the doctor," she sent"Is everything ok?" He sent."Yeah I think so just some discomfort and mom

freaked out, don't tell Paul, I have enough crazy to handle right now,"

she sent."I won't just as long as your heading up like you said,"

he sent."Oh yeah Tanner is picking me up at the

airport," she sent."I'm looking forward to seeing you, but be

forewarned Paul is going to show you off," he sent and yawned finally starting

to calm down."Yeah I wish it was on the weekend then Danielle and

Timothy could come too," She sent."Paul was telling Tanner to drive safe because more

furs die in car crashes then in planes," Oliver sent."Mother goddess he needs to relax," she sent."I'm calling my family today," he sent then

headed to the bathroom."But they shunned you, I love my parents but if I

were you, I don't know if I could forgive them for that," she sent."Well it's forgive or remain bitter and

miserable," he sent then peed and brushed his teeth again to complete the

bedtime routine."I don't know if I could do it but more power to

you, my turns here the nurse is calling me, ttys," she sent.Oliver lay down to get back to sleep and was in a dozen

before sleep, when the door buzzer went off."For Prime sake!" Oliver snapped as the buzzer

continued.Oliver flung back the covers and stormed to the intercom,

"who is it, it's well past midnight?!""Oliver its Xander, I'm here with Neal," the

intercom chimed back."Please tell me you're joking," Oliver snapped."That's what I said, but he made me come," Neal

said."I need you both and Neal you shouldn't be alone

neither should Sean," Xander said."He's going all herd dog because Sean hit his dad,

and I uhm... vented" Neal said."Fine, I'll buzz you in," Oliver said then a

few seconds after he buzzed he realized what they said.He was frozen in thought when Xander burst through the

door then back peddled into Neal."Well hello, handsome Tiger," Neal said which

snapped Oliver out of his thoughts.Oliver dashed into his bedroom. "Don't get dressed on my account, I like

tigers," Neal said following."Neal you're partnered!" Xander said."Yes but I can enjoy a good view, other things too,

and we are all friends, right?" Neal asked, his small ears perked."Uhm we're acquaintances," Oliver said then

stepped into pajama bottoms."See I'm a close friend of Sean's we should get to

know each other, you should meet my man Fred," Neal said."Simmer down big guy!" Xander said, "We

are here for Sean.""You're here for Sean... and I am here because I

can't be alone apparently," Neal said and checked out Oliver again,

"Well it just so happens I think you might be right, Xander, I definitely

can't be alone tonight.""Xander you said Sean hit his dad?" Oliver asked."Yeah about time, well he should have just told him

he was pissed and not hit him but the message was communicated," Neal said."Sean confronted his dad about the therapy, after he

came too," Xander said."Shit really? He didn't tell me that," Oliver said."So I heard your nickname, once, I think, its Boots

right? Is that cause your into leather, I mean that would be hot, you'd look

good in leather," Neal said."Neal what's wrong with you your acting weird?"

Xander asked."Nothing I'm fine," Neal said staring at Oliver."Wait a minute Sean got most of his Tiger porn from

you! Neal go to the living room!" Xander said."Hey, I'm an adult," Neal said."Then act like it," Xander snapped."Fine... I'll try," Neal said with the same

goofy grin he had had since seeing Oliver naked."So he and Sean both have a thing for tigers?" Oliver

asked."Yeah that's how we tried to break the Aversion

therapy, didn't work... well apart from making it easy to get hard, for guys

like you," Neal said, "I was trying to get back with an otter, my

high school boyfriend and Sean back to canids. I mean I got mostly past the

aversion but not enough to save that relationship, just had to learn to

relax.""It didn't work?" Oliver asked."Sorta, I just got kinky as shit, all the tiger

porn, I ah, 'found' was pain fetish shit," Neal said."So that explains a bit about... ah never mind. Well

Sean came by to get his allergy meds then headed home," Oliver said."Well thanks I'm going to let you get some

sleep," Xander said."Oh yeah I should help you unwind," Neal said."Have you met Sean's mom I can be just as

disapproving," Oliver said.Neal's dopey grin broadened and his tail started wagging."Oliver you're not helping things," Xander

groaned."I'm game, I'll come to you on my knees, but I'd

prefer to cum on your boots Boots!" Neal said them moved toward Oliver."Nope, nope, nope, come on Neal you're embarrassing

us, mostly yourself though," Xander said and grabbed Neal by the arm and started

dragging him out of the apartment."But I don't need to go," Neal said."Yes you do!" Xander said."Oliver we are friends now I can stay?" Neal

pleaded."Ah, I actually, kind of want to go get some

sleep," Oliver said."You'll sleep better after, I can make sure of

it," Neal said as Xander dragged him bodily out the door, "hey you

are so lame Xander!"

After they left Oliver said, "that otter is

insane, kind of cute but insane."