Feeling a little lost
#16 of I'm Real (scales & wings)
well here you go readers chapter 15
warning this chapter contains m/m so if your not into that you don't have to read it
otherwise enjoy
Chapter 15
Feeling a little lost
I always said I loved you ... but I hurt you
I don't want to be like my old self
I just want to keep you with me always
Why did you show me that memory?
It haunts my mind... and there is no way for it to be unseen
I'm sorry for what I did ... I hope you've forgiven me, but I feel like you already have, you never show the want for vengeance... why do you still care for me?
I woke up to my reality, protected by my wings and Ray still sleeping on my chest
He looked somewhat peaceful in his sleep compared to his panic yesterday
The light from outside made a slight glow from the top of my wings, I slowly opened them to reveal the early daylight
I felt Ray stir; I looked down at him just as he was opening his eyes
"Morning" I said to him
He smiled and hugged me "good morning"
"You seem to be feeling better"
"Yea ... I am feeling better" he let go and stood up "should we head out?"
I stood up also "alright, maybe we'll find Tye today" I could only hope so
It was early morning and no one seemed to be out on the streets, so I held onto Ray and flew off towards the water
We reached the lake map and I set Ray down so he could look at it
There's one island here but it's unlisted so I'm not sure what's on it" he explained
"Then we should check it out anyway, this has to be the right place it's the only part of the lake left to search"
Yea... alright let's go"
I held onto Ray and begun to fly over the water
As we flew over I saw a few large fish jump out of the water and fall back in, for being this close to a city the lake was still full of life
We reached the island and looked around I saw a structure in the distance
Could that be it?
The place I've been searching for?
We ran closer, my vision getting clearer
And then a realization hit me
This wasn't the place... Tye wasn't here
Ray bumped into my back when I stopped
"What happened? Why'd you stop?" he asked
I slouched over
"He's not here... and this was the last part of the lake"
I sat down and covered my eyes with my claws
Where could he be?
I thought I was getting close ... I felt crushed, I would never find my friend
I felt Ray's hand touch my arm "I'm sorry..." Ray sat next to me and leaned at my side
I needed someone to hug, and Ray was the only one here
I grabbed onto Ray and squeezed him
He seemed to rub up against me as I sobbed
"It's alright I'm here" he whispered
For some reason that didn't make me feel any better, sure I wanted someone here with me, but it just didn't feel right
I continued to cry I felt so lost, I felt so helpless
I remember continuing until the shadow of the trees around us covered over
I was too depressed to fly... I was to tired to do anything right now, I closed my eyes as just to rest
"Master" my wolf called out to me
I was happy to hear his voice even through my sadness
He came up to me and I hugged him, I lifted him into the air so he could be closer to my body
He put his arms around me and spoke
"I love you master"
Those words... they soothe my heart and mind
He snuggled my chest as I rolled over onto my back, he lay there on my chest
"Master you seem to be upset"
I guess he can still see right through me
"I ..." I mumbled
"It's alright, I already know I've been watching you" he said crawling up to eye level "I want to help you master" he kissed me opening his mouth just enough to let my tongue slide in
I explored his maw the taste was like cool water with a warm breeze from his nostrils
He separated from the kiss
"Just tell me master what you need me to do to make you feel better"
"uhhh..." he didn't let me finish
He crawled lower onto my body and groped my testes
"how about we try to have some fun to cheer you up"
I smirked, he was really trying to get me aroused, and it was working
He licked my sac before popping one of my testes into his muzzle
He moistened my lower area making sure everything was covered in his slobber before moving on to the other side
It felt so good feeling his tongue on me made my appendage come up and harden quickly
He then began to stroke my appendage with his paw
He released my testes from his muzzle and made his way up to my hardened length
He took a rough lick at my sensitive meat
I moaned lightly and looked right at him, he was staring back at me with his maw wide open waiting for me to make the next move
I put my claw on the back of his head and pushed him down onto my length slowly
His warm mouth covered my length almost all of the way before I pulled his head back up, I felt his mouth tighten around my rod suckling heavily
His tongue teased my tip, it was almost unbearable
I pushed his head along my length as he slurped up my pre
"mmm... very good" I moaned
I used my other claw to hold onto his side as I pulled his body and turned him around, making his tail wave in my face as he continued to suck on my meat
I raised his tail and put my muzzle next to his tailhole
I let go of his head letting him continue the motions on his own and I grabbed onto his hip
I let out a warm breath as I opened my mouth releasing my forked tongue
I licked at his pucker before pushing my way in, I licked at his insides and yet again he tasted like nothing
I let go of his tail letting it drop onto my head and used my claw to grab onto his erect length
I lightly pumped him making him moan onto my meat, I knew he would approve
I continued to pump him slowly increasing speed
I pushed my tongue further inside him and found just the right spot, he spurted pre from his tip and I used that to help lubricate him
I could feel my climax approaching
I heard my wolf moan loudly muffled by my meat down his throat
His tailhole clenched around my tongue and I felt his warm liquid seed shoot out onto my claw and drip down onto my body
He forced his head down one more time as I felt my release
I shot my load up into his muzzle and down his throat; his tongue lapping up what it could letting whatever he couldn't take in drip below from the sides of his muzzle
I slowly pulled my tongue from his clenched hole and brought up my cum covered claw, I licked it clean of my wolf's cum, the sweet taste filling my senses
I felt his muzzle easing off of my length exposing it to the cool air as it slowly went flaccid
"Master he coughed lightly as I turned him around to look at him "you cum a lot" he said taking a gulp of air
I chuckled a little licking the cum from his fur
"Are you feeling better master?" he asked giggling as my tongue ran along his face
"Yes my pet" I said squeezing him and finishing all the cum that was left
He snuggled me "good... I love you master"
"I love you to... I wish you were out there with me" I said quietly
He whimpered
"You know I want the same thing ..." he paused for a moment "I'm sorry master... so sorry" he began to cry into my chest
Why is it he was sorry? Would it matter...?
I'd forgive him
I held him closely and began to rub his back
"Please don't cry... you have nothing to be sorry for" I lifted his head up to mine and kissed him warmly, I wanted to show him that even when he was sad I could be there for him
When I pulled away from the kiss I looked him in the eyes
"What kind of a master am I if my pet is always sad?" I nuzzled his neck "don't be sad, one day we'll be together forever"
"... I know master" he wiped away his tears "still; I want to be out there with you..."
I took a short moment to think
"... Would we have ever met?" I questioned
"We'd be destined to... nothing could stop that"
We sat there holding each other
He snuggled me again "I would have been S.O.T" he giggled lightly and then disappeared
"S.O.T?" I said to myself
What could he mean?
Could it have something to do with us meeting?
I woke up to the evening light, the sun was almost setting the orange and red glow from afar shimmered on my scales
I noticed Ray was no longer in my hold
"Ray" I called out looking around for the human, I spotted him sitting next to a small pond starring into it with great focus
I got up and walk over to him
He spotted my reflection in the water and he looked at me
"Ray are you alright?" I asked
He smirked and then frowned "I should be asking you that" he said
"I'm feeling better..."
"That's good ... Dachii I really liked it when you held me like that" he said quietly
"Then why did you leave?" I asked
"Because..." he looked away "I couldn't handle it"
"What do you mean?" I asked confused
"Dachii... I'm sorry... maybe it would have been better if we had never met... or if I hadn't come with you... Dachii, I ..." he looked like he was going to cry
He pulled his knees up to his chest, put his head between his knees and covered himself over with his arms
"Just leave me here, and go find your friend" he said muffled through his clothing
"But I can't find him without your help" I said putting my claw on his back
He raised his head to look at me, I could see tears running down his face "Dachii, without me, you'd be home already, you'd be with your friend... I sorry Dachii... I've only been stalling for time... I just... I just wanted to be with you more"
Is this really all he's been doing? Just setting me up so he could spend more time with me
Why would he do this?
It was just stupid, how could he think so selfishly?
I grabbed onto the collar of his shirt and lifted him to eye level
"Is that what you've been doing? Lying to me!" I shouted
The look on his face was of pure fear as he nodded but then it changed to one of just hurt like it wasn't me causing him pain
"Why would you do this?" I yelled again
And then it hit me
I was acting the same way I was in the memory, getting angry, trying to hurt someone, it just made no sense, was this the reason my wolf showed me that memory?
"I'm sorry... I just wanted to be with you..." he said quietly "are you going to kill me?" he asked in a more scared voice
I lowered him as my rage dwindled from the thought, I was still angry but I knew nothing would come from hurting this kid
"No..." is all I said, I let go of him and he dropped to the floor
But then he did something unexpected, he got on his knees and kept his head down as if there was nothing more left for him
"I think you should... I've caused you enough problems and where else am I to go? I'm going to die soon anyway I can't survive on my own... so you might as well kill me now, you'd be saving me from more pain"
He sounded like he had given up, why do those words bring back memories of my own pain
My heart ached from hearing him say that, he wanted me to kill him, now I know how Ace felt
"What good am I to you if I've only been holding you back" he said
I've heard enough
I smacked him on the shoulder sending him to the floor
"Shut up!" I yelled at him, he looked up at me weakly
"I'd be a hypocrite if I denied you the right to die, but right now I don't think you deserve it...I get how you feel... but all I need from you right now is to tell me the truth... what did you do?"
He had tears flowing down his face, maybe I had over reacted...
I got closer to him and kneeled down "please just tell me" I said in a calmer voice, I picked him up and cradled him in my arms to try and calm him down
"I... I've been leading you to places that I knew no one else would be" he answered still a little fear could be heard in his voice
"Why?"
"I just wanted to be with you..." he struggled to get out of my hold "but when you finally got close to me... I just couldn't handle the guilt"
I was saddened and flattered that he would do all of this just to be closer to me
"Now even when I'm with you...it'll always hurt... Dachii there's nothing I can do to make this up to make up for what I did... so if you care at all, you'd kill me now... and if you don't, just leave me here... to die alone..." he stepped into the pond and then sat at the edge letting his legs dangle into the water
I didn't want to kill him, even if he lied to me and led me away from Tye, he was so young and had the chance to do so much more... maybe even find someone for real
I used my tail to wrap around his waist and lift him out of the water; I pulled him to eye level
"There is a way you can make it up to me... if you're interested" I said
"Anything...please"
"There are two conditions; one of them is your going to really help me find my friend"
"And the other?" he asked
I grinned
"You're going to really enjoy the other one"
End of Chapter 15
how do you think Dachii is feeling knowing he could hurt someone when he's angry?
do you think Dachii will ever really forgive Ray for keeping him away from Tye?
what does S.O.T mean?
all of those questions to be answered soon enough keep reading people
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