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Despite the things that happened with Rhylie, I didn't want to give in to it. Not anymore. Not now when everything was getting better. During that time, I started to realize that things were easier if I confronted myself naked. It's a silly thing to think like that but you're more vulnerable if you're naked. You'd be confronted directly to the things that were bothering you... Both psychically and mentally... At least, that was the case for me... Sometimes I just sat down in front of the mirror naked, staring myself in the eyes for a long time. Wondering if I really knew that person who I was seeing in the mirror. It felt as if I got more familiar with myself... And then one night... I thought... "No wonder Rhylie wanted you so bad. Just look at you. With you're fine firm tits and ass... She had the nerve to desecrate you're beautiful pussy..." And I know that sounds really cocky and arrogant but I never said those things about myself out loud... I only thought it... And it only made me feel better whenever Ceylan was caressing my bum or watched me getting undressed. But still... Forgetting about what happened with Rhylie was a difficult thing...

Luckily, Ceylan was helping me with that issue while she wasn't realizing it. It was the little simple things and even though we didn't have sex yet, she did those simple things like caressing my bum, kissing my neck, and kept telling me how beautiful I am... Those simple things caused me to feel aroused and sometimes when I was alone, I touched myself while I was thinking of her... And one night... It took its toll... I couldn't hold myself anymore...

Ceylan and I had a movie night at my place one night. We were just cuddling on the couch while we stuffed ourselves with snacks and all that, and once we finally picked a DVD to watch, I turned the DVD-player on and insert the DVD in the tray. But the moment I pressed play, all the lights went out, and every electric device lost power... 'Uh... The hell did I just do...?' I asked...

'Probably a plug fuse or something. Where's you're meter cupboard?'

'Down the hall...'

'You happen to have a plug fuse?'

'Yeah, hold on.'

I carefully made my way to the pantry closet, feeling every obstacle in the way. Then all of a sudden, I heard a loud thud... 'Ow!! Damn it!!'

'What?! What's wrong?!'

'I can't see a thing!'

'Wait, I'll bring a flashlight.'

So once I found the closet, I felt around until I found my flashlight. I turned it on and it was so bright all of a sudden... Then I got out a plug fuse, and went to Ceylan in the hallway. She looked relieved to see that I had a flashlight, and once I gave her the flashlight and the plug fuse, she shined around in the meter cupboard... 'You really need to get you're eyes checked out...'

'Yeah... I can't see shit whenever it's dark... I can't imagine myself with glasses...'

'Glasses can be sexy...'

'Yeah but- Oh, here it is.'

'What?'

'Safety-fuses.'

'I never understood how it worked...'

'It's easy. You need to replace the plug fuse and switch it back on.'

'Oh...'

'But... There's nothing wrong with these fuses... Nothing is working in the others room, right?'

'No, nothing works.'

'Hm.'

The moment I looked back at the curtains, I noticed it was awfully dark too... Normally, you could see light shining a bit through the curtains but... Nothing this time. So I went back to the living-room and moved the curtains aside. And I could see a small part of the city was covered in darkness. Must be a power outage or something... A couple of moments later, I noticed Ceylan came back while she held the flashlight and illuminated her way through the darkness. And then... The flashlight died out... And not long after that, I heard another thud... 'OW!! Damn it!!'

'What happened?'

'I hurt my toes...'

'Hehehe...'

'What, it really hurts!'

'Just sit down. I'll get a couple of batteries.'

I couldn't really see in the darkness, so I "felt" my way through. I guided Ceylan back to the couch and made my way to a drawer, where I knew I was keeping batteries. I opened the drawer and felt around... Double A batteries... Finally found them after grabbling for a while, and then I felt something rather long and... Hard... I found a couple of candles. Haha... Got ya there, didn't I? Anyway, I grabbled around some more and I even found a candle lighter. So I took the candles and the lighter and carefully made my way back... I got hold of the flashlight and inserted the new batteries but turning them on didn't work... I couldn't separate the positive from the negative contacts... 'Maybe you need to turn them around...' Ceylan said. So I did, but it still didn't work... The batteries were empty... "Oh great..." So there was no other option then to light up the candles. I carefully made my way to the kitchen to see if I had empty bottles. Just two small bottles of red wine... I'm not much of a drinker, but I love to drink red wine every now and then. So I took the bottles with me and filled it up with water. Then carefully made my way through the darkness again and placed the candles in the bottles... I took the lighter, light up the candles and gently placed them on the table... And viola, there was light. Well not much but... Its better than nothing. And I noticed that Ceylan was sitting on the ground, in front of the couch. So I sat next to her... 'How's this?'

'Better... I can see you now...'

'You really need to get you're eyes checked...'

'Yeah... I just need a bit of light to see at night... '

'Hehe... So how's you're knee?'

'It still hurts...'

'Lemme see...'

So I took Ceylan's leg and gently started to massage her knee... She had this little scratch just below her knee... I gently kept caressing her leg and kissed her knee to make it feel better... And then... I made slowly made my way to her lower leg... Her legs are just so beautiful... Nice and firm yet so elegant and slender... Her legs deserved attention... So I kissed her leg and stopped at her ankle... Then I remembered she hurt toes as well... And this really aroused feeling ran through my body... When I looked at Ceylan, I could see she had her eyes closed while she had a little smile on her face... Should I do it or not...? I shouldn't just kiss it... It takes time... So I let my fingers go over her paw, and slowly made way to her sole... Unlike Meagan, Ceylan wasn't ticklish, and I could touch her paw however I liked... Her pads on the bottom of her foot felt so soft... It's like a cushion... I kept rubbing her toes and by the looks on her face, she likes it... I never did this to her before... And she never did that to me as well. I don't even know if she had this thing for paws but... She certainly liked that I paid attention to her feet... Their so big and... Sexy... And after I was rubbing her paw for a while, I took her paw and gently pressed my lips against.... I did that with all of her toes and with every kiss I gave, the more arousal I started to feel... And then I looked at her for a moment and well... Hesitated... Would she take it the wrong way if I did...? Would it still be "too soon"...? 'Ceylan...?'

'Hmmm...?'

'What made you fell in love with me...?'

'You're smile... I really like you're smile...'

'Hehehehe...'

'What made you fell in love with me...?'

'Heh... It was the way you interacted with people... You always hugged and kissed people on the cheeks and laughed a lot... And I just wished I could be a part of that one day...'

'Aww...'

'Well yeah... And... Look where we are now... I consider myself very lucky that you managed to hold out with me for so long...'

'What makes you say that...?'

'Well... I hurt you're feelings and...'

'It wasn't easy for the both of us...'

'Yeah but... I had the feeling as if I made it worse, you know...'

'But we got through, dushi... No need to think of that anymore...'

'Heh...'

It stayed silent for a while as I was caressing her paw... My fingers kept circling around her soft pads... It felt like soft leather...

'Do you remember when we first talked...?'

'Yeah... That was before you got with Terry...'

'Hmm-mm... You tripped over a doorstop the moment I got through the door and dropped you're papers...'

'Well actually, you just slammed the door in my face.'

'By accident... I didn't see you... '

'Yeah, by accident... Hehehehe... My nose was bleeding...'

'I scared the shit out of myself when I saw you on the ground bleeding... And yet people were laughing.'

'I thought it was very sweet to stand up for me...'

'Hehehehe...'

'No really, I mean, you kept sitting at the table with me, coming back during the breaks, and kept apologizing and asking if I was still okay...'

'Myeah... The moment you left, you kept looking at me, smiling nervously which almost caused you to trip again...'

'Hehehehe... Yeah... I'm still embarrassed by that...'

'Hmm-mm... And I think those short moments we had that did it for me...'

'I think that smile of yours did it for me...'

'Aww...'

'Heh...'

'Have you always been a romanticist, Nic...?'

'I guess... I just love to cuddle and to kiss with you and... That's all I need...'

'Hmm-mm...'

It stayed silent for a long time again... Ceylan's smile was wiped off of her face... She had her eyes closed while I was scratching her paws again... I could see that she was thinking... Maybe she was getting desperate... So maybe it was time to tell her everything. To be open about it, and to show her my sexual desires and needs... Every desire and fantasy I ever cherished... Things that turned me on... And ask her what turns her on... I've never been open about the sex... Not even towards Ceylan... I always kept it to myself... But I wanted my sex-life I back once had... And I realized the only way for us to get that back was to tell her everything... That night, it couldn't have been more of a perfect moment to take the first step... 'I-I got this paw-fetish thing...' I said quietly... The moment I said that, she opened her eyes and looked baffled at me... But then a beautiful smile appeared on her face... 'I love you're paws... I also like it when... When you're wearing stockings and tights... I love you're breasts... You're hips... Legs... Eyes... You're so caring whenever we're spending the night together... The night we first slept together came really unexpected... And maybe I wasn't ready for it back then... But you made me explore every inch of you're body that night... It seemed as if a whole new world opened up for me... So even though it went too fast for me to understand, I cant say that it was a mistake... I'm glad you gave me an opportunity to experience it... And even though it's been a long time since we slept together, I still think about our first time... How you made me feel that night... And every night we spend together, that special feeling always came back... I just want to make you feel the same as I did...'

"Wow... Look at her, she's speechless..." Ceylan blinked a couple of times, while she looked very baffled at me... But that quickly changed into a weak smile as I saw her blushing... I never saw her like this before... 'Uh... Hehehehe...'

'What...?'

'That was so sweet...'

'Heh...'

'Did you really mean that...?'

'Y-Yes...'

She kept looking at me, and I guess she didn't really know what to do while I felt so nervous... But then, I finally did it... I lifted my shirt up and looked at Ceylan while she looked at my exposed belly... Ceylan looks a bit surprised when I did that. Normally, I'm not the one taking the initiative. She just looked at me with a smile... And then I took my shirt off... While I wasn't wearing a bra underneath... Ceylan continued to smile at me, and her smile became even bigger once I had my top off... 'Aww...'

'Wh-What...?'

'You're blushing...'

'Heh...'

While I started to kiss her paw again, she slowly moved her other paw down to my stomach... And then made its way to my inner thighs... She knows now that I have that paw fetish thing and used it against me turn me on instead... And then she gently moved her paw between my legs... Going further until they touched the right spot, gently teasing me with her paw while she placed her other paw against my lips... But this time, I couldn't hold myself anymore... I started to kiss and lick her paw while she kept moving her other paw around between my legs... It was so unbearable to get teased like that... I never got so aroused that quickly before. And staring at her while she had this innocent smile on her face only made it feel better... As if she wasn't aware of the pleasures she was giving me. And I only wanted more... Except I still felt really nervous... And then Ceylan stopped with what she was doing... She moved over to me and she cuddled me while she was caressing my hair... 'Nikki...?'

'Y-Yes...?'

'Why are you so nervous...?'

'I-I eh...'

'It's okay... Make me feel how I made you feel...'

To me, it felt as if she was teaching me on how to please her by saying that... I certainly wanted her to enjoy my pathetic attempts at pleasing her... And I wanted my fantasies to become true. I wanted to go down on her, to finger her, to kiss her all over her body and I wanted her to reach an orgasm... Except I never did those things to her, because I felt so insecure about myself whenever I was thinking about it... It prevented me from actually doing it. I know that Ceylan wants me to go down on her... Except the strange thing is, I wasn't feeling insecure when I was doing it with Meagan... It's so strange... And I didn't know what caused it... Maybe it's because it was Meagan's third time doing it with a girl and well... Ceylan used to have sex with lots of girls... Or at least, I think she did... She once told me that she's "not like that anymore" which gave me a hunch... But I never judged her by that... Ceylan experienced every feeling she could feel, while Meagan only started to feel it... It felt to me as if I was lacking the experience to have sex with Ceylan... But that night, I wanted Ceylan so bad... We haven't had sex in a long, long time... And now that I was so close, I wasn't planning to give up so quickly... So I remembered everything she ever did to me... And use that on her instead... I can do this... I know I can...

I placed my hand on her stomach while I kissed her neck. It started out with gentle kisses, until I gently licked her neck... With my hand on her stomach, I moved up... Just above her breasts, scratching her chest fluff... I felt how her heartbeat was going faster... I lifted her top up to expose her belly, and kissed her stomach, slowly making my way up... She lifted her arms up while I took her top off... And I saw her small breasts... She wasn't wearing a bra either... And I like her breasts... Her breasts are so firm and round... With every gentle stroke with the tips of my fingers over her nipples, I could hear she slowly took a deep breathe and started to relax... I saw she had her eyes closed... Ceylan never looked so gorgeous before... The candle light made everything look so romantic... I realized that I had to cherish this moment I had with her... The moment I looked at her face, and saw her expression while she had her eyes closed only made me more confident... She actually liked what I was doing to her... And sucking on her nipples only adds to her pleasures... It was so cute to see.... I realized how lucky I was to witness that... I unbuttoned her jeans as I started to kiss her stomach again... Teasing her by unbuttoning one button at a time, followed by kisses that only went down from that point on... When I ran out of buttons, I slowly pulled her jeans down to her knees and started to kiss her thighs... Slowly pulled her jeans down and removed them while I was gently kissing her legs... Then I reached her paws... Kissing and licking and sucking on her toes... When I looked at her, I noticed that she had her hand down her thongs, touching herself... I shouldn't give her the satisfaction... I thought I had to seduce her... And not to seduce herself... So I got hold of her hand and gently removed it from her thongs... She opened her eyes and looked at me... 'Be patient... I'm getting to that...' I said with a smile while she bit her upper lip... Hihi... Aww... Just look at her... I'm starting to get the hang of it... So once she removed her hands, I touched her inner thighs, followed by gentle kisses... I looked at her and saw in her eyes that she wanted me to... But I didn't... I let my index finger gently go over her pussy, teasing her by avoiding her clitoris... I noticed her pussy started to get wet... So I teased her again by kissing the fabric of her thong... I saw that she was blushing... Never saw her blushing before... She wasn't asking for it, but I could see that she wanted it so bad... So I slowly pulled her thong down... I knew what I had to do... To make this memorable.... To prove that I know how to please her... It felt as if I had to pass a test or something... But I wasn't nervous anymore... I knew exactly what to do... So I spread her sweet, juicy lips, and rubbed my index finger in between, going up and down slowly, poking her clitoris every time I moved up... 'H-Hahh... A-Ah... U-Uh...' Ceylan panted quietly... 'Sssssh...' With every soft squeak she let out, I felt the tingles. It started the moment I was rubbing her paws... And they only got more intense from that point on... So I kept rubbing her...

I saw her face and couldn't resist smiling when I saw her expression... I never saw her like this, being so timid and held back... I knew I was doing a good job and that she certainly enjoyed what I was doing... I was intending to only make it better... Then I blew out the candles... Gently pushed her legs apart... And stick my head in between... 'N-Nikki...? I-I can't see...!'

'Sssssh... I'm here, baby...'

I felt with my tongue for the right spot... I couldn't see it clearly in the dark, so I could only guess where it was... Her breathing and quiet moans were the only things I could hear... So I finally did what I wanted to do right from the start... I unbuttoned my jeans and let my hand down my own panties while I kept kissing and licking Ceylan between her legs... It didn't take long before I started to finger myself while I could hear her gasping and moaning quietly... I had to do my best to fight the urge to sit on her face... Because I promised myself I would fully pay attention to her that night... But that didn't mean my needs couldn't be satisfied... So I took my jeans and panties off... And kept tasting her for a while... With every gentle lick, I heard how she gasped for air, trying to take control of her body... 'N-Nikki...! O-Oh...!' Maybe it was finally happening to her what she wanted for such a long time. And if it was gonna happen, I wanted to see it... I wanted to be with her when it happened... So I moved her legs up and I got in between them, trying to get as close as possible. It took a moment before we were comfortable in our position... But once we were... And I felt how my pussy touched with hers and how wet we were... Something just snapped inside of me... All those years I bottled up my fantasies and desires were finally released that night... The fact that I had sex before didn't mean anything to me that night... To me, it felt as if I was having sex for the very first time again... That night, it felt as if everything went like my fantasies portrayed it... And it was a wonderful experience... And I couldn't think... All I could do was to stare in her eyes while she stared right back at me while she quietly uttered my name... As if we became one... I felt how Ceylan was touching my back... And everything she did felt so sensitive... It really felt like my fantasies... Every desire I had became true that night... Going up and down... Feeling her gentle kisses in my neck... Whispering in my ear that she loves me so much... Ceylan and I weren't having sex together... We were making love with each other in the dark... And I never pictured it like this.... But truly experiencing it for the first time was wonderful... Touching, feeling, hearing her in every way imaginable for a long time... And then we felt the most desired feeling of them all...

Everything changed ever since that night... It only lasted for one night but that night seemed to last forever and it made all the differences we had to make in order to set everything right... Ceylan once told me she has difficulty to reach an orgasm... She also told me that she doesn't need one to enjoy it... But that didn't mean that she doesn't want to feel it... It was the very first time that I saw her reach her climax... And she was exhausted... I cuddled her while we were recovering... All she did was gently biting my neck-scruff... Ceylan kept rubbing her muzzle against my cheek and her scent was just everywhere... I scratched her behind her ear as she started to purr very quietly... And it didn't take long for us to fall asleep in each others arms... That very same night, our sex life was back... As if it never really went away... And our sex life was better then ever...