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When it was Xander's turn all he wanted to do was give Sean

a hug. He avoided the IV needle in Sean's shaved right elbow and the tubes for

the breath mask, by leaning over Sean's left side. He said, "I'm sorry for everything that happened, I

forgive you that you couldn't keep your promise, please just please get

better."Xander lay his head on Sean's bare chest till there was a

loud, womp womp womp, on the window behind him. Everyone was looking away

embarrassed, but for a glaring Papa Miller who is pointing down. That's when Xander

realized he just mooned most of his friends and family."Damnit, Sean, I'm never going to live this down, if

you were awake you'd make it better somehow," Xander said.Making sure he was covered this time, Xander licked the

side of Sean's muzzle.Sean stirred sniffing the air but still did not awaken.Then to Xander's horror he saw a tent forming in the

blanket near Sean's crotch.He ran to the window closing the blinds and locked the

door.There was a knock at the door, Papa Miller asked, "Xander

what are you doing?""Its private," Xander blurted."Let me in there," Papa Miller snapped."Fine but just you," Xander said.He opened the door and let Papa Miller in, Papa Miller asked,

"What's so embarrassing, I know how you feel for Sean, I understand if

you... Oh.""It wasn't me," Xander said uncomfortably."Obviously, I'll take everyone to dinner, text me

when he's settled down so to speak," Papa Miller said then left the half-naked

and half aroused Xander alone with Sean.Xander locked the door and tried to think of less sexy thoughts

but lick a magnet his eyes kept moving back to Sean's tented blanket. He felt

himself get hard and tent his own gown."No you idiot they could smell it, so could Paul,"

Xander said to himself."Well maybe just a peek wouldn't hurt, I mean Sean's

naked around me all the time," Xander thought.He moved back to the bed and started to pull back the

blanket.Womp womp womp, "hey Xander are you still in

their?" Oliver asked through the intercom.Xander yelped practically jumping out of his skin, "yeah

I'm here he called back.""Open the blinds Xander, what are you hiding?" Paul

asked."Its personal and I don't think I should," Xander

said."No one else is here," Oliver said."Fine but don't laugh," Xander said."I won't but can't make any promises for Paul,"

Oliver said.Xander debated hoping he might settle but things didn't

so he opened the curtains.Oliver and Paul stared for a moment."So they all left, the both of you, in that

state?" Paul asked."They really must want them to be together," Oliver

said."No he just got hard and his dad made everyone

leave," Xander said."So why are you hard?" Paul asked."I don't know, and of all the damn times, would one

of you get my clothes?" Xander asked."I kinda like you like that. Oliver let's just watch

it's like a fish tank," Paul said."So he's a show-er and a grow-er too, I see," Oliver

said."Oh ha ha, the peanut gallery can stop, get my

clothes," Xander snapped."You know Sean getting hard is probably a good sign

that he's not in danger," Oliver said."Xander close the blinds before we go, then we'll

get you your clothes," Paul said."Thanks," he closed the blinds then leaned back

against the wall and slowly sank to the floor.All the times Sean had told him without saying

everything, flooded his mind and he thought, "Sean can't get hard from me

anymore, so why is he now?"I sat in the

passenger seat of Sean's car as we rumbled down 15th Ave near to the turn off

for our new apartment. "We' get to live together for the first time, I

can't believe it," I thought."Sean what do

you want to do first?" I asked."Unpack,"

Sean said."Well duh, but

I mean it's our place no sisters or parents," I said."Let's get the

tv and DVD player set up, I got Monk season six from Netflix," Sean said."Sweet, we can

just chill in our boxers, this is going to be great," I said excited in a

few ways."We can order

pizza mom gave me thirty bucks to cover dinner while we unpack," Sean said."She rocks

man, so what are your first classes?" I asked."I have Intro

to college, geo 100, and persuasive writing." Sean said."Nice I wonder

if we have the same intro class, I have that, US history, and stats," I said

wishing we had more classes together."Stats and

history your first quarter dude why are you doing that to yourself?" Sean asked."I want to get

stats out of the way but I could drop history, persuasive writing sounds

interesting," I said,"plus we could

do homework together.""Oh please

homework was just code for jacking it to porn together," Sean said then

parked."So it was

fun, and I was more focused after," I said."Yeah so

focused, 'hey Sean lets watch the next scene,'" Sean said."Why don't we watch

porn together anymore?" I asked."Just cause

man, it was kids stuff doing that together," Sean said, "come on

let's unload the trailer.""I don't think

it's childish to jack with someone you care about," I said.Sean's ears went

back, "come on, sooner we unload, sooner we can have pizza and

chill.""Sweet, when

does the Internet get set up?" I asked."Tomorrow, I

wrote the number for dominos before we headed out," Sean said."I can't

believe mom and momma cried when we drove off, I mean we are only like forty

minutes away," I said."It's weird

Sam and Sharron being so far away," Sean said while we wrestled the couch

up the stairs."Yeah Sharron's

just hunting her back up after well you know," I said."I know but

Sam got into the UW I didn't expect her to choose University of Colorado We

have no family there," Sean said."Maybe, that

was the point," I said.After we got up the

beds, the TV, and the rest of the large furniture, we took a break to order the

Pizza."When does

Papa want the trailer back?" I asked."This weekend,

but I wish it wasn't on the Subaru that long," Sean said."I'm going to

grab more boxes," I said nearly skipping so happy to be on my own with Sean.I grabbed a box and

it was pretty heavy for its size so I popped the top, it was full of DVDs and

on the top was "Stripe Search me Sir" the cover was a bunch of

leather cats being cuffed by cops.When I got to the

apartment, I asked, "hey Sean when did you get into Cats?"Sean choked on his Gatorade,

then spluttered, "Dude put that away, what if someone sees it.""Who cares if

someone sees it, this is Seattle," I said."I just like

it my buddy Neal gave it to me," Sean said."Neal

who?" I asked."Neal Schmitz,

we met at camp," Sean said."Hope Wins?

You never talk about that place," I asked."Yeah I know,

how much is left?" Sean asked."Just clothes

bags and a bunch of boxes," I said."Cool let's

get them," Sean said, "so Uhm, you'll probably meet Neal, he's going

to the U also.""Oh... that's

great," I said and watched Sean take the stairs two at a time. I nearly

carried the porn back down with me, who was this Neal that knew Sean and not

me, that was getting him to experiment with new porn.I was so lost in thought

I didn't realize we were done till Sean caught my arm, "it's all good man

I got the last one we can chill."He then went to

setting up the TV. "Sean why

don't you talk about the camp?" I asked.Sean smacked his

head on the TV stand, "fuck Xander, I don't want to talk about that, I told

you on the trip to Disney.""Ok, I mean,

you seem different, it's like I don't know you now," I said."Maybe you

don't, but it's whatever man, we are still friends and it'll stay that

way," Sean said."Good, so is

this tiger stuff hot?" I asked."Yeah it does

the trick," Sean said.There was a knock

at our door, Sean paid and tipped the Pizza guy."Hey you mind

if I put it on," I asked."Monk?"

He asked."The Tiger

one, I'm curious," I said."Yeah sure you

are, you're probably just horny," Sean said."So? What's

your point it's our place, let's get comfortable," I said."Fine just

make sure the doors locked," Sean said.We snacked on the

pizza and watched the DVD, it was pretty kinky. I wasn't into the hitting or

the whips but the tigers were hot, it was easier watching Sean to stay hard."What's up

don't you like it?" He asked."It's fine,

but your hotter... want to watch 'Knot in the Pack 5' I mean like we used

too," I asked."No man this

is good, you can just watch me, I know you like that," Sean said, his shit

faced grin was to die for."Yeah that

works for me," I said scooting closer.While Sean was

focused on the tv I leaned into lick what he'd never let me taste, but he

pushed me away his erection dropping like a stone."What the fuck

Xander I said watch, Alpha damnit," Sean yelled and stormed off to his

room.I followed, "Sean

I'm sorry I wasn't thinking, are we good man?""Were good but

not Golden man, just do your own thing I need some space," Sean said.There was a knock at the door, next to Xander. "Hey come get your clothes," Paul said through

the door.Thanking the Alpha Xander stood it seemed both he and Sean

had settled down.When he got in the hall Paul sniffed his muzzle, "he

remains a gentlemen you're getting dinner.""Fine but I still get to pick where," Oliver said."Wow guys what kinda guy do you take me for," Xander

said dressing."Well the gossip around the hospital is you're a

flasher," Paul said."It is not... is it Alpha tell me it's not," Xander

cried."No your fine Paul's just having fun, but it's good

you settle down," Oliver said."I just had to think of a less then sexy

memory," Xander said."I used to think of math problems but then I started

getting hard balancing the tills," Paul said."I can't tell if he's joking," Xander said then

texted Papa Miller Sean had settle down and he was getting dinner."Yeah me neither," Oliver said."So what are we having?" Xander asked."Well there's a nearby Pho place that's good, they

put in a ton of brisket and tendon," Oliver said, then added quickly

"its artificial not prey.""Oh cool let's do it," Xander said he kept thinking

back to Sean sniffing him then getting hard. Sean wasn't the same as he was

after that camp. Xander had never been able to get Sean or Neal for that matter

to talk about it."Hey are you ok?" Oliver asked."Kinda yes, kinda no, I mean I'm glad I understand

what's up with Sean better it's just making rethink about all sorts of stuff,

from a different frame work and all," Xander said, as they passed a nurses

station, the two nurses eyes never left him and they were giggling."So apparently you're now famous around the

hospital," Paul said. "Crap we need to go to Harborview from now on,"

Xander said."I'll tell the paramedic that next time Sean goes to

the Hospital," Oliver said, "wow that wasn't funny.""No not at all," Paul said."Oliver when Sean wakes up you have to talk to him

more about that camp, he never talks about it and I think it was the problem, I

mean you were raped and you seem fine," Xander said."Thanks I think, I will, but why are you so sure

it's the camp?" Oliver asked."Neal was sent there too, and neither of them talk

about it, not with me or Fred, that's Neal's partner, and I know Neal said,

once, that he only looked at Otters in high school but afterwards that camp, I

mean I didn't know him before, but it's like otters don't exist to him

anymore," Xander said."Sounds like that camp really knew how to fuck

someone up," Paul said.