Why am I like this?
I've been thinking about suicide lately, I can't kill myself though because kaiser is keeping me from ending what I call my sad and miserable life. I don't want to tell him that though so he doesn't think i'm keeping him back. I also know that i've completly fallen in love with him, but I don't want to surprise him with that and have him run off and i'll never see him again, then I would kill myself for sure.
I guess I should go get some help but I don't want anyone to think i'm crazy. Then they would tell kaiser that i'm crazy and i'll never see him again for sure. The dean told me to take the day off and meet my teachers, find my classes, etc. But all I really want to do is see kaiser. I don't know what i'll do. I'm terrified of telling kaiser that i've fallen completly in love for him, and that he's the only thing in this world that is keeping me from hanging myself, jumping of a bridge or jumping in front of a train as it comes by.
I think i'll try my best and pull myself together because today i'm going to try and tell him. But where should I take him so I could tell him in private? I can't just tell him in our dorm, that's not anywhere special. I know! I'll take him to the seen of where my mom died, it's nice and quiet at night, and it's just over 30ft high, so if I don't pull out my wings i'll die instantly from the impact, but the only way i'll jump is if he says he never wants to see me again or something like that.
Hours have passed and it's now midnight, kaiser is sleeping in his bed and i'm awake waiting for the clock to ring, I programed his clock to ring at midnight....*BRING,BRING*. He wakes up slowly. He notices me getting dressed and he says "ugh.. hun.. why are you getting dressed"? I say "you should to, we're going somewhere". He says "where, and why"? I say "you'll see". We arrive at the bridge and I tell him to stop. I turn and face him, and I say "hun, I know we've only been together for a little while, but, I think I... I, I love you, and ever since the moment I saw you in the hospital I knew that it was you that I would say that to"
Kaiser looked shocked of what I just said. Then, he started kissing me. We just stood there for maybe 2 minutes when he broke the kiss and said that we have to go. He was right. So we started flying away, back to our dorm. When we got inside unseen, I suggested something that I never thought I would say. "let's have sex right here". He looked sort of surprised, but only because of the randomness of the question. "Are you sure". "Yea, I can take most of it". (Witch is completly untrue and I can't believe I said that). He started undressing and yet again I got turned on imediatly by the godly figure that was standing before me. I took off my clothes and I knew imediatly that it's going to hurt a lot. I started sucking it just so I could lube it up.
It worked so now I am bending over my bed, looking at the pole that's about to enter me, but I look away. "please go slow at first, then speed up". "Okay, hun". All i feel is it enter me and I start wincing in pain, but I don't say anything because the pain goes away and all I feel is joy and bliss. So here I am, a dragon who thought they were straight to a dragon getting butt humped by his lover, and I couldn't enjoy it any more. As he enters and exits me i feel him speeding up, and going deeper and deeper. It's only a matter of time before I feel his pelvis on my ass and i'm wondering how I took it so fast. A couple hours of heaven pass. "I'm going to cum"! "Please cum inside me, i want your seed inside me". He let's out a roar as he shoots his seed in my ass. I can't help but moan as I feel it pass through me.
"you haven't gotten to cum yet though, now have you". Then kaiser started sucking me. after a little while I came and he licked it off. My life has gotten a lot better after the move. I'm sure my mom is up in heaven looking down at me, somewhat proud of where I am today.