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Liolyn ran as fast as he could. The cold air sliced at his face and the snow drenched his clothes. His heart was bounding, blood ringing in his ears. His eyes blind, wide and only saw the tree coming towards him.

He didn't know where he was going or what he was going to do. He just needed to run, get away, leave.

His lungs froze and burned at the same time, his chest felt like it was being constricted. He couldn't breathe, couldn't speak. He stumbled, landing in the snow heavily before clambering back up.

Finally, he began to slow, legs getting weaker and weaker. He hadn't eaten in so long, not since that elk demon Kadell killed the first time they met.

Liolyn suddenly clutched a tree and vomited up bile. He coughed, the acid burning his throat and leaving that horrible aftertaste.

He spat, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand and that on his pants. He felt dizzy and stumbled forward. He vaguely wondered where he was, vision slightly blurred, when he smelled it.

The scent was faint but definitely there. It smelled like blood, sex, and bile that wasn't his.

The cat demon took a few steps forward, eyes scanning the scenery. They landed on a tree with claws marks before sliding to the vomit and then lastly to disturbed snow.

He knelt by the snow, slowly digging and finding the carcass of an eaten rabbit.

And then it hit him so hard that he almost fell backwards.

He was at the place where Kadell and Moku had sex.

He shook his head wildly, uttering a mantra of "nonono" as he dragged his body backwards. He clamored up and went to the tree with marking, sniffing it and smelling the scent of sex thick there. He collapsed to his knees, a wave of helplessness washing over him, and saw drops of scarlet and could smell the scent of Moku.

Liolyn could help it.

He broke down, everything shattering his restraints.

He cried, clutching the trunk of the tree. It felt like his heart had been ripped out and shredded before his eyes. He felt so betrayed, so alone. He sobbed harder, body racking with the force of it.

He curled up in a ball, trying to calm himself.

He ended up crying himself to sleep, tears freezing on his cheeks and lashes.

Derek's lips tingled, fingers sliding into Moku's thick hair. Even the slightest friction made him want to gasp and rub against something. He never knew lips could be this sensitive and he savored it.

But he instantly knew that this was not a good idea. He had tasted something forbidden and now desired it, earned for it. This was quickly becoming not enough and he hungered for more, had to have it.

He felt hands rise and grip his biceps. They pushed away but Derek wasn't so easily moved. It would take God's power alone to tear him away.

Moku let out an "mmph" and tried to push him away harder.

Only when sharp claws sliced into his arms did Derek finally lift up, staring down at Moku.

CRACK!

Derek yelled as Moku head rammed him hard. He fell back, clutching his face and nose. "FUCK!" He also groaned something that sounded like "I think you broke my nose" but at this point it was hard to tell.

Moku stared down at him, livid. "I would have fucking kneed you if I could move properly! What the hell, Derek?!"

Derek glared up at him, lowering his hands when he realized nothing was broken, just hurt like a bitch. "What do you mean 'what the hell'? I told you! I love you!"

"Oh for fuck's sake." Moku growled, head falling back and hitting the wall. "You don't love me, you idiot. You just want me! Get it right!"

"What? No! I love you!"

Moku glared. "You don't know how to love, Derek. You're too selfish to understand. You like a fight and really don't want to be under Raklyn's control so you see me and how he wants me so you automatically want me too! It's your version of a rebellion and you've always wanted what you can't have! I've accepted it and you should too!"

"That's a lie-" Derek froze, eyes wide. "Did you know?"

Moku let out an exasperated noise. "YEAH! I'm not stupid, Derek, and you weren't exactly subtle either. I've known for a while that you've wanted me with all the stares and how you have me straddle you. Which I always thought was really perverted. I don't think you realized that shivered and... stuff every time."

Derek flushed, starting to curl up on himself. "You knew this whole time?"

Moku closed his eyes, suddenly very exhausted. "Yeah."

And then he got mad. "YOU KNEW?! All this time I thought you were just dense and-and if I knew you knew then I would have done something and... YOU KNEW?"

Moku also knew they weren't getting anywhere with this. "Look, Derek. You may think you're in love but you're not. The moment I let you have me you're going to throw me to the side and look for another challenge. And, personally, I don't want to be thrown away again." He hugged himself, looking away as the hole Kadell ripped out stung. "Not again."

Derek looked up at him, pushing away the surprise of finding out that Moku knew about his affections and said nothing about it. He stood, running his hand through Moku's hair again. "What happened? Why won't you tell me?"

Moku flinched away from his touch. "You don't really care."

"Stop saying that! I do care! That's why I'm asking!" Derek tried to control his anger. "Please?"

Moku hesitated before shaking his head negatively. "I can't."

Derek clenched his teeth, eyes closing tightly, as he tried to remain in control. He was trying really hard too but it was becoming too much. He made a weak noise as he fell to his knees. He wrapped his arms around Moku's waist and buried his face into his stomach. He whimpered. "Please?"

Again, the boy hesitated, fear gripping him. "I..." Gira's words echoed in his head. "I can't... You'll... I can't."

"I won't do anything. I swear."

"You won't tell anyone?"

"Not unless you want me to."

Moku bit his lip, thinking hard. He whined, covering his face with his hands. "I can't!"

Derek stood, hugging the boy. Moku gripped his shirt, tears slipping from his eyes. He pressed his forehead against Derek's shoulder and breathed heavily to try to calm himself.

"Everything will be okay." Derek whispered. "I'll make sure nothing will happen to you."

Moku took in a few more shuttering breaths before saying quietly. "I had sex with Kadell."

Kadell groaned, regaining consciousness slowly. His head throbbed and his brain felt too big for his skull. He rubbed the back of his head and felt a large bump.

And then he remembered what happened.

"That stupid cat!"

He hissed in breath and whimpered as his head throbbed extra hard. He staggered over to the medicine that Gira brought him, looking for the pain killers.

"I'll fucking kill him..."

"I'LL FUCKING KILL HIM!" Derek roared, ripping out of Moku's hold.

Moku looked frantic, grabbing onto Derek's arm. "No! Derek! You said you wouldn't do anything! You promised!"

Derek's claws flexed completely and his whole body trembled with suppressed rage. He growled, snarled, eyes flashing white.

"DAMN IT!"

Moku almost screamed as he whipped around and punched the wall by the boy's head. Moku trembled, eyes wide as he stared at Derek's bowed head.

"Damn it..."

Derek's fist slipped away and he fell forward to rest his head on Moku's shoulder. "It's not fair..." He whimpered. "This sucks so much... I just want to kill him..."

The white haired boy thought Derek was crying but he knew that could never happen. He slid one hand into sliver tipped tresses and pet. He didn't know what else to do. He thought about apologizing but he had nothing to apologizing about. But it just seemed like the right thing to do.

"I'm sorry."

Silver eyes opened to stare at Moku's shirt. "I hate him." His arm wrapped around Moku's waist as he hugged him. "Hate him."

Everything was tinted red as the flames outside the tent shone through the white fabric, casting shadows over everything.

Liolyn trembled, tears falling from wide eyes. Small hands clawed up a large arm, choking as the hand increased pressure on his throat. He whimpered as he stared at the glimmering claws of the Wolf Demon as they flexed, poised to strike.

The once comforting sheets of his mother's bed now seemed to suck him in, suffocate him as he was pinned to it. He struggled again but the man was too strong. He couldn't see his face but those glinting claws and that strong hand wrapped around his throat will haunt for the rest of his life. He could hear the man panting, breathing heavily.

The poised arm rose a little more and Liolyn shut his eyes tightly, choking out a sob.

"GET AWAY FROM MY SON!"

The wolf demon whipped around and roared, pushing off of Liolyn.

The cat demon watched as his mother leapt into the air, glowing in a halo of white. She roared, striking the Wolf Demon. The battle was vicious, blood spraying and splattering the tent's walls. Furniture shattered, cloth ripping.

The Tigress was winning, she always won. She was otherworldly, a creature that was more powerful than the rest. Nothing could beat her, not even the Fang.

The Wolf Demon was falling back, bleeding heavily and coughing up blood. He crashed to the floor from a well placed kick from the Tigress and lay on his back.

The Tigress leapt into the air once again, flashing claws flexing.

It all happened so fast that Liolyn didn't even see it completely.

The Wolf Demon grabbed a spear that lay beside him and wrenched it up. The Tigress, his mother, the only thing he cared about, landed on it, sliding down the long shaft.

She coughed up blood, eyes wide with surprise. Her body convulsed, hair cascading over her face and blocking it from view. Clawed hands lowered to grip the rod, breathing strained.

She coughed again, blood flowing from her lips. "My son..."

And then she was silent, body going limp.

Liolyn's eyes widened, fear and despair ripping through him. "NOOOOOOOO!"

Liolyn screamed as he woke, scrambling into a sitting position. He panted, eyes wide as he tried to recognize his surroundings.

He sat there frozen with his claws slicing into the tree behind him, breathing heavily and staring at the white snow.

Very slowly realization dawned on him and he groaned, head leaning back and hitting the trunk with a dull thunk. His eyes closed.

"Mahde."

He trembled, trying to hold back tears. Even after nearly two centuries, he still missed her. He could still remember her scent and warmth. Not a day went by without him earning to be held in her arms, to have stories whispered into his ear as he tried to sleep.

He choked on a sob as he realized that he missed Kadell too. It hurt, but he did. He really wanted to be held by the wolf too, having him stroke his hair again. He missed how the other would wake him up with playful bites and teasing fingers. He missed the play in the mornings, the rolling around and pinning. He missed the gentle caresses, the soft kisses.

He loved him so much.

Liolyn curled up in a ball, shivering from the cold. He whimpered, wanting to go back but he was scared. He hit Kadell hard and he wasn't moving when he left. What if he was really mad or, worse, dead?

He gripped his knees tighter as dread weighed heavily on him.

"I really hoped that you wouldn't be here."

Gold eyes snapped opened in shock and disbelief.

"But I guess that's asking for too much."

Liolyn's head whipped up to stare wide eyed at the wolf demon. He saw that Kadell was not happy and even angry.

And he trembled under his silver stare.

Derek raised his head and stared into Moku's blue eyes. He ran a hand through Moku's hair as he ran his tongue over his lips to wet them nervously. He leaned forward to kiss the other but his lips slid passed Moku's cheek as the boy looked away.

"What are you doing?"

Derek growled. "I was going to kiss you but that didn't work out as I had planned."

A vein in Moku's temple pulsed. "And what made you think I wanted to be kissed by you?"

Derek's brows drew together in confusion. "What?"

"Did it look like I was asking to be kissed or something? Was there a slightest hint in this-" He waved his hand in front of his face in indication. "-that said 'kiss me, Derek'?"

"Err..."

Moku sighed exasperatedly. He was so glad he wasn't spoiled like Derek. "Let's try this again. Why were going to kiss me?"

Derek went to run his hand through the boy's hair again but his hand was slapped away. He growled again, starting to get irritated. "Huh, let's think. Hmm. Could it be choice A: I really like kissing you or choice B: I love you and want to kiss you. Take your pick."

Moku crossed his arms over his chest and glared defiantly up at the taller wolf. "Tell me, Derek, did you ever once consider my feelings?"

Derek opened his mouth to respond but the words got caught in his throat.

"That's what I thought."

Derek glared at Moku and Moku glared back with equal annoyance. Things only ever came easy with the boy when he was trembling in fear. "Fine." Derek ground out. "Moku?"

"Yes, Derek?"

The falsely chipper voice only made him even more frustrated. "I love you."

"Really."

Derek was clenching his fists again. "How do you feel about me?"

Moku blew stray hairs out of is eyes before answering happily. "You're my friend and will always be border lining that."

Derek froze, eyes widening before his mouth dropped open slightly. "What?"

Moku sighed, eyes closing. "Derek... Have you ever given me a reason to love you in a romantic way? You've been so mean to me for these past six or so years that I've come to fear you! You yell at me, mock me, and beat me all the time! If I wanted to be in a relationship with someone like that then I would have bent over for Raklyn years ago!" Moku mumbled. "That's why I say you're like him. You only treat me decently when you want something from me."

Derek mouth opened and closed a few times as if he was a fish out of water before making a weird squeaking noise as he tried to say several things at once. "Ya-ks-kn-mnnnng." Derek clamped his mouth shut and growled. "Fine. Okay. Whatever. So I haven't been treating you decently in these past few years. Do you know why?"

Moku shook his head negatively.

"Because about three years ago I had a wet dream about you, okay? It freaked me out so badly that I couldn't see you for a week and when I finally did-"

"You beat me up." Moku stared at him wide eyed. "I couldn't move. Kadell pried you off of me." He suddenly flushed with rage. "YOU BROKE TWO RIBS AND MY ARM BECAUSE OF A WET DREAM?!"

Derek flinched back about two inches. "Maybe?"

Moku stared at him in utter disbelief. "That rib almost punctured a lung, Derek!"

"I know."

"I could have died!"

"But you didn't! That's the good thing, right? Right... What? Hey, your eye is twitching... You look like your going to kill me. Are you? Moku? Please blink."

Moku roared, punching Derek hard before ramming his knee up. Derek crumbled and went down, his scream choked and eyes crossing. Moku roared in pain as the rips in his passage made themselves painfully known and toppled over him. They landed in a pile, Derek curled up on his side, cupping himself and he whimpered loudly, and Moku sprawled on top of him, panting angrily.

"So worth it..." Moku growled. "So-fucking-worth it. Feel so happy even though I'm sure I ripped myself open again."

Derek squeaked, biting the furs in hope that it would make the pain go away.

Moku snarled. "I hope it causes testicular trauma or whatever the fuck it is called that means you're sterile!"

Derek growled deeply. "What the fuck?"

Rage filled blue eyes shot to him. "YOU DESERVED IT! Do you know how many times you've kicked me there?"

"M-"

"Seven! Seven, Derek, seven!" Moku slammed his fist into the furs. "You have no idea what I went through after that! I thought that it was my fault! That I did something!" He beat again. "But it wasn't! It was you and your stupid subconscious or whatever! It was you... and you made me feel guilty and scared..."

Derek looked at what he could see of the boy. "Are you crying?"

"NO! I'M PISSED!"

But the boy's voice was slightly strained. "Moku... I was confused. I didn't understand. I started to yearn for you and I didn't understand why. Those feelings confused me."

"Derek... did you beat me every time you had a dream about me?"

Derek paused, not wanting to answer.

"That's what I thought."

Grey eyes closed. "I'm sorry."

Moku stared at the individual hairs of the pelts. "Did you know what happened around the same time you started having dreams and beating me?"

Derek stared at him. "What?"

"Raklyn started to molest me."

Derek's jaw dropped open. He tried to speak but he couldn't.

"I thought you were beating me because I was dirty, unclean. I thought you beat me because you could sense that I was... I don't know. Disgusting. I thought you thought I was disgusting."

Derek tried to keep calm, to keep from yelling or marching out and killing his grandfather. "Is that... is that why you started to get distant?"

Moku nodded. "I thought you rejected me and I thought I was too unclean to be your friend. And every time you beat me up the more and more it seemed real. That's also when I started to love Kadell. He would find me and clean me up. He was really kind to me and I think he knew what Raklyn was doing but he never brought it up."

The mention of Kadell caused his anger to flare but he forced it down, trying to get his point across. "When you started to hang around Kadell more and more I got really lonely and jealous. I wanted you to hang around me like that, to smile and laugh. When I first taunted you about it and said that you were a... you know..."

"A simpering whore in heat that would spread my legs for anyone or was it a dirty, filthy fag that wanted Kadell to fuck me hard? Oh wait... it was both."

There was something acid in Moku's words that made Derek feel ashamed. "When you blushed something inside me snapped."

"You beat me until I was unconscious. Ethan said it took four of the hunters to pry you off me."

Derek closed his eyes. "I realized that I had feelings for you. Did you notice that I stopped doing that?"

Moku muttered. "You still beat me just not as viciously."

Grey eyes shut tightly in shame. "I'm sorry I beat you. I'm sorry that I'm stupid and dense and jealous and all those other things you call me." The full blood bit his lips before saying softly. "I know I don't deserve you after all the things I've done but could I have a second chance?"

Moku snorted. "Second? I think you somewhere in the hundreds now."

He smiled weakly. "No, more like the thousands." Derek swallowed hard. "I know you don't believe me when I say that I love you but I still think and know I do. So... please? What do I have to do to redeem myself?"

Moku gripped the blankets. "Well, you're going have to court me."

"Done!"

"But you can't do that until you prove to me that you're not after me because others want me and I don't want you."

Derek felt his rising hope falter but still continued to skyrocket. "What do I have to do?"

"First, you have to stop hitting me all together. Nothing. You understand? No hitting."

"Okay."

"The moment you hit me is the moment that this is done and I will not come back. Understand?"

"Yes."

"You also have to stop saying things that will purposefully hurt me. Okay? I won't come back after that either."

"... Can I have three chances on that? Old habits are hard to break."

Moku thought about it. "Fine but you don't get three chances on the hitting!"

"Okay. Got it. No hitting or mocking."

"And-"

"There's more?"

"And you have to prove to me that you're for real."

"Isn't that what I'm already doing?"

"What I mean is that you have to do something big, something I'm not asking you to do. Prove to me that you care and love me. Got that?"

"... Okay."

"And that does not mean kicking Kadell's ass!"

"Damn."

Moku smiled. "I know. Tempting, isn't it?"

Derek smiled, pain just a distant throb now. "What? The too hard fuck made you hate him? Good. More chances for me."

Moku's smile had a hint of sadness. "I don't think he thought I was a virgin. That's why he didn't prep me. But what makes me mad is that he thought..." He realized that if he told Derek about the whole payment thing that the full blood would probably be set off into another murderous rage. "Never mind. It doesn't matter anymore. I have to focus on you now."

Derek cocked his head to one side. "I don't know if that's good or not but I'll take what I can get." His eyes wondered over Moku's body. "Do you want me to put something one your... um... cuts?"

Moku lightly blushed. "No... Gira gave me something for it but I'm not going to use it. I want to remember the pain so I won't do something so stupid again."

Derek reached out and ran a hand over Moku's luscious ass. "Too bad. I was hoping to get a look."

Moku slapped his hand away, flushing deeply. "Did I mention that you're not allowed to kiss and slash or grope me in anyway before I give you the okay for the courting?"

"What?! That's unfair!"

"Take it or leave it."

Derek sulked. "Cock tease."

"Perverted jerk off."

Kadell narrowed his eyes at the cat demon, not understanding the sudden terror he saw in those golden depths. He hadn't done anything-- yet­-- so he didn't know where the cat was getting this from.

"Liolyn?"

His eyes caught the sudden coiling in the cat's muscles, the slight movement downward. As if in slow motion he saw Liolyn push off the ground in a mad leap to the side.

"NO!"

Kadell had learned in the war how to read a cat's take off. It happened so quickly that normal creature's couldn't pick up on it. They will jump to the side, judge if you're going to follow before either sprinting away or leaping up into the trees where you had a good chance of loosing them.

And Liolyn did just that.

His feet skidded into the snow before darting up onto a branches but Kadell was on an adjacent one already. Silver eyes watched as the cat demon sprinted to the very edge, the branch bending with his weight, before launching himself into the air with unparallel speed.

Pupils dilated as the rush of the hunt swept over him. He watched with unblinking eyes as he saw flashes of movement, tree branches swaying with a disturbance. His nostrils flared as he picked up on Liolyn's scent, thick with fear that all prey had.

Kadell cut across trees, reading the cat's frantic movements.

He cut Liolyn off and the cat yelped in surprise before taking a ninety degree angle, dodging Kadell's swiping hand.

He dropped lower before skipping across two trees and launching himself up but Kadell had chased the cat too many times to fall for that trick and was already there to meet him.

Liolyn hissed madly, colliding with the wolf and using him as a spring board to leap over and land on the ground.

Kadell was still recovering when he heard the crash.

He whipped around, eyes searching and found ice shattered after being weakening by the rushing stream below it.

He didn't see Liolyn.

"LIO!"

Derek smiled at the sleep wolf in his arms, kissing his forehead. Moku made a sleepy groan and snuggled deeper into his hold.

Derek whispered. "I won't let anything happen to you. Ever. I'll keep you safe."

Water was rushing, spinning him and throwing him into waves of vertigo. He chocked on freezing water, feeling it almost slice down his throat. It felt like a thousand daggers pierced at his skin as he tumbled with the fast current.

He felt a rush of relief as the rushing water ended and he emptied out in what he assumed was a lake. He felt his body floating upward and kicked to swim with it.

Liolyn place his hands on the ice surface before punching it hard.

His scream of pain was only bubbles.

He coughed as water entered his lungs and he looked up at the pale blue ice before punching it again.

The cat demon punched again but only ended up forcing himself downward. He latched onto the solid water and punched again and again before clawing desperately at it.

Sharp nails sliced into the stone like ice and he still felt pressure on them, meaning that they didn't reach the surface.

Liolyn started to panic and punched the ice as hard as he could but only ended up splitting his knuckles. He kicked and clawed until his lungs felt like they were going to explode from lack of oxygen.

In the last moments of desperation he sucked on the ice for air and punched it before his vision began to blur and he saw black spots. His muscles relaxed as his body moved with the current, beginning to sink down.

With the last few seconds he had left before everything went black, his mind whispered one thing.

Kadell...